i was fretting at first, at being the only member of my family stuck home on new year's eve. but then again. till last year, i think i always spent 31st dec at home. so why buck the trend? besides, i have to do my high/low points thingy, which i completely forgot about until 20 minutes ago! so now i have an hour and 45 minutes to do it. here goes nothing..

high points of 2005
*taufik--meeting him at amy's
*working at swensen's--incorporating ex-con, hanging out with liyana, cute NS guys, bun, CCDs
*mat-watching with shafa
*tanning with shafa
*bumping into OM at work
*clubbing for the first time
*"double-date" with sya josh and shaun
*seeing samit on vday
*getting my new piercing [cool sial!]
*getting my results
*bumping into scaryhots at work
*EB preview + photo with karl
*shopping spree sponsored by my sister
*EB finals
*getting into NUS
*wild wild wet
*MSQ swensen's and MDM
*first meeting fai at the esplanade
*supper with the swensen's people
*FOC
*attachment at TCL
*lepaking with the swensen's people
*bumping into john eber in the train
*meeting fan for the first time at silosa
*spotting the first cute guy in skl
*fireworks at esplanade on national day
*getting my new mp3 player
*malam pentas
*hanging out at simpang bedok with swensen's people
*encounter with sir tingles
*persuratan bbq
*SAM
*meeting sheikh for the first time
*iftar
*ain awards
*geylang with sani
*geylang with swensen's people
*buka-ing swensen's with the giler girls and halim
*geylang with baba + sahur at fongseng
*getting the armchair in my room
*drivingchef
*bumping into kashbir at the airport
*suff's open house
*bumping into hafiz as'ari at the airport
*post-exam thingy with chem people
*devil's
*riding theory lessons
*working again
*my nineteenth


low points of 2005
*carlsberg guy
*meeting some old bugger at downtown east
*WS coffee bean closing
*worrying about results [A's]
*getting my new piercing [sakit bodoh!]
*runaway bills
*ex-con leaving
*being stalked
*SotB
*kak nores leaving
*leaving swensen's
*doing my sister's marking
*the wantan story
*the ultimate embarrassment that was loner guy
*getting punkd
*when atikk tried to steal loner guy away
*all-nighters
*the exams
*first riding prac
*falling off my bike


okay so sheikh called at around 11, asked me out, and i said okay. so i spent new year's at pasir ris park. don't worry, there were loads of people around. haha. and don't be fooled by the lack of low points as compared to high points, i'm basically an escapist which means i prolly didn't post half the shitty things that happened to me.

just call me Bruise Lee.

sorry i stole that from udu. but anyway. i have like a billion bruises now from riding [still at lesson one, thank you very much]. i fell off my bike like 9048204 times. i swear. kesian si instructor had to help my lift my bike for 9048203 of those times. but other than that, it was quite enjoyable. i managed to go to third gear without much difficulty, and stopping's a bit better now. i have 2 more lesson ones waiting in the wings. i may need another one. so we'll see how it goes la. mannn. baru lesson one and i'm already spending hundreds. ohwell. insya-Allah i will get past this. it took me three PE lessons to do the forward roll, so i'm assuming this is the same.

u know what's fun, though? riding in the rain. or riding the mini-circuit in the rain anyway. it's all cold and splashy and just very cooling and nyaman. yes. fun. haha. and of cos, the post-lesson canteen sessions. today there was this cute police dude called tarmize. isn't that the most??? he has really sexayyy eyes, and a cute rosebud mouth. nice hair too. nat doesn't agree but hey, what does she know. she thought he was cute too, until she caught the back view. so yeah jgn dgr cakap dier. haha.

it's amazing how a day can swing from being wildly fun and amusing to being a pain in my 42" plasma tv.

let's talk fun first.

"fun" not "fan".

riding was great, i thought. aside from the fact that my gear-shifting was shitty and therefore i'll have to have AT LEAST two more lessons, which, by the way, was what i said the last time. anyways. it was cool. cute guys here and there. and one whose helmet was the same colour as mine, yey! we have the same taste! haha. yeah and after the lesson i saw the manjen dude from our first-ever lesson. and i smiled and just started talking to him. halfway through i was like, wait he looks kinda cute. is he really that guy, or am i talking to some stranger? don't worry, it WAS him. somehow yes, he does look cuter now. he's at lesson 3 already, he simply rocks man! and then there was the stoplight dude from theory. i just smiled at him la, takyah buat small talk. haha. and of cos, hanging out at the canteen was fun as always. love my CD mats.

i really don't wanna delve into the shittier parts of the last couple of days of my life. so we'll just leave it here, shall we?

maybe i'm just not cut out for relationships.

the past couple of days at work have been really busy. full house, both nights. but the upside, of course, is that there's a 100% chance of seeing at least one CCD. and i saw about three per night. not bad, i would say. and auntie's much nicer to me now somehow. haha. oh but i swear tonight was so incredibly busy that i almost finished a whole order pad. tinggal one more sheet je. and it was full at the end of last night.

more cool presents. i got a pink osiris cap from my brother [so sweet!] and an oceanus the body shop set from fana. ohyes and i got a quilt to fill in my new quilt cover. hahaha. funnn.

today was cool. mediacorp-->screenbox meeting in the morning, then 3J meeting, after which we bummed round as usual and i camwhored with amy's new razr!!! hahaha. checkitouttt.

okay photos that should have been put up years ago.


an ACTUAL screencapture of that escalator scene in shall we dance, not just some miserable photo taken by a razr. hehe. sorry amy.


me and baba at istana park. lovely place.


interesting form of vandalism at the istana park pavillion. if i remember correctly, it says "mats & minahs" should not be in this room. better leave or you are discrimination yourself in the public. go figure.


a bunch of 18-to-19-year-olds invaded spotlight and held a masquerade party.


the birthday cake i'd been idaming for about 9 months [halfway while working at swensen's]. if you can't read it, it says happy 19th ain.. make a wish! and yes, i thought of it myself. i wanted something more elaborate like tale as old as time--may your Belle find her Beast.. but macam, malu. haha.


the girls who cut the cake. yayyyy. practising for when they have kids, i'm supposing.


group pic! i had a great time guys, thanks!!!


the bouquet baba gave me, lying on my NEW bikini babe quilt cover!!!

dahlah bynk sangat tu pun..

i have to be getting ready for work soon, but i've been dying to blog about my fantastic birthday yesterday. in fact, it was prolly--and excuse the cliche here--the best birthday i've ever had. no, seriously!

oh but u know it's gonna be a long entry so takyah read on la.

okay so i started it off by waking up at 10, then bumming around etc, and dressing up giler, like i was going for some christmas party or smthg, complete with my huge berat $16.90 earrings. met amy at pasir ris mrt, where i yelped loudly upon seeing their collective present for me--the NUM slippers i've been dying to get. that's not all, i proceeded to try them on for size, in the middle of everyone. i know, aku giler. then we picked up my beautiful beauty and the beast cake--and no, it wasn't just an ironic statement--waited for shah a lil bit, then went to my place, where baba was waiting at the void deck with a bouquet of lovely roses. [hi raihan.]

sampai rumah, we cut the cake and stuffs while watching _spongebob and shall we dance. woohoo. love that movie. love jennifer. SO wanna be like her. after eating and bumming around for hours, we ended it off at swensen's, where i bodohly had baked rice AND fries. i know, aku giler. well we redeemed si firehouse happy birthday, so THAT was more ice-cream. then i headed for glass house to meet the class.

super-cool!!! we sat upstairs, had the most adorable waiter who reminds me of both ishmael and hairul. too bad i forgot his name. and josh went down to get the band to sing a birthday song for me, totally mortifying but uber cool. and at least i was the first one. after that a whole slew of birthday songs came by and annoyed us greatly. and then they gave me a single scoop chocolate ice-cream with a cherry on top. i DIED. my third helping of ice-cream!!!! gila kappa? dahlah aku makan si new york fish and chips. endlessly yummy, but my stomach was just crying "mercy!" oh but it was lovely to see the class again and everything, and it's like all those times in primary school where you couldn't celebrate your birthday with your class cos it fell in december were compensated by that one night. that, in itself, was fun enough.

then i met sean, who took me to labrador park! my first time! it was really really nice! i swear! and the view is fabulous! i swear, i died. then we drove past half the christmas lightup--really cool this year--and we actually got tickets to king kong, much to my initial consternation. but hey it turned out to be great, despite the fact that my neck died sitting in the front row and it was three hours long. freaky at some points, funny at others, and i almost cried when mr. hayes died. i cried when kong died though [even though i knew it was gonna happen], it was just such an undeserving death! i guess i must have seemed really distraught cos sean was like, "are you okay?" haha. i was fine, i was fine! yup by then it was like 2 in the morning, so we just drove home.

yeah. i had fun. i had SO much fun. so thanks to everyone who shared the day with me. oh and fana sent me this in the middle of the movie: Hey! Norain bte abdul rashid has finally turned 19! Yay! Other than my normal wishes like longevity, gd health, wealth and yu be blessed wif lotsa joy and many beautiful stuffs and moments in life,..I also pray tt yu'll meet E ONE who's sweet, caring, understanding and most importantly will luv and appreciate yu more than yu luv him.. Luv yu and cherish yu lotz babe.. Ps. I hope i'm the last person to wish yu today! :) [she was.]

great. i just bought a bikini babe quilt cover and a teeny bottle of perfume. i'm a losaaaa. tak abis2 buang duit je. but it was fun. after the 3j meeting i hung out with atikk di hanom at mac's/PS, and i just got wasted on ILT and atikk's secondhand smoke -glares-. yup. then haikal dayah and shan joined us, and we finally macam, separated at 7ish. then me atikk di walked down orchard, halfway down which *I* spotted hug-came (!!!), much to my surprise. and later we bumped into jonchen zhihan daph and carissa. cool. haven't seen them, minus zhihan, in quite awhile. then i boarded 36 to like, go home. but the ride was freaking bumpy, and let me just say tt there were no bumps on the stupid road. how freaking annoying. i got sick of it after like three stops. so i got off at city hall, walked to the 12 busstop, and got a lovely smooth ride home. it was so fun, walking down city hall alone in my christmas elf getup. i love long walks alone. really relaxing. sigh.

