this will be a REALLY long entry tau. so you've been warned.

my first riding TP was this morning. and i went there, all sleepy and stuff, pasal tak cukup tido--duh. PLUS, it was raining. elephants. and you know me and not running. so i was walking calmly to the reporting counter with rainwater dripping down my face. SUNGGUH TAK GLAM.

raime ader raime ader yayyyy!!!

during warmup, aku macam nak terkencing, so afterwards i went la. so imagine how annoyed i was when, while waiting for my turn, aku nak terkencing lagiiii!!! balls la. cos i was #71 out of 91 people. and you know, rain and cold temperatures and balmy breezes, NOT HELPING.

well warmup went smoothly. so did the circuit part, although aku cam wobbled giler at crank course, cos i almost langgar kerb. and omg la, the need to pee intensified at plank and E-brake! espesh E-brake. dahlah the queue was ten people long. i SO wanted to die, and i found myself wondering if people would notice if i just peed on the bike.

don't worry, i DIDN'T laaaa! giler ke pe.

then aku blah to the road, which was pretty okay, actually. i didn't realise the right turn arrow would last so long, but luckily i had the balls to clear it. at gear five, though. *dies* i was first bike for U-turn, which i hate, but which went okay, i think. oooh and the right turn at T-junction, aku macam ter-hesitate lama sangat, i was so afraid he'd mark me for that! finally, back in the circuit, i forgot to signal right and just changed lane anyway.

BUT I PASSED LAAAAA!!!

the process of waiting was really painful. i mostly buried my face in my hands and silently baca Al-Fatihah and selawated, cos i don't know any other doas, sorry. like a billion times. and popped listerine in, flake after flake, like i had a bad case of halitosis or something. even after they pointedly skipped my number when reading out row 8 failures, i still wasn't convinced. i expected a tester to come barging in any minute and call out my number.

but you know, they didn't. =DDDDD after one hour i was still safe, it was terrific. and thanks shafa for calling and easing the tension. granted, you didn't know what you were doing, but you know, it worked. hahaha.

the guys were cute. well, half of them were. unfortunately, most of them were younger than me. [not that i care, but i'm sure they do.] how did i know this? cos they give tag numbers in order of IC numbers. which means the oldest go first and the youngest go last. so i was like thinking to myself, okay, you can only check out the guys whose numbers are before yours, so stop looking at the 80-somethings.. then checked myself, and i was, wtf la, as if ANY of them will even be interested in me!

i was wrong. one of the semi-cute ones kept eyeing me in the results room from his position on the floor. then when they showed the video, BARU dier amik kesempatan to move to the seat next to mine. too bad all he did was smile at me a lot, and ask, "how many times did you take?"

[my FIRST time, actually!!! can you believe i passed bike before car??? and to think i couldn't even cycle when i started out!!! and i signed up for bike three months after car!!!]

then later these three [younger] mats [who also passed] hung out with me for awhile at the booking terminals and fooled around with the website. cute lah diorang. espesh the one with the blonde hair, haha.

finally, zakir, who smiled at me while i was talking to shafa on the phone. later, after we collected our results [same group], he asked how many points i got, and there it began. haha. as in, we went upstairs together, applied for license together all that la. anyway his number was called first, so when he was done, he just macam, walked past me without saying bye. so i was like, okay apaperlah. then when I was done with my license, i realised that he was waiting for me at the back of the room. so we went off together la, after he asked if i was crossing the road, and what bus i was taking.

i decided to cab in the end, pasal dah superfuckinglate for school. and since it was STILL RAINING, i asked him to tahan cab for me, and offered him a lift since macam, he didn't bring a bag and his license all merepek nanti basah. well in the cab he asked for my number.

"what's your name? oh ain rite?"
--"how did you know? when did i tell you?"
"oh haha sorry tadi kiter kepo, tengok your PDL.."

then he kept asking why i wasn't looking for a boyfriend, and reiterating the fact that he was around. and poking me. and pinching my cheeks and my nose. and squeezing my shoulder. finally he asked me out. [he also asked me another related question, but you know.]



in related news, the taxi driver, this uncle, was SO COOL la. he was extremely friendly and chatty, and not in that annoying please-shut-up-uncle way. first he was telling us that it was his first day with transcab, having just transferred from citycab, and that it was a new car la, and that we were his second passengers. macam cool kan? so i was like, "wow really?" and it was at this point when zakir started pinching my cheeks.

