so anyways, guess what???

**dil*** is STILL in NUS after all! AND taking the same mods as me! woohoo!!!

*jumps around*

sorry i know it's like my life's been boring, but it's not, really. like, i nearly killed myself during driving just now, many times. plus that mat who was prolly at pract 7 or 8. and his cute ITE mat friend.

and of course, the bugis cafe guy i have a TOTAL AND ABSOLUTE crush on, which would be loads of fun if he didn't actually hate me and go out of his way to avoid me all the time. haha.

'sbeen a great couple of days so far.

we watched the last installment of PPP [PJ, TP and JJ], which was mostly pretty great. i really did love TP's play. prolly cos i'm a tarianer, so i loved the elements of Javanese dance that they interspersed within the CIMO characters.

and hanom just had to hiss, "he's so cute!" as he walked past us.

but it was fun. afterwards we had dinner at BK, which haikal and i claimed we were overdressed for. hahaha. and some feringhee decided to hit on hanom at the counter, it was HILARIOUS. something about wanting to buy her a coke, and then maybe paying for our meals. he took out a 50-dollar note. tapi hanom declined. bodoh nyer pompan.

and the awards thingy yesterday. SO COOL. sayan(g) is just adorable, no doubt about it.

ohwell, whatever. another memory to tuck into the scrapbook.

oooOOOooo i watched The Lake House today, and it was so great. the cinematography was fantastic. like the revolving door scene, where baba complained of dizziness. haha. and i TOTALLY TOTALLY thought dier mati. but it has a happy ending, woohoo! plus, i love the soundtrack, and the chemistry between the two leads. amazing. <3!!!

also, ghazali, the cute ticket counter guy, rocks balls! he looks baik, even though his hair is a little too long for my liking. yay yay!

i bumped into nani, who's still so adorable and now working at siam kitchen, and later, fan who was at the yishun bus stop. nearly died.

still love the movie!!!

*looks blearily at D's screen*

it's been a crazygilercrazy week so far. and i'm only at hump day. [don't get any dirty thoughts, Hump Day = Wednesday!]

monday was PPP full-dress, and tuesday was Performance Day. it was tiring, shitty, frustrating, spirit-killing, and mostly, sleepifying. but i'm really a bright-side person, so i don't like to remember details of such, and instead i focus on, erm, everything else. like the PPPeople [this doesn't just refer to Yan(g), okay!], the DSLs, the audience [e.g. Sya, who wisely decided to stage-whisper my name as i attempted to solemnly slow-march past =P], and the fascination that people had with my _____-maid outfit.

[fill in the blank yourself, cos although i was thinking "French maid", i also got "nurse/maid" and "chambermaid", among others.]



oh it was SO fun!!!! some highlights: Yan(g), lunch at Bugis Cafe followed by shopping, showering [next to fairuz, in a cubicle which kamal peed in like 5 minutes before], the truffle, hammie's videography, Yan(g), the awesome perf, camwhoring [thanks Rastagirl!], and Yan(g).

*jumps around*

plus of course the post-perf supper at Al-Majlis. totally balls.

and we followed it up today with a preview of tomorrow's lineup, NAFA and NJC. well it was really their full-dress rehearsal, but you know us cheapos. nak save 12 bucks nyer pasal. i quite liked NAFA's play, yay. spooky soundtrack. then we went to "have a drink" at the coffeeshop, bitched, and now here i am, finally home.

so fun so fun so fun. nak lagikkkkk.



