i watched someone like you today.. it was sooooooooo sweet! i died.. and of cos, hugh jackman is very hot. haha.. then later i watched gone in 60 seconds which is abit draggy but very cool. i especially like the way they refer to the cars as "ladies"..

[It looks that way, the way you say
She talks as if she knows]
I do not know that this is so, I only just suppose
I suppose that when you come into the ballroom
And the room itself is floating in the air
If you're suddenly confronted by his highness
You are frozen like a statue on the stair
You're afraid he'll hear the way your heart is beating
And you know you mustn't make the first advance
You are seriously thinking of retreating
Then you seem to hear him asking you to dance

A lovely night,
A lovely night
A finer night you'll know you'll never see
You'll meet your prince
A charming prince
As charming as a prince will ever be

The stars in the hazy heaven
Tremble above you
While he is whispering, "darling I love you"
You say good-bye
Away you fly

But on your lips you keep a kiss
All your life you'll dream of this
Lovely, Lovely night

sorry for the misinformation.. but i dun think he kan go vs, which is really sad.
yesterday was interesting, to say the least. but mostly draining. the afternoon kinda sucked, so i went home and slept it away..
but the evening was GREAT. when i reached the hotel, i waited for denise in the lobby, and there was a HOT lim sitting there!!! i died. oh, and stupid volleyball girl was there, but..let's just forget her.. haha.. erm.. sembahyanging was fine.. i looked fine but still fat.. but no one cared.. it was a wonderful night, lots of taking pics and all, and doing the class item was fun.. apparently it was hilarious, too.. and since lira got third, it must have been a good item rite? hehe. and guess what? aimee got first!!! isn't that great?? it's sooooooo cool!!! yah then after that we went up to the room and watched tv and took more pics and whatevered.. and then yaxin me rachel tzing adeline did unbeatables stuff with shiming's cards.. hehe.. i kinda sucked at the whole spreading-out-the-cards thing.. but i did win, once or twice, with a king or so.. hehe.. and then we played blackjack, with me as the dealer.. so fun.. and we threw cards at each other, which was really dumb but still farn.. yah so anyway like i sed i had fun. and at midnight my sister came and i left.. and i was in the lift with this lim!!! she was with her girlfriend i guess.. and she has blond hair and she's tall, wearing a nice checked shirt and jeans.. nice voice too.. soothing and stuff.. hahah.. yeah isn't it cool? to round off my day with a great lim? i can't think of a better way to start and end a lovely experience..
tata!

well my brother got one A, one A*, one B and another A i think.. aggregate was 237.. kan't make it to ri, unfortunately, but i think kan go vs.. so.. *phew*
im having a really bad day. i can't wait for it to be over. stupid prom. stupid me. why i wanted to go in the first place, i'll never know. pray for me.. and later when it's all over, i'll pray isyak and thank God for letting it be finally over.
im gonna go do my PAE now.. so.. bye.

ohyes valarmathi prob took lit paper 8!

toe ring.

Ain't That Funny
[Ja Rule]
Murda Inc
Haha it must be the ass
That got me like that
If it get any fatter
Man the rule gonna hafta get at her
And our situation won't matter
I come to make you smile
In the freakiest manners
J to the L-O
Hello, no I'm not Lee Harvey Oswald
I'm the rule in the shot call
Off the wall
Like MJ in his early days
It's the Inc. and Lopez now

[Jennifer Lopez]
Ain't that funny
It's been awhile since you came around
Now ya wanna see what's goin' down
Tryin' to tell me how ya want my time
Tryin' to tell me how I'm on your mind (on your mind)
See it never had to be this way
You should've never played the games you played
Now I'm seein' that you're kinda lame
Knowin how the situation changed

[chorus]
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, now I can smile and say
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, I'm glad I can smile and say
Ain't that funny

[Jennifer Lopez]
I remember how you walked away
Even when I tried to call your name
See at first I didn't understand
Now you're lookin' like a lonely man (lonely man)
I remember how you did me wrong
And now you're hurtin' cuz my love is gone
Everybody gets a chance to burn
You can take it as a lesson learned

[chorus]

[Caddillac Tah]
C-A double D, Hi
Double dose my
Fly by, red line
Touch the roast side
Oh I, never been a sucker for chill Ja
Spit the ism, hit em, get rid of em, and you know Tah
Get it gully, and ain't that funny
How they want me, see me workin' wit money
But Cali ain't a dummy
What these brodies want from me?
Cos all I got is G, J.Lo
And Murda I.N.C.

