ohyes the pic of the guy there. he had this gorgeous, golden-brown tan.. really nice.. and those are blue reflective shades hez wearing. cute rite? haha.

heyya! itz a great day today. why? cos today i acherli went home from skl feeling happy. and why is that? hahaha. well... itz abit of a long and vague story.
we played floorball for pe again. it was fun! ..as floorball always is. i DO hate tt nyanyi2 guy tho. i think he's just all eksyen and no substance. and he's just seboking around, kalau comel takper, so he shd be shot. mr shah's hair is now sticking to his forehead. klakar sey. it looked betta when it was flopping about.
hm. took the train home. i was sitting there, reading the paper, i think. and then a couple of ppl got in. one of them was ili's "brother". haha. they diden c me at first, so i diden wanna have another sya's fren situation on my hands by calling out to them. so i shut up. then they came and stood infront of me, still not noticing me ah. then they looked at my shoes, and i looked at ili's "brother"'s shoes, and we all looked up. and sed hi. and ili's "brother" was like, "i saw ur shoes first..!" haha. anyway it'll suffice to say tt he's funny and really friendly now.. somehow it wasn't like this 2 years ago, i wonder why. as they left he was like, "so shd we call you kak ain?" hehe. yah tt brings up another point. girls call older gerls "kak". boys don't. neither girls nor boys call older boys "abang". hmm. not tt i want to! but just wondering why.
went to the library. got out 2 more books. oh as i walked into white sands, this... creature in black with the killer from scream head and a skeleton body walked around in what was supposedly a spooky manner. it took me awhile to realise it was cos it was halloween. btw, happy halloween. i lurve halloween. the whole idea of it is cool. too bad itz not a singapore thing. anyway, i won't be all arrogant and say i wasn't skared at all. i wasn't ah, but i was slightly shocked. he was like, THIS close to me, and he just sprung around.. i almost jumped backwards. BUT I DIN. i think they shd haf had more than ONE ghost prowling around. baru ader atmosphere sikit.
speaking of atmosphere, i finished the belut and lumut short saga. i'll end off with that.
Belut dan Lumut bersandiwara/Belut minatkan Lumut pada pandang pertama/Lumut terharu pabila terdengar berita/Mereka berdua bersama setelah sekian lama/Tetapi godaan dan cubaan tetap melanda/Seketul batu putih dilontar ke arah mereka/Belut mengelak, tetapi Lumut ditimpa/Kebahagiaan mereka terancam buat seketika/Namun, kepada kekasihnya Belut tetap percaya/Lalu cinta Lumut kepada Belut semakin membara/Dan Lumut melempar batu itu ke atmosfera.
Tamatlah riwayat Batu: berkecai pecah seribu.
Setelah mengharungi dugaan dunia/Belut dan Lumut tetap setia/Mereka hidup aman bahagia/Bergurau, bermesra, buat selamanya.
amin.

i am sooooooooo sleepy. goodbye, pasir ris library. i'm going home to sleep. sleeping at 11 and waking up at 4 is not really for me. so yah.
AND WHY THE HELL IS OM NOT HERE? THIS IS SOOPA MEAN! I WANT TO DIE NOW! HE SUCKS! [okay he doesn't.] AND SO DOES WHAT'S-HIS-FACE, EX-FREN! AAAARRGGHH. NASEB BAIK ADER SPY AND HIS VOICE. OR I HAVE TOTALLY NOTHING TO LIVE FOR. AT ALL.
i've been really pissy these past 2 days of puase.. i just hate having houseguests over.. not that they're staying over or anything, but they really disrupt my peace sia. but the thing is, like about 5 seconds before they're supposed to leave, i start feeling remorseful and angry with myself. whatever man me..
and pw sucks, once again. my group is not doing anything, once again. i'm bored, once again. and i can't go for a stroll cos there's nothing to look at. atvdgfuiegorhg. okay bye.

itz depression session, so you've been warned. leave or be forced to wallow in my self-pity.
do you think itz fair that you have to watch as the person you like likes a succession of people who are not you? the succession of people being people who have known him for a much shorter time than you? and at times, the succession of people being people who don't like him as much as you do? yet, you have to live with it cos he clearly likes them more than he likes you? itz really damn ouch ar.. and i think itz soooo soooo unfair.. in my better dreams, i imagine doing a thing or two to that succession of people, as shown above *bish!*.
oh forget it. i'm getting disgusted with myself.

