so i finished harry potter and the half-blood prince. and i'm ever so sad about how things have turned out. ohyes warning: spoilers ahead. anyway, i must admit that i was kinda rushing through the part leading to dumbledore's murder, cos i was on my break then, and i was eating at the same time and everything. i. am. SO. sad! seriously. now dumbledore's dead, it's like nothing else matters anymore. it's like there's nothing to live for. it's like hope just died along with him. and i can't believe he died at the hands of snape, when voldemort himself is afraid of him. i never really believed that snape was on the good side, but i didn't think he'd actually stoop to killing dumbledore, when he's given him so many chances and believed in him so deeply. and speaking of snape, i was making a few guesses as to who the half-blood prince could be, but he never crossed my mind. weird. and by the way, who's scrimgeour? i know i've come across his name in one of the earlier books, but i can't remember the context. oh, and doesn't the part where harry breaks up with ginny remind you forcibly of the last scene in spider-man? haha. all the little love sub-plots are so annoying sometimes. i kept thinking, "just tell him/her you like him/her already!" it'd save us all the trouble. and i KNEW, i just KNEW, that ron and hermione liked each other. the chemistry between them just leaps out of the pages. oh but ugh, malfoy and pansy parkinson? gross. too bad there aren't any pretty slytherin girls for him to hook up with. and haha, i'd always thought blaise zabini was a girl. bodoh. eh, doesn't slytherin only take in pure-bloods? i know riddle got in cos he's slytherin's heir, but how about snape? maybe he's somehow descended from slytherin too..
anyway, sad as i am about dumbledore's untimely passing [yet, "death is but the next great adventure"], and as tak-puas-hati as i feel about this latest turn of events, i'm still gonna get the final book, cos i just HAVE to find out how it ends. and who the HELL is R.A.B?!?!?! omg. omg. OMG! i've just figured it out! right here, right now! it HAS to be Regulus Black! he even addresses the note to "the Dark Lord", and only death eaters refer to him as that. ok i've just checked book 5 and the stupid family tree states his name as "Regulus Black" je, so i dunno where the "A" came from, so it might not be him. darn. but it COULD be! oh and just wondering, how will the next book be written, if harry's not planning to return to hogwarts? i mean, so it'll just follow him all around england and the world, looking for the horcruxes? i hope ginny joins him, btw. i find her ever-changing hookups extremely annoying, but you know--at least she went back to the original.
okay that's enough of harry potter for now. i actually went to sleep at six-freaking-A.M. smalam cos i was too drawn into the book to tido. as a result, i woke up late [1100], so i had to rush and skip breakfast [!!!!!!] just so i could get to work 15 minutes late. but hey, it wasn't a total loss, cos i bumped into MDM outside the mrt station, and he smiled at me. ahhhhh..

haha. since amy recommended my blog as the one with the boy details, i shall add some more.
there was also atikk's bf, so named cos they were wearing the same thing on day 0. haha. he kept filming in our direction, how annoying! and then he even filmed our merepek newspaper headlines. buat malu sey. after a couple of days i finally conceded that he's quite cute la. haha.
atikk's bf was accompliced [is that a word?] by omar mubarak. haha. actually, that's his only claim to fame, so takpelah.
then there was hang jebat/johnny-depp-wannabe. haha. we were so annoyed by his actionness, funn-ay.
hm and tt concludes my camp snippets for today.
wow. yesterday's CCD was cute nak mampos. the best part was that i couldn't tell what race he was. he's either manjen or malay. and he was wearing a black polo with "mohawk" embossed on the front. at first he was just hovering around the entrance, and i was hovering around the hosting area, telling shasha how cute i thought he was. a few times he made as if to go in, tapi tak masuk2. finally he and his vik friend took the escalator upstairs, so i was like, "sigh, goodbye cute guy." imagine my utter amazement when he walked in about 15 minutes later! i was at the fountain area then, and when i saw him, i slumped weakly against the sink. haha. bodoh. according to umar, my face was all red too. anyway, i got to take his order and everything, and i was so oddly self-conscious, i felt like i was gonna trip over nothing and fall flat on my face, or drop my order pad into his ice-water or smthg! ah he's so cute, and all pillarish. i love pillars. tapi dier makan budget ah, calamari, SOD and a cookie summit with extra toppings. i wanted to give him a discount [just because he's so darn cute], but stupid MOD tak kasi. ape nak buat. anyway his vik fren blanjaed him, and then they tipped 50 cents. [which of course i kept, if only to remember him by.]
jessica's party yest was really fun. i finished work at 5, so i hung out at work with diana, until shasha came with her husband at ard 730. then we took a cab there, pasal malas nak naik bas and malas nak jalan. at first we thought we got the wrong room, cos it was manjens left and right. and then finally they got the idea and called, "shuxian!!!" so i added, "shuxian, ni de pengyou lai lo!" which made everyone laugh. bodoh. anyway, we hung out, ate abit, drank abit, cut the cake and took photos and stuff.. i must say, the otak-otak was first-class! haha. practically everyone was there, the kitchen staff including wenxing came [and brought their own beer, haha]!!! and then when the night-shift people came [azhar, farhan, hannan, stella], the real fun started. we went to an unoccupied room and hung out there, talking and playing cards. i was not too bad, considering my lack of practice. haha. farhan and azhar treated me like their personal dayang, asking me to refill their cups and get them food and shit. but you know me. tak pernah cakap no punye.. well, the relatives finally tapered out, so we went back to the original room, and just hung out there, enjoying kak nores' company. shasha and i were also checking out the cute mats walking past. and there were loads. cos there was some huge gathering going on at one of the nearby rooms. bes sey. i love mat-watching. anyway, it started getting late, so everyone left, one by one, until it was just jess, ah-ee, jessica's fren whose name i didn't catch, ah-boy, nores, me, hannan, azhar and farhan. i was really okay with leaving at any time, so when farhan finally decided to leave at around 4, we slowly pulled ourselves together, and shared a cab home. haha. i think the bun situation is improving--only ah-boy suans me about him now.
anyway, last night we were formulating plans to quit together and shit, cos WS is going to the dogs. so i wasn't looking forward to work today or anything. well, i arrived at work, on time as usual. and after punching my card and putting on my shoes, i joined shasha at table 44. then ching ching came out and said, "you free tak?" i was expecting her to ask me to do smthg merapek like sweeping the alfresco area or tidying up some other place, but then she asked me if i cld go to tampines. so guess what. i spent tadi's shift at tampines central instead of white sands. on the train i was just so freaked out, i had absolutely no emotional preparation for this, and i had to go into unchartered territory alone, with no fellow colleagues?!?!?! at that point i would have welcomed even azhar, or even stella, asalkan it's someone i know, but i wasn't that lucky. well for what it was worth, i had quite an okay time ah. i finally appreciate the real meaning of "busy", and in some ways it's kinda easier working at TCL than WS. for one, when you take an order, you just have to key it in. takyah kasi setting, takyah buat air, you're basically just free. so that was great. oh and the dishwashers are much nicer, and hands-on, so there's less of that shuttling back-and-forth with trays of annoying heavy plates. and there are so many malays, like wow man. so it's easy to talk to them. and then there was fairuz. haha. i had to suffer the mortal embarrassment of slipping and falling, hard, in front of him. luckily he was the only witness. or is that unluckily? he was all worried: "eh, okay tak? are u sure u're okay? tu jatuh serious tu.." and though i brushed it off for pride's sake, he was right. i now have this stupid scratch on my right forearm, from the sharp table corner. and then after that he kept laughing at me for my stupid comments: "ni mop air buang kat mana? kat longkang eh?" and every time he saw me after that, he couldn't stop himself from laughing. haha. but u know, he's nice. yay. so that was my first day at tampines. it's all good.

i was thinking about camp, and i remembered one DEFINITE downer. we were looking for the stupid dragonboat station, and we ended up at what i assume to be the secondary SDBA headquarters. it was completely devoid of people, even though the gates were wide open. so we thought we'd look around, just in case. we'd been looking around for 5 minutes when this heeeuuuge dog just bounded out of some kayaks, barking away. omg. i almost had a heart attack right there. [i didn't.] instead i just grabbed fazli's arm as we made our "jangan-lari-nanti-dier-kejar" walk out of that cursed place.
well. that was camp snippet of the day. haha. anyway i got to work today, in good spirits, and suddenly everything was different. skarang macam dah takde mood nak work sey. and i was so looking forward to this as a sort of permanent job. everyone's leaving or gone. it's like, where is my motivation?! and i'm not talking ex-con here. i'm talking about everyone else who's meant anything to me. kak nores, mr rahim, wenxing.. it's just so sad. and poor diana was so not into it today, she made a billion mistakes, macam dier nyer first day plak. all i can say is, naseb baik jeslyn was working today. or i wouldn't have survived.
it's jessica's party tmr. i wonder what it'll be like, with all this hanging over us.

fun fact of the day: throughout the 3-day-3-night camp i just came back from, i've had approximately 11 hours of sleep. max. so this'll be short, and the panjanger parts will come soon.
so yay it was a blast! quoting from my PPG notebook entry, "it definitely was not without its downs". but other than that, it was SO much fun.
highlights include the dinner function at marina promenade, winning best team (!!!) and the after-dinner at fong seng. [more accurately, the prata shop, where we were also joined by a couple of other facis AND jack. -cairs-] and of course, this wouldn't be an ain entry if i didn't mention the boys. hahaha.
anyway disclaimer here before i jump into anything. no real names when i'm gushing, of course. so for example, the guy i'm cairing over a few lines above is not really called jack. haha. so basically what i'm trying to say is, any names that sound familiar or shit, are purely coincidental.
okaylah since i already mentioned jack i shall start with him. he's SO universally handsome! big exotic-brown eyes and strong features, and kinda quietly-nice.
and speaking of quietly-nice, there was baik guy, who's just that! like, he just exudes baik vibes within a kilometre of wherever he is. such that whenever he's around, you'll [or more accurately, baba and i] feel like you're the biggest sinner on the planet. haha. but he's also very smart and he kept on dropping by my group, like contributing to our discussions or playing games with us.
then there's my personal favourite, raihan. his real name's actually very nice, but of course i can't document it here. so anyway, first time i saw him, i was like omg. he's so cool. he's all smiley and jovial and all pillarish with thick floppy hair and he looks like a combination of khairuddin samsudin and a friend of mine. and he's so friendly, i didn't get him as my i/c or faci or anything, but he still came by and talked to my group sometimes, and last night at marina promenade, when he came by my group and asked my name, i almost fainted. haha. okay fine so he was trying to teach me how black magic works, but he asked my name!!! totally unnecessary pe.. ah cute.
oh and then there was kashbir. kashbir is like, a muslim version of samit. the first time i saw him was on the second day [tuesday afternoon], and i did a double-take cos he was the spitting image of another friend of mine. i mati� thot it was him for awhile, before i rationalized that it couldn't possibly be him. haha. so yeah, he looks like samit plus that friend of mine, so basically it's like all samit's sharp features have been sandpapered down a little. and i love the way he talks, it's so deliberate. it's like everything about him is deliberate--the way he walks, talks, even prays. and how cool of him to wear long-sleeved stuffs on a hot afternoon. AND he prays regularly. excellent. haha. i suppose the only problem was that every time i got the chance to see him, i was in an ugly, flustered and basically unglamorous state. tak fair sey.
but then again, takpelah. the girl:guy ratio is atrocious. even if i were in some sort of "glamorous" state, nak katakan, why would they look twice at me kan? there were a billion more girls to look at pe.
dahlahdahlah aku nak tido.