[Jennifer Lopez]
I really wish you wouldn't send me gifts
Tryin' to make me sit and reminisce
Tryin' to blind me with your bling bling
Thought I told you love don't cost a thing
(love don't cost a thing)
Hope you realize that now I'm through
And I don't ever wanna hear from you
I had enough of bein' there for you
Now I'm laughin' while you play the fool

[chorus]

[Jennifer Lopez]
Baby, is that you're girlfriend
I got my boyfriend

[Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule]
But maybe we can be friends
La da da da da da

[Jennifer Lopez]
Baby, I got my boyfriend
Is that your girlfriend

[Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule]
maybe we can be friends
La da da da da da

Ain't it funny

im dying. im soooooooooooooo tired. i could just keel over and die now. haha. shows how little stamina i have, huh.. anyway.. i walked around orchard today.. checked out the new far east basement, which is SO cool! and we saw lotsa people.. valarmathi.. and i dunno who else but i know there were thousands of lims, mostly the kind i like.. hahah.. and there were lotsa cool shops in the basement.. including this collectors' shop, with lots and lots of those old kiddy stuffs like care bears and the my little pony thingies.. sho cool! of course, catering only to the rich..
i was peacefully reading my PAE booklet on the way home and then siti called me. yeurgh. as in, i like siti, she's nice and all.. and maybe under normal circumstances we could find common ground to talk about, but.. she kept talking about mai and asking me to go out with them.. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS! i refuse to see mai again. she makes my blood boil. and i know she might not necessarily advocate this whole ask-ain-if-she-wants-to-reconcile thing, but STILL. she's the subject of it, innit? hmph. and i dun like her. she makes me angry now. so yah. please. everyone, get the point. AND. beer is better. gimme beer any day. i know that's almost sinful to say, but.. i dunno. i suppose i prefer assertive to shy. hahah. but i hate both of them anyway.

i love having a blog. it's like, whenever im online, and i don't know what else to do, i just log in and start typing. kwite fun.
im burning a new cd now.. it has perhaps perhaps perhaps and quando quando quando.. hehe.. i guess songs of those period tend to have the same format.. but they're still lovely.. i'd rather listen to those than, say, "pop".. i mean, puh-leeze.. oh it's azan already.. but im gonna wait till this cd is done.. i have lots of time to burn anyway.
you know, im still kinda reeling from yesterday's experiences.. mainly the fila lim one. i just totally did not expect to see her.. and like, for so long.. i dunno.. i realised that the last time i saw her was more than a month ago.. and i guess im not gonna see her anymore.. seeing as she's not in sec 4 and all.. or doesn't take o's, anyway.. it's pretty sad.. like i've always said, i've always wanted a friend living near me.. then we could hang out together.. it would be so fun.. and i know fila lim is a fun friend to have.. u kan just tell by looking at her. problem is, i dun see why she has to be so aloof with strangers.. there is [and was] absolutely no way i would get to smile at her, so how am i supposed to be friends with her? i guess it's not meant to be. maybe she's just meant to be a pick-me-up, for when im really mad or sad. and have you ever noticed, you never get what you want when you want it..you get what you want when you need it.. which is cool in a way.. but not cool cos you want it this moment, but you get it at another moment. but it's just the way things go.

i watched notting hill again last night.. i truly love it..
"..it's the sort of thing that happens in dreams.. good dreams.."
"and what happens next in the dream?"
"well, i'd sort of change my personality--you can do that in dreams--and i'd get up, walk over, and kiss you."

"..i'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.."

you won't admit you love me
and so how am i ever to know
you always tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

a million times i've asked you
and then
i ask you over
again
you only answer
perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps

i used to always say that things happen when you least expect them too. but i stopped saying that for some time cos nothing much really happened to me.. and today.. something happened that proved my statement true again. i wouldn't mind if it happened again and again and again. what am i talking about? well, i'll come to it later..
i was in 105 home and just wondering--have i ever made any of my friends so angry at me that they almost hated me? i still wonder. and i wonder what i would have done to make them mad at me.. did i cancel out on plans? did i disappoint them in some way by forgetting to bring something important? did i insult them so bad till it hurt? did i brag so much about something that they'd never achieve? and i wonder exactly how mad they were. did they dig their fingernails deep into their palms until it left a mark? did they scream out their anger? did they cry for hours and hours? did they just let their mind wander aimlessly while rotting in anger? did they resolve never to be friends with me again? did they shout out curses? did they curse ME? --yeah anyway.. if anyone has any answers to the above, do not hesitate to tell me. i really wonder. it's another of those big mysteries. i feel really bad. if i have ever made any of my friends this mad at me, im really sorry.. i seriously did not mean any hurt, but i know it won't take away the hurt. and now i realise how hurtful it all is, and although apologies won't have much of an effect, im still very very sorry. i am. i hope i never give them any cause to be mad at me again.
so there i was, fuming silently in the bus. and then i alighted and continued to fume in 53.. but i was slightly pacified by the sight of about a billion pl lims walking all over the school.. and there was a considerable number of pl gerls wearing their uniform and their school jacket, which, actually, is not that nice but it's like haute couture to me.. hehe.. i looked around at the lims outside without really seeing any of them, and only one person boarded the bus. the moment i saw her, i was like, hey, floppy hair.......FILA LIM! it was her! in the flesh! she's not dead after all! not even ill, she looks fine and well.. she was one of those wearing the skl uni and skl jacket.. and she wasn't carrying a bag, just some papers and stuff.. including a school newsletter which she was flipping through.. it's the same old fila lim. same old floppy hair [which is like JP's but without such obvious feelers], same pinafore, same chubby-ish face, and lovely eyes and socks and shoes. and same old habit of glancing discreetly to the back. i was sitting riiiight at the back, in the right corner, and she sat next to the aisle, the row infront of me, but on the left of the bus. [i was wearing my fila socks today, but a strange stroke of coincidence. plus i had to wait about a thousand years--and 2 more 105s--for 53 to arrive. therefore i conclude that it was fate.] there isn't a day that goes by at the fila lim bus stop, that i don't look across the road and think of her. i am so happyterharu at seeing her again today, after so manymanymany weeks of not. and i just thank God for showing me the silver lining in the grey cloud today. amin.

