HIIIIIIII!!! i had a really cool time today! it was just soooooo fun! okay, it wasn't like, GREAT, but i still had a nice time.
met fana first, at rgs, and got my yearbook, which is, btw, no longer a cause of excitement. but anyway i'm quite satisfied with the range of pictures of me in the book. heh. then.. we went to eat at nyonya's wok, which is really not bad after all. then.. went to yio chu kang--touch rug nationals! it was so cool! it was all noisy and colourful, with like, m1 balloons everywhere. and people milling about.. and screaming and running and stuff. it was like some sort of YOUNG family day.. well, 90% of the people there were under 25, so yah. and the cool part was like, when we first stepped in, this cute guy like, handed me an icecream. haha. yeah. that was a nice entrance to make. then there was this nick-like guy, with the same sort of kemek face and floppy hair.. from ac.. his name is mark or smthg, apparently. oohyah and alot of really cool viks.. including this one from pj.. who has a really cute nose.. which, according to fana, is "bulbous". don't worry, i attempted to kill her after that. his fren is cool too. then.. ohyah sya's fren was there. i din know the guys wld be there ah. so when i saw badak i immediately started looking around for sya's fren. and don't worry, he wasn't blind, fortunately [for him]. saw daph also.. anyway it was really fun ah.. there was this particular game--jj vs nyj, girls.. it was soooooooo cool, cos they got like 7 whatevers [? sorry i dunno what u call them].. the last one was this interception summore.. she ran like, 90% of the pitch!!! with the nyj ppl in hot pursuit ah.. but she somehow broke away.. that was my favourite, it was just so cool.. that makes it like, 1 touchdown [?] per minute! ohyah by "they", i mean jj. the rj guys' games were.. funny.. it's like, when they touch, somehow they can knock the person over.. but interceptions are cooler with guys.. so it was really fun to watch. i like to watch only. since i suck. hmm.. yah. there were also all these small little boys from sec skls.. haha. so cute to watch them running around and passing and stuff.. really, it was just a huge rugby carnival.. and i'm so glad i went.. only horrible part about it was that it was frickin' hot! and no refreshments besides icecream [which the guy wanted to dispense with as quickly as possible] and 100-pluses.. had a pepsi twist which probably literally has a twist of lemon only. couldn't taste anything BUT pepsi.
ohyah fana lent me her pink baju punjabi! it rox! itz abit tight, but i still love it.. itz really nice.. just hope i dun look extra walking around all day in it, since i'm too malas to bring skl uni to change into. please. dun make my bag any heavier than it is.

'sup y'all! acherli i'm mildly pissed cos i've forgotten half of the cool things i've wanted to say since wednesday. so i'll be in the bulleted numbered mode again, to minimise that damage. okay here goes.
wednesday.
1. reached home soopa early [that was cool]. bummed around abit, ate alot and went to sleep. had a horrible/wonderful dream which left me feeling unsettled, as most dreams do. this one was about mocha. eeeuurgh. freaky!
thursday.
1. the journey to skl was fun.. got sum cute ppl.. this guy called jordan lim.. sum army officer ah. pls note, army OFFICER. not army boy. ohyah and that really cute vik frm ac.. woohoo! i love those reflective surfaces of mrt windows.. got an excellent view. until this aesthetically unpleasing makhluk decided to stand right in my line of vision. for the entire ride! i wanted to shoot him!
2. got bored [and extremely pissed] in chem lec. hello! iz he socially deficient? seriously. thatz just plain RUDE. i hope he never gets married. plus, i hope sum person hez in love with rejects him. cruelly. as cruelly as he sindired us. then he'll know how it feels. stupidstupidstupid. anyway i was just glancing around and caught sight of sluardalam. so i started drawing one on my notes. and started laughing. lyke siao. and continued laughing all throughout the day.
3. finished consolidated timetable during econs lec. outlook is not very good. darn.
4. apparently frappe was at surau again. next week, no pe for me! sorry, udu.
5. but don't worry, udu, i did enjoy soccer! it was damn fun! only the drills, though. i only enjoy drills. hehe. like damn fun man.. i lurrrrrvvvvvveeeeee stopping the ball. itz much easier than kicking it. ha. and i lurrrrrrvvvvvvveeee having latter around to watch. aiyah i juz lurve having stuff to look at..
today.
1. took the late train, cos filza sed she'd be early. [ain's train mechanics--extremely complicated, requires at least a day to understand, so it's easier not to try at all.] den met nydia at bus stop. diden know she takes the bus. latte was on it! woohoo! i got a great unobstructed view. yeah! and ili's fren, who saw me and waved. heh.
2. oh econs tut was damn embarrassing! i was like, waiting for the bell to ring. and then it rang. of cos we still had 20 minutes to go. but frappe was done, as the world knows, so i like, angled myself, and i was all set ah, for him to pass by. and after a few false alarms and about a century, he did. then i heard zhihan call my name [why??].. and anyway frappe passed without looking, and then i thot it was over, then he backtracked! and the people behind me were all looking at me, and i was just fainting on ili. arrrggghhh.. i know i do embarrassing things all the time, but that was just damn.. aaahhh.. it was just abit off.
3. ohyah another cool econs tut incident. i was collecting chem practs.. and i had most of them except pat's jessie's yu-hsin's and sum other ppl's arh. so i turned around to the row behind me [which consisted entirely of guys] and asked in general, "does anyone have pat's..?" and trailed off, cos i forgot what i was asking for. then julian looked extremely shocked and sed, "HUH?" and i was thinking to myself, "what huh?" then i turned back to my seat and mellie told me, "i thot u were asking 'does anyone have pads?' " and i started laughing, as expected.
4. pe was fun as usual. we played captain's ball. i'm a lousy captain, but highlight of the game: ain scores a goal! woohoo! haha. hey itz an achievement, considering we were playing with a FREAKIN' basketball! everyone knows my nose-being-flattened-by-a-bball-in-PRIMARYONE story. so yeah, i'm still skared of the stupid bball.
5. only sya's fren was in skl today. i guess ili's n my frens were busy cleaning that wonderful vik masjid or making bubur there or slaughtering sheep or smthg. anyway we talked to denise for awhile, and then had this cool impromptu mldcs meeting.. which was fun and funny and all that stuff.
okay iz that all? it betta be. i forgot everything else already. cya!