[sorry the photos aren't of perf day, they were taken on company preview day. can't wait for perf day pics!]







so anyway, yesterday night i got home at 3a.m. and i was like SO tired when i woke up this morning, not to mention sick, and fugly too, thanks to the outbreak of pimples on every square inch of my face. but ANYWAYS. i dragged myself to riding anyway, even though da malas. i was early as usual, so i stonedstonedstoned, but not without taking note of this adorable-cute-type malay dude taking 2A evaluation. haha. when i went to get my booklet stamped, i was like--ALAMAK fazli's back!--and that's not all, he also led warmup AND was in charge of my pract.

alhamdulillah, ader jugak small victories--at least he didn't take my group for road evaluation. i got tamrin instead--tamrin, who passed me for pract 5, and who pretended not to hear/see when my bike stalled at the slope tadi--so yay! at the U-turn junction, i was stuck behind two L-plate cars, so i was like okay, later biler nak turn, wait until the cars finish turning then you turn. and i did try to do that, so aku baru nak belok when i looked up and saw that the arrow was GONE! i DIED. so there i was, stuck between the stop line and the pedestrian-crossing line. macam sial. i spent the waiting time cursing myself. nampaksah fail, so i just did everything cam biaser, but somehow i didn't make anymore mistakes la.

then as i turned into CDC, this manjen dude sedap2 je jalan kat tengah-tengah my lane! he looked up and saw me turning in, and STILL made no effort to move! so aku aper lagi, horn ah. it was SO satisfying cos
1. i've never actually USED it before.
2. at least i got to vent some of my self-directed frustration at someone else.

dah tu, practise circuit, practisepractisepractise, then i went back and sat down and called atikk and complained about failing. then tamrin came out, and handed my booklet to me saying, "okay, go book TP." once again, i died. so when i turned back to get my stuff, the adorable-cute 2A mat [who just happened to be sitting behind me] asked me, "pass?"

wheeeeeehooooo!!! he talked to me balls!!! and later when he got his assessment back, i asked him back, of course. [for the record, he failed but hey, it's only his first time.]

okay i'm sorry for the essay but like my best friend once said, "my blog, my rules".

ahhh just got home from the class outing, which was pretty great by any standards. we had dinner at Fig & Olive followed by dessert at Ben & Jerry's.



there was a hot manjen dude at B&J's. at first he was just sitting alone, looking deliberately hot in his olive green tshirt, and he looked so in-between that i thought he was malay. but then his friends arrived, and i realised he was just an exotic-looking manjen. haha. which doesn't make him any less hot, of course. one of his friends, a manjen dude in a white shirt [who later sang Cannonball to his girlfriend for her birthday, and so beautifully that i just HAD to record a 20-second clip], looks vaguely familiar too.

i love cute guys, don't you?

oh and i bumped into diana in the 359 home, and we exchanged news. it transpires that bun is indeed attached. :( so leave me to bersedih here. [oh, plus, azhar is in SOC!!! he's in freaking SOC laaaaaa!!! i <3 SOC, they are like SO hot! *dies*]



watched Raising Helen again last night, and did you realise that there are repeated elements when you compare it with the director's other movies? like Hector Elizondo--he was in Pretty Woman, both Princess Diaries, and he was uncredited as Mickey Massey in this movie. and the juggler who was in the kindergarten was the Genovian Pear Juggler. and of course, my favourite Erik Bragg who doesn't say a word in this movie, but looks as adorable as he did in The Princess Diaries. love the eyes. and the cheeks. yummm.

oh God. guess who i dreamt about last night. okay nolah, i didn't dream about him, he just sorta guest-starred in the dream. but whatever it is, he was in it, and that's bad enough, really.

to be fair, he's not a horrible guy, and i don't even dislike him, let alone hate him. it's just that the fact that he placed prominently in my dream leads me to ask, "why?" and because i don't know the answer to that, i'm left confused.

i think it was somewhere in pasir ris park, like the playground with the wooden structures or whatever. and he was on one of them, presumably in mid-climb. i was taking a stroll with a couple of friends and suddenly one of them looked up and exclaimed, "*a****!" and so the rest of us turut menjenguk, and there he was. same hair, same complexion, same everything.

wow balls. i really miss him. i wonder how he's doing.

on an unrelated note, i hate being at home with nothing to do! i swear i'm growing fat with all this lying around and stuffing my face with cookies. [i mean that literally, by the way.]

i've been a little busy with stuff the past few days. like my 40-hour long day, which spanned most of wednesday and all of yesterday. i swear, i was completely destroyed yesterday, it was so bad.