anyway Cool Taxi Uncle was telling me bout his daughter who baru masuk NTU, and about the IT fair at expo, AND about how he used to ride. from 1970s, he said. till 1990s, then he started driving cabs la. and come on la, it's not just any bike, he used to ride a freaking scramblerrrr!!! i was like, "wah so cool!" then he recommended i get a wave bike, or adik-beradik dier, and i refused, cakap aku nak sportsbike cos "sportsbike cool lah.. i want scrambler la, but i'm too short.." and he laughed and he was like, "oh you want cool ah.. now 125 alot of nice ones.."

ah. Cool Taxi Uncle. should have gotten his number, for future taxi rides. ohwell.

i've been grinning nonstop for the past two hours or so. and it's not just because of barrel guy.

someone thinks i'm cute la!

look, i'm sorry for being so kembang and whatever, but i swear, no one has ever complimented me before. well, at least not a sincere, non-ader-makna kind of compliment.

so i'll be kembang if i want to!

[takmo jeles k atikk? i'm not into him. haha.]

i was SOOOO sleepy this morning, when i got up at bv, i stumbled all over the train macam orang mabuk, bleary-eyed, hodoh, and slenger. then i slept for most of 2142. the times i was awake, i was grumpy and distractable.

but things sort of perked up in 2132 lab. as in, nothing exciting la, but i do love lab. my lab partner's this vietnamese dude. quiet, but capable, and not irritating, so jadilah. haha.

then i visited nat at work, and kiter makan kat jon's salon!!! it's been too long. anyways. it was a nice day la. despite the fact that i was ugly.

nites!

okay i know it's like 11-ish, and i have to wake up at four in the morning later, so i really should be sleeping now and all.

but i can't!

school was alright just now. i managed to get my lecture questions done for wed, i'm so proud of myself. after school i went for the seni meeting, woohoo! i TOTALLY didn't regret it, balls. i know there were loads more year twos than year ones, but WHO CARES cos i had fun! yay!

<3 gigi! watch out for him in the Ain Awards la! haha.

after that, atikk ah-ah-ah, hanom hantu and i, ayu alhamdulillah, went to hazwani, where we invented The Boyfriend Game. i think we exhausted the list of guys though, boring. takper lain kali try lagi.

alritey then, nites!

i saw the most adorable pair of twins in 21 on thursday. budak madrasah, primary school level,i'm supposing. they're round and cina-looking, with rabbit teeth and glasses, and i swear they look like little gophers/beavers! so i REALLY couldn't resist taking a photo, although it doesn't really help illustrate my point, haha.

nat says my biological clock is ticking. and i think she has a point, cos i've been jabbering non-stop about the names of my two future children, my 10-year plan, and playing with every little kid i can lay my hands on. not to mention what i said during nanoworld lect the other night.

nat: "**dil***'s more hardworking now--he pays attention and he's always highlighting his notes."

me: "highlight2? so what? my daughter can do that, and she's not even BORN!"

i KNOW, right?


well anyway. friday lecture, and i was macam dying cos tak cukup tido. [ooh but there were three cute poly guys in the train, i nearly died. tapi macam takleh appreciate much cos i was TOO sleepy and of course, sleep is more important than boys.] it was naz-me-alfian-reserved, as usual. i was blearily trying to pay attention, when a movement from the other side of alfian caught my attention. so i turned to look, and found myself staring at lonerguy's face. i quickly turned back and continued copying stuff onto my notes.

it doesn't end there, my friends! he proceeded to carry on a merepek and animated conversation with alfian, which aku just sebok2 dengar, cos i've never heard him say so much in that amount of time. and then he was trying to find out the available tutorial slots, so he had to borrow MY timetable to check!!! *faints* nasib baik i didn't write any him-related graffiti on it, kalau tak, he'd prolly run out of the LT, tros balek rumah.

after that it was physical chem lecture at 26. i was expecting the same seating arrangement, which i really didn't have a problem with. but then something happened. he led the way up the steps and chose a row la, and he stood there and let alfian masuk first. and i'm like, huh? lepas tu dier pun masuk. so i had no choice, right? i had to follow him in! so yes, i ended up sitting next to lonerguy, as i'd been wanting to for the past 12 months.

yes, can you believe it's the one-year anniversary of discovering lonerguy? what a significant month this is.