hi. basically, i've been too bored and down and tired to do anything much. but at least today we did SOME pw. and tmr i have one more day to psych myself up for skl.. watching my sassy girl now. itz really pissifying in the beginning, all the bullying parts.. but sticking with it to the end pays off.. itz too too sweet..!
well OH was not bad ah, hot and bothery and exciting and fun and tiring and boring and all that. but overall, i'd say i liked it. hmm. highlights: this ac guy who looks great from a distance only, this other guy who was a mixture of many many cute guys, wearing a nice orange-patterned-on-white shirt, a tall, skinny vik from some white-uniform skl who was soopa lawar, dancing, playing congkak, watching some of bonjour and aloha. oh, also, there was this group of guys near the side gate, looking at the ghim moh blocks, and asking each other, "eh, whatz that? hostel ah?" "nolah, really?" "yarh hostel lah!" and i gave them weird looks for about 15 seconds before i told them, "no itz not a hostel--itz just HDB flats.." it was really funny.. there was also this cute pic of adam with a little boy on the cip board. damn adorable!!! hahaha. i also co-tour-guided one group with hana.. it was oklah.. i guess.. but it made me miss ex-fren's performance. i was sooo soo sad!!! i'll hardly get a chance to watch him again now.. haiz. diden really see many malays, and none i diden already know.. i guess they really dun lyke rj.. not tt i blame them or anything..
after that we went for the soccer match. through a stupid means [again], of course. haha. it was pretty cool ah.. but i dun see why vj supposed sat out the good players cos wouldn't it be better to have a real-type match? so rj won, 3-0. the second goal was soooo cool, he like, tore down 70% of the field with the ball and scored in a blink-and-you'll-miss-it-move. really cool. of course, adding to the atmosphere were the ORA 50-somethings who apparently were trying to prove tt they hadn't lost their sense of humour as well as their soccer skills. and sorry, but when i first saw OVA printed on the backs of their jerseys, i kinda thot it had something to do with eggs, and i don't mean the edible kind. anyway great match, and sya's fren was, of course, brill.
had a solitary 17 ride home. it was nice. i was listening to my latest cd and thinking of OM. i am seriously obsessed. oh and spent the whole usable part of yesterday watching lagaan. one of the songs was soooo familiar.. wish i knew where i heard it before. also kept flitting to chalte chalte, but i dunno how it ended. kinda lost track of time somewhere in the middle of those 4 hours..
ohyes i know ili wanted a commentary on the match or smthg, but thatz abt the best i kan do arh.. tata!

ooh! i've never danced so much before in my life! my legs are seriously falling off! you know how you feel after walking round orchard road on a shopping spree? well add that to barefootedness and multiply it by ten. thatz how i feel. argh i can't think straight. so anyway, if that is really HL guy's name, i hate it! itz so poserrr! ee.
oh i found two lengths of wire just now, so i spent simei to pasir ris shaping one into my name [to become yet another locker accessory] and the 359 ride shaping the other one into OM's name. or at least, 66.7% of his name. wahaha. but it was damn fun. i need to get summore wire. bes sey. it really takes my mind off prevailing worries/events/problems. and there's the plus point of looking soopa creative or smthg. hahaha.
ohyes. HL guy deserves his awards. OM is NOT a boy. he is a man. so there. kecil jgn disangka anak, besar jgn disangka bapa. ahahahaha.
watching rahsia perkahwinan now. itz so realistic sey! sharon rox. khai rox more. [i wrote about the show in my karangan, did u know? hehe.] oh and acherli there was a real-life drama being played out this morning, one floor above my flat. it was like, what, 6 a.m.? i was getting really pissed, it was so noisy. someone was banging on the door nonstop, screaming to be let in, etc. it was really scary. the voices floated down through my front door and the kitchen window, as if they were arguing right across. ee. i was glad to get out of the hse man.
ok dah i'm sleepy. nites.

*penat giler* so this pic should summarise the entire week.

okay. the ain awards.

main awards
most perfect: adam
most missed: samit
most charming: ex-fren
cutest [little boy]: HL guy
cutest [model]: latte
current favourite: OM

subsidiary awards
Toys 'R' Us most boyish award: HL guy
Hrithik Roshan Mr. Bollywood award: samit
Tatty Teddy [Me to You bear] most rabak award: OM
Gatsby nicest hair award: latte
Clarins Men[?] rosiest award: adam

well i finally did it. lyke about 2 days before i was prepared to. haha. well it wasn't as if we were gonna go on wednesday, so itz just as well. i'd just like to thank fana for letting me hold her hand and not making a big deal of me crying. [hey it hurt! and i diden BAWL, just teared.] most of the time i can't feel it there, acherli, which is dangerous.. haha. but sometimes it feels like a permanent piece of snot or smthg. haha. sorry to spoil appetites or anything. anyway none of my family members sed anything, which is acherli normal for them.. haha. i guess they feel as if i reached WEIRD a long time ago and this is acherli a few levels below weird. so.. yah. ohwell. hope most other people have the same non-reaction. haha.
i'm very tired. i think we walked around for hours! well, at least i was wearing shoes. guess what else i bought, btw. this man pendant which i put on my anklet, and THREE pairs of ankle socks!!! one of them is powerpuff, burgundy-purple.. [oh my mom just commented. wahaha. maybe lighting in the hse is bad or smthg.] so i'll probably wear those on open house, to distract myself from ex-fren and his string of gfs.
kissing a fool is soooooooo achingly beautiful.
You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough
To even make a start
You'll never find
Peace of mind
Till you listen to your heart