heyya! better be organised today, gotta rush off homeworking in half an hour.
1. gatal�ly decided to take the late train today. spent the entire ride panicking silently about being late. i wasn't late, after all. it was mebbe about 7.20++. still alot of ppl milling around. spent a less agonising period waiting for the bus. cos this time i realised i wasn't likely to be late. [i seriously have some sort of psychological late-phobia problem, among others.] i was just thinking i wasted time and brain cells worrying, but i changed my stand on that!
2. malay class. my hopes that cikgu fadilah wouldn't be around again so we could share the misery with 3B were unfounded. so i found myself sitting there with ili, getting a ceramah. which was pretty informative, really, and not boring at all. this was one of the better malay lessons. except i felt stupid cos i diden know ANYTHING of what he was telling us. of course our frens passed, and we were ready. i was positioned comfortably on my chair and everything.. they even made things easier by passing as a nice stack. haha. a stack of frens. sounds cool. and making lotsa noise too! sometimes i'm glad i get out of bed in the morning.
3. 5 minutes to go before maths lec and i realise i need to photostat chem tutorial from ili. anyway i have nothing more to lose since my friend already went upstairs. i thot i'd just put us on the same level by going to the photocopy shop. nothing more than that! so i spent a good 2 minutes standing at this retarded machine which was "warming up". i gave up and switched machines, and i was done. it was pretty fun. but i wish i diden hafta waste so much paper. den.. i was just pushing the door open when i caught a glimpse of this person outside and i instantly registered him a toot classmate. then i thot i was being stupid. then suddenly i was looking at my fren.
4. decided, after bio, to sorta make a new timetable by compiling a few timetables together. diden work out that well. but i shd have a perfect consolidated timetable within one month. and itz fun to make, too!
5. took the bus home. had a really good sleep in 105! dunno why. mebbe i was too exhausted. but somehow cldn't sleep in 53. ah whatever.
that shd be all. byez~

heyy! guess what? i got a C for chem! grades now stand at ABBCD.. can't form a word, but i'm not complaining! heheh. so.. even if i fail bio, i haf a pretty impressive [by MY standards] common test scorecard anyway. sorry to boast, but i'm really proud of myself. of course, itz not ALL my doing. i really don't believe so. for the entire month of june i was praying to "do well for common tests".. now, even if i fail bio, i think my prayers have been answered. again. my prayers were answered when i got 6 points... and now they're answered again! itz just so... so great.. i mean, even if all else is lost, including myself [which is a real possibility right now], i can always count on prayer, huh? i never thought finding direction was like this. but i think itz still really hard. really hard. but i think thatz what makes life worth living. trying and seeing if the try was good enough.
anyway my i-thot-was-out-of-point essay on the influence of music wasn't out of point after all! thank you, gp video and eminem.. i got 33! thatz a heeeeeuuuuuuugggeeeeee improvement over my 27 out of 50 [at best] essay marks. but i screwed up paper 2 as usual so i got a b4 in the end. but hey! i think itz still excellent. sorry if i appear to have low standards, but at least i'm satisfied with myself.. and you get what you work for.. which i did.
goodnight. [kristin kreuk roxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!]

