hey. i hate firdaus. i was reading my mails and he sent one with the subj line: shockingly romantic.. so i diden read much into it.. and i got the shock of my life!! it was sum flash thingy with sum romantic song and lyrics across the screen and then halfway into the song, this picture of sum hantu pops out at me! with an accompanying scream! and 2 seconds after the scream, i screamed. yeah. it was a really freaky picture, and i kan't wait to scream at him when i see him online next time.
anyway im gonna go now. bye.

forgot to mention, baba thinks cliff looks lyke khairularifin!!! NO! but then again, *I* think shane west looks like marie in a walk to remember and now--once and again.

i haf accomplished chopsticking my hair up. ain't that great? but i need 2 chopsticks arh. still. i think it's pretty cool.. and im proud of myself. yeah now i dun haf to die of heat all the time.. and i kan get my hair UP even when it's wet. anyway i had a nice day today. dyed my hair but can't really see the difference, so as long as i know, im happy. and as long as the-powers-that-be don't, im even more happy! haha. well. bye now.

Girlfriend -- Alicia Keys
Yeah yeah what
Uhuh uh yeah yeah what
2000
Your girlfriend
Alicia Keys
Uh huh
JD wha' wha'
Come on

Alicia:
Maybe silly for me to feel this way about you and her
Cuz I know she's been such a good friend
I know she has helped you through

Talkin late on the phone
Every night you've been callin'
Private moments alone
could your heart soon be fallin
And I know she's a friend
But I can't shake the feeling
That I could be losing your heart

I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
Although she's just a girl that is your friend
I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
She shares a special part of you

Ohohoohoh
You said thats she's one who helped you see
How deep your in love with me
And intentions were not to get in between
But I see possibilities

And you say that you feel
I'm the best thing in your life
And I know it's real I see it in your eyes
There's no reason for me, to even feel this way
I know you just enjoy her company

I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
Although she's just a girl that is your friend
I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
She shares a special part of you

I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
Although (you say) she's just a girl that is your friend
I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
She shares a special part of you

Ohohohoh
JD:
You say you're jealous but you can't tell me why
(x7)

Alicia:
It's enough to make a nigga go crazy

oh-oh
I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
Although she's just a girl that is your friend
I think I'm jealous of your girlfriend
She shares a special part of you

heylo. i just had the most wonderful dream of all time. how i wish it was reality. well. gonna go write it out now.

okay i haf both songs on my wishlist.. haha..
u noe what's the best thing to drink while on the comp [or looking at any kind of screen, for that matter]? a strawberry shake.. haha.. im in pure bliss now..

okay, YESTERDAY i went jalan raye with my pri skl frens.. i was expecting--and hoping--for like, more people.. but anyway it was just syikin, huda, hidayah, shedah and me.. but it was nice arh.. even though it's been 3 years and all.. and nadiah has seriously slimmed down.. hidayah and i were damn shocked.. but at least she's happy.. shedah is going tampines with syikin, hidayah is going temasek with shabbir, imran ayub, and dunno who else.. and huda isn't going anywhere.. but she says she needs it.. k, well, i hafta go now..bye

i wanna d/l all i want for christmas by mariah carey.. and i found the song i've been looking for.. it's called the look of love.. and i dunno who sang it, but i duwan the diana krall version. anyway, im gonna pray now so i'll brb.

im wearing a tiara now! yay!

hi. today i met the best viknesh in the world. hehe, ok, i diden MEET him, but.. we were in close contact. wahaha. anyway, nolah i was waiting for 53 to go home and then i noticed from across the road this guy, racing up the overhead bridge to catch the 53 that was still waiting at the traffic light.. and in my heart, i was like,"jia2 you1.. come on, you can do it.." and he acherli made it.. he's tall and he was wearing a nice black tshirt [i think] and nice cargo pants.. and shoes.. and he was holding his specs.. and when he sat down, i was sitting at the fana seat.. he kept turning back, i had no idea why, and i dreaded him getting off, but he never did. anyway then he put on his specs to watch the harveytoons. so cute. haha. i just kept staring at him. it was fun. anyway he finally moved to sit in the middle fana seat, one away from me. i was totally dying inside. haha. then i had to get down. he was really... a good boy kinda guy. haha. so i had lotsa fun.

Lagu Tiga Kupang
Lagu tiga kupang
Saku penuh padi
Enam ekor burung
Masuk dalam kuali

Bila sudah masak
Burung nyanyi saja
Tentu sedap makan
Beri pada raja

( korus )
Raja dalam rumah
Buat kira-kira
Suri dalam dapur
Makan roti gula hey !

Dayang tepi kolam
Mahu jemur tepung
Datang burung hitam
Pagut batang hidung
Hidung... hidung... hidung

( ulang dari mula hingga akhir )

yesterday was the greatest day of my life. yes, another one of those.. haha.. anyway, i kind of saw it as a delayed birthday celebration of mine.. which was a total blast, so i discounted the happenings on the actual birthday..
actually, like most great days of my life, it started out shitty. i set my alarm for 6.30 and it did wake me up, but my willpower did not hold and i went back to sleep. luckily i was awakened at 7.15 by my mom's and brother's voices.. yah and i was ready in like, 33 minutes.. isn't that cool? im still proud of that achievement. not that i looked excellent or anything. anyway, yah i got a seat, and started getting irritated with the driver, who probably doesn't know you can exceed 1km/h on any road. and who also can't judge when people wanna board the bus or not. anyway, no matter. i also started hoping for people.. then when the bus stopped at the marie bus stop, i was just checking out the people.. who were totally unimpressive.. and when the bus moved on, i realised that li di was in the bus!!! i absolutely, positively died. he was wearing red berms and a big white tshirt with pictures on the front and a grey converse backpack and his glasses. i couldn't stop looking at him and i was trying REALLY hard not to smile. dunno if he saw me, but he did glance around the bus a thousand times. sigh. how wonderful a start to my day. i mean, it was like, 8-plus am, hello? who sees their crushes at such an ungodly hour?
me, apparently.
anyway, the performance was fine, with quite a number of screwups, but i enjoyed myself alot.. the seniors are really impressive, i must say.. and the tea itself sucked, but the kuihs were really nice.. the entire program was really amusing.. all the old people having fun and.. yarh.. it was really fun. there was sum minister whom i couldn't identify, of course--who sang the RI skl song into the mike with like, not a care about how loud he was.. it was really funny.. and.. i mean, it was quite evident how proud he was, so it was even funnier then.. and i haf to say the best part, of course, was kamie's cousin hafiz.. he's a year younger.. and he's really nice, and he was sooooooooo enthu, even tho he's not from ri or anything.. he took pictures all the time, and like, for the scavenger hunt, he took off his samping [kain songket was one of the items] with so much gusto he fell off the chair backwards. ouch. but how endearingly cute. and he is cute too.. like, really good-looking. baba and i were absolutely dying. haha.
so you can see how crazy i thot i was being when baba and i left early, at 4.15..
we walked to bugis, then we took the train to bishan.. and we went to music junction, where there were about a thousand movie vcds at like, really affordable prices.. so im gonna get all my girlie movies and romantic movies from cd shops from now on. then we left music junction. next door to it was a cheena cd shop, so we diden think of going in. but then i saw this sign on the window that said: my sassy girl $3. so i died, and baba died, and i went to check it out, and the woman said the korean sale would start at 6. it was 5.38. so baba and i went to sit down at gv first.. we were like, sooper tired. even then my feet were threatening to crumble. then at 5.50 we went back to the shop and there was already a queue at the counter but it wasn't moving since it wasn't 6 yet. so baba and i grabbed a my sassy girl vcd each, and then browsed through the other stuff in the shop to kill time. and there were english movie vcds too.. i mean, the only difference was they had chinese subtitles.. so we just looked around, maybe there'd be smthg we liked. then baba said,"alah tapi takder bring it on.." just as i reached for a bring it on vcd that was inconspicuously situated on one of the shelves. it was disguised by like, a chinese title, and un-eye-catching pictures. but i found it anyway. we died again, and took one of those each. and we joined the queue.. it was really tiring. the other customers would testify that we were the only malay people there, and that we were the noisiest people there too. but at least we had fun. im not sure what time we got out of the shop, but i boarded 53 at 6.49... so maybe we queued for around half an hour. ohyeah as we were leaving j8 we saw keli! as in, ikan keli.. so we trailed her out of the place. haha.
anyway when i got home i was like, spent. totally spent. so i zonked out in the hall and watched bring it on, which was, as always, excellent. then i watched my sassy girl which made me cry many many times. THEN i went to sleep. it was great. my favourite part was when he listed the 10 rules to dating her. it was sooooooo sweet. what a great story.

i watched the parent trap for the millionth time just now. it is such a great movie. ok, it's not GREAT, but it's one of my all-time favourite movies.. it's really nice, with a happy ending, beautiful clothes, lovely cast and.. a *great* soundtrack.. so yeah. i enjoyed it alot.. and maybe tonight i can watch serendipity.. but most probably not.. anyway.. bye.
ohyes, in case you're wondering, im not having a WONDERFUL birthday, but it's not shitty. it's just like any other day. and dian msged me to say happy bdae from her gang or sum shit liddat. i need to change my number.

ok i just went on an online brader expedition. so i have collected lovely pics and sum nuggets of info.. _{pantai's name--an unfortunacy--is weeping. his cute fren's name is chiam. his adorable fren's name is william. his 100% perfect except for height fren's name is zhao ming.}
if i haf anymore, i'll add them..
and the only reason i put all this here is because there's sum stupid shit problem with the script on BOTH opendiary pages.