work yest was great, more boring than usual. but great. hardy was adorable as usual. i swear. he's so cute. sigh. and for once there was a CCD. with his gf, unfortunately, so i avoided them as much as possible. but he was cute. macam a cute mateen, with his long-sleeved shirt and cool hair. mmhmm.

oooOOOooo on saturday i bought christmas decorations, and i just put them up today! how exciting!!! nolah setakat 6 balls, in shades of purple, all over my blue ceiling. lawarrrr.

so i've finally turned 19, something that i haven't been wanting to do for the past week and so i've been holding on desperately to my 18-year-old status for the past 24 hrs. i got this bizarre wish from atikk: "MAY YOUR BOOBS GROW IN THE COMING YEAR! and ur butt grows bigger too!" mind you, these were accompanied by a couple of graphic emoticons. yes atikk giler. at least, that's how i programmed her number into my phone.

today was second pract, which was definitely better. mainly cos i was able to balance this time. BUT. butbutbut. i totally macam took a fall during the mini-circuit, and landed hard on my chest. it still throbs now. ugh. but u know, the instructor was really nice about it, and he even helped me lift my bike. interestingly enough, i keep veering to the right with bikes, as i do for bicycles. haha. oooOOOooo and today's cute pract guy was this tall goateed guy, totally la! and he warmed up next to me and everything. i very nearly died. he was taking his last 2A lesson. cool sey banggg.. haha okay i'm sorry i said that. oh and totally laaa when we went to the canteen later there were just beribus CD mats. loves it!

then later during theory the fat guy who was wearing red yest [and consequently got called on for looking like a stop light, therefore he wore green today] turned to me and said, "girl.. niari amek pract eh?" and proceeded to ask what time and everything. NO nat he doesn't like me. clearly he likes you, cuma i was sitting nearer to him. i suppose he thot we might be taking the same pract. well, no such luck, stoplight. oh and of cos, si liquid eyes came again [late]. we thought he went to sembahyang, but i suppose not. not very alim, these guys are. not that i'm surprised. oh and later when we were lining up to get our booklets stamped, liquid eyes happened to be behind me [btw, he was wearing the same shirt as yest. ni lagi satu nyer ahmad tau. hahaha.], so aku macam sengaje opened my booklet to the inside cover so he'd see my hot passport photo. haha. it worked, cos nat said he was looking at it. woohoo! too bad, that was like the only form of contact we had. boo.

tt should be it for today. i predict i'll have to take at least 2 more lesson ones. ohwell.

i'm really sleepy and zombie-fied right now. serious. takleh angkatttt. i didn't even do much yest, just a couple of boring theory lessons and dinner with the SA peeps. and i predict i'll be dead by the end of the day. i have practical followed by the last 2 theory lessons! yes i'm definitely gonna die.

and yet, there are rewards. cute guys in every sudut of the theory classroom! plus i saw hichael hanging round CDC yest.. i guess he's taking driving there.. he still looks the same, and memories of JC1 came flooding back like crazy. sometimes i'm tempted to think life was much easier then, when i didn't have to juggle ANY three persons or make a choice.

the 5 random things or whatever thingy

1. my latest crush is hardy, from work. whee~
2. i'm at baba's place now, trying to decide between her butterfly hoop earrings or her retro pink ones.
3. my face is dao and i look like i wanna kill someone but i'm just scared inside.
4. i still harbour an irrational and unattainable desire of becoming a model.
5. aku nak terberak. haha now THAT'S random.

and i was walking or whatever just now when i realised that this song [or this PART, anyway] completely and totally reminds me of azy.

i know that he loves me cos he told me so
i know that he loves me cos his feelings show
when he stares at me, you see he cares for me
you see how he's so deep in love
i know that he loves me cos it's obvious
i know that he loves me cos it's me he trusts
and he's missin' me, if he's not kissin' me
when he looks at me, his brown eyes tell his soul

i dunno what was wrong with me today. i actually FORGOT to wear earrings! aper ni? so i was feeling listless on the way to driving, and during driving and all that, and i had no idea why. until i looked in the mirror and i realised i had NO earrings on! okay, laugh if you want, but for me, [and don't kill me now] earrings are like tudung--for the non-tudunged me. so macam there was something missing all along, and so THAT was why i felt listless. so the moment aku sampai rumah baba tadi i asked her for a pair of earrings. hahaha.

i. am. SO. tireddddd. i blame fan. saper suroh dier kol aku malam2 buta and REFUSE to listen to my repeated "i'm tired"s? well. takper. whatever lah eh.

i reached home from work at like 1140 gitu. wow. hey but it was pretty fun today, cos abg rahim was working, so i felt slightly more at ease. and of cos, i'd be lying if i said hardy [yes that's how it's spelt] had nothing to do with it. he's just so incredibly adorable! macam the way he talks, the way he sings, the way he walks.. sighhh. tadi in the middle of nothing he gave me a sweet. haha. so of cos, aku yang giler ini kept the wrapper. hahaha. and just now at closing time he said to maria, "eh, kasi aku plastic bag satu--aku nak bungkus ain.." and i was macam standing there right next to him! [plastic bag=trash bag; he was doing trash duty] ahhhhhhh. and he was like, "smalam aku off.. aku jalan2 ngan ain ah.." aku macam, died right there on the spot while eating my nasi goreng belacan. dahlah dier melenggeng [that's the word right?] all over the place during closing.. it was all i could do not to stand there and just stare at him.

what IS it with me and H-guys? helmi was my first crush at swensen's. mannnn.

i haven't blogged for ages. haha. so let's pick up where we left off. haha. aku giler.

saturday i macam, fell off the bicycle and now i have battle scars! whee! then at night me, atikk and hanom went to hrc. haha. mannn beribu sakkk lims! mati aku. i swear they were macam everywhere! pusing sini, lim. pusing sana, lim. the music was good except the live band cam, suara tak sedap. and the stupid crowd only got onto the dancefloor at 1. but other than that, great! haha. yup, ader cute guys. but i was missing aliq.

oh and i had work yest, for the first time. alah from 6-10 je. tak lama. it wasn't too bad, i kinda enjoyed doing it all over again. and yes there was the requisite cute co-worker. his name's hadi and he's really adorable and stuffs. all short and tanned with dazril-like hair. hahaha. and quite friendly too. and when i asked how old he was, he said 17, and i totally believed him! then he made me guess how old he was, and after some deliberation, i said 19. and he got all grinny and he was like, "eh maria, aku 19 ah!--eh bandit, aku 19 sey!--eh i'm 19 sia!" he was so freaking happy and i was so freaking embarrassed, especially when he finally revealed that he was 24. hahaha. ohman but he is SO cute. smokes, though. biaser ah. no surprise.

oh riding SUCKED. other than the beribu cute mats and this one guy in particular who asked, "lesson brape?" when we were clearly wearing red tags. ahhhhhh. too bad he wasn't cute. his friend was, though. anyways. after that i went to swensen's, where i FINALLY met bun!!! i missed him sooooo much! when he looked up from the fountain and smiled, i very nearly died. i swear. he looks as adorable as i remember, with shorter hair this time. unfortunately his smile also rendered me speechless, so all i could come up with to ask him was, "kau dah pass motor?" he has. haha.

then i went to meet faliq, THEN in the 359 queue home, i met danial! [the guy i met on habbo.] unfortunately, aku macam malu nak tegur dier, while he didn't recognise me. so. yeah. i just spent the ride wondering if it was really him or not.

this morning i was running late cos i missed the 359 and all, and then in the bus suddenly i got to thinking about bumping into him last night.. SKALI DIER NAIK BUS!!! haha. so i was like, okay, this time i AM gonna talk to him. dahlah dier duduk blakang aku. AND smells of helmi. as in, he wears the same scent as helmi. this really irresistible spicy-flowery scent la. yah but anyway, i was still skared to turn around and ask those three simple words ["are you danial?" lah, don't think stupid.]. but finally biler dah turun bus, and he was almost next to me i turned and talked to him. so cool! i love meeting online friends in real life. too bad fathrul wasn't there too. i haven't seen him in oh so long. would be nice to see him again la.

today driving was okay, i think my blind spot bole pass la. haha. biaser ah, cute guys here, cute guys there. very fun. and i took a different route today, which macam passed by AMK, so cool!!!

yeah well i better go now or i'll be late for work.

wow so i watched saw 2 yest night. it was gore-rible! but wow the plot's just so amazingly slick, like a harry potter book! you know, when you like, find out the ending and you're like, damn i KNEW there was something tak kena with what i saw/heard earlier! but anyways, great movie.

i know why i like driving. cos i'm concentrating so hard on the road and checking my blind spot [one of my weaknesses, btw] and whatever that i totally forget everything else. [which is great.] it's sort of like working at swensen's dulu, that's why i enjoyed it so much. anyways yest i got a different instructor, this malay dude who's fairly cute, quite friendly and smells like aliq. oh and smokes. mann the moment dier masuk kereta it hit me. sheesh orang2 ni.

ohyah a big thanks to baba for accompanying me to watch holidays on ice - hollywood, which was promising at first but got annoying when it stretched to 3 hrs. kesian aku nyer 42" plasma tv.

today was my first day out on the road. it was cool! i think in some ways it was easier than circuit. but i had this carnal urge to floor the accelerator. haha. oh and there was this army truck infront of me at one junction. with four manjen guys in the back. and it was macam so embarrassing cos they were like staring at me and smiling, and aku cam tak tahu how to respond cos my instructor was next to me! so i just like, step safety check and i looked at my mirrors and steering wheel and other vehicles and shit. and then they watched as i made a left turn. naseb baik tak terlanggar apaper.

after tt i went over to baba's place where we watched bring it on again, which, frankly, sucks. but anyway. then we had lunch at KFC, and then we queued up for beribu hours for our rhumba frappucinos. there was this cute guy called azizi who looks like jambang, woohoo! and one guy who looks like fir. oh and boredom really does things to you.

to raihan-lookalike: "hi.. abang haus? nak queue up kat depan ngan ayang?"

cute green guy to me: "hey baby.. u haus? nak minum air i sikit?" [cos he already had his drink]

complications, complications.

oh and sorry atikk, i just felt like being a homebody today. haha.