ohyah today i realised even more, what a shitass i was in econs yest.. and what a shitass i AM when it comes to mc. so.. yah. guess i haf to buck up. and.. the pasir ris incident.. i feel so calm and unruffled today, itz like it never happened! so.. yeah, thanks, God..!

i cut my hair today! i think it looks good! really! but itz just a really big change from the old hair. she hacked off 3 inches of my lovely hair!!! it was pretty sad watching the locks of hair fall down to my lap. but i think the new hair looks good lar.. itz in a bouncy stage now so.. yah.. kwite fun.. i realised that every time i go for a haircut, i never know what itz gonna turn out to be. thatz cos i dunno what i want my hair to look like, so i dun really give the hairdresser specific instructions. and they end up cutting my hair according to my mom's, my sister's or their own preferences.. so.. yah.. itz kind of a surprise thing. but this time itz a pleasant surprise, i really like it lotz.. my only gripe? i'll need loads of pins to secure the falling fringe when i try to french braid my hair.. but thatz all larh..

chalte chalte! itz tearing my heart out!!!!!!!!!!

ohhhhhhhhhh! they're showing mohabbatein!!! on tvri! or rcti! or whatever it is!!!!!!!

SO many things happened today. i'm still reeling. but i'm glad i still kept the faith. how important faith is at times of need. anyway. i just remembered how weird it is that when i get angry at someone, i'm totally livid, but all the person has to do is say sorry and somehow the anger evaporates into embarrassment. i dunno, i guess i'm just weird like that.
i was a real shite in econs just now. i'm sorry, but i'm really a horrible person at heart. so. yah. i guess it just came out today. i can't understand why she treats us like little kids. itz really not the kind of teaching style we enjoy or benefit from. she really reminds me of umbridge. i knew at one point when i was reading the order of the phoenix that hogwarts life was somehow fusing with my own. but i guess itz going abit too far when i see a teacher in my own life as umbridge. i really hope i'm somehow hallucinating. anyway, i refuse to go into details of what she does, cos it would probably crash the entire internet with its sheer volume. but i was a total attituda [read: person with an attitude problem]. i can't believe myself. but that's not to say i regret being an attituda. i just.. i always looked down on those sorta people and suddenly i'm one myself? itz pretty skary, itz like losing myself all over again. every 5 minutes she was telling us, "jot down these notes.." which was otherwise unnecessary cos everyone else was feverishly copying. yes, everyone ELSE. yes, OTHERWISE unnecessary. i was the attituda who simply sat and there and refused to take down notes and ignored her completely. and playing with my bloat ball. and making faces. and sitting there looking out of both sets of windows, instead of at her. and openly defying what she sed. ohmigod. i'm horrible! i hate myself! but i don't love her either! i dunno how i'm going to survive further econs lessons! i must not be an attituda again! why am i such a bitch? ohnooooo... i'm a freakin' rebel! i'm losing myself again! i detest people like that!!! how could i be one myself? i'm really skared. really confused.
oh den somewhere in the middle of econs, frappe and coffee walked past arh. and they were, um, looking at us. [i already cued sya to look out the window cos they just finished class then..] yah. and. then frappe sed smthg to coffee. and then they went up the stairs. and while going up the stairs, coffee turned to look at us. it might be concerning the you-know-what. they may know!!! or suspect, at least. how??!?!? acherli itz not such a bad thing cos it wasn't a bad thing we did. so yah. itz just.. unreactable to, thatz all.
i surprised myself again today, pleasantly this time, when i voluntarily decided to join them for captain's ball after non-exertion pe. it was fun! and tiring! but fulfilling! no, really! i had alot of fun! it was munyuk pat daph gill jessie ili yanling and me, and later julian and jiahan joined us. woohoo! it was really fun. but the consequences.. i dunno if it was all that worth it after all.
decided to take the train home cos i wanted to walk to mrt with pat gill and yanling. so. i took the train. nice lim, who got in at tm, got off at tampines. it was raining buckets! really! [359 was at a traffic light, and i was next to the window, and i was looking at the window, water was just FLOWING down, not spattering the window, as if someone was slowly pouring a giant bucket of water over the bus. it was cool. cos the window was clear ah, can see outside. saw a cute vik running in the rain. heh. ok enuff digressing.] so i was listening to my coffeehouse compilation and just having fun walking under the shelter, maneuvering [sp?] myself around the people walking past. and then towards the end of the shelter, i noticed this group of people. relatively short ah. and i was like, "hey, that one looks like matlim!" but with slightly longer hair and who knows if i can trust my judgement since it has been a couple of years since i last saw matlim. anyway. yah thatz it. further details are not for public viewing.
and i just threw a tantrum. i swear i'm losing myself. and if were not for prayer, i would have completely slipped away a long time ago. OHNO! i'm turning into harry [potter]!
oh and to my lovely door, sorry for slamming you. i love you soooooo much. itz just that i forgot that in the face of rage. please forgive me, and continue to serve me as well as you have done thus far. and i will treat you with kid gloves. i'm really sorry k?
pray for me, y'all.