School Posted To RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE
Course Posted To SCIENCE / 0704S
wow. you know what i hate about being supposedly smart? people expect too much from you. now everyone will expect me to get into the papers for excellent 'o' level results, and stay in RJ, and get more excellent results in the 'a' levels, be coveted by universities worldwide, and finally get sum boring high-class job like a doctor or lawyer. PUH-LEEZE. gimme a break, huh? there's a thing called gut feeling, and mine tells me that i won't do as well for the 'o' levels. so if these people would just stop congratulating me and expecting so much of me, i'd be really thankful. i don't like to disappoint myself. so please, please understand that. understand that i don't want people telling me,"oh ain, you're so smart! you're gonna be featured in the papers.."--"don't worry, you'll get 6 points for 'o's.."--"yah you're clever, sure get into rj.." like, STOP IT! how would you feel if i DIDN'T? would be a great shock for you, wouldn't it? would be an even bigger disappointment for me, so why don't all of you do me a favour and *SHUT UP*!

tiramisu
250 gm philadephia cream cheese

100 gm castor sugar

50 gm butter/margarine

250 gm nescafe syrup( 15 gm nescafe+ 100 gm hot water

+ 100gm sugar)

500 gm whipped topping cream (sweet)

1 no chocholate sponge cake (cut 3 layers)

(or biscuit crumbs mix well with margarine until become a dough)



method;

1.beat cheese with margarine,sugar and 1/2 amount of nescafe syrup until creamy,add in whipping cream.

2.chilled in the freezer for a few minutes to firm the mixture.

3.meanwhile,put in the first layer of sponge cake in a cake mould and wet the sponge with nescafe syrup

4.take out cheese mixture and spoon half in the mould and cover with second layer of sponge cake and follow with the 1/2 mixture.

5.cover with third layer of sponge cake and sprinkle with nescafe syrup.

6.chilled in the freezer overnight.

7.serve with piped whipping cream on top.

well, it's official.. im in rj.. for the first three months.. it feels like a dream. im not trying to be dramatic here, it's true.. it feels like a dream. u noe, cos i never really studied [except for chem] and.. yarh.. it's.. cool.. but it's sad to know it won't last long, just 3 months...

yesterday was seriously cool. we even saw danial from klik.. sho cute.. he was wearing samping AND capals! hehe. but no songkok. khalil was at home with 3 non-muslim frens.. and when we were at sara's, ASHRAF came home! woohoo! he was wearing a jersey and jeans i think with his hair all spiked up.. shoo cute.. hehehe. and he's taller than anyone now.. i had no idea he shot up so fast.. yah and the last house was faezah's, which is on the 19th floor and her windows haf no grilles!!! and one of them has a great view of the city skyline including suntec city.. and the other window has a view of vs' field!!! it's soooo cool.. and her block faces the block where allahyarham imran commited suicide.. freaky, eh? but i cld learn to live there.. it's such a cool house.. except it has 2 cats..
but today was even cooler. cos.. when my brother came home, i looked out the door and saw a whole group of rayaing lumpurs walking towards the stairs.. so i like, tercegated myself there and stared at them arh.. they were really cute.. the first one was REALLY cute, and he was wearing a samping too.. and he was like,"hey, boleh raya?" he asked ME! woohoo! anyway as my brother was there, i had to say,"hotak kau ah!" heheeh.. but it was fun. cute lumpurs, in the comfort of your own home! what more could one ask for?

hey. i got another of those "hey how you doin" msges from raihan. i knew it wasn't frm him, but i just replied anyway.. haha.. i really wonder who it is who sends them..
im really pissed cos my favourite game in the entire world is spoilt. how do i live now?
i just watched the sweetest movie ever--emma. it rocks, and everyone should watch it!

hellooooo... i think im too sim-fied now, cos i spent the whole of last night like, thinking and dreaming in sim terms. maybe not dreaming, but i sure couldn't establish a difference between the real world and my dreams. so anyway, i guess i haf to get off it for awhile, or at least confine my simming and sim-shopping to like, a few hours a day only instead of like, 6 hours straight without a break, then dinner and 2 more hours sim-shopping.
well, im gonna go play sum games, maybe. ONLINE games. though i dunno where to source for them. bye.

okayokay i haf to eat dinner now b4 i die so quick update: the de Longes are officially in love.. haha.. so i did smthg good there.. lionel bought norainne a new baju tido.. and i have new iMacs for the sims in lime, tangerine, indigo and sum other colour which i forgot.. also, i built stuff on lot 23 already.. downtown, i mean.. it now hosts dhaneswary's, a really nice indian restaurant-cum-leisure place, with nice tables and chairs, books, a bar and authentic decorations including tablas and candles. ok, the name is not automatically given, but i thot it was cool. and a cool new shop is there too--sunny bikinis.. it's REALLY bright, with 3 different mannequins, 3 different posed picture and 2 new racks of swimwear.. VERY cool.
ok bye.

Underneath It All by No Doubt
There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're something else

Chorus:
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely

You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

(Repeat Chorus)

So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
Better... better...

Lady Saw:
You are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps stalin'
For your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
That so many adore
Aside from your temper
Everything else secure
You're good for me, baby
Oh that, I'm sure
Over and over again
I want more

Gwen:
You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

(Repeat Chorus)

You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lovely
Underneath it all
And you're really lovely

Die Another Day by Madonna
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I'm gonna kiss some part of
I'm gonna keep this secret
I'm gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess, die another day

I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day
[Another day]
I guess I'll die another day

Sigmund Freud
Analyze this
Analyze this
Analyze this

I'm gonna break the cycle
I'm gonna shake up the system
I'm gonna destroy my ego
I'm gonna close my body now

Uh, uh

I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

For every sin, I'll have to pay
I've come to work, I've come to play
I think I'll find another way
It's not my time to go

I'm gonna avoid the cliche
I'm gonna suspend my senses
I'm gonna delay my pleasure
I'm gonna close my body now

I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

I think I'll find another way
There's so much more to know
I guess I'll die another day
It's not my time to go

Uh, uh

(Laugh)

I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day
I guess, die another day
I guess I'll die another day

Another day
(repeat six times)

hi! i went to fame bridal shop with my sister and her bf yesterday to rent an evening gown for her.. the shop's in the hougang/serangoon area, so as we were driving around trying to find the place, i found myself thinking of eleanor, pl lims esp fila lim, marie, and stuff liddat... and ohyah, levina too. then we passed this pet shop, paws and furs or sum shit liddat ah.. and there were 2 doggies standing rite infront of the door in the shop.. but they were so cool, cos they diden bark at us or anything.. and they were reaaaaaaaallllllly adorable. and so i was just searching for what breed they are.. i think i found it.. yah.. then we went to hougang mall, which is really alot like a smaller parkway parade.
anyway here's a picture of a chow chow, the breed of dog that i saw yesterday.. sho cute rite? they look like bears!

harloez! i just pulled myself away from the sims: hot date.. haha.. it was tough, i can tell ya that.. ever since i discovered that there are sites that exist to give add-ons to the game, i've been re-addicted.. it's soooooooo fun! i just d/led a few new faces.. and sum new outfits and formal dresses and swimsuits.. so now, my guys are cuter, my girls prettier and the clothes cooler! it's sooooooo much fun! and i haven't even started d/ling the objects like new furniture and new stuffs for Downtown. this is so much fun! i lurve this game. i created 2 new beautiful families.. the mehanathans [whom i haven't moved in yet] and the de Longes [sorry, couldn't think of a better surname]. the de Longes are lionel [based on a real-life character who's currently a Saint, but NOT totally him] and norainne, of course.. haha.. norainne has the coolest hair! it's really long, dark brown and.. well, it's basically shafa's hair.. haha.. the coolest part is that i dun haf to maintain it, as with real-life shafa's hair.. and she wears this really cool short dress with the picture of sum girl on it.. i think it's britney.. but that's not the issue.. and the house is beautiful.. it has TWO hot tubs.. it's heeeuuuge.. it has a great spacious kitchen.. one carpeted bathroom [the other is not].. a beeg tv.. a really nice cushioned garden swing.. ermm.. nice outdoor tiles with embedded lights.. and bead curtains as doorways instead of doors. and let's not forget the swimming pool, which is big, by universal standards, but not huge. it's SO cool! but building the house is really tedious.. i like living their lives more.. haha.. im trying to make them really fall in love with each other before moving the mehanathans in.. so im gonna work on them at least one more day.. then i'll make them go Downtown.. then i'll move the mehanathans in..
so anyway, im gonna finish d/ling my indian restaurant stuffs.. and d/l a few more stuffs.. bye!

yesterday and the day before, i couldn't sleep.. so i wrote 2 new stories.. im gonna put one of them here, plus another one that fana sed was good.. but i dun believe it.. but im just gonna put it here.. cos there's nothing else to put..

