went to KKH to visit cik jun and her new baby. it's a really adorable boy. [okay, honestly speaking, i can't tell if he's adorable, cos he's only a day old, and it's the stage where he's still red-faced and with permanently-shut eyes and stuff, but if he's anything like ellna, he'll be adorable.] his name is Ari Johan. nice name, tapi takleh kalah Rahul Ishmael. hahaha. anyway i was hoping to see cute male nurses or smthg, but i realised it's KKH, and therefore there wouldn't be much call for male nurses? well at any rate i saw none. but i enjoyed the fully air-conditioned foodcourt, and the whole retail mall, actually. AND cik jun's private room. it's like a hotel, almost. an uncarpeted hotel. and there's none of that hospital smell. you know, the kind that just spells out S-I-C-K.
work was great. tiring but great. josh walked past, and i practically ran out to greet him, and started punching him excitedly. ape je. ape je me, of course. haha. turns out he's the only 3D left in tekong, which is really sad cos it means tt i won't be seeing any of the other class guys around then.
my most fun customers today was this group of about 8 NS guys. mostly manjens, one malay, and one serani, who reminds me of someone i know, or maybe i've actually seen him before. anyway they were sitting alfresco, which was my station.. so yeah i had to serve them.. and farhan was so kesian, he accidentally spilled water on the malay guy. i was dying of mortification on his behalf. haha. but they were quite nice about it. anyway they ate like over a hundred bucks worth, as usual, and i had to wait there for like 10 minutes while they attempted to calculate their individual shares. haha. and they were making jokes about how they were really bad at maths or smthg, and then one guy said to me, "by the way, we're from mohawk company.." and i just laughed and said okay. but why did he tell me that, anyway? tak faham. and he kept repeating it. ??? but anyway they waited patiently while i counted the money, and then the same guy said, "have a good weekend," paused and looked at his watch, "i mean, have a good week.." and later he asked me if he could buy an ashtray from us. isn't that weird? who would think that a restaurant sells their ashtrays to customers? but anyway, i loved that they were very friendly and nice and stuff. i just love talking to customers, and they were the most friendly bunch of NS guys i've had so far.
after work i changed my tshirt and shoes, just cos i felt sweaty and rimas. and azhar was like, "eh kau nak gi dating ke?" to which i refused to respond since it was SUCH an inane comment. but later he asked me again, "kau nak gi dating eh? gi dating ngan helmi kan?" aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhh!!! he keeps suaning me abt ex-con! how. annoying. and if that's not enough, diana is now suaning me about the new guy. i don't know how she could even tell that i liked him, from the limited time we spend talking in the bus. and she was encouraging me to go after him and everything--saying he's single, and telling me to get his number, all that shit. no thank you. i'm not gonna set myself up to be embarrassed again.

yes yes i know it's like, four in the morning. all i wanted to do when i turned on the laptop was blog about what happened today. but suddenly lots of things started happening and before i knew it, half of "what happened today" turned out to be stuffs that happened after i got home.
went for the orang kahwin downstairs. wow. it was so so grand! but my secret hope of seeing cute mats went unfulfilled. i did get a cool photo of the platform for the mempelai though. and there was like, a 5-tier wedding cake. and a chandelier-looking thing, made of flowers, over the archway. and the food was served to the tables, which were in clusters of eight [seats]. they even pour and refill the air. great and attentive service all the way.. and the food was great--dishes of the daging thingy tt goes with nasi briyani, ayam masak merah, some curry thing i didn't touch [i like my rice dry], some sayur thing i didn't even bother to glance at, and [my personal favourite] these really cool black pepper udangs. omg. i must have had at least five. i even had to take one from the people next to us. hm then we went to the block opposite, where they had a contrasting simple affair, with like two long tables, a table of food set buffet-style, and a really simple pelamin. but they were all nice and friendly, and the best part was the eye-candy. haha. there was a group of mat dishwashers. and some of the guests/relatives were really handsome. haha. yup. two completely different weddings, but i enjoyed both.
okay, i got to work at like 135. haha. so i sat around outside till 2, then i went in and got the glitter glue for the hand-painting thingy. then, since i didn't have the guts to go around offering my services [haha tt sounds bad!], i did service for about 15 minutes. then i did my first kid [yes tt sounds bad too], and her two brothers. but there weren't THAT many kids to ask, and besides, they were all eating so i couldn't just sebok2 rite? haha. but i did a few more kids after that.. and i even did some after the 2-4 window.. it was pretty fun, except they kept asking for the hardest designs! heLLO, do i LOOK like an expert to you? okay but generally, that part of my job was fun.
i had my break at 4, with kak nores and rafidah.. and although i was still kinda full from the orang kahwin food, i decided to buy smthg anyway. so i got the omelette. it was reaaaalllly filling! haha. but they were all like, "you buy omelette waste money lah.." but i don't care, cos i've always wanted to try it, and it only cost about four bucks anyway. wow i like having breaks. it's fun. haha. okay, i guess it's only fun if you have breaks with your friends. anyway, thanks to the hand-painting thing, i got to enjoy a full 45-minute break instead of the half-an-hour one i'm supposed to have. haha.
CCD was zulkarnaen zainal, whom i did NOT recognise, not being a follower of Singapore football. but i liked him anyway. he's all tall and vik-looking and he's just very very cool. he stayed for so long we had to halau him away to mcdonald's.
anyway yes i got home, and i started telling nadia how sad i was about the whole ex-con thing. then this stupid thing hung, so i had to restart it like three times. by that time, she was gone, so no more listening ear. haha. then i logged onto AM cos i was just bored. and guess who msged me? the pizza guy! the one who's been talking to me for the past few days! i couldn't believe it! and in the middle of waiting for his SN, ex-con came online. but because he'd changed his nick, and i didn't know it was him, i didn't chat to him. [i would have. really.] and he actually said hi to me first. and when i realised it was him i almost screamed and died. but i replied in a calm and relaxed manner ["hey you"]. and we chatted for a few minutes. and for every letter i typed, i had to restrain myself from typing "i miss you". for example, he said "dah lama tak nampak awk", which i believed merited an "i miss you" from me, but i stopped myself. but guess what. he actually said it himself. he said, and i quote, "rindu awk adela.." help!!! why does he do this to me? i mean, he knows i like him, it's just unfair for him to use that to torture me! and i was dying to reply, "i miss you too.." but i stuck with the safer, and more cowardly, "ye ke?" i am SUCH a wuss. well then i was steeling myself to tell him i miss him, and to come by tmr before he books in, but then he said he'd brb, but here i am, 1.5 hrs later, and he's still not back. but it doesn't end here. i'll msg him tmr. tmr as in, before i go to work. promise!

i know i said in the last post that today wasn't supposed to be some exciting day. but hey guess what, it was. to me, anyway.
okay, the bahas was exactly how most bahases go. but my new favourite minister [Dr. Vivian Balakrishnan] was the guest-of-honour, and he made a speech and everything, and i just think he's SO cool. so that definitely livened up the bahas a lil bit. haha. and of cos, amy got to talk to this universally-handsome creation of God. haha. i thought it was so funny. anyway, SJI won the bahas, which i objectively don't agree with, but whatever. haha.
after the bahas, i convinced baba to eat at swensen's. i'm still semi-full from the meal. haha. anyway, it was all good.. we had prawn dippers, salmon rice and the club square with extra fries, plus a waffle with marshmallow topping. yum. and there was a cute sup working, so THAT was good. can't have a good meal without cute service staff around. he was really cool. he actually wore another black tshirt under his black sup tshirt, and the overall effect was, well, cool. haha. but i asked kak nores about him and she doesn't know him. darn.
i love eating out now! i'm just addicted! next stop will be the thai place at causeway point. woohoo! can't wait.
i took 12 to pasir ris int from bugis. it was a helluva long ride. but mostly relaxing. i got quite a good nap and everything. oh and there's this T-junction at the simei-tampines area, it's REALLY slow-moving! it took two-and-a-half songs for the bus to finally pass the area. wow. giler sey.
anyway, i digress. i was gonna say tt i dropped by WS to get fabric paint for my shirt, and after that i went to my workplace to just say hi ah. it seemed everybody except me and hannan were working today. haha. i talked to them for abit, and then they told me that i missed out on seeing a certain special someone today. apparently ex-con had dinner there with his gf after booking out. he was in army uniform and everything. and i was all like, "oh fuck it i can't believe i wasn't here!" and they told me how he looks more muscular than ever, but also thinner. they also told me that none of them likes his gf, who apparently has a hateable face and was not friendly at all. [btw, "they" refers to kak nores, jess and joseph, in general.] and finally, they told me that he asked about me. my response: "don't lie ah!" sigh. yes he asked if i was still working there. oh and when he went to pay personally at the cashier, kak nores told him that she doesn't like his gf, and he claimed that she's NOT his gf, that she's "just a friend". oh God. i can't believe he had to come visit the ONE day i wasn't working! how is this possible? and later in the bus i had to restrain my stupid tears. sheesh. even mr rahim told me not to care. but i guess i just can't.
let's take a break: there's a cool persandingan going on this weekend. preparations kat bawah blok started like, a week ago! there's like, extra tents and marquees everywhere, and the smell of food is just wafting into the study with the fresh night air. and all the chairs are so cool.. and there's this heeeuuugge platform for the couple to sit on, and it's all in shades of white and this interesting red colour, with flowers everywhere. it's all very elegant and sophisticated, and makes me wanna get married too. i hate that things like these make me wanna get married. how slenger is that, right? it prolly costs a bomb, man. but apparently they can afford it--the girl is an air stewardess [my dream job!]. anyway i'll get to see it all firsthand tmr, my mom's bringing me along in the late morning, before i go to work. should be interesting.
yes, last point. i got home to a thick envelope from NUS. they accepted me! [okay, those who know my results are prolly rolling their eyes cos it was apparently a done deal. haha. but i was scared, okay?] so yes, at least i know the next coupla years of my future are mapped out. haha.

i can't sleep. okay, fine, so i haven't even made contact with my bed since i got home. but i just feel too keyed-up to sleep. i'm not sure why. it's not like i have such an exciting day ahead of me. haha. so i think this is gonna be an entry full of aimless drivel. you were warned.
i'm watching kingdom of heaven on tuesday night!!! now THAT is something to be excited about. it's another of those starmovies tickets my dad won. and i'm going with my brother [again], even though it's NC-16. and he's not even 15 yet. what if they check our ICs? wait, scratch that. what if they check my IC and his non-existent one? and consequently, they don't let him in? am i supposed to go in anyway and watch it alone? questions, questions. the last answer will probably be yes. haha.
i can't wait to get my gaji, man! oh sure, it's only five hundred bucks, which is SO not worth more than a hundred hours of nonstop standing-around. haha. but still. it's money, innit? and i have big plans for it this month. among them: new coloured contacts [adik-beradik brown, we don't want to look like a fake doll, do we?], actual work jeans [well, if i'm gonna make this a career..], ohyah the fifty bucks i'm supposed to give my mom, and maybe a good charlotte dvd for my brother since i'm also supposed to give him money, according to kak ida. and i've been salivating over linda liao's clothes, so if i have any leftover money at the end of the month, i'm gonna get something from forever 21. yay. ohyah and kak nores wanted to go to wild wild wet on wednesday, so if that works out, it means another thirty-or-so bucks down the proverbial drain. or in this case, water slide.
been going through the tracker, and i'm really glad to see that people have decided to stop freaking me out by searching for "norainne". but some stubborn idiots are still searching for adil and nydia. i mean, leave them alone, man! oh and i have lots of EB05 searches too.. haha.
okaylah. i'm out.