heylo. i watched a midsummer night's dream today.. it was.. oklah.. but i kinda prefer the other versions that i've seen.. they were definitely more interesting, in their own ways.. oh and yesterday i watched the world is not enough, the first james bond movie i've ever watched. and i realised how cool james bond movies are, and how much fun i've been missing out on.. but it's ok.. lots more fun in store for me..

See what drug you are.

See what Rugrat you are.

See what Rugrat you are.
haha interesting... a tie again.. im one heck of a mixed-up girl.

look look!!! i got bedtime bear and love-a-lot bear!!! it was a tie!!! and guess what? i love bedtime bear!!! =D
See what Care Bear you are.
See what Care Bear you are.

Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?

I'm The James Bond Villain Personality Test!

I live in a fictional world of spies and blonde women with ridiculous names, and I like to give people plenty of options. Although whether they're villainous is not optional.

Click here to find out which test you are!

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
haha.. bullshit.
--from 100 Acre Personality Quiz

You focus deeply on your values and devote your life to chasing ideals... you often draw people together around a common purpose and work to find a place for each person within the group. You're creative and seek new ideas and possibilities. You quietly push for what's important to you, and rarely give up. You might be somewhat gentle or have a good sense of humor, you could be hard to get to know and overlooked by others...you like to make the world more in line with your vision of perfection.

If you're a teenager, you probably have a bit of a rebellious streak. You might argue with others who hold different values than yourself..you probably have a small close-knit group of friends...you can relax around these pals and be pretty entertaining, since you see the world in a different and special way... that's why your posts on the Storm Palace are so great!

Inner harmony is the most important thing to you. You're sensitive and loyal. You have a strong sense of honor concerning your personal values. You'd rather communicate your feelings in writing...

You do best in a flexible situation where the teacher/collegue takes a personal interest in you...you like to interact with your peers, but not TOO much ...you have both creativity and flexibility, and you like that about yourself....you don't get bogged down by details...your job must be fun and it must be meaningful to you....you don't wanna feel conspicuous so you'll sell yourself short just to avoid the spotlight...

You can be a gentle and subtle leader...being indirect and inclusive of others...you don't confront people head-on, but rather work with 'em to get the job done....you lead with your values in mind and let these guide you...you don't like conflict, so you don't confront situations directly.. you'd rather wait for a situation to work itself out....

Leisure and kickin' back is really important to you. sometimes it is hard to separate work from play, huh? when you find a new recreational pursuit, you do a lot of reading up on it...most of your leisure things are done alone, like reading, listening to music, and even BBSing....when you want to be sociable, you can be very charming and outgoing..

Love is a very deep commitment to you...it's not easily attained...you probably pick out flaws or are disappointed when he or she doesn't match up to your ideal as to what love should be like...first dates are very well set up to make sure everything is taken care of so it can be "just right." you might have a hard time sharing feelings about others...you tell so many feelings inside that you forget to tell your partner that you love 'em or whatever....

If the relationship goes bad, you take it to heart, but probably don't tell many others about it....you have a tendency to overreact, huh? Other things to watch for...don't get so caught up in your dreams that you don't consider others' points-of-view...you might not adjust your vision to the facts of a situation...you may need a "reality check" once in a while... also, don't try to please everyone and be so hesitant to criticize... don't delay projects 'cause you're holding out for perfection...it's not gonna come...don't get overly critical because no one matches your perfect ideals... you could lash out and it could get ugly.