Once upon a time there were three girls:- Aardvark, Bear and Falcon. These three girls were the best of friends. They did almost everything together. Somehow they managed to understand each other without really trying. These three girls were, however, in their last year of Girls' School. The next year they would have to go to Mixed Schools:- Junior-Mixed School, Poly-Mixed School, or Central-Mixed School. There was a high probability that they would not end up in the same mixed school. All three of them knew this, and each of them had a different response to this problem. Bear was confident that they would remain friends despite being separated; Falcon constantly worried aloud that they might drift apart; Aardvark kept it cool on the outside, but inside she honestly felt that they would not remain friends much longer either.
Doubtless, the three girls had differences, but their few similarities were significant, and this kept them together as good friends. But in this last year of their education at Girls' School, their differences somehow became more apparent. So much so that at one point, they drifted apart and stayed there, and everyone noticed. Fortunately they managed to patch up that difference, which concerned Aardvark's and Falcon's negative opinions on Bear's boyfriend--Fish. Now Aardvark and Falcon both loved Fish--although not in the romantic sense, of course.
The girls' troubles were not yet over. They had an unspoken pact not to turn into or be minahs [that's a kind of Malay Ah Lian]. They also shared a hate for PDAs [Public Displays of Affection], so they assumed that they would never commit such crimes. But the little "sisterhood" suffered a blow when Bear broke both these unspoken promises. She started breaking the school rules on accessories: she wore a thick necklace under her blouse without even bothering to hide it from view, and every day after school she would put on coloured hairclips. Now, Aardvark and Falcon did not understand this unusual behaviour of hers. They would have been more okay about it if they had understood her evolution better. But they didn't, and they didn't ask Bear, so they never understood. No matter how much they tried, they'd never understand until they asked Bear about it. But Aardvark and Falcon didn't know that.
"If only we could just cut out the 'Boy' issues from our lives, I KNOW everything will be fine. But we can't. I can't. I can't do anything right," thought Aardvark. She didn't know it, but she was on a journey to self-discovery. And Bear and Falcon might be, too.
"I want answers!" Aardvark screamed in her head. But she would never get them. Friendship has no answers. Friendship IS the answer. And it was up to Aardvark to discover the friendship in her before she could get any answers. --041002--

Once upon a time there were 2 unattached friends. While Ashes did not like any particular boy, Fission was smitten by an average boy known as Beach. He, however, appeared to be unaware of Fission's feelings and went about his life normally. However, Fission's long and frequent gazes became less and less subtle and Beach finally noticed her affections. He did nothing about it, though, apart from confiding in his friends. Days turned into weeks; weeks into months. One day Beach's friend, Palmtree, had a bet with him. As Palmtree lost, he had to go up and talk to Ashes. So when Ashes was standing alone, Palmtree went up to her, said hello and introduced himself. He then asked Ashes if Fission really liked Beach. After a few minutes' deliberation, Ashes said yes and asked "why?" Palmtree hurriedly replied,"Oh...nothing." Ashes was quiet. Then she said,"OK then. Bye." and walked away from Palmtree. Back with Fission, Ashes revealed her furious regret at letting Palmtree leave--leave her--just like that. Fission voiced her sadness at never having someone like Beach like her back. The 2 girls sat in sorrowful silence. A few minutes later, the silence was broken by Beach and Palmtree's cheery greetings. Beach revealed that he had grown to like Fission while Palmtree admitted he had liked Ashes at first sight--that was why he had to talk to her. The 4 became friends, then 2 loving couples--and they lived happily ever after. -091202- 3.50a.m.

good afternoon.. im really bored. there is absolutely nothing to do! anyway, i was gonna like, make a picture of pantai's fren and me.. but.. i chickened out halfway through the task. mostly cos our faces didn't look right together. damn. but that could be just cos the colour quality of both picture sources are different.. anyway.. yah.. too bad.

harloe. i woke up at around 10-plus, and went back to sleep.. den i woke up again around 11.. anyway, selamat hari raya to one and all.. erm.. yeah im just stoning around, waiting to leave for wherever it is we're leaving for.. tata..

okay im DONE! aren't yu proud of me? okay, go here for the prom pics.. tata!

hihi! i just uploaded all my prom pics.. so i'll be putting them up soon.. in the meantime, here's a nice pic of me and lyn [nice mainly cos u kan't really see how fat i am]..

sigh.. i really love my dolls.. i really do.. they're so, so, so, so, SO pretty! and slim! basically, they are everything i'll never be.. and that's so cool.. ohhh... they are so chio! im gonna die now. [plus, i just stuffed myself just now during buka so pls understand.] bye.

harloe.. i haf sum nice new dolls to put here...

hellohello people out there! i just finished cleaning/clearing the top of my cabinet. ok, not exactly cleaning/clearing, but it's definitely less cluttered and less dusty now.. i have a new approach to tidying up. instead of calling it "cleaning up", "tidying up", or any of those negative phrases, i've decided to adopt the phrase "damage control". it sounds more interesting, exciting, fun, blah blah.. and therefore i might be more inclined to performing this tedious task. and damage control can be done in stages, which makes the work so much more bearable.. besides, the name is rather apt, as by looking at my room, it is in an extreme state of damage. so it's slightly more fun for me now. and i feel so much prouder at completing a task--at least i can say,"i've done some damage control" instead of "i cleaned up my room", which sounds stupid these days..
okay, anyway, during the bio and chem papers 1 i was REALLY bored, so i made sum lists.. which are really fun to make, btw.. anyway, i would have made more during the papers 2 also, but i wouldn't get it back anyway.. and besides, i was out of ideas.. so.. here they are.. updated since, of course..
the ones made during chem
top 5 lims
1. marie
2. joanna phua
3. serene/shock CJ
4. po chen [CJ]
5. fila lim

5 lims worth considering
1. all the poser guangyang lims
2. valarmathi
3. shock [PL]
4. chang-yi
5. slash [sorry fana, i was running out of worthy lims]

top 5 rians
1. shawn zhang
2. jersey
3. pantai's fren
4. dyed hair who lives near adil
5. white headphones

top 5 gang-kat-luar guys
1. screw
2. alex
3. johnny
4. buffer zone's big fren
5. buffer zone/wei

top 5 cj guys at mac's
1. li di
2. clemmy-memmy-moo
3. peipei's fren
4. MRT
5. abg amy

the lists made during bio
top 5 lims who should be shot
1. beer
2. baba nyer lim
3. volleyball girl
4. 90% of mimlims
5. crescent misai lim [but not killed]

top 10 nicknames
1. clemmy-memmy-moo
2. mu-mu
3. buffer zone
4. m-m-m-m-m
5. SLWIDAW [soccer lookalike which i dun agree with]
6. beast
7. manusia raksasa teh [MRT]
8. screw
9. li di/a-di
10. my sassy boy

top 5 girls who should be shot
1. wan sze
2. lawar
3. gf abg amy
4. little guangyang lim's mim fren
5. gf faudaf

well that's it.. bye!

heylo.. i just got an email forward with 50 things common to all of us in primary school... anyway, sum of them were really hilarious, or just nostalgia-loaded, so i thot i'd add the cooler ones here..
8. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole on the ticket.
11. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.
15. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka(20 cents per pack) and Ding Dang(50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.
26. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.
29. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives.
32. Every children's day and national day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.
37. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.
43. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.
45. Collecting notebooks and all kinds of stationery was a popular thing.
46. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".

duncha think it's damn hilarious? i was just dying.. hahaha... hey but i diden do number 46.. i was original.. totally..

heyhey! i am watching the bachelor rite now.. anyway, im in a great mood so pls dun try to spoil it.. i went out with fana today and i bought a beeyootiful indian anklet.. for $8.90.. i like it lots, except it's abit too small for me.. anyway, we went to wisma and taka after that, and near the passageway to taka, we saw SLASH! kan yu believe it? i died. so you can imagine what state fana was in, if *I* died! haha. she is sooooo hebat!! i realised how rugger her build is.. and fana sez she's still wearing the same bag.. and definitely she was wearing the same kind of clothes, which is great.. not poser or anything.. umm.. ohyeah the only problem was her gf.. no longer the ij gerl, she was sum short-haired not-pretty-at-all gerl with glasses.. kinda like marie-and-wansze.. well.. yah.. bubbye~

i watched someone like you today.. it was sooooooooo sweet! i died.. and of cos, hugh jackman is very hot. haha.. then later i watched gone in 60 seconds which is abit draggy but very cool. i especially like the way they refer to the cars as "ladies"..

[It looks that way, the way you say
She talks as if she knows]
I do not know that this is so, I only just suppose
I suppose that when you come into the ballroom
And the room itself is floating in the air
If you're suddenly confronted by his highness
You are frozen like a statue on the stair
You're afraid he'll hear the way your heart is beating
And you know you mustn't make the first advance
You are seriously thinking of retreating
Then you seem to hear him asking you to dance

A lovely night,
A lovely night
A finer night you'll know you'll never see
You'll meet your prince
A charming prince
As charming as a prince will ever be

The stars in the hazy heaven
Tremble above you
While he is whispering, "darling I love you"
You say good-bye
Away you fly

But on your lips you keep a kiss
All your life you'll dream of this
Lovely, Lovely night

sorry for the misinformation.. but i dun think he kan go vs, which is really sad.
yesterday was interesting, to say the least. but mostly draining. the afternoon kinda sucked, so i went home and slept it away..
but the evening was GREAT. when i reached the hotel, i waited for denise in the lobby, and there was a HOT lim sitting there!!! i died. oh, and stupid volleyball girl was there, but..let's just forget her.. haha.. erm.. sembahyanging was fine.. i looked fine but still fat.. but no one cared.. it was a wonderful night, lots of taking pics and all, and doing the class item was fun.. apparently it was hilarious, too.. and since lira got third, it must have been a good item rite? hehe. and guess what? aimee got first!!! isn't that great?? it's sooooooo cool!!! yah then after that we went up to the room and watched tv and took more pics and whatevered.. and then yaxin me rachel tzing adeline did unbeatables stuff with shiming's cards.. hehe.. i kinda sucked at the whole spreading-out-the-cards thing.. but i did win, once or twice, with a king or so.. hehe.. and then we played blackjack, with me as the dealer.. so fun.. and we threw cards at each other, which was really dumb but still farn.. yah so anyway like i sed i had fun. and at midnight my sister came and i left.. and i was in the lift with this lim!!! she was with her girlfriend i guess.. and she has blond hair and she's tall, wearing a nice checked shirt and jeans.. nice voice too.. soothing and stuff.. hahah.. yeah isn't it cool? to round off my day with a great lim? i can't think of a better way to start and end a lovely experience..
tata!

well my brother got one A, one A*, one B and another A i think.. aggregate was 237.. kan't make it to ri, unfortunately, but i think kan go vs.. so.. *phew*
im having a really bad day. i can't wait for it to be over. stupid prom. stupid me. why i wanted to go in the first place, i'll never know. pray for me.. and later when it's all over, i'll pray isyak and thank God for letting it be finally over.
im gonna go do my PAE now.. so.. bye.

ohyes valarmathi prob took lit paper 8!

toe ring.