if that's not all, si alfian BODOH decided to tinggalkan kiter there while he went to the toilet! aperniiii. so i fidgeted around uncomfortably for a couple of minutes, then i just macam, asked some general questions about his tuts and labs and stuff. he was pretty responsive, thank God. at least if he thinks i'm a TOTAL freak, he keeps it to himself.

it's okay, we sort of warmed up after awhile. and i could talk to him almost normally, PLUS he macam, copied some of my notes, hehe.

smelled great, too. familiar somehow, and reminds me of childhood.


dropped by queensway with nat and hanom after, and i had my beloved iscream yoghurt, yay!



finally, the pbm thingy [forgot the name yeah] at LT15 situlah. it was fun. guess who made an appearance [as well as 84027403 repeated trips to refill his plate!]!!!! yay la! and you know, some of the cool/cute freshies from project x pun ader! double yay!

had supper [well, some of us did.] at hazwani, and then ruzanna gave the east people a lift home, yay! thanks yeah.




oooh today fana baba and i went for a pigout session at seoul garden taka. anyway, on our way there, we passed through wisma, and i nearly died of shock when i saw sean in giordano!!! haha. so i just had to go in and say hi to him. his face, when i said hi, was in such shock, it was hilarious. he's working there, btw, which he's embarrassed of, for some odd reason. anyway, it was SO great to see him again. he says we should meet up, but he's like so busy all the time. plus i think he has a girlfriend now and you know, people with matairs are alwaysssss busy.

i'm nuts, btw. i bought a new pair of birkenstocks tadi for $189 laaaaa!!! arghhhh. i am so dead. i'll be out on the streets in less than a month at this rate.

well i shall stop boring people now. nites!

elfie.

his name is elfie.

yesterday hanom and i tried a project with our brownies. as in, when we'd finished our respective desserts, there was a pool of melted ice-cream mixed with caramel on the plates. so we attempted to write our numbers on the plates using the fork and the residual liquid. GILER! hanom's turned out nicer than mine, but when they finally cleared the plates, si giler tu LUPER nak mess up her work! so the guy who cleared our plates WRONGLY concluded that we liked him!!! when we didn't! AT ALL!

then he kept looking in our direction and smiling. like, HELLO! now i can't even look at mikhael because nanti si sepupu thinks i'm looking at him pulak.

BODOH.

oh i placed my order for a drink with sepupu la, and i asked him for the new wireless password. so later he sent them both to me. and as he walked back, mikhael asked him, "tak mintak nombor?" and i was like, "noooooooooooo!!! no, mikhael, i like YOU not HIM!"

ANYWAY.




on what was my fifth or sixth trip to the toilet, mikhael was standing alone at the cafe entrance. so i finally screwed up the balls and as i passed him, i smiled and paused for a while and asked, "just wondering, what's your name?"

him: "*mumble*-fie.."

since aku pekak, i leaned forward to indicate that he should repeat himself.

him: "elfie.."

me: "oh okay cool."

and i started to walk away, but then he was like, "and yours?"




*dies*

so when we finally left [we got there at about 230, and left around 830. so work it out.], he was at the counter with gross-haired guy, and he waved and said, "bye ain.."

*faints*

yey dier tahu nama akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

i <3 bugiscafe, for the billionth time. today they gave us extra fries, a whole brownie instead of half, with chocolate ice-cream on top, plus a 15% discount on top of it all.

anyways. ain's silly quotes:

on mikhael getting shot in the head: "It's okay, I'll mount him on my wall."

on people thinking hanom's a social worker, so they should accordingly think i'm a chemist: "Do you have any HCl to spare?"

gahhhh.

centrallib-ing alone. the aircon feels great.

anyway i totally wore the wrong outfit today la, what the hell is wrong with me? dahlah lambat and stuff. i really don't know aper dah jadi ngan aku. maybe later i'll drop by topshop or something and get something else to wear. i'm really dying here, in a bad choice of outfit and all.

ngantuk giler sey, i got home at like 11-ish yesterday, thanks to The Bus That Was Always Full. seriously, if you know there'll be ramai orang, deploy more buses!!!

haha. anyway, i've been wanting to post this non-joke for days, tapi asyik luper.

we were at bugiscafe and hanom and nat were making me leave. i was reluctant, obviously. so i sat there and said, "ow ow! ..my heart just broke.." and they glared at me. ten seconds later i did it again: "OW OW!! ..it just broke again.." well they still didn't move so i just continued sitting there.

