i am sooooo damn sleepy!!! this week i was supposed to reset my body clock.. but laz night i juz cuden sleep at all! okay, so i went to bed at 2.. but i was tossing and turning till 4!!! and tt was juz the last time i checked my fone. aaarggghhh. and so yes, i'm still sleepy now. i was supposed to sleep at 9 tonight [ha!], in accordance with the whole body-clock thing too.. and i was sleeping juz now at like 9.. in my armchair in the hall. then my mom switched to rcti or sctv or whatever it iz, and they were showing koi...mil gaya [i think], so i HAD to wake up and watch it. then it was half of AM2, then the whole of charmed, which i've been missing for the past 2-3 weeks. yarh. so here i am, online instead of sleeping.
i had the most dreamlike realistic dream last night. dreamlike as in "dream on! itz never gonna happen!" realistic as in when i woke up, i thot what happened in the dream really happened. it was about.. him. i was with sum of my frens, and we juz arrived at this party/event tt he was hosting. it was a big thing, and there were lotsa ppl about. so we juz walked in the entrance, and he was standing there. and then he saw me and he was like, "ain.. wait." and i waited ah. he was soopa hesitant and stuff, then one of his frens went up to him and said smthg in his ear.. then HE turned to me and sed, "okay my fren suroh bilang ah.. so i'm gonna bilang. there's this girl i like. i really really like her. and i'm supposed to tell her that." and i guess what made it so real was that while i was listening to this, the refrain he has a girlfriend.. he has a girlfriend.. was playing in my head. and my frens were still standing there next to me. and he was talking to me. and i diden know what to say. and after like, 5 seconds of silence, i sed, "wow. harap-harap she likes you too.." and i walked away. far far away. to sum balcony. after awhile my friends found me and baba and fana led them in scolding me ah: "hello! he meant YOU! are you stupid? he likes you! he was trying to tell you tt!"/"why did yu say tt to him? so mean! r yu okay or not?"/"wahlau, can you go back and tell him now?" smthg liddat ah. so i went to find him, tailed at a distance by the abovementioned friends. he was still standing there stoned ah. yah. so i sed, "sorry. i thot you were kidding."
what a dream man. aarrrgghhh. stupid dream. i wasn't even thinking of him when i went to sleep. how do dreams come about anyway? bodoh sey. i hate misleading dreams. when i woke up i truly believed tt he liked me. then as i savoured what 'happened' i realised it was a dream.
oh juz now the freakiest/funniest/most interesting coincidence in the train.. i was going for the 410 thing at city hall. thanks to stupid adeline telling me to wear sleeveless, i was wearing my jeans and my baju punjabi top. and my genie sandals. thennnn... in the train i got a shock cos there was this guy who was wearing jeans, the top half of a kurta, AND guy sandals tt had the exact strap arrangement of mine!!!! i wanted to faint. what are the odds of meeting someone who's wearing the exact counterpart of yur outfit? espesh when yur outfit is not a tshirt-and-berms combo.
speaking of which, i thot adeline looked really nice in the sleeveless tshirt and jeans.. hahaha. plus my bangles and xy's [?] watch.. had fun meeting them.. but acherli i was still thinking abit abt yest..
i got a calendar. itz called "paradise". and i keep thinking of a pair of dice somehow. anyway, itz basically pictures of those beautiful islands with white sands, blue surf and tall palm trees. i wanted the j.lo one. or the old movie posters one. but i thot i'd juz get a less peopled calendar this year. next year, though, i'm gonna look for the aaron carter one tt someone stole frm me. hahaha. or sum other hot guy larh. they shd make a legolas calendar, no?
watched ju-on 2. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! hell, i was irritating myself with all the screaming i was doing. but it was freaky wat. haiz. oh there was this really cool klakarseram part. everyone in the theatre was juz laughing, including myself. watch it!
got to remember to do chem and maths tmr. shit. i am soooo dead. ohyah. received really interesting news tt yaxin's class is getting mc next year. haf fun man.. rasakan..
asal takder orang online? sumer gi party ke?

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would really lurve to type in caps cos i'm feeling soooooo blardee happy rite now.. but i'll save the caps for a more earth-shaking event. hehe.
so anyway, today was my watch outing. this'll be a long entry, i think, but the best part is at the end so whoever's reading kan juz skip to the end.
ermm. letsee.. who? me. kwee yong. ruo yun. mag. jon. denise. ivan. xiao wen. ahmad. shahul [joined us later at jon's salon/dahlia's cafe]. esther [joined us even later at taka]. where? we met at somerset. then we went for lunch at cine. but there was nowhere halal tt we wanted to eat. so then we went for lunch at far east.. then we were standing around deciding whether to go ktv or pool.. then we decided on neither and went to lido instead. ohyah while walking to far east, we were giving jon an explanation of the places and stuff. cos apparently he hasn't been in orchard for a year. haha. is tt even possible? well how wld i know. then we finally found a whole table, and 3 benches at lido, and we sat there.. then kwee yong saw her ex there. btw, he's kinda cute. haha. anyway he was with his new gf. and she [kwee yong] was obsessing over whether to go and slap his face. then she kalled up her good fren who was at monstercue with her bf. so her fren was gonna come and slap the ex's face. cos he dumped her. or so i thot. anyway. before her fren got there, he got up to leave!!! okay at this point, i shall introduce him. his name is bernard. in jj. neway, we were debating whether to follow him or not. there was this book of answers tt shahul had. so we asked, "should we follow him?" and the answer was "you should be committed.." or smthg liddat. so we were like, "we are committed!" and we got up and followed him. but we lost him at the first level ah.. then we split up and a few minutes later, denise and xiaowen found bernard n his gf. kwee yong was still at lido waiting for her fren. we found bernard [and his gf, who he was with thruout the whole encounter, juz to simplify things] at the tangs marketplace, eating. so we went to the other side and did stakeout. kept one pair of eyes on him the whole time. and then kwee yong got there with her fren lar.. then we all scrambled around to find good watching points as kwee yong n her fren went up to bernard. they had a short conversation [and i really thot they were talking amicably and tt they decided not to slap him after all], then kwee yong slapped him. but her fren sed it wasn't hard enough, so SHE slapped him. it was so hard his glasses flew off. his face was red. and everyone ard was staring. and it juz remained red ah. i had the gall to walk past him n his gf. and he seemed to be speechless. still red-faced. ohmann.. that was juz beautiful. and exciting. all i know is, i've never done anything tt cool before, or witnessed anything so dramatic. i thot yu only saw those kinda things in the movies!!! haha. more watch-bonding, huh? and it was really nice of her fren to come all the way to tangs frm monstercue..
hm. after tt, i need a new paragraph. haha. ok then we finally went to play pool. well, some of us played pool. the rest of us were sitting around and i was watching them and this cute guy called divyant, or however yu spell it. haha. some of them are really good. and tt was when ahmad was taking VOYEURISTIC pictures with his new camera!!! ohmigod.. i wanted to die... people scolded ME for taking voyeuristic pics with my fone!!! so yah, i'm juz telling everyone tt ahmad does it too, so go n scold him as well if yu wanna scold me.. haha. the girl wasn't even pretty. at least, i diden think so. there were prettier gerls there.. well anyway yah. then.. we played until 430 or smthg liddat. or was it 5.. den.. ohyah we were trying to decide where to go for dinner. but first we went to taka and met esther. then we stood around at taka deciding where to go for dinner. [ohyah adam wasn't prom king. wad the stupid shit!] decided on marche.. so we went in.. and sat down.. and ahmad and shahul walked around for like 10 minutes or so and came back and told me they were eating outside, wld i like to go.. so i sed ok.. then we were making our way to the exit, and ahmad turned to me and sed, "i got something i want to ask yu later." *!!!* what?!?!?!?! i was imagining all sorts of stupid things.. none of which were as painful as what he REALLY wanted to ask me. and so i was like, "what what?!?!?!" and he turned and looked at me ah. and continued walking. and i like, grabbed my ear and i realised what he wanted to ask. so we were like going up the escalator and he sed, "let me see yur ears." i was wearing my green earring, my S, my blue stud and a pair of dangly stars. and i was like, "what y?" and he was like, "just turn and let me see both sides." so i did what he sed. and he asked what happened to my other earrings--i sed i changed them today--and he asked why i changed them--and i sed i juz like to rotate earrings. haha. yes the real reason was tt i diden want him to see them. well. it was a useless precaution, it seems. shahul was roaring with laughter, btw. then ahmad was like, "why ah?" and i juz feigned ignorance.. but he diden even mention the name [until once later], so i thot mebbe he got the wrong person or smthg. neway when he saw the S he was like, "still there ah? yu still like him ah?" oh God. how embarrassing. and i kept asking, "how do yu know? who told yu?" and he sed he figured it out by himself, frm when i was talking to sya in malay. ohman. he seriously fooled me. i thot he was stoned and blur the whole time, he never showed any signs of knowing! argh i am really embarrassed. then he was like, "don't worry he doesn't know anything. i asked him the other time--not obviously ah--and he doesn't know." and i sed, "are yu sure?" and he was like, "yar! y, yu want him to know ah?" and i screamed out an un-affirmative. aarrrggghhh. maluating. maluating. arrrggghhh. ok by then we'd reached cine. so we went to ljs.. met whitney.. her brother/bf is cute. haha. and ahmad and shahul are amazed at the number of bungs in singapore, and have yet to meet a malay one. haha. hmm.. wat else.. ohyah mag called shahul while we were still eating, and shahul answered the fone, and sed, "wait ah" before passing it to ahmad, who sed, "wait ah" and then passed it to me. haha. and so mag asked, "where are yu?" and i tried to pass it back to shahul, but it came back to me, so i blurted out, "praying" and assured her we'd be back in 15 minutes or less. yah so we went back, while discarding the evidence. and ahmad was continuing to show off his [incredibly beautiful and sleek and elegant and slim] camera by taking fotos of the lights. apeeee je. rejoined them at marche, and i bought a snapple. haha. i also lost the bottlecap in the toilet. stupid shit.
then we went ktv at that stupid place behind/beside centrepoint. the one with the really horrible and skary billiard place. the ktv place was HOW dark and drunk-businessmen-with-two-prostitutes-each-y. haha. and there were juz NO extra lights to switch on! but i soon warmed up [despite the below-zero temp of the room] and had a blue lagoon while singing. recorded really funny clips of ahmad and ivan singing. esp them singing my heart will go on. and i sang mahligaimu dari airmataku, among others. soooo fun. also sooooo ex. twelvebucks smthg i think. the towels were apparently 3bucks and 40cents. haha. so i took mine home. walked to mrt with kwee yong, ahmad n shahul. ahmad was really paranoid abt what i was gonna do with the recordings of him singing. hahahaha. had to embellish the truth abit. took the train home with ahmad. had a reeeeeaaaalllllly interesting chat. haha. next time i will ask more stuff.
damnnn tired, got home at like 1215-1230... and itz already 2?!?!?