Ain't That Funny
[Ja Rule]
Murda Inc
Haha it must be the ass
That got me like that
If it get any fatter
Man the rule gonna hafta get at her
And our situation won't matter
I come to make you smile
In the freakiest manners
J to the L-O
Hello, no I'm not Lee Harvey Oswald
I'm the rule in the shot call
Off the wall
Like MJ in his early days
It's the Inc. and Lopez now

[Jennifer Lopez]
Ain't that funny
It's been awhile since you came around
Now ya wanna see what's goin' down
Tryin' to tell me how ya want my time
Tryin' to tell me how I'm on your mind (on your mind)
See it never had to be this way
You should've never played the games you played
Now I'm seein' that you're kinda lame
Knowin how the situation changed

[chorus]
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, now I can smile and say
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, I'm glad I can smile and say
Ain't that funny

[Jennifer Lopez]
I remember how you walked away
Even when I tried to call your name
See at first I didn't understand
Now you're lookin' like a lonely man (lonely man)
I remember how you did me wrong
And now you're hurtin' cuz my love is gone
Everybody gets a chance to burn
You can take it as a lesson learned

[chorus]

[Caddillac Tah]
C-A double D, Hi
Double dose my
Fly by, red line
Touch the roast side
Oh I, never been a sucker for chill Ja
Spit the ism, hit em, get rid of em, and you know Tah
Get it gully, and ain't that funny
How they want me, see me workin' wit money
But Cali ain't a dummy
What these brodies want from me?
Cos all I got is G, J.Lo
And Murda I.N.C.

[Jennifer Lopez]
I really wish you wouldn't send me gifts
Tryin' to make me sit and reminisce
Tryin' to blind me with your bling bling
Thought I told you love don't cost a thing
(love don't cost a thing)
Hope you realize that now I'm through
And I don't ever wanna hear from you
I had enough of bein' there for you
Now I'm laughin' while you play the fool

[chorus]

[Jennifer Lopez]
Baby, is that you're girlfriend
I got my boyfriend

[Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule]
But maybe we can be friends
La da da da da da

[Jennifer Lopez]
Baby, I got my boyfriend
Is that your girlfriend

[Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule]
maybe we can be friends
La da da da da da

Ain't it funny

im dying. im soooooooooooooo tired. i could just keel over and die now. haha. shows how little stamina i have, huh.. anyway.. i walked around orchard today.. checked out the new far east basement, which is SO cool! and we saw lotsa people.. valarmathi.. and i dunno who else but i know there were thousands of lims, mostly the kind i like.. hahah.. and there were lotsa cool shops in the basement.. including this collectors' shop, with lots and lots of those old kiddy stuffs like care bears and the my little pony thingies.. sho cool! of course, catering only to the rich..
i was peacefully reading my PAE booklet on the way home and then siti called me. yeurgh. as in, i like siti, she's nice and all.. and maybe under normal circumstances we could find common ground to talk about, but.. she kept talking about mai and asking me to go out with them.. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS! i refuse to see mai again. she makes my blood boil. and i know she might not necessarily advocate this whole ask-ain-if-she-wants-to-reconcile thing, but STILL. she's the subject of it, innit? hmph. and i dun like her. she makes me angry now. so yah. please. everyone, get the point. AND. beer is better. gimme beer any day. i know that's almost sinful to say, but.. i dunno. i suppose i prefer assertive to shy. hahah. but i hate both of them anyway.

i love having a blog. it's like, whenever im online, and i don't know what else to do, i just log in and start typing. kwite fun.
im burning a new cd now.. it has perhaps perhaps perhaps and quando quando quando.. hehe.. i guess songs of those period tend to have the same format.. but they're still lovely.. i'd rather listen to those than, say, "pop".. i mean, puh-leeze.. oh it's azan already.. but im gonna wait till this cd is done.. i have lots of time to burn anyway.
you know, im still kinda reeling from yesterday's experiences.. mainly the fila lim one. i just totally did not expect to see her.. and like, for so long.. i dunno.. i realised that the last time i saw her was more than a month ago.. and i guess im not gonna see her anymore.. seeing as she's not in sec 4 and all.. or doesn't take o's, anyway.. it's pretty sad.. like i've always said, i've always wanted a friend living near me.. then we could hang out together.. it would be so fun.. and i know fila lim is a fun friend to have.. u kan just tell by looking at her. problem is, i dun see why she has to be so aloof with strangers.. there is [and was] absolutely no way i would get to smile at her, so how am i supposed to be friends with her? i guess it's not meant to be. maybe she's just meant to be a pick-me-up, for when im really mad or sad. and have you ever noticed, you never get what you want when you want it..you get what you want when you need it.. which is cool in a way.. but not cool cos you want it this moment, but you get it at another moment. but it's just the way things go.

i watched notting hill again last night.. i truly love it..
"..it's the sort of thing that happens in dreams.. good dreams.."
"and what happens next in the dream?"
"well, i'd sort of change my personality--you can do that in dreams--and i'd get up, walk over, and kiss you."

"..i'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.."

you won't admit you love me
and so how am i ever to know
you always tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

a million times i've asked you
and then
i ask you over
again
you only answer
perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps

i used to always say that things happen when you least expect them too. but i stopped saying that for some time cos nothing much really happened to me.. and today.. something happened that proved my statement true again. i wouldn't mind if it happened again and again and again. what am i talking about? well, i'll come to it later..
i was in 105 home and just wondering--have i ever made any of my friends so angry at me that they almost hated me? i still wonder. and i wonder what i would have done to make them mad at me.. did i cancel out on plans? did i disappoint them in some way by forgetting to bring something important? did i insult them so bad till it hurt? did i brag so much about something that they'd never achieve? and i wonder exactly how mad they were. did they dig their fingernails deep into their palms until it left a mark? did they scream out their anger? did they cry for hours and hours? did they just let their mind wander aimlessly while rotting in anger? did they resolve never to be friends with me again? did they shout out curses? did they curse ME? --yeah anyway.. if anyone has any answers to the above, do not hesitate to tell me. i really wonder. it's another of those big mysteries. i feel really bad. if i have ever made any of my friends this mad at me, im really sorry.. i seriously did not mean any hurt, but i know it won't take away the hurt. and now i realise how hurtful it all is, and although apologies won't have much of an effect, im still very very sorry. i am. i hope i never give them any cause to be mad at me again.
so there i was, fuming silently in the bus. and then i alighted and continued to fume in 53.. but i was slightly pacified by the sight of about a billion pl lims walking all over the school.. and there was a considerable number of pl gerls wearing their uniform and their school jacket, which, actually, is not that nice but it's like haute couture to me.. hehe.. i looked around at the lims outside without really seeing any of them, and only one person boarded the bus. the moment i saw her, i was like, hey, floppy hair.......FILA LIM! it was her! in the flesh! she's not dead after all! not even ill, she looks fine and well.. she was one of those wearing the skl uni and skl jacket.. and she wasn't carrying a bag, just some papers and stuff.. including a school newsletter which she was flipping through.. it's the same old fila lim. same old floppy hair [which is like JP's but without such obvious feelers], same pinafore, same chubby-ish face, and lovely eyes and socks and shoes. and same old habit of glancing discreetly to the back. i was sitting riiiight at the back, in the right corner, and she sat next to the aisle, the row infront of me, but on the left of the bus. [i was wearing my fila socks today, but a strange stroke of coincidence. plus i had to wait about a thousand years--and 2 more 105s--for 53 to arrive. therefore i conclude that it was fate.] there isn't a day that goes by at the fila lim bus stop, that i don't look across the road and think of her. i am so happyterharu at seeing her again today, after so manymanymany weeks of not. and i just thank God for showing me the silver lining in the grey cloud today. amin.

heylo. i watched a midsummer night's dream today.. it was.. oklah.. but i kinda prefer the other versions that i've seen.. they were definitely more interesting, in their own ways.. oh and yesterday i watched the world is not enough, the first james bond movie i've ever watched. and i realised how cool james bond movies are, and how much fun i've been missing out on.. but it's ok.. lots more fun in store for me..

See what drug you are.

See what Rugrat you are.