ah. yest was better. even though shasha was working, they put me as cashier--for fear of a relapse, i suppose. so it was all good. oh and during briefing half of us were bawling away, cos we were marking kak nores' last day. sigh. i really have nothing to say about that. i'm gonna miss her so badly, and i'm not the only one of course. at first i wasn't crying, but i dunno, in the last 5 minutes of her speech i just dissolved. teruk sey. luckily my eyeliner didn't run. and on the other side, the guys--hannan, azhar and bun--were making stupid comments and jokes. boys will be boys.
well. look at the time. i still haven't packed OR mandied. see y'all in 4 days.

so i just had the worst day of my life.
okay, no, but for a moment there i really believed the world was out to get me.
see, i was having horrible cramps today. but other than that, everything seemed great cos everyone was working--me, hannan, liyana, diana, azhar, jeslyn, and of course bun. plus i was cashier. like i said a billion times before, LOVE being cashier. so i was all set for a good day at work. then the cramps started getting worse. the magnitude of which would have had me screaming and writhing in my bed at home. and that's not all! in the process of hammering a large block of dry ice, i pounded my own thumb instead. i had no idea the extent of the damage then, since it was still encased in the glove. but when i was done packing the cake, i pulled off the glove, expecting maybe a simple bruise but NO--it was bleeding. i was so shocked. and that's still not the end of the story. the cramps got dramatically worse. i got the chills, and my face was turned pale. so i escaped to the storeroom for a quick sit-down, but i felt SO cold and shivery inside, i had to come back out. then there was a cake to pack, and i was SO not receptive/friendly/whatever. i packed the cake in slow silence, and while i was counting the candles [thankfully just one], i started seeing double. that was really the last straw. the moment i was done with that cake, i asked to leave. collapsed for a few minutes in the storeroom, before the biting cold forced me to get myself together, and i took my pain outside. rafidah, nores and fizah were still there, so i just hung with them. by then i was in a cold sweat, and futilely punching my abdomen area in an effort to ease the pain. and ugh i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror later, i was all yellow [i.e. pale]!!! it was horrible. i looked like the walking dead, in addition to feeling like one. anyway i sat with them awhile, talking my pain away, until finally i felt well enough to take the bus home. know what's the worst part? okay, the second worst part first. bun didn't even show an ounce of concern for me, even though i'd stumbled past him on my way out. he just deftly elaked. and the worst part was that my parents didn't even notice i was home from work early, didn't even ask me about it. wow. such parental concern. you know what they asked me about instead? they asked me, AGAIN, why i didn't go for the APC tests.
anyway sorry to spew all this here, but i had to unload it somewhere. it was really horrible. i've never felt such pain before. it's not like i have anything to show for it [i.e. battle scars].
anyway i got home and watched some of the pacifier and all of hide and seek, which i think sucks, but is in the vein of what lies beneath and God i hate those kinda movies! oh i also watched madagascar before work, it's really cute. david schwimmer is SO ross-ly funny.

ohyah forgot to add. we bumped into tommy starbucks outside tangs, on our way to far east. and moments before that i'd been considering dropping by starbucks to see him again, just cos i haven't seen him in a long time. he's DEFINITELY less cute than when i first saw him. he used to be all fresh and bright, but now he looks kinda drug-addictish. ohwell. i guess i was bound to grow out of that one sometime. too bad i spent so many brain cells crushing on him.

SO tired.
it was back to the beach again for me and sya today. we were pretty late, around 2pm or so, but it was quite deserted, being a school afternoon and all. we took the same bus in as shuhail, he's so cute but he doesn't sound like i expected him to. haha. anyway it was good tanning, strong sun, minimal clouds, and very very peaceful i.e. no yapping canines. i just love bumming at the beach, it's great. oh ugh there was this blonde-and-goateed malay guy at cool deck, who had the nerve to say "bye" to us while his gf was busy rummaging around in her bag. get. a. grip.
then we went to jason's for sustenance, where the guy remembered my usual order, STILL! haha. and then i went crazy, shopping around at mango, forever 21 and even popular. lotsa fun. very tiring. so it's off to bed for me. soon. haha.
i find that i'm not so excited about it anymore. why is that, i wonder? i'm not sure, but i just know that i'll be going with a masam face and really horrible expectations of what's to come. and wishing that i was at work instead. argh. maybe i should NEVER have started working.

so i watched fantastic four today with baba at causeway point. i love causeway point. it has practically everything--shops, cinema, young mats, ite mats and viks! haha. anyway, the movie was great! i love jessica alba, she's so pretty, and wow all the guys are cute. i've loved julian mcmahon since he made his appearance on charmed as cole/belthazor/the source [sorry, i'm a big charmed fan], and ALL the male members of fantastic four are SO cute! i mean, even ben grimm is cute, when he's not orange rocky road. haha. and i seriously can't decide if i like the sedately-suave reed richards, or wisecrackingly-hot johnny storm, better. haha. great GREAT movie, with the promise of a sequel. oh but you know, when i mean "great", it means that i liked it, and i like movies like honey, the stepford wives, and ella enchanted, so just be warned. but also be warned that johnny storm is hot in more ways than one!!! supernova!
i had this weird dream last night involving me transferring to tampines, along with like half the staff of WS, and hafizah stealing my shoes while i walked around barefoot. i also flirted with lucaz, baba's ex-colleague from J8. "weird" doesn't begin to describe that dream, really.
THEN i jolted myself awake, cos my arm was in this awkward dangling-off-my-bed position, pinned down by my bolster and comforter, and it was hurting me. i checked the time, it was only 4 a.m., which meant i'd been sleeping for maybe an hour!!! so i just lay there for a few minutes, stoning, and then my phone beeps! at 4-freaking-A.M.! but all is well, cos i know who that's from, and i've been expecting it, so isn't that cool? anyway my point here is that i found it amazing that i tersadar moments before i received an all-important message, and i hope it happens again. haha.
oh i just remembered this way-cool scene from the movie. so johnny is at this dirt bike competition, and the announcer coaxes him to do a way-cool, way-out trick. so he swings himself totally off the bike, loses control, and turns into his human torch form, and flies for the first time, and at the same time, the chorus of on fire booms out very cornily. but WAAAAAY cool.

...budak ite pon tak nak suke budak uni, ape nak buat?...

two things to talk about, generally.
1. the excellent customer service i provide. [provided i like you. haha.] there were these 2 caucasian guys who came in the other night. i pride myself on liking gelaper people, so it was much to my consternation that i actually found one of them cute. haha. anyway. that's not the point. the other guy [the one i DIDN'T find cute], directed that a $2.50 tip be passed to me. wow. and i was flattered and amazed, cos i didn't even take their order or anything, i just happened to serve their drinks and clear some of their dishes and refill their ice-water [they drink like fish]. so. WAY cool. and the great thing was, he came by again tadi!!! at first i didn't realise, cos he was with a different companion, but well, i kinda-sorta rem what he looks like. so i was like grinning in amusement--i mean, he had such an enjoyable time last night that he HAD to come back the next day? coolness.
2. the sad realisation that i mean less than nothing to bun. it's really. REALLY sad to watch him checking out some sweet-looking, fair-skinned, petite girl, or that butt-cleavage swank salesgirl, or basically, girls who'll never be classified under the same heading as me. i was thinking the other night, jealousy must be the most painful emotion. oh this is so annoying, and people keep insisting on suaning me about him, with him within earshot!!! fucking embarrassing. it was about the same with ex-con, actually, but AT LEAST ex-con didn't feel the need to avoid me like the fucking plague. like just now, bun was like, "ma'am, saya balik dulu eh.. bapak saya nak ambik ah.." rafidah asked him, "betul bapak kau amik?" and he laughed. whatever. takyah bohong ah. tak suka means tak suka, and i got it, man. and THEN, filza came by, so i went off early with her, and where was bun, who'd wanted to "balik dulu"? still sitting there, waiting for the rest. HOW is this fair, how?
oh one more thing. 5 july 2005, 0150hrs, SotB. just so i don't forget what all this shit has driven me to do.

oh forgot to mention. i dropped by hmv and got one of the things on my July budget: the PLP CD. i loved Blow so much, i just had to get it. [plus it's undownloadable, so i didn't really have a choice. haha.]
and i calculated my budget for this month, it's less than 400 bucks! so i can prolly have that shopping spree after all! yay.

the past 24 hours were so great for me, that i don't know how to fully express my gratitude to God and the cogs of fate.
firstly, after work yest we [wan ing, crystal, rafidah, diana, eric, nores and I!] arranged to go off for supper at the 24hrs coffeeshop/foodcourt/whatever-you-call-them-these-days. it was so cool. we closed in record time, and tapaued the ice-cream we made diana scoop for us. and ate it, while running, on the way to the int. and it was just so cool, we sat there, talking and laughing and exchanging accounts of our work-related nightmares, family issues and shit. and on the side, i opened my eyes to a phenomenon-of-sorts, which i've been pretty much blind to for the past 18 years. i know so-called muslims drink and all, but i never realised that they do it in bright lighting as well. there were tables and tables of all these malay guys with bloodshot eyes, with mugs and buckets of ice and bottles of tiger beer, carlsberg, or stout or whatever shit it is that they drink. and the saddest part? some of them are cute!!!!!!! -wails- haha. that's just like me, right? to wail about cute drinking guys.
so today was my off day, and i got to go out! yay! haha. went out with amir, we watched In My Father's Den, which is an unassuming movie, but very disturbing and great storyline which did NOT lose my attention for a second, not like those artsy movies they like to make these days. but banyak partial nudity sial. was it M18? i didn't really know. haha. and we watched it in the cool preview theatre at cine. nice.
anyway that was not the greatest part. the great part was.. okay i'll start from the beginning. i met amir at the top floor of the heeren, and we made our way down, level by level. and at the second floor, we were about to turun, when i saw this familiar figure who'd just reached the second floor from the opp escalator. and i was like, hey it's azhar. so i wanted to say hi ah. i thought he was alone at first, then i saw that there was another guy with him, so i gave the other guy another glance and yes, it WAS bun. haha. they didn't see me at first, just continued walking into Flash 'N' Splash, so i said, "yo!" and azhar turned and he was all shocked and said, "kau tak kerje?" it took a few more seconds before bun turned around and realised i was there. sigh. we didn't talk much, but.. it was nice seeing him, after a week, when i least expected to.
i met fana too, at far east. that was nice. i hadn't seen her since months ago, when we met for lunch at pizza hut, kamie's ex-workplace. haha. oh amir and i had lunch at jason's, and the guy [not jason] recognised me, and as i opened my mouth to order, he interjected, "nasi goreng kampung, tanak sayur?" isn't that cool? i'm an official regular now!!!
and when i finally reached pasir ris, i dropped by work, just to see bun again. i was talking to diana cos she was cashier. and azhar was doing fountain, and i THINK he gestured to bun to come to the fountain area, cos his face appeared and when he saw me, he was like, "alah kau lagi.." and i SWEAR he knows, cos azhar said something cryptic about seeing me again, and shouldn't bun do something about it? and if he didn't know, NOW he does, cos next, rafidah came in and said loudly, "kau datang carik [bun] eh?" and azhar was still standing there, plain as day. oh the range of colours my face flashed, it was better than a diorama any day. and THEN, to complicate matters further, fadhila turned up. [all the guys like her.] i would have laughed hysterically if i'd had the energy to. instead i rounded off the day by eating our takeaway ice-cream while walking home with her.