INFP: "I Never Find Perfection"
--from Personality test like Myers-Briggs & Keirsey personality tests

i am supposedly --
free enneagram test

but acherli --

--from Enneagram Personality Quiz

Are You Ready For Love?
Your score: 6

0-7: You are ready, willing and able!
You are so ready to get out and start looking for a partner, if you haven't begun already. You know that you would survive if you didn't meet your mate right away, but believe strongly that life would be better if you had someone to share it with. It's a proven fact that both men and women live longer and stay healthier when they have the comfort and support of a healthy relationship. So, stay positive and start flirting -- a soulmate may be standing next to you, right now!
--from Quiz: Are You Ready For Love?

You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there.

You chose to take significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things.

Note:
The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. If you take the short road, you fall in love quickly and easily. If you take the long road, you take your time and do not fall in love as easily.



On the way you see 2 rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend

0 Red and 20 White Roses.

Note:
The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. For example, if you chose 18 red and 2 white, you give 90 and expect 10 return.



You finally get to his/her house. A family member answers the door. You can have that family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get him/her yourself.

You chose to go get your boy/girlfriend yourself.

Note:
This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. If you asked the family member to get your significant other, then you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. If you went to get him/her yourself, then you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.



You go up to you boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

You chose to leave the roses on the bed.

Note:
The placement of roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Placing them on the bed means you like to see them a lot, while placing them on the windowsill means that you are alright with not seeing them as much.



Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend go to sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up you go in his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive,

he/she is awake.

Note:
This is representative of your attitude towards his/her personality. If you find him/her asleep, you love your boy/girlfriend the way he/she is. If you find him/her awake, you expect him/her to change for you.



Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain road or the longer, more interesting road?

You chose the longer, more interesting road.

Note:
The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. If you chose the short road, you fall out of love easily. If you chose the longer one, you will tend to stay in love for a long time.

have you ever felt invisible? i think it's one of the worst feelings in the world. it's even worse than loneliness. at least when you're lonely, you still exist to the billion or so people in this world. but when you're invisible.. no one, and i mean no one, can see you. it's pretty sad, and quite hope-consuming too. i mean, you never know if you're ever gonna be visible again, and even if you know you are, you don't know when. so it's pretty hopeless whatever you do, cos you'll remain invisible until God decides to make you visible again. all hope is gone, and all you want to do is curl up in bed, and hide far far away from the world. but sometimes, sometimes, you've already made plans much much much earlier to be around people. you didn't know you'd be invisible during this set period of time, of course, but it doesn't change things. because you remain invisible. and by sticking to your plans, you will only end up making things worse and more painful for yourself. but really, there's nothing you can do. you've paid up, you've paid for about half-a-dozen things that you require for this whole being-around-the-people thingy, and fact is, you can't curl up far far away from the world. not on this day, at least. and you just wonder how it's gonna turn out. but you know one thing it's not gonna turn out to be.
it's not gonna turn out good. not for yourself, at least. so you just prepare yourself for a flood of tears immediately after that, plus a whole load of embarrassment.

payback time? yeah, probably.

Sangsi Asmara oleh _{Hetty Sarlene}

Di sebalik kata ada rahsia
Di sebalik senyum ada makna
Kan kubisikkan padamu
Satu hari bila perlu
Saat pasti kau jadi milikku

Biarkanlah aku menanggung rindu
Biarkanlah engkau tiada tahu
Halus kasihku padamu
Zahirnya takku lihatkan
Hingga pasti kau jadi milikku

( korus 1 )
Entah bila bermula
Cinta yang tak kusangka
Mungkin terlalu lama
Sangsi asmara... terpedaya

( korus 2 )
Berlalulah masa tak sanggup ku menanti
Gelora di jiwa tak siapa mengerti
Siksanya menanggung rindu
Sukarnya memendam rasa... kekasih

( ulang korus1 & korus2 & korus2 )

Animal Love Test from here.

What kind of person you'll be attracted to in real life situations..

C. Deer - elegant and well-mannered



In the process of courtship, which approach would make you feel irresistible...

B. Lion - straight-forward, just tell you he (she) loves you



What impression you would like to give to your lover...

B. Cat - stylish



What incident would cause you break up with your partner--which character you hate most...

C. Crocodile - ruthless, cold-blooded, ironic



What kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner...

B. Horse - both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept



Would you commit adultery...

A. Human - you care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage



What do you think about marriage...

C. Polar Bear - you are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom



At this moment, what do you think of Love...

A. Lion - you always thirst of love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily

You are Civilian Calvin! You don't get to travel much outside your neighborhood, but you still manage to get in plenty of trouble. When you're not acting up, you like to wax philosophical. Take the What Calvin are You? Quiz by contessina_2000@yahoo.com!