See what Rugrat you are.
haha interesting... a tie again.. im one heck of a mixed-up girl.

look look!!! i got bedtime bear and love-a-lot bear!!! it was a tie!!! and guess what? i love bedtime bear!!! =D
See what Care Bear you are.
See what Care Bear you are.

Which Colossal Death Robot Are You?

I'm The James Bond Villain Personality Test!

I live in a fictional world of spies and blonde women with ridiculous names, and I like to give people plenty of options. Although whether they're villainous is not optional.

Click here to find out which test you are!

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
haha.. bullshit.
--from 100 Acre Personality Quiz

You focus deeply on your values and devote your life to chasing ideals... you often draw people together around a common purpose and work to find a place for each person within the group. You're creative and seek new ideas and possibilities. You quietly push for what's important to you, and rarely give up. You might be somewhat gentle or have a good sense of humor, you could be hard to get to know and overlooked by others...you like to make the world more in line with your vision of perfection.

If you're a teenager, you probably have a bit of a rebellious streak. You might argue with others who hold different values than yourself..you probably have a small close-knit group of friends...you can relax around these pals and be pretty entertaining, since you see the world in a different and special way... that's why your posts on the Storm Palace are so great!

Inner harmony is the most important thing to you. You're sensitive and loyal. You have a strong sense of honor concerning your personal values. You'd rather communicate your feelings in writing...

You do best in a flexible situation where the teacher/collegue takes a personal interest in you...you like to interact with your peers, but not TOO much ...you have both creativity and flexibility, and you like that about yourself....you don't get bogged down by details...your job must be fun and it must be meaningful to you....you don't wanna feel conspicuous so you'll sell yourself short just to avoid the spotlight...

You can be a gentle and subtle leader...being indirect and inclusive of others...you don't confront people head-on, but rather work with 'em to get the job done....you lead with your values in mind and let these guide you...you don't like conflict, so you don't confront situations directly.. you'd rather wait for a situation to work itself out....

Leisure and kickin' back is really important to you. sometimes it is hard to separate work from play, huh? when you find a new recreational pursuit, you do a lot of reading up on it...most of your leisure things are done alone, like reading, listening to music, and even BBSing....when you want to be sociable, you can be very charming and outgoing..

Love is a very deep commitment to you...it's not easily attained...you probably pick out flaws or are disappointed when he or she doesn't match up to your ideal as to what love should be like...first dates are very well set up to make sure everything is taken care of so it can be "just right." you might have a hard time sharing feelings about others...you tell so many feelings inside that you forget to tell your partner that you love 'em or whatever....

If the relationship goes bad, you take it to heart, but probably don't tell many others about it....you have a tendency to overreact, huh? Other things to watch for...don't get so caught up in your dreams that you don't consider others' points-of-view...you might not adjust your vision to the facts of a situation...you may need a "reality check" once in a while... also, don't try to please everyone and be so hesitant to criticize... don't delay projects 'cause you're holding out for perfection...it's not gonna come...don't get overly critical because no one matches your perfect ideals... you could lash out and it could get ugly.

INFP: "I Never Find Perfection"
--from Personality test like Myers-Briggs & Keirsey personality tests

i am supposedly --
free enneagram test

but acherli --

--from Enneagram Personality Quiz

Are You Ready For Love?
Your score: 6

0-7: You are ready, willing and able!
You are so ready to get out and start looking for a partner, if you haven't begun already. You know that you would survive if you didn't meet your mate right away, but believe strongly that life would be better if you had someone to share it with. It's a proven fact that both men and women live longer and stay healthier when they have the comfort and support of a healthy relationship. So, stay positive and start flirting -- a soulmate may be standing next to you, right now!
--from Quiz: Are You Ready For Love?

You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there.

You chose to take significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things.

Note:
The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. If you take the short road, you fall in love quickly and easily. If you take the long road, you take your time and do not fall in love as easily.



On the way you see 2 rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend

0 Red and 20 White Roses.

Note:
The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. For example, if you chose 18 red and 2 white, you give 90 and expect 10 return.



You finally get to his/her house. A family member answers the door. You can have that family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get him/her yourself.

You chose to go get your boy/girlfriend yourself.

Note:
This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. If you asked the family member to get your significant other, then you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. If you went to get him/her yourself, then you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.



You go up to you boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

You chose to leave the roses on the bed.

Note:
The placement of roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Placing them on the bed means you like to see them a lot, while placing them on the windowsill means that you are alright with not seeing them as much.



Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend go to sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up you go in his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive,

he/she is awake.

Note:
This is representative of your attitude towards his/her personality. If you find him/her asleep, you love your boy/girlfriend the way he/she is. If you find him/her awake, you expect him/her to change for you.



Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain road or the longer, more interesting road?

You chose the longer, more interesting road.

Note:
The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. If you chose the short road, you fall out of love easily. If you chose the longer one, you will tend to stay in love for a long time.

have you ever felt invisible? i think it's one of the worst feelings in the world. it's even worse than loneliness. at least when you're lonely, you still exist to the billion or so people in this world. but when you're invisible.. no one, and i mean no one, can see you. it's pretty sad, and quite hope-consuming too. i mean, you never know if you're ever gonna be visible again, and even if you know you are, you don't know when. so it's pretty hopeless whatever you do, cos you'll remain invisible until God decides to make you visible again. all hope is gone, and all you want to do is curl up in bed, and hide far far away from the world. but sometimes, sometimes, you've already made plans much much much earlier to be around people. you didn't know you'd be invisible during this set period of time, of course, but it doesn't change things. because you remain invisible. and by sticking to your plans, you will only end up making things worse and more painful for yourself. but really, there's nothing you can do. you've paid up, you've paid for about half-a-dozen things that you require for this whole being-around-the-people thingy, and fact is, you can't curl up far far away from the world. not on this day, at least. and you just wonder how it's gonna turn out. but you know one thing it's not gonna turn out to be.
it's not gonna turn out good. not for yourself, at least. so you just prepare yourself for a flood of tears immediately after that, plus a whole load of embarrassment.

payback time? yeah, probably.

Sangsi Asmara oleh _{Hetty Sarlene}

Di sebalik kata ada rahsia
Di sebalik senyum ada makna
Kan kubisikkan padamu
Satu hari bila perlu
Saat pasti kau jadi milikku

Biarkanlah aku menanggung rindu
Biarkanlah engkau tiada tahu
Halus kasihku padamu
Zahirnya takku lihatkan
Hingga pasti kau jadi milikku

( korus 1 )
Entah bila bermula
Cinta yang tak kusangka
Mungkin terlalu lama
Sangsi asmara... terpedaya

( korus 2 )
Berlalulah masa tak sanggup ku menanti
Gelora di jiwa tak siapa mengerti
Siksanya menanggung rindu
Sukarnya memendam rasa... kekasih

( ulang korus1 & korus2 & korus2 )

Animal Love Test from here.

What kind of person you'll be attracted to in real life situations..

C. Deer - elegant and well-mannered



In the process of courtship, which approach would make you feel irresistible...

B. Lion - straight-forward, just tell you he (she) loves you



What impression you would like to give to your lover...

B. Cat - stylish



What incident would cause you break up with your partner--which character you hate most...

C. Crocodile - ruthless, cold-blooded, ironic



What kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner...

B. Horse - both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept



Would you commit adultery...

A. Human - you care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage



What do you think about marriage...

C. Polar Bear - you are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your freedom



At this moment, what do you think of Love...

A. Lion - you always thirst of love, you can do anything for it, but you won't fall for it easily

You are Civilian Calvin! You don't get to travel much outside your neighborhood, but you still manage to get in plenty of trouble. When you're not acting up, you like to wax philosophical. Take the What Calvin are You? Quiz by contessina_2000@yahoo.com!

I'm An Idealist
All Idealists (NFs) share the following core characteristics:


Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.
Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.
Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self--always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are rare, making up no more than 8 to 10 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The four types of Idealists are:


Healers (INFP) | Counselors (INFJ) | Champions (ENFP) | Teachers (ENFJ)
--The Keirsey Temperament Sorter II

Type 4: The Artist. The intuitive, reserved type.
--The New Enneagram Personality Test

Fours tend to live in a private world of their own personal ideals. They are strongly emotional people who react strongly to even little things. In the course of a day, a Four's emotions can jump between extremes. Fours are often concerned with ideal love, longing after a kind of love that they've never experienced outside of the imagination. They also have strong ideals about themselves, which, combined with highly reactive emotions, can lead them to think terribly of themselves. This makes Fours excessively prone to envy, as they see something good in others and berate themselves for not having the same qualities. The strength of Fours is that they can see the best in others. Fours often become artists, thought not all do, and not all artists are fours. The Swedish film maker Ingmar Bergmann is good example of a Four.
--from The Triadic Enneagram Personality Test

You want your partner ( girlfriend/boyfriend ) to....

D. Be a little bit more relaxed, calm and composed

NOTE:
What kind of chair do you prefer?

The message behind the question :
A chair is for sitting on . If you choose to sit on a certain chair, you have no suspicions or distrust towards it. This is the same psychology present in our relationship with the people we like. In other words, the qualities you look for in a chair are similar to the qualities you look for in a partner. Sit down for a minute and give it some thought.



With respect to money ....

A. You spend as little as possible.

NOTE:
Tomorrow is Sunday. What are you going to do ?