fan called to apologise. which DEFINITELY complicates things. nasib baik my mom decided she needed to use the phone, so i just said i had to go. hahaha. okay i know i'm mean and i'm horrible, and i'm a ho. takyah cakap. aku dah tahu dah.

once again i was freaking early for driving. i just don't get it. i left the house at 115. and i reached there at 215! even before the previous class was let off. baik ainnn. so biaser ah, i just sat there enjoying the aircon and checking out the people who walked past. the mubarak guy wasn't in sight though. ohwell. we weren't meant to be, i suppose. sudahlah aku. i only saw him for 100 mins anyway. oh but there were these 2 riders. cute sey, one of them totally reminds me of loner guy with his missing teeth/tooth. and they ended up taking the bus to yishun with me too. and it was so cute, they were like reenacting their lesson with their other friend. OH and i saw a girl fall off her bike la tadi!!! i DIED.

okay, i spent like 3 and a half freaking hours on the phone last night with some guy i've hardly spoken to before, and DEFINITELY never met before. oh AND he's like twenty-freaking-six years old. haha. but somehow those 3 hours just flew by. extremely pleasantly [except for 10 minutes in which he expressed displeasure at my wanting to ride] too. well i guess there's just some people you can click with yea.

more driving today, and the class 2b people were riding pillion today, so cool! so biaser ah, aku distracted. and today it was junctions. not bad, but i'm still mounting the stupid left kerb. ohyah and YET ANOTHER instructor smiled at me. bagos. aku nak students, bukan instructor la dol! haha.

then i hung out at baba's house, devoured the last of the lemau cookies, and met aliq at yck. then we met nat, and we got our helmets! cam exciting with a twist of lemon. aperje aku. it transpired that our helmet host was none other than taha!!! i was SO surprised. no, really. well he's really nice. haha.

and maybe it's too early to tell, but i like being with aliq. even though he STILL reminds me of hannan at regular intervals. haha.

so i ended my first driving practical today with the conclusion tt i'll prolly NEVER pass. i kept mounting the kerb, for one. and i'd turn the wheel back before the 80% point or whatever. but the instructor was nice, totally patient and everything, and he also reminded me of ng tze beng and crystal [supervisor, swensen's]. and he kept saying stuff like, "slowly slowly.. see abang skared already.." or "careful, u want to knock over fatty ah? see he skared already.." haha. hilarious. i was literally roaring with laughter.

and of cos, the cute guys. OH the cute guys. basically, about 30% of the riders. there was one particular guy who looked ALOT like mubarak [as in, ahmad, from rj]. but MUCH cuter, and hotter. i think he was taking class 2 or 2A cos he was pretty much unsupervised. and very hottt!!! i kept on staring at him [and his fellow riders], i was totally distracted la, how am i ever gonna learn anything? but i think he completely hates me cos i was driving so badly and slowly and totally blocking his way and everything. ohwells. let's hope i improve so next time he'll be impressed with my skills. yarrite.

me: kau gi library buat pe? start blajar for next sem?
baba: tak, aku nak mintak young mats' numbers.

oooOOOooo. yesterday was so fun laaa. after spending macam prolly the last month being mad at fan, i managed to forget it for one night. went to devil's bar with ph*ahem* and his sister. i was so lucky, i managed to get a lift from my sister, who got home just as i was leaving. haha. anywaysss. it was fun. quadriceps and other assorted muscles are aching, but it was great. and i met bart!!! for the uninitiated, bart's this cute pizza guy i kinda liked back when i was working. but he stopped working round bout march or something. he looks the same, except he put on weight. haha. oh and there was this really hot black guy, dressed to attract amy in a cool long-sleeved shirt and pants, and he totally tore up the dance floor la! with those samsung-phone-advert moves. i DIED. he was amazingly hot, and totally tak perasan or anything! wowwww.

it was more fan drama earlier today, which included him waking me up at friggin 830 when i'd only gone to sleep at 7-freaking-30 am la! sial betul sey. so in the words of baba, "fan biarkan ronyok!"

and then it was more shopping today. gilerrssss. and i was a bit pissed that no jeans would fit my 42" plasma tv.

wow i just had the most lepakish day everrr.

woke up in the wee hours of the morning to meet nat at pasir ris to enrol for.. *ahem*. ohmann i had NO idea all the cute guys were at the other end of the train! okay, i had an inkling when i saw h*ahem* on the way to skl dulu. but samit was always in MY carriage! well. anyways. i shall convert next year or something. trust nat to keep something like this from me. ah anyway, i nearly died at CDC cos the CD mats were just everywhere! woohooooo. as a result, i kept saying, 5 mins more, 5 mins more, sampailah i was late for 3j meeting.

which was, btw, a nightmare as always for a shitty marketing officer like me.

but after tt was cool. we cabbed to bugis and spent the rest of the usable day lepaking at mac's. singing along to christmas songs, and crapping as usual. highlights include: carrot-rabbit-dazril, ice-skating, and atikk's MCR boyfriend. have fun man.

me: "mak aku anna belle francis, kau tak tahu?"
baba: "ohhh.."
baba again: "patutlah muker kau cam sheikh haikel!!!"

i KNOW, right? haha.

i'm ever so tired.

after a very nervous morning and afternoon, i actually passed my BTT! yay. thanks God. [in other words, Syukur Alhamdulillah.] so i think my first practical's this monday. yepp.

met up with filza in the evening. it's been so bloody long i can't believe i let so much time go by without meeting up. and incidentally, her dad knows loner guy's dad. as in, good friends. how unfair is that? i nearly died when she smsed me, "do u know this guy who lives near pasir ris pri, rides a bike, dad's name is m****** and is in chem yr 1?" haha. anyway i couldn't resist, i just HAD to shop. i bought a scarf frm forever 21 and 2 of those plain tops from topshop. i decided that since i always wear the ones i already have, i might as well add to the collection so i'd have more of the same tops to rotate. haha.

well it doesn't sound like much, but i had fun. =D

i was so malas to blog yesterday. so here i am now.

aku malas nak kasi details, although i'd say that it went great. he's adorable, really nice [but comments on cute guys abit too much for my liking], the food was good, and the movie [Just Like Heaven] was really sweet. and yes he like paid for everything [except my shopping], despite my violent protests. [well, i maintain that it wasn't a date.]

i saw dil and chuckie [a.k.a. matair asilah] at HMV. is chuckie working there? cool. and dil is still hot, and there was another cute guy there. mannn now i wanna work there. haha. i bought 4 movies--Troy, Shall We Dance?, The Wedding Planner and Deal With It, which, incidentally, is the only one i haven't watched before--and the cute rafi guy rang them up for me. woohoo! haha. and maybe now he knows my name, cos i was using my master.

anyways after that we walked all the way down to dhoby ghaut. lovely lights, especially outside the istana. i like the whole blue-purple stars theme. lovelylovely.

yesyes then we went home, but he kept saying sorry cos he felt bad for going home early. haha.

since ahmad is such a terrible photographer, i can't post the pics of the pizza hut celebration. haha. so kat atas tu is a scene from Bring It On, one of my all-time favourite movies, and the one i watched tonight.

so anyway i had fun. i'm just gonna skip the calculus part cos it was just horrible la. no other word for it.

we went to the marina pizza hut [newly opened, it's lovely and cosy with great decor, especially now it's christmas and everything], and we had [for archive's sakes] the large stuffed crust supreme splitzza, garlic bread, baked beefballs in Alfredo sauce and--my personal favourite--10 pcs honey-roasted wings. mannn. sedap giler bodoh! everything, everything, everything was yummy. the last two items are obviously new additions. and both rockkkk. the beefballs were extremely erm, beefy, and the wings were wowwww. i swear, it was just the perfect christmassy taste. i knocked back at least three.

of course, what's a great restaurant experience without cute help? there was this really cute guy with a universally baik-yet-slightly-handsome face. and he had such a nice smile. sighhh. i tried countless times to look at his name, and just as i'd convinced ahmad to try and look at it for me, he [the guy] came forward to clear the table. woohoo! aku pon aper lagi, berharirayelah. oh and his name? well let's just say tt when i finally saw it, i commented, "wow it goes with the season!" haha. it's okay. only orang high-class will get the joke. =D ooh

after tt, kiter sempat gi swensen's for dessert. i was gonna have the MAF i've been craving for about a month, but the marina one has yogen fruz [yogen'a love it!] so i got that instead. yum, and according to ahmad, "step healthy to make up for what u ate at pizza hut." kurang asam. dahlah amek gambar blur. hotak dier ah. [i hope you're reading this!!! haha.] and of cos, by some stroke of luck, MDM was working. oh he's ever so handsome, even amy agrees. i GOTTA marry someone like that.

and then it was another nice walk home from the mrt for me. i hope i can make it a habit.

so in addition to the islam paper being objectively difficult today, i TOTALLY and UTTERLY could NOT concentrate.

but in the morning i got a good-luck sms from drivingchef, followed by an entire train ride with double decaf, whose real name is REALLY cool! haha. but of cos, privacy reasons, takleh letak kat sini. i attempted to follow him to LT8, but the idiot gi jalan blakang aku at first, so aku terkial2, so in the end i had to kol ahmad and wail at him for directions. haha. but i spotted double decaf going into the gents, so maybe it was a good thing i didn't follow him after all. hahaha.

and then of course, in the LT, pasta sat next to me. on my left, to be precise. and to make matters worse, he's kidal, so we were kinda aligned towards each other. AND he was so cute, he put on a white cap to keep his floppy hair off his face. i must have done that lean-back-and-pretend-to-think-but-actually-checking-him-out move like a billion and one times. mannn. he's just so fugly but totally redeemed by his pillar bod and blonde hair! sigh. of course, in 2 hours the exam was over and that was the last i ever saw of him. [cheyy dramatic sial.]

reached pasir ris without much happening, except for this vik with the SLEAZIEST eyes sitting next to me [actually, i sat next to him first, but HEY i was tired!], and this literally fat guy who was so fat, i wanted to move to the vik's lap, and when we reached pasir ris i practically ran out of the train. then i visited shasha for awhile, and walked home again. seriously. walking home's such fun. this time there was a red rhino full of my fireman mats, woohoo! totally hot.