"God, i really need a plaster.." i said, "to mend the pieces of my broken heart!"

and everyone just died.

aku lapar giler. biler si hanom nak abis ni?

yesterday night during physics i was chatting to idros, and complaining about nat re-enacting [i don't care, i'm just gonna use that word pasal it's cool] her new favourite p.orn video. he's also watched it, which was unsurprising to nat, but news to me, pasal you know, i thought he was a good boy. haha. yah then i was like, being mean or smthg la, and he said, "ain jahat"!!! which macam, killed nat with laughter. God. well, at least some firefighters are nice.

ooh and we were also surfing online shopping sites, thanks to yanti. SO COOL la! i love online shopping. there's macam a whole bunch of stuff to look at, and you just feel like buying everything. well, i do, anyway.

finally, amy reminded me on her tagboard about the ain awards, which i think is due pretty soon! i'll check the archives again, but in the meantime, siler contribute, cos i can't go trawling through a whole pool of NUS guys alone. =DDD

yay i'm taking a blogging break! i mean, three solid hours of chem is really three hours too many.

at natlib again, prolly for the last time on a tuesday since lab starts next week. ohwell. maybe i could come on wednesdays instead. once again, loving the view.

there were two cute guys in the train this morning. an army dude with celak-ed eyes called Fadzly, and this blonde-haired, tattooed guy. unfortunately, tu je. tattooed guy got off at raffles place and fadzly left me [chehdebah, "left me" konon] at redhill. bodoh.

Lord it's freezing in here. help. i'm not exactly attired for the cold, either. haha.

[if you didn't realise by now, this entry's gonna be a whole lot of nothing.]

this morning i plugged in my laptop and took out the battery, and the next three people who walked into the LT proceeded to trip over the wire and kill the power. THREE! i wanted to die. do you know how sad it is to keep turning on your laptop, tapi dier asyik mati je? well, take it from me--it's very sad.

ooh yesterday after inorg lect, there was this guy at the carpark on his bike, presumably waiting for someone. we kept staring at each other, then i realised it was yusuf! of course, just because i remember him doesn't mean he remembers me la. but anyway. haha. he was at anugerah mendaki for 'O' levels also, and he happened to be sitting next to me, so aku macam, tried to make friends. hahaha. and then i remembered the other stuff that happened at anugerah mendaki, and suddenly it's not so fun anymore.

well, i guess i better get back to anat, which is really statistics in disguise. sheesh. we'd all be better off if they'd just told us from the beginning.

anyway, some PPPhotos, just for fun.

One fine day
You'll look at me
And you will know our love was
Meant to be

One fine day
You're gonna want me
For your girl, oh yeah

The arms I long for
Will open wide
And you'll be proud to have me
Right by your side

One fine day
You're gonna want me
For your girl

Though i know you're the
Kind of boy
Who only wants to run around

I'll keep waiting
And someday, darling
You'll come to me
When you want to settle down, oh

One fine day
We'll meet once more
And then you'll want the love you
Threw away before

One fine day
You're gonna want me
For your girl

One fine day
You're gonna want me
For your girl - The Chiffons

hidup aku cam boring even though i keep going out.

bugiscafe yesterday, and again today with hanom. this time idros joined us. plump guy kept smiling at idros, it was macam so weird. ooh and for the set meal nyer dessert, we got a full brownie instead of half! so i asked plump guy about it, and he was like, "entah!" wow okay that sure helps.

i went to order another drink from mikhael, and while i waited there, he said, "sabar eh.." and jumped around and made faces cos he was binget with some feringhee customer dude. quite adorable, but then again, anything he does is adorable to me, right?

then plump guy came to counter with my drink, and he was like, "boleh tanyer sikit tak? lelaki tu.." and glanced at my table--at this point i TOTALLY thought he was interested in hanom and that the end of the sentence was: "is your friend's boyfriend eh?" and i was totally jumping in excitement [inside]. but NOOO, "aper nama dier ah?" he continued.

i nearly died. apparently idros looks familiar to him. well, it transpired that he was idros' instructor in NS or whatever mereps lah. haha. cute.

we went to watch The American Haunting, which was one of the only two movies showing kat shaw tower. bodoh. it's a sucky movie! the synopsis had so much promise too. as did the hot professor in the movie. hahaha.