The message behind the question :
Sunday is a day when you are free to use however you want. Having freedom to do whatever you want is like having money to spend however you want. Becoming good at managing your finances is an important step towards independence. What do you think of your money spending habits? A penny for your thoughts.



You think good luck .....

D. Doesn't exist. Reality is built on practicalities.

NOTE:
A box lying on the road. What's inside ?

The message behind the question :
People often attribute unexpected events to good luck or bad luck. When something goes well, it's because of good luck; when things turn sour, it's the fault of bad luck. Your answer reveals what kind of luck (what's inside the box ) you think will befall you in an unexpected circumstance (the box on the road ). It's probably safe to say that people who select B or E do not buy lottery tickets.



The hidden side of your personality tends to be ....

C. Satisfied to care of things with a minimum amount of effort.

NOTE:
If you go to the zoo, what do you look at first?

The message behind the question :
When you are at the zoo, you are surrounded by caged creatures that you can't talk with, and which can't communicate with you. The fact subconsciously governs the way you act. It is very similar to how you act in human society as well. In other words, your actions reveal the hidden side of your personality.



How you relate to others...

E. You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

NOTE:
What kind of present would you buy for a very close friend ?

The message behind the question :
By stating what kind of gift you would give to a good friend, you are actually revealing how you relate to others. However, it doesn't really matter so much what you give someone - it's the thought that counts. If you care enough to give something,your friend will get the message. The dual acts of giving and receiving are, together, one of the finest pleasures - and one of the best forms of communication - that friends share.



When it comes to finding a romantic partner you .....

C. Don't have any particular type in mind, but are inclined to look for someone who is likely to say 'YES' if you ask him/her out.

NOTE:
You want to cross a river, but there is no bridge in sight. What do you do?

The message behind the question :
Your answer to this question reveals the way you tend to search for a boyfriend/girlfriend. Crossing a river is a psychological equivalent of getting out and finding that special someone. In any case, if you don't make an effort to meet people, there's no way any relationship is going to start at all. So, get to it !!!!
--from Reveal Yourself

Artistic Type
You love caring for others and it is the reason why you are a big sister/brother in people's eyes. People will find it interesting and comfortable talking to you, and this enables you to gain trust from them. This usually gives good impression to those of the opposite sex who are sentimental and younger than you.
--from The WebHouse.net Personality Test

fana is a big liar. she's still not online yet.

forgot to say, yesterday i saw prem.
"tell me when will you be mine..tell me quando quando quando..we can share a love divine..please dun make me wait again.. when will yu say yes to me?.. tell me quando quando quando.. you mean happiness to me.. oh my love pls tell me when.."
-sigh-

i just realised i love heineken ads.. they are soooo cool, and they play the nicest songs.. like, the currently showing ones feature "quando, quando, quando" and "can't take my eyes off you" respectively.. and the ads themselves are like, very fun and lively and stuff.. REALLY cool. heineken rocks! [is that like, haram to say, btw?]
yayy im chatting to him now. haha. i can just see him in a tux on his graduation night. wow. sometimes i love that im in a girls' school. and sometimes, i love it even MORE.

im freshly home from a day out on/at my previous second home--orchard! lovely!!! the last time i really hung out there was when i was a sec 3 gerl. and what a wonderful feeling it was today, to be a sec 3 once more..
I'M SERIOUS.
i watched the dangerous lives of altar boys with rachel lyn fana tzing. it was SO COOL! it's really good. it's one of those under-publicised movies which are excellent. like, for example, the cider house rules. yah. it's really cool and interesting and definitely different. saw the sji malay guys too. and rencong. but i didn't realise it was him until it was too late. and later at wisma, fana and i saw this nadia yeo-lim whom we both saw at bishan mac's. and about a thousand other people, including one totally poser and hot ij lim, and anudder less hot and non-poser ij lim..
ermm.. ohyah we went topshop, where i had the most fun trying on different hats.. i tried an alicia keys look, which totally failed on my round chubby face. sorry, that makes me sound too cute. my fat face. haha. i tried a white kopiah-ish hat by mistake, and i dunno how i ended up looking, but it was probably anything containing the word "bad". haha. and i tried on 2 of those beeg floppy hats, yu know, like all those black people wear? like the one janet jackson wears in poetic justice? yah those. and i looked good.. and i wasn't the only one who thot so. =D yah and i tried the milkmaid look, according to fana. just a scarf, the triangular ones, around my head. adeline thot i looked nice. but i still love the janet jackson look. so im gonna get the hat soon.. ermm.. yah and i found nice green earrings which look totally classic and old-fashioned, that im gonna get to wear with my prom dress. yah.
as fana and i were going home, someone poked me on the shoulder. it was redhuan! what a surprise! so we talked on the way to orchard mert.. and when i went home later, by 105 and 53, iskandar-!- was on 53! with his mom! isk, i mean. haha. i wanted to smile at him, but.. yu know, he's a raihan and all, i'd just embarrass myself. yah so i just stared at him ah. he got down at the next stop, btw, tua's stop.
ohyah fana and i went to pray at royal plaza hotel.. and we saw haney hadad.. and fana stage-whispered "haney hadad!" and she turned. darn. don't worry, i grinned at her. haha.
yeah. so like i said, i had a GREAT day. wait. did i even say that? nevermind, im saying it now.

hellohellohello. how is everyone? rockin' and rollin'? that's cool, just cool..! --ok, yes, im a little high right now.. haha.. not sure why. or, rather, not sure principally why.
well im just back from watching harry potter, second instalment, at tampines mall with my mom and brother. being tampines mall, there were about a thousand people including maybe 50 lims and that gerl from SAC who took the bus with me in the mornings. she was eating, so i guess she's serani, not malay-muslim. anyway, the movie was hilarious, thanks to ron's funny funny quips. he is just sooo adorable! and the fact that he and harry are squeaking owing to mid-break voices makes it even funnier! and justin finch-fletchley... well, he LOOKS LIKE TAIWAN! im serious! needless to say, i was having a hard time keeping a straight face when i glimpsed him in any part of any scene. luckily my mom diden notice.. and tom felton is SO HOT as malfoy. i was dying. he is like, suave personified. too bad he's a pilfering ass in addition to his other negative qualities. haha. yes, negative QUALITIES. i mean, it's part of what makes him so suave, i think. he's only abit younger than me rite? about 14 or 15... not bad an age difference, i should think. ermm.. yah and of course rupert grint was soooooooooooo adorably funny. sighzz.. he's so sloppily pai, which is damn cool. ohyes and in addition to all this, during the movie, HE smsed me! yay! haha. thank you, photochemical smog, for prompting a question from him.. hehe. he's such a nice guy. sigh. yeah and he did come just now!!! wearing the obs climbarock tshirt, white colour. i was incidentally wearing mine, btw. haha.
yes and erm.. gigit rantai, mrt and li di were there. li di's alive! yay! and he glanced at me alot.. kwite fun.. haha..

wahoo! guess what? this morning i took the bus with "celesta".. AND a brader.. a poser one, with his shirt tucked out entirely, and headphones.. and he's really hot too! den later after the combined science paper, "celesta" and gigit rantai came in.. yay!
haha i just opened the fridge and saw 3 entire 5-packs of yakult.. green, red and purple, i think.. and yu know the vitagen ad where the mom kneels down and helps her daughter pile 5-packs of vitagen into the trolley? my mom could do that ad.. for yakult, of course.
anyway, im gonna watch harry potter tmr! yay! thank you, brother of mine, for being kiasu.

okay i promised to put in my wonderkins scene.. so here it is.. just a lil synopsis first, though.. duncha think the guy appears to look ALOT like screw? yah, so i was thinking, mebbe it's screw and me! haha.. it looks so sweet... it's like, after a long period of not seeing each other, they meet, and they missed each other so much, they just decide to absorb each other's presence, instead of doing stupid things like pda or watever.. that's why i think of this as true love.

i just created the NICEST wonderkins scene!!! it's in black and white.. and it just looks soooo lovely... so... sweet... which is kinda ironic to sum extent cos the male character is a screw-type guy.. but that's what makes it nice, i think.. and i just realised how much i love black-and-white. and so... now that im an expert at this dolls thing, i'll put in more work on the effects part.. there'll be a marked improvement in my dolls from now on.. and don't worry, i'll put up the wonderkins scene soon..