People
You can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So bye
But please don't take my heart

You are far
I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
to mend my heart
strange that I was wrong enough
to think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
I said you must have been kissing a fool

But remember this
Every other kiss
That you'll ever give
Long as we both live
when you need the hand of another man
one you really can surrender with
I will wait for you
like I always do
there's something there
that can't compare with any other

You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool
ohyeah i gave out awards during the last 5 minutes of econs. tapi cam malas nak type. i'll go on the laptop later larh. taz!~

haiz. itz wat time now, and i have not TOUCHED the econs tys, and now i'm online, typing this instead of doing pw. but nevermind.
anyway yesterday was a horrible mixture of shitty and great. ac open house was oklah.. the face parade was, as always, great. i saw alias and we found another lumut lookalike whom i liked straightaway. hahaha. no cute viks, unfortunately. then we went to citylink mph, where i wanted to die cos i lurvveee books!!! haha. we also did some of those fortunetelling shits.. apparently ili will have no career while my career will involve challenges cos i lurve them. then i went to hilton, where i had to breathe in about 20-30 minutes of secondhand smoke while waiting for my family. can i just say two things: 1. hilton sucks ass. itz definitely not the way i imagined it to be. how can they let people SMOKE indoors? -spitz- 2. the awards thingy was the suckiest, most off thing i've ever attended. photographer who held up the thing like, oh, 2863864 times? cos he had to change film. like, waddehell. and i won't even mention the glitch that involved me. but they were nice enough to hand out awards, so i appreciate that [only].
still, it wasn't a complete loss. i met shafa there. her brother got the award too. and we sat together and caught up on stuff [just barely] and laughed alot, which kinda made everyone look at us. but hey, it was a boring event! alot of cute ppl though. and others were interesting. this girl was in a prom getup which misled me to feel sorry for her at first. but it turned out she was acherli seeking glamour! hello! shez barely 13! pissoff. there was this cute guy who got the o'level award, even before i stepped in, i already noticed him. haha. he has big dyed hair, abit short and his name is ilham. wow. how apt. there was cute a'level award guy who was the son of this guy shafa's mom knew. warhh! unfair! but i soon realised how un-unfair it was when i went out and saw my dad chatting to this guy who had a cute PSLE award son. haha. thatz him in the photo there. he was really cool! checked shirt, finnish hair, and pants tt looked like breeches! even shafa thot he was cute! haha. he seems a little vain, tho. he kept checking himself out in the mirror. wahaha. yaH anyway it was great to see shafa again, especially in the midst of all these strangers and stuff. really helped keep me from going crazy.
btw, geylang is already all decked out for ramadhan and hari raya. i can't wait. but bus services are really giler nak mampoz at night, i was waiting for one hour before a bus came that i could even squeeze into. so yah. i really believe sbs is going downhill. i think that the absence of competition is making it complacent. hmph.
okay i shd be going to sleep now. i had this horrible nightmare about tomorrow's mcq. it suddenly morphed into this mcq+mini-data-response paper which lasted one hour, and halfway thru the data response i realised i had half an hour left, and i still hadn't touched my mcq!!! nightmare!

i'm soooo sleepy. but i'll try and stay awake. chatting to a cute guy now! haha.
i told people bout my sluardalam dream, didn't i? where he was pestering me to tell him what we'd look like if we were together. haha. but i diden mention my frappe@mrtstation dream. first i was at the library, which looked abit like popular plus mph, and i was heading towards the colourful kids' stuff section.. then i saw sya or someone, with a j2 guy ah.. and sya, or whoever it was, sed hi to me, so i sed hi back. and the j2 guy she was with like, did a double-take, and looked really energized to see me, and went into this whole monologue about how he was so glad to see me back, and how was i doing, was i okay, how about promos, what book was i gonna buy, what was i doing in the library cos he didn't normally see me there, and stuff liddat. and i finally escaped, thinking, "since when has he been so happy to see me?" then next thing i knew i was at bv mrt station, upstairs, with latte and decaf. somehow we were like good friends or something, and they were also rgs alumnis.. and we were just sitting there watching the trains go past and talking. then a train stopped and 2 ppl got out and in the middle of talking, i broke off cos the 2 ppl were frappe and cup of coffee. and decaf n latte noticed so they turned around to look and they waved to them ah.. and even though they were already on the escalator, it froze there as they had a short chat with each other. then when they sed bye it started moving again, and frappe waved at me.
yes what a stupid dream, i know. moving on, it was malay today. remember how i sed i wouldn't ever be washing my blouse? fyi, itz still hanging right in front of me right now. haha. yes i am that obsessive. if he knew.. i'm sure he'd totally convert to liking spy or something equally silly. oh and it was raining soopa heavily around 11.15 ah.. and ili n i were standing there waiting for sya when something totally fairytale-like occurred. we were just standing there, on top of the grimy steps, talking bout lumut. then this taxi came [one of the whole fleet that turned up at rj in the course of an hour, i'm sure] and lumut was inside! saw a taxi companion of his with a dark sticking-out-from-the-forehead shadow, and immediately jumped to conclusions: "latte!" the companion moved ever so minutely. and i realised, hey, thatz not hair, thatz a cap bill! [testament to the fact tt latte's hair IS topilike after all.] so i jumped again: "OM!" and whaddaya know, it WAS! and, as i narrated to sya later, the taxi became a carriage, the grimy steps were polished marble, and he was a prince ascending those steps, those really really stare-y eyes underneath the frayed cap that became a crown which got itz shine from him. -sigh-
moving on further, madame butterfly was nice. i truly love her anak, he is too adorable for words. and i have an abundant supply of those, as demonstrated above. haha. i also love the way she looks like she weighs nothing at all when he carries her. and i hate kate.
hm. that should be enuff. i'm hungry. nothing to eat, though. anyway credit for the pic above goes to ili, who was merely an accomplice today, she did NOT agree with our choice, unfortunately. obviously cos he's not her type. so takper. hez still cute. still undecided about his shorts, though. haha. sometimes i love my fone too much. too much.