I'm An Idealist
All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:


Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.
Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.
Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self--always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are rare, making up no more than 8 to 10 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The four types of Idealists are:


Healers (INFP) | Counselors (INFJ) | Champions (ENFP) | Teachers (ENFJ)
--The Keirsey Temperament Sorter II

Type 4: The Artist. The intuitive, reserved type.
--The New Enneagram Personality Test

Fours tend to live in a private world of their own personal ideals. They are strongly emotional people who react strongly to even little things. In the course of a day, a Four's emotions can jump between extremes. Fours are often concerned with ideal love, longing after a kind of love that they've never experienced outside of the imagination. They also have strong ideals about themselves, which, combined with highly reactive emotions, can lead them to think terribly of themselves. This makes Fours excessively prone to envy, as they see something good in others and berate themselves for not having the same qualities. The strength of Fours is that they can see the best in others. Fours often become artists, thought not all do, and not all artists are fours. The Swedish film maker Ingmar Bergmann is good example of a Four.
--from The Triadic Enneagram Personality Test

You want your partner ( girlfriend/boyfriend ) to....

D. Be a little bit more relaxed, calm and composed

NOTE:
What kind of chair do you prefer?

The message behind the question :
A chair is for sitting on . If you choose to sit on a certain chair, you have no suspicions or distrust towards it. This is the same psychology present in our relationship with the people we like. In other words, the qualities you look for in a chair are similar to the qualities you look for in a partner. Sit down for a minute and give it some thought.



With respect to money ....

A. You spend as little as possible.

NOTE:
Tomorrow is Sunday. What are you going to do ?

The message behind the question :
Sunday is a day when you are free to use however you want. Having freedom to do whatever you want is like having money to spend however you want. Becoming good at managing your finances is an important step towards independence. What do you think of your money spending habits? A penny for your thoughts.



You think good luck .....

D. Doesn't exist. Reality is built on practicalities.

NOTE:
A box lying on the road. What's inside ?

The message behind the question :
People often attribute unexpected events to good luck or bad luck. When something goes well, it's because of good luck; when things turn sour, it's the fault of bad luck. Your answer reveals what kind of luck (what's inside the box ) you think will befall you in an unexpected circumstance (the box on the road ). It's probably safe to say that people who select B or E do not buy lottery tickets.



The hidden side of your personality tends to be ....

C. Satisfied to care of things with a minimum amount of effort.

NOTE:
If you go to the zoo, what do you look at first?

The message behind the question :
When you are at the zoo, you are surrounded by caged creatures that you can't talk with, and which can't communicate with you. The fact subconsciously governs the way you act. It is very similar to how you act in human society as well. In other words, your actions reveal the hidden side of your personality.



How you relate to others...

E. You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

NOTE:
What kind of present would you buy for a very close friend ?

The message behind the question :
By stating what kind of gift you would give to a good friend, you are actually revealing how you relate to others. However, it doesn't really matter so much what you give someone - it's the thought that counts. If you care enough to give something,your friend will get the message. The dual acts of giving and receiving are, together, one of the finest pleasures - and one of the best forms of communication - that friends share.



When it comes to finding a romantic partner you .....

C. Don't have any particular type in mind, but are inclined to look for someone who is likely to say 'YES' if you ask him/her out.

NOTE:
You want to cross a river, but there is no bridge in sight. What do you do?

The message behind the question :
Your answer to this question reveals the way you tend to search for a boyfriend/girlfriend. Crossing a river is a psychological equivalent of getting out and finding that special someone. In any case, if you don't make an effort to meet people, there's no way any relationship is going to start at all. So, get to it !!!!
--from Reveal Yourself

Artistic Type
You love caring for others and it is the reason why you are a big sister/brother in people's eyes. People will find it interesting and comfortable talking to you, and this enables you to gain trust from them. This usually gives good impression to those of the opposite sex who are sentimental and younger than you.
--from The WebHouse.net Personality Test

fana is a big liar. she's still not online yet.

forgot to say, yesterday i saw prem.
"tell me when will you be mine..tell me quando quando quando..we can share a love divine..please dun make me wait again.. when will yu say yes to me?.. tell me quando quando quando.. you mean happiness to me.. oh my love pls tell me when.."
-sigh-

i just realised i love heineken ads.. they are soooo cool, and they play the nicest songs.. like, the currently showing ones feature "quando, quando, quando" and "can't take my eyes off you" respectively.. and the ads themselves are like, very fun and lively and stuff.. REALLY cool. heineken rocks! [is that like, haram to say, btw?]
yayy im chatting to him now. haha. i can just see him in a tux on his graduation night. wow. sometimes i love that im in a girls' school. and sometimes, i love it even MORE.