"i know you'd kill for me,
you'd die for me,
i know you like to rip and run the streets.
but i get nervous sometimes,
baby, i can't help to think
you might not make it home to eat.
i can't sleep.
could you pick up the phone,
and call me at home
and let me know you ain't in some heat.
and don't go crying, you're grown,
you know im looking out for you,
cos you be looking out for me, me, me.." --aaliyah's come back in one piece
you see, since i watched romeo must die for the second time, i've fallen in love with aaliyah's character, trish o'day. and i wanna be like her now. yeah. my new role model. how bout that?

today: on fana's encouragement, i let her type out a msg to jeremy and send it to him ["hi.. good luck for today.."]. and he replied!!! dun worry, im saving that one. and then later he came in. i was talking to fana. and i suddenly stopped and smiled at him. i dunno, it's like, when he's around, i dun feel like doing anything but smiling. today i totally diden expect to see him, so i was speechless as well. which resulted in my failure to ask him to have a seat.. so he left. how stupid am i? ...yes, very, i know. [and when i finished my maths paper early later, i could NOT stop thinking of my stupidity] argh. please understand that i really like you. then u can decide if you like me too. fana insists that you do. but i know it's not true. <--wow a poem. anyway. there were also soccer, kunyah, SLWIDAW, gigit rantai, wei bin's fren whom [who?] i decided to call "comel", ah-pei [whom i decided to un-abang] and assorted others. ohyah a lim. a really great guangyang one, no glasses, tucked out blouse, saunters, longish floppyish hair, a cin marie plus poseurism. and later at the mrt station, 2 st. nick's lims.. woohoo! lawarrr!

top 5 kucing guys [yah i think i haf just enuff.]
1. adik eleanor
2. gigit rantai
3. soccer
4. comel
5. kunyah/the "celesta" guy

yesterday i got an sms from raihan. it sed "hey how you doin?" or sum shit liddat, which is totally not raihan's style. but i wasn't thinking, so i just replied. then i got another sms from him that basically sed sorry cos it was his fren who msged, not him. wow. what, he had rugby camp with those group of shits? or they all converted to islam and they went terawih with him?? hmphh. well mostly i was embarrassed not angry, so when i prayed isyak, i prayed to God to like, get me through this "mess" with no embarrassment on my part. and guess what? raihan just msged me back asking wad jc i wanna go, stuff liddat. so yes, i got out of this mess with no embarrassment on my part. amazing.

new dolls!

harloe. today i appear a little more happy than i acherli am. i mean, NOTHING happened today, man. how'dya expect me to be happy? it was the most boring day of my entire life. yah. the only person i saw was johnny. yah then when the bus passed pl, there were about a thousand lims, juz finished class or cca, or going for class/cca. there was this mimlim i've seen before a few times.. and she was with other lims.. real hardcore ones.. cin, of cos.. one of them was a biglim. nort cute ah! but they were, nevertheless, lims, so i just appreciate what i can get, especially today.
yesterday night i had a dream. i was in mac's with fana on a normal morning/afternoon. at a normal table. then this group of guys entered mac's, just passing through. it was alex's group, with extras: buffer zone, screw, and buffer zone's other entire gang ah. you know in ocean's eleven, when the guys like, make their entrance/exit as a group of eleven, with brad pitt [right?] heading the group? yah well, it was liddat ah. alex was the one heading the group, with his hunched gorilla-like walk. haha. sho cute. anyway, fana and i were just staring at them ah. no, make that gazing. i, of course, was gazing at screw. haha. he was, by far, the most poised. anyway, when the group was directly infront of us in the aisle, alex stopped, causing the whole group to come to a halt. and they about-turned to face us. the entire group. and then alex was like,"eh, guys, wait awhile ah.." and he walked up to us, smiling. i was all huh-ed ah. so he was just standing there, and i was looking at him ah, wondering what would happen. and he was like,"hello.." so i sed hi back. then he was like,"what are you doing?" as in what-are-you-studying, so i told him whatever ah.. then he was like oh ok. and i was like,"so where are you going?" and he replied,"play basketball lorh.." and as i nodded in understanding, he continued,"you wanna come watch?" and i was like,"uh, nolah it's ok.." and he sed,"ok lah.. see you then.. bye!" and i sed bye ah. then he gorillaed back to the front of the group. they about-turned back in one smooth move and strode out of the place to the courts, of cos. fana and i looked at each other ah. i was still in shock, you see. and we stared at each other, not saying anything. then about one minute later, we both scrambled out of the place, realising that we wanted to do that from just now. but when we reached the outside, they were already at the other side of the road. so we just stood there, dunno why we were in despair also. they diden see us ah, and i diden feel like calling out to them. so i just stared after them. then i dunno why, they all stopped again, as a group, and turned around to face us. i guess they sensed that we were there. but i diden react, i was just staring at screw ah, who was poseur-ly smirking at me. so i diden realise when alex tossed something across the road. fana was like,"eh ain.." trying to alert me, but i diden snap out of it. it hit me in the face, not painfully or anything, of cos. and i peeled it off my face. it was a leaf. those big, heart-shaped kinds like from the trees near school. and no, un-mohabbatein-style, it had nothing written on it. so i looked across the road at alex. he'd moved right to the pavement ah, while the rest were at the carpark. and he waved and sed hi!!! and i was like, hi. and he spread his arms out and sed,"i love you!" and i was just, yarh. then me and fana crossed the road and i joined him and we watched them play bball ah. yes, i know it's bullshit, but what do you expect? it was a dream. and fana, if it's abit different from how i related it to you, im sorry, i just can't remember my dreams properly.
the end.

1. he came in around 8.30... yah.. it was lovely.. then he went to skl.. and he came back a little later.. and i was sitting with him, waiting for him to do an amaths sum, then he was like,"are you hungry, do you want some food?" well, i died. how sweet! i mean, yah. sigh. well, im glad i was puasaing.. or else i wouldn't know how to respond.. mann. he is SO nice.
3. had my history paper at 2.. and im in love with one of the invigilators! haha. ok im not, but he's still cool and nice and all. ok he's not nice, maybe. but i dunno. he was wearing a white shirt [not herman-style], dark tan trousers and glasses.. and his hair is jeremy-style. haha. he acherli looks like a 5% mr. loke, 50% kenny tan, and 45% himself, i guess. haha. yeah. he was zooming up and down the aisles. well, he was literally running, anyway.. to like, attend to people ah.. and when i was waiting for the bus i saw him across the road.. wearing a backpack. i wanted to become melon then [cos she was infront of him], but it's ok. i got to look, anyway. and i must admit, i was a tad more distracted than usual becos of him. even though--and can you believe this?--shuai was like, diagonally infront of me! amazing. i just kept glancing up to look at him, sitting down, standing around, or being totally clueless. wahaha. he opened the doors of the hall too. i know, im hopeless.
2. today wei was wearing this cute white tshirt with the superman logo on it, his white bball shorts, shoes and an orange cap. sho cute. haha. den as usual he was being a jinling/raihan ah. den when fana and i were leaving, he was still outside playing cards. amazingly, he saw us. wow, dah nak blah baru dier nampak. anyway, he waved at us with his cards ah. and i was like,"hello!" just as he sed bubbye. so i was like,"bubbye!" and then he acherli asked,"going where?" and i diden hear so i sed huh. and he repeated,"going where?" and i sed,"oh, going skl, gort exam.." "ok, bye.." he replied. yeah. that was just totally him ah. but fana was pretty upset [that's an understatement] cos he hardly acknowledged her, due to the fact that he diden recognise her. ohno. i feel so bad, i mean, i dun even like him and all. but i think that's the way the world works, acherli. it's always the people who dun put in effort, who dun give a shit, who don't deserve it--who get what others want. lumrah hidup. lumrah hidup.

today rite, amazing things happened.
1. i got raihaned by 3 friends of adil's. "raihan! raihan!" they shouted out innocently. doubtless, adil did not participate directly in this ain-bashing, but he was a raihan throughout, SMILING as well, so.. i hold him fully responsible. meanwhile, over at the other side of bishan, fana was being discreetly raihaned by another group of raihan's friends. man, is that guy popular! and among misguided teens, too!
2. the thing i've been dreaming of all my life [ok, all my sec 3 life--just look at my social studies textbook] finally happened. i went home with fir. it was such a big surprise, i really dun think he goes home by mrt alot rite.. and especially not after maghrib. same with me, i dun usually go home after maghrib. but today we diden do the usual and i ended up going home with him. had a 5-second chat, and sed bye like normal friends do. but the bus was still freezing, and i wasn't floating in bliss. so. i dunno what telah happen.
3. i saw THE second most perfect aimee lim today. the first being marie. she's tall and thin and dark.. no glasses.. not poser. wears jeans and tshirts like normal people. EXCELLENT.

i have new dolls, so im gonna put a couple or so here. ok this is one of the outfits im wearing for sahabat, fana. and don't yu think this is SO selene, fana?

oh i just went through my TOD and i just wanna report that the first time i [and baba] acherli took notice of him was on september 14th. and we first communicated with him on october 21st. ok bye.

last night fana and i were at mac's at night, around 10pm.. and somehow it seemed different ah. but it was still mac's, i swear, just that it turned into a cafe-like place ah, with dim lighting and stuff. and outside, the path circling the place, it was brightly lit up by many many streetlights. so anyway, fana and i were sitting down somewhere that wasn't our normal place. it was like, the middle row ah.. and i sed to fana that i was going out for awhile.. so i went out to the front and i stood by the payphone nearer to mac's, not tidbits' payphone. i just stood there. no beer or any of the outside regulars, of course. there was, however, this group of guys in RI uniform. long pants. obviously upper sec. they were soooo conspicuous, cos of their uniform. so i looked at them, and i realised that they were raihan and friends! so i got all disgusted. but i stayed where i was. im not sure if i was waiting for someone to come along, or for that someone to call the payphone. haha. they diden see me at first. they were just standing there, talking ah. i guess they were debating whether to enter or not. then one of them glanced around and he saw me. and he instantly nudged a fren and told him. that fren nudged the next guy, and so on until the entire group of guys were looking at me. no, make that staring. i bet they were wondering what to tease me with ah. so anyway, the only one not looking at me was raihan. i suppose he was thinking that i was a basilisk, and that he'd die if he looked into my eyes; alternatively, HE was the basilisk, and he diden want me to die by looking into his eyes. i got irritated. with his friends especially. so before they could say anything, i sed crankily,"whaaat?" they all "jumped". it was almost literal. they diden say anything in reply, and i was still irritated, so i continued,"get lost lah! stop staring! stupid assholes! i diden bother you rite? stupid dumbs. GET LOST!" and while they were still gaping, i stalked off. i walked along the lighted path and entered by the back, then i plopped myself down and started ranting about them to fana. for the record, they never entered mac's that night. either they got skared off, or they got pissed off. take your pick.
don't worry, it was just a dream.