then i reached home and unwrapped my new hooksonyou earrings [which came by registered mail yest but we weren't home so my mom collected them from the post office tadi]. i got two pairs--yummy-looking cherry pies, and dangly red ones. yay. i SO can't wait to show them off. prolly on monday.

i watched she's all that for the 62853rd time just now. rachael leigh cook is so exquisitely pretty. and freddie's just very hot in the movie. AND paul walker's in it too! and i love the scene where they dance by the pool. tres romantic. and very picturesque.

somehow i'm in an incurable movie mood these days. so. wonder what i'll watch tmr.. haha.

hi i've missed u. and by "u", i mean my blog. haha.

just wanted to drop u a line in the midst of stressing out over my remaining 2 papers.

drivingchef has been keeping up with those mixed signals, congrats to him. i walked home from the mrt yesterday cos of the lovely weather and my shitty food security paper--which i "finished" 45 minutes ahead of time. dropped by swensen's first, but as usual, i didn't manage to cross paths with bun. i guess it's a sign. too bad, cos he was actually the first nice guy i've liked since the beginning of the year. oh speaking of bun, i realised yesterday [while staring at loner guy for the last hour of CM1111] that loner guy reminds me of bun, ALOT. those thick eyebrows. the build. the hair! so cute! but he's just lacking in bun's lips. that's about it. okay sorry for talking about the lips. amy'll prolly have loads of stupid [not to mention dirty] things to say about that.

i kinda can't wait for tuesday, but i'm kinda dreading it too. but that's only normal right? and he IS a nice guy right? i've had enough of all these other guys [i.e. mats] who don't really like the me inside. not that he likes me, of course. haha.

in keeping up with the random-thoughts theme of this entry, i think lydia looks great. if i'd just come back after a multiple-month stint in perth, i'd prolly be half-bald from tearing patches of my hair out in the process of dealing with the man they call my uncle.

yep that was fun. time to hit the sack.

heyyyyyyy

okay, the past 24 hours have been surreal. there's just no other word for it.

i spent like, almost 12 hours at the airport mugging away. it was horrible. i hate mugging. [saper suker eh?] but it's like worse alone. haha. but. butbutbut. okay dengar betul2. i finally went home at like 8-ish, i took 53 cam biaser and everything. i was looking all slenger and oily and fat, i mean, WHO looks good after a day of mugging? but as the bus approached the T2 checkpoint, aku masuk angin aper entah, and i rebanged my hair and rearranged it in a less slenger way lah. you know, just in case the checkpoint police guy was hot [i.e. samit, or those yg sewaktu dengannya]. okay, so he entered the bus. but my view was blocked for the entire first half of his walk, by the stupid EZlink card reader. and then as he passed me, i nearly died! i'd know tt face anywhere! it was--[no not samit] HAFIZ AS'ARI!!! i DIED. i swear. ohmannn. he's so cool! i had half a mind to shout, "hafiz!!!" but i didn't. i know he wants to meet his fans and all that, tapi what if i embarrassed him, or myself [in the likely case dier buat bodoh ke..]? so aku diam je. but when he was positioned outside the bus, i turned and stared [at his nametag, just to make sure]. ohman. he's so cool. and u know the thing about "celebrities" is, you support them even more once you've met them, pasal now they've somehow been humanised or smthg. anyway. it was cool. i hope i'll bump into him again in a less scrutinisable context, so tt i can actually say hi. but you know. i prolly WON'T be so lucky again. and it took every last ounce of self-restraint i possessed, and then some, to keep myself from dancing away in the aisle.

yeah. so that was the airport thing.

last night was a whole different story. it involved loads of crying over movies and then some scary questions, answers and statements from drivingchef, which culminated in HIS ASKING FOR MY NUMBER!!! woohoo!

and i spent the better part of the day smsing him. ahhhh..

oh and sorry for the long hafiz as'ari paragraph.

"The odd thing about this form of communication is, that you�re more likely to talk about nothing rather than something but I just wanna say, that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many.. somethings. So thanks." -Kathleen Kelly, You've Got Mail

Wow. Amazing. I actually got through CM1101. Haha. Banyak calculations la, tt�s why. I mean yeah, I forgot like half the formulas, but at least I didn�t feel like crying after the paper.

Afterwards, me and Nat were just like, eh nak terkencing, but the toilets are all full, so let�s go to YIH. But then Nat was like, why don�t we go mac�s skali? And I was like, Nat don�t tempt me! But you know me. In the end kiter pergi jugak. Hahaha. Had my usual and everything, it was great, and then in the train home ader jugak cute guys yang aku dapat tgk. Haha.

Nat�s right, the weather�s really great today. It�s been cool all the way till now. Very very nice. I should have just walked home from the interchange. Tapi aku bodoh. Takper I�ll try it on Friday after Islam.

When I got home, guess what I did? I turned on my D, switched off the lights, and watched the 7936492nd screening of You�ve Got Mail. Melalaked as usual, round bout the time she saw herself twirling in the shop, and when Joe Fox asked her, "If I hadn�t been Fox Books, and you hadn�t been The Shop Around the Corner.. And you and I had just met.. [pause] I would have asked for your number.. And I wouldn�t have been able to wait 24 hours before calling you up and saying, how bout coffee.. or dinner.. or a movie? ..For as long as we both shall live."



And of course, the final scene. Ah. How I love that movie.

woohoo. so suff's open house was a blast, rupernyer, despite the gaping hole that was the absence of his bctc friends. haha.

in the 39 to yishun this group of YP mats was on the bus with me. one of the cuter ones sat next to me, and he said to his friend, "eh amek gambar, amek gambar!" i tried my best to pretend i was pekak [listening to mp3s], but i wanted to laugh really. but 30 seconds later he added, "amek aku soranglah.." yarrite, YP mat. ohwell. he would have been irresistible had he not been smelling of fags. i mean, he was wearing capals! i lurve capals. and all of them were wearing capals, i think.

i am in love with suff's littlest brother, aidil. he's so adorable with that mangkuk hair and big eyes and takder gigi.. and i was telling amy and baba that THAT is what ishmael is gonna look like, insya-Allah. so, i continued, i better not marry anyone with curly hair. recessive genes, y'know. haha. or whatever.



ooh we watched the butterfly effect partway and it is SO freaky in a non-hantu way. kesian aku nyer ashton. i ate so much, pon maseh sempat gi swensen's for dessert after tt, where this poser CSR commented directly to me, "cantik bunga!" eeee. kalau kau poser, jgn cakap ngan akulah.

anyways. bottomline is, i had fun, so thanks to everyone for making me feel non-intruding. yay.


me posing with the ayams. yummm.


my ex-friends languishing in "jail".


group pic!

thanks baba. it's completely untrue though. okay not COMPLETELY. but about 50% is merepek. when, for example, did i have an interest in politics?

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously. Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart.

Your date match profile: Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about. Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Funny 3. Traditional 4. Big-Hearted 5. Romantic 6. Religious 7. Shy 8. Practical 9. Sensual 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Funny 2. Shy 3. Conservative 4. Traditional 5. Romantic 6. Religious 7. Practical 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Big-Hearted 10. Stylish

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

The other night they were playing our song
Hadn't heard it for oh so long
Took me back darlin' to that time in my car
When you cried all night cause we'd gone too far

Can I ever getcha back
Getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Can I ever getcha back

I'm getting tired laying around here at night
Thinkin' bout some other guy holding you tight
He may have money and a brand new car
May even treat you like a movie star
And no matter what he ever do for you
He can never love you like I can do
So if I leave her and you leave him

Can we ever get it back again
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Can I ever getcha back

Bow bow bow oop

Bow bow bow oop

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him
(Getcha back) can we make it
(Getcha back) get it back again

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him
(Getcha back) can we make it
(Getcha back) get it back again

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him -Beach Boys

i totally didn't do anything today. i mean, i'm not gonna call 4 hours busing and mrting and walking over the island, eating a grand total of 6 roti kirais over the course of the day, and watching herbie: fully loaded--actually doing anything.

i never have very much to blog about anymore. how sad. maybe it'll be better after the exams.

i'm SO hungry. i blame ahmad and dazril for sitting next to me, and for not tambahing so i couldn't tambah without looking greedy either. it's one thing to tambah food infront of girls [i.e. rgs jalan raya sec 4], but it's a whole other issue tambahing infront of guys.

hate guys.

what a lie.

anyway i had a great time at casa amy, with her entire family, shah, atikk, ahmad and daz. we should SO do it again.

and thanks to lina for taking the camwhore pics of me and atikk on the windowseat. haha.

i'm so sleepy. and drivingchef da tido, so yeah i'm gonna sleep right after this.

last night was Operation H*****. it was so crazy and nerve-wracking, for both of us. although i played more of a passive role, it was MY reputation on the line there! one slip of the finger and i'd have lost my drivingchef forever. so i was just like panicking at every little thing baba updated me on. well. to make a long and painful story short, it seems successful so far. but we'll see how it goes yes? i have half a mind to back out anyway.

this morning i was running a little late. u know, the rain and all. i even decided to skip breakfast so i cld get 15 extra minutes of sleep. i didn't sleep well la, with the loud guruhs and drivingchef nightmares and all. so anyway, i'd actually missed the samit bus, so i didn't think i was gonna see him, but hey. when i got on the bus, there he was!!! ahh samit. you rock. with your longgar police pants and handsome-nak-bunuh-diri face.

when i got there, i was just settling down and everything when this manjen guy came with a copy of the straits times and put his stuff down and i almost died cos it was STUDY BUDDY! ah he's still as adorable, but less slengerly so. and i think he remembers me! =D yey.

and then, at like 8-ish, this talldarkhandsome guy in a cool black shirt with sinewy arms showing, cool broken-into jeans, black crumpler bag and handphone pouch and laptop, walked past. and i went into a pseudo-seizure, prodded baba roughly and hissed, "KASHBIR!!!" totally. the last person i expected to see. omg. he's just so incredibly hot. who'd have thought i'd get to see both of them in the same day? i'm just so incredibly lucky.

dahlah aku ngantok. despite all the cool sightings niari, the studying wasn't that great. and there's more to come tmr. argh.

you can always tell when it's exam time. my bed gets doubly messy. it's so funny. books here, notes there, loose papers and pens all over. have fun ain.

watched the goblet of fire today. yes today. cool huh? at century cineplex. it's quite good, i suppose. i can't give an objective opinion la, pasal i hate the new dumbledore STILL, and the deviations from the book really get to me. so yeah. but cedric IS SO HOTTT. kill me now!!! haha. and krum is endlessly sweet, despite looking abit too tua for his character. ohwells. can't have everything, can we?

we saw MDM at the airport bus terminal. looking as good as ever. i HAVE to marry someone like that.

and this was in one of my notebooks tt i recently rediscovered. i posted it before, i think. but i really like the simplicity of it. and the stupid drawings i made alongside it in my notebook. it's not another funny merepek poem though. just merepek.

me & you
in bright blue hues
under the same colour sky
and if it ever
starts to rain
i'll never say goodbye
now we're wearing
yellow raincoats
and together we brave the downpour
my straggly hair
hangs over my face
yet you move close to me all the more
me and you
we're sitting down
your arm encircled round me
we've been through many
kinds of weather
but we stay forever happy. -230402-

Me and my bag
take up the whole aisle
We stand together
for a really long while.