im freshly home from a day out on/at my previous second home--orchard! lovely!!! the last time i really hung out there was when i was a sec 3 gerl. and what a wonderful feeling it was today, to be a sec 3 once more..
I'M SERIOUS.
i watched the dangerous lives of altar boys with rachel lyn fana tzing. it was SO COOL! it's really good. it's one of those under-publicised movies which are excellent. like, for example, the cider house rules. yah. it's really cool and interesting and definitely different. saw the sji malay guys too. and rencong. but i didn't realise it was him until it was too late. and later at wisma, fana and i saw this nadia yeo-lim whom we both saw at bishan mac's. and about a thousand other people, including one totally poser and hot ij lim, and anudder less hot and non-poser ij lim..
ermm.. ohyah we went topshop, where i had the most fun trying on different hats.. i tried an alicia keys look, which totally failed on my round chubby face. sorry, that makes me sound too cute. my fat face. haha. i tried a white kopiah-ish hat by mistake, and i dunno how i ended up looking, but it was probably anything containing the word "bad". haha. and i tried on 2 of those beeg floppy hats, yu know, like all those black people wear? like the one janet jackson wears in poetic justice? yah those. and i looked good.. and i wasn't the only one who thot so. =D yah and i tried the milkmaid look, according to fana. just a scarf, the triangular ones, around my head. adeline thot i looked nice. but i still love the janet jackson look. so im gonna get the hat soon.. ermm.. yah and i found nice green earrings which look totally classic and old-fashioned, that im gonna get to wear with my prom dress. yah.
as fana and i were going home, someone poked me on the shoulder. it was redhuan! what a surprise! so we talked on the way to orchard mert.. and when i went home later, by 105 and 53, iskandar-!- was on 53! with his mom! isk, i mean. haha. i wanted to smile at him, but.. yu know, he's a raihan and all, i'd just embarrass myself. yah so i just stared at him ah. he got down at the next stop, btw, tua's stop.
ohyah fana and i went to pray at royal plaza hotel.. and we saw haney hadad.. and fana stage-whispered "haney hadad!" and she turned. darn. don't worry, i grinned at her. haha.
yeah. so like i said, i had a GREAT day. wait. did i even say that? nevermind, im saying it now.

hellohellohello. how is everyone? rockin' and rollin'? that's cool, just cool..! --ok, yes, im a little high right now.. haha.. not sure why. or, rather, not sure principally why.
well im just back from watching harry potter, second instalment, at tampines mall with my mom and brother. being tampines mall, there were about a thousand people including maybe 50 lims and that gerl from SAC who took the bus with me in the mornings. she was eating, so i guess she's serani, not malay-muslim. anyway, the movie was hilarious, thanks to ron's funny funny quips. he is just sooo adorable! and the fact that he and harry are squeaking owing to mid-break voices makes it even funnier! and justin finch-fletchley... well, he LOOKS LIKE TAIWAN! im serious! needless to say, i was having a hard time keeping a straight face when i glimpsed him in any part of any scene. luckily my mom diden notice.. and tom felton is SO HOT as malfoy. i was dying. he is like, suave personified. too bad he's a pilfering ass in addition to his other negative qualities. haha. yes, negative QUALITIES. i mean, it's part of what makes him so suave, i think. he's only abit younger than me rite? about 14 or 15... not bad an age difference, i should think. ermm.. yah and of course rupert grint was soooooooooooo adorably funny. sighzz.. he's so sloppily pai, which is damn cool. ohyes and in addition to all this, during the movie, HE smsed me! yay! haha. thank you, photochemical smog, for prompting a question from him.. hehe. he's such a nice guy. sigh. yeah and he did come just now!!! wearing the obs climbarock tshirt, white colour. i was incidentally wearing mine, btw. haha.
yes and erm.. gigit rantai, mrt and li di were there. li di's alive! yay! and he glanced at me alot.. kwite fun.. haha..

wahoo! guess what? this morning i took the bus with "celesta".. AND a brader.. a poser one, with his shirt tucked out entirely, and headphones.. and he's really hot too! den later after the combined science paper, "celesta" and gigit rantai came in.. yay!
haha i just opened the fridge and saw 3 entire 5-packs of yakult.. green, red and purple, i think.. and yu know the vitagen ad where the mom kneels down and helps her daughter pile 5-packs of vitagen into the trolley? my mom could do that ad.. for yakult, of course.
anyway, im gonna watch harry potter tmr! yay! thank you, brother of mine, for being kiasu.

okay i promised to put in my wonderkins scene.. so here it is.. just a lil synopsis first, though.. duncha think the guy appears to look ALOT like screw? yah, so i was thinking, mebbe it's screw and me! haha.. it looks so sweet... it's like, after a long period of not seeing each other, they meet, and they missed each other so much, they just decide to absorb each other's presence, instead of doing stupid things like pda or watever.. that's why i think of this as true love.

i just created the NICEST wonderkins scene!!! it's in black and white.. and it just looks soooo lovely... so... sweet... which is kinda ironic to sum extent cos the male character is a screw-type guy.. but that's what makes it nice, i think.. and i just realised how much i love black-and-white. and so... now that im an expert at this dolls thing, i'll put in more work on the effects part.. there'll be a marked improvement in my dolls from now on.. and don't worry, i'll put up the wonderkins scene soon..