today we played soccer during pe. it was so farnn!!! seriously. or mebbe that was mostly due to the fact that i was the goalie. wahaha. but it was fun ah, i loved the drills and the passing practices and stuff. it was really cool but still damn tiring even though i wasn't running up and down the field. and i like to cool down in the toilet afterwards. itz kwite satisfying. haha.
oh. latte's hair is growing [literally n figuratively] worse. it really does look like a pillow attached to his head. haha. oh and apparently frappe decided to pray today. sheesh! takpe. kalau itz not meant to be, i shall not fight fate.
anyway i'm being really merepek today, so.. bye. ohyah there was this really cute and EXTREMELY tanned ac guy in 53.. wow! seriously! hez sooooooo tanned! but not black! but tanned!
ohyah i realised in MC's civics class that i'm really extremely superficial. talldarkhandsome and sweet? haha. as if! dream on, ain.

i'm losing my mind, i really am. see.. i was going home just now.. and i saw infront of me this group of people. for 5 glorious seconds i thot one of them was latte. i swear, i saw latte, with floppy hair and lanky build and funny walk and all! but u noe wat? it wasn't! it wasn't him! it was like, one of sluardalam's classmates.. it was just a whole group of sluardalam and his classmates.. no latte! no nothing! and there i was, panicking cos i thot latte somehow vaporised when i wasn't looking.. so yeah, that kinda confirmed to me that i was losing my mind.
btw, mrs chee, remember you said, "you don't miss what you don't have.." or never had.. ? well, i beg to differ. just because you haven't had something, you can still miss it. yeah, you don't know exactly what constitutes whatever that something is, but you do have some kind of idea, whether itz mostly supplied by your imagination or by others' information. but because you can acherli visualise the something, itz very possible to miss it ah. the only difference is maybe for these people, you don't miss the something as much as someone who once had it. you either miss it more or less. but you can miss it, nevertheless.
i'm sorry. i'm rambling. but i believe i'm right.

heyya! went for class outing today, against my better judgement. but guess what? it was fun fun fun!!! well.. we went for lunch first.. at breeks.. i was freaking full.. had an iced hazelnut latte.. just cos i was thinking of the coffees.. then we went to swensen's at crown prince for ice cream. den.. ohyah met about a thousand people! ermm.. after swensen's we--not, not WE, THEY--decided to split up.. so the guys went LANning [whateverr.] and us gerls [mellie gill me munyuk jessie pat] went to cine, where i saw zac and sed hi to wei ke [yipes i dun think she even remembers me!].. and then we went to annex.. ALOT OF LIMS ALOT OF LIMS! okay.. den taka.. in the middle of the road i met sadaf.. diden see shan2 cos it WAS the middle of the road, but apparently she was there too. ohyah saw peiying ard crown prince.. can't remember anyone else.. OOHYAH.. i was waiting outside this weirdish skary piercing-and-tattoo place.. and then i saw fathrul.. so i called out to him.. he looks even better now, if thatz possible. so i was wondering why i diden notice loong before pri 6.. den i realised it wouldn't have made much difference, would it? anyway hez in ngee ann now, doing mass comm.. for info purposes.. den.. ohyah pierced my ears again! so now itz 3+2 holes. i lurve it! i'm having such a great time with multiple holes, now muz get more earrings plak.. yah. so yeah, i had alot of fun today, and i'm glad i listened to amir and went for the class outing.. oh did i mention we saw cup of coffee and her? ee. dun like her. sorry. but i think shez abit extra. as in, extra in general, not extra as his gf. den.. ohyah saw shafa also, for a fleeting moment. sorry my thoughts are abit haphazard today. munyuk mellie gill pat got tattoos.. henna ones. not bad lar, but i wasted kwite alotta money today so i thot i better opt out. ohyah met diyanah with huifang. and trish! and rach and nurse. stupid zhaf i just realised i absentmindedly donated alot of my coins to him. haha. takper, they were just 10-cent coins. i hope. ohyah. i just reminded myself. at swensen's, stupid QT brought up stupid [ok, LOVELY WONDERFUL] orals and my fren and my sitting position. dammit larh! hahah. so everyone else at the table was like, "eh, who are you talking about?" dolmat. nevermind. they forgot about it soon enuff. hahah.
ok thatz it. bye.