And sometimes when space
is especially tight,
Some assholes [how dare they?]
will try to alight.

They ruthlessly try to
claw past us
For fear of being
trapped in the bus.

So the nametag's screwed
And my energy's spent
But my bag's intact,
not a sign of a dent.

Sometimes these assholes
will make me lose balance
But inside, we just pray
that they get their comeuppance.

At this point I conclude
That the universe sucks
And my life on this planet--
It's not worth 2 bucks.

But then a lim
will look my way
My bag stays silent
but I think, "Hurray!"

Turbulent weather
And human walls
Bugis to Boon Lay
We've been through it all.

Me and my bag
we stand as one
We look good together
Who can beat us?--none.

i think i wrote that back in sec 3, about my huge blue haversack. found it while rummaging through piles of dusty books and notes, trying to find my chem stuffs from yesteryear. haha.

had fun studying today, back at my old spot. and i finally saw samit, after about 10 months. i'm serious. NOT exaggerating. and he saw me. and well he looks the same as ever, effortlessly handsome and endlessly cool.

tadi macam bynk nak blog, skarang dah luper segala2nya. ohwells. hope u enjoyed the poem. it's written in my characteristic merepek style. oh and i found a rangkap of malay poem i wrote in answer to ahmad fathi's pantun greeting on msn, about 3 years ago. haha. memories can be so fun.

I actually had a good, less-than-boring day today. Haha. Woke up late as usual, although I mysteriously tersedared at 830 in the morning, despite having slept at about 3. anyway, out of some kegilaan of mine, I decided to follow my parents to jalan raya today. Haha. Don�t ask why. Okay fine, it was cos when I asked my mom, "mummy nak gi maner?" and she replied, "gi rumah kakak mummy kat bendeemer," I immediately thought of the makcik with the four mat sons. But when my mom sed, "asal, nak ikut?" I just gave a non-commital "belum mandi ah" in reply, cos aku takot dier tahu my true agenda. Haha. But about 30 seconds after that I went to mandi, hoping she�d get the subtle hint. Thankfully, she DID wait for me and I siaped in about 15 minutes flat, which is a real achievement for me.

Okay, for the record, it WASN�T that makcik�s house. BUT. She WAS there! With one of her cute sons. I nearly died. His name�s Azhar, or something similar. But I can�t figure out if he was the one who said bye to us. Well but the point is, tak sia-sia aku pergi. Haha. And the mother was telling us that her youngest son was asking about me and my sister. And how he asked her, "mama, itu adik mama [referring to my mom] betul-betul ke olok-olok?" Cute. I suppose he was checking on marriage legality issues or something. Haha.

Well we went to another house after that, then I went to shasha�s house! Wow. Cool. It was me and shima and imah at first, then the two left, and I hung around for awhile, before nan and umar finally showed up. It was really fun, we ate and had free maltesers and fruit cocktail, watched movies AND sang karaoke. Ahh I so did not regret going. Fun fun funnn.

And if you�re wondering why this looks different from my normal posts, it�s cos I�m typing with Microsoft word first, so they autocorrect all my small caps and stuff.

This always happens. Just as I reach the end of my rope with him [or whatever that saying is], he does something and manages to extricate himself out from the depths of my wrath. And for the first time I was talking to him on the phone while chatting to SOMEONE ELSE online! It felt so weird and guilt-inspiring.

Yeah well anyway I had an okay day today. Went to ssdc again, once again beribu mat motors. And while I was walking back to yck mrt, I stood there waiting to cross the road. But oh my God, what timing! A whole line of class 2 students was cruising past on their way back. I nearly died of embarrassment and awkwardness. [Kadang2 kalau banyak sangat, susah nak tengok.] But I spotted a few cute ones la. Ironic thing was, the one who macam, smiled at me, was the instructor at the tail end. Ya Allah. Buat malu je sey.

You know what I love? Guys who love babies/kids. No I�m serious. It really gives them a human touch. It shows a whole new side to them, and they have THAT much more depth. To me anyway. Like, even if he�s the nerdiest-looking guy on the planet, or the most gangsterish, the fact that they like kids kinda redeems them. Haha.

it's been too long.

the 72947294 hours i wasn't blogging, i was busy sleeping [never got enough] and going crazy over chem test and the islam essay. yeah. man it was horrible. next sem [if there IS a next sem for me], i'll make sure this doesn't happen again.

driving chef's been great. so supportive and patient and well he's just incredibly sweet.

sigh.

on monday i was going to ssdc and this mrt man [i.e. smrt officer] stopped me after i passed thru the barrier at khatib, and asked to see my card. heLLO, pakcik! okay maybe those blonde streaks make me look like a minah who's too stupid to be studying at tertiary level, whether it be poly or uni. but STILL. don't make it so obvious la. i guess he's just bored pasal those terrorists were foiled before they could bomb neighbouring yishun mrt.

i lurve the ite mats at ssdc. yey.

okay and btw, abovementioned blonde streaks are now all but gone. cos i went to see jack on monday and i got my roots done, and the streaks have been muted by the new brown colour. it's still a love-hate thing though. i love the new colour, but i really miss some of the streaks. well. takpe. anyway nurul was the only one who noticed the new colour. and daz was the only one who noticed i cut my hair. woksss. well, jadilah.

anyway since i was finally freed today, i celebrated by going for ice-cream with my chem peeps. but it kinda expanded into this whole big lunch at sakura followed by ice-cream, with a bit of shopping in between. seriously. aku ngan shah have this becky bloomwood disease man. this time she got a really pretty turquoise-ish shrug with a satin ribbon, and beribu fabric bunga tudung pins. and *I* got a loner guy bag for like $25, AND 3 fake bunga hairpins. they didn't have a price display or anything, i got a shock when she rang up the total and it came to $11+. i had to use my NETS cos takder lagi duit!!! i'm a losaaa.

it's not a crime to go out on dates with different people at the same time right? i mean, as long as you're not dating them in the same instant.

i. am. so. senak.

had another of those rare hangout sessions with the brother and sister just now at the T2 fish & co. God. i adore fish & co. i could live there. and this time there was another cute bartender. all goateed and farhan-like hair and basically very hot. mim, of course. seriously. he was shit hot. i wanted to die. but he didn't serve us at all! yargh. imran the first cute bartender was working too. but he was in the kitchen for some odd reason. ohman i am so going back there, even though the service kinda sucked this time. i had my usual, plus some health-conscious tea, and a ben & jerry's sundae. ohman. camna tak gemuk gini? and yes they actually serve ben & jerry's. yummmm.

and then i came home and watched the rest of dil to pagal hai, which i've already watched before anyway, but just HAD to watch again. besok tak skl pe. hahaha. not that i've done any actual studying. takkan next sem nak amek 10 modules sak. arghhhhh.

drivingchefdrivingchefdrivingchef. kalau kau dah tido, SWITCH OFF YOUR LAPPY.

WOKAY i just got caught off-guard by a bunch of sadistic relatives. and i don't even know them!!!

i'd just reached home, and all that gedebak-gedebuk, and i was coming out of the toilet, all slenger-ish in my RED M&Ms BOXERS and ratty srjc netball tshirt dating back about a decade [i swear!]. my mom calls me, "ain!" and i look into the living room, and i realise that there's a whole freakin' family there, and i can see them, which means they can see me, and it's all just highly embarrassing cos i look so shitty and they're all baju-kurunged, and the worst part is... there are cute guys!!!

in fact, this family has like 4 sons and no daughters, it seems. and at least 2 out of the 4 sons are cute. and they all saw me in my slenger getup! i was SO mortified. my boxers!!! well luckily the mother came into the kitchen, so i was saved the agony of having to go right out and salam her. hahaha. anyway i went discreetly to my room, changed, and made an appearance again so tt my mom could intro me to the father. [pasal belum pernah jumpe kan.] and ALL the sons turned around to look at me. buat maluuuuuuu.

eh but seriously they're cute! a bunch of cute mats sitting in my living room!

anyway, photos. these two were taken yesterday. excuse my scruffy brother, i know he's nothing like atikk's brothers, Cutie and Jambang.




as you can tell, i'm taller than the people in the first row. haha. and i'm also the darkest. which explains why my mom keeps complaining when i go tanning.



this was what atikk's pathetic "wear-baju-kurung-day" attempts came to. haha. kat bawah are me and amy, and the photo in which atikk claims she looks like a gay. haha. forgive my bloated face, i was in bouts of laughter seeing atikk in baju kurung and stuff.




and that's fazli and me. bertembung on the way to the canteen, so i couldn't resist. he's so funnily cute.

i was gonna blog this morning before we left the house, but D kept hanging and stuff. so yeah. anyway let's get the necessaries out of the way.