"i know you'd kill for me,
you'd die for me,
i know you like to rip and run the streets.
but i get nervous sometimes,
baby, i can't help to think
you might not make it home to eat.
i can't sleep.
could you pick up the phone,
and call me at home
and let me know you ain't in some heat.
and don't go crying, you're grown,
you know im looking out for you,
cos you be looking out for me, me, me.." --aaliyah's come back in one piece
you see, since i watched romeo must die for the second time, i've fallen in love with aaliyah's character, trish o'day. and i wanna be like her now. yeah. my new role model. how bout that?

today: on fana's encouragement, i let her type out a msg to jeremy and send it to him ["hi.. good luck for today.."]. and he replied!!! dun worry, im saving that one. and then later he came in. i was talking to fana. and i suddenly stopped and smiled at him. i dunno, it's like, when he's around, i dun feel like doing anything but smiling. today i totally diden expect to see him, so i was speechless as well. which resulted in my failure to ask him to have a seat.. so he left. how stupid am i? ...yes, very, i know. [and when i finished my maths paper early later, i could NOT stop thinking of my stupidity] argh. please understand that i really like you. then u can decide if you like me too. fana insists that you do. but i know it's not true. <--wow a poem. anyway. there were also soccer, kunyah, SLWIDAW, gigit rantai, wei bin's fren whom [who?] i decided to call "comel", ah-pei [whom i decided to un-abang] and assorted others. ohyah a lim. a really great guangyang one, no glasses, tucked out blouse, saunters, longish floppyish hair, a cin marie plus poseurism. and later at the mrt station, 2 st. nick's lims.. woohoo! lawarrr!

top 5 kucing guys [yah i think i haf just enuff.]
1. adik eleanor
2. gigit rantai
3. soccer
4. comel
5. kunyah/the "celesta" guy

yesterday i got an sms from raihan. it sed "hey how you doin?" or sum shit liddat, which is totally not raihan's style. but i wasn't thinking, so i just replied. then i got another sms from him that basically sed sorry cos it was his fren who msged, not him. wow. what, he had rugby camp with those group of shits? or they all converted to islam and they went terawih with him?? hmphh. well mostly i was embarrassed not angry, so when i prayed isyak, i prayed to God to like, get me through this "mess" with no embarrassment on my part. and guess what? raihan just msged me back asking wad jc i wanna go, stuff liddat. so yes, i got out of this mess with no embarrassment on my part. amazing.

new dolls!

harloe. today i appear a little more happy than i acherli am. i mean, NOTHING happened today, man. how'dya expect me to be happy? it was the most boring day of my entire life. yah. the only person i saw was johnny. yah then when the bus passed pl, there were about a thousand lims, juz finished class or cca, or going for class/cca. there was this mimlim i've seen before a few times.. and she was with other lims.. real hardcore ones.. cin, of cos.. one of them was a biglim. nort cute ah! but they were, nevertheless, lims, so i just appreciate what i can get, especially today.
yesterday night i had a dream. i was in mac's with fana on a normal morning/afternoon. at a normal table. then this group of guys entered mac's, just passing through. it was alex's group, with extras: buffer zone, screw, and buffer zone's other entire gang ah. you know in ocean's eleven, when the guys like, make their entrance/exit as a group of eleven, with brad pitt [right?] heading the group? yah well, it was liddat ah. alex was the one heading the group, with his hunched gorilla-like walk. haha. sho cute. anyway, fana and i were just staring at them ah. no, make that gazing. i, of course, was gazing at screw. haha. he was, by far, the most poised. anyway, when the group was directly infront of us in the aisle, alex stopped, causing the whole group to come to a halt. and they about-turned to face us. the entire group. and then alex was like,"eh, guys, wait awhile ah.." and he walked up to us, smiling. i was all huh-ed ah. so he was just standing there, and i was looking at him ah, wondering what would happen. and he was like,"hello.." so i sed hi back. then he was like,"what are you doing?" as in what-are-you-studying, so i told him whatever ah.. then he was like oh ok. and i was like,"so where are you going?" and he replied,"play basketball lorh.." and as i nodded in understanding, he continued,"you wanna come watch?" and i was like,"uh, nolah it's ok.." and he sed,"ok lah.. see you then.. bye!" and i sed bye ah. then he gorillaed back to the front of the group. they about-turned back in one smooth move and strode out of the place to the courts, of cos. fana and i looked at each other ah. i was still in shock, you see. and we stared at each other, not saying anything. then about one minute later, we both scrambled out of the place, realising that we wanted to do that from just now. but when we reached the outside, they were already at the other side of the road. so we just stood there, dunno why we were in despair also. they diden see us ah, and i diden feel like calling out to them. so i just stared after them. then i dunno why, they all stopped again, as a group, and turned around to face us. i guess they sensed that we were there. but i diden react, i was just staring at screw ah, who was poseur-ly smirking at me. so i diden realise when alex tossed something across the road. fana was like,"eh ain.." trying to alert me, but i diden snap out of it. it hit me in the face, not painfully or anything, of cos. and i peeled it off my face. it was a leaf. those big, heart-shaped kinds like from the trees near school. and no, un-mohabbatein-style, it had nothing written on it. so i looked across the road at alex. he'd moved right to the pavement ah, while the rest were at the carpark. and he waved and sed hi!!! and i was like, hi. and he spread his arms out and sed,"i love you!" and i was just, yarh. then me and fana crossed the road and i joined him and we watched them play bball ah. yes, i know it's bullshit, but what do you expect? it was a dream. and fana, if it's abit different from how i related it to you, im sorry, i just can't remember my dreams properly.
the end.