i. am. so. tired!!! it was wall-to-wall people today! they just wouldn't let up, and there was quite a long queue at one point. i mean, even at 10pm we were half-full. well thankfully the crowd thinned out by 1030. but i still ran around the place, sweating like crazy and mopping and arranging the condiments and shit. haha.
CCD was this like, 15-year-old boy eating outside with his family. fair, nice hair and very cute. heh.
tmr's my off day, i have big plans. haha. no not really. i'm just going to watch bahas with baba and amy. and i need to pick up some fabric paint cos i'm the "kids' ambassador" for my outlet. [can you believe it? i definitely can't!] and there's a thingy going on this sunday afternoon, so i apparently need to draw cutesy, non-obscene, ice-cream-related images on my tshirt. haha. well the only good part is that i don't have to wear my apron. haha. yay. oh and i'm working 2-11 this sunday! AND it's labour day! is that crazy stupid or what man? well at least cute new guy'll be working. hahaha. yes yes i know, me and my cute guys.
i bought one of the mother's day cakes today. with the 25% staff discount, it's quite cheap. only $29.90 for a 1-kg cake. moral of the story? work at swensen's! haha.
i had the most horrible night last night. firstly, i went to sleep at like 3 in the morning. okay, no problem there. but then i couldn't GET to sleep! i tried everything--drinking milk, listening to my mp3s, wiping my mind clear of all thought, filling my mind up with thoughts--anyway, nothing worked, and i just kept tossing and turning until i finally gave up at 630 a.m. and stoned in my armchair watching friends and finishing the carton of milk. tried going to bed again at 730, and this time it was better, i slept till 1245. haha. and just now i was eating a slice of lemon, and joseph exclaimed, "makan lemon! nanti malam tak boleh tidur!!!" and the mystery of why i couldn't get to sleep was finally solved. [i had two slices of lemon last night.] haha. but i'd already finished the lemon slice by then, so i guess i'm doomed to another sleepless night.

hey. the highlight of my day was--and i can't believe i'm gonna say this--jon chen!!! haha. i'd just gotten a reservation for ten ready, and i was helping shasha pack a cake. then i saw jon chen with two of his friends, and i was like, "heyheyheyheyhey!!!" haha. it was so cool. turned out his group was the one tt made the reservation, so it was all good. and we had another party of 12 NS guys at the alfresco area, plus three more NS guys at table 32. wow the alfresco group spent almost 200 bucks, it was crazy! ANYWAY. jon chen's group had like a couple of cute guys, haha, so i took my time talking to him. and they spent slightly more than a hundred bucks, so i finally got to use my staff privileges and i gave my first 10% discount!!! so cool.
CCD was this malay/serani guy at table 6. very handsome. chiselled face, nice hair and good tan. haha. cute.

yo. work wasn't too bad today. the singing pizza guy was off today, but he was just hanging out, and asking questions about whether i'm still schooling or not.. and one of the cute pizza guys was working, AND i was doing alfresco, so it was all good. haha. and nan kept making comments about whatever i did. buat malu sey. i mean, we all know how easily i blush. and cute pizza guy was just watching and laughing. eeps.
okay, i'm gone!

diana on the 359 home: "you know farhan? cara dier cakap macam helmi sikit-sikit eh.."
me: "YAH!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW!!!!!!!!!"

haha. but seriously. i KNEW there was something about the way farhan talks, that seemed pleasantly familiar. and diana finally put it into words. he has almost the exact same voice and manja intonation as ex-con. it's crazy. and i guess i didn't identify it earlier cos i've been having quite a number of ex-con hallucinations lately. actually, they mainly consisted of customers who wear the same scent as he does. but still.
anyway diana and aidil had ice-cream just now before he booked in. at first i didn't recognise them, i was just staring at aidil cos he was in uniform. then i realised who he was and i walked over to say hi. so in honour of them, CCD today will be aidil. haha.
there was another familiar face there actually. it was pantai. haha. i wanted to die. especially since i was showing him to his table and i had to say, "table for two, sir?" haha.
working on sunday nights is so crazy tiring but somehow it was fun tonight. haha. and i'm not gonna say why.

it's been pretty damn long, hasn't it? for me, anyway. i'm suffering from internet depression these days, so i don't stay too long on the comp. apparently my recent spate of downloads let in a couple of viruses, which totally cleaned out my C-drive, so basically i've lost all the nice songs that i downloaded in the first place. and it just hurts going back to the scene of the crime [the comp], hence the internet depression. i've been living on a diet of TV and harry potter since.
today i was really thrown, cos there was one customer who actually said my name. i was refilling his table's water, and he said, "thank you." and i just smiled, cos it's weird if you say "you're welcome" anyway. then he said again, "thank you, norain.." and i was SO wowed. cos firstly, he said my name. and secondly, he actually pronounced it correctly, despite being a manjen. haha. so i just had to say "you're welcome" in turn. i wonder why he had to say my name in the first place. how embarrassing.
yest baba and i had the secretaries' week promo at tampines swensen's. i couldn't believe our luck, hilman [and fairuz] were actually working! haha. we weren't at his station, but he did serve us a couple of times, which worked for me. haha.
anyway the new guy is kinda cute. i love that he looks like he's smiling half the time. haha. and when i saw that his yellow band said "player", i started laughing like crazy.
ooh yes almost forgot, i saw bodyguard the other day, going up the escalator. i wanted to faint. i mean, okay, he was alone and everything, but STILL. it kinda gave me hope that i'll be able to see samit around WS too..

you know the phrase "fall flat on your ass"? well. it actually happened to me just now. i was walking across the floor, which i'd mopped about 5 minutes before. and i started to slip. so. i also started to scream and try to regain my balance, which i thought i would, cos i've always been able to do that. but nothing doing this time. i--well--fell flat on my ass. and i sat there for like 30 seconds laughing crazily. oh God. how the hell did that happen man?
today's CCD was this fair malay guy who had dinner with his gf and kept turning to face me when i was trying to take their order. ape je. but yeah he was handsome..

went swimming with shafa again today. the downtown east swimming pool seriously suffers from a severe shortage of cute guys. PLUS it rained and thunderstormed. sigh.
hung out at tampines, where i met niza. haha. lama tak jumpa sey. she still looks the same.
work was fine, but i was just so friggin tired. i am so sleeping in tmr. wild horses won't be able to drag me out of bed.

oh God it was just wall-to-wall people today, didn't let up till around 930! at one point i was so tired, i bent over a table in the alfresco area and refused to straighten back up. haha.
latest cute pizza guy WAS working today. i found out his name is faizal/faisal. i also found out that he's married. so. yes. haha.
ooh and cute sideburns guy was at mac's when i came at 430! i was soooooooo happy to see him again, even if it was for like 2 fleeting seconds.. i mean, it gives me hope that i'll get to see him again and again, for many months to come. he was with like, other guys, so i'll assume that he hangs out there regularly, and i'll definitely peer more closely at mac's next time. haha.
ohyes went swimming at my sister's place today. guess who we saw at bukit batok mrt?!?! ismail from BBCC! haha. okay it probably rings no bells with everyone except for me. i tend to remember the stupidest and most useless things. i spent 5 entire minutes trying to remind shafa of his existence, and in the end i just gave up. ANYWAY. had a great time swimming. except i managed to mangle my left toe before i even stepped into the pool. there was blood and everything. eeps.
i didn't really look out for a CCD today cos we were just swamped. so the honour will have to go to this minimat at the counter who was wearing one of those plaid-print trucker caps. i have no idea what he was buying, even. that's how busy i was. but i know he was cute. haha.
(by the way, today's the day i officially give up on ex-con. that way i have 4-5 days to recover before he [theoretically] goes into NS.)

i was really sleepy today for some reason. hell, i couldn't even wake up, and it was already 1pm! giler sey. and i still felt lazy and sleepy, even at work.
but it was a great day at work anyhow. why, you ask?
well, the term "CCD" today stands for not just "Cute Customer of the Day", but "Celebrity Customer of the Day"! we had the dashing aaron aziz choosing an ice-cream cake! i wanted to faint. me, wati and jessica. haha. we each took a photo with him, it was so cool. admittedly, i look shitty in my photo, but it's okay. it's still a photo with him! cool sia!
and he wasn't the only celeb today. we also had sheikh haikel buying a single scoop SCC from the fountain. and his beautiful-nak-mampos wife in the background, buying a soft toy in whatever sale that was taking place today. she is SO unbelievably beautiful. oh, to be as beautiful as her.
hm. ohyes i got my first personal positive feedback today! it was from this malay family of four. they ate like 100+ bucks worth of food. like main course, drinks and dessert. anyway they said that they received great service from me and mr rahim. wow. i was really, well, wowed by that. all i did was to serve some of their food, and take their ice-cream orders, and give them the setting. anyway i really felt that whatever i did was nothing, but i'm glad they liked me. woohoo! haha.
latest cute pizza guy was working today. the one who reminds me of hilman. joseph thinks he's cute too. he was like, "wah, cantik eh dier jalan.. tengok.." giler. i don't consider the way he walks a turn-on. but anyway, he is cute, with his defined eyebrows and all. a tad too kurus, but we can't have everything right? haha. hope he's working again tmr night.

hey friends.
i slept in till late today, then i caught be cool from the comfort of my personal armchair. haha. it's quite okay, entertaining to say the least. and dwayne johnson rocks! [no pun intended.] he's really funny. oh and i think christina milian looks hot, and i love her songs, especially the one she sang on the piano.
work was okay too. i did service this time, cos wati did cashier. anyway it was friday night, so i didn't mind. haha. but there was this malay family that came in at like 1013 [last order is at 1015] and took their time ordering actual main courses. they also ordered ice-cream, and requested tt it be served later. and what ticked me off the most, besides the fact that their little boy was literally sleeping, was that when the caesar salad came, the daughter CONTINUED reading her paper without even touching the salad! i wanted to throttle her. it was, oh i dunno, 1030 then? but at least they said thanks afterwards.
CCD was this guy who'd just booked out, and came in at around 10 for dessert. he's malay, i think. the melayu-gelap kind.. and very handsome. his chocolate-coloured skin, his dark eyes, his politeness.. everything ah. he had a coit tower, btw. good taste. he was with this other guy, from rj, so i assume he's 19 too. heh.
oh there's this cute guy who takes 359 home at around the same time i do, gets off at the stop before filza's. he's seriously lawar. he's malay, nice eyebrows, great eyes, perfect nose, and oh God i love his sideburns. he looks so smart and cool. and did i mention i love his sideburns? they're long, but shaped, and they just go perfectly with his chiselled face. so if you're reading this, 359 guy, i'd like to get to know you. haha. oh and i love your sideburns.
nites.