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin to one and all. but i'm pretty sure i'll make those same mistakes again in the coming year. *does the amy face*

well as usual, i was friggin bored for the most part of the day. the route was
mak-->mak ngah-->nek hawa-->nek uteh-->nek andak-->sakura@eastpoint-->nek timah-->nek ngah.
haha. anyway biaserlah, tak bynk cute guys. in fact, practically non-existent. but at neks hawa/uteh there was this guy who macam, gave us [me/my sister] a hint of a smile. problem was, both of us were wondering if he was the bapak or the anak. then nek hawa gave him duit raya, at which point i muttered, "yesss the mystery is solved!" haha. ohwells. he's not tt cute lah, but he's a very nice abang and all that. so i tried to arrange my face into a more friendly expression. haha. and at nek andak's there was the same cute guy i saw last year. in black again, i think. but again, he's another of those guys who're supremely uninterested in me. haha. and there was this hot tall guy in the freshest, loveliest shade of green, with really cool stubble. but he kept hanging out in the room. ohwells.

yeah about the "sakura@eastpoint" part. my mom doesn't really like the seasonal lemakish food. so she just HAD to go have some clear fishball soup or whatever. haha. yep.

best part about the whole day was, we reached home at 920. that's gotta be a record or something. yeyyy.

when i left the house this morning [albeit a little late], i expected to come home with a pair of birkenstocks and a cute white billabong handbag. but i wasn't really looking forward to the shopping, cos going alone makes it an arduous task, while going with someone else makes it uber-fun. but anyways. i was in quite an agreeable mood this morning. and there was a semi-cute ite mat in the train. all the way to city hall. so that was good. he also looked familiar, but i couldn't place him for all the 12 stops.

by the time i reached skl, aku nak terkencing [as usual], and only shah was there. the idiot went and msged me on msn, and the alert sound reverberated the whole of the 6th level, buat malu sey. aku belom plug in earphones, relek babe! unfortunately since we BOTH had laptops, we wasted quite a bit of time interacting with each other. macam bisu gitu eh. boleh bebual tanak bebual, nak msn. a few hours later shah and me turned into shah, me, amy, their respective pasangans, and alfian, for a while. but it was fun. i even managed to finish practically all my readings. tapi in the end i didn't return the books pasal malas. [i DID attempt to upah al 5, then 10, dollars to return my books, but he didn't find the offer attractive enough.]

there were quite a number of GGMs. in chrono order, surfer 1 [the ONLY cool guy i saw at matric]--who studied alone, semangat sey!, bouncer--who has a gf i think, headphones/kasut guy [he scribbled "they're headphones dammit" on his cool sneakers], and surfer 2--who has a bike, yey. yup that was fun.

at first before 1 i guess there was no one online, but they started coming online at like 1-plus. so when a certain someone came online at 2, i abandoned all plans to go shopping and it was all amy could do to drag me away from my msn. :( haha. well, bad timing. aper nak buat kan. but i maintain that if she came back earlier from gallivanting with mubs, it could ALL have been avoided.

we bused to orchard, and split up there. i attacked the birkenstock shop right away. the nice rudy-looking guy helped me find a design that they actually had my size in, and i found out tt i'm a 40, not a 42! like i said to amy, "42 tu pantat aku gaknye." wahaha. yeah so my birks, lovely lovely lovely. nasib baik they didn't have the heidi klum range or i'd never have left the shop.



dropped by the crumpler shop [with the birkenstock shopping bag in prominent display so they'd think i was rich], where nothing really tickled my eyeballs except for the laptop cases. kiutttt. and we kept walking past fish & co, i nearly went in and ordered my usual seafood platter for two. hahaha.

there was a display of calendars outside borders, so we went back downstairs, where i had a hard time choosing between disney princesses and betty & veronica. serious it was a hard time. and the uber-hot, uber-cool, and suave-nak-mampos cashier, amir, didn't really help matters. haha. mannn he's seriously the personification of TallDarkHandsome. -mati- he seemed supremely uninterested in me, unsurprisingly. i'm sure he has his pick-and-choose of girls. oh right. the calendars. well i decided that my dislike of archie outweighs that of mulan, so...

yeah so after that we went back across the road, and into lido isetan where i showed amy the white billabong handbag. i was all set to buy it when she suggested we go look at the roxy bags at pacific. so we trooped back downstairs, into pacific plaza. besides cute green-guy-lookalike, i found the cutest clutch/handbag at ripcurl! and for only $29.90! [the billabong was a relatively-exorbitant $39.90.] so i was like, aaaarrgghhh and we decided to go have a gander at what roxy had to offer. WELL. at roxy i found the coolest, boldest fire-engine red handbag!!! it cost $46 originally, but they were giving 20% off. so i stood there, in the throes of indecision. [in the meantime, this manjen girl walks in with her boyfriend, and what is she wearing? the exact fuschia topshop sleeveless ribbed top! i nearly keeled over and died, and kind amy decided to abandon me by laughing away in the next aisle. i grabbed the red handbag and this furry black one and tried to hide my top behind it. luckily she left in a hurry. i guess dier pon perasan.] amy was salivating over this gorgeous brown button-down top, which looks boho and beachy and formal all at the same time. lovely price of 70 bucks too. haha. ok back to my dilemma. by this time i'd decided not to get the billabong. tak worth it. it was the most ex of the three anyway. finally amy volunteered that the roxy suited me better. so i was about to get the roxy when she said, "are you sure?" and that's when it hit me! a brainwave, i mean. i used the card for the roxy and we went back downstairs where i used cash for the ripcurl. kan senang.





yey. so i was happy. oh and i was waiting for the train at raffles place when this group of ite mats came by. and one of them was the same one i'd met in the morning! coolness. as in, what a coincidence. and in the train there was the cutest guy in a striped tshirt and jeans tucked into his adidas. cutenyer. and he kept sleeping. and he turns out to live 3 stops away from me. he was sleeping everywhere--in the train, the bus, agaknyer bus stop jugak. like i was telling shah this morning, i love guys who sleep. they look so innocent and vulnerable--no matter how setan they may be inside.

so. recap eh. i left the house expecting to come home with a pair of birks and a handbag, and i come home with



a pair of birks, TWO handbags AND a disney princesses calendar.

bimbodoh moment of the day: "the machine swallowed my card!"

anyway, thanks to the brilliant ng tze beng, i ended up reaching home at around, oh i dunno, 755pm?!?!?! i should have just gone home with CBG yeah? alah tapi maluuuu. well so i bukaed in 359 with the sweet that the bungkus2 "hantu" gave me just now. rupernyer sedap jugak. nicer than the apple actually. hahaha. oh and i had the LOVELIEST sleep in the train. sedap giler, cam tanak bangun sey.

and i'm getting my birkens tmr, WITH or WITHOUT a shopping partner. argh it's times like these when i miss shafa the most.

happy hallowe'en. i actually took a photo with one of the hooded "ghosts" walking around. so fun!

i'm so annoyed. now my sister is wearing my favourite saints tshirt around the house, knotted round her waist, as a baju tidur. wow. it's one of my favourite tshirts! ameklah tshirt lain sial. and when i shrieked at her not to wear it, she completely ignored me.

fuck. if this is how it's gonna be, i'd rather she go back to her fucking marine parade condo and have her and my mom continue to be angry at each other. although THAT won't happen. i think my mom'd rather have her back than have both me and zul around. you know, ever-loving firstborns.

once again, one of those things that seem too teeny to get so uptight about, but i AM anyway.

every saturday i come home thinking maybe i do like him enough to believe i'm not single.

well anyway. had penyiaran meeting in the late morning. quite enjoyable. plus i was there an hour early, so i sat there finishing one of my islam books. missed D terribly, but u know, berat and all. after tt i hung out with hanom for awhile, then took the eastbound train together. where we discussed first impressions. and i think general first impressions of me can be summed up in one word: bimbodoh. kan dazril kan? [not tt u read this blog. but we know who DOES!!! (sorry aku giler)]

i'm glad i didn't commit to seni iftar, cos i met fan right after the meeting to go shopping at queensway. well, he shopped. i salivated. there was this whole range of marc ecko watches with an average price of $300; a bright-giler-nak-mampos puma-ferrari jacket i just HAVE TO HAVE; AAAAAAAAAANNNNNDDD.. the iscream yoghurt counter!!! i died. okay actually prices are like a dollar higher, which is alot. but u know! sedap! for a moment my puasa wavered. sorry, God. it wasn't cos i was hungry [i wasn't. yet.], but it's just tt i love it so much! i think i could spend the rest of my life living on it. alone.

fan has a similar shopping style as me. it's quite amusing really.

anyway on our way out we bumped into two adorable boys--the respective brothers of non-fren and burger. how adorable! i wanted to grab each one and hug him. haha. i refrained from doing so, of course. glad to see that they're still alive and healthy, and that they seem to be taking after their abangs excellently.

after some difficulty deciding where to buka--fish & co/swensen's/pizza hut--we finally plumped for pizza hut. in the end kena 44 bucks plus sial. haha. the girl serving us, nurul, was really nice and she completely reminds me of nadzi. and there was one guy who reminded me of zul [adik akulah]. ah bagoslah tu. and did u know the ILT is actual tea? so they give u simple syrup to add to ur preference. sedap gilerr. and three lemon slices. i was in heaven. and i had no idea they switched radio channels just before buka. how considerate!

i can still taste the stuffed crust. ohyeah and i finally fulfilled my kepinginan rhumba frappucino at the TM starbucks. all guys on duty. mostly cute. hehe.

i am a loser.

firstly, i confuse night and day. tadi before buka i took a nap cos i was so freakin' tired. but my mom had to come and wake me several times before i actually staggered outside to buka. after buka, dah sembahyang, i went back to dreamland. bila tersedar, i saw that the clock showed almost 9, and i was CONVINCED it was 9 in the morning.

related to that, i left D on while i was sleeping. so a couple of people msned me, and i completely ignored them cos i was sleeping. haha. seriously. i slept for 2 hrs--9 to 11--with D still on and blaring songs which i didn't really hear anyway. i even had some dream about doing a project with julian and jon chen. why julian and jon chen? God i really have no idea.

next time, NO MORE all-nighters.