ohwell. had fun anyways. idros promised to get us the cute miniature firefighter jackets in all four colours. yay!

i've decided that it's stupid to go for less than half an hour of lecture. so i'm still here, in dayah's room, blogging macam orang bodoh. so much for wanting to go for ALL the lectures in the first week.

i love making new friends, don't you? i had breakfast at fongseng this morning--nasi lemak, not prata--with khairul, who is so incredibly friendly, even I can talk to him without wondering what to say each minute. ohyeah he's also the latest in a long line of disbelievers. they disbelieve the fact that my alma maters are what they are. according to him, aku "muka nakal" so i couldn't have come from those schools! haha.

by the way, the nasi lemak actually isn't too bad. haha.

well, last night was definitely a load of fun like i haven't had in ages. don't worry, i'm sure i'll able to survive the next three months without. the real question is, will i be able to survive the next five hours without completely dying? blom tido since 9 a.m. smalam balls!

oooh less than 48 hours to mikhael!!!

yesterday largely consisted of yet another lepak@bugiscafe session. purpleguy, now christened mikhael, is officially NOT avoiding me anymore! yay! and yesterday he was the most animated i'd ever seen him. he danced around to R&B songs, kept checking his hair in any reflective surface, smiled his adorable beyond adorable smile, and took photos of gross-haired guy. haha. it was really fun. i totally <3 that place.

in the train back to school, there were these two mats--one with blonde hair, the other with blue. they were actually fairly cute la. well anyway. first they kept like, smiling and making eyes at us. then they switched to pointing and smiling at our reflections instead. it was totally hilarious. so hilarious that i decided to call them Xiongdi Pelangi. [work it out.] anyways they got off at city hall, but they pointedly kept looking back, and the yellow-haired one step langgar tembok and langgar kerusi and langgar whatever elses la, konon like so absorbed in looking at us.

like i said, hilarious.

then it was nano lecture and AGM, but you know, i've been floating on mikhael bliss since two in the afternoon smalam. it'll wear off soon, though, then i'll be counting down till the next one again. like i always do.

=DDD

it's 11:42 a.m. on the second day of school and guess where i am? at natlib, that's where. i can't believe it. and i'd barely sat down for 15 minutes when it started bucketing like crazy. bizarre. i had no idea it was going to rain, especially not this bad.

yeah so anyway, back to me being in natlib. i'm trying to read through a couple of chem textbooks, so at least i won't be completely lost during the first week of school. and step mugger la, of course. i might as well apply myself to something, since everything else seems to be a disappointment, of late.

the view here is fantastic, i <3 this place sooooooooo much. i mean, i'm not saying it couldn't be improved by the addition of some lonerguy-standard library fans, but other than that, i love it just the way it is.

and speaking of lonerguy. this morning he called alfian 72962946 times to verify lecture details. and i was by alfian's side, assisting in his queries. so when the back door finally opened, i waited eagerly, but still keeping my eyes in front. then i heard the tinkling of bells, and i was like, erm, why would a guy be wearing bells? but takper tanak give up, i waited anyway. and there he was! SEKALI. i realised there was a girl with him! one of those tiny things that i have never been and will never be. [obviously, she was the bell-wearer.] they tawaf-ed once, decided it was full-house, and promptly left. you should have seen the look on my face. and the message i pounded out on my phone to nat.

ohwell. can't say i was surprised, right?

well, it's back to analytical chem then.

[i'm REALLY hungry.]

today was the first day of school. i came for two hours of lecture. but it wasn't all bad, i suppose. oh, nat, kata nak amek gambar, tak amek2 punnnn. after school we went to KFC at SP and i tried the chicken chop. it was okay, tapi aku bukan budak O.R., sorry.

i just spent like an hour on picasa, aku giler. and i have so many wallpapers now, but only one laptop to display them on. aperje. as i was telling hanom, i love that multi-exposure function, but it doesn't work with every bunch of photos, so it takes a while to choose the right combo.

anyway, i get to see my <3intanpayunghatijantung<3 tomorrow, yay! [at least, i hope so. there's a chance he might not be working, in which case, i'm just gonna flood bugis cafe with my tangisan (chehdehbahhh). so pray for me.] that's him, btw.

and that's me on the redrhino, in one of the firefighter's jackets. haha. guess what. idros said the washing machine was broken, so i'm just wondering about the amount of sweat accumulated in all that material.