went out with baba today, regular thing. today it was at woodlands. we caught guess who?, which i personally think was deliciously enjoyable. ashton is hot, of course. and i love zoe saldana's dancer body and sophisticated clothes. especially the nice top in the scene where the dad catches them out in her room. and the soundtrack's great too. yup. one of those movies i can't help but love.
there's a really cute young security guard at causeway point. he's all tall and thin and malay. but he doesn't resemble the WS security guards at all. he has a universally-handsome face. handsome and baik. as i said to baba just now, baik guys are in. bad boys are out! haha.
the girl at 7-eleven gave us an extra eyeshadow sample when i bought my copy of cleo just now. it was so nice of her, and i have to admit i thought she looked bitchy at first. goes to show, appearances CAN be deceiving. haha.
i'm avoiding like a billion people at the moment. please don't get the wrong idea, it's not like i'm so desirable or anything. but the woman from NTU's SPMS keeps calling me! don't they realise that i've un-applied for NTU like, a week ago, by not paying the ten bucks? so just leave me alone la! and then there are the other people i'm trying not to have any contact with, so if anyone's been trying to call me and finds that i'm not picking up, it's because my phone's been switched to silent mode. i think i'll just pretend it got stolen? argh this is so annoying.

didn't get to blog abt yest, cos there were a lotta shows to watch. anyway. CCD was this vik/mim guy who bought a cake and stood there eating a crunchie cone while waiting for me to finish packing the cake, all the while surreptiously sweeping the fallen almond bits off the counter. i thought it was quite cute of him to do that, plus he commented apologetically, "i'm dirtying your counter.." how nice.. haha. then his cone broke off, so eric gave him a whole new cone, while he protested and lamented that the first cone would go to waste. meanwhile, i just tossed it in the bin. haha. he was all appreciative and stuff, then when i finally handed the cake box to him, he asked for a carrier. so i was like, "oh you can hold it like that.." showing him how to use the nice ribbon i'd just tied around the box. and he was like, "ohyah, bodohlah aku.." of course, i was hooked. and i managed to say, "nolah, your first time what.." before he left. yes. cute. nice and cute. the best kind. eric's insisting tt he's gonna write a thank-you email, so i'm just waiting for tt to happen so i can find out his name.
today's CCD was, undoubtedly, hilman. i'd waited all day for him to come. and by some stroke of fate, i managed to just walk in from the toilet, when stella asked me to take out his cake order. just in time siak. and i glanced at the entrance to see him and i almost slumped against the freezer. he was wearing a black shirt and khaki berms. he's SO cute! -dies- eric was working again, so he chatted to eric while i packaged the cake, shaking fingers and all. i even managed to fend off liyana's and azhar's suaning, and eavesdrop on the conversation between eric and hilman. liyana: "a-HEM! a-HEM!" azhar: "bad taste man! bad taste!" sheesh.
i used l'oreal hot straight today. verdict: it works, but it takes too much time. or maybe it's just me. i mean, first i had to dry my bale of thick long hair. THEN i had to use the straightening iron. leceh sak. it took an hour altogether. but i have to say i love the results. so if i have an hour free everyday, i'll definitely take the trouble to straighten my hair. oh and i love the pink bottle the lotion comes in. it's hot pink! love it!
i hijacked the CD player with taufik's blessings today. it got groans from kak nores, eric AND liyana, but i had a couple of kid customers singing along and exclaiming surprised delight at the fact tt we owned the CD. haha.

cashier again today, but it was pretty slack, cake-wise. we sold like 8 cakes in all, not really alot rite? we didn't even meet the KPI. anyway, i have a confession, i think azhar's friend is kinda cute, thick eyebrows and all. and i love the amusing fact that his black eyebrows do NOT match his orange hair. haha. i mean, he doesn't look like azhar, which helps. haha. but i better not mention this to liyana. or anyone at all.
oh God i just remembered who else i saw yest. stephen chin! as in, the rj vice-principal! haha. i swear it was him. he was wearing casual stuff, and he came in and took a balloon from the balloon-stand. haha. i almost died.
CCD today was this cute malay guy with a pinkish face and cool goatee and stuff. and he reminds me of tommy, his voice, and the way he talks and everything. not the way he looks though. but, of course, as is the usual case with these kinda guys, he has a gf. and not to be perasantan or anything, but i'm definitely better-looking. sigh. well it's okay, the girl's quite nice and unbitchy, so in return, i was nice and unbitchy to her and did NOT try to flirt with tommy guy. haha. actually, i have never flirted before in my life, so i dunno why i just typed tt.
i gave myself this enormous paper cut on one of the cake boxes. i am so freakin pissed with myself! i mean, who the heck gives themselves a paper cut on a friggin cake box? argh it's so bad tt it hasn't even closed up yet.
there's yet another new pizza guy. and he's cute too. he kinda reminds me of hilman, or maybe that's because i'm still on a hilman high. i'm not sure. haha.
you know what, i don't get why people like to buy takeaway soft drinks from us. i mean, it's 2.3 freaking dollars! wouldn't they do better by buying it from mac's? and ours comes in one size only.. i mean, seriously. it's quite a ripoff, in my opinion. well whatever.
ooh and speaking of money, i had two $100-notes today. how cool! i lurve big notes. lurve them.

it was back to doing cashier again today. but it was SUNDAY! so there were like a billion people collecting their cakes. the best part is, they like to come at the same time. so i'm just going crazy there, with my fingers being burnt by the dry ice cos the gloves are wearing thin. but i still think doing cashier is better than doing service.
the highlight of my day was when this guy wearing swensen's uniform and headphones walked in. i almost fainted. it was hilman, no doubt about it. i think i gasped or smthg similarly stupid. haha. he wanted to order a disney cake, so wan ing took his order. and i stood next to him and tried to make conversation. but i won't detail it here, cos he was just being completely unresponsive, even though i knew his name and everything. and it's not just me, wan ing was trying to make conversation with him, and he was still unresponsive! well whatever. he ordered the cake, and he had to leave his number, so i have his number now! [not that i'm gonna harass him or anything, don't worry.] oh he's so cute, and i bet he lives in pasir ris and he was on his way to work. oh God i'm just waiting impatiently for wednesday, 10pm, cos that's when he's collecting the cake. let's hope he collects it, and he doesn't send anyone else to get it.
after tt i went for part deux of my shopping trip with kak ida and zul. wow. i got this transparent sequinned thingy from petalbox/freshbox. and then we went to topshop, and that's when i went completely crazy. i just flitted around taking skirts and short-sleeved tops, and tried on one after the other. then at the last minute, i grabbed two sluardalams [the garment, not the person]. anyway, let's see--i got two new short-sleeved tops, one of those bohemian-looking skirts i've been searching for, and a bright blue pleated miniskirt [which was actually a tad too small but hell, i'm gonna squeeze into it anyway!], and abovementioned sluardalams. haha. anyway my sister finally put her foot down after tt, and when she later revealed tt i'd spent $600 so far, i realised i couldn't really blame her, could i?
anyway. after tt we went to tanah merah and picked up zaki and his equally-cute twin brother, rak or whatever his name is. they don't really look like twins, cos rak is chubbier, but whatever. and they have different hairstyles, but like i said, both looks work. haha. and they're SO funny, and they were like quoting p ramlee, so cute! we ate dinner/supper at bedok corner, and it was all really nice and fun. oh and in the car rak was like, "we should all go clubbing one day.." to which my sister replied, "den maner aku nak letak my brother?" but still. the promise is still there, right? a few technicalities though: my sister is clearly dating zaki, and they [as in the twins] both smoke. ohwell. whatever. oh it was so funny, when they were playing the Straw Game, and rak got like 2 straws in his mouth, in half the time it took for zul and zaki to finish theirs! okay whatever, you had to be there to appreciate it, i guess.

i spent all day sleeping! how much more piglike can i get?
yest yus and jau dropped by, what a pleasant surprise. they are so cute. yus and her big eyes; jau and his sepet eyes framed by glasses. haha. i love having people come by, but i have to be careful not to stand and chat for too long, skali kene marah, mampos aku.
there was this guy at table 6 with ryan-cabrera-ish hair, PLUS gold highlights! so it really looked like a lion's mane. and SO i found myself wondering if he was the 6-year-old boy's father, or brother/uncle/whatever. and while i was refilling their water, i wanted to ask, but i didn't want him to get the wrong idea so i just kept my mouth shut. haha.
ooh CCD was this guy, who came in and bought a cake off the shelves. he's malay, and probably another of those fathers i seem to be liking these days. haha. he asked for one big candle, so it cld be a one-year-anniversary cake, or a one-year-old's birthday cake, or a ten-year-old's birthday cake. or maybe it's a 57-year-old and he just wants to cut the hassle of five big and seven small candles. haha. but yeah he was good-looking.
and speaking of cakes, there's a 600g mango cake, with the inscription "would u marry me?". i kept hovering around the freezer and stared at the cake, oh i dunno, every 5 seconds? i was just so.. wowed. i mean, i know it's grammatically wrong and all [it's supposed to be "WILL you marry me?"], and that in this case, it was a girl who ordered the cake [tak malu punyer betina!], but STILL. the whole idea just swept me off my feet, and, as i said to liyana last night, "wow if someone gave me tt, i'd marry him straightaway." [of course, there are certain conditions regarding who "someone" can be, but generally, you know what i mean.]

i. am. so. sleepy. you should have seen my head lolling around on the bus just now. i just couldn't keep my eyes open. and before you tell me it's cos i sleep late, i have to say tt i've been sleeping at 2 a.m. regularly since i started work. so i dunno what's going on here, but i keep on doing a rip van winkle. it's really annoying, when i'd rather watch tv and stuff. like last night i fell asleep during anwar's and nadia's performances! how's that possible? it was like, 8 p.m.! so. something must be wrong with the air around me.
my off days were yest and today. so yest i met up with baba to watch the eye 10, which sucks so much, i wouldn't even watch it again if samit asked me along. oh but the day wasn't a total loss, cos there were just loads of ite mats [my favourite kind!], and ite viks, and viks in general. and if that's not enough, an entire convoy of army trucks rolled past, PLUS, there were budak2 CD also. haha. i am SO moving to yishun.
today i woke up at the now-unearthly hour of 5 a.m. went to rgs with sya to help out with their syf preparations, then jetted [in a bus] to rj to help out with THEIR syf preparations. it was good, it was all good. but seriously, i was totally bored out of my skull at the last few contemp items, i have no idea how they managed to get gold. saw alot of familiar people. besides the usual tarian community, there were the little RI boys, notably alimi and cute little saiful, whose older brother could have done well to join tarian too, at his age. haha.
and now my knees are like, worn out from all the kneeling i had to do while putting on makeup. haha. well, it's back to work tmr.