hmm.. past 5 hrs or so have been alrite.. ili came over and we rewatched ada apa dengan cinta.. ohh.. it is soooooooooooo nice, and of cos i lurve nicholas saputra [who is only 2 yrs older] as well. he is too broodily cute!!! ermm.. ohyah then we checked out sum photos.. and watched a cat episode of sabrina.. haven't watched sabrina in soooo long, and harvey begins to seem less boring with the pierced ears.. haha. ohyes i also learnt tt sya's fren dyes his hair?!?!?! -dies- [oops tt wasn't meant to be punny.] well.. i remember talking to him while staring at his hair and really wanting to ask "did yu dye yur hair?" but not daring to. i guess it was too good to be true huh? well now i kan ask him what colour he uses. haha.
oh i was walking ili to the bus stop and we passed the minimart.. and i happened to turn to my right.. and i saw this guy wearing a tshirt n boxers, with his pants around his ankles, and a skateboard by his side.. i wanted to die. and somehow tt area was totally infested with skaters of all shapes and sizes.. anyway i tried not to laugh, but i ended up bursting out after like 70m or so. haha. well i had to walk back tt way, and they were like, filming each other. interesting.. wonder what itz for..
anyway itz back to
2003
high points
touch rug nationals at yck stadium
rhd
dramafeste week
filming at ri
samit stuff
performances n stuff with SRT
national day celebrations/nurie's party
hanging out with shafa very impromptu-ly at holland v
waking bodyguard up
handball lessons and floorball sessions
getting my new fone
studying at bishan during sept hols: movie script, meeting baba..
self-cutting my hair
mendaki awards
dropping bio
watching another class' PE while thawing
down primary memory lane
children's day at jj
terjumpaing HL guy + adam in train
running at bishan
meeting shafa at the siasu educational awards
getting my nose pierced
some of OH and watching the soccer match afterwards
halloween
will on wheels
termeeting him in the bus
hanging out at ps
liberation from pw
metro cip
class chalet!!!!
"stalking" OM/hanging out at metro
*OBS*
jalan raye
hanging out with fana, esp seeing hichael
certain parts of the phr
lotr: rotk opening + rugby ball
shopping at suntec
shopping at little india
ex-ri-rgs hari raya dinner

low points
almost getting a heart attack at 6a.m. because of a lost dog
dramafeste week
natn'l day celebrations/nurie's party
the friday of OH briefing
losing the memories from the old fone
citylink shopping
friendless post-children's-day
trying to go home with ex-fren
watching homewrecker do her thing
the siasu educational awards
collecting tarian costumes
pw, puasaing..
witnessing the slaughter of the pw ppt
final pw presentation
flag day
metro cip
fucking contractors drilling upstairs, and a whole load of other activities designed to deafen me
two become ones
remaining parts of the phr
this morningz incident/accident

yess i'm done.

2003
high points
first 3 months: seoul garden with 1S03D
discovering adam
wearing the TK pinafore
'o' level results
GPA: seeing him, watching all the cool stuff, and triplenoize rocks.. and other stuffs, of cos..
ter-meeting him at bishan
the cool soccer matches
the girls hockey match versus ac, hichael, MIQ, jj vs ac rugby
passing 2.4
watching rugby finals + hockey finals
retaking, and passing, pft
class outing with 1S03D: lunch, icecream, lanning/shopping
post-pe captain's ball

low points
orientation: sya's fren being.. well.. himself.
double PE: thinking i was going to die during the 6th round
valentine's day blues
410 lunch: the whole "i-was-hoping-you-wouldn't-notice" thing. that really hurt.
O2. haha.
tt nora person bothering me.
seeing ex-fren and frens after the jj vs ac rugby
the end-may period

ok ttz abt all i haf time for so far.. cya.. oh and since i'm going chronologically, i'm in the middle of july now. will finish this soon..

angry entry ahead

i'm watching miss congeniality for the millionth time. itz helping somewhat. but it won't take the HUGE FARKING DENT-WHICH-IS-PRACTICALLY-A-HOLE in my sister's car. what a horrible day sia. we were driving to harbourfront, previously known as WTC [did they change the name cos of sept 11? i nvr realised..], and it was clearly our way, when this fucking shite of a taxi beloks right in and bangs into the car!!! i almost screamed. but to tell the truth i kinda saw it coming, i just diden haf time to scream a warning, and besides, i assumed, like any other normal person, tt the muthafucking bastard of a taxidriver wld wait, since we had right of way. i was wrong. i wanted to cry when i saw the damage. i was standing around speechless for about half an hour after tt.
okay, i guess i was juz imagining tt the rest of the day [up till now] was sucky.. but it was shitty waiting there alone with my book, looking and feeling so out of place.
there were bright sparks, i suppose. the traditional breakfast at delifrance was the best.. i lurveeeee eggs. i lurrrrrvvvveee croissants. and i lurrrrrvvvveee iced peach tea. i was sipping the iced tea and finishing my nicholas sparks. oh, and there was a cute scout leader, and a reeeaaallly cute lim with bright brown, almost orange hair..
and that was it. itz lyke 1030 now and i'm acherli awake. miracle sia.
well. it wasn't as angry as i thot it'd be.

oooyarr.. i got this off the seventeen website: do you believe in love at first sight, or do i need to walk by again?
great for using on sum hot vik i see on the streets huh?

i'm baaaack! sorry. i dun think anyone knew i was away. nolah i left the hse at like 430 just now cos while i was showering at about 245, my sister came home and asked if i wanted to go cut hair with her. so of cos i sed yes. whenever someone sponsors me, i always answer in the affirmative. anyway. i finished watching the hindi movie first. it was, btw, a completely weird movie. there were like, lotsa GAYS in the movie, all cute and hunky and stuff. and the hero was the ugliest of them all. he has a square torso. ee. anyway, i digress. went to storm hair. peter was wearing this army-print netting as a bandanna which totally reminded me of obs cos denise was wearing it there too!!! haha. anyway yes i got a huge change in my boring-nak-mampoz hair.. and i kinda like it now. itz more interesting, anyway. i suppose i'll get reactions this friday. urkkk. this friday.. neway i left the salon at like 915.. spent 4 hrs there!!!?!? giler..
ohyah update on the nicholas sparks. itz damnnn interesting.. cos itz not one of his old soppy crite cintas.. acherli the library calls it a thriller.. but i wouldn't go tt far.. it doesn't quite reach MHC's standard.. but itz still kinda freaky ah.. ermm.. ohyah so far the girl realises she doesn't like the guy she's currently dating, so she stops dating him and asks the late husband's best friend out. finally!!! acherli she was waiting for HIM to ask HER out. but he diden get the hint, so she did it. haha. they finally tell each other tt they love each other. and it shd be happily ever after right? acherli no. the guy she was dating turns out to be an abusive-asshole-under-the-pretension-of-gentleman psycho.
hehe. sorry, i guess no one else really cares about the books i read. itz juz tt i really think itz a nice story.. and tt nicholas sparks shd just stick to this genre..
well. goodnight.

nearly forgot. was discussing personal ancestry with ili laz night.. and i made tt assumption tt i was juz normal ol' malay. hahaha. well. i'm not. my mom's dad is partly, or all, indian. no wonder he was sooooo dark. her mom is javanese [tt i always knew]. my dad's dad looks chinese cos his mom was pure chinese. and of cos, my dad's mom was prolly pure chinese too [adopted by a muslim family].
wow. now i acherli have smthg in common with OM!
haha. sorry.

i bought my 16 bucks tshirt today.. itz nice.. can't wait to buy another one.. but that'll be in like 3 months or more.. AFTER i get my river doll. haha. ohyah i finished the mary higgins clark and started the nicholas sparks, itz called the guardian.. itz a 2003 book, it seems.. i lurve new books! neway, i'm just starting.. but so far, it totally reminds me of fana!!! itz abt this woman whose husband died soopa young, and 4 years after his death, shez juz starting to pick up the pieces.. and start dating again.. and there's this guy, who was her husband's best friend.. he likes her, and everyone knows, including her.. but hez too skared/shy/watever to ask her out, and spends his time killing himself watching her date other ppl. while she thinks she'll be betraying her passed-on husband by dating his best friend.
so much for the book review. i still haven't found a calendar!!! did i mention tt i found the cutest chowchow one at taka??!??!!? itz only 21 bucks! but my dad would so totally kill me if i brought it home. so i'll just leave it there.. with fond thoughts of it always.. haha.
oh i was looking for nice photos today, and i ended up poking thru one of my unclassified boxes.. and i found, among other things, the baby sandal i bought with shafa, billions of happy cup, quickly and coffee bean cards, and the borders card azi fana and i won in the lemur thingy last year. the bio day/week competition or watever.. haha. so funny. ohyah and i found a photo, which, a couple of years ago, i wanted to tear up into tiny little pieces and throw away but couldn't find.. i think i stashed it away in tt box for safekeeping.. anyway, i found it today, of all days.. i mean, today was supposed to be another of those lazy undisturbed days. well anyway since it was kinda 2 years overdue, instead of tearing it up i just stuffed it into a teeny envelope, then i stuffed the teeny envelope into an old hari raya envelope, then i stuffed tt into a piece of folded paper, and i put it together with other rubbish and stuffed THAT pile in between layers of a flattened box in my wastebasket.
ahhh.. springcleaning really works wonders sumtimes..

ohyah. went to the library just now after maghrib. i was gonna borrow an SAT book. but it was not in attendance. so i got a mary higgins clark and a nicholas sparks. and i sat there listening to ashanti and reading sept cleo. i lurve the library. i'm gonna make it a weekly thing. strange how i feel most myself when i'm reading.

okay all, new website. but make sure yu have flash 6 first. paperdoll has this My-Own-Design thingy going, where yu design yur own stuff and send it to them, with a free consultation and everything. prices start from 65 bucks acherli, which i think is abit steep, but i think if yu're a good enough designer, with cool ideas, it kinda works rite.. and yu'll never see someone walking down the street with the same thing yu're wearing, guaranteed. someday lar.. when i'm rich.. anyway yah sejak kebelakangan ini i've been into personalised bajus.. haha. still thinking of a nice enuff gambar to put on a tshirt.. ideas, anyone?

merry christmas. forgot to say tt laz night. my christmas was like the most lazy shite day i've ever spent. i woke up, ate, slept till 5. woke up, showered, watched tv [a muppet christmas carol, legally blonde, some of billy elliot], and here i am now, watching serendipity. i must have watched it like a billion times. but itz just soooo nice. the whole idea, of fate and destiny and soulmates.. well it gives yu smthg else to believe in..
while tv-watching, smthg came to mind. why issit they censor "fuck" but not "bastard" or "prick" or "bitch"? so basically, the only thing they censor is "fuck" while everything else comes out. defeats the purpose, no?

