harloe. today, i was a tk gerl again. a tk prefect ah. it was fun, but a totally different experience. cos i changed after skl den went vj with baba and mun yuk and sya. and yeah. vj.. so alot of tk gerls.. so.. everyone was trying to place me.. of course they cuden.. haha.. and sum gerl sed,"i keep thinking you're really frm tk.." haha.. funny. and veh fun. the tarian has a lovely cny dance.. which, despite certain cannot-dancers, is still visibly lovely.. as in, they can still carry it off nicely. for 4 measly practices, it's terrific.. so i really enjoyed myself.. yah..

and i forgot to add, i switched to being a tk prefect in the middle of the day.. =)

literally-sick gerl writes: i dun really have much to write about.. by normal human standards. but of course im not a normal human, and my standards are different such that i haf this one important piece of news to write about. it's not overly recent or anything, though. on friday i was a tk girl. i wore my blue sling bag to match the pinafore and everything. and almost everyone sed i look the part!!! i know, most people wouldn't take it as a good thing, but i do! im not sure why, exactly. maybe cos no matter how much i loved [and still love] rg, there never was much for me there. not by my standards. i find myself thinking, among other things, how i would have been better off in some aspects, had i gone there instead. and maybe that's why i was so excited to look like a tk girl, to wear the tk uniform, to show it off to the world. i was so happy. i was just smiling and smiling.
then at assembly i was at the back ah, and i looked and looked but cuttlefish wasn't there. so i was damn disappointed, and i thot,"oh cuttlefish probably diden come to school today.." and i realised that part of the reason i come to school everyday is cuttlefish. that's why i let myself be sick for 3 weeks before i just gave up. before i just stopped caring. anyway, dun worry, it paid off. cuttlefish appeared kat blakang after the announcements and did a double take at my new image [as did 80% of the school population incl muka lepeh].. den later dier memberiku sepucuk surat yang ada tertulis namaku.. lalu kawannya berkata,"oh, sotong[2]! kau memberinya surat?" dengan nada gembira bercampur terperanjat.
later after school i went to ps with gillian and we watched 8 mile. it's not terrific, but i had a nice time.

harloez. i went JI yest.. it was so... different is the only word for it.. yah.. neway, i had fun ah.. and at pasir ris i met amanda cheong. she's in sa now.. and she's really enjoying herself. i guess most people tend to do tt. of cos there r exceptions. and today i saw jack. but she diden recognise me. ohwell. k im gonna eat now. bye!

heylo. i was having double period pe today, and i was running my sixth round.. i think i was on to my last 100m. then my wheezing got wheezier and i couldn't breathe anymore. so i just hung there. and this girl was like,"are you ok?" and i sed no. i can't even rem who she was or what she looks like. i juz know that she made me sit down then this guy made me lie down and i was already crying lyke crazy and yah. i really could NOT breathe and i really believed i would i die. or i think that's what i believed cos i could hardly think also. anyway dun worry im fine now. and i really wanna thank baba for being there the whole way.
till next time. kalau panjang umur.

hi. i just wanted sum company as i print 30 copies of my psycho sister's psychotic lit ass for nie. and im watching prince charming at the same time. it's my 2nd or 3rd time watching it, but i never tire of movies of this genre. the romantic comedy kind. this one has christina applegate, the prettypretty blonde blue-eyed kind.. sigh. i love romance. don't knock hallmark telemovies, sumtimes they're great..
ohh... why can't all this shit happen to me??!?! i am so gonna watch this till the end, even if i can't wake up tmr morning.. ohyah i've decided to go to the 53 bus stop ah.. and not just restrict myself to 53s.. but 81s as well.. of cos it means that i'll see those tk gerls but it's a small price to pay for being early!!! yes.
i guess i shd go now b4 i overprint.. bye now.

i am wasted. in the energy sense, of course. i think it's gonna be a really bad week for me. itz so easy to hate life, and the people in it, sumtimes. these days sumtimes seems like allthetime. anyway. i always count my blessings though, rather than my trials and tribulations, so here goes...
1. i went to skl with cheryl and her lil bro today. i've heard abt her lil siblings, but nvr seen them before so it was kinda an eye-opener. he wears glasses, doesn't look like her [not in my opinion anyway] and goes to geylang methodist pri i think. yah.
2. after econs lecture i kinda "bumped into" adil and he acherli smiled and sed hello to me [!!!] as did i to him. =D
3. saw a crush in mac's... hehe. decided to dub him adam.
acherli that's abt all. but i still think it's better than nth. esp number 2, considering the almost-4 years we've known each other but never talked. yah. bye.

okay this is truly one for the blog. seriously. it was made for the blog. it's like, personal and private, but already made public enough to be placed here. haha. so... enjoy.
today was lovely.. a nice slack day with no lectures, just dumb tutorials.. and malay was kwite useful in all aspects.. and at least i found out that badak adil n ashraf take malay. yah. umm.. then i finished at like 12.30 rite.. so i hung out in the canteen with denise yaxin and faraway 410ners. and yaxin got kiat loon or keat loon or watever his name is to sit at the table.. and he sat there.. eating.. he's kwite friendly and nice.. yah.. and he does look a hundred times better in glasses, if tt's possible. haha. umm.. yah then while my class was having chinese i hung out with stef and azi in the canteen.. got to know kwite a few things ah.. so it was pretty fun.. then met my class with edward and qing han and we sat near the concourse stoning and waiting for everyone to turn up.. then finally we went orchard.. took 77 with chiam's class osso.. ermm.. ohyah which includes that comel2 ac guy from baba's og..
den we went seoul garden after many failed attempts to change the eating place.. we were there at around 4.. first we just ate peacefully at the tables then when we got full, we mixed around and then zhi han daniel edward me daphne gillian mag sat around a table and talked.. then mag suggested we play a game, so we changed tables and we played this game where anyone goes,"i have never [done something]" and everyone who HAS done it has to drink up ah.. and it was damn fun and funny lorh.. cos carissa joined us, and she thot of the funniest stuffs.. then cj joined us also... then we joined up with the rest ah.. and we restarted the game.. so we repeated sum questions.. and then carissa said,"i have never crushed anyone in this class." zhafri drank, of cos. i did too. and everyone went like, woh, and they were wondering who it was. and so carissa sed,"i have never liked herman." so. guess what i did. any number of guesses, up to one. yah and he was sitting right next to me lorh! and then he turned to me and he was like,"you like me ah?" like in his --- voice.. hehe.. i was sooooooooooo embarrassed. but now im regarded as sum hero for being brave enuff to be so honest. haha. daniel was especially awed. hehehe. damn farnee larh my class. but i still feel stupid.
yah then we went looking ard and then we went jp and stoned then i took the train home. and i fell asleep.. and i was still sleeping at pasir ris but luckily sumone woke me up.. i was thanking them profusely. ok nites.