number 22 is i love the way he makes the place feel warmer the moment he steps in.

today we had lunch. yes this time i acherli ate. then we went back to our separate studying abodes.. but im still happy. even seeing wan sze diden put out my happiness. could it be true? could it really be? haha sorry that's just dumb. ohyah i wrote this just now after he came in for the first time:
you walked in.
and suddenly the place feels
so much warmer.
yes i know, it's no haiku. but it's not a cliched i-love-him shit either.

i just visited the "my sassy girl" website.. d/led a temporary 1:44 soundclip of "i believe", and listened to it thrice. it's amazing. lovely. wonderful.
so anyway. i acherli logged on to put this list on internet memory. so.. yah. but first, just a disclaimer: it's not meant to be poetic, overbearing, overemotional, touching, painful, obvious, a hint to him or anyone else, a form of mindless entertainment. cliched as it may seem [this disclaimer AND the list], _{it comes from my heart}.

i love everything about him
1. i love the way he dresses
2. i love his cute grey jacket.
3. i love his huge bottle of mineral water, and the way he drinks it.
4. i love the way his face looks, like a poly student instead of a 16-year-old.
5. i love his quirky manner of bobbing his head to whatever song he's listening to, and even singing along with it.
6. i love the way he's so patient with ANYONE when he's teaching them something.
7. i love the way he teaches stuff.
8. i love that he's so focused on his studying.
9. i love the way he carries the gigantic volume of "the lord of the rings" around.
10. i love his cute hairstyle, that goes so well with his face somehow.
11. i love that he's so friendly with EVERYONE, and i mean everyone. especially his easy manner with the kcpps boys.
12. i love his voice, at any volume.
13. i love the way he plays with his writing instruments, and drops them frequently.
14. i love the way he always tries to make conversation, even with someone like me.
15. i love the fact that he can't sit still either.
16. i love that he acknowledges ALL his friends, regardless of who he's with.
17. i love that he acherli invited me to breakfast and lunch.
18. i love that he doesn't mind studying alone. or eating alone. basically, being alone.
19. i love the way he has sooooo many girl frens too!
20. i love that he sometimes drops by in the morning just for a short chat.
21. i love the way he talks on his phone using his earpiece[s]. but most of all
i love that he makes me smile just by being there. and that i can't stop smiling for, oh, about a day after that.

1. spent the day with pencil. wonderful. except later the kcpps boys came and they cuden stop teasing me. but it was so cute when they asked him if he's from my school, and he was like,"yah my hair fell off.. stress.."
2. "lim" from cedar and her fren came back.. it's been so long.. i really missed them..
3. ooh gigit rantai was dere.. sho cute.. and wei.. and alot of people.. and as i was leaving, i saw screw, buffer zone and.. sahabat!! yay! and no beer or whoevers! amazing.

i had a wonderfully good day. i was a saint today, firstly. and i reached mac's at 7.20 and bought breakfast and i was just sitting down and jeremy came in! he sat infront of me again and asked abt chem pract, and we discussed that, then he had to go to school for a chem class or smthg. he was wearing a psl tshirt and his school trousers.
fana came later, so i decided not to go home early to kepo2 at syida's house.. and sengkuangs came.. marie n wan sze, who were there at 9-plus already.. and beer and her gerl.. parents.. ooh and a-liang and jonathan and wei ming.
den fana and i wanted to go toilet, so we decided to go to the CC one ah. and we went out by the front, cos i was hoping marie was dere.. and we went out.. and marie WAS dere.. and beer's gerl AND wan sze were gone ah.. dah balik, i suppose. and marie was sitting next to bapak. and wei was dere too.. just about to leave ah, with the 3-pointer.. fana smiled at him ah, but i was distracted by marie. den as we passed them bapak was like,"you again!" and i turned around and bapak was looking at me so i just raised my hand, konon waving at her ah. hehe. and while fana and i walked to the pedestrian crossing, wei and 3-pointer got ready to climb the fence. i looked at them ah, and wei was looking at me, den he pointed to the court, as if to ask if we were going there.. he grinned his grin and i waved at him..
oh and b4 that, madaminah was sitting outside when fana and i went out to go j8.. and i couldn't help myself, i sang "sabrina.." after i passed her.. haha. i felt so dumb.
ohyes and after about a thousand years of painful anticipation, jeremy finally turned up at around 5 ah.. yeah.. i waved at him and sed bye to him when i left.
ohyah also, after he arrived, marie came in with jack and another cinlim fren that i've seen before.. but bigger than kawan.. so we're calling her sahabat.. just cos it's longer than kawan, so i kan remember who's who..
-the end-
..and she lived happily ever after..

highlight of the day: jeremy, at 7.30 in the morning, sitting in front of me and saying hello and talking to me, before wishing me luck and leaving.
=)

this is for all the people i like, have liked, will liked, that are associated with bball in any way.
also for my friends to whom bball has a special meaning [read: fana].

i had a rotten day.
WHY COULDN'T YOU COME, JEREMY?

today pencil came. and he came up to me to ask about physics. unfortunately, i dun take physics. darn. then later he asked my name, and i asked his larh. it's jeremy, btw. hehe. and he took bio last year but he dropped it this year. ermm.. yah.
bio pract was okay. no food tests or anything, which means no fire.
aaand. ohyah after bio pract fana and i went bak there for lunch. and it was raining lyke crazy.. and beer came in with lawar, whose name is evan. and parents were there. also the cute cinlim. who we now call "kawan". that's about it.
I HAVE NEW DOLLS!

today pencil came.. and at first there were hardly any seats, so we grinned at him and pointed to the table next to us.. hahah.. anyway later i smiled at him again and he came up to us and asked us which jc we wanna go, and how many points we got. anyway, he got 10 points.. he's such a great guy.. i totally lurve him and his friendliness.. it really made my day..
and abang mrt is alive, thank god..
ermm.. yah and orange stripes guy was there.. yay..
AND soccer, who smiled at me.
AND beast and jack, who smiled at me too.
AAAAND harry, after about a thousand years.

1. dearest, darling, beloved soccer [and kunyah and anudder fren] came to mac's dis morning to study.. then baba and i left for rj first.. and later we saw them! yay! and there was pantai, david.. and.. as we passed raihan, baba was like,"raihan!" and walked away so when he turned he saw me, so i had to wave and say hi. haha. saw lynn too. erm. yah. saw shock this morning. she's in netball. alot of cedar, pl and IJ ppl going to tj... tj has rugby while rj has hockey.

anyway sorry for condensing everything there.

2. this is the big one, see.. it's about the "epiphany" [can i use that word?] i had just now, in my dream that i had before i woke up at 8pm. yes, 8pm. since im very lazy to like, type stuff today, i'll paste the conversation i had with fana:
clemmy-memmy says:
anyway
clemmy-memmy says:
when i went to tj tadi, it caused me to place tj and rj on the same level
clemmy-memmy says:
so aku tak tahu where i wanna go ah
clemmy-memmy says:
so i tried to make a decision tadi ah
clemmy-memmy says:
but i cuden
clemmy-memmy says:
den aku sampai rumah, aku tido..
clemmy-memmy says:
and i had a dream
loving yu is a torture... says:
huh?tj bagus?
clemmy-memmy says:
i dreamt that you me rachel and whoever elses were at the rj open house
loving yu is a torture... says:
ok..sorry for e interruption..
clemmy-memmy says:
[nanti aku elaborate on tj]
loving yu is a torture... says:
juz to show tt im listening..heh
clemmy-memmy says:
then kim dtg ah.. with this tall pretty gerl.. pakai like, rj tshirt ngan shorts
clemmy-memmy says:
and they came up to us ah
clemmy-memmy says:
and i was like feeling friendly, so we sed to kim den aku senyum kat that gerl and i talked to the gerl ah.
clemmy-memmy says:
aku ckp,"hello.. wat's ur name?"
clemmy-memmy says:
den dier bilang den aku tanyer,"so ure kim's fren?"
clemmy-memmy says:
den she laughed and she was like,"oh im her church counsellor" or sum shit liddat ah
loving yu is a torture... says:
hahahahaha..so funny!!super anti-climax sey
clemmy-memmy says:
den i continued talking to her and she told me she was in students' council
clemmy-memmy says:
and i was like,"oh cool! i've always wanted to join!" and she got all excited and she ran off to get like, pamphlets abt students' council for us ah..
clemmy-memmy says:
she was like,"wait for me, i'll be back.."
clemmy-memmy says:
then suddenly u guys wanted to leave
clemmy-memmy says:
so i had to follow you out of the school ah.. and we took a bus.. guess where we were? ...bishan!!!
clemmy-memmy says:
u noe, the 156 nyer bus stop nyer area
loving yu is a torture... says:
haha..then?
[21:22] <[SmiLez]> yo..can yu tok here?msn bising ah..
[21:22] bising?
[21:23] then anyway i kept saying,"eh can we please go back? i wanna go back.."
[21:23] so.
[21:23] i didn't realise it at first
[21:23] but
[21:24] <[SmiLez]> yes?
[21:24] i think it means that what i truly WANT is to go rj
[21:24] -the end-

yeah and that's the end. thank you once again, God.