everybody, be prepared to attend my wedding at istana gedung kuning, catered by tepak sireh restaurant. in about 10 years or so.. to whom, i dunno yet. [unless i get married to OM, and fana marries mugant, in which case it'll juz be where ever fana wants it to be lar..] anyway, it juz rox ah. downstairs is all kerusis and mejas and stuff, with those dulu2 decorations, and upstairs is airconditioned, with 3 heeeuuugge rooms, lotsa cushions, a pelamin, an ambin, and the same cool decor. oh and toilets both upstairs and downstairs, CLEAN. all wooden and antique and stuff. and plenty of mirrors everywhere, all over the house. itz 15 bucks per pax, or whatever tt means. yu kan bring yur bed and put it upstairs and sleep there for the night[s]. and people have their meal downstairs, and the dessert upstairs.. cool rite. so. yes. i wanted to like book in advance. 10 years in advance. haha. but i dun haf the bucks to put down a deposit. so takpe.
i'm so tired. but it was fun. the cute guys? as usual tak banyak. rahman was there, btw. he looks abit different. he looks at least 2 years older. haha. his violin still rocks lar.. gambus guy [who was the guy playing the gambus, fyi] had cute messy curly hair [not long] and braces and a liddle boy face. hehe. i finally malued myself as usual and asked him whether we cld take picture with them [we did. like thrice.]. ohyes, atiqah, since i now know yu read this, pls dun forget to send me the gambars.. my email is right there.. on the right..
hm. oh khairularifin was there. we were on the stairs peeking out of the window n i saw him and i screamed, "khairularifin bin zulkifli!" and everyone was like, "where where?" so i sed, "okay everybody, he's at amitabh bachchan's table. amitabh bachchan's table.. facing here.." haha. tt was hilarious. really hilarious. and yes, i still regret not asking yu two to SIT ON the pelamin. will always regret it.
adzfar was there too. thank God hez going to rj. at last, someone enthu to maybe inject some life into the malay society. which is like non-existent. and hez like so cute. and his sisters are damn pretty too.
ohyah there was this like cute boy. he was like walking around smiling and taking pictures. in an off-white baju kurung. baba n i were like wowing. den we were gonna take picture with kak faridah. and he came up to take it for us!!! skali dier nephew kak faridah lah.. haha. i forgot his name, but hez only like a couple of years younger cos hez taking SPM next year. therez hope yet.. haha.
ohyah kak suraya's brother/relative iz damn cute too! haha. and funny. he looked really off walking around in the baju kurung and her heels..
hmm. i thot laz year's game was lame.. but this year's takes the cake. aperdah dgn the stupid pseudo-mastermind game, disguised as guess-watz-in-the-tepak-sirih? whatever man. and i dun need a new tv anyway. and dunch yu think saying "colour tv" is as stupid as saying "yellow banana"? who the hell offers black-and-white tvs as prizes these days? well.. juz a thot.. in the end i was juz praying someone would win, juz to get it over n done with.
i kan't believe i missed so many cool tv programs. AND the laz train. of cos baba's sister's husband [yes, mr. mambo-italiano himself] sent me, thank God. hahaha. they're damn funny, sebenarnye..
oh and buat malu je *I* had to like take the prize cos nobody from the table wanted to go. haha. it was a fruit juicer or smthg i think. then kamie's less-kurus brother was hugging it and wouldn't let go.. so her mom couldn't offer it to us.. haha.
ok i dun think i missed out anything. i love gambus guy [okay i dun]. hez damn cute. OHYAH!!!!!!!!!!! speaking of cute, my darling OM looks *SO BLARDEE I-WANT-TO-DIE-KAN-SOMEONE-PLS-KILL-ME-NOW CUTE AND HANDSOME* in the 2002 yearbook. so. yes. juz a thot. hahaha. nitez.

hey again. i juz wrote a way cool testimonial which fana refuses to submit. so i'm putting it here, for record purposes. "yu are like my best guy friend man!!! sometimes i just love to talk to yu.. and sumtimes i juz love to hate you! haha thanks for all yur support for my crap all this time yah? and being so generous [i.e. the yearbooks].. yur devotion to a certain person really amazez me.. wish more guys were like you.. devoted.. nice.. pillar of support.. and not bad-looking either..! ...so dun forget yur marriage offer k?!?"
my brother's watching southpark. cute sia. southpark, not him.

wad a horrible day. or at least, it just became horrible. then tt stupid seventeen.com is down, juz when i want to print sum cool stuff frm the 17 trainer section.. and then this stupid collegeboard.com sez tt my SAT registration iz not completed. aaarrrggghhh. pissing larh! oh plus i kan't play my mp3s cos the speakers are having an attitude problem. this is damn irritating.
well we went to little india just now. there was one, i repeat, ONE cute guy. apeee je.. well at least he smiled. heh heh.

heyya. people, therez this shop at suntec, itz called caesars gun gallery or smthg, and there's this really cute guy working there. vik. tall. handsome. hehe. itz this little space on the second floor, juz next to the escalator. juz fyi lar.. haha.
anyway i missed addams family values today cos we went to suntec.. to get my ring.. woohoo! now i haf it! and guess what? it fits perfectly [and i mean perfectly] on my ring finger. isn't tt amazing? and thatz where i met tt cute vik, of cos.. hmm.. wad else did i buy.. ohyah we went to eat at pizza hut.. so after stuffing our faces, we got the cute beanie soft toys frm there.. the green guy and the pink gerl.. itz so cool, itz exactly like the ones at isetan, but cheaper [9.90 only].. it is SO going on my bed.. then we went shopping at carrefour [where, as i told my mother, yu kan never leave without buying anything]. i found my darlingggg river there!!!! i wanted to dieeeee!!!! but itz like 24.90 so i think i'll get it as a congrats-ain-yu-survived-lecture-tests-and-SATs self-present or smthg. hahaha. then i'll get the chelsea doll as a congrats-ain-yu-survived-second-lecture-tests self-present. ok i haf it all planned. we got me a new bedsheet also [itz really nice, and loud-coloured and everything].. there were barbie bedsheets.. but it was like 50-smthg bucks.. banyak duit aku.. of cos ttz an improvement over the 100-plus quilt cover set frm happy house. but still. hm wat else. oh my brother was going to town at the gatsby section. there was a freaking vanity mirror, with lights all around, and bucketloads of gatsby products for public use there!!! plus a tv which was blaring those lame gatsby adverts tak habis-habis.. [if yu're happy and yu know it clap yur hair..] and i was searching round and i found tanning lotion!!! i got a banana boat tanning gel for 12.50.. it has glitter inside, to like, further reflect the rays of the sun and all tt jazz. can't wait to try it out tmr!!! but sya sed the body shop one literally colours yur skin, so mebbe i'll get tt when this one dahbis.. there was another banana boat one.. it looked more serious.. haha.. but i think i'll try the fun one first yah.. okay tt was carrefour.. then we started walking back to the carpark.. but of cos, bynk kedai.. my sister n i were going crazy in xcessories.. and there was this reaaaally cool shoe/jewelry/baju-baju shop, with the greatest variety of ankle-strap and lace-up shoes i've ever seen, which weren't tt ex, and the coolest rings n stuff.. and the jeans were juz HOT, with the embroidery and sequins and appliques!!! but i glanced at one of the price tags of the jeans, and it sed 119.90 or sum crap liddat. i totally died. we also passed a happy house shop. so i got my brolly! woohoo! and then i got a pair of summerblue pants at giordano. ok ttz it. i am soooo tired. besok kena bangon kul 7. so i guess takleh tido kul 4 lagie.. haha. nitez.

okay people, i haf a new url to promote!!! go watch this cool christmas cartoon movie, and turn on yur speakers!!!

neway i had the most confusing dream laz night.. it involved being in the same malay class as _ _ _ tulang, and taking a 1-hr fieldtrip with him to like, kampong glam or sum shit.. and this weird mass dance in the rgs hall, with OM sitting on the stage watching, and old primary skl frens were there too..
i will not sleep at 4a.m. ever again.

hiya babes. look at the time! and i'm still online, with no plans to leave yet.. now, what could be the mysterious factor tt is keeping me online at such an unearthly hour?

well, acherli, i've been surfing seventeen.com since like, 11 just now.. haha. and i truly recommend it! [duh, since i've been surfing it for 3 hrs..] there are dillions of cool games.. one of them is this pet boyfriend game. how cute is tt? remember tamagotchi [or however yu spell it]? this time they're in cute guy form! i'm serious, the guys are really cute! check out tt game! but acherli, that game getz abit boring after awhile.. i mean, all yu kan do is stare at his unmoving face, and simulate pdas, and "eat" or talk. haha. but itz still cool. and check out the magazine cover thingy!!! itz damn fun! just like the one in barbie except yu kan put ur own face in this one!!! and the captions are unpredictable! ... anyway i'm not done checking out the website, juz the games page, but itz been cool so far so give it a hit!
and don't worry, i'll go to sleep soon.

well today was the big day. no great shakes. i acherli forgot it was my birthday. till i woke up to baba's sms at around 11.20.. i lurve her birthday wish for me!!! couldn't have wished it better myself! hahaha. i really hope it comes true. wait, i saved the msg. here it is: my wish 4 yu dis yr moga **** suker kau and may yu get 3As nx yr woohoo.. yeah. haha. neway today was really boring.. but at least it rained, and is still raining..
oh laz night--or shd i say waaaay early this morning--i was just going thru my photo drawer.. which also contains like, past year notebooks. neways, it was a really cool walk down memory lane.. i forgot sum of the fotos even existed.. and i was really cringing at 90% of the stupid shit tt i wrote. especially the references to a certain fren of sya's!!!! eeks! horriblehorrible, as kumara would say. ohyah i was also checking out the fotos i took on the last pe lesson in rgs.. the stackup of people, with a rugby ball in the middle, the stupid scenes at the basketball court, my theatrical attempts at goalkeeping which ms zhang choreographed and captured, and the netball and hockey faceoffs with fana. i am such a poser. haha. but seriously, sum of the fotos are believable! =D to me anyway.'
well. ciaoing now.

it took 6 whole hours, and 5 long days
4 all yur lies to come undone..
and those 3 small words were way 2 late
cos yu kan't see that i'm the 1.. --josie and the pussycats

i'm addicted to love shack now. itz pretty cool. and less gross than bachelor. check it out--star world at 930 on thursdays i think. the girl, jennifer, is really cool and she really looks like kate hudson. the guy, matt, is so obviously looking for fun only.. he's using my [theoretical] strategy of constantly changing housemates.
ok herez how it works. there r 2 houses. one with a 1 guy-2 gerl combo. the other with the 1 gerl-2 guy combo. they all start that way, and the 1 guy and the 1 gerl in the respective houses are there permanently. so at the end of 3 days, these 2 permanent residents have to tell one of the 2 guys/gerls in their house to leave. so that another guy/gerl can come in the next day and the whole thing starts all over again. there are dates and games in between. pretty cool. at the end of the whole period, the couple tt stays together gets a free stay at sum place larh.. anyway itz just cool. so watch it. no overly-trashy bedroom scenes and no backstabbing like yu see in the bachelor. but yu still see jealousy and fear of commitment and little dramas liddat.

ooh i forgot. here's the picture.