finally, me on the paramedic bike. it's macam, heeeeuuuggeee! and it's only a superfour, apparently. bodoh ah, if i'd asked earlier, i'd have been able to pose on the firebike instead. [okay, they're the same bike, but one's to treat casualties and one's to fight fire, SO. yeah. haha.]

and that's a summary of the day, drawn by rastagirl herself. i REALLY had fun, so thanks to hanom for meeting idros [haha], and thanks to idros for being SO nice!

okay, i'm back. haha. i know it's like 224 in the morning and stuff, plus i blogged barely hours ago, but macam, new things have happened since then, so yay.

first things first though: nat!!! i miss you already and i don't know why! i have totally fun news for you about scram dude k! kkkk!!! remind me to tell you, loser-without-a-tagboard!

i went for the reperio bbq, which i almost cancelled out on, cos
1. i thought we were late, and
2. macam malas.
but we went anyway, cos sweet hanom took a cab from bedok to pick me up before going to changi beach park. [why changi beach anyway? it's such a family2 place! no scenery balls!] and reason #1 immediately dissolved cos there were oh, i dunno, about 749274023 people there? with 62842 more streaming in per minute. even rudy and hafiz were there! gaaaa. i can't believe they're all grown up now. what happened to my Fairy and Baby GodMats? oh and i saw that annoying buttcrack of a freshie who macam, just had to step brave infront [and i mean that in the most literal way] of me, the pontianak. he better not be in science, is all i'm sayin'.

it was fun, balls, but you know, some of us couldn't be fully ourselves. haha. although others of us didn't seem to mind and PDA-ed anyway. sayang, save it for after marriage k.

oh and kurus! successfully assimilating into PBM, i see. whatever balls. he's such a meanie i just can't see him any other way.

well after the bbq, hanom and i [i swear we've been going out together like ALL the time balls! who knew we'd be seeing so much of each other these hols?] went to simpang to meet her cousins. ah, simpang and its cool bikes and cute guys. plus, guess who i bumped into? IVAN!!! he was with ahmad and huiling, and i was just walking past him, when i was like, eh why is this mat staring at me? and a split second later i realised he was ivan! haha. he still looks the same, actually, but it's been so long since i last saw him, for real. anyways. after i told hanom that both dudes are in CD, she squealed, "ooooh i LOVE CD!" haha. funnay. oh ivan's at jurong now, weirdly. i mean, he lives in kembangan. aperje. and ahmad is.. erm, well i forgot. damn. but it's not sengkang. haha.

it was such a total coincidence la, cos i was just browsing through ahmad's friendster photos yesterday, and admiring the dance night ones, and suddenly macam three of them pop up before my eyes at simpang. TOtally.

we left at 1-ish, and hanom dropped me off at tanah merah mrt on the wrong side, so i had to use the underpass. now, recap: time is 0100hrs; number of people around = 0; phone reception = 0%; light intensity in underpass = 15%; length of underpass (approximate) = 250m. i was SOOOOOO scared. i couldn't even call anyone. and you know, i would have run, i suppose, but ain doesn't run! so i briskwalked to within a breadth of sprinting, keeping in the middle of the underpass, and tried not to imagine lone figures menjelma-ing at the end of the passage, as well as multiple makhluks pursuing me from the back. maybe if i weren't wearing slippers i would have run. who knows? all i can say is, of all the things i've been through, that was the one scariest experience, and i never EVER want to repeat it, for ANY amount of money.

well that should be the end of another epic entry. nites.


I never should have waited
So long to say
What I've always known
Since the very first day
Thought that you would stay
Forever with me
But the time has come to leave

Before we turn out the lights
And close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret
I've held all my life
It's you that I live for
And for you I die
So I lay here with you
'til the final goodbye

Holding you close
Close to my lips
Listen intently
As I tell you this
Outside the world
Wages its war
I'll rest in peace
As long as you know

Before we turn out the lights
And close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret
I've held all my life
It's you that I live for
And for you I die
So I lay here with you
'til the final goodbye

Promise you our love
Will carry on
Until time eternal
We belong

Before we turn out the lights
And close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret
I've held all my life
It's you that I live for
And for you I die
So I lay here with you
'til the final goodbye

As I taste your lips
For the last time
I spell out the lyrics
To love in the sky
It's you that I live for
And for you I die
So I lay here with you
'til the final goodbye

Goodbye... - Rihanna

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guess what i did today?!?!?!