ohhh so sleepy.
got my hair braided by sya today, at lido, of all places. met silah, who was lunching with chuckie starbucks. turns out they're mates. haha.
it was my second day as cashier, and i goofed up a couple of times. i forgot to give 20% discount for the cake, and another time i didn't exempt the service charge. but it was all good, i didn't get scolded or anything. i just hope i don't forget whatever i've learnt so far. ooh there was one customer who tried to pay with a thousand-dollar note. i almost fainted of moneylust. haha. i've never seen a note in such a huge denomination before! unfortunately, we didn't have enough money in the cashbox so i didn't get the honour of slotting that beautiful note into the register. haha.
cute pizza boy khairul was working today. wow he's just so cute. and the other cute guy, the one with the cool ringtone, was working too. but i didn't hang around outside much. you know, being cashier and all. haha.
no CCD today. i just can't seem to think of anyone. anyway, we made much less today than yesterday, for some reason. but a few cute guys did walk past. haha. too bad i had to concentrate more on packing the cakes and breaking up the blocks of dry ice and stuff.
ohyes, there's going to be another new guy soon. yay! more XY chromosomes!!! haha. he's azhar's friend, so i'm sure he'll be just as nice.. and i better not let liyana think i like him or anything, i have enough to be dealing with right now, without another rumour running round the place. haha.

bad day. i'll try to summarise it.
i woke up, went to work, got out of the house right on schedule. only to find that.. i just missed the bus! okay, no big. i sat and waited for the next one. it came, i got on it. before it even reached the next stop, it broke down. i wanted to roll on the grass patch and scream. i didn't. i walked to the next bus stop and took the next bus, which happened to be 12. from the int i brisk-walked all the way to work, and burst into the storeroom to punch my card. only to find tt.. somehow my schedule was changed from 12-11 to 5-11, and NO ONE BOTHERED TO TELL ME. once again, i wanted to roll on the ground and scream. i didn't. i went home. and slept. it helped, kinda.
back at work again at 5, i found out tt eric would have switched my shift to 12-5 if i'd just stayed. and once again, the desire to scream. once again, i didn't.
but anyway, work itself was okay. eric [the head chef] said he missed me. haha. and there were plenty of contenders for today's CCD.
1, and the winner, was this genuinely handsome fair-skinned vik at table 7, dining with his mom. he had the brd chic and SCC sun. very handsome, and i think he's dined there before. anyway he's the hands-down winner.
2. guy-who-bumps-into-railings, prolly booking in, even though he was in civvies. he was with a girl--i'm not sure if it's his sister or not. he had practically the exact same thing he had the last time, except he had CC sun for dessert. i hate that he doesn't seem to know me. i was supporting him all the way when he was with baba. i've taken like a billion photos for them together. well. whatever.
last, and definitely least, were these 2 mats who ate like, $45+ worth of food, and did a runner. i was really crushed, cos i really thought they were cute. one was wearing those white-framed glasses, and the other had ash-coloured hair and great eyes. they sat outside, at table 61, and i convinced hannan to let me serve them, even though he was the one doing alfresco. they had 2 milkshakes and a main course each, plus 2 banana splits. i really thought they were cute and everything. they moved to table 44, and then in the scant few minutes there was no one outside, they scarpered. so u can imagine how crushed i was. i hate it when people i give the most attention to, turn out to be runaway billers. like the last pair of idiots, i practically showered them with attention! anyway, the MOD tonight was wan ing, so she was livid! she makied them all sorts of things, and declared that she'd bring them to the police if she ever found them. then she told hannan to kill them first, before calling in the police. wow. well the good thing about me thinking they're cute is that i'll definitely recognise them if i ever see them again.
anyway. yeah tt's it. what i love most about my job is the way it draws me in, and i forget all my other problems, until, finally, 11 o'clock comes and it's time for me to go home and think about all this other shit that i've been freed from for 6 hours.

baba saw the photo of me and karl, whom i introduced as "my new boyfriend", just for kicks, and freaked out. haha. looks like she's still fighting strong in her war against older guys. and by older i mean those born after december 31, 1986.
had lunch with fana at kamie's workplace a.k.a. centrepoint pizza hut. and there was this limlike girl working there, who turned out to have the same name as the nickname i gave to her. buat malu je. she also did this whole "sorry-can't-hear-you" pose, which cracked me up, and good.
oh and i bought 3 more of those giordano V-necked tops, in emerald, blue and white. haha. gotta have 'em!
argh i'm bracing myself for a crazy day at work tmr. 12-11 on a sunday? i may as well kill myself now.
i miss ex-con!

so yest was the EB05 finals party at the tent, which, btw, is not a club. haha. it's the huge white tent outside taka. anyway. overall impression: disappointingly anitclimactic.
the winner was, predictably, brendan lim. the universally cute, yet short, guy with what seems to be a fetish for ties. but he's very fun-cute. he was totally grinning during the striptease. tt was fun.
hm i don't remember ALL the subsidiary winners, but the too-cool bachelor was caleb lye. you know, the 1.9m-tall auditor. he really IS too cool. he plays the guitar and he sings so well, and he's just really cute! i have lotsa shots of him in action. haha. okay, then the bachelor with the best hair or whatever was keith prakash. woohoo! he HAD to win smthg, he's just so hot! oh and nathaniel ho won the bachelor with the most seductive voice or sum shit. haha. well i have no complaints lah, he's not THAT bad a singer, or how cld he get into idol right?
there were 2 very hot viks standing across from us, and i declared tt they're keith's brothers cos they're hot--duh--and they look like him.. and my theory was proved right when they cheered and clapped for him, and took his photos, but not those of the other bachelors. ha. i rock. anyway one brother is blonde and the other has black hair and was wearing the coolest shimmery olive brown shirt i've ever seen. shafa claims cool shirt is hotter than keith, but i beg to differ. but we DID agree that all three brothers shd have been featured in the bachelor spread. haha.
oh, some bachelors seemed to be MIA. like, ALL the angmoh ones or smthg. i totally don't remember seeing any botak guys other than kane or whatever his name is.. and i don't remember seeing the gael sydness guy either.. so like, where did they disappear to? hm anyway the rest of them look SO much better in person than in the photos, so don't be quick to criticise. hahaha. oh and fazril is still cute! i wanted to die. he's so cute and baik-looking, wow. and he was the only guy who was flanked by two models during the energie-and-miss-sixty catwalk. i bet they were fighting over him backstage.
ohyah i just remembered another subsidiary-award-winner. john eber. he was the bachelor who looks good in jeans or smthg like tt. cos they had this flesh parade of a selection of them, wearing just jeans.. and yeah he did look really hot, once u get past the shortness. seriously. the cutest ones were the shortest ones. but who cares. besides shafa, anyway. haha.
spot-the-celebrity? hm there were past-year winners, mark zee, leslie kwok [woohoo!] and another hot guy whose name i forgot.. and there was fiona xie with a tousled hairstyle I'd never get away with.
oh God how could i forget? we [me, shafa and nabilah] were standing outside the taka lobby, wondering if we shd start queueing up, and who comes strolling out, in a blue shirt, with his skinny manjen gf? this really cute vik. and i was about to point him out to shafa when i realised he wasn't just ANY cute vik, he was carlsberg guy! oh God. i was NEVER supposed to see him again! tt was the whole point! never! ever! why did he have to appear, on tt night, to attend the very same event i was supposed to? anyway i spent the next few minutes trying to find a suitable hole to crawl into and hide the rest of my life away. but on hindsight, he probably never recognised me.
yep. tt was it. my EB05 experience. billions of photos taken, none with the bachelors. so i just have tt one photo with karl. btw, my mom sounded me about tt photo this afternoon.. she sort of asked how old he was and how i knew him. haha. so i simplified things and said he was a friend. it's too leceh to explain right, and she probably wouldn't get it anyhow. but anyway it was quite funny, cos she was implying tt he's old and looks angmoh.
hm i'm sure all the fun was at the after-party, but i was just in no mood to even try and convince shafa to go. so haha. takpelah.

i've been having a spate of odd dreams. there was this one a few days back featuring ex-con at a barbecue wearing his usher getup and cheeky smile. and last night's dream had guy-who-bumps-into-railings writing me a love letter, and then morphing into sluardalam [the guy, not the object] when i went to meet him. !!!
work was nice today. takde members ah, but at least ah hao was around. he's funny. and after work i started talking to a couple of girls, one of whom works at T2 swensen's.. finally i joined them at their table and we just sat there talking till like 7ish. so cool. i love making new friends. and they know a couple of the pizza guys--the cute chubby one who's apparently called khairul, and the cute jongang one. something about a friend's ex, or an ex's friend. haha. hmph. unfair. the only guys i know are stupid face, and the singing guy, and nan, whom everyone knows. see i don't even know most of their names. oh haha and there was this girl wearing a denim miniskirt riding pillion, and we were watching her and laughing, waiting to see her melorot on the bike, but her boyfriend was going quite slow. haha. anyway the 2 girls i was talking to look painfully familiar, but i just can't figure out where i know them from! well.. it'll come to me eventually, i hope. and now i can go to T2 swensen's, and i'll know someone there. coolness.
tmr's the big night. can't wait!

ohh i am tired.
worked the 12-5 today. it was ok, CCD was this MJ guy in j1, who had a topless 5. he's like a vik/mim, i can't figure out which. i did trash detail with liyana, who loves doing it even though she doesn't have to. after work jessica came with me for the free ZA makeover tt jeslyn got but didn't want. anyway. it was quite cool, except the base she used was like 72957394 times lighter than my actual skin tone. i love the way she opened up my eyes though, and used blue mascara on the tips of my lashes.
took 359 home, and guess who was on the bus as well? the malay family from yest. u know, the one that made me wish for a handsome husband and cute baby too. it was quite cool. i KNEW they looked familiar. they even got off at the same stop as me.
was super late in meeting shafa. I used to be the early one! what has happened to me? we watched in good company, where i realised tt topher grace can't really break out of his eric role. but i think he came close in win a date. ahhh.. yes, how well i remember tt movie. anyway, thanks to shafa's philantrophy, i got miami glow at tangs afterwards. woohoo! i am the proud owner of a bottle of miami glow! i can't believe it. i can't wait to use it. either wed night, or thurs night, whichever comes first. woohoo! woohoo! woohoo! we had supper at delifrance. the mat working there is cute, with cute big hair. haha. and he was singing along to the songs. ahh a work-soulmate.
decided to drop by swensen's since i was just in time for closing. and i was greeted by a feast of spicy potato, fries, curry and rice, garlic pita, and semi-melted gold rush. aper lagie.. kebas ah! haha. even though i was full from delifrance, i mean, good food shouldn't go to waste.. actually i wanted to hang with liyana, but umar menyebok, so i decided to just talk to her another day. haha.