guess what, babes? i am the proud owner of a size 5 rugby ball!!! -dies- i'm kinda at a loss as to what to do with it.. i mean, the only people i kan imagine playing with are like, fana and baba. and how do yu play contact with 3 people only? haha. well i hope we'll figure something out. contact rugby, anyone? tell me k? [i'm serious.. i should start being more active anyhow.] yah anyway it was a birthday present from my brother. i kan't believe he remembered tt i was looking at it.. i don't even remember looking at it while i was with him.. wow.. sometimes people really surprise yu huh?
ohyah we checked out the return of the king just now. itz excellent! and legolas appeared for like, i dunno, 7% of the movie? argh. takpe. he looks best in this one. especially in those cool elven clothes.. everyone MUST check him out! yah anyway itz a really great closing thingy lah.. battles were more real and stuff.. i kept screaming.. they were juz so real.. eowyn rocks too.. so brave sia..
well yah so that was my day. byez!

i haf to say, my room looks THAT much more interesting with the police tape looped around the ladder. cool sia! haha. God i am SO tired!!! i did not know it would last tt long!!! and i'm still debating over whether it was worth seven bucks in the first place, since i ate like, one-third of a palm of rice. which is like, reaaaaallllyyyy off for me. normally, i'd have a plateful of rice, and then go back for more. hm. so ttz the food part. ohyah. i was like thinking i was abit too extra-looking, cam eksyen glamour gitu, but then i saw the other gerls and i was glad to realise i looked normal. haha. too bad i diden wear my platform sandals, it would haf added sum height. takpelah. genie sandals are fine too. erm.. the entertainment was.. err.. well i can't put it into words but my favourite part was the dikir and the cinta bollywood promo video. the people.. hmm.. alrite.. bynk cute guys.. bynk lawar gerls.. the rgs turnout was pretty good too! and of cos, shafa was there. lovely to see her again. but kinda reminded me of nurie's party. summore got swimming pool and everything. haha. aidil was there with diana. sigh. if only fana cld haf come too! haha. _ _ _ tulang, as baba calls him, was there, of cos. in fact, he was one of the main people there. den.. ohyah hazrulnizam was there, baba took a foto with him.. there was this cute vik-looking guy, from tampines jc. dunno his name. dunno anything about him besides the fact tt he was wearing a pale yellow round-neck baju kurung with a samping AND capals. how much more perfect-muslim-guy can yu get??!?!?! -dies- maybe i'll see him around sumtime. ohyah and he does not live in either tampines or pasir ris. haha. ttz all i know. yah.
sum parts i diden like larh. the whole forum/press conference thingy about suria and the malay language. haha. merepek je. and i dunno. the second tarian was abit cramped, no? no smiles either. haiz. i escaped to the toilet during the third tarian. it was a great break. i wanted to stay in the toilet forever. i was also forcibly reminded of nurie's party again. anyway perfect 10 was playing also, and it was all empty, and i was just standing there absorbing the quiet. sum guys were also juz super tangkap glamer.. and i thot the ratu kebaya thingy was abit the engineered, no?
yup so those were juz sum thots. haha. ohyes. i took a picture with fir. he was being stupid and put on a goofy face. takpe.. takpe.. ohyah i was also conversing with bobo about my nose stud. haha. i find it really stupid tt whenever people ask me if i pierced my nose, i'll say, "yarh.. 6 dollars.." as if i'm like, promoting it or smthg. haha. tak betul sey.
got home at around 1230 [diden realise we caught the last train!] and like 5 minutes later my mom joined my soopa late supper.. haha.. i was eating her garlic rice with roast salmon and roast chicken and roast kentang and she had ayam kfc. appeeee je. i never get it when she doesn't eat her own cooking. oooh and guess what? my brother got the LOTR ring!!! wahlau!!! nak beli tak bilang sey! aku pon nak pe!!!! i've always wanted the ring.. i want to wear it.. lyke on my finger.. not on the chain.. oh God. i must get it!!!
oh and juz now faezah claimed my baju was a dress. so i guess i kan always wear it for grad night if i go bankrupt or smthg yar? hehe.

What is a friend?
A single soul dwelling in two bodies.--Aristotle
and tonight those two bodies were in the same boat. i'm glad we were together tonight.. and i hope we kan pull each other out of this.. hang tough k?

heyya all! i am aching all over, and itz high time i went to sleep, but i had such a great day tt i muz tell everyone about it!!!
haha. went to meet fana at city hall. i was NOT late. just a couple of minutes off the mark. we checked out citylink, and i discovered tt therez alot of things i wanna buy. there was this cute vik in the adidas shop. he was smiling. so cute. hehe. he looks partially un-vik.. which made him cuter. he was also alone. haha. fana dubbed him "the shoplifter", which caught on quickly cos i cldn't think of a better name. don't worry, he did NOT shoplift. ohyah. i'm supposed to buy a happy house brolly. woohoo! kan't wait! when i get it, i'll finally be happy to carry ard a brolly!!! no more rain for me! cos not only will i carry it, i'll use it too! wahaha. sorry. currently satisfied with my present one lah, cos itz so small. but i've always wanted a more stylo one, so now tt i've got my chance, i'm seizing it.
hm. den we went to orchard. let me think.. ohyah we walked around wisma, then taka, and we got soopa tired.. so i thot we'd get a drink and sit down as well. we went to starbucks at far east. and.. and.. i got my rhumba frappucino. at first i thot i'd cut costs and get a grande je. then there was tt stupid 70 cents off thingy, and i went for a venti!!! tak betol. but hey, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise.. i was sitting there with fana, nearest to the glass, and i'd already finished mixing the cream and eating half of it straight off, then i'd already taken the top off the cup, and i had about 75% of the drink left. and i was just sitting there, facing the window, checking out the sights [in more ways than one], when this guy like, whizzed past. okay, he was walking. but fairly quickly. yellow tshirt, berms. and [although i cldn't see it then] sandals, not properly pakaied. and i looked up to see his face and died. and i screamed, "hichael!" i can only thank God tt the starbucks wasn't alfresco-style. that it was enclosed, and the doors were shut. and tt he was in a hurry so he diden see my expression. and i went crazy and forced fana to turn around and look at his face, gushing about how cute he was. and fana, being her, was keeping calm and trying to turn slowly, u know, for the casual effect. not like steamroller ain. anyway. then he stood outside bk, at first nak masok, pas tu tak jadi, pas tu nak masok starbucks plak, pas tu diri infront of starbucks, then infront of bk, and called sumone on his fone. *ringringringring* i guess the guy answered, and a vik came out of bk about a minute later and joined him. and they stood there talking first. then they both moved over and stood next to the staircase, which was like rite outside starbucks. and i was just there about 2 metres away from them [technically]. and dying [naturally!]. tried to use my fone, of cos. diden work, of cos. i was too skared. of cos, fana, with her professional detachedness, managed a better foto. which is the best we cld do la, sorry bout tt. yah so anyway, they just kinda stood there until like 25% of my drink remained. then they walked away. in the direction of wisma. wow. i remember during the east jalan raya i was hoping we'd all bump into hichael ard pasir ris. haha. [of cos we didn't!] and today i remembered exactly how handsome he is. the thick eyebrows, and the big eyes, and the fair skin [normally not a good feature in ppl!], and well, basically the harmony of everything on his face la. plus his nicely-styled hair. sigh. haha. one more thing. he looks abit like redhuan. something about the face. the face shape or smthg. just an objective comment. here's the picture. like i sed, it was the best we cld do. i mean, with him staring inside and all, itz hard to be completely professional.
then wad did we do.. ohyah we went to nike shop, where fana thot this guy who worked there was cute, even though he looks abit like sticky masterson to me.. then we went to the department store inside lido, watever it is, and then we went to wheelock and then toys'r'us. it rawks. toys'r'us, i mean. we were checking out myscene and bratz. okay, i like the myscene dolls but i lyke the bratz thingies. like the chain with the bratz pendant. and the heels keychain. and the gloss. and all those little thingies ah. but i'm still gonna get a river doll frm myscene. woohoo! and a chelsea one. acherli madison's not bad. but i prefer chelsea. yupz. ttz wat i'm getting. i'd rather get river first, but stupid singapore doesn't have individual guy dolls yet. which is like, so dumb! for example, barbie has only like, 2 kens to 10 barbies. how dumb rite. letz have more guys please. then maybe little boys kan start playing with dolls too. ohyah there's this cool soft toy section there. itz really cosy and there was virtually no one in tt section when we started playing there. i was sitting on a rocking animal [sheep? dog? i dunno. all i know is, it wasn't a horse.]. we tossed monkeys and dogs to each other. and u know the horse-on-a-stick thing? yeah we played with tt too. they also have cool books.. the open-the-flap kind, and the touch-the-textures kind. lurve those. oh and of cos we left our usual love messages to people on the magnetic writing board. wahaha. mine was this short and sweet thingy to OM in font size 16. fana's was a tribute to like, chubs and u.k. shyam and mugant in font size 10. haha. i prefer to concentrate on one at a time. anyway it was a bigger board than usual so we diden haf to economise so much. ooh and we took 2 pictures wearing the santa claus hats. haha. one of them is up there, obviously. shouldn't haf smiled so much yar? yu kan practically hear me boom "ho ho ho" frm the computer screen.
hm. ohyah. the salsa class. it was ok i guess. i mean, at least i learned smthg new and i always like to learn smthg new. juz diden like the setting and everything. it was in a pub. i think. well there were drinks. and a pool table. durh rite. and sum ppl really kan't dance. but it takes one to know one. i was really bad. but i think guys shd be good larh. as in, they're obliged to be so, cos they're the ones who are leading. but for every bad one there was one excellent friendly one who was soopa patient with 2-left-footed ol' me. my favourite was this guy, who was obviously just there to help out, and he was so friendly, started off with a hi-how-r-yu. and told me to look up, never down, and told me not to worry, just follow his lead. anyway yah all guy dancers shd be like him. hahaha. but overall i diden haf a great time la. ohwell. 4 more weeks to go yah?

that was juz soopa long. sorry bout tt. i know! i'll bold the hichael part. hehe.

i'm caught in the middle. i never knew this could happen. yes, for the briefest stint in sec 3 [?], i did wish for it to happen. but then i stopped. and i realised how very wrong i was. i thot u were unbreakable. and i knew, i just KNEW something was wrong.. but why diden i ask? would it have been better if i did, anyway? i dunno.
look. i had faith in you. i still do. the love is there. isn't it? i can see it. can't you? please give it another chance.
this is the worst of serba-salah feelings. i love you, my friend. and him too. i believe in you. and u know, no matter what, that we both love you right? him. and me. and we just want you happy. please don't hurt you. or him.
and i wanna tell her so bad. but i'm skared i'll be betraying your trust if i do. i'm just gonna wait till u give me the go-ahead.
oh why does today haf to be such a sad day. [i'm kinda angry at isky too. isn't it weird? being angry at someone you don't know.]

okay i've always despised ppl who talk in riddles. i'm so sorry for doing tt myself. so i'm gonna go now. that will be the one and only time i do tt. promise.

aaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. today is the day to be frust. seriously. itz been one thing after the other. letz go reverse chronologically.
trying to sign up for stupid SATs but something sumwhere is screwed up. tried it on the laptop, tried it on this comp, but i keep getting tt stupid internal server error. shit man.
people shouldn't keep changing their minds. especially on a non-social-life person like me. pissifying sial!
had to wait like, 8 hours, before my mom came home with food.
woke up naturally at 8-plus, but got driven round the bend, off the cliff, nuts, and out of my house by the stupid drillers at the flat above [last mentioned on friday].
had this horrible, great, stupid, words-just-can't-describe-it dream. or shd i say dreamS. i dunno why but all the obs dreams are flooding my mind NOW. now, which is like, more than one week after i got back from ubin. and they're sooooooooo much weirder than the 5-day obs dreams!!! seriously!!! weird as in, i dunno what's gotten into me! weird as in, get out of my head now!!! sigh. i dunno. two, and i mean TWO, of them featured OM. aargghh. i mentioned the first on friday i think. the second one centred around him joining my family for dinner or smthg equally silly. aarrgghh. itz juz a dream, and already i'm embarrassed. obs dreams, yu haf to stop.. firstly, itz totally off-schedule. secondly, er.. secondly.. well they're just sooper unsettling. okay?
now i haf to figure out what to do tmr as i avoid my house, and therefore the noise, from 9 to 6. kaoz. everyone knows how i like to laze around at home. stupid contractors have no right to chase me out of my home. -cries-

i ate like 4 pieces of merci chocolate today. one hazelnut creme [which rox]. one marzipan [which sux]. one dark creme [oklah..]. and juz had one praline creme [mm..]. and ttz not counting the kinder bueno i had earlier. plus the almond roca, which today was generously filled with uncrushed almonds. the flavour was just bursting in my mouth and wouldn't stop. when did i stop disliking chocolates?

ohyah did i mention? we saw nam rizuan too. baba was simply dying. haha. so was i la.. he still looks exactly the same!!! haha. neway juz finished nights in rodanthe. it juz surprises me how soppy a guy kan be.. haha.. but well itz not bad only la.. i still like a walk to remember best. and of cos, mary higgins clark is always better. sorry, but his stories are always so tragic. let's have a happy one for once! oh, right, am i supposed to look to fairytales for tt?

The following scene took place on a BA flight between Johannesburg and London.

A white woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air Hostess.

"Madam, what is the matter?" the hostess asked

"You obviously do not see it then?" she responded. "You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."

"Be calm please", the hostess replied. Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available."

The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.

"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class." Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued. "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone sooooo disgusting."

She turned to the black guy, and said. "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please take your hand luggage because a seat awaits you in the first class. "

At the moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded. --from some email forward.

anyway, went for jalan raya part 2 yest.. ili did not join us. neither did kamie or fana or ezy. but sum others came ah.. jo and her sister [who is so incredibly pretty! but i'm afraid baba and i corrupted her in nadia's hse.. haha..], shariffah nadia, yeo nadia, etc. anyway it was pretty fun.. i think we went to 6 hses issit? an improvement of 2 on tuesday, and ttz not including faezah's hse which was the last and which i was too sleepy to go to. never found my baju raya soulmate. ohwell. lain kali pakai black. i'm sure i'll have a whole range to choose frm then. haha.
went to tampines mall with baba in between aliya's and amal's hses. picked up my contacts, showed her the new cool tm toilets, and shopped for my brother's present. also found sya's fren's present. itz so perfect!!! i muz buy it. we must. the adidas shop rox. i wanted to like, die there. haha. so i was checking out the scents, and i was so for the spicy one, but baba sed itz for like, older guys.. so i went for the milder one which, btw, i couldn't smell at all. anyway it was not bad, i was pretty satisfied with my purchases. i decided to just throw in the deodorant as well, since i diden get him anything last year. anyway for the record, he loved it. we were in my sister's room and checking out the action figure of a NBC [nuclear biological chemical] weapons guy, and he was also spraying both the cologne AND the deodorant all over himself. amusing. i dunno how and why, but he always seems to like my presents. i seem to remember buying sum 5-dollar dinosaur pen one year, and he just kept playing with it.. we may not be close, but i guess we still know each other pretty well.
i had my first OM dream. just laznight/thismorning. it was weird. but then again, which of my dreams aren't? err.. it featured us both, and fana, and billions of extras, scuba-diving at the bottom of the sea. for obs. i will not go into details. but we were wearing smthg like a glass bowl on our heads. to breathe in and stuff. aarrgghh. what kind of dream is that, i ask?
there's some really incessant drilling going on kat atas. the flat just on top of mine. wahlau. and i thot the guitar-playing was bising. this really gives new meaning to bingit. it woke me up at about 9 or 10, and itz been going on nonstop [except for maybe 20 minutes at 12] till now!! can someone please have pity on me? aaarggh. i'd love to escape to the library, but itz kinda like, raining now. sigh. maybe in a while.
i also checked out the caltex ad frm the website.. kan yu believe it, i can now watch it over and over again!!! woohoo!
i read ili's blog, and since i can't tag it, i just wanted to tell her tt humpty dumpty WAS the king. musta been sum hell of a weak king.
anyway cya.

i juz caught anak metropolitan 2. i already knew before watching tt i prefer the first one. no small part of the reason is that they replaced norseha with sum ancient-looking actress as ruby. sedih sey. norseha's ruby was my idol sia.. but itz pretty not bad so far.. i lyke it alot.. and i juz realised.. yu know 15, the royston tan movie about like, gangsters in singapore? yeah well, i think A.M. is a much better representation of that group in our society. itz not abstract tt no one except fellow filmmakers won't understand, and best of all, itz not R(A)! or even PG!!! so. yah. just a comment.
yu know, i was just raiding my funds and i realised i'm pretty much broke. i haf a hundred bucks set aside for my contacts, and 10 bucks balance for my brother's birthday. tt is so pathetic! besides, i dun even know what i'm gonna get him.. he already has 2 pairs of skater shoes, and i decided to abandon the skater bag idea.. haha cos i'm just too broke for tt.. nak belikan baju pon iz kinda off cos he just got oh, i dunno, 3 new tshirts today?!?! so yah. i'm at a loss here. help me out. tmr i'll just beg off the jalan raya and walk around tampines for abit lar..
ok i'm gonna go and see if i haf any more money holes to raid.. cya!

smalam kiter gi jalan raya. it was great. even tho i had to wake up at 730 to be rewarded with a totally anticlimactic morning. we had breakfast at jp banquet, den went to fana's hse, where i fattened up on tom yam, then to kamie's hse [on the way we saw a really cute 20-plus vik with a cool zigzag stubble and bad hair, and a cute mim who was apparently unsure of his sexuality. we haf sum nice pics.], where we killed 2 hours watching k3g. waddehell! haha. cam takde kerje gitu. but yu see, her hse is so comfy and all. then baba's hse, where i ate 5 ayams frm the kari ayam.. which was soopa nice.. and we discovered that the cool clock had her parents' names on it. last but DEFINITELY not least, was the clincher: ili's hse.. i lurve the curtains, they look lyke flowing water.. haha. and we were served satay!!! i'm really not a satay person, acherli. and i had 5 ayams in me already rite. but i just ate one stick after the other, until i was like, "eh? dahbis?" ohwell. too bad. then we played with bunga apis!!! ...where i discovered tt i'm not such a pyromaniac after all. haha. but they were really pretty.. and it was like the most hari raya thing i've ever done. then it was a sleepy 39 ride back home.. =D did i already say tt i love 39?
today went queensway with my mommy, sister, brother, cik jun n elna.. and i got my new skl shoes.. yeah.. they're orange. i know, illegal. whatever possessed me to choose those, rite.. acherli, i was after this cool nike presto, light grey with pink ticks and stuff.. but they diden have my size.. guess what size they had? XS!?!?!!? no way in hell i cld fit into such an inhuman size. and i loved those shoes so..
..sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
haha sorry i'll go now.