today was.. okay.. i think my brains evaporated or something somewhere between june and now, though. so i'll get back to studying soon.
i was feeling damn shitty though, on the way home. but then there was this little boy/girl wearing a hoodie, sitting in front of me and looking at me. then he/she smiled. and waved at me and blew kisses and all that. sooo cute! it totally lifted my spirits. and you know how they say that if babies love you, you're attractive? yeah i was totally thinking that. not that i thot i was/am attractive, since babies usually don't like me. but yah. well. nite.

ohyah and acherli the reason i don't have a clippie is cos i diden take any pics today, and i've converted to the beautiful, wireless-interneted, all-portable laptop with the lovely nice-sounding keyboard. =D

skared. i haven't finished studying chem!!! tried doing the friggin papers but i can't!!! it was too hot and too boring and too everything. so i had to stop. i just can't take too much studying, i guess. now would be the perfect time to bising2 at myself for not studying earlier, but what's the point? best i can do now is try to remember all the stuff tt i know and pray that God lets me pass. this is really bye bye chem s. ohwell.
change of topic. i was feeling kinda rotten going home just now. i don't get it. it rains lyke siao, but when it doesn't, itz friggin hot! i can't take heat. i can't. so i was feeling shitty arh. and then i went to the library to study or get new books or both. ended up just getting books cos alot of noisy idiot kids were running around. i do not like noisy idiot kids. i was probably one myself, but i can still not like noisy idiot kids. at least i was cute. haha. sorry. i take tt back. anyway, i ended up taking out THREE more books. in the middle of promos. pandainye. oh whatever. but i started reading one of those books on the way home, and it really helped my put stuff into perspective. namely the factors causing the shittiness. i mean, they seemed so small in comparison to the problems facing the Kurds in the Iraq-Iran war.. [yes the book is about that. it seems really nice so far, itz called kiss the dust by elizabeth laird. remember her? she wrote red sky in the morning.] so.. yah. it made me feel less sorry for myself and all tt stuff.
but it still diden stop me asking stuff of myself. like, what is my aim in life? to build a collection of samit photos? or smthg more than that? and other related questions. ok i shd stop wasting time now. just wanted to prove to myself that reading rocks. now all i have to do is get through this week, then i can pierce my nose. woohoo! cannot wait.
ok at the very least, chem notes will be my bedtime reading for tonite. oh i wrote 2 [non-academic] lines just now: setakat "hi" dan "bye"/setakat senyum dan lambai. and i'll finish it over the rest of the year. yay.