i got a lift to and from skl today. was almost late for school.. but rencong/jack was even later. but we were both not late ah.. sheesh. i still haven't forgiven rencong, but i think he's forgotten everything already.. haha. umm.. ohyah just for the record, i diden try out for touch rugby today. i got cold feet. yah. but im gonna try out for hockey tmr. though i know i won't get in. but what the heck. i'd rather embarrass myself at ashraf's cca than badak's cca.. so yah. umm.. yeah.
i haven't been writing much here.. that's cos most of my shit is now deposited into my tod.. cos i decided personal stuff goes in private domains.. yah.. so there won't be much substance here anymore.. as if there ever was. well, there'll be less, if that's possible.
tomorrow is a pretty slack skl day.. so i shd be able to take it ah.. too bad there's single period malay. oh how i hate malay. now i hate it even more. where's cikgu nuraini when i need her? buden hockey tryouts r at 2.30, then tarian's at 5. ohyah muz bring pants.. im dying to see ivan dance.. come to think of it, i also badly wanna see adil dance again.. haha.. i guess i shd be glad there's no dikir, or all the guys wld join it.. and i shd also kind of thank badak for making ivan go to the meeting.
well yah that shd be it ah. so i'll go now. bye.

today i was still totally zonked out when i reached pasir ris mrt and started walking to my bus stop. then yong chau kalled me.. and [eeeww] logan, weiming, yong chau and jonathan took turns talking to me.. damn cute seh.. except for that exception..

im thirsty.. hahaha. now my zaerox realises im nuts..
in the field i was like,"are those sandflies? are these sandfly bites? i don't wanna have their eggs laid under my skin!" and everyone died laughing.

well. i dunno WHY i logged out when i wanted to ramble on here. haha. today was the nicest of three orientation days so far. maybe cos feralon won its first *clap-action* element. wahaha. the storyline was also at its most hilarious today. and plus it was a really easygoing day with not too much running.. and ending early with a period of effective stoning too! really cool. haha. plus the little games we played were really fun.. haha. yeah and i had a chocolate ice-cream in-a-roti today after school.. haven't had ice-cream in a long time.. so that was kinda a welcome treat.. yah.. ooh and i bought nice new rubberband and white scrunchie. so farn. i wanna buy summore. but not now ah. i spent like, 6 bucks on hair stuff jenow.. a new [acherli, the ONLY] hair accessories shop just opened at white sands and i was lucky enough to discover it today.. luckily i took the train home today.. i mean, i haven't stepped into white sands for MONTHS. so yah.
so yah. i had a nice day today.
oh but.
guess what. adil thinks im intimidating. wow. did i ever do anything to him? he's the one who was grinning when his 2 friends were raihaning me the other day. *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* and raihan--*surprise surprise*--acherli sed "hello" to me and baba just now. the catch? he was meeting sya2. so it is totally discounted. in fact, it's a minus point. these 2 badaks kan just go n die larh. it's not wrong to say hello to a friend. a friend you used to chat to practically every night in sec 1 and 2. a friend you've acherli danced with. a friend you see lots of times, especially in the later part of sec 4. so don't punish me for being friendly. DON'T YOU FREAKIN' DARE.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You knew just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for

And then suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms could ever hold
I heard somebody whisper "please adore me"
But when I looked at the Moon it turned to gold

Blue Moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own

*oh let me tell yu that i love you so
i dunno wat to do, i lose control
yo let me tell you you're the love of my life
i say,"oh-oh-oh-oh yeah.."*

*i am beautiful
no matter what they say
words can't bring me down
i am beautiful
in every single way
yes words can't bring me down
so don't you bring me down today..*

toridas is falling down
falling down
falling down
toridas is falling down
my feralon
rj and orientation rawks.

guess what?
clemmy-memmy has the same birthday as me!!!!

helo. i haf sum really nice new dolls. but later.
i can't believe it's now 2003. it's like, wow. i think, for me, the worst thing about that fact is that this year i'll be 17. which is really a huge thing to be. it's definitely not 13, 14, 15 or 16. duh. but what i mean is that it finally kicks in that im getting older. and i don't want to. so i guess it's great that im one of the youngest of my peers. at least i won't be getting old so soon.
i love watching movies, i just realised. especially at home. yesterday i watched spider-man. today, thanks to channel i, im gonna watch the prince and the pauper, tom sawyer, the mask of zorro [which i've been dying to watch and acherli have the resources to but been too lazy to look for them] and mickey blue eyes. yeah. and i discovered we have tomb raider so im gonna watch that soon. and im gonna watch bring it on again real soon.
ok anyway. here we go.

i thought that teenage sex was kinda a big concern, but it's still important to look good, so...

and last but not least,