i had a pretty restful off day tadie. in fact, i haven't had a restful off day in a long time. haha. but actually, i'd rather go out. home is so boring that i have nothing else to do but sleep, and there's a limit to how much sleeping you can do in 24 hours, which explains why i drifted awake round bout 1115 just now. and i can't muster enough energy to start playing the urbz again.
i was so scared abt the stupid checkup, which was this morning. and i almost got off at the wrong stop. but i had the common sense to verify with the driver, so thank God for that. and i spent the entire checkup with this girl i met in the bus, so it wasn't that bad at all. and when i got home, more sleeping for me. haha.

i got in to work today at 1150, or thereabouts, and took my time getting ready in the storeroom. then Jessica popped in and said, "eh, you see who's here already!" for some mad reason i thought it was the new sup, and, out of curiosity, i just went out to take a peek. and at the same moment, the dashing man at table 31 looked up. guess who?!?!?! MDM! i wanted to faint. but instead, i just gasped and escaped back to the storeroom. haha. he stayed for around 15 minutes or so, doing the paperwork. it was SO great. he is SO great. sigh. and i was doing cashier, so while i was counting the money he was leaving, and he actually said bye! like, really cheerily! ah he's just amazing.
and now i'm poring over this teeny map of my soon-to-be school, trying to figure out how to get to the UHWC tomorrow.
i have THREE 12-11s this week. tadi, lusa and sunday. but it's all good, cos Bun's 12-11 on sunday too. yay.

well. i got my cert and my yearbook and some CD, at the price of 2 blisters, approximately 5ml of perspiration, a parched throat, 4 missed calls and $1.26 on my EZLink card. it's not like i look so great in the yearbook anyway. well. it's been done. one less thing to worry about.
the next thing to worry about will be the medical checkup this thursday. i'm gonna drink like, gallons of my 50% lemonade before i leave the hse, to ensure that i'll be able to pee. haha. but i mean, seriously. are they afraid we have diabetes, or that we take drugs or smthg?!?!
i was cashier today, it was so slack. i love being cashier. it's my favourite job, really, and i'm getting better at it. okay, fine, it was a slow day too. but it's still fun when it's busy. it's LESS fun, but STILL fun. anyway today during slack periods, i just stood there folding the latest fun sheets and doing origami with Azhar. haha.

so Baba and i had our last go at the unlimited scoops promo at MSQ. and the best part was my dark predictions that HE wouldn't be around didn't come true!!! ahh he's just so amazing. like, the dream man. my dream man. MDM. like, he smiles 80% of the time, and he's always so friendly and cheerful, it's very welcoming! sighhh.. why can't he be my RM? i'd request to work 12-11, 7 days a week man!
work wasn't too bad, despite the fact that i was about 10 minutes late. i was doing alfresco, and things were especially slow, since school started again today and all. so i had an easy time of it. oh and speaking of school, i have to trudge all the way down to bishan tmr afternoon to get my stupid cert. cheapos. why can't they just mail it?

hey.
i just want to stop at that, but fine, i'll go on. haha.
i watched Batman Begins the other night, it was great. but Christian Bale is kind of a now-he's-cute-now-he's-not guy. so that was pissing me off a little. but it's really eye-opening, cos i mean, the origins of Batman are not as widely known as, say, Superman's or Spider-Man's or even the PPGs. and.. now that i think about it, Batman has a special meaning for me cos it was Allif's alternate identity in primary school. haha. PLUS i have a huge crush on his [Batman's] successor, otherwise known as Batman of the Future.
and yest i hit the beach with Sya. it was great and all, with GGMs scattered here and there, but the presence of 3 yapping, UNLEASHED dogs really put a dampener on things. espesh when one of them bounded yappingly onto the mat, not 5 inches away from me. i screamed and banged into the pillar of the hut. in an alternate universe, i'd have kicked it to the next beach. but. reality bites. haha.
today was my long-awaited shift with Bun. but you know what? it wasn't all that great. for starters, when he arrived, he completely ignored me and settled himself at the next table, even though the other seat at my table was unoccupied. then he went in to punch his card, and when he came out, he resumed his antisocial seat. in fact, we didn't talk to each other for the first half-hour of work. isn't that sad? sigh. apaperlah. what's not meant to be, just WON'T happen no matter how hard you wish it to. and so another week will pass till this happens again.

hm. work. was. tiring. i was really very grumpy during closing. but it all worked out. and tmr's my off day, yay! ...but it's so packed with things to do that i don't think it'll serve the actual purpose of an off day. i mean, the next day i'm right back at work. but BUN will be working, yay! and i think i'll drop by work tmr and just have a look at him. haha. excuse my kegilaan, but i haven't seen him for a full week!
penat sey. i shd really be sleeping now.
and i don't WANT to go to uni. i'm really comfortable with my work-6-days-a-week, bum-at-the-beach-once-a-week life. can i just do this forever?

so. the CCD was this malay guy in a big white shirt and wearing a helmet. at first he wasn't even a C(ustomer), he was just C(ute). he dashed past the storefront and up the escalator (in the helmet), and even then i could tell he was cute, so i pointed him out to ShaSha. and then, 5 minutes later, he walks in! [by this time he's taken off the helmet, and is now carrying it.] so ShaSha calls out, "AIN!" and i dash to the cake area to help him select a cake. shortly after, a girl walks in and joins him, but don't worry people, it's his sister. he said so. anyway the [blackforest] cake was for his mom's 54th birthday. i should know, i packed it with tender loving care. Mr. Rahim offered to write "Selamat Harijadi Mak" on a white chocolate slab, but they were in a hurry. anyway. he's cute! -dies-
Filza dropped by with her mother and sister(s?), but other than that, it was an uneventful day.
ohyeah, and this afternoon i was almost "late" for work cos i was sorting through school stuff. or ex-school stuff, anyway. i can safely say tt some of the stuff was at least half a decade old! haha. i.e., sec one. and there was all kinds of junk: PBL shits, this old Kukup newsletter, hidden-away photographs and letters, and posters and page-cutouts of people like Prince William, Hayden Christensen and--get this--Scott Moffat! haha. anyway it all brought back memories, and i can't believe i almost let them all get thrown out. of course, i'm not saying there wasn't any stupid stuff that i'd rather curse into oblivion, but most of it was sweet old memories. DUSTY, sweet old memories. like my RGS planner which has since disintegrated into a cracked, crumbly mess of "leather". anyway i'm still not through with it all, so i guess i'll have to get back to it later this week. good luck to me.

ooh yest one of the cute regulars, a talldarkhandsome serani guy, came by. he's just so amazingly and undeniably handsome! and it turns out the bespectacled guy he always comes with is his colleague, not his brother, and the little girl is the daughter of the colleague. they're really close, TDH and the little girl. how cool yeah? okay, she's not that little, she's around 11-13, i suppose. haha.
it's a full moon tonight. very nice, but kinda blurry. i wonder why some calendars mark down full and new moons. i mean, who really wants to take note, right? [besides me, anyway.]
it was quite an easy day today, actually. Mr. Rahim was morning MOD, so it was all quite slack, and me, ShaSha and Liyana hung out in the fountain area stealing food. wahahaha. and i did night cashier with the AM cash, and everything tallied and stuff, it was great. haha. and the auntie saved me some rice and curry without me even asking. basically, everything went really well for me. and tomorrow i'm working at night, which means i can wake up late again! only 2 days till my off day. [and next week is another hell of a week, with two 12-11s, and only one day with Bun. again.]
oh. yes. i was just hit by a silly, yet logical "why-not?" thought last night: why can't cherry stems be edible? then i wouldn't have to pick them up off tables, or sweep them off floors. well. just a thought.

my legs are crying now. it was another shitty 12-11. but hey, at least i didn't have to do closing inside, which i'm eternally thankful for. and ALSO, i didn't have to do night cashier, cos the micros system decided to conk out at around, oh i dunno, 10pm?!?! so when i left at around 1130, poor Rafidah was still there trying to do closing.
of all nights for the computer to crash, it had to be the night where new girl was doing closing, alone. but at least it was a monday. and we had to make everyone pay in cash, leceh giler sial. one of my alfresco customers had to go withdraw cash and everything, i felt really bad and stupid.
it's only been 2 days without Bun around and already i feel something missing. but at least when he's not around, i don't get suaned. THAT's something.
Wenxing is leaving us this thurs to become the head chef at tampines. sedih sey. he's so nice, and he's so cute and funny, why can't he stay and the other chef go? sigh.

firstly, my mom's back!!! i'm SO happy. i was at the gate just now, thinking, only 2 more days till she comes back... and i opened the door and she was just sitting there. yay. no more mi mangkuk for me! or hangus garlic bread.
so. all the clothes that i kirimed my sister to buy are here. i have 2 new skirts, a brown corduroy one and this shitty khaki one which apparently cost $2. but don't tell my mom i think it's shitty. haha. okay, to me, long=shitty, and knee-length-and-below=long, so. yeah. and i have a dusty pink hoodie, a matching dusty pink tshirt, plus 2 new boxers. one is this cute red M&Ms one. loves it!
i'm more tired than usual, cos i did the 12-11 today, with more coming up tmr. i did cashier in the afternoon, and there was this beyond-cute guy picking up a cake. i remember seeing him reserve the cake on friday. and there he was, back. sigh. and i even have his telephone number. haha. but don't worry, i won't harass him or anything. it's just for.. memory's sake. haha.
there were so many cute boys today. like that little malay boy at table 1 who turned 7 today. he's all round and fair and chubby, and just very pinchably cute! i wanted to like, steal him and hide him away in the storeroom or smthg.
oh and Andee came by with his entire family! haha. cool.
sigh. i don't like working with the new girl cos she's too slow, and her biological systems do not agree with my nasal passages. also, she's weird and calls everyone "abang" or "kakak", even though she was born in 1986 too. which makes her logically older than me, since not many people my age are born after dec 20. and you know, that means it's "Abang Azhar", and "Abang Farhan", which really makes me squirm. but i think she's starting to see sense, cos just now she was trying to call Hannan and was at a loss for words/names. so. yeah.