hey dahlings. i feel soopa hardworking today sia! just made a concerted effort to understand ionic equilibria.. haha. now i can find previously-unfindable pH and all that kinda stuff. haha. but i still have about 4 chem topics to go and, erm, ALL the maths topics?!?!
anyway today started out really offly. i sacrificed half my pizza to catch the normal bus to catch the normal train. but the normal bus was late so i missed the normal train. i was soooooo pissed, and i'm sure sluardalam can vouch for me on tt. so basically all i saw was latte. haiz. nvm. did sum studying at mac's, went off at 9.15 to meet fana, was about 100m away from the holland v bridge when i realised i was supposed to be going red house. looked ultra stupid doubling back to the red house bridge. at east sussex lane, 1728364365 idiots doing SEWAGE works were bisinging at me. this asshole went, "good morning! selamat pagi!" i wanted squirt him with my bottle. heLLO! kalau kurus and muda, satu hal ah. but this idiot was fat and how old, and doing sewage works! arse off!
ohyah then the real adventure began. took 156 and met fana, and we got off at bishan. then she decided to articulate the fact tt her wallet was missing. so while she scrabbled around in her bag, i sat there feeling useless and noting the bus plate [1952]. when she finally realised tt it WAS gone, she flirted with ideas of taking a cab to chase the bus, etc etc.. before i reminded her tt she lost her $WALLET$. so we took the next 156 all the way to sengkang. there were these really cute minimats who got in at i'm-not-sure-where, but ttz a picture of my favourite up there.. haha. they were soopa noisy tho, so fana n me we kinda shouting at each other by the time we got off. anyway went to passenger service or whatever it is, which was, btw, conveniently located not 3 steps away from where we alighted. thanks to me, of cos, fana told the guy the bus plate number, and we got in the bus. however, i dunno if itz out of dengki or main2 or smthg, but he diden bother to switch on the lights. don't worry. that was nothing to me. while fana searched high and low in the wrong places, i stuck my hand here and there and found it within 10 seconds. and the case is solved, thanks to ain. =D sorry. i'm not trying to make fana look stupid or smthg, i'm just trying to show how amazing i am. grace under pressure, ttz me. modest too. haha.
went back to bishan, ran, died. i did like, what, 3 rounds? merepek sey. then took 156 [again].. where there was this cute guy with really dyed hair, which was spiked up in a mild porcupine style. wahahaha. took his picture too. yes, voyeur ain strikes again. studied at bk. till 5. not bad ah. like i sed, did alot of ionic today. acherli, did ONLY ionic today. ohwell. at least i'm done with it now. saper suruh skip beribu2 ionic lectures?
so yes, i'm done, and i feel much healthier [haha. still eating like a baby elephant, tho.], and i kan't wait for the aches tmr. haha. byez. i really shd be sleeping now. more adventures coming soon.

homewrecker.

i glanced at the sky, and i saw this huge ball of light, which really gave a me a jolt. then i realised it was the full moon. an exceptionally full moon, in fact. does it have anything to do with the fact tt itz nisfu syaaban? -totally clueless on agama- however, it was really lovely and very huge and extremely radiant. so i took a [really bad] pic of it. well at least you kan see how radiant it is.
i'm damn sleepy, and i have no idea why.
i was super smiley today. felt like it at least. but OM is sooo cute, there's just no other way to react!!! haha. fana finally decided to come over again today, and she saw the ones she wanted to see in order of importance.. it was so cool, like it was planned in advance or something. the moment we walked in, we met OM and his adorable tuala. then we kind of hovered around that area [toilet], and then she saw ex-fren, while i had to be content with hearing his voice. then it was kind of a tie between sya's fren/idiot and ili's. well, ili, fana says you have great taste. haha.
so anyway, all 3 papers today were killers. i just wasn't physically equipped to write and write and write for like, 4 hours, i guess. and the questions are lyke how hard. haiz. plus, halfway thru econs paper, my legs started hurting for mysterious reasons, and then my right hand also started to throb or smthg stupid liddat. eeyer. pissing, i tell ya. i really wanted to die. and i COULDN'T WAIT for them to say, "okay time's up!" the moment they let us off, i just hadta get out of there. it was really really bad! ohman.. shall not think abt it lar.
oh i shall just umumkan my plans for monday. go to bv as usual. sit at bus stop, take a 7.45 bus. study in skl till 9.15. go to red house, take bus to 6th avenue, and meet fana. go to bishan and run. rendam. mandi. study. go home. yay. itz all fana's fault. if not for her and her stupid chu bang, i wouldn't be inclined to go to skl on monday, for the same reason as her too!
dahlah. goodnite all. be safe!

you guys seem to be talking about how sheltered we are. so i'll join in too. went to the doctor today, with my mom. and she was just talking and talking to me. me being a total family antisocialite, sum of the stuff she told me was really shocking. for example, abang oli dyed his sons' hair!!! and suria left him! i'm sorry, but i was really shocked arh. yarh. but i really don't think i'm not that sheltered. or maybe i'm sheltered by a clear plastic sheet. cos i'm not shocked to hear tt malays are going backwards instead of forwards, wad with drugs and premarital sex and tattoos and stuff. thatz cos my family is filled with these kinda people. haha. okay i know itz nothing to laugh about. but yarh. still, what does it matter whether we're sheltered or not? i'm pretty sure the "malay elite" don't personally know runaways and shotgun-weddingers.
ohyah and i also asked my mom why she keeps bisinging at my brother these days. apparently girls call/msg him frequently. alot of them also allegedly like him. well, me being me, i thot it was pretty cool, but i cldn't tell that to my mom. i just sed i saw nothing wrong with that and she sed she wants him to concentrate on his studies. -shrugs- guess i can't argue with that.
talking to my mom tends to make me sad these days. i dunno, i just feel like crying when she tells me all these problems she has with my sister and my brother. and other ppl, of cos. i also find no problem with my sister and her bf, and i haf no idea why relatives are masuk campuring in that matter. but anyway, yah it just made me wanna cry, so to prevent tt i just shut up and continued listening. well at least it gave me a better reason to do soopa well in promos. haha. not that i will.
on a brighter note, i brought up nose-piercing with my mom, and she diden start screaming about body mutilation! so i guess it shd be fine. yup. can't wait! probably in november ah, or december. yayy. please God, let it be as painless as possible.