"you have beautiful eyes."
tonight is romantic movies night. not consciously, of course. i finally finished d/ling she's all that, after like, a week. and being ol' impatient me, i decided to just start watching it straightaway. aaaarrggghh! itz just so much nicer than bridget jones's.. and much better quality, of course.. this time i decided to get divx, no matter how long it took... and it paid off! i'm never gonna delete this movie, it rox too much. freddie prinze jr looks really good, and i lurve tamara mello and rachael leigh cook.. anyway, yarh. and i'm watching the wedding planner [again!], on sum indonesian channel. reception will suck, but this looks set to be a nice romantic movies night, so who am i to argue with fate?
ok i'm crapping. just need to pee real bad. so. seeya!

hi. itz been like, 3 days since i was last online, and my mailbox is full again. i really appreciate all these entertaining forwards, but seriously. i'm a pack rat, remember? so my room is always messy, not to mention my handphone inbox and my email inboxes. yarh.
anyway, finally finished watching mohabbatein yesterday. itz sooooooo.. well, itz just really nice. one of them reminds me of decaf, another of my fren, and the other is just good-looking on his own. sigh. baba is right about stories based in schools.. they're the best kinds..
well. i've acherli been stalling my goings online, cos i diden really wanna give a blow-by-blow account of my encounter with my fren. haha. so yeah, i'm still not gonna do that now. but yah, orals on friday were fine larh.. stupid moment, though: ili and i were at mac's then sidekick walked past and paused and like, grinned at a person offstage, and ili was grinning at ME, and i was trying not to laugh while shivering lyke siao in mac's.. incidentally, person offstage was decaf.
oh and "fir" wasn't there during my last day at the tuition place.. ohwell. seeing him once should be enough for me larh.. wat to do.. itz not fated, apparently.
till the end of my life, i'll be waiting. waiting.. waiting.. waiting.

ok this is my second real gif, made from scratch. really proud of myself. anyway, today was my last actual studying day at the airport. diden stay long this time--left at 12-plus, cos i was getting really crampy. anyway. den.. ohyah i've started doing something worthwhile with my life. helping out my sister with her tuition. itz not bad lar.. if nothing else, it should help me realise if i DO wanna end up teaching. there's this guy at the jurong west branch.. i was teaching sum gerls sum maths and he walked in ah. he was like, freakin' tall! i swear! and i was like,"omigod firdaus!" but it wasn't, of course. he is probably the same age, though, cos he's retaking o's.. and yah. but he seriously looks like fir! i wanted to die. then he had to write a compo about music and he plunged right into dikir barat, and started talking IN DEPTH, all about it! i was just dying. i mean, hello! firdaus clone! or mebbe itz just my imagination that all these people look like fir. whatever it is, itz freaky!
ohyah speaking of freaky, last last nite i had this horrible dream about baba having a bf who's plump and fair and short, and abit too friendly. and [in the dream] i had the impression he was fairul, so i was like, talking about him to a fren and the fren sed, no thatz not fairul, they broke up a long time ago! thatz another guy! then i was soooo shocked and pissed with the new guy and i was like, slamming him and saying how sorry i felt for fai. watever. stupid dream rite?
oh another one. just last night. involved latte telling me, "acherli, i'm skared of you." and me replying, "please lah, stop lying!" scathingly and watching his face fall.

actual blogging on my head; my heart will be temporarily suspended due to technicalities. blogging should resume by the end of the month.

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