"is it just me, or do you only sleep during the day?"

was what fathrul said to me at 330 this morning. i thought it was quite funny. not to mention partially true. haha.

so i went to skl for about an hour today. aje. wow. i was supposed to go for TTT at 135, but i was SO sleepy from the previous 2 nights that aku malas nak bangun. in the end i was woken up by a phone call from fai. [no, not rul.] it's amazing how he always manages to call me at exactly the wrong time. but anyway, it woke me up, so that served its purpose.

yeah so i rushed to skl and everything, and met up with diatch to do mkting stuffs. she took over the project network proposal, thankfully. it was driving me nuts really. anyway i was GONNA go for eugene at 4, but when i called amy, she was still in the library, with NO PLANS whatsoever to go for the lecture, so i just went home la.

SO. i was in skl from 305 to 415. that's hardly an hour! so i rushed all over the planet for what was essentially nothing. great. in fact, the only thing i got out of today was how to take out D's battery. haha.

2 nights. i won't be able pull an all-nighter for 2 nights. will DEFINITELY miss it, and all other things associated with it.

i was having another of my haggard days today. seriously, i didn't even wanna look at myself in the mirror. it was THAT horrible. and i slept like giler in the train home and everything. but anyway, the point is, when i got home i was teetering on the edge of grumpy.

and then i saw this:




korang tak faham. i've been wanting an armchair in my room ever since i could sit. haha. and this is MY armchair, the one i used to sit in, in the living room, back in its heyday. but then we got a new sofa set and i casually suggested they put this one in my room. but takde space. so i sleep over at RH for one night, and i come home to this! what a lovely surprise.

so. guess where i'm sitting now?

Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta

Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri

Kau buatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Kau buatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri -Peter Pan

nice huh? i love this yearly tradition of mine. really helps me look forward to rayer/ramadhan.

we bukaed at komala's, i had my usual. sedap gilerrsss. it was quite fun, cos there was a cute vik outside, working at the coffeeshop next door, "offering" me his drink. no really he was cute. which was primarily why i layaned him.

then we began our trek around the bazaar. we must've walked around each place at least twice. my kakis are just dying now. there were some really droolworthy bajus, but my baju quota has long since been reached so yeah. we bought yummy ice-blended drinks for $2.50 at the part outside darul arqam. then we did our inai, and sat at a fly-infested bench for like 45 minutes waiting for it to dry. gilersss. but it was good mat-watching. they can't see you at all, but you have a great view of them.

hmm we met ammar. syahida's right, he's definitely less cute now. still cute, but less so. ohwell he still remembers me at least. i'm so touched. haha. cam real. nolah but most ppl don't rem me, so cam sedih. we also saw syed faisal, but tt's about it la. actually it was kinda boring people-wise cos tak ramai orang ah. there were definitely more people the wednesday i went. yeah so other than a few cute guys, nothing really tickled my eyeballs.

two notable guys in the train. first was nazril, brother of BR. and the other was helmi kasui. hahahaha. unfortunately si helmi kasui left without telling me. -merajuk- wow and we actually caught the last 96 back, by a hairbreadth.

sahur at fongseng laterrr.

what amy and i were doing last night:



hehe. after which i added, "vulgar sey anak kedua kau! ikot bapak dier.."

ohwells. i had fun last night. ended up sleeping at 2 even though i was supposed to sleep at 10. and i came to skl with mubs just now.

i love it when it rains. no, scratch that. i love it when it rains when i'm at home, snug in my bed, in an introspective mood.

so anyway. i remembered this during sahur.

me: dahlah aku tanak lagilah baba. perut aku nak dekat tutup ni. dier tgh buat closing.

baba: aku tengok kau belum soda pe..

wahahahaha. okay of course only baba and i get it. but thanks halim for introducing the perut-tutup concept to us.

another one:

baba: okay, so what's taking the ice-cream so long?

me: dier tengah kejar lembu to get the milk.

baba: yah, and dier tgh mining for sand--to make glass.

baba again: dier tgh ber-sex! asal asal?

me: to give birth to the glassblower! and tukang buat fountain!!!

yup. yelah takyah cakap ah, kiter giler.

interesting thing happened today. well, I thought it was interesting, anyway.

i was sitting at the void deck with fan, and my mom came by and asked what i was doing. nolah not in a marah way, just cam, casually, i suppose. i mati2 thought she specially came from upstairs at first. but rupernyer she was from loyang point. so she went, "siape ni?" and i was like, "kawan ain.." and i weirdly introed them. and then he salamed her, which i thought was so cute, cos i didn't even salam her myself, out of shock. haha. well whatever. i just found it mildly interesting cos that's the closest she's ever come to my personal life. and it seems there IS something to be said about the other benefits of not PDAing. haha.

shasha pulak cakap, "rock rock sey kau pilih.." lucky she was busy, or i would have replied, "bukan aku yang pilih!"

we bukaed at mac's today. and there were some really cute guys. i swear. these cute guys just pop up whenever i'm with him, just to spite me. haha. like there was this REALLY cute guy in red, sitting directly infront of me about 3 tables away with his gf. i couldn't help but stare at him, y'know? and there was this hot vik who looks 100% mim--one of fan's seniors in PA. hmm and then in the 359 queue there was this really cute guy called shaik. or whatever. hahaha.

it's pissing me off though, that i still don't know where we are, and that i can always get angry at him, but when i see him again, it all kinda evaporates.

ooh i bought myself a new automatic pencil eyeliner today! in green.. i wanted a change of shade, since i've used black since sec 2, and i'm already using brown. so yeah. but ouch it cost $15.90. the maybelline ones were cheaper, $9.90/$8.90, but odd/limited colours. and he chose the l'oreal one, haha.

thanks everyone for your support for the awards. i can't believe this is the third year and it's still going strong. and to think it was born during a boring afternoon, in the middle of an econs/chem/bio paper. sorry if you guys don't know half of the awardees. i know it kind of kills the fun. but ohWELLS.

anyway, the sentimentalities out of the way, i actually had a great 2 hours at lt14 with atikk etc. the two of us were just dancing to our own songs, or singing along to Minah Tudung, my current second favourite song. and then there were those cute guys at the next table. which was why i ended up leaving at 11, instead of at 1030 as originally planned. haha.

took the train home with haikal. he's so funny!!! i was totally dying. we both were. cos i was telling him some of the stupid jokes i read with amy the other time. and then we were talking about front-centre-knotted skirts and shurtain-cower-dresses. giler!!! alah budak loyang. whaddya expect? [i still can't believe it's such a small world and tt he's actually a budak loyang.]

so the interesting thing that happened today, as atikk and i sat down, side-by-side, and turned on our respective laptops:

atikk: [is silent for a few moments as she logs into msn] AIN!!! did you block me on msn???

me: [stumped] ohyah sorry.. i didn't want you to bug me.. [sees the funny side and starts laughing] anyway, you MUST have realised something weird when you didn't see me online for like the past week!!!

so anyway, she proceeded to msn shah and amy and tell them about my cardinal sin of blocking her. both darlings denied any knowledge, and attempted to defend me. so it was HILARIOUS. atikk showed me her convo window with amy, while i showed her MY amy window tt said: "AINNNN!!! atikk tahu kau block dier!!!" yes, like i said, hilarious.

okays, once again we're back!!! it's the ain awards 2005!!!

[side note: actually, i mati2 thought tt today was the 19th. so i was gonna post this tmr. ape je. nasib baik nat bilang.]

Main Awards
Most Perfect: Laptop-Packer/Family Man
Most Missed: Bun
Most Charming: Prince
Cutest [Little Boy]: Tommy Starbucks
Cutest [Model]: Sir Tingles
Nicest-Looking: Abang Science
Nicest: CBG
Current Favourite: Loner Guy [who else, right?]



Subsidiary Awards

Gatsby Best Hair is self-explanatorily awarded to the guy with the best hairstyle. The winner enjoys a year's supply of products from the well-known brand, and has the privilege of becoming the face of Gatsby this year. This award goes to... Cute Sideburns!

Mr Pasir Ris-Punggol is also self-explanatorily given to the cutest guy in the far-east side. He has the coveted honour of being the face of activities based the Pasir Ris-Punggol area. Clearly, the winner can be no other than... Loner Guy!

The Hugo Boss Boss Man has to be cool, hot, sexy, and everything else. He also has to know when NOT to play by the rules. And so this year's Boss Man is... Kashbir!

Our Flash 'N' Splash Surfer Dude is the one with the best beach look, including tan, hairstyle, and of course the requisite hot bod. He gets to be the face of Flash 'N' Splash for the year, plus all his outfits will be sponsored by them. And the lucky winner is... Pasta!

Harley Davidson Bad Boy will get not just clothes and a year's modelling contract, but also 2 new motorbikes from the label [one for his gf, presumably], to further supplement his bad-boy image. And this year's Bad Boy is... Ex-Con!

SDU's Perfect Match goes to the guy who'll make a great life partner, in all aspects [physical, spiritual, emotional] of life. This year's winner is... Bapak!

And then we have Mr. Bollywood, which goes to the cutest vik, and that's... Double Decaf!

Lim Seng Tjoe Mr. Science goes to the cutest, freshest guy in Science, who makes me glad to be in Science. Yay. So that goes to... Sialsss!

Power 98's Most Melodious Voice gets to choose between a recording contract and a year's internship as a DJ at abovementioned radio station. And the winner is.. BR!

Now we have The Red Roof Lumpurs Relek One Corner award, which goes to the most lumpurish guy of all... Mamat!