went to MoS yesterday, after more than three weeks of not clubbing! [*beams proudly, just cos it's been so long*] it was okay, just cam biaser. that cute temasek poly or NYP or whatever poly guy was there, and he remembered me and dayah, and he smiled at us! *jumps around* and i bumped into weixiang, TOtally! ohyeah of course fadhilah was there as usual, haha, so that was nothing new. oh and of course, that bouncer i have a crush on. i swear he is so hot. i love the way he macam, takes your hand to check for the stamp. hahaha. oooh and i spotted edwin yeo, TOTALLY. i love his columns in TNP, and i never ever thought i'd EVER see him in person.

so anyway, you can understand why i was totally out-of-it for the PPP company preview the next day. the nicole richies did help by obscuring half my face, but you know, they had to come off sometime, right? haha. but despite my tiredness and takder-moodness, it was pretty fun. i swear fairuz is the most gatal guy on earth, and kamal pun lagi satu!!! and to be surrounded by them!!! it was crazy fun. and hanom has a whole bunch of photos to prove it. of course, the audience that turned up at the preview were great too. like *ahemhanom'sboyfriendahem* and *ahemsaniahem*. hehehe. plus, hamzah tak habis2 nak mintak the pjc girls' numbers. peee je. haha.

by the time i got home, it was past midnight, and i was so fugly i wanted to drown myself.

but it was a really lovely morning yesterday.



i had riding on wednesday afternoon, and i met this girl who's entering NUS (Science) this year, so cool! and she was telling me about her brother, who's apparently so great that he passed his 2B the first try, and he only had to take each pract once! and he recently passed his 2A with four points or something. amazing. if that's not enough, he also has a class 4 license, AND he's in CD. hahaha. i practically had to bite my tongue to prevent myself asking anything along the lines of: "is he cute?"/"does he have a girlfriend?"/"how old is he?"/"boleh intro?" hahaha.

oh and finally, i keep having nightmares these days. no not the hantu type. but worse. like, my latest one, the one i had lastnight/thismorning, involved cockroaches taking over the bus i was in. and the worst one i had--which was on monday or tuesday night--i was smoking. when i woke up, i nearly died.

i had the PPP chalet yesterday, which was supposed to be a boot-camp type thing, but turned into a family day of sorts.

games by the beach, yoga, zapin, ronggeng, and this exercise about emotions in which approximately 90% of them went completely bonkers. sorry, but it's true.

and then THAT NIGHT we played "i have never"!!! hahaha. sans the water/drinks/whatever. it turned into a whole attack-your-friends thing, it was SO cool.

hilarious.

oooh oooh ooooooooohhh PLUS i can TOTALLY cycle now laaaa!!! i'm SO freaking proud of myself! i even went downhill, and past a car which was going in MY direction, without dying. yayness.

yargh
has got to be the way i'm feeling right now. even lighting the candle from the otam-ayu wedding hasn't helped. it doesn't even give off a smell! so macam, yeah.

i came home and slept after my 22-point pract8. :( and it wasn't even a GOOD sleep, cos i got to dreaming, and it was practically a nightmare.

okay, bright spots, ain. there were a couple of cute guys in my pract. this tallish, dil-ish dude who just emanates that aura of quiet confidence. and my favourite, this kinda-short, dyed-blonde guy all covered with tattoos. you might think he's all setan-gangster-y, but no--when he knocked over one of the cones, he macam, gestured his apology and ran to replace it. i was blown over. he's so cute la, with his sepet eyes and everything. i should have looked at his name, aku bodoh! and he was macam so brave, he took the #1 tag. ahhh. brave, cute and cool. what more could one ask for, betul tak?

excuse me, i'm just being giler.

i. am. STUFFED. i had dinner at the airport with shafa, followed by a cheesecake, just because i had a dream about eating cheesecake last night. aperje.

and sorry for the berlambak lyrics.