hi. i'm still full. from dinner. guess where i had dinner? crown prince swensen's. giler sak aku. i had sirloin steak, WD, black pepper sauce. and i finished my brother's fries cos it just irritates me when people don't finish their food. and i had a raspberry ice-cream blended. and i had a gold rush. i know, i know. i'm crazy. i just couldn't help it! i mean, for once, i wasn't paying!
anyway. work was okay, started off really boring actually. but there was this family that made me say to liyana and kak nores, "i wish i was married to a handsome husband like that with a cute baby like that.." the baby is really cute! this like, 2-year-old boy or smthg.. and he has really unique-looking eyes.. and he's SO cute, his dad was like carrying him, and he [the baby] was looking at me, so u know what i did? i ducked behind his dad's back, and popped back out, and he totally burst out laughing! but i was so embarrassed cos like, i was using his DAD as a prop! so i walked away ah. but the baby kept looking at me so this time i ducked behind eric and popped back out. he loved it. [the baby, not eric.] ah it was so cool. and the baby's dad is today's CCD. he's tall and fair and malay and has a cool goatee. and he reminds me of force vomit's bassist. heh.
what else happened during work? ohyes kak nores and liyana were making fun of ex-con. i dunno, liyana was saying smthg about, "dia gi sembahyang jumaat agaknye.." and i was like, "yarrite. i don't think he prays at all! i don't think he's even touched a sejadah before!" and liyana added, "i don't think he even kenal ape tu sejadah.." and she proceeded to imitate him, "sejadah tu ape ah?" like, with the expression and intonation down pat. and kak nores joined in, "asal ah aku kena kenal ape tu sejadah?" oh God. it was SO crazy. and mean! and funny, i have to admit.
my sister picked us up at like 645 and we had dinner like i said above. cute botak vik sup/manager was at our station, and he's really nice, and he spoke malay to us. cool. anyway we took so long eating dinner that by the time we were done, 75% of the shops were closed. but we managed to buy tshirts in this cool tshirt shop catering to my brother's tastes [although they have this admittedly cute range of spongebob tshirts] and i got sandals at anna nucci, and a tube top in one of those teeny shops at far east. then we went to wisma and i dragged them into forever 21, where i got 2 long-sleeved tops. haha. by the time i was done it was too late to visit topman/topshop, so, sorry to my brother. haha.
finally we went home. but it wasn't even 11! argh! we picked up zaki, my sister's colleague.. he's the guy i thought was her cute roommate. well, he IS cute, but ISN'T her roommate. haha. but seriously. he's cute. and he asked me to go clubbing with him. let's hope it wasn't an ajak� ayam.

hey. had a GREAT day! although it started shittily by my waking up exactly 2 minutes AFTER i was due at pasir ris mrt to meet shafa. i dunno what's with me and waking up late these days.
anyway.
went swimming at downtown east with shafa. it was fun as usual. and kak nores, liyana and jess came abit later. i'm so glad i went early with shafa cos they stayed for like an hour je! haha. oh yes and i wore a bikini, i felt like i was violating some general beautification rule or smthg. haha. but it was quite liberating, and at least my stomach is less pale now. haha.
went to eat at magic wok. poor shafa didn't have an easy time of it, but my dish was really quite nice. i liked it. and i was almost fainting with the deliciousness of the two-dollar lime juice. money well-spent, i say.
then we went for the EB preview. we were like half-an-hour late or so. and it wasn't till it was almost over tt we realised we missed our respective favourites [keith and nathaniel. guess who's whose favourite!]. but anyway. it was cool, cos there was like a fashion parade of 12 of the EBs at the end, and keith and the cute malay guy, fazril, came out at the same time! i was just dying there. and yes i did try to take photos but most of the time i just screwed it up. so i got one jauh one of brendan. and u know what, they actually had to walk past us! i was THIS close to them! yet i fumbled the photo-taking. sheesh. i wanted to kick myself. finally, when it was over and we got our EB finals invites, we made our way to the direction of forum, and met karl ho at the crown prince traffic light. shafa was kind enough to ask him to take a photo with me, and now i have a photo with an EB! he's really nice, and so cool..
after traipsing all over far east, we finally settled at scotts coffee bean, where cute ex-WS coffee bean guy wasn't working, but a cute vik, reminiscent of marie, was. we got the red plushies in the corner, and we just stoned there for like 2 hours, alternately obsessing over Sad, nat, ex-con, thinking about what to wear this thursday, and going over plans for my club. haha. tt was fun.
then we went to the esplanade to catch force vomit in action. they're quite cool ah. hehe. tt's all i can say here. but i had fun!

i went to work early just so i cld watch ex-con work for a couple of minutes. but it was not to be, cos he didn't come for work. sheesh.
but i had fun anyway. multiple CCDs!!!
1. this cute malay boy [i think around 15] with cool hair and a cool tshirt. i couldn't decide at first whether he was cute. but after taking their orders [he had fish and chips, and WHAT is it with malay families and lamb chop/steak?], i decided he was cute cos he was wearing celak! and his stare is really penetrating. oh but when he stood up he was actually shorter than me, which is quite short. still. he'll grow, i'm sure.
2. Cute Stripes!!! remember him? he's from the post dated 3 Feb.. and he was wearing the same shirt, which was why i recognised him from the moment i spotted him in the queue. he was like 5 parties behind in the queue, but when i saw tt green-and-white striped shirt, my mind went *boing* and i hissed to no one in particular, "omg it's him!" kak nores told me he's been coming in for a long time.. and he used to be a punk nerd. a SINGLE punk nerd, who liked one of the ex-full-timers. wow. anyway he's still cute, still giving off tt aifi vibe, and still very nice. i served their ice water--menyebok really, cos i wasn't even doing alfresco--and he said "terima kasih" which i felt compelled to respond to with a "sama2". haha. i also sebok2ed delivered their food.. haha.. but other than tt, i left him alone, and this time he didn't come in for extra stuffs. darn.
3. this tall, dark and sharp-featured vik who had ice-cream with his parents. his hair is really cool. it has 2 detailed shaved lines at the side. niceee.. but actually he's not tt cute ah, he just has style. haha.
the other singing guy was working today. he's so cute. haha. too bad i wasn't working outside. and the cute melayu-looking pizza guy was working too. but i didn't get to see much of him ah. darn. on the days the cute guys are working, i just HAVE to be working inside. sheesh. well anyway kak nores says his name is fahmi. so tt's one less nickname to be confused with. haha.
coffee bean manager came back again. heh. and i think cute adam sandler has quit, but he was hanging ard white sands with his similarly-cute friends. bes..

i asked munz to check out ex-con's photos on friendster. and she sent me a really impassioned message.
help!
oh mannnn

he is so poser!!! :)

but i like the 6 pack thing! :) hahah is it really his?

anyhow, ok lah he looks v jiffy. hmmmm but so POSER. cannot tahan!

pls drop him k

either tt or you GET him!

nothing in btwn sister!

love
mun yuk
meaning that right now, i'm "in btwn". haha. well there's no way i can "GET" him. and for the time being, there's no way i can "drop him" either.
hm. okay shall make this quick. no CCD. ah hao was being really weird at one point. and i was complaining to wenxing abt this being ex-con's last week. but of cos i had to refer to ex-con as "abang" for simplicity's sake. haha. the cute singing pizza guy was working. and he was singing again.. this time he sang i'll be there. he's so cute! jongang teeth and all. haha. hope he's working again tmr. the OTHER singing pizza guy was working in the afternoon. he never seems to work nights. bo-ring. oh and hannan and i had chicken-and-fish baked rice after work. yum.

hm. work: typical. CCD: yet another father, one of those vik-mim types. but it was hannan today, and he's always alot of fun.
i think cute adam sandler pizza guy quit or smthg, i haven't seen him for a week.
went for coffee with munz and sya at tampines. it was fun. lots of stories and lots of mats and everything. we shd definitely do it again.

i had this scary dream about ex-con. as in, it wasn't a cerita hantu or anything.. it was just scary cos it confirmed a few things regarding him, that i don't really want to be true. anyway. whatever.
went swimming with liyana just now, and we got a shock when eric came and joined us! haha. there were also lots of mats in black at the bus stop. and they were all cute. whee! haha. anyway it was a great swimming/tanning session, i'm noticeably darker again. haha.
work was horrible though. in the hour or so tt i spent at home, i'd somehow begun to realise how much i'm gonna miss ex-con. so i went to work extra early. haha. but i didn't get to talk to him, actually. he left really quickly for some reason. so during the first 2 hours of work i was really grumpy and irritable. umar kept telling me to smile, but i just jelinged at him. i guess it just hit me today that i'm probably never gonna see ex-con again, after this week. and work is going to be such a drag without the promise of him around. i don't think smiling and being pleasant during work is going to be very easy starting sunday. and i almost started crying at one point. this is crazy. this is dumb. i hate this. i'm sure i'll get over it though. eventually. but the first few weeks are gonna be pretty rough. i mean, i was staring disbelievingly at next week's schedule, willing his name to appear. like, whatever man.
oh they were fumigating the place just now and the 2 guys doing the job are really funny! the younger one is even kinda cute. and the older one is REALLY crappy-funny. he was like, laughing in a setan-like way in the kitchen cos it was all dark and stuff. haha. tak betul. and they were quite friendly.. i love friendly people.. and i asked them to fumigate the alfresco area too. but of course i'm sure when they sed yes, that they were just kidding.
there's a cute new pizza guy. he's fair and tembam, and reminiscent of some manjen rugger ah. haha. but joseph totally spoiled things by telling nan tt i wanted his number [which i SO did not! i don't ask for guys' numbers! get lost!]. i didn't go outside for the next 15 minutes. kurang asam siak.
i talked to some customers today, 3 jc1s--a girl and two boys. they're quite nice.. and i kept plying them with water.. cos u know, they're students, limited finances and all, so i decided to make the 10% service charge well worth it. i love talking to customers, it's alot of fun.. and it's easier to talk to people when u're a CSR, as opposed to just a girl with a grumpy face. haha.
CCD was this vik with a cool sculpted goatee. his gf is really petite, even smaller than baba i think.. and she spoke malay to him so i assume he's indian-muslim. he totally reminded me of OM! [which explains why i gave him the coveted title of CCD..] seriously. he's a quarter-shade fairer than OM, but the eyes and the nose.. wow. yeah i'd say he looks like OM with abit of david [de cruz]. haha.