been surfing barbie.com for the past 2 hours. haha. also branched out to myscene.com and pollypocket.com. barbie is as nice as ever, they have cooler dressup games now.. and itz just soooooooooo fun! created 2 new magazine covers, wld have done more if i weren't so keen to explore the other new stuff. pollypocket is abit sucky tho. mebbe itz too kiddy even for me. they also have too much sound stuff, and my laptop speakers are kinda shot now. but myscene.com totally rocks! i was playing this cool fortunetelling game and asking stuff about my "crush" and they gave satisfactory replies like "he has a crush on you too" but "it's not the right time, ain. wait to hang out with" him! haha. and i just checked my horoscope there and it sez "OK li'l Miss Happiness! You're way too funny--in a good way. That's one of the many things your friends love 'bout you. But shooting off jokes won't cheer up everyone. Sometimes you gotta chill and just be the good listener you are." And apparently, "The Perfect Hottie has to be adventurous and smart, like you." haha. i thot it was just too cool! oh and please remind me to get a myscene doll soon. yay.
had a horrible ex-fren dream. dunno why i wanted to continue sleeping to finish it. it involved him and them and us getting mud baths, then he decided to submerge himself completely in a mud-bath-filled bathtub. and did not come out. i got all panicked and rushed over to him and banged on the bathtub, cos i was skared he was dead [he wasn't]. then i travelled down a curved travellator barefoot cos i wanted to be there for a vote meeting which would decide whether or not he'd win the triwizard cup.
my dreams are weird, just like me.
today was.. really different. but i think it was a nice change. we had breakie at bk, then sya n i went to skl, where i saw OM and impostor, in that order, and took an obs form [after 10 seconds of contemplation]. then back to bk, where we had lunch. and then home. and since then i've been stuck to this lovely wireless-internet-connection laptop.
haha. well back to surfing.

thatz been playing in my head since i did the stupidest thing in my life just now. today seemed to be a day of stupid things acherli. well it was a stupid day. memang padanlah.
chem lec was useless, of cos. forgot what i did then. then watched om handballing b4 another useless hour. then malay, which was not bad, did an express paper 2.. itz really cool the way cikgu zooms through the papers.. then a break which was spent investigating sya's fren's ponning tendencies. then an even more useless maths lec. it wins the most useless period of the day award. then i spent bio break at the GALL doing econs. so tt wasn't useless. but i was kinda fuming for unknown reasons, so i kept on slamming sya's fren, who, btw, appeared not to have let his ass come off the seat since morning. then gp was cancelled [cat chee is soooo nice!!!]. so we went back to gall. and i sat there slamming him summore and watching soccer. ended up watching soccer until 4.15.. haha. apeee je sey.
then. i was gonna take the bus home, when i glanced across the road and saw ex-fren with lumut. so. guess what i did. kaoz.. tt was by far, the stupidest and offest thing i've ever done!!! it diden even help matters! all i did was get to say hi. dah. ttz all.
wasn't a total loss. spent the 50 minutes i saved by taking train instead of bus doing more econs kat bawah block.
interesting point of the day: sya n me predicting us reminiscing next year, about what we were doing this year. haha.

heyya. so anyway, i was just putting on my slippers to go downstairs and study when my fone beeped. it was fana, who wanted to meet at around 1-plus at tampines to study. of cos i sed ok. i mean, i know i study better alone and everything, but itz always nice to meet a friend instead, and try to study. thatz what i think anyway.
so we were at bk, and fana was telling me about her dream, and then she mentioned deedee, and i suddenly felt this compelling need to turn around and look outside, and i was like, eh, is tt deedee? and i looked closer and it was!!! so i told fana and we started like, waving our arms about and mildly screaming, "dee! deedee!" or smthg dumb liddat. due to her blindness, we did that for some time before she finally waved back and came to join us inside. wow it was a whole 410 reunion or smthg to me.. so we talked and studied and all tt and it was really cool, i diden expect all this to happen on a boring old sunday.
on another upside, i finished a whole topic of econs today.. haha.. and did an essay outline. was supposed to do two, but nevermind. decided to give myself a discount. and speaking of discounts, has anyone else seen the 13% price cuts at petrol stations? it is SO econs!!! and there are all these thingies tt totally remind me of econs.. i dunno if itz just me, or maybe everyone else jumped on the economic theory bandwagon too..
well.. i shd go now.. tata!