i went to a firestation la!!! sengkang, to be exact. hehe. it was SO cool, balls! idros brought us around everywhere and patiently answered our stupid questions about everything, SO COOL. embarrassing, though, cos macam, everyone else was looking at us, the two girls running around snapping pictures. haha. we caught the red rhino before it left, and i broke the ice by hopping on and posing for a photo. but NOT before the cute guy sitting in the back said, "kena pakai ni dulu!" holding out the jacket--which, btw, is the heaviest, panasest garment known to man. hehe. SO FUN. fan's prediction/warning was highly unproven though, boo. and i didn't get to try sliding down the pole, double boo.

ooooh and yesterday we were at bugis cafe [well, we were there today too, actually] having lunch, and of course, my <3intanpayunghatijantung<3 purple guy was working. but u know, i was still hurt at his concerted attempts to avoid me, so i just sat there while other people ordered for me, and tried as best as i could not to look at him. TAPIKAN. haha.

1. he came and served our food! our two plates of tuna melt. i nearly choked on my soup when he came up to us, and stupidly flapped my hands at the table like some dying fish.

afterwards i felt like some dessert, but hanom and sofi'd already ordered theirs, so hanom REFUSED to macam, order for me. so *I* had to go and order it myself. anyways. i waited till someone other than him was standing at the counter, then i went to place my order. it was one of the manager dudes, i suppose. so the manager keyed in my order, and called out, "one ice lemon tea!" while going to get a slice of the cake i ordered.

2. so purple guy comes up with the ILT and says to manager dude, "one ice lemon tea.. lagi aper?" and manager dude says, "dah tu je.." or something along those lines.

3. purple guy, apparently unsatisfied, peers at the cashier and presses a button, prolly to macam, look at my order properly or something. anyways. manager dude goes, "thanks eh, kau panjangkan receipt aku!"

so manager dude serves me and aku belah, but

4. just as i walk away, purple guy reaches out and plops four serviettes on my tray.

*insert schizophrenic face*

oh, first kau nak avoid me like the plague. now kau nak berbaik2. which one issit, balls?

well anyway, we have photos, but hanom has been withholding them, so let's be patient k? okay cool.

*waves*

whee! today was fish&co day with nat. i decided to be adventurous and tried the grilled salmon, yay! [nasib baik sedap.] and we did bugis today, so i showed her purple guy, and she said he's not as great as loner guy!!! aper ni?!?!? he is SO loner guy laaa.

i just spent the past half-hour doing my new timetable, and i realised that i don't have such a horrible time, cos there are quite a few holes in it! yay. totally library time!

wokay then, that's all the news for today.

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know
I´ve got somewhere else to go
but I got something to tell you
that I never thought I would
but I believe you
Really ought to know

I love you,
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
but this is pure and simple
And you must realize
That it's coming from my heart
And not my head

I love you,
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to
Make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to
Make you anything at all
But this feeling
Doesn't come along every day
And you shouldn't
Blow the chance
When you got the chance to say

I love you, I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment
Might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be
Leaving it like this

I love you,
I honestly love you
I honestly love you - Olivia Newton-John

don't worry, i'm not like, in love or anything. it's just a nice song. haha. it's been a REALLY boring national day for me. i've been reading Reader's Digest Select Editions for three days now.

went out with hanom and her friends farhan and idros yesterday. we hung out at bugis cafe with three laptops, yay! and hanom attempted [successfully, i'm sure] to steal purple guy away from me--first she asked him what time they were closing, and i swear they talked for at least two minutes about that; and then she went up to him with a pen and paper and asked for the wireless password. heLLO! stay AWAY from purple guy! haha anyway i finally got the PPP photos and stuff, yay!

anyway since bugis cafe closes at 10, we switched to starbucks pulak, where, unfortunately, fariq wasn't working. haha. oh God i swear stupid purple guy and ALL his colleagues know i like him, it was SO freaking embarrassing la! [which doesn't mean i'm not going back there. haha. i'll just avoid communicating with him.]

idros is really nice! he's so friendly and funny and best of all, articulate! haha. okay sorry. i have a thing about bad english. and he's so macam, forthcoming about his work, which is great cos hanom and i just lap it up. can't wait for this saturday, i really hope we're going.