i need to sleep. i just KNOW i won't be able to wake up tmr.
i did closing today after prolonged--and failed--negotiations with the other THREE people working inside. and then i started to cry. for no apparent reason. so i concluded, closing and me don't go together. cos the last time i did closing, i literally felt like crying also. merepek.
Fadhila came by to eat again, since this is her last day off before school starts. and i was talking to her at the cashier area before she walked in, then i turned around and saw Bun standing there, staring after her. she sat outside as usual, and i dunno if it was on purpose, but he took her order. then he asked me, "dier kerja mana ah? --asal biler aku gi dier takde? --nama dier ape ah? dier tinggal maner? --dier single tak?..aku dah lama single ah.." i swear, i wanted to cry. and i tried to be all casual and candid about it, but i have no idea if he could tell i was just burning inside. i mean, don't get me wrong, i loved having her there, and i went out a couple of times to chat to them [nasib baik tak kene marah for skiving]. but like i sadly told Diana later, "aku dier tak suka, kawan aku dier suka.." and she replied sagely, "tulah, like i said before, yang dekat dier tak nak, nak yang jauh.." well. apaperlah. Liyana asked, "so do you like him?" and i said, "can we just pretend i don't? it's easier that way." anyway today was the last day i get to work with him, he's off tmr, and he starts school this monday so basically, i won't see him till next sunday. let's see how i get through the week without him. maybe it'll help things in the long run. like, absence makes the heart grow cold.
the chinese pizza guy was working all day today. his name is.. well let's just say that it makes me want to change my name to Barbie. hahahaha.

i just kinda shopped till i dropped. and i broke rule #4 in my budget page: no unplanned spending. this is horrible. i mean, okay, i got my freshbox t-shirt [planned spending], and Hannan's birthday present, and that was all just fine and dandy, but then i went and got a The Nightmare Before Christmas bag, and a fake butterfly tattoo [i aspire to be the "butterfly tattoo right above your navel/belly button's pierced too" girl in Slow Down], AND a free-sample-not-for-sale vial of some Escada perfume. i almost got Britney's Curious too. [it smells pear-ish, fyi.] sheesh. and then i almost bought a dangly navel stud for $25. but thankfully, almost doesn't count.
anyway we essentially walked all the way from bugis to OG and back. in my flat white sandals. so i'm really tired now. oh and i encountered a blast from the past, in the form of good ol' Madaminah. hahahaha.
i worked 12-5 today, and the CCD was this tall guy with dark hair and rosy skin, prolly anglo-chinese. he's also aussie, i think. he had fish and chips [which i happened to have after work, haha], and played with his sister's baby. oh he's so amazingly handsome, i really hope he comes back! and he also settled the bill with his card, so i managed to find out his name. heh. let's just say that his initials are JLT. haha.

i hate it when plans are cancelled on me. and i hate that every freaking time i look forward to something, it ends up cancelling out on me.
anyway. work was okay. we finished quite early, it was great. i love finishing early. oh and i got new hazel-coloured contacts at WS before work tadie.
argh i'm sorry but the new girl is really annoying me!

i had quite a good day at work. i prefer it when Bun doesn't have Azhar around. he's much nicer then. haha. hm and i got to eat actual chicken baked rice today, cos it was a wrong order. loves it! well. apaperlah. that's all the news for today.
oohyah i watched the last bit of When Harry Met Sally, for the hundredth time, and i actually cried at the new year's party scene. unlike Ili, i adore Meg Ryan movies.

Harry Burns: I've been doing a lot of thinking, and the thing is, I love you.
Sally Albright: What?
Harry Burns: I love you.
Sally Albright: How do you expect me to respond to this?
Harry Burns: How about, you love me too.
Sally Albright: How about, I'm leaving.
Harry Burns: I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Sally Albright: You see? That is just like you, Harry. You say things like that, and you make it impossible for me to hate you.

sigh.

i forgot to add yest that sunday's CCD was this cute malay guy, with dyed light brown hair, and big eyes, and dark brows. he's apparently around the same age as me, and my favourite part was when he came in pushing his 2-year-old sister in her stroller. [my second favourite part was when he settled the $97++ bill personally, using his NETS.] he had sirloin steak AND rodeo wings AND a sarsaparilla. oh he's so incredibly cute, the tommy kind of cute, and that kind of cute is--well--timeless. haha. well anyway i shirked my cashier duties to serve Mr. Timelessly Cute, whose name, btw, is Din. haha. cos his dad went, "nak apa, Din?" and turned to him. aaaaahh.

so today was Hana's beach party. sorry to sound less than thrilled, but i'm just very VERY tired. my eyes are lelaping of their own accord, and i'm almost powerless to stop it. so i'll try to make this fast, then maybe i can catch the 2 a.m. Friends. haha.
omigawd i'm just really malas to type! okay, we tanned, i slept in the shade to Milah's cool CDs [all R&B, rap, hip-hop.. loves it!], and we rendam2ed in the disgusting water. i sat at the water's edge watching Hana, Milah and Sya swim over to this teeny isle/island/block of sand with accompanying trees, and was invited by the malay guys a couple of metres away to join in their water games. haha. they were part of a motley crew of chinese people ranging from the ages of 19-44, so we were trying REALLY hard to figure out how they were all connected. and we finally came to the satisfying [and accurate!] conclusion that they were McDonald's crew. haha. mystery solved!
hm what else did we do? yes Sya and i walked to New Zealand Natural, where i finally got to see the skimming mats in action, after like, 4 years. and where there was a cute malay guy at the next table. smoking. [but of course.] haha. anyway, let's just say i've found my spot. so, can't wait for the saturday after next.
urgh. and we passed by one of those seaside pubs, where this group of 34-year-olds quipped, "thirsty?!?!" please. if you're 34, do NOT try to talk to girls not even of modern marriageable age.
after that we had dinner at someplace in boat quay. i won't elaborate, cos it was just such a painful experience for us all. haha. then we hung out at the esplanade [the sort of mini-amphi where they have public gigs], then we finally made our painful way home.
i was talking rather loudly to Filza on the train home, about uni stuff, work stuff, miscellaneous stuff ah. then as we were reaching pasir ris, the malay guy next to me turned to us and said, "excuse me, i couldn't help but eavesdrop on your conversation.." and i SWEAR, my blood froze in my veins just about then, cos i thought he wanted to scold me for talking too loudly. [while Filza thought he was gonna scold us for laughing at his fat friend who'd been sitting opposite us a few stops ago.] anyway, he proceeded to explain that he'd just graduated from NUS, ..., and basically he just wanted to encourage us to attend the FOC. haha. well, i was just still in shock, so all i can say is, i'm just glad he didn't scold us. he was a big guy, and all, so it was very scary when he said his opening words.
anyway. i'm finally home after the long day, so nite.

i just watched Saturday Night Live for the first time, and it's SO cool! no one told me how great it is! so i'm gonna watch it every week from now. yay. another form of Saturday night entertainment for me.
so my mom left for perth this morning. and i'm gonna be surviving on takeout for the next ten days. haha. i brought up a few topics with her just now. ALL of which she gave resounding "no"s to. i want to take a motorcycle license. NO, it's dangerous. i want to go to London. NO, it's expensive. i want to get a hostel room. NO, it's expensive AND potentially dangerous, and my sister didn't get one till her last semester. sheesh.
there's a cute new pizza guy. yes i know i say that like, every month or something. but this one's different. he's chinese, for one. i never thought i'd ever see a chinese pizza delivery guy. and he's just cute ah, with a friendly face, and cool too. not like some of the toot ones, with their shirts tucked in and everything. tak main sey. haha.
well. 12-11 tmr. but other than that, this coming week is really one to look forward to. yay.

CCDs today were a couple of cute CD guys. in case anyone doesn't know by now, i. LURVE. budak CD. i dunno, they just look really good in uniform, and especially in the red rhino or whatever that vehicle is called. loves it! haha. so anyway. yes. two malay CD guys. one was wearing full uniform, i was totally melting as i took their order. and the other was wearing half-uni, and TOTALLY reminded me of righthandside. they ordered a combo each, and changed the ice-cream flavour to SCC. haha. i was like, "Kak, budak CD tu cute sey.." and she was like, "sorry sikit eh, they're mine!" and i replied, "come on lah, ader duer pe! you take one, i take one!" haha. i "took" the one in full uniform, and she took the righthandside one. i thought they were gonna stay a while, but i think they got a msg to get back to the fire post or smthg, cos they started wolfing down their food and asked for the ice-cream to be packed. while Kak Nores, Diana and i scrambled to settle their bill and get their ice-cream. haha. funn-ay. i even used my bare hands to scoop up the dry ice. and i only do that for the most important people. haha. cute ah. Kak Nores was like, "damn i should have asked for his number!" haha. let's hope they come back.
Bun was working, which i'm beginning to treasure more and more everyday cos he starts school on the 20th. [God i just realised that's the same as Ex-Con going back into the service! the cruel irony.] anyway, after work he mentioned that he doesn't have a girlfriend, and Diana sed, "tulah, kau ngan Azhar same aje--yang dekat tak nak, nak carik yang jauh2.." and Mortified Me started walking like a kilometre ahead. and Bun replied, "aper? dekat? siape yg dekat?" oh God. nampak sah eksyen bodoh sey. and both Kak Nores and Diana hinted even MORE heavily, it was just buat malu siak. well. he has one day to forget about it. [he's off tmr.] so let's hope he does. haha.
my mom's leaving for Perth tmr, and i have NO idea how i'm gonna deal with it for the next 10 days. any moms-for-hire available? willing to pay, ermm, 50 bucks flat fee. haha.

when i got to work [early] today, Kak Nores stared at me, and after a few minutes, remarked that i looked pretty. i received the compliment with little enthusiasm. i mean, it wasn't as if anyone was around [besides Azhar, he SO does not count!] to appreciate how i looked right? cos Bun was supposed to be working, but he was on MC. sedih siak.
CCD was this guy at table 41 with his guy friends/colleagues/fellow NSmen [?]. we all thought he was manjen, skali he started talking on the phone in malay, and Kak Nores and i stared at each other in shock. haha.
i hate that i don't want to ever leave the house anymore. and i hate that i dread coming home too. and i hate that my eyes dart nervously left and right, and that i now view motorcylists with apprehension.