I won't dance, don't ask me
I won't dance, don't ask me
I won't dance, madame with you
My heart won't let my feet do things that they should do

You know what, you're lovely
You know what, you're so lovely
And, oh, what you do to me

I'm like an ocean wave that's bumped on the shore
I feel so absolutely stumped on the floor

When you dance, you're charming and you're gentle
'Specially when you do the Continental
But this feeling isn't purely mental
For Heaven rest us, I'm not asbestos

And that's why
I won't dance, why should I?
I won't dance, how could I?
I won't dance, merci beaucoup

I know that music leads the way to romance
So if I hold you in my arms, I won't dance
mm i love jazz.

before i launch into more nonsense about ex-con, let's get the necessaries out of the way.
dropped by wisma mendaki today to get the forms. or rather, went out of my way to go to wisma mendaki today to get the stupid forms which turned out to be the same as the one online. was completely surrounded by vs boys as i waited to take 31 to tampines int. changed my mind when the 31, after 1048693 freaking years, arrived, and completely bypassed the bus stop cos it was full. trekked in the other direction, to the 12 bus stop, only to just miss my bus. what a horrible afternoon.
CCD was this guy at table 43 who was with his gf. he's all tall and nice to look at and just very manly.. haha..
there were quite alot of pizza guys on duty just now, considering it was monday night. but the cute singing guy was working so i have no complaints. he's really cute. and i'm pretty sure he's fairly young. haha. like, nan's age at most. [nan's 22.] oh nan was being really setan just now. i blew out one tealight, and he was like, "alah aku baru nak tiup.." so i said to him, "ah, gi tiuplah.." and he was like, "takpelah.. have fun blowing.." he added with relish. but anyway i'm starting to see why kak nores likes him. haha.
wenxing caught me out today. i was in the kitchen [drinking the ice-cream blended kindly made by ex-con] and he asked me, "how old are u? 18 ah?" and i was like, "yah 18.. this year 19.." and then he asked, "abang how old?" and i stupidly replied, "abang same as me.. but turned 19 already.." then the gravity of what i just said hit me and i gave a strangled yelp and ran out of the kitchen all red in the face. oh God.
anyway i was in one of my giggly good moods today, thanks to ex-con. he was in a good mood too, like breaking out into song every other minute or so. it was quite cute. and when i caught him singing, he'd give tt sheepish smile and i'd just melt inside. haha.. oh God i am so gonna miss him when he goes to NS. i don't think i can take it!!!!!!!

i'm not in the best of moods. and i know exactly why.
but anyway. work was okay. no CCD, but in their place were these 2 cute little malay boys with spiky hair. really adorable. they're brothers, around 6-9 years old ah..
ex-con was working the 12-5, and when i came in he was like, "ain, boleh mintak satu favour tak?" like i said before, i can't say no to him. but i CAN prevent myself from saying yes. haha. i just stand there and stare at him. it's the best i can do. anyway he wanted me to switch with him for sunday afternoon. i didn't really mind, but i said, "oklah!" really harshly, so he was like, "alah takpelah, kalau kau marah tak payahlah.." and he looked so adorable i insisted on switching with him, albeit in that same harsh tone. haha. and his cute cheeky smile when i sed okay was just so yargh!!! i'm sorry, okay? i know he takes advantage of the fact tt i like him, 24/7, but i just can't help it. even liyana was telling me in the bus home, that she thinks i deserve someone better, and that he's the kind of guy who doesn't treat girls well, and that he's never really appreciated anything i've done for him [the zippo, getting off the cab home first, ALL the chores i've done in his place, etc].. but i'm just dumb larh. liking him despite all his shittiness--this isn't what they call "unconditional love", it's unconditional stupidity.

i had another of those freaky dreams i'm known for getting. THIS one had me in a train [MRT, of course] with fana, going to some dance class for the first time. sitting opposite us were 2 really pretty aimees. so we were just looking at them and agreeing how pretty they were and stuff.. and at the next stop, these 2 viks get on, and the 2 girls immediately pretend to be asleep. please don't ask why. i don't know why. the 2 viks sit, one on either side of the 2 girls. and i look at them properly and i realise tt one of them is samit. and the other is, of course, bodyguard. and i'm all excited and crestfallen at the same time--excited cos you know, it's samit; crestfallen cos it seems like he's getting it on with one of the girls, and what chance do i have against her? anyway i try to act normal and everything, and after lots of stops, samit and the 2 girls get up, and greet this man, who seems to have appeared out of nowhere. then they make their way to the door, saying bye to the bodyguard. THEN samit changes his mind and walks over to ME[!] and says, "hey no-rain.. we're going to [some dance class], wanna come along?" and i'm all shocked so all i can do is refuse, and he's like, "hey, come on.. i mean, you can do malay dance and everything, so you'll be great..!" to complicate things further, the man [who i now know is his dad] steps in and says, "yeah you'll do really well in this class.. come and join us!" well i don't know why i keep declining, but i do, and my reply this time is, "maybe next time.." and samit nods and says, "okay.. maybe next time.. bye.." and they get off the train, leaving bodyguard sleeping in the corner opposite us, and me and fana wondering what just happened.
argh, yeah i know, stupid dream!

had a busy morning. i went to rj with nadia to watch a bit of tarian. the payungs are SO nice! i wanted to bring one home. haha. they're purple or pink organza-ish material, with flower appliques. really soft and feminine and just very pretty. oh and the tarian was nice too. haha.
after tt i met shafa at bukit batok to go swimming at my sister's place. there's an entire condo district at hume avenue! it's crazy! i saw at least 8 different condos.. anyway my sister's at parc palais, it's lovely. the aparment is nice and big and airy with like 2 entrances and i think 3 rooms, and enough bathrooms for shafa and me to shower comfortably. and the pool? don't even get me started on that. it's positively huge, in fact, i daresay it's lagoonlike. haha. and there are 2 sections which are like just platforms covered by a few cms of water, where people lie to tan, or sit and read. nice..
finally i went home and slept away most of the day. ohyeah. almost forgot. my sister's roommate is cute. or at least, the parts of my sister's roommate tt i cld see looked cute. haha.

i had SUCH a great day at work today. and to think my day started out horribly!
i mean, i woke up at like 1135 this morning. and i screamed. [understandable, considering i had to be at work in 10 minutes.] i did express showering and stuff, and i reached work at like 1201. [but that's only because the clock at work is like 10 minutes slow.] and i went to the fountain to get a drink, and ex-con was there, doing the ice water. i wanted to faint. and he was like, "kau kerje ke?" really sceptically. and i giggled and sed yes. and he asked, "kau kerje pagi ke?" and i giggled somemore and sed, "'ah'ah.." and then he sed, "aku ckp ngan kau jgn ketawalah!" but i couldn't help it. i was all pissed off and sleepy and whatever to begin with, and suddenly he's just there, without me even expecting to see him! he was supposed to be working at 5, but actually umar told me he switched with hannan, but i thought umar was just kidding with me. oh you can't imagine how happy i was.
anyway he was really nice today. like, he smiled more than usual and he was just very agreeable and stuff.. maybe cos he was doing service for the first time in weeks. haha.. argh he's so incredibly cute, it's like whenever i was at one end and he was at the other end and i'd glance at him, he just looked really really unbearably good.
it was quite busy during lunchtime, so i didn't get to talk to him much during work, but in the late afternoon he was like, "ain kau nak makan tak nanti? share ngan aku ah.." and of course, i had to say yes. i can't say no to him. i just can't. and he asked me to choose what to eat. and at first i chose prawn dippers cos he claimed he only wanted to "makan sikit". then he was like, "prawn dippers? aku ingat nak makan pasta ke.." haha. so i chose fish pas. cos i absolutely love it. oh and later eric was like showing us some advert for some europa club, with freeflow of beer or whatever on ladies night [thurs]. and ex-con was like, all for it and he looked at me and he sed, "eh, pergi ah.." haha. yeah it was great. it was fun. i like working with eric, i mean, he didn't even scold me for coming late.
well, work finally ended. it seemed the time just flew by. and i went and sat outside with him, with the knowing smiles of umar, hannan, jessica AND wenxing trailing behind me. haha it was really funny when we were paying for the food, cos we had to pay like $7.30 and i was gonna pay first, and then wan ing was like, "kamu bayar untuk dia ah?" in a semi-reprimand. haha. anyway he let me pay like 3 bucks, which i think was quite nice of him. hm i thought it'd be weird eating infront of him, but he paid more attention to his food, so i could relax and take my time. he ate like doubly-quick so in the end i just gave him most of my share. hey, i mean, i like the guy, so whatever makes him happy man.. it was less pedas than i remembered, but nice anyway. i topped it off with orange sherbet, and we hung out there with kak diana till like 6-plus..
shit he's so cute! i want to die! and i took 2 ringtones from his phone and he remembers my email! sighhhhhhhhhhhhh.. okay this could take all night. for now, i'm done. i'm on an ex-con high..

wow-wow-wow-wow-wow. i'm watching growing up gotti now, and the landscapers [everyday landscaping] are pretty damn hot!
today's CCD was this like, 15-year-old malay boy. [the age is just an estimate.] he was with his mom, and he had fish and chips. and i took particular interest in their welfare, cos he was just so cute! all sharp-featured and slim and medium-tanned. he's in tennis, i think probably the school team. and he was in tennis whites somemore. ahhh cute. i refilled his ice water when it was running low and his mom acherli made conversation with me! i mean, tt's practically the first step, isn't it? talking to his mom.. hahaha. and he even ate his coleslaw with relish [no pun intended]. a sayur-eating boy. excellent to complement Carnivore Ain.
wenxing suaned me again today! ["kamu nyer abang dah balik ah?"] i asked him who told him about ex-con and he said he just knew. oh God. ohyah and the moment i started work, ah hao started flicking water on me. so i doused him with my water glass. haha. forever bullying me sey. do i have a "bully-me-please" face? cos if so, then it's time for an appointment with woffles wu.
sigh. ex-con. just when i think i'm gonna stop liking him, he comes out and does something cute/stupid/funny that only I find cute/stupid/funny, and whatever shit i feel for him is all revived. today he was sitting outside after work and he was like, "excuse me! can get me a coke? vanilla coke.." and i just stood there and stared at him while jessica and hannan laughed. then he added, "please..? ..please.." and i was like, "one more 'please'.." and he complied with my request, so i went and got him the freakin vanilla coke. argh i am a loser!
u know, i knew umar wasn't the most baik guy in the world, but i didn't think he was THAT bad. sigh. i think everyone at my workplace has a dark side. it's crazy.
joseph was being mortally annoying today. he kept calling my name in tt fucking annoying way only he can pull off, for no other purpose than to annoy me! jingwen is starting to sympathise with me, it's THAT bad. but at least she's on my side now, and she abuses him and gives me sympathetic smiles and scolds him occasionally for bothering me, which makes this all a little easier to bear.

i had THE freakiest dream. it featured me, pregnant with, and then giving birth to, twin girls. omg. and they were HUGE twin girls! and i was all flustered about breastfeeding them or smthg stupid liddat. also in the dream was arman. remember arman? he's the cute boy who's 5 years younger than me, currently in sec 2 at st pat's. he was apparently a customer at WS swensen's and i was trying to flirt with him. argh. what a stupid freaky dream!
no CCD today, i think. but the coffee bean manager came back again.. i got to see him for five full seconds. haha. and i have a crush on one of the new pizza guys. he's fair and medium-tall, and quite handsome, melayu-looking.. and his phone's message tone is how we do, which was really the clincher for me. haha.
after work i had a strawberry super soda, rice, curry, fries, fish and strawberry ice-cream. i had to endure more of joseph's annoying crap. it was extra horrible tonight somehow. he actually pinched me and tried to hit me with a tin of sweets. fucker siak. i was screaming and hiding behind umar alternately. but seriously, i'm started to get fucking pissed off with him. why does he always pick on me? even jingwen notices. and i'm gonna be seeing more of him tmr. just great.
i'm SO sad tt mario decided to pull out! he was such a shoo-in! and i love him! but i'm slightly pacified by the fact tt this means tt nikko is back in. i love nikko too. haha. yay.