1. he came in around 8.30... yah.. it was lovely.. then he went to skl.. and he came back a little later.. and i was sitting with him, waiting for him to do an amaths sum, then he was like,"are you hungry, do you want some food?" well, i died. how sweet! i mean, yah. sigh. well, im glad i was puasaing.. or else i wouldn't know how to respond.. mann. he is SO nice.
3. had my history paper at 2.. and im in love with one of the invigilators! haha. ok im not, but he's still cool and nice and all. ok he's not nice, maybe. but i dunno. he was wearing a white shirt [not herman-style], dark tan trousers and glasses.. and his hair is jeremy-style. haha. he acherli looks like a 5% mr. loke, 50% kenny tan, and 45% himself, i guess. haha. yeah. he was zooming up and down the aisles. well, he was literally running, anyway.. to like, attend to people ah.. and when i was waiting for the bus i saw him across the road.. wearing a backpack. i wanted to become melon then [cos she was infront of him], but it's ok. i got to look, anyway. and i must admit, i was a tad more distracted than usual becos of him. even though--and can you believe this?--shuai was like, diagonally infront of me! amazing. i just kept glancing up to look at him, sitting down, standing around, or being totally clueless. wahaha. he opened the doors of the hall too. i know, im hopeless.
2. today wei was wearing this cute white tshirt with the superman logo on it, his white bball shorts, shoes and an orange cap. sho cute. haha. den as usual he was being a jinling/raihan ah. den when fana and i were leaving, he was still outside playing cards. amazingly, he saw us. wow, dah nak blah baru dier nampak. anyway, he waved at us with his cards ah. and i was like,"hello!" just as he sed bubbye. so i was like,"bubbye!" and then he acherli asked,"going where?" and i diden hear so i sed huh. and he repeated,"going where?" and i sed,"oh, going skl, gort exam.." "ok, bye.." he replied. yeah. that was just totally him ah. but fana was pretty upset [that's an understatement] cos he hardly acknowledged her, due to the fact that he diden recognise her. ohno. i feel so bad, i mean, i dun even like him and all. but i think that's the way the world works, acherli. it's always the people who dun put in effort, who dun give a shit, who don't deserve it--who get what others want. lumrah hidup. lumrah hidup.

today rite, amazing things happened.
1. i got raihaned by 3 friends of adil's. "raihan! raihan!" they shouted out innocently. doubtless, adil did not participate directly in this ain-bashing, but he was a raihan throughout, SMILING as well, so.. i hold him fully responsible. meanwhile, over at the other side of bishan, fana was being discreetly raihaned by another group of raihan's friends. man, is that guy popular! and among misguided teens, too!
2. the thing i've been dreaming of all my life [ok, all my sec 3 life--just look at my social studies textbook] finally happened. i went home with fir. it was such a big surprise, i really dun think he goes home by mrt alot rite.. and especially not after maghrib. same with me, i dun usually go home after maghrib. but today we diden do the usual and i ended up going home with him. had a 5-second chat, and sed bye like normal friends do. but the bus was still freezing, and i wasn't floating in bliss. so. i dunno what telah happen.
3. i saw THE second most perfect aimee lim today. the first being marie. she's tall and thin and dark.. no glasses.. not poser. wears jeans and tshirts like normal people. EXCELLENT.

i have new dolls, so im gonna put a couple or so here. ok this is one of the outfits im wearing for sahabat, fana. and don't yu think this is SO selene, fana?

oh i just went through my TOD and i just wanna report that the first time i [and baba] acherli took notice of him was on september 14th. and we first communicated with him on october 21st. ok bye.