And finally, the LEAST coveted award of Freakazoid of the Year [again, self-explanatory] goes to... Mubs!

yay okay i'm done. i'm quite sad that not everyone won something, but if i had to do it like that, besok pon tak game. so yup this is it for this year. insya-Allah next yr ader lagie eh?

i used to think i was nuts.

i was right. but my friends are far worse. for solid evidence, look to the right.

i got back yesterday at a quarter to midnight. i hadn't realised it was that late. i guess time REALLY flies when you're having fun. we were finally seated at like 9, so dah makan makan makan [i had the CHEESHEE, esprit passionfruit and gold rush], and ketawer, we ended up being the last customers. you know, the kind that they're glad to see the back of. haha. oh but it was loads of fun. and we DID end up using the $26 voucher.

some highlights: merepeking about BR, merepeking about loner guy, merepeking about ahem-ahem, NOT merepeking about mubs, figuring out what EXACTLY takes a bus so long to arrive, and just loads of assorted shit like eating rumputs.

woohoo and to further enhance my enjoyment of the day, it was lovely weather, low temperatures, and loads of my favourite ite mats. yey.

btw, IGNORE baba. she ate too much ice-cream. 7 ounces.

i'ma make you want to get with me tonight
i'ma put those naughty thoughts into your mind
i'm gonna show you clearly i can rock your world
you're gonna know for sure that i should be your girl-Mariah Carey

are song lyrics really true? cos if they are.. well then loner guy better watch out. haha.

this is what i have to put up with from my friend amy.



naturally, names have been censored to protect MY privacy. whatever's left of it anyway.

it's so nice to just sit by the window in my room and chill. you know, breathe in the fresh morning air and all. and at this odd hour of the morning, i can pretend it's night time. i'd rather chill at night. but then i wouldn't be able to function in school. so it's a trade-off, really. i'll save the night-chilling for vacation time.

everyone is ignoring me on msn, so i'll just go back to my blog, cos my blog always listens. :)

i have a new online friend. haha. the 49305849203rd, actually. but who cares? it's fun. and i'm not gonna stop for anything in the world. PLUS, like shah said, i don't have anyone to answer to. [actually, she was talking about loner guy. but i think it applies to me too. haha.] yup. this one looks like the baik type actually. i'm really curious to know what that's like. the baik type, i mean. so it should be even more fun.

smalam i committed a cardinal sin. i'm really sorry, but i just had to! i was at the forum, on the way to the lib, and i passed by the iscream yoghurt stall! i almost died of kempunan-ness, longing and ecstasy. and i found atikk in the library, so we went back downstairs and got one each. unfortunately, the forum kan ramai orang, so yeah, everyone saw us purchasing food. ohWELLS. sorry. it was my last day, so enjoying it while it lasted. kalau nak tunggu si baba berlunch ngan aku, sampai lain tahun pon aku tak makan sey.

i gots to be on my way to school soon. which means i gots to siap soon. malas sey. can't wait for tmr. i can just relek2 at home. doing nothing. as always. the only time i do anything productive is in the train, and like i said yesterday, i can't exactly take the train back and forth from boon lay for like 8 hours straight, can i?

ohWELLs. i'll be seeing freakazoid in a couple of hours. TAK interested man!

i woke up late again this morning. pasal smalam i went to geylang with nan, shima, shasha, her husband and 2 of their friends. we didn't get home tt late lah, about 1 in the morning, but somehow i couldn't wake up for sahur anyway. i had a great time, btw. we saw like a billion cute guys. like this tall blonde one wearing a cool sleeveless tshirt and just looking very hot, at one of the 24-hr coffeeshops. his friend's car was parked right next to us, so we got to see them drive off. oh and this smouldering vik-looking guy sitting about 5 metres directly infront of me, and we exchanged stares. haha. AND ahmad latiff, who's also bleached blonde, and has the greatest calves ever bestowed upon man.

ah and on the way to skl there was this cute talldarkhandsome vik in the train in a red shirt and who smells really enticingly of adzfar/clinique happy. hahaha. it took me back to days of tarian at odd hours of the night, seeing OM after training, etc. very fun days, those were.

wah smalam lepas buker tros tido sey. camna tak gemok? and then i cldn't even wake up for sahur, and i vaguely remember answering a call from hannan in the middle of the night [?], although i don't really rem what was exchanged. haha.

and then today i went to geylang in the afternoon with my mom and mak. [btw, they're 2 different people. one's my mom. the other's my aunt. ANYWAYS.] we met syida and her parents in the bus. and we all spent the journey catching up. i was a tad jealous to hear that her [cute arab] boyfriend was bukaing at her house tonight. but owells. takder orang nak aku.

geylang was fine. i got 2 new bajus. should be enough i suppose. but neither of them are skl-wearable. so. yeah. takkan nak pakai aku nyer sky-blue one tak abis2, nanti mubs ingat aku dier nyer baju soulmate. there was this REALLY NICE lace one i would have killed for, except it cost $250 and well, some human lives are worth less than that. i wanted to get a black one!!! so that during jalan raya, i have 70% more chances of finding a baju kurung soulmate!!! tapi takder yg caught my fancy so yeah. and then we went to the pasar, and i actually saw a cute guy who was there with his parents. naturally, he was looking at me too, since people like me ARE a rare sight in pasar geylang. i was thanking God that i was wearing three-quarters and my nonslip slippers. hahaha. yeah anyway he was cute, and i'd bet my 2 new bajus that he's really nice too. since he was at the pasar and all. ohwells.

next time if i'm feeling up to it i shall attempt to follow my mom to the pasar again and look for cute guys. hahaha.

and then balek aku tido lagi, bukaed, watched confessions of a teenage drama queen, and we went to loyang point where i rented.. erm, i can't rem what i rented. there was a cute guy at sheng siong. but i think he was with his wife. ohWELL. ohYAH i rented you got served, X-Men 1.5 and one more i can't rem. so nampaknyer i'll be ponning wed again to habiskan the dvds. hahahaha.

okay i'm gonna start now, bye.

amy thinks "pura-pura" is "tortoise" in malay!!!

me: jgn pura-pura tak tahulah amy..
her: i'm not a tortoise!
me: [insert drawing which loosely translates to "tortoise=kura-kura"]

so. back to my less retarded friends. i actually went home after chem lect yest, cos of a number of stupid reasons. takpe i didn't regret it, but i had no bottoms to wear so i had to settle for my brown skirt. then i ended up looking too hot-date-y, so i rabaked down the outfit with my rabak blue slippers. haha.

well the meeting was okay. i think. after that we went to mac's to buka puasa, and that was fun too, cos i finally saw the supposed taufik-lookalike. you know which taufik i mean. haha.

then we went home. well, SOME of us went home. we met claudine [from yesteryear rgs days] in the bus, and i had a nice time talking to her. she's so nice! yups. and there was a cute blonde mat in the train sitting next to zahdan. WOULD have taken a photo, tapi cam malu and stuff. haha. God knows why though, since he was sleeping and it was the perfect opportunity. ohwells.

who else did i see in the train??? this bapak who goes to the downtown east swimming pool with his adorable son to teach him swimming!!! aku cam nak cakap hi, but i'm sure he doesn't rem me and all. i don't even know why i remember him, since the last time i went there was at least 3 months back. oh i know why. pasal 1, his son is REALLY adorable. all tanned and round and earnest and just very cute. and 2, i'd always wondered, dekni tak kerje ke? whenever i saw them cos it was like the middle of a weekday afternoon. well. now we know that he DOES have a day job. or whatever. haha.

yes well anyway, gots to go do my prelab.

heyyy.. i had a lovely chem lab today. cumer si dol NAT tak puas hati with her equations. when i'd given up long ago. anyways. once again, the solutions MATCHED my earrings!!! it was this Fe-SCN complex. really nice. normally it's blood-red, but for this experiment it was less intense, more orangey. i took 2 photos, they were SO pretty!!!

boringboring smalam. cos i skipped lect and stayed home. loner guy, amek kau obat.

so when my friend invited me to join him at geylang [the bazaar, people], i jumped at the invitation. haha. met him at the food court, and we walked around while he complained that there aren't enough guy stalls. haha. thankfully, it wasn't mendak or anything, cos i found out that he knows a certain dear friend of ours. haha.

mannn wall-to-wall mats!!! except without walls! hahaha. very very fun and cuci mata.. except it was painfully hot and i was sweating just SITTING STILL. tak glamer sey. and all the human jams.. eew. hm i was looking for hari raya cards but i didn't really see any. sampul duit ader ah. tu buat ape sey. hahaha. LIKE i have money to give out.

didn't see anyone i knew, but HEY, i suppose it's better than seeing loner guy holding hands with some girl.

i just got this email from some guy.

Hola, me llamo Jose, y soy de Gandia una ciudad en la costa del Mar Mediterraneo en Espa�a.

Me gustaria poder conocerte un poco, si quieres puedes agregarme o enviarme algun mail
y estamos en contacto.

Un saludo. [insert email address here]

i went to babelfish, and it translates loosely as follows:

Hello, I am Jose, and I am of Gandia, a city in the coast of the Mediterranean Sea in Spain. Gustaria me to be able conocerte a little, if you want you can add to me or send algun to me mail and we are in contact with the enemy.

so i was like, huh?!?!?! it was sent from my msn public profile, which doesn't state ANYWHERE that i am spanish-speaking. besides, he's OLD! i went to his msn profile and he's like friggin' 32!!! aper ni?!?!

needless to say, i haven't replied.

day started off frumpy, but ended great.

i regretfully skipped islam lec so that i could have a couple more hours of sleep. frantically did chem tutorial in the train, and a little bit more at the benches outside islam tutorial. lepas tu ader uninvited guest. pe je. takpe. pasta sat practically next to me, so THAT was good. anyway, the rest of school zoomed by, and amy and i soon found ourselves praying asar at the surau.

then kiter jalan2 at far east, where i showed them gerard [yay!] and i also bumped into aishah and dian. funny how they still look the same, yet different. well we ended up eating at jason's, where there was yet another uninvited guest. so the invited guest tak dtg. sebok je sey. i was there first, boy!

so dah makanmakanmakan, it was back to the surau. there was a cute bapak on the overhead bridge, but in the 15-20 minutes i was praying, he sprouted a moustache! unflattering one, at that, so i decided to relegate him to shah. but you know who's cute? halim's friend is CUTE!!! then back to far east for ice-cream. yums. then it was shopping, shopping and more shopping!!! plus a crazy neoprint-taking session. i wonder if anyone else has ever used the half-half curtain technique before. hehe. anyways, i got me a sweet-looking green skirt [hold back the insults, now] and a really nice and deceptively-simple halterneck top from shibuya. i'm sooooo excited, they're both so prettypretty!!!

well by tt time it was getting late, so we decided to split. and i got one last look at that handsome guy that is halim's friend. hahahaha.

so dalam train, aku tido2 pasal penat. and while on the escalator down, i noticed this guy from the back, who seemed kinda cute. later while walking to the int, i realised tt it was CBG rupernyer. i was debating whether to say hi or not. but when he stopped and stood right in the middle of the int, i decided to just waddehellkan ah. so i waved and said hi. and he said hi back! ah he's just very nice. and it was the perfect end to a lovely day.