evening, all! today was a terrific day. really. but itz gonna be a looooong entry cos i'm gonna give a blow-by-blow account of it.. haha. btw i'm watching ali setan now. itz kinda cute and sweet ah, but itz not THAT great, ili!!! i mean, itz still very kekok at some parts.. at this point, do they like each other or not? rather, do they KNOW they like each other?
hm the day proceeded as usual for the morning part.. sat rite across the aisle from OM, who is still cute, and getting cuter. ha. then.. hm. i dun remember, so i guess tt means nothing much.. all the way up till... PE? hehe i watched OM floorball-passing for about 5-10 minutes.. then watched him walk out.. then we had floorball.. which wasn't as action-packed.. the amount of action is damn low now, and decreasing with every lesson. ohwell. at least i diden tire myself out? not sure if ttz a good thing or not. then decided to kill time by watching the class weekly game.. and i was just sitting there with gill when mondo-adorable OM came walking by, alone, with his equally adorable towel.. hehe. he was looking for his frens, who obviously weren't there. so he just ended up walking one big round, and *I* ended up watching him walk the big round. that was dumb. but fun!
anyway then met fana and went to bishan. bishan, where we discovered this pushcart selling hair rubberbands, cekaks in every colour imaginable [better and cooler than mine!], aaaaand... [this is the best, wait for it]...earstuds!!!! the colourful kinds that i wanted to get!!! and alphabets too, lyke i wanted to get!!! so i bought 3 letters and one flower stud. and then i got 4 hair rubberbands too. it cost.. erm.. 7.8 bucks. yes yes i know, wasting money again. i only have so many earholes rite? but i couldn't help it. the letters were too tempting.. haha. anyway then we decided to go bk far east.. and we met fadly awaludin there!!! he's sooo cute! haha. of cos, my fone cam came to the rescue again. wahahha. so anyway after eating we had to go home cos fana had ngaji or smthg ah. and i was supposed to be watching this i-can't-decide-if-itz-good-or-bad movie, so yah.
took the train home cos i was TOO tired. i think smthg is super-wrong with me. i get tired really easily these days. my leg was aching again, after just walking to bishan stadium and back. so yes, i took the train. acherli i wanted to train back to bishan and take 53, but the train was full so decided to go directly home. so.. took the train, got off at raffles place and changed. got a seat at the 2-people-corner when this man got off at city hall, and plopped my ass down without caring who came in. then i happened to look to my right [i was sitting with the glass pane to my right] and i saw this familiar mambo bag with a red wiffle ball hanging on it from a carabina, and i was like, WOH! and scrambled to have a look at his face. [i knew it was HL guy's bag.] malangnya, there was a stupid man leaning on the pane and i couldn't see the guyz face, only the bag. and then the train slowly cleared, and there was a little space where i cld see him. but his back was to me, so ttz all i cld see.. and his hair was very unHL-guy.. then a couple of stops later, i turned to look at him again, and he just turned to look at me at the same time! aaahhh! and it was him! he looked even cuter than i last remembered.. and i almost fainted and buried my face in the new paper again. but i kept on glancing, i couldn't help it! he also cut his hair, and it looks neat and adorable. itz no longer as mangkuk-ky, but itz still floppy, thank God. people continued clearing the train, and HL guy continued to glance at me, while talking to his completely-obscured-by-the-stupid-man friend. then we reached eunos and the train really cleared. the man got lost, and i saw adam emerge from behind him. i almost fainted [again]. and adam sed bye to HL guy and got off. then HL guy leaned on the pane [!!!!] and listened to his discman or watever.. and kept fidgeting about his position.. so kiiiuuuttt!!! he was wearing berms and a tshirt and shoes.. think he went out with adam today. wowz.. adam was wearing glasses, ttz all i rem.. anyway HL guy got off at tanah merah [hello! now WHY did i move from there again?!?!?].. and i think he and adam think i lyke adam.. but not him.. haiz. i mean, everyone lykes adam. but i'm sure not alotta ppl like HL guy! you know, like chu bang in jj.. haiz. takpe. i'm just feeling really wowed tt i got to see adam and HL guy in the most unlikely place, at the most unlikely time..
and now itz raining. thunderingly too! thunder rumbles, lightning streaks for miles--unknowingly, i begin to smile. goodnight babes. love y'all!