i just had THE most harrowing experience. so i'd just like to thank Shafa and my parents for being so accomodating.
and totally unconnected to abovementioned experience was this nightmare i just had last night. i was doing opening [at work], and i was setting up the tables in the alfresco area, testing them carefully to make sure they were stable. while doing this, i noticed that Azhar and Bun were standing there, making fun of me. Azhar was making some wisecrack about what i was doing, and Bun was laughing in response. and naturally, i was hurt. but i pretended to be all light and breezy about it. then we had briefing at table 44, and somehow my mom was there. after the briefing, i broke down and told my mom what happened with Azhar and Bun. and she got really angry and told me, right off, to quit my job. and i was begging her not to make me do that, like, "i don't WANT to quit! don't make me quit!" and crying and crying. i was crying so hard, and so passionately, that i woke up to find that i was actually crying. oh God. how. horrible.
went for lunch at T2 with Baba. i ate SO much. i had the crayfish pasta with spicy oriental sauce, shared a fries, the EL dessert, and half a coit tower. giler eh? but Fadhila was working, so i got my 10% discount, cos she told her AM i'm from WS. cool. and what was cooler, was that they didn't charge us for the fries. i'm not sure why. and Fadh doesn't know either. ohwell. takper. they were over-fried anyway.
CCD was.. haha, let's just say he's too old and too happily married for me. but he has SUCH a great smile, and he's just so incredibly handsome! when i saw him, i gasped and went right to the cashier counter for a better look. he bought sea soup again. and he'd just finished work, judging by his crisp white shirt. AND he remembers me! haha. he smiled right at me and said something or other about buying takeaway.
Ex-Con is back on mainland, at least until the 20th. he gets his posting on the 17th. wow i still miss him, can you believe it? sometimes i look at the fountain and i can still see him standing there with the mask under his chin. and i still remember what he used to smell like, and when some tak-guna customer wearing his perfume walks in, i feel like kicking him out. how long has it been? belum dua bulan eh. but it feels like so much longer. maybe cause a lot has happened since, yet i still haven't forgotten him.

[luper nak ckp, yest Baba's ex came with what looked like his entire family. haha. i love the fact that they're not the tudunged family all my other friends seem to have. makes my family seem more normal, blonde hair, short skirts and all.]
anyway. i was in the train home just now, falling asleep. and when i sadar-ed, i noticed this SAS boy standing infront of me. he was tall, wearing glasses, and looked vaguely familiar. i would have left it at that, but he kept staring and STARING at me, in an almost angry way. then. realisation hit. he's one of my train buddies from last year. of course, by "train buddies", i mean the people i used to see in the morning, when i took the train to Buona Vista. not that i said hi to them, or smiled at them, or anything. well anyway, i'm glad he remembers me and all, but is it necessary to stare in such a hostile manner? i wanted to smile at him, but well, i was scared he would bite so i just stared stonily back. haha. he grew so much taller in less than a year, and he's even grown into his angular looks! haha. maybe i'll bump into him again. and maybe this time i'll just smile. i have at least 2 more years of chances [he's in sec 2 this year]..
went to Sentosa with Sya and Shafa just now, just to tan and bum around. i wasn't having too great a time of it, due to circumstances beyond my control, but it was okay. and there were NO cute guys! and they were all manjens, not a single lumpur in sight! i even walked up and down the beach, alone, to look for them, but they were just nowhere to be found. i was REALLY disappointed. well. maybe it'll be better next time.

okay i had a REALLY bad day overall. i swear. so i'll just try to forget that instead of writing about it.
CCDs today ROCKED! haha. there were 5 malay guys who came in and had ice-cream. and by a stroke of luck, i happened to be doing hosting at that exact moment, so i gave them menus and all that, and i did everything else, like serving their ice-cream, and getting the bill. and they were in a silly mood [or maybe they're always silly], like when Crystal said, "welcome to Swensen's!" one of them replied, "welcome.." haha. cute. and then when one of them ordered a topless 5, he said, "topless 5.." and mimed taking off his shirt. and "sticky chewy chocolate--but not too sticky.." i was trying SO hard to supress my laughter. and practically all of them were cute! the cutest was wearing blue, and he had straight, gelled hair, and cool pierced ear(s) with earrings on. but he had to leave early, unfortunately. and the second cutest was fair and big-eyed, and with a cool goatee. [he was the one who had the topless 5.] ah cute sey, they totally brightened up my otherwise-horrible day.. haha.

the day started out so horribly, i was prepared for a huge malapetaka at work. thankfully, none hit. haha.
lotsa CCDs, all at table 7. there were these 2 cute little boys. i think they're malay, but very exotic-looking. ranging from 2-4 years of age. the younger one is SO cute, he's like a mini rugger, and if his parents had left him alone for one second, i'd have stolen him and brought him home with me. SO cute. and he kept putting on this Hi-5 cap that was too big for him. aaah cutenyer! the other CCD was this indonesian guy, i think, with his girlfriend and another couple. he's short, but seriously handsome. haha. as Diana said, "takleh angkz!" haha.
Fadilah came to eat with her friend, so i had fun talking to them. and i think i'm gonna return the favour and eat at T2 next week. i'll try the claypot specials this time! yay.
i dunno why they keep teasing me about Hannan. it's SO annoying. just cos we like to talk to each other, and we always eat together [cos we're the only ones who eat leftovers, haha], and he helps me light the tealights when i'm doing alfresco. bodoh siak. i firmly believe, now, that i DO have a "suan-me-please!" face.

hm. i watched Dwidarma at RJ today. it was really good, i thought. i really liked the second one, it was SO funny. Shamiah makes such a great bimbo! haha. oh they were all funny and it was all good..
and i received comments about my hair. Hafiz claimed it looks like Matin's unruly brown-blonde wig. but Nadia and Yus love it. so. haha i dunno. actually i'm beginning to like it alot myself. it's different [from my old hair], that's for sure. and at least i don't look like i have tiger stripes on my head anymore. haha. but it's so sad, my hair's all dry now, when it used to be lushly un-dry underneath my fingers. i really hope it recovers soon. yuck it feels like straw now, instead of hair. man i really didn't mean to do this to it.
well. it's back to work tmr. hope Bun's working.

ah. kenyang. my resolve to start dieting has, well, dissolved after seeing all the cool new promo items they have. giler bodoh. tonight i had the spicy chunks of boneless chicken, raisin rice, chilli fries, 2 scoops of raspberry crumble ice-cream, and a coupla prawn dippers.
speaking of which, my new favourite ice-cream flavour is Raspberry Crumble! it also happens to be the Flavour-of-the-Month. it's vanilla, i think, with a hint of raspberry, and there are generous bits of actual crumble [you know, the yummy breadcrumbs in like, apple crumble] inside. it's crazy delicious [and prolly twice as fattening as any other ice-cream flavour]! but really! gotta have it man!
CCD was this man who bought takeaway. i swear, he's like the handsomest guy in the world. he's tall, and not-too-skinny, not-too-broad, and just very good-looking with relatively big eyes, and a great nose and a just a hint of a tan. unfortunately, he's also married. haha. but wow. a cute chinese guy. how often do you get those?
i had quite a horrible 24 hours before i started work today. [long story. but suffice to say that i've learnt my lesson, and i am SO not ever gonna mess with the chemical makeup of my hair again. i am also never gonna visit any salon/stylist other than Peter at Storm Hair.] so i wasn't in the best of moods. dahlah tu, i was virtually the only malay, and they kept talking in mandarin and other dialects. how. annoying.
it's my off day tmr. was planning to spend the earlier part of it bumming around at home, but i received a much better offer from Shafa, so i think i might just take her up on it.

heyhey. i worked the incredibly inhuman 12-11 shift today. but Rafidah had it worse--she worked 9-11 out of pity for me. anyway. it was SO tiring, cos both lunch and dinner were busy. usually lunch is pretty slow. but nooooooo. it was crazy, and by 730 i was taking 2-second squatting breaks in shadowy corners.
but it wasn't ALL bad. we had the briefing for the june-july promo, complete with all 7 dishes. and after that we got to eat said dishes. so aku aper lagie, berhari rayelah. plus it was my break right after that, so i carried out everything that they couldn't finish, and devoured it all. okay, no not really. Umar and the latest addition [yet another Farhan], ate quite alot too. haha. i dunno if it's just me, but the new Farhan is kinda cute too. but 17, unfortunately. anyway he seems quite nice, although yet another smoker, and he also eats like a trash compactor. and we have a new girl, who's starting full-time this weekend.
and in the evening there were 3 CD guys who walked past, so i was like pointing them out excitedly to Shasha, and they saw, and apparently one of them waved. haha. buat malu je. but whatever. like i'm ever gonna see them again. ooh and there was a cute talldarkhandsome policeman who walked past with 3 other colleagues. ah, guys in uniform.
oh ugh, hate to end this off on a shitty note, but we have an official Swensen's CD to be played, and it has a pretty good mix of recent hits and dulu-dulu stuff, but that's not the point. the point is that they have a Swensen's jingle [not unlike the Mac's one], which they managed to selit after every few songs. how. totally. mortifying.

Ladies and gentlemen, come on, come on, come on
Ladies and gentlemen
Mariah, Mariah
Ladies and gentlemen

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You�re not mine, got a secret love, baby

It was a summer�s day
You went walking by
She didn�t notice as you turned
And you discreetly winked your eye
And I remembered you
From back in the day
You were the boy I couldn�t breathe without
The one that got away

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You�re not mine, got a secret love, baby

Now that I found you
How can I let you go
You know I got my man at home
But baby, I still need ya so
And I know you ain�t
Never leaving that girl
But everytime you touch me, baby
It feels so incredible

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You�re not mine, got a secret love, baby

Secret lovers

You and me, you and me, you and me, baby

Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it between us
You and me got a secret love, baby
Oh baby, oh baby
Come give it to me now, baby
But keep it on the hush
You�re not mine, got a secret love, baby

Oh baby, oh baby� --Mariah Carey

i went to the Blush! sale at TM with Shafa just now. bes giler bodoh! haha. even though it's incredibly small, therefore the range is limited. but everything was 18 bucks, so i had fun buying 3 pieces.
i have realised that i have absolutely no chance, not even a smidgen with Bun, so i'm just gonna like him quietly, if he doesn't mind. but even THAT is proving to be hard. like just now, he liked some girl at table 22, and he was discussing her with Stella as we cleared table 7. then i snapped at them, to pass me the remaining cups on the table. and Stella asked me, "why, you jealous ah?" and Bun added, "yah, you jealous ah?" and i just had nothing to say, so i was like, "kepala hotak korang ah!" and cepat2 belah. then she keeps asking me if Bun is my boyfriend, and asking him if i'm his girlfriend. how incredibly annoying. what is WRONG with her? things got to a head when Ah-Boy asked me, "you like [insert Bun's name here] ah?" depan khalayak ramai! i wanted to kill myself. and strangle Stella, at the same time, for perpetuating dark and ugly rumours which are just gonna screw up my work life.
so, other than that, the past few days have been great. i went to the new Marina Square outlet with Baba on opening day, and it was so cool. i really like it cos it's very open and everything, sort of like the T2 outlet. and the former Funan ITM RM is now the MSQ RM, Kak Nores told me, so he was just there, smiling at everyone, and generally looking like the perfect guy. haha. even Baba likes him, and that's saying something, cos he's old, even by my standards. haha. Baba was like, "everytime i look at him, i have to remind myself that he's old.." and i told her, "kalau aku, everytime i look at him, i have to remind myself that he's happily married with kids.." haha. anyway a whole host of other RMs and AMs were there, so the service was excellent, of course. and there was this CSR with big eyes and cool baggy jeans, whose name i was trying to read but never quite caught. Baba and i had our favourites, sea and fish pas respectively [and 5 and 6 scoops of ice-cream respectively]. haha. sedap bodoh. but i was dying of pee-ness. yup, i had a great time, only problem was getting there. it's extremely inaccessible if you've never been to the revamped Marina Square before. but other than that--great!