oohwee! haha sorry. it was another lovely day at work today. all the fun people--most of them anyway. haha. i wasn't doing alfresco [azhar], which i was pretty miffed about at first, but i changed my mind when i saw how busy he was tonight. haha.
okay, CCD was this father of two at table 6. he had sirloin, MW with mushroom sauce i think. his son is really cute. hm and i think he's a vik, he was all vik-nosed and tall and wearing silver stuff on his wrist.
anyway at like 10pm we ran out of two-ply rolls [as in for bills], and kak nores and eric were like, "must get from tampines.." and i was like thinking to myself, wow maybe hilman will come and send the two-plys.. so i blurted out loud, "yah, get from hilman!" and the two of them laughed. five minutes later, eric was like, "norain! go and see ur hilman.." and i was caught completely off-guard. i was like, "huh? go tampines ah?" and they were like, "yalah!" and i was like, "now?" and also "take train ah?" all these duh statements were spilling out of my mouth like water from an overturned mop bucket. [okay pardon the extra duhness.] anyway i went over to the tampines swensen's, telling myself, you won't be so lucky, ain, why would he be working tonight? and i walked in and talked to the sup, while glancing around the place. i recognised omar immediately. and i was like, sheesh, omar buat aper.. but i didn't give up and continued looking around while the sup collected all the rolls into two plastic bags. and there he was! i wanted to die. he looked the same.. and i just kept staring at him, willing him to see me and recognise me. he was about 5-8 metres away.. and i overheard him offer to soda the tables or smthg. he glanced at me, but he didn't recognise me, cos he went right back to work after tt.. sigh. it was so sad. and i was THIS close to asking the sup, "is tt hilman? can u ask him to come here?" but i kept my mouth shut. i was all bouncy and happy when i returned to WS, it was great just seeing him again.
after work i had a mini-kenduri with hannan. curry and rice and fries, 2 different kinds of fish fillet and fries, black sesame ice-cream, san fran kid, and some cream of leek and onion soup. so. it explains why i'm still awake now.

someone searched for "baba shafia ain" yest [13th March 2005 01:47:38 AM]--how freaky is that?
anyway, i had a REALLY great day today! wow. i shall detail it, bit by bit here, so... you've been warned.
met baba at tampines to have lunch at the TM swensen's.. she was late, so i bought a copy of april cleo and browsed through the bachelors--some of whom are too hot to be allowed and others who are questionable at best--and did discreet mat-watching. hehe. ANYWAY. the moment we walked in there was this cute guy, cina-ish malay ah.. his jeans are super damn low [they're also hang ten. remind me to buy a pair!] and he was wearing a walkie-talkie and everything and he just looked really cute ah. and lucky for us, we were at his station. so there was lots of interaction with him. he served us ice water, and he took our order, cleared our plates, stuff liddat. his name, btw, is md hilman. how interesting. anyway it was really funny at first cos baba and i already knew what we wanted to buy so when they gave us the menus, we just put them aside, and flipped thru our respective cleos instead. haha. the food was great, we had the fish pas, sea pas and sambal fish. and the fish pas has become my new favourite food. it's SO nice! yums. later we had a top 5 each. baba was rattling off the abbreviations ["SCC, FCM, CPBC.."]--buat malu je.. i had van-lime SH [which tastes like that green-and-white stick icecream!!!], cookies, cofy, MAF and mango [which i've never tasted before, and it's quite nice..]. sedapnye. i'm getting hungry all over again just thinking about it. haha. no sorry tt's a lie. i was totally stuffed to the brim. but it was all so delicious, i almost licked the sundae dish clean. i said "almost". ooh and i was using my pen to write something, and i terdropped it ah.. and hilman just leaped up out of nowhere and helped me retrieve it. i don't think i'm ever gonna throw tt pen away. and my bag was open and i think they all saw my uniform. haha. buat malu. but anyway, we were finally done so we asked hilman for the bill and baba pandai2 gi kasi exact change, so we spent a few nail-biting minutes wondering if they'd return us the billfold so we cld tip hilman. but don't worry, he returned it to us, and baba took the breakfast flyer while i took the receipt with HIS NAME on it, and i slipped in a $2 note, and at baba's insistence, i gave him back the billfold just to make sure he got the tip. haha. i shd have scribbled my number on it or smthg. hahaha. anyway he like, gave it to his manager. bodoh nyer budak. but she gave it back to him, and i dunno if it went into the tip box or his own pocket in the end. we left a few minutes later, and JUST in time to see him come out of the dishwashing area and smile at him! oohwee!
and then i had work. as usual, joseph HAD to comment on my dressing and stuff. but work was great. it was apparently quite busy in the morning, but it was pretty slow during my shift, and i was doing alfresco somemore. i had like, a total of less than 10 customers at any one time. quite slack. and of cos, my alleged "abang" was working. haha. he was really quite nice today. there were a couple of milkshake orders, and after i saw him drink some in the kitchen, i said, "eh, kalau kau ader milkshake jgn hog ah.. kasi aku sikit.." and then he was like, "kat dapur ader, kau ambik ah.." wow.. and later there was an MAF M/M/S, and he offered it to me! excellent. then we were doing closing, and i was looking for gloves, so i asked him, and he pointed vaguely to some spot ah, so i was like, huh.. and he was like, "mata besar pun tak nampak.." WOW. i wanted to melt right there. then after work he asked if i wanted to go to tunnel on the 30th. of cos i sed okay. but we'll see how it goes. hehe.
i still got suaned ah. i was like, watching ah-boy make the sal rice using cream sauce, then wenxing was like, "dia handsome ah?" referring to ah-boy, so i was like, "TAK AH!" and then wenxing was like, "yalah, botak handsome ah?" botak=ex-con. sheesh. and lots of times during the night he suaned me for being inside when i was supposed to be outside, and kept pointing to the fountain. buat malu je.
CCD was this really nice malay guy wearing nusantara pants and a 2000 kayaking expedition tshirt, with 2 kids. NO they're not his kids. they're his cousins. i know, cos joseph asked him. hahaha. oh and sya paid a short visit.
yup all in all it was a great day for me.

wow. great way to fuck up my day. a pair of fucking runaway billers. two skinny manjen males, and oh i just can't go on. it's too painful. worst of all was the look on kak nores' face when i told her. anyway, hanan and i had to split the cost of $28.75.. which works out to slightly over 14 fucking dollars. it was horrible.
other than the above, it was a great day. i was doing alfresco with hanan and it's easy and nice talking to him.. no CCD, unless you count this NS guy who bought some takeaway coffee derivative. and filza came by for a bit.. haha i think it was the first time i've seen her in tudung.. yeah it was a good workday cos it was all the fun ppl i.e. all malays--me, liyana, kak nores, azhar, hanan, umar, and eric. okay eric's not malay, but he's really nice and fun. and there was stella but she was doing cashier so tak kira ah.. haha..
and for supper i had the leftovers of the abovementioned pair of assholes, rice and cream sauce and chilli sauce. bes.. plus a S/S SCC. it's not bad, but i prefer cookies.

yo yo. today was oklah, boring though, cos no actual CCD and no interesting customers or anything. there were some very cute little kids though. a filipino/indon/what else baby at table 21 with the biggest liquid black eyes and boyot cheeks. adorable nak mampos! then later he was replaced by this malay toddler, who was almost as chubby, with wavy brownish hair. i think lots of hair looks great on kids. if you know what i mean.
waitressing is not a nail-friendly activity. my beautiful express manicure is all chipped and scratched now. what a pity. ohwell. it was free, yah?
more suaning today. [i can't believe i'm saying tt. i thought tt once i left organised skl, i'd never have to say tt again. ANYWAY.] it was set off by joseph as usual, this time with, "where's ur loverboy? not working tmr ah?" and i went nuts and i started wailing at him, accusing him of telling everyone especially the cooks about ex-con. everyone else was laughing [esp azhar], as joseph vehemently denied telling the cooks. he sed tt wenxing already knew about it before. which i really can't believe, but he looked like he was telling the truth. and then jingwen sed, "aiyah, just suka wat.. tak payah malu lah.." which made me stop and think. [only on the inside, i kept ranting and raving on the outside.]
next week's another 6-day week. kurang asam. and only one day with ex-con. tt is if he doesn't switch with someone again. i guess baba's right. it's a sign tt it's just not meant to be.
i love this song. love the movie too.
Down with love, the flowers and rice and shoes
Down with love, the root of all midnight blues
Down with things that give you that well-known pain
Take that moon and wrap it in cellophane

Down with love, let's liquidate all its friends
The moon, the June, the roses, and rainbow's ends
Down with songs that moan about night and day
Down with love, yes, take it away, away

Take it away, take it away
Give it back to the birds, and the bees, and the Viennese
Down with eyes, romantic and stupid
Down with sighs, and down with Cupid
Brother let's stuff that Dove
Down with love
Oh let's go

Down with things that give you that well-known pain
Take that moon and wrap it in cellophane

Down with songs that moan about night and day
Down with love, take it away, away

Take it away, take it away
Give it back to the birds, and the bees and the Viennesse

Down with eyes, romantic and stupid
Down with sighs, and down with Cupid
Brother let's stuff that Dove
Brother let's stuff that Dove
Brother let's stuff that Dove
Down with love
Down with love
Down with love
Down with love

ooh i watched hitch today and it was really nice.. all cute and funny.. and hitch's pad is so freakin' cool! oh and the soundtrack is amazing. it's a cute mix of dulu2ish songs and R&Bish stuff.
went to the clean & clear best friends roadshow thingy today, with my best friend, of course. haha. we had a makeover and express manicure [which i later ruined] and a close-up polaroid taken, all with the enjoyably cute randall tan in the background. it was lotsa fun, except for the part where we waited close to 2 hours for the so-called express manicure. haha. baba took an extremely blurry photo with randall, and *I* realised that architects or whoever designs indoor railings and escalators are basically voyeurs, cos you can see right up people's skirts with those babies. so remind me never to go near railings and stuff if i'm wearing a skirt.
there were 3 extremely cute kids in the train. this brother-and-sister pair--sonia, who started singing you are my sonia when she introduced herself, and also told us she was two years old while holding up one finger; aa-something [i didn't really catch it] who has the most charming smile. he also has the softest-looking and most beautiful brown curls i've ever seen on a male. really beautiful kids. oh to have kids as beautiful as them. oh to have kids. okay i digress. the third one was this baby who reminded me of a rugger, and according to baba, specifically sherman. haha. funn-ay. no but seriously he was so cute. he's a chinese indonesian, and it's quite obvious he got his looks from his dad. and he was sitting in a stroller, but with one foot crossed over the other, and one hand extended behind him supporting his head. oh he was incredibly adorable.. and he kept grabbing at my bag, so i just let him. actually sonia liked my bag too. she liked the M&M's square. Man I Love Kids.
ooh i spent an unplanned 10 bucks today, cos there was this "2days" sale at level 3 far east. and there was this really nice trucker cap! so i just HAD to get it. you know what that's like. haha.
we stoned at cine after, waiting for a friend. [thanks so much baba!] we were sitting at the sofa just outside the arcade, and i spent most of my time watching people on the para para machine. hahahahahaha. that's one word to describe my experience. notably this girl, not kurus, and wearing an outfit tt just didn't seem to cut it, and just dancing with wild abandon. see, most people just move their hands when doing para para, with some natural feet-shuffling, but she was like doing the cancan or smthg, she kept kicking out her feet, and jumping around! it was crazy funny. and you know as they clear the levels, it gets faster and faster, so it was like funny raised to the power of infinity each time she started a new level. oh and there was this cute manjen guy wearing a brown cap, mutually liked by me and baba, and he was just standing there with his friends, being amused by her. wow he was cute. totally unmanjen-looking. yeah.
yup today was fun.