i did absolutely nothing today. woke up, ate, read, slept, woke up again, read, ate, read, mandied, and now here i am. haha. was planning to go to the library but at this moment itz already closing or closed or smthg. wanted to continue the obs chronicles.. tapi cam malas ah..
okaylah. on the first day, we were separated, and i mean separated, into our watches. 7 watches in all. they did it alphabetically. as in, sya came after me, so i was in one watch and she was in another. she was, of cos, in the same watch as her fren. and i was in darlink OM's buddy watch. haha. jadilah eh.. and we were sitting about 30cm apart.. and we smiled at each other!!! woohoo! that was the first step, as i saw it.. hehe. okay OM stories aside, we did the trust fall [which was soopa skary!!!!!!!], the trust dive [my first time bursting out in uncontrollable laughter, and which also included some serious zao genging], then we pitched tents and all.. we soon became really good at it, btw.
second day. and the inverse tower. we were at the exact same spot i was 2 years ago. this time i did the inner face alone!! woohoo! sya did the funky log ladder thing with her fren, of cos. they succeeded beautifully. then me and sandy navigated us to camp 2. there's this horrible neverending slope you have to get thru, whose sole aim in life is to kill as many backpack-laden obs-ers as poss. kaoz. after that comes a hundred steps to further death, then yu reach the camp.. well at least there were showers there too..
third day. we had the best morning circle of my life. haha. i dunno. the place was just so nice. we were at the seaview parade. and they gave us 10 minutes alone time. i ran off to the stone wall nearest to the water and tiaraped there writing. the breeze was blowing, the salty briny smell was swirling round, there was a dead fish floating in the water.. haha. but it was reallyreally nice. i've never enjoyed the water as much as i did that morning. and that was when i decided what exactly to say to him. haha. oh and we had 3.5k run earlier. i died. but it was okay in the end. after tt there was kayaking.. i remembered how much i hate kayaking.. but how i love floating in the water.. and i had a billion fibreglass cuts in addition. then we went for land ex.. it diden take very long.. mebbe slightly more than 2 hrs ttz all.. cos we were just walking round tt region of the island. while my poor, poor OM had to go all the way to a jetty in the north and come back. our campsite was about 200m or so away from the reservoir. and tt was the first time i had a general conversation with him. hahaha. i will not give details. it seems too mundane. then.. that night was the best i ever had. we spent 3 hours, and more, writing stuff about our watchmates.. by the end i really went crazy, laughing at the most non-laughable things and making others laugh at my laughter. yes and ttz why it was fun.
the next day was solo. about 20 hrs or so of it. it was preceded by a morning circle right on top of the reservoir. we were THIS close. but hardly talked. why? guess i was still skared. malu. whatever elses ah. solo was great. it would have been greater if i weren't bleeding. but i kan't control bodily functions, can i? slept alot. cooked 2 packets of noodles which i cldn't finish at night, and very dilute milo which was acherli the highlight of my meal. but cooking was the best part la.. that, and hearing the azans coming loud and clear from johor, malaysia. i was crying kwite abit for unknown reasons. the first 5 ppl walked around and came for a visit. it was nice to see them, but i diden join them cos i felt too gross. shahul went back alone and got lost, haha. tt was funny. ahmad and kwee yong came visiting too, later.. and in the morning ahmad went round waking ppl up. i went to sleep rite after isyak. but i kept waking up after like, 30 mins to 1 hr.. dunno why. it was a cozy sleep, though. aside frm the fact tt i dreamt about wishing stairs at one point. eek. i was cuddled up next to my bag with my mosquito repellent and lighter within reach. also watched alot of flies kill themselves in my candle as i tried to write a note to jon. ohyah. i am and excellent lighter-lighter. my first time, and it lit beautifully! i am an expert. woohoo. haha. hm i woke up waaay before subuh. and solo was over. i'd welcome another one, acherli. next time i'll bring more insect repellent. for example, mortein. haha. and i'll also invent a grasshopper repellent. you shd have seen those idiots invading my groundsheet every 5 seconds! and me slapping the stupid groundsheet to skare them away! haha. itz funny now, but i was freaked then cos i thot they'd jump into my clothes or smthg.
we got back to camp 1 safe and sound. i quickly went to change my pad. we diden do much, just had a mini sea ex, got a briefing on the sea ex, and went to unpack and pack at the bunks. and that was when i asked him. in his track pants and jacket and glasses and earring and pulling tt adorable beanie on and off, how could i NOT? and no one overheard, and he sed okay.. -cries- haha i just remembered, we were sitting in the aircon room during the briefing and ivan and i were just dying of pee. it was hilarious. finally we just scampered out of the room, really cuden take it anymore.. ohyah and after the mini sea ex i saw an expression on mr. wangi�an syurga's face tt totally killed my opinion of him. haha.
next day was sea ex. i died. soopa happy to land on sembawang beach. the 5.8k run was.. haha funny. i did not run at all. but i completed it, nevertheless. there were these stupid mats who set up camp rite next to us. and they even called my name out loud! freaky.
day after tt, we woke up at 3-plus am.. kayaked around 5-plus.. went to causeway [where amir saw us!!!].. and i switched kayaks with mag n ivan.. then began my ordeal. kayaked with kwee yong, then we both started crying.. then with yee yen.. and zhenzhen started crying.. then we beached up, and i spent the time peeing and relaxing in the sea.. then with ivan.. we were usually infront.. but then ivan's abrasions got too much, and we died and started cursing.. then mark came over instead, and HE started cursing.. then frank and sumit [or however yu spell it] saved us by towing us to changi ALL THE WAY. yu don't know how grateful i was to them. i felt like such a jinx. and towards the end, it got cooler and mark was like, freezing. wahaha. saper suruh tak pakai baju. hez so kurus summore. so i paddled while he splashed in the water.. and when we reached our destination, the waves crashed us to shore.. ooh skary.. cos sumit got crushed by our stupid jinxed kayak. but tt night was the second best i ever had.. we had a lovely shower.. and hung out at the sidewalk cooking.. feeding the cats.. i finished 2 cans of campbell's soup with shi han.. and shared my owl cereal with denise mag ivan and shi han. mm.. had a good sleep too..
then the next day, we kayaked back to lovely lovely ubin.. my hero, OM, was kayaking alone.. haha. so cool! he rawks.. when we got back i was just sooooooo happy!!! so happy, i was helping out everywhere. carrying the kayak here, taking out stuff there, bringing the trolley down, etc.. we showered, then we climbed the tripod.. wow.. ours was really easy, but yu shoulda seen OM's.. i was staring practically open-mouthed as he caught hold of the trapeze bar.. like sum circus natural or smthg. anyway my commitment was to study every week. haha. tt in itself is a tall order. but i'll do it. i'll see myself standing up there on the plank, like wendy on hook's ship, and i'll do it. i'll see myself down there watching him swinging on the bar, and i'll do it. i'll remember as the whole eng soon rushed to the belayer and pravin prepared to jump onto the bar. hehehe. cute sey.
i woke up on the last day, with just me and denise in the tent. for sum inexplicable reason, i thot tt the tent was floating in the water, and tt i was supposed to paddle us around or we'd go off course. then i saw denise sleeping, and i heard someone say, "don't worry, yu dun need to paddle, we're towing yu.." so i went back to sleep. hey. i acherli FELT us swaying in the water. =P then it was the 9k run. i really really wanna thank tt pj gerl, i forgot her name, for supporting the 3 of us [sha, azza (?), me] thruout the run. and my 5-day obs memories too.. the last 3 km or so was all the 5-day obs memories flooding back. cos it was part of our land ex route. the land ex tt fana and i navigated us along.. i saw the tarmac road.. the roadsigns.. the shelter we ate lunch at.. the sluice gates and the bridge and the water rushing past. and i remembered everything. i remembered why i went back for the 9-day. i ran the last 100m or so alone.. they were banging on pails.. and screaming.. and cheering.. and i was getting goosebumps, although i'm not sure from what. i am sure that i stole a glance at he who was sitting there with the pail-bangers and cheerers. and i was rubbing my arms to rid myself of the goosebumps.. yeah so anyway, i did it. in 1 hr 33 mins or smthg along those lines. yu know what, i couldn't believe it when we reached the tower just outside the gates. i thought i was hallucinating. haha. guess i owe it to the 2 times a day pt also, for getting me thru the run. i really thot i'd take 2hrs. and more. anyway then it was breakfast. then back to the bunks. in the end we just lost the entrenching tool. which was about 6 bucks.. thanks to the super organised storeperson, i'd say. who was that, yu ask? ME!!!!!! hahaa. then we went for the last meal and the story continues in the previous entry. =D
i had so much fun. i took away with me countless memories, a fitter body, many new friends including the one i've been wanting to make, 2 new tshirts and a new metal waterbottle, and a lovely, if somewhat uneven, tan. and i feel so much better about myself. hello, this is ain, who termengah-mengahs after 1 round of the track! and i completed a 9k run!!! with minimal aches and pains! [seriously. my worst aches n pains came from stupid kayaking.] well yah. so ttz it. everyone who has not gone for obs and still has a chance too, plz go yah..

i can't type. or write. or hold cutlery. i'm also sleepy. not tired tho. but sad. also happy and ecstatic. overjoyed. expectant of things to come. embarrassed. alot la. right now my body is capitalising on sleepy, but since i love blogging so much, i decided to sacrifice sleep to give a brief rundown. don't worry, i wasn't kempunan blogging during obs, cos i kept writing in my journal. =D
anyway obs was great and all, i managed to do everything and i MEAN everything, including finishing the inverse tower all by myself, and finishing the 9k run in under 2 hours.
but what i really wanna talk about was the highlight of today. cos the rest of it is already encapsulated in my obs journal. so anyway, the highlight of today, and the entire course, was OM, of course. buddy watch summore. i was sooooo happy. wasn't even homesick. not a little. and i really think it was bcos of him. like, there was something to look forward to everyday, and that was seeing him. yesterday he scaled the tripod first and swung onto one of those trapeze kinda bars. i was just awed. but no one noticed, dun worry. anyway just now our watches were the last 2 to have lunch, and i waited till the ppl in my watch were napping and his watch was relaxing, then i went up to him and he looked up and sed, "oh! yah.." and he got up and followed me as i got up to take the camera. then he stood there and asked, "take where?" and we trying to decide then he decided to stand infront of the pool but then the sun was behind us, so we moved sideways, then went to sum nondescript blue wall.. and he was like, "like photo studio liddat.." haha. sorry. i'm just.. enraptured.. then we took two fotos. mag was like, "stand closer.." haha waddehell. then we were done and he was like, "muz give me one ok?" hello?!??! OM, if yu wanted me to give yu the whole camera i would! couldn't stop smiling after that. he just looked so good today. and everyday.
but anyway i checked the camera later and there was no sign of the gambars. reallyreally sad. but i'm gonna ask for another one. next yr, i suppose. i mean, when am i gonna see him again rite? yah hopefully he'll be as nice as he was today, and the past 9 days.. aaaarrgghh.. bigbig crush!!! you can't spend 9 days watching someone seem so handsome and heroic and NOT stop crushing on them.
when i got home today it was empty and i just stood in the doorway staring at the balcony, about to laugh. cos throughout the past nine days i never thought once about home. and itz like i forgot i live here, at home, not back there at ubin. funny rite?
anyway i want to write so much more, but i'm really sleepy. will dump my clothes and eat den sleep. dah. next time i finish this k..

ohyah how cld i forget. when we were at the yishun house, there was this other family tt came. one of the minimats looked almost exactly like arman, that cute oeps boy who sumtimes takes the bus with me. but i diden know how to verify that. ohwell. too bad. he was cute anyway.

yesterday was much cooler than the day before. haha. firstly, i woke up late, like 12-plus.. and did not go out of the room until the guests left. then i just lek2ed at home till we left house at 3-plus. we basically visited abah's relatives and mama's relatives.. so it was cooler cos the people we visited were generally not sad ah.. and not in a sad state. denn.. ohyah my sister picked me and zul up at yishun around 8. and we wended our way out of the maze tt was yishun ring road to northpoint.. found my stuff, ate my last mcpepper meal.. and we went home.
ayah saw my fone yest and asked who it was. my sister saw my fone yest too and sed, "is this kumara?" i wanted to die. and i screamed, "NO!! y would i want his picture on my fone?" and later in the car she asked, "so issit a guy or a girl anyway?" and once again i was indignant. and i exclaimed, "duh, itz a guy!!!" and can you believe she sed, "well.. you know.. sometimes itz too dark to tell.." i really wanted to die then.
ooh in northpoint mac's this vik came in ah.. glasses, BEAKY NOSE, cute. for one wild moment i thot he was latte. but don't worry, everyone, he wasn't. isn't. whatever. hehe. but if latte has an adik, i think thatz the one.
anyway i'm all packed and i think i look like i'm going into the army or smthg. hello, even ns guys don't carry half the load i'm carrying, i bet.. and i know i'll embarrass myself there somehow. God, pls dun let me embarrass myself. anyway, goodbye civilisation.

ohyes forgot to say.. i got an early, albeit accidental, birthday present frm my sister today. itz a polaroid cam--instaxmini or smthg liddat. itz pink!

so tiredddd.. but i thot i'd just check in and say that. got home at 10. i know we were travelling in the car and all, but itz still tiring. and ppl saying i'm tall doesn't help things. are they blind or smthg? well, when *I*'m tall, itz relative. literally. everyone in my family is short[er than me, but my brother will probably grow summore anyway], so of cos i look tall. seriously. 161? tall? bullshit sia. get an eye.
i had the greatest meal [if yu cld call it that] at mak ngah's hse. it was juz lontong and sambal goreng, dry. but the sambal goreng was like wo. firstly, no tahus. secondly, itz 70% parus. thirdly, it has prawns. and last but mostly, the paru is soooooo soft and un-chewy! i'd go so far as to call it "melt-in-the-mouth".. so i vow that my parus, when i learn to make them, will be the same.
ok bye.