i was quite surprised that they put me as cashier today. i mean, it's friday night and all, and i don't really have that much experience. but it was all good. besides me dying of kepenatan at different points of the night.
ooh and after work we got to eat the cookies and cream ice-cream cake. i was in heaven. it's just amazingly nice. duh. i had *ahem* 2 slices. which means my noble vow not to eat anything tonight has just already been broken into teeny tiny pieces. haha.
ooh and bun was unexpectedly working today, cos shasha was sick [or so i surmised], so he did OT till 11. ah, the power of fate.

it's 26 may. which means that it's the birthday of [possibly] the first cute guy i've ever liked. haha. i still remember when yasmin asked him his birthday, in the hall. haha. okay whatever. just reminiscing.
CCD today was this mixed-looking vik at table 8, with his girlfriend. he's all tall and fair, with that classic vik nose and big eyes and dark wavy hair. and he's all cool, too, he practically looks like a vik version of the hugo boss soul guy--all long-sleeved black shirt with sleeves rolled up, pale blue jeans and shades hung on the neck of his shirt, that practically match MY topshop shades! ah very cool. and he was quite friendly too. actually they both were. he had curry rice, ILT and an ice-cream blended. great taste, i say. haha. and i was just standing there, looking at them, when he got up, opened the door of the storeroom, and stepped in. i was really shocked. but too tired to react.
after work i actually bummed around till 8, and then i walked home. i tried to walk as slowly as possibly, but at traffic lights there IS an unwritten minimum speed. haha. but it was quite fun, actually. there was a stretch of pavement lined by mango trees, and there were 2 mangoes on the ground [one slightly crushed]. and it got me thinking, what would happen if a mango happened to drop right on my head? anyway i concluded that i'd prolly faint right away, being as lembek as i am. less that 5 seconds later, i heard a loud PLOP sound, and when i turned around, i saw a third mango on the ground. barely inches away from me. oh the irony. i am SO glad it didn't fall on my head.

i was feeling depressed this afternoon, so i went for some retail therapy [a bottle of wella colour cream developer AND a new tube of lipgloss]. i am seriously overbudget now. this is crazy. it DID make me feel a little better, though. and at least i didn't get 2 new tubes of lipgloss. AND i have to give myself credit for not even stepping into forever 21, even though it was temptingly uncrowded and all. after retail therapy was bus therapy. that was good too. i love it when the bus goes on the ECP, it's such a great view. it reminds me of when my sister [and kumara] used to send me home from skl.
thought i'd be late for work, turns out i was like, the earliest to arrive. again. haha.
there was a pair of service auditors who spent like, hours there. one male, one female. the guy is actually quite cute, and he speaks with an accent i can't place. he's chinese, i think. yes. very cute. like budak2ishly cute.
bun was working, yay, but nothing new about him--he was just effortlessly cute as usual.
rafidah started fountain today, and i told her not to master it too quickly, cos once she's done, *I*'m due to start fountain. can't have that happening now, can we? i mean, i'd prolly cause a fountain jam from 5 all the way till 11. haha.

i got to work like, super early today. i guess i was just so excited at the prospect of working with bun again. haha.
CCD was this tall and fair malay guy with his "mama". argh a mummy's boy! and so cute and cool! seriously, he's really cool--like, skater-ish. i hovered around their table until they got me to take their order. haha.
i have this funny sinking feeling that bun knows i like him too. damn! i didn't want him to know--i mean, i'm obviously not one of those delicately-built John Little girls i'm sure he likes. oh whatever. oh just now he was asking me about the new CD i'd brought in to play, about the song that went "i'll make love to you.." and i was so surprised when he said that he loves the song, and that he's liked it for a long time, and he never managed to find out the artiste. wow. i mean, when he said last night that he likes GC and all that, i was like, "darn we're not music soulmates!" and today, everything changed. okay i know i'm being overdramatic or something, but i ADORE I'll Make Love To You! it's freakin' sweet and romantic, and everything! okay whatever.

Boys are cheats and liars, they're such a big disgrace. They will tell you anything to get to second base... ball, baseball he thinks he's gonna score. If you let him go all the way then you are a whore... ticulturist studies flowers, geologist studies rocks. The only thing a guy wants from you is a place to put his cock... roaches, beetles, butterflies and bugs. Nothing makes him happier than a giant pair of jug... glers and acrobats, a dancing bear named Chuck. All guys really want to do is - forget it, no such luck.--from The Hot Chick. loves it!

yoohoo! haha i worked the 12-11 today, so i'm crazy tired right now.
actually i was working 12-5, but joseph didn't turn up for his 3-11, so wan ing asked me if i could OT till 11. okay, see, i knew that joseph wouldn't turn up, like, weeks in advance. cos he already told me that he wasn't gonna come. it was supposed to be his last day, plus it's his birthday. so. yes. the choice was clear, i suppose. so this morning i was thinking that if he didn't turn up, and if bun was working the 5-11, i'd readily accept any OT offer from them. turns out bun WASN'T scheduled to work, so i "negotiated" with wan ing and decided to work till 9 instead. then at like 5 i found out that bun WAS working after all--he was supposed to replace hannan. so of cos, i was THAT much bouncier after hearing that little nugget of information. haha. then at like around 7-ish, i realised that we'd be quite understaffed for a sunday, if i left at 9. and, feeling sorry for azhar since he'd have to do closing alone [and also looking forward to spending at least 2 more hours with bun], i decided to stay till 11 after all. haha.
some customer left behind one of those imitation livestrong bands, and crystal spotted it, so she gave it to me. haha. and i immediately put it on--i've been wanting one of those, but they're so fad-dy(?) right now that i didn't wanna actually BUY one. anyway then shasha started suaning me infront of bun, about us both wearing the bands or whatever. argh buat malu! but you know, he's just so adorable.
i had alot more to say, but i just realised it's all about bun. so. takpe. haha.

man i am stuffed.
work today was great, by anyone's standards.
it was non-busy, even though it was friday night and all. and since i was doing alfresco, it was even less busy. so yes, an easy night for me. and that's not all. one of my customers left a box of desserts behind. like, it was just sitting there on the chair. and i stood there uncertainly, wondering if she was going to come back. i opened the box and there were 2 slices of thingies. so i was like, okay, and i put it in the cashier area with a sticky saying "table 61 (2 ladies)". but by closing time, she still hadn't returned to claim her stuff, so diana and i split the booty--one slice each. she had the cheesecake, and i ate the other one, which turned out to be a really yummy slice of blackforest cake. the only time i like cherries is when they're in blackforest. so that was great customer(s) #1. great customer(s) #2 was this aimee mother-daughter pair, who ate like $22.40 worth of food. that's all! but the daughter like, waited for me to come back out and personally put 2 bucks in my hand! i was just so overwhelmed by gratitude [i'm about to be broke again]!
yup it was an easy, rewarding night. and of course, bun was working, which made it all the more fun. joseph was just flirting shamelessly with him all night!!! takleh angkat man! oh but bun is so cute, and just now he showed me his phone wallpaper [spiderman], saying, "cantik eh?" haha. cute.
ohyes. Cute Stripes wheeled his bicycle past just now, with his gf. he was wearing his uniform, and this time, his nametag was--wait for it--pinned onto his cap, which he was STILL wearing on his head! which leads me to conclude he's still the same slenger guy not-so-deep down inside. haha. but still cute, of course.

carrie sang this in the latest Idol. i really really love the nangisability of this song! and i even prefer her rendition to the original!
I was alright for a while
I could smile for a while
Then I saw you last night
You held my hand so tight
When you stopped to say hello
You wished me well, you couldn't tell

That I'd been crying over you
Crying over you
Then you said so long
And left me standing all alone
Alone and crying

Crying, crying, crying
It's hard to understand
That the touch of your hand
Can start me crying

I thought that I was over you
But it's true, so true
I love you even more than I did before
But darling what can I do?
No you don't love me and I'll always be

Crying over you
Crying over you
Yes, now you're gone
And from this moment on
I'll be crying, crying, crying, crying,
Crying, crying, over you

so check it out--that's me with aaron aziz. woohoo! haha.
anyway. work has been really boring of late. it could be due to the absence of bun. haha. it could be cause i've been so sleepy all the time, which is in turn because i can't seem to fall asleep at night. and it could be the lack of outstanding CCDs. haha. okay i make it sound like some important academic thingy. but whatever, so cute guys reading this, do swing by whenever.
hm.. kamie, baba and i, along with the current rgs angklung girls, are performing in this concert thingy [romanza, which is, as it sounds, a concert of romantic songs] on 28 may [next sat] at 745pm, rgs hall. it's $7.50, i think, so any takers? just give me a holla. [haha okay everyone hates me now.]

there's this stall at tampines that sells both bikinis and those long-sleeved tops. so i was commenting how weird that was, and baba said, "yeah, it's like selling korma and babi together.." haha.
yest we were at century square, and we walked past these 2 lumpurs. and one of them started singing, "baaaaaju merahhhh.." [i was wearing pink.] and when i managed to compose myself enough to turn around about a minute later, i saw that 2 girls had suddenly appeared and were attaching themselves to each of the lumpurs! so rupernyer they had girlfriends who were barely metres away, all along! and i was telling baba, if i were one of the girlfriends, and i'd witnessed that little karaoke session, i would've gone crazy nuts man! and i'd make him apologise to me like a billion times!
i love the boss soul advertisement. the guy is so incredibly hot--the white shirt, the eyes.. haha and his take-charge-ness just makes him even hotter! loves it!
i just watched the hot chick for like the billionth time and anna faris is SO cute! her eyes are heeeuuuge, and well she just looks so adorable. oh to be adorable and non-ugly.