i couldn't get to sleep last night. it was horrible. first i went to bed at 3 in the morning. but i just kept tossing and turning till i heard my mom's alarm clock go off.. and so i just lay there, resigned to my insomniacal fate until MY subuh alarm went off at 630. after subuh i read my seventeen mag, and tried to go to sleep again at 8. next thing i knew, it was 1 p.m. argh. i hate it when i have insomnia.
i was totally groggy at work today. groggy and nuts. at around 9, liyana and i got the attack of the giggles. we just kept giggling and laughing, for no visible reason. it was crazy. AND painful for the abs. haha.
today the grinch/mr bean was smiling at me more than usual. then when i came within hearing distance, he asked, "mana your abang? your abang dah balik ah?" i feigned indignant ignorance, of course. but wow. even HE knows. how embarrassing. that's not enough. later i was just standing there again and this time ah-boy asked me, "where's my zippo?" kurang asam. so i was like, "you nak zippo ah? your face very nice issit?" so. i think it's safe to say tt ALL the cooks know i like ex-con, since ah-boy's never talked to me before.
no CCD today. i was just too bored and sleepy and everything. oh wow u shd have seen the spread after work. i had a load of rice and curry, plus 2 slices of mangled ice-cream cake, AND i took home 2 slices of 600g blackforest. and practically everyone was bisinging at me for eating alot. seriously. i eat twice a day, once when i wake up and once after work. tt's it ah. i'm so sick of hearing joseph bisinging at me. well. i'm gonna enjoy the peace and quiet of my day off tmr then.
cute adam sandler was working today. so cute! he has a really sweet smile. hm actually practically all the new guys were working today. and also the cool guy. yeah and tt was pretty much it.

wow my legs are dying. it was quite a busy day at work today. i dunno why, there were some more NS guys, and lots of other ppl as well.. and ex-con was supposed to be working today, but for reasons as yet unknown to me, he was switched with umar or smthg. well, it was no big, at least i used his micros to alleviate the pain. haha.
the canadian pizza guys were really cute today. one of them was like, "yo yo, ni awak punya eh?" and he helped me carry the useless sidestation of the main sidestation. i thought it was really nice of him, cos it was friggin' heavy. and at night another guy was singing really funnily. cos i was singing along to the trouble with love is, so whenever he saw me, he'd croon, "the trouble with love is.." just tt one line. then the marc anthony song, you sang to me, started playing on the radio, and i was singing along to tt too.. and he also sang along, and then he started translating the lyrics: "aku tak nampak/aku tak percaya/tapi aku rasa/bila kau nyanyi padaku.." so cute.
and if i'm not careful, liyana will start suaning me about umar. so. better watch my step. haha.
there's a new good charlotte poster in the study. from lime mag. it's pasted right over the rock's face. kesian the rock. but i love you, joel madden!

CCD has been forfeited today in light of scaryhots. hahaha. i was standing next to the SOD, momentarily, and i saw scaryhots walk past the fountain, towards mac's. so i practically ran towards the entrance, hoping to catch him, and yeah, he was just walking past, so i called out his name, and spent like 5-10 minutes talking to him. wow. i was totally dying. he was wearing work clothes, and he looked so handsome and tall and professional and everything! plus he still has hair. haha. anyway he got 4As and a B3 or smthg, and he's going to NS next month. sigh. nasib baik si wan ing takder. or jing wen or whoever. it was kak nores and abg rahim, so of cos they wldn't scold me for talking to a cute friend. haha. ANYWAY when i got home, he'd acherli written a testi to say it was great bumping into me! how nice! i wanted to hug the comp. [don't worry, i didn't.]
it was an okay time of it at work today. one of the NS guys told me it was POD, which i assume is passing-out day cos there were quite a few NS customers. haha. yeah. tt's it lah.. wow.. scaryhots.. -dies-

today's CCD: this feringhee in a really cool black-and-white oversized silouhette shirt. he had a HFBS. he was all tall and big and just good-looking, and when he came in, jing wen was like, "wah, lelaki tu handsome sial!" haha. i almost died laughing.
actually i wonder what i'm doing here. there's no reason for me to be online anymore. but i can tell that i'm slowly, but surely, getting over it. which is great.

today's CCD was this guy booking in, with his mom and kid sister. he looks like a mim-vik hybrid. and he brought one of those black bags with their names on the side, but i couldn't read his name cos the tag was all crumpled. [and believe me, i tried.] dammit. wow he's all tallish, and handsome, and authoritative-yet-loving with his sister. and although it was already 5 and i cld leave, i hung around so tt i cld take his order. haha. he has the nicest voice i've ever had the fortune to hear! omg. i really hope i get to see him again.
ohyeah today was also my first day with the new guys. they're quite nice. umar is cute, like i sed. and hanan TOTALLY reminds me of bomba. [not a good thing.] but it's okay, he's nice and everything, and i talked to them after work for abit..
second mat-watching outing. other than mats, we also bumped into tommy. twice. once at orchard mrt when we just met up. and the second time at somerset mrt, when we were going home. he was dressed almost the same as the last time i saw him, huge white shirt, work-looking berms and his furry trucker cap. and his teeth are all crooked and weird! he's definitely not as cute as he seemed last year!

i cried. again. and i did unbelievably well. again. at least this time i didn't start crying before i got my results. cos cikgu called me over before tt, and she said we all did well.. and she even gave me a thumbs-up, so i knew it cldn't be as bad as i'd envisioned in my 2 nightmares of yesternight. miss wong said i did well too, and when i saw my results slip, i just started crying, and she was like, "isn't it good?" uncertainly, and i just nodded. i am such a freak. i can't believe it, still. the exact same thing happened the last time. i prayed fervently to God to let me get 6 points, and i did, and i just couldn't believe my prayers were granted, when i hadn't been the most faithful person alive! and this time i prayed fervently again, to get 3As and a B3, and God did me one better, and once again, i couldn't believe it. so all i can say is, Syukur Alhamdulillah.

it was quite cool just now, there were ns guys booking out just as i finished work. i was so tempted to just sit there alone, and watch them go by. and i guess cos it was a late book-out or smthg, they got to wear home clothes. anyway, i walked as slowly as possible, but i still didn't see anyone i knew.
i was quite moody today, i admit. it had to do with lots of things, not just what's happening tmr. and i'm just hoping i'll get over it soon. hell, i was so at odds with the world tt i was even genuinely crabby towards ex-con. not tt he cares.
dropped by work at noon to pass my cap cos the new guys don't seem to have theirs. they were both standing at the fountain, it was quite cute. espesh cute new guy. i just realised, he has ivan hair. it's so cute! and it transpires tt he used to model for billabong. interesting, seeing as he's really quite short.
today's CCD? i dunno. there were 2 of them, both sitting at table 51, at different times. so i think they can just share this award. haha. the first was this vik/mim guy wearing an orange tshirt, and with a really nice voice. the second was this uber-tall guy of indeterminate race, in black plus a cap, and he had a split. and he was just friggin' handsome. he stayed for quite long, so i took the opportunity to ply him with ice water. and of course, when he left, i said thank you with probably the biggest smile i had tt night. yeah. he was hot. not bad for an end to the day [he was the absolute last customer].

i don't give. a shit.
tt's what i wanted to say to my father when he came in telling me how amanda zain got 8A1s and is the top malay student [she's some sorta distant relative]. but i just grunted and i didn't even look at him, which, at any rate, is still rude. well, i'm sorry for being rude, but how can i tell you tt i'm scared shitless about my own results, and thinking about it starts me crying, and you talking about other people's stellar results leads me to realise tt you expect the same of me, when I don't, and said realisation gets me crying even more? i can't. that's how. so if you don't mind, i'm just gonna go on being rude about this.


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i finally did it. i can't believe it. it cost $71.50, or smthg. it was sooooo freaky, but now i think about it, nothing beats this friday. ANYWAY. the guy had something wrong with his left eye, which upped the freaky factor, but he was really nice and everything, and he was so kurang asam, he exclaimed, "ohno it came out! i have to pierce again, you know!" of cos, he was just kidding. liyana says i was trembling. actually i wasn't afraid of the pain so much as the possibility tt he might make a mistake. but ow it was so painful, nothing like the others i've had, cos instead of a one-shot bout of pain, it's a sloooooooooooow and agonizingly painful process. but anyway, it's done and i can't go swimming for a month, which means i have no idea what i'm gonna do for the next 30 days besides sit at home, cry and read library books.
went out with jessica, kak nores, jeslyn and liyana just now. had lunch at chinatown point. the cheesy beef burger is REALLY nice! the thickest beef patty i've ever encountered.. haha.. then we went to orchard, and we dropped by this fashion, where i found the sweet long skirt i've been wanting to get. hm. maybe next month lah. this month's pay was really measly for some reason. anyway i had fun today, we were talking bout all kinds of shit in the train, like whether we wear underwear to sleep. GOD.

haha. i just remembered, yest when we were eating, eric [head chef] was next to me, and jessica was smoking into my face. so i was fanning away the smoke. and eric was like, "you don't smoke ah?" and i was like, no. and then he asked, "why you don't smoke ah?" in a mock-angry voice. so i exclaimed, "wah u teach me to smoke ah? then u teach ur son to smoke also lah!" and he nonchalantly revealed tt he teaches his son to drink. haha.
nikko is so cute. i love his shirt. it's so soft-and-silky-looking. let's get it on, baby!
today work was super slack. i was doing alfresco again, and i didn't have much to do outside.. there was a party of 11 ns guys, but tt was no big. u just hadta keep refilling their ice water. haha. one of them was cute. his name was sandeep or smthg, but he had a malay accent, it seemed. and one of the malay guys knows cute adam sandler. cool. and when they left, nan and the cool pierced guy started doing some silly dance and singing "ORD! ORD!" over and over. haha. i couldn't stop myself from laughing.
CCD today is this vik, prolly a coupla years younger than me, eating at canadian pizza with his family. he was wearing a white shirt and jeans, and he looked really hot. he also looks malay, even though the rest of his family don't.