harloez! on the laptop again, meaning no clippie, of cos.. i just wasted one good hour collaging my new test pad. haha. itz now my favourite colour--pinkpurpleorange. veh veh nice, if i do say so myself. but seriously, itz nice. pity the white glue keduts the cardboard. wish i cld find a better way to preserve the glossiness of the collage. ohwell. anyway, itz really nice, check it out k? itz even better than the red-themed one. haha. and acherli the pink on it is abit too much, but i realised tt women's magazines feature alot, and i mean ALOT, of pink stuff.
ok that was just some mindless info, time for more. decided not to pon next wed, itz too leceh arh. i mean, i need to produce another parent's letter? no thanks. too much trouble for me. hm. ohyah today was like, the worst day of my life or something. i thot i'd be all well-rested after a nice children's day but nooo! OM wasn't here. ex-fren wasn't here. SYA'S FREN wasn't here. like, helLO! that is just too too mean. seriously. so i was grumpy the whole day ah. i mean, it is really painful to see lumut bouncing around [with tt really cool 3d bag] and knowing that ex-fren's eeky voice is NOT gonna reach your ears after tt. or seeing setan strolling around skl and hating his toiletbrush hair even more cos OM's not around. aiyah. it was just bullshit ah. even decaf wasn't around. who was? latte, acherli. haha. but latte doesn't work alone. he has to be taken with others, i just realised today. so like when econs lec came i acherli screamed in shocked surprise. sigh.
you know what? i hate the train. i hate people who try to squeeze in, insisting tt us big-bagged ppl should move to the centre of the carriage. itz like, relek ah! take the next train, why don't you? make life easier for all of us. sheesh. i just want a mode of transport with elbow room for me and my bag. i don't care how low the frequency is, as long as i can move around freely without my stupid bag on my lap. sheesh. whatever, man.
today during impromptu/spontaneous/lastmin mac's lunch we were talking about the sweater theory. hahah. i really think itz a great theory. will be even greater in practice. and the ain's twin brother theory. thatz even cooler. i kan just take any of his sweaters. or steal one of his friends' [who will be my friends anyway]. sadly, these theories will never be put into practice, although not by our choice.
oh but guess what? remember i sed my brother was a skater, and is now gonna be a biker? i think he cld possibly be a breaker too! i was just passing my COMP just now [which he was using], and i just happened to glance at the screen, and i saw this heeeuuge picture [obviously from a digicam] of a guy in a breakdancing pose. so my eyes did a little zoom-in, and it was my brother!!! i almost fainted there. but i just pretended it diden affect me at all. but it did, it did! it was one of those cool gravity-defying poses, see. so like yah! maybe he is a breaker too! alrite! keep it up, bro! [see, if you went to RI as you wanted to, you'd definitely not be this cool. {no offence, but you don't hear of RI breakers, bikers, or skaters rite? haha.}]
well enuff crapping. i'm gonna do ringkasan now, followed by some surfing around. haha. yes i know, stop procrastinating, rite?
later.

assalamu'alaikum. i am shitass sleepy man! i dun get it! i woke up at *ahem* nine and everything! i watched kelly's dream club, which was really cute [and i love chelsie]. and i just rested alot, basically.
anyway i was at the bp store outside jj and paying for my stuff when the cashier asked me, "any petrol?" i was really dazed then, acherli, cos i was soopa hungry. but when i came to my senses, i was kwite flattered. haha. i look old enough to drive? i look well-off enough to own a car? amazing! really lifted my spirits there. haha.
also found out that fana n diana know the jj guy i keep seeing at buona vista. he was just sitting there, like 4 metres away. completely distracting. but you know what? the more i go to jj, the more convinced i am that itz a really great school. there were just tons of wooden benches-and-tables around, EMPTY, i might add, with lots of wind and stuff. the school was empty. the benches were clean. sigh. rj cld never be like that. thatz why i've never studied in skl. tell me why you like to study in skl, sya's fren. [and while you're at it, tell me if you dyed your hair. what colour is it?] also saw chu bang, finally. he is really cute. as in cute cute. tall with rosy cheeks and very baik face. i lurve rosy cheeks. damn cute.
haha. unfortunately, all i have to show for today are 2 completed chem exercises. damn.

ohman! just read ili's blog! i'm so sorry babe! and to denise and all! to the other 8 people who turned up! did not know my pw group was THAT slack!

hey y'all! having a happy children's day?
i just had THE most unsettling dream ever. and i woke up with a horrible cramp in my left leg. it still hurts now. anyway the dream was about ex-fren, so i just HAD to write it down somewhere.
i think we were in school or somewhere school-like. there was a bunch of us in a ts-like place, having a lesson or a briefing or smthg. all the friends were there, including toot and non-. and they were sitting in the front row while we sat in the back. acherli it was basically a select combination of both our classes. anyway then ex-fren got up and went out ah. and i was like, "waddehell where did he go?" and then sya's fren turned round to us and told us that ex-fren had a performance in another ts. so i like, dashed out, with everyone's eyes on me, and barged into the said ts. and he was like, 25% through his performance ah. and everyone stared at me, but i eksyened bodoh and sat down to watch. and he was singing AND playing. alone. solo. he was totally absorbed so he diden see me until it was over. and get this. he sounded really nice. he had a really nice, on-pitch voice, which sounded totally unlike his normal speaking voice. [kinda like ziana zain rite?] anyway then he was done and he looked up and smiled at me. and he sat down next to me, and then *I* had to sing!!! it was a nightmare! [a nightmare within a dream? haha.] but he was like, smiling all the way. and when it was over, he congratulated me and shouted something as i walked out the door. dunno wat, then later i was walking with a classmate of theirs, and then we met him, and he started like, praising me or sum shit.
arrghh. yes what a stupid dream.