on the train home yest, this really familiar-and-nerdy-looking guy boarded the homebound [i.e. pasir ris] train from bedok. he was wearing the full BK uniform, including his cap and nametag, which read "Muhai-[something-or-other]". he sat down, one empty seat away from me. and i just couldn't shake off the feeling that i knew him from somewhere. finally we reached home [i.e. pasir ris]. he got up and started walking out. and watching him walk, i realised that he was... [wait for it...] Cute Stripes! i couldn't believe it. but it WAS him! omg how cool! sesiaper, please volunteer to go to bedok BK to look for him whenever.. i mean, he was my customer before, so it's only right that i receive service from him in turn right?
haha aku giler. hey wasn't last night's thunderstorm like, freakily cool? i was trying to sleep [therefore: eyes closed] and still i could see the flashes of lightning. and the low rumbles of thunder.. wow.
i finally watched school of rock tadi, and it, well, rocks. haha. love it! love kevin clark too, of course. and i like all their songs. so cute.
hannan called me at like 9 a.m. tadi. i was like, wth? and trying to reject the call but i ended up answering it, but it was all good in the end cos he was calling to ask me to replace him. and i readily accepted, knowing that bun was supposed to work too. haha. ahhh bun is so adorable, but i already said that right? but today he actually crushed my hopes when he said the girl at table 23 was pretty. and she wasn't even pretty! i swear! i've seen prettier girls, e.g. the cool flight attendant. and he also took off without waiting for me and diana. sigh. but u know, overall, i still had a great time, cos he's so cute and funny and all.

well. work tonight was, for the first time, exactly that! but. bun was working, wasn't he, so it wasn't all bad. in fact, i go so far as to call it great!!!
hm. horrible interview i shall not bother to document here. haha. i have major blisters to show for it, btw. haha. sakit gilerrrr! but i met maly and shaheda, and missed meeting amy who turned out to be a couple of floors up all the while. but anyway, baba came by around noonish, and we had a great time making fun of people on AM, d/ling songs, reading blogs, and eating pre-made waffles with premium swensen's ice-cream. haha. after that we had lunch at magic wok, and then i spent the last of the money i had today at WS. merepek sey. but anyway, baba's visit wasn't a total loss--she finally got to see bun. and she says "yeah he looks baik. gd for u haha." argh he's unbelievably adorable, takleh angkat!
what else. ohyeah there was this 3-member family at table 23. i could have sworn they were chinese, until the son spoke. but i suppose they say the same thing about my dad and my brother, yes? anyway the boy reminded me of righthandside, haha, so it was really great serving him.
CCD was this NS guy, part of a party of 15+++. manjen, but with the most exotic-looking eyes i've ever seen! he also seemed to be the leader of the group, asking for the bill, and using his MC to settle the bill and all.
there was also a certain anfield22 who was being all aloof as usual. whatever lah eh..
omg there was this guy who was the spitting image of john eber [EB05] who walked past! kak nores was swooning, while i was gaping. haha. giler sak.
okay back to bun. thankfully i was doing service today, with him, so it was lotsa fun getting to spend all waking moments at work with him. haha. and we shared all the drinks that joseph made for us. joseph likes me cos i'm nice; and he likes bun cos, well, cos he's gay, of course. there were 2 ice-cream-blendeds, a strawberry milkshake, a vanilla milkshake AND an SFM. bes. [i'm gonna miss joseph when he's gone. and no, not just cos of the free drinks, but just cos he's nice to have a chat with..] sigh and now i have to wait an entire WEEK before i get to work with bun again! this is pure injustice.
there were LOADS of NS guys today, weirdly. as compared to other fridays. and as compared to other fridays, we actually WEREN'T running a full house. i mean, it looked full, cos of that party of 15, but the alfresco area was completely empty. that is, until a party of 8 showed up. oh God. i really love my job! haha.
okay nights. and i just know that ex-con will show up tmr, on my day off. again. well. it's not meant to be, yeah?

hm. it's been kinda long--at least for me--so i don't know where to start.
okay, on tuesday i caught kingdom of heaven with baba, at TM. to be honest, i was falling asleep. haha. not entirely the movie's fault, of course. i was just feeling lethargic that day. actually, this whole WEEK i've been feeling lethargic. it's been really hard to wake up even after 12 hours of sleep. crazy or what? anyway it was actually a great movie, the princess is so exotically pretty! and wow the war violence is seriously violent. haha.
oh for the past two nights, this really pretty lady has been coming for supper with a girl friend. last night was actually the third time i served her. and wow she's so incredibly nice to look at! she's all fair and flawless-complexioned, with perfectly manicured nails, and a cute short bob. i'm thinking she's a flight attendant or something, i mean, you can practically tell from her nails! anyway, she's prolly also malay or smthg, cos she speaks fluent malay to one of her friends. and wow she's just so cute and pretty, i love her so much, and i can't wait for her next visit! haha. i'm going to make her my regular customer! ..assuming she WANTS to be a regular customer, of course.

out of pure, unadulterated boredom, i created this quiz, aptly titled "How bored are you?" so make my day, and take it now!

everyone at work LOVES bun. kak nores wants an older version of him. joseph flirts shamelessly with him, and the rest of us use honeyed tones when we talk to him. i don't know what it is exactly about him. but i know that when he smiles i just smile widely back without thinking; and when he talks, i listen cos it just sounds so nice.. haha. giler. i shall stop now.
i have to say that i had a great day at work today. firstly, it wasn't busy. and secondly, he was working. haha. and i even shirked my cashier duties so that i cld show him how to do alfresco closing. and i got to walk to the int with him, just like i once did with ex-con, what seems like millions of years ago.
[but when i got to work, i was feeling majorly depressed about nothing in particular. i just sat there quietly, listening to my mp3s with my eyes closed. and kak nores didn't believe me when i insisted i HADN'T been crying, and i WASN'T gonna cry, and NO ONE broke my heart. sigh. and wan ing claimed i wasn't wearing make-up, when i'd already applied coats and coats of mascara which made me look like i had false lashes on. well. whatever. my mood improved, didn't it?]
hm. i saw setan at the lobby area. but that's about the only interesting person today.

Berlalulah masa tak sanggup ku menanti
Gelora di jiwa tak siapa mengerti
Siksanya menanggung rindu
Sukarnya memendam rasa... kekasih

i'm in a really bad AND jiwang mood. like, seriously. but i'm trying not to bore the people chatting to me right now with the mundane details, so i'm going to do the same here.
had a mother's day brunch, if you will, at sakura [eastpoint]. there were LOADS of cute waiters, presumably from an ITE, doing their job attachments. there was this cute guy with an especially festive name: 'ami'. haha. anyway he's really cute, with like, eyeliner and everything. hehe.
then i went to get my hair cut by peter at storm hair. i think it's been practically 2 years since i last saw him. he totally shot down my request for cute bangs, saying my forehead is too narrow. but he still had to salvage the bangs tt i butchered myself last year. haha. anyway, loving it--he didn't take off too much, just thinned it drastically. takes a bit of getting used to. haha.
so. i got to work. it was all good. the penat factor was raised to a power of ten. CCD was this malay guy at table 43, eating dinner with a female form i assumed to be his mother. tall, dark, and chiselled-handsome. haha. and the permanent feel-good factor was, of course, bun. haha. yes i've decided to use baba's suggestion after all, but i tweaked it from "ban" to "bun", so it could be short for "honeybun"! when i told this to baba she said, "ur crazily insane n utterly disgusting. honeybun kau.. i thot u didn even lk him. giler nyer pompuan. haha. dahlah aku nk tido. slmt bermimpi roti madu kau." haha.
argh i have like a billion papercuts from my frantic folding of cake boxes at 4pm just now! anyway. speaking of colleagues whom i like, i got an sms from an unknown number today saying tt it was ex-con and that was his new number. oh God. does that explain why he never responded to my sms on monday? i'm SO confused, and i have no idea if i should bother to msg him again. buat sakit hati je.
well something to look forward to tmr: bun's working! my fourth day in a row with him!

it was another tiring yet fun day at work today. it was practically all malays except for eric and crystal. and it was just loads of fun, even though it was like beribu orangs, and there just had to be that one odd family eating till like 11. haha.
when i got to work, liyana informed me that ex-con came by earlier. and i was practically screaming at her to spare me the details. cos i just can't bear to hear stuff about him, tt i missed. you know what i mean? and later kak nores was telling me some shit about how cute his friends were and whatever, and i said, "why am i never around when he comes? it's a sign!" and she was like, "a sign of what? that you're not meant to be together?" and i exclaimed, "yah!" it's just really sad, and if it's really true that i don't have a chance in heaven or hell with him, then i don't want to hear about it cos it really gets me down for some reason.
i wasn't supposed to work today, actually. but yest night jess asked me to replace her. and after consulting with shafa, i said okay. you know why? cos cute new guy was supposed to work. hehe. [notice i'm still saying "cute new guy". if not for baba's second comment, i would have accepted "ban", actually. haha.] anyway yes he worked, and so it was loads of fun. i even got to like, feed him a piece of chicky chick. haha.
today i played my tangkap nangis CD after the last family left. it was pretty well-received, especially by abg rahim. haha. i lurve jiwang songs man. bring it on!
and besok i'm working 3-11. my timecard is going to look really impressive this month, i think. all this overtime and shit. this week i'm actually working 6 days in a row siak. cool eh?
well. looking forward to another tiring day tmr with cute new guy. hehe. ohyes. happy mothers' day.