we forced hanom to take the bus back, but it was already midnight and it turned out her last bus was at 1148! haha kesiannyer. all that paksa-ing for nothing. our last buses were 0014 and 0048 respectively, so you know, we were fine. alah kalau tak pun ader nightrider pe. i'm beginning, for the first time ever, to fully appreciate the location of my home. i'm never leaving this place, never.

yeah so i ended off the night with a bunch of nat's emoboys in the bus home. hahaha. i've never seen so many cute guys in 12 before, not counting the time i took it in the morning during ITE peak hour. haha.

i didn't camwhore during this trip, surprisingly. maybe cos i was tired and sleepy most of the time. so here you go.

i was in bangkok over the weekend, doing my best to boost the thai economy. wish i could say that it was fun, but it wasn't fun all the time, unfortunately. i was grumpy half the time cos everywhere was so cramped and crowded, and my feet--although encased in birkenstocks--were killing me, and it was so hot, and i was fugly, too.

haha.

i mean, it really is all fine and dandy if we get to shop in wide open spaces where i don't have to get jostled by fellow shoppers, cos at least it wouldn't be that hot. but INSIDE those bazaar thingies, i nearly died of dehydration from perspiration. doesn't help that you know, thais are small, and therefore they hardly have my size in clothes anyway.

but it was fun some of the time, at least. the food was pretty good, espesh the tomyam [but of course!], which was rocking my tastebuds. and although the shopping wasn't THAT great for me, i did find a pair of the loveliest sandals i've ever seen. they were these pretty gold things with fake gems and coloured threads running through as accents. and--surprise, surprise--they actually came in my size! so you know, i just had to buy them. haha.

mostly i was still jetlagged [haha] and tak-cukup-tido, so i seized every opportunity to veg out in the hotel room, watching HBO and hallmark, while my mom and kak yut were out shopping.

as for cute guys, most of them were tourists, of course. but i nearly died once when i saw three thai emoboys at chatuchak. *waves at nat*

ohyeah, and on saturday night we went to patpong or whatever, which was lined on both sides by those nightclubs with the bartop-and-pole-dancing girls. you can actually watch through the doorways, which i suppose is a marketing strategy. in one of them, the girls were wearing glow-in-the-dark bikinis. at another one, i expressed interest in the name [which i won't post here, takot people who google disgusting phrases land on my blog], and this guy tried to get us to go in, showing us some card--a menu of sorts, i guess--with illustrations of what looked like sex positions, i dunno, i just pushed past him cos i was so annoyed.

i don't get it, i mean, there's kids around and everything. ohwell. anyways. yeah that was my bangkok weekend. i wanted to escape, but in the end, i couldn't, cos i ended up dreaming anyway. bodoh. but i think everything's all right now. ooh and i got Davidoff Cool Water Game in duty-free. yay.

One touch can bring us closer
don't want this to be over
You know that you complete me
your love is what I need
Don't rush to see you leaving
stay with me while I'm sleeping
Cuz you know what you do to me
I'm weak and you know my heart is beating

[B-section]
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
You don't have to hold back or be shy
I can feel you want me in your eyes
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
Feels so good cuz I know that you're mine
boy I got my eyes closed cuz you know that I

[Chorus]
Love it when you kiss me
love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me [2x]

Ooh girl I'm coming over
you know I wanna hold ya
Kiss you, cuz I know you want me too
I want to give you what you'll like
So, so please don't be afraid to
to tell me what'll make you
reach the top (reach the top)
girl I'm needing it
cuz baby I can feel your heart beating - Cassie f Ryan Leslie

after nearly a year, i went back to siloso beach today with guess-who [fan] to do guess-what [tan, obviously]. it was fun, as usual. *glares at nat* well, fun aside from the fact that i had to wait a record one hour for him to show up. kepala hotak dier ah. he's always been late, but this was a new standard, definitely.

they've made so many improvements, it's lovely. like the waste bins inside each cubicle. takyah lug embarrassing litter out of the shower anymore! and there's a coffee bean and a 7-11 at the bus terminal. oooh and a ben & jerry's near the underwater world bus stop. TO-tally. how is one supposed to choose between new zealand and B&J's then?

rained on my parade at first, but somehow we stuck it out, and it paid off when the sun came back out at 1. i must have been a little overenthusiastic, though, cos i'm a little sunburned now. but it was fun anyways.

i'm really really really glad i had something to take my mind off other matters at hand.

but the thing about running away from problems is that they always manage to catch up with you in the end. and then what are you supposed to do?