malas nak post, acherli. but i'll just write a few lines. selamat hari raya, all.
to those i know i was supposed to send cards to, sorry, the laziness kinda got out of hand this year.
to those who got irritated when i was too noisy, too crude, too anything, sorry bout that too. but expect more from me in the coming year. and i'll be apologising again, i'm sure.
to people i still owe stuff [e.g. $$, books, favours, etc.] to, siler halalkan. or yu kan forgive and remind me, but isn't halalkan so much better for all of us?
to others who feel i owe them some sort of apology that doesn't fall under any of the above categories, this is it.

my sister just saw a dead cat. run over by a car. ee. kesian.

so like i was saying, selamat hari raya.

heyy.. i've been slacking ard this ramadhan.. haven't done anything except wash my own plates. so at least i'll have smthg to apologise for. anyway, we just got a new reader's digest condensed book!!! it has a nicholas sparks inside!!! i cannot wait to read it..

which idiot is masaking at this time of the nite?

i smell kari. kari ayam? kari daging? the all-in-one kari tt u eat with roti kirai? mmmmmmm..

hey.. i'm not a hari raya buff.. haven't been for some years.. but there's a nice way to get into the mood.. fireworks! now, i know they're banned here, but you kan check them out on yur comp! really nice.. really cool.. fireworks, here i come!

i found a new bus route to skl!!! haha itz 12 till somewhere in kallang, and 196 to bv.. heh. can't wait to try it out.

guess what. my mom acherli mentioned the topic of the photo on my mirror today. haha. we were watching theem thaka theem [or however it is yu spell it..] and my sister was like, trying to make her change the channel since, of course, we diden understand a word of it, then my mom was like, "eh, korang sumer ader matair india, korang tanak tengok.." and i was like, "hey! aper korang sumer? satu orang je pe.." and she was like, "abeh gambar tu? bukan india ke?" yeeps. maluuu.

heyya. i went to watch wishing stairs with my mom and brother today. i met that st. nick's gerl again.. she'll be in sec 3 now.. haha i still dunno her name, and she doesn't know mine, but i know tt she was having lunch at tm with her mom.. haha. anyway the movie was really skary.. but if yu realise, there's not much of ghosts.. more like spooky situations.. i kept screaming and screaming, of cos. and there was this couple sitting infront of me, and they acherli LEFT about 20 minutes before the show ended. can yu believe it? buang duit sey. but then again, people who spend half the movie with their hands over their eyes pon tgh waste duit rite.. haha. and no, i wasn't one of them. i closed my eyes only about 20% of the time.
oh i watched dil hai tumhaare yest.. i dun like the ending, and therefore, i dun like the movie! ooh and i also watched rugby world cup finals just now.. i really think aust was being dumb in the first half.. buang karen je support diorang.. and i still love wilkinson.. hez really really cool.. ... the glimpses of the royal family were cool too.. harry rocks.. [all harrys rock.]

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.--10 Things I Hate About You

okay i'll go into details here and now.
so i met fana at tampines mrt, about 10 minutes late. then we went straightaway to century square, and she was telling me the latest news on chu bang. then infront of metro we stopped and i gave her the layout. i wanted to masuk by the second floor to avoid "confrontation" but she insisted we have a head-on. so we went in, and went up, and impostor was there giving out the [what are they called?] brochures. and he smiled and gave me one. and his hair is flatter, and longer, and dyed, btw. a sophisticated shade of red. fana thinks he's cute. at last she agrees. then anyway, upstairs, OM was there, and looking really.. survivor-ish. but tt diden stop me from dying. then we just checked out the kids clothes and bags and stuff while fana finished her chu bang story. and i also bought a pink tshirt for 10 bucks. yeah! then we went back to the table and OM was gone! impostor was there. presumably they switched places. but i donated anyway, and then we went back down, and we passed OM, and i just looked at him, and he apparently smiled. haha. then we just walked around the place. there was this cute but young vik with his brother n dad in sembawang music centre. plus a load of vcds i really wanted to buy but had no money to. and we hung out in the toy department, where we found this cool bratz organiser-cum-electronic games thingy. there were personality quizzes, which were longer than the great wall of china, and therefore i never found out my personality, and a matchmaker game. fana was inputing her name and chu bang's, and she got like 9 out of 12 hearts. argh. i got really unsatisfactory results, including some 3 hearts result. hello?!?! tak fair. of course, i could attribute it to the inaccurate birthdates. i diden really know OM's and fana diden really know chu bang's. so we just guessed them. come to think of it, i have no idea why we diden try clemmy-memmy, since we all know his birthday. haha. oh then there was this music section, with those blaring mini keyboards and teeny guitars and all, so i picked up the guitar and started singing sum song for mugant: "oh mugant, aku tahu kau kenal [insert OM's name] sebenarnye, so biler kau dah dengan fana, siler intro.." smthg liddat. and fana found the magnetic board thingy and wrote "mugant, if you read this, please contact farhana at jurong jc" while i added "ain likes [insert OM's name]". it also reminded me of ili n me drawing our three friends on the magnetic board at carrefour ps. haha. we checked out the powerpuff towels too.. and then we went for a last round to see OM. but we bertembunged with impostor and a new guy at the escalator, and the new guy was so totally on my case! i swear he knows the real reason i was there. so i couldn't really look at OM cos they guy was just menyeboking there. oh and then fana and i were stalling at the perfume department downstairs, and there was a whole connexion rack.. we were dying to get the perfume, but like how ex rite? then i knocked over a bottle of lotion which was, thankfully, plastic. and we found the sample bottle and i squeezed a huge glob out onto my arm. then the security guard came and i tried to quickly rub it into my arm, but it was like, too much, so it wasn't really absorbed.. haha. and fana had to wait for the guard to finally walk away before she got some lotion on herself too. haha. by the time i came out of metro, i reeked of connexion lotion.
and that was my brush with OM, this holiday. it felt so nice to be seeing him around home territory. itz a much nicer feeling than seeing him ard skl.

hey dahlings. my body is aching allll overrr.. i'm not sure why. could be the bed. could be the pool. could be the walking around trying to get a glimpse of OM without letting him glimpse ME. haha.
yes i'm taking a break from class chalet now. useless break, in terms of physical comfort. haha. but nice break anyway. i'm going to be really brief cos i haf to asar before buka.
yest we reached there right on time, and *I* spent the whole afternoon bumming around the hse, watching bend it like beckham and reading a mary higgins clark [yu belong to me] and bukaing milo. the rest did about the same things except they went out for dinner after the movie and came back around 8. then we watched ten things../guys went to the pool, then we went playground where we played 'police n thieves' and i got beribu bruises, and then some went to the beach, while me being the bum that i am, went back to the hse to watch LOTR: the two towers with a few other bums. then i tried unsuccessfully to go to sleep. really unsuccessful. but i got about 4 hrs altogether.
today i sahured insignificantly, and we went to the pool around 10.. stayed till 1210.. it was fun. there was this cute guy who didn't really look like a PERSON, but more lyke a cartoon character. prominent brows and eyes and all. veh cute. haha. i also got a tan. but it seems to have faded already. damn. then watched abit of panic room and went to meet fana at tampines. and i finally saw OM. but guess who i saw first? impostor! and he smiled and gave me a leaflet. haha. OM looks like he's been on survivor or castaway or something. but he still rox. i'm sorry, would love to give a blow-by-blow but i'm running late.
but everyone must remember to check out tampines mall's toilets if yu haven't already! they put heeren's ladies toilet to shame. that pic was taken there just now. =D

hi babes. i'm so sleepy, can't open my eyes. muz be all tt metro aircon. yes i had metro cip just now. haha. it all started yesterday, when i was sleeping my cares away till ivan called and woke me up at 2. [p.m., fyi.] so i agreed to take over him for today's 11-4 shift. it was.. okay. ttz the only word tt can describe the experience. haha. i shall number the bits that were more interesting to me.
1. did NOT get lost despite it being the first time i was going there by THREE buses [yes i'm a bus freak. hey itz better than taking NEL and having to pay for it.]
2. talked to the fellow volunteers about 5% of the time.
3. watched this "flirting in the clothes department" scene between 2 viks and an aimee with a mixture of amusement and annoyance. cos i thot one of the viks was cute. he was frm ite bukit batok.
4. there was a cute mim guy working in the levi's department. tall, wolverine-ish hairstyle, nice face.
5. about 50% of the people who donated declined the offer of the booklet and/or the bear. and 100% of these lovely individuals donated generous amounts ranging from 2 bucks to 50. others, who donated prolly 50 CENTS, acherli TOOK the booklet off the table for themselves! [okay tt was only one person but sheesh!]
6. i spent 5 hours there, and i was simply shocked at the non-crowd tt was there. really. yu know, holiday season and all? where were the people?
7. i saw zul "degreeless specs", ex-vs there. but of course he doesn't remember me. he was also the only person i recognised there.
8. my favourite donor has to be this eurasian man with his wife/daughter who greeted me with a cheery hello and joked around with us, and donated 10 bucks. hehe.
9. we were sitting right infront of female clothes section and i was just watching these YPs checking out dresses for prom nite and thinking, "been there, done that, bought the gown!" i was also admiring the displays and the dresses, and deciding what to wear next year. i kind of have it down in my head already. haha. oh and plus, i got to watch as they changed clothes on one of the mannequins. haha. cool sia. i wanna work in the female clothes dept!!! ooh i also kept eyeing this 29.90 bucks skirt.. haha. but of cos, takde guts to try it on.
10. not a single orang melayu/muslimin/muslimah donated while i was there. now THAT speaks volumes.
anyway then it was finally over and i dropped by sengkang library [which, btw, rocks. itz like a condensed WRL. i lurve it.] and got 3 more mary higgins clarks [one of them is a joint effort by her and her daughter].. just finished one tadi. =)

"found" tt pic, among others, at baba's hse. haha. i used to love playing payday. damn fun sia. and i still remember how loser old me played it ALONE, BY MYSELF, once. sheesh. takder kerje betol.
i got semi-porn from aishah. it was an email showing sp students engaging in.. ACTS. itz really.. interesting. as in, the pics were taken in broad daylight, or at least, broad light. and those ACTS took place on like, the dirty brick floors!!! eeeww. well, asal korang bahagia.. =D
had flag day today. it was horrible. okay, not really, when you compare it with my previous flag days. it seems that my flag days improve marginally larh. but just now, i was reminded of how much i hate flag day, therefore, i SHALL NEVER SIGN UP AGAIN, EVEN IF OM BEGS ME TO, and i shall just do my part by donating. if tradition persists, only to the cute guys. haha. hm. was at the junction outside paragon. i loved seeing the cool cars drive past. lotsa racecars.. no open-tops though.. but there was this HEEEUUUGGE jaguar.. i think it was a jag ah.. anyway, it was blue, and really huge! it was quite abit higher than normal cars, for starters, and like, 10cm longer, and basically, it just looked like one monstrosity there ah.. the only thing i liked about it was the colour. hey, maybe i can be a driver! i mean, sekurang�nye i get to drive a nice car.. hm. how does one become a driver? anyone with info, pls share. and plus i'll shatter that stereotype of 40-plus male drivers.. cool! hmm.. oh there were like, billions of police cars and buses.. haha one driver was cute.. and 2 consecutive delifrance lumpurs, who were really nice! the first one was giggling as he donated to me. i'm serious. itz the only word to describe what he was doing.
hung out at the library too. i lurve tt place man. i did NOT want to leave, seriously. got a new mary higgins clark. and i dun get why the libraries give offers for people who borrow 8 books, cos I CAN'T! aarrggh. read this cute mag called sugar. itz.. irritating at times, but i lyke the real life stories alot. isn't it amazing to read of 14-year-old guys talking about kissing and 14-year-old girls having sex for the first time with a 28-year-old, subsequently having a miscarriage at 15? ooh and i diden know some ppl get their period even when they're pregnant. cool. oh and i was just wondering, how would the pharmacist react if i bought a pregnancy test kit?
reached home around 2, did everything quickly, and slept. ooh.. sleeping rox. waking up when you're not ready sux. i acherli slept thru my 630pm alarm. tsk. ooh and i lurve my new wallpaper! matches my desktop theme perfectly..