oh it was one of the most tiring days at work today. i think we made quite a lot, even for a friday. i mean, total cash was like 2000+ bucks, Visa/MC total was over a thousand bucks, and there was still NETS and Diners. so, tak sia-sia aku mampos during work tadie. haha. seriously! it wasn't just the crowd and stuff, it was also the fact tt we're running a promotional menu these three days. so i had to run around serving not just ice water, but soup and flavoured tea, AND the mother's day gift packs. it was totally crazy. and we kept running out of teaspoons, cos you need like two teaspoons per person.
but ANYWAY. i still had a lot of fun. cute new guy [okay he needs a name. suggestions?] was working, which was definitely one of the highlights. haha. his smile is SO cute! and i had a group of eight NS guys again, at the same alfresco table. haha. not the same guys, but equally nice, and with appetites twice as big. i swear. the last group spent $105 or so. THIS group spent $205!!! or course, that could be due to the fact that the promo menu has inflated prices. but STILL. they had like THREE orders of calamari rings, in addition to the main courses, and each guy had an average of two ice-cream orders. but it was all good. very very fun, and they were really patient with my confusion when i was taking orders.
takde CCD ah, i was waaay to busy to look out for one. oh but i actually screamed out loud at one point cos i thought i saw my favourite EB05 walk past. i SWEAR it was him. but then again, it was for only 4 seconds max, so i might have been wrong. oh and speaking of cute, an entire soccer team from MY alma mater [no, not RGS] came and ate ice-cream and fries. they were sooooooo adorable!!! i was just dying. all in their jerseys and tak sabar nak makan fries and stuff. very very cute.
i exercised some influence today to get a cooler playlist in the outlet. mariah carey, 50 cent, destiny's child.. haha.. it was so cool. too bad i was doing alfresco, i didn't get to fully appreciate my hard work. and too bad kak nores wasn't around, or we could've danced together. i mean, if i was the only one dancing i'd just look stupid. haha.
oh this group of 5 malay girlfriends had ice-cream, and one of them was SO nice! firstly, she settled the bill secretly with me. about an hour later, she called me out and her friends asked for the bill. and she was just grinning like crazy. while i practically laughed out loud as i told them, "dah bayar dah!" and secondly, she actually tipped me personally! like 4 bucks! i was SOOOOO wowed! at first she just asked me what happens to the tips, then when i told her, she gave me the money and told me to keep it, and not put it in the box. wow.
abg rahim gave us [me, azhar, farhan] a lift home just now. first, though, i had to wait around while abg rahim had a smoke. so i sat in the car, enjoying the aircon. then farhan joined me. and then the smoke started wafting in, so i told him to close the door, and he was like, "tanak ah, nanti lain macam je.." haha. giler. and he ter-saw the screensaver of me and baba, and he practically grabbed my phone as he tried to determine why baba looks familiar to him. haha. after that, he ter-saw the wallpaper of the "my boo" screenshot, and was like, "Astaghfirullah! gambar cium-cium pulak!" funn-ay.
went to watch house of wax with baba today. it's one of those typical slasher flicks where the main characters are all stupid--that's why they get pursued by murdering psychos in the first place. and then the stupidest character survives. you know the type, right? so. yeah. but paris looks hot in this movie, as she always does, i suppose. love her! [yes, i know. kill me now for saying that.] and i love her boyfriend in the movie. he's the guy from cousin skeeter, with the incredible eyes. i love him. he looks REALLY good. hm and i got my dose of ITE mats, but not nearly enough. haha. there was this group that offered us ice-cream: "nak sikit?" and there were loads of viks too. besnye. like i said to baba, i wanna move to yishun. haha. anyway, can't wait to do that again. the movie thing, i mean. ohyah i finally got my interview shoes. haha. according to shafa, they're risky but what the heck. i actually like them, despite my aversion to anything that isn't open-toed, but these are just aDORable! yes. i personally love them, and they're not even very high, so an extra plus point for that. maybe i'll even wear them out sometime. see, that's how much i love them.

i had this dream last night about ex-con. it was practically a nightmare. basically, he was like, "eh, asal kau bilang aku kau kerje tuesday? aku pergi, kau tak kerje pun!" and proceeded to really really scold me. and i was on the verge of tears, and i was trying to explain myself [i had a really good explanation actually], but i gave up halfway and apologised instead. me and my stupid dreams.
during briefing just now, diana let the cat out of the bag. [ugh what a gross cliche to use! sorry..] mr rahim was talking about how the new guy doesn't serve the drinks properly, and therefore we, the CSRs, should teach him the right way. and then diana opens her mouth and says, "yah, norain can teach him.." and they ALL turned to look at me. and kak nores exclaims, "wah, second target already ah?" oh God. how mortifying. the only good thing was that azhar wasn't there. i think i'd have died of complete and utter embarrassment. i never actually TOLD anyone i like him, you know. i think i'm just unlucky. i attract suaning. if that's not enough, i attract BASELESS suaning. argh.

what did i do today? let's see. ohyes i went to wild wild wet with kak nores, jeslyn, jessica, and ah-yi [or however you spell it]. haha. it was loads of fun, actually. we went on the ular-lah ride thrice, i think. hehe.
yes. then i had work.

i went out with shafa yest to look for interview shoes [mine] and interview shirt [hers]. well, she got her shirt but we hit the usual snag of the absence of my shoe size. it's really unfair, having size 9 feet in Singapore. i don't blame my feet in the slightest, i blame the shoe retailers. for example, everbest doesn't even have a single size 9 at all! they only go up to 8, which is quite dumb, really, considering bata even has size 10. anyway. i guess i'll have to try again another day.
since i was so disappointed and pissed at not having gotten my shoes, i bought a pair of sunglasses from topshop. loving them! haha. i actually tore off the price tag and wore them while walking to the taxi stand. ape je. haha.
yest was, as i told shafa, my favourite tv night. friends, charmed, CSIs NY and Las Vegas, topped off by friends again. but i kept nodding off at CSI:NY!!! so i gave up at 935, and went to sleep. haha.

went to KKH to visit cik jun and her new baby. it's a really adorable boy. [okay, honestly speaking, i can't tell if he's adorable, cos he's only a day old, and it's the stage where he's still red-faced and with permanently-shut eyes and stuff, but if he's anything like ellna, he'll be adorable.] his name is Ari Johan. nice name, tapi takleh kalah Rahul Ishmael. hahaha. anyway i was hoping to see cute male nurses or smthg, but i realised it's KKH, and therefore there wouldn't be much call for male nurses? well at any rate i saw none. but i enjoyed the fully air-conditioned foodcourt, and the whole retail mall, actually. AND cik jun's private room. it's like a hotel, almost. an uncarpeted hotel. and there's none of that hospital smell. you know, the kind that just spells out S-I-C-K.
work was great. tiring but great. josh walked past, and i practically ran out to greet him, and started punching him excitedly. ape je. ape je me, of course. haha. turns out he's the only 3D left in tekong, which is really sad cos it means tt i won't be seeing any of the other class guys around then.
my most fun customers today was this group of about 8 NS guys. mostly manjens, one malay, and one serani, who reminds me of someone i know, or maybe i've actually seen him before. anyway they were sitting alfresco, which was my station.. so yeah i had to serve them.. and farhan was so kesian, he accidentally spilled water on the malay guy. i was dying of mortification on his behalf. haha. but they were quite nice about it. anyway they ate like over a hundred bucks worth, as usual, and i had to wait there for like 10 minutes while they attempted to calculate their individual shares. haha. and they were making jokes about how they were really bad at maths or smthg, and then one guy said to me, "by the way, we're from mohawk company.." and i just laughed and said okay. but why did he tell me that, anyway? tak faham. and he kept repeating it. ??? but anyway they waited patiently while i counted the money, and then the same guy said, "have a good weekend," paused and looked at his watch, "i mean, have a good week.." and later he asked me if he could buy an ashtray from us. isn't that weird? who would think that a restaurant sells their ashtrays to customers? but anyway, i loved that they were very friendly and nice and stuff. i just love talking to customers, and they were the most friendly bunch of NS guys i've had so far.
after work i changed my tshirt and shoes, just cos i felt sweaty and rimas. and azhar was like, "eh kau nak gi dating ke?" to which i refused to respond since it was SUCH an inane comment. but later he asked me again, "kau nak gi dating eh? gi dating ngan helmi kan?" aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhh!!! he keeps suaning me abt ex-con! how. annoying. and if that's not enough, diana is now suaning me about the new guy. i don't know how she could even tell that i liked him, from the limited time we spend talking in the bus. and she was encouraging me to go after him and everything--saying he's single, and telling me to get his number, all that shit. no thank you. i'm not gonna set myself up to be embarrassed again.

yes yes i know it's like, four in the morning. all i wanted to do when i turned on the laptop was blog about what happened today. but suddenly lots of things started happening and before i knew it, half of "what happened today" turned out to be stuffs that happened after i got home.
went for the orang kahwin downstairs. wow. it was so so grand! but my secret hope of seeing cute mats went unfulfilled. i did get a cool photo of the platform for the mempelai though. and there was like, a 5-tier wedding cake. and a chandelier-looking thing, made of flowers, over the archway. and the food was served to the tables, which were in clusters of eight [seats]. they even pour and refill the air. great and attentive service all the way.. and the food was great--dishes of the daging thingy tt goes with nasi briyani, ayam masak merah, some curry thing i didn't touch [i like my rice dry], some sayur thing i didn't even bother to glance at, and [my personal favourite] these really cool black pepper udangs. omg. i must have had at least five. i even had to take one from the people next to us. hm then we went to the block opposite, where they had a contrasting simple affair, with like two long tables, a table of food set buffet-style, and a really simple pelamin. but they were all nice and friendly, and the best part was the eye-candy. haha. there was a group of mat dishwashers. and some of the guests/relatives were really handsome. haha. yup. two completely different weddings, but i enjoyed both.
okay, i got to work at like 135. haha. so i sat around outside till 2, then i went in and got the glitter glue for the hand-painting thingy. then, since i didn't have the guts to go around offering my services [haha tt sounds bad!], i did service for about 15 minutes. then i did my first kid [yes tt sounds bad too], and her two brothers. but there weren't THAT many kids to ask, and besides, they were all eating so i couldn't just sebok2 rite? haha. but i did a few more kids after that.. and i even did some after the 2-4 window.. it was pretty fun, except they kept asking for the hardest designs! heLLO, do i LOOK like an expert to you? okay but generally, that part of my job was fun.
i had my break at 4, with kak nores and rafidah.. and although i was still kinda full from the orang kahwin food, i decided to buy smthg anyway. so i got the omelette. it was reaaaalllly filling! haha. but they were all like, "you buy omelette waste money lah.." but i don't care, cos i've always wanted to try it, and it only cost about four bucks anyway. wow i like having breaks. it's fun. haha. okay, i guess it's only fun if you have breaks with your friends. anyway, thanks to the hand-painting thing, i got to enjoy a full 45-minute break instead of the half-an-hour one i'm supposed to have. haha.
CCD was zulkarnaen zainal, whom i did NOT recognise, not being a follower of Singapore football. but i liked him anyway. he's all tall and vik-looking and he's just very very cool. he stayed for so long we had to halau him away to mcdonald's.
anyway yes i got home, and i started telling nadia how sad i was about the whole ex-con thing. then this stupid thing hung, so i had to restart it like three times. by that time, she was gone, so no more listening ear. haha. then i logged onto AM cos i was just bored. and guess who msged me? the pizza guy! the one who's been talking to me for the past few days! i couldn't believe it! and in the middle of waiting for his SN, ex-con came online. but because he'd changed his nick, and i didn't know it was him, i didn't chat to him. [i would have. really.] and he actually said hi to me first. and when i realised it was him i almost screamed and died. but i replied in a calm and relaxed manner ["hey you"]. and we chatted for a few minutes. and for every letter i typed, i had to restrain myself from typing "i miss you". for example, he said "dah lama tak nampak awk", which i believed merited an "i miss you" from me, but i stopped myself. but guess what. he actually said it himself. he said, and i quote, "rindu awk adela.." help!!! why does he do this to me? i mean, he knows i like him, it's just unfair for him to use that to torture me! and i was dying to reply, "i miss you too.." but i stuck with the safer, and more cowardly, "ye ke?" i am SUCH a wuss. well then i was steeling myself to tell him i miss him, and to come by tmr before he books in, but then he said he'd brb, but here i am, 1.5 hrs later, and he's still not back. but it doesn't end here. i'll msg him tmr. tmr as in, before i go to work. promise!