i haf a new pic on my fone! check it out, it rocks. also check out dogs playing poker on gamescene.com. hehe. i'm addicted to it. except when i lose badly. went to baba's hse today. had fun browsing thru fotos!!! woohoo! she got her fotos, and i got mine. =D it was really fun when we were freaking out over the stop/play buttons. wahahaha.
alrite 10 minutes to buka. can't wait. i'm dying now. i mean, can yu believe i sahured on FOUR epok-epoks? how does one live liddat?
bye babes!

well. let me just state from the beginning of this tt i diden see OM. would anyone like to know who i DID see? BFG!!!! BFG!!!! hello? where is the justice in this world? and speaking of justice, how is it tt sya managed to see samit yesterday? while i was rotting in the bamboo garden with the spiders, believing he was dead? okay whatever. sekurang-kurangnye i know he's alive.
i went to ikea with fana. it was cool! and fun! i lurve all the displays and stuff.. and itz another of the places that makes me wish i was rich.
there was that fruitless trip i mentioned, of course, where i diden get to see OM.
and today i watched mere yaar ki shaadi hai. i think it means "my friend's wedding". so yes, as the title suggests, itz like my best friend's wedding, except this time the best friends get married. which is the kind of ending i like, of course. and BOTH jimmy shergill and uday chopra are in this film, so it was almost like watching mohabbatein all over again. anyway this film rocks, itz cute and sweet and everything. i lost count of the number of times i cried. i lurve movies tt make u cry. -sigh- and unfortunately, baba took dil hai tumhaare yest so i haf nothing to watch now.. takpe i'll just immerse myself in barbara delinsky. she writes soppiness, but itz not tt bad larh..
oohyah yest i saw HL guy!!! whee! he was with sleeping guy, acherli. haha. they carpooled. saw my cvg too. that was about the only good thing about my pw disaster.
watching dark angel now. jessica alba is so cute. haha.
okay i'm done here. bye.

today wasn't interesting or fun, by any standards, but it was fruitful. i guess. so just wanted to record tt. haha.
i acherli went to skl lyke normal today. as in, aiming to reach at 730. and stuff. but it was cooler today. i was just idling at home after subuh. i just hung out on the armchair watching geng skru drebar with my mom and dad. anyway itz kwite a funny movie. i think rahimah rahim [not only has a silly name which goes right there with buang bin pungut but] is great and really funny. nuraliza is not bad, shez pretty cute and funny in the movie. so anyway, i went out of the house like, 10 minutes later cos i diden wanna be so early.. and i mati� thot i took the soopa late train.. but i almost fainted when the clock at bv sed 7.11!!! aarrgghh. yah but it was okay. no biggie. just surprising ttz all. my body clock muz really be off.
there was that little fiasco between amir and his favourite teacher. haha. and i was trying to go to the concourse when i saw him about 50-100 m away, and i did this about turn and went back to the lab.
sya's cvg was there practically the whole time. no fair. i diden see a soul.
but we did practise twice, and crap out about 10 new minutes. haha. so now we prolly have 20-plus, if we're lucky. plus that wonderful calendar with the bones.. haha. we also managed to get a new file and new dividers for ourselves.
saw ex-fren for, oh, i dunno, 30 seconds?
went to the library where i finally discovered the adult section. i blush to think i have been rummaging in the YOUNG adults section for the past 2 years or so. aaarrgghh. buat maluu... got another mary higgins clark, which i will start later, and a barbara delinsky. i think i've read her before, but i forgot what.
tomorrow i'm stalking/looking at/supporting OM! and pw will be over too! this is too much. woohoo!

as usual, another boring, eventless day at home today.. so basically i have nothing much to report..
but this site is funny.. click

tangisanku buatmu.. tetapi takkan pernah kau tahu..
Why can't we be Friends(4x)

I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya 'round for a long long time
I really, I really, I really remember when you drank my wine

Why can't we be friends(4x)

I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya walkin' down to China Town
I called ya, I called ya, I called ya
But you did not look around(yeah yeah)
I paid my I paid my I paid my money to the welfare line
I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya standing in it everytime

Why can't we be Friends(4x)

The color, the color, the color
Of your skin don't matter to me
As long as, as long as, as long as
We can live in Harmony(yeah yeah)
I kinda, I kinda, I kinda
Like to be the president
Then I could, then I could, then I could
Show you how your money�s spent

Why can't we be friends(4x)

Sometimes I don't speak right
But did i know what I was talking about
I know you're workin for the C.I.A.
They wouldn't have you in the mafia

Why can't we be friends--Smash Mouth

i was just thinking.. the two situations seem similar. one gatal girl. one changed guy. knowing the guy longer than the girl has. yet the girl appears to know him better. how unfair it all is. and how we refuse to relinquish our hold on the items tt remind us. that give hope. however teeny. itz still hope. and we hold on tight.
this is why movies should never be like real life. so that we in the real life realm can watch the movies and think, "if only my life could be like this.." if movies mirrored real life, we'd watch a movie and think, "itz just like my life!" and THEN what can we hope for?

at the way things are going, i'll be glad to just pass pw.
watched mujhse dosti karoge today. itz really great, fana was rite. really sweet and all, and the song is nice too. life is so boring now i can't eat or do hw or anything liddat. haha. ohwell. wait until wednesday.

well. official school is over. official malay is even more over. haha. while waiting to be released after the paper just now, all i could think about was how i no longer have to take malay anymore--no more malay lessons, no more green book or karangan book or bahasa book. no more kuliahs and ceramahs. no more staring down at the tiny black table, forcing myself to stay awake. no more glancing out the window every 2 seconds. i wanted to like, laugh, smile, everything!!! but of cos i had to compose myself.
nth much happened today. i mean, hello, itz malay. what would happen? hmm. there was talking about 5 cm away from spy. that was cool. and ex-friend, of cos. and there was OM. hehe. i took that pic today. and i only just realised what a nice pic it is. very colourful.. and i'm sure that i'll be looking at it decades down the road and missing skl life.
watching the killing fields now. half-watching, anyway. if only to get more background info for this wednesday. haha. i dun understand the storyline yet tho.. but watching the scenes are enuff. ooh and i finished another mary higgins clark today. i lurve her. she is a genius. but i think reading nonstop has kept me from thinking. so i haven't thot about the artsfeste thingy yet. i'll probably do tt tomorrow, since i'll have a lot of time on my hands from now on. oh and i'll also watch the vcds fana lent me. that should fill up the weekend. haha.

today was really fun. it was great being all little-girly once more. anyway it began well, although, like i was complaining, both OM and i were "late" so we diden get to have our last private time of the year. arrrggghhh. ohwell. it wasn't meant to be. also saw samit's fren. again. second time this month. but no sign of samit. next time if i see his fren again i'll ask him about samit. how bout that? eeyer. buat malu je. but thatz nothing new for me. anyway then we repaired the damage done to our pw. and i lurve CJ's "video". itz very.. simple and succinct. den.. yah we were supposed to end at 930 but of cos, due to pw, ili and i ended up leaving a little after 12.
ili was really surprised at my people-spotting speed. hey, i've been perfecting this art for like, 4-plus years! of cos i'm fast! itz one of the coolest hobbies ever! we were walking past the nike shop and these 2 cj viks walked out. woohoo! that was cool. that was great. haha. okay then we wanted to watch the matrix revolutions, but it was sold out at ps. [my brother, btw, watched it today, and ended up being late home for buka. hmph. the fairness of the world.] so we explored spotlight. i've always loved spotlight. itz so... colourful and homely and stuff. i used to go to the orchard point one all the time, and i used to buy the cute little mini home appliances. for unknown reasons. dunno where they are now. but anyway, today i went crazy and tried on tiaras and halos and boas and stuff, and posed for pictures. infront of the whole world!!! why why WHY wasn't i embarrassed enuff? [we'll get back to tt later.] so yes, up there's one of the pictures. ooh i tried on wings too. wanted to get them, but diden know the price so malas. in the end i bought a silver star wand and a sheet of stickers. but wait. ttz just spotlight. and we spent like, one hour there. i'm serious.
went to carrefour too. first it was all food and huge aisles, so i was abit bored.. then we went to the skincare and beauty section.. haha. where i went to town, slapping blush and eyeshadow and smearing compact powder and lipgloss on my hand and face. hahah. i was all sticky in the end. oh and remind me to buy the sally hansen french manicure kit. yay. shd haf bought it just now, but i diden realise i had money until later.. went to the toy section after tt. had a monster truck showdown. i think ili won. but our last battle was explosive man! now i know why boys lyke cars. we hugged carebears, and played one of those keyboard things.. and i found lego clikits! they were advertised in cleo or her world or smthg. so i bought one set. itz not bad, kwite fun to mix and match.. but my ankle is too big to make an anklet, and it looks weird on my wrist. so i put my completed piece of craftwork on my bag. check it out! ooh i also bought charlie's angels: full throttle.. which i JUST watched and itz really fun! i dun lyke drew barrymore so padan muker dier takde boyfriend. hahahahaha.
we were walking to the mrt, and i saw a vik sitting in a group of three ppl on the floor. and i hissed, "vik!" and then they looked at me and the vik just kept looking. like, he turned right around and looked at me, even as i went in and down the escalator. [almost took the wrong one, i was so disoriented.] and then i just started blushing. HEY! nature! brown people [me] aren't supposed to blush! white ppl [batu, etc.] do! aaargh. my ears, my EARS were red! shit what if i start blushing infront of like, him when i'm talking to him?!?!?! buat maluuuuu!!! but anyway the vik was cute so i'd say it was a nice experience overall, apart from the extreme embarrassment. what is wrong with me and baba? we've been becoming more easily embarrassed lately! i wasn't embarrassed infront of billions of strangers when i posed in spotlight, but infront of ONE vik, i fry? sheesh.
oohyah forgot, we went to the library where i tried to check out the parenting section discreetly but failed due to malu-ism, and struggled to choose a mary higgins clark to borrow.
and now i'm home, still revelling from events [make that singular, sorry] of the day. =D viks rock. oh but guess what? i kan't go for the bollywood thingy!!! i have obs!!! arrrggghh.