Siti: Kau selalu dihati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza

Malique: Cinta itu buta
Dan juga boleh membutakan
Melukakan dan sukar untuk kita lupakan
Aku cinta padamu hanyalah ungkapan
Luahan yang jarang bermakna bila diucapkan
Ini pula cerita cinta sang pujangga
Bukan arjuna sita bukan cinta dan rangga
Mungkinkah khayalan akal mainan minda
Atau lamaran puitis dengan hasrat yang indah
Kau selalu dihati tidakku dekati
Sentiasa ada mata jahat yang memerhati
Tapi ku tak rungsing tidak mungkin rindu
Ku pusing lihat wajahmu di setiap penjuru
Senyuman dikaca kisahmu kubaca
Perjuangan kita sama dukamu kurasa
Aku pasrah sahaja pada Yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu dua dunia kita berbeza

Siti: Kau selalu dihati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza

Joe Flizzow: Suka dikala malam termimpi-mimpi
Rindu dikala siang mencari-cari
Kasih sebenar tidak bertukar tidak sebentar
Walau dipisah lautan direnangi gelora
Dan kadang kala hanyut bagaikan dua arah
Malu sering bersua tapi jarang bersuara
Kenapa bercinta jika kesudahannya pasrah
Kerna bila dilamun indahnya tidak terkata
Tersimpan hasrat tiada siapa yang mengerti
Harapan menggunung sampai penghujung dinanti
Dipegangkan janji tetap ratu dihati
Dengan izin Tuhan kan bersama kapan hari pasti
Sabar menanti kesabaran diuji
Berdoa dalam sujud sejadah ditangisi
Aku pasrah sahaja pada Yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu dua dunia kita berbeza…

Siti: Kau selalu dihati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza

Malique: Perjuangan seni kita tidak berpenghujung
Jangan tinggal batu bernama tak bepengunjung
Cabaran menikam kau tidak pernah bermurung
Tetap tersenyum walau kesedihan menyelubung
Bukan rupa parasmu yang jadi ukuran
Atau suaramu yang jadi bahan tuturan
Ku bukan mahu hubungan tapi kejujuran
Hadiah sepatah darimu satu kesyukuran
Tapi bila bertentang mata tidak terbentang kata
Kata apa saja…iya tapi tentang apa
Wajahmu yang cantik manis lagi
Senyuman sepasti mentari timur tiap pagi
Reality sukar diatasi tapi kesudahan indah
Harus bermula dengan fantasi
Ku rasa terhoyong-hayang antara dua dunia
Biar khayalan ku melayang…..

Siti: Kau selalu dihati
Takku dekati
Dua dunia kita berbeza - Dua Dunia

sebelum ku kenalimu
hidupku cukup ngan suka duka
tak pernahku sangka semuanya akan berubah
dikau bagaikan cahaya, bagi jiwa ku ini
tak mungkinku lupa katamu kan sentiasa di sisi
bagaikan satu kisah cinta kita berdua ke mana
asyik berpegangan tangan orang lain dilupakan
apa terjadi, diriku ni masih tertekan
hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan
tiap kali ku fikir, tiada guna bersedih
rakan-rakan katakan buang masa ku cintai
dikau punca pedihku, tiada baik darimu
tiada langsung yang benar dalam ungkapan bibirmu

kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku begini
kenapa harus ku tanggung semua
kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa aku diperbodohkan kasih

tak mungkin ku lupa kali pertama bersua
tak sangka, dikau kan menjadi pedih yang kan dalami jiwa
siang malam termenung, sedih memakan hati
tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh diluka begini
namun ku cekal hatiku, tuk melupakanmu
ku tahu kau begitu
malas ku nak rayu, buang tenagaku
kau takkan mendengarku
selamat tinggal oh kasih
janganlah iri hati
hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya mentari

kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku dikecewakan kasih

kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

kenapa harus ku merayu
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kenapa harus ku percaya
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kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu
kasih

sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini di hati
baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
dikau punca segala, kepedihan di hatiku
tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajahmu di hadapanku - Kenapa by Shazzy ft Lah V.E.

nak congratulate nat for passing her 2B TP this morning!!!

haha. tak lama lagi bawak KR k? *waves vigorously*

i wanted to like, really update on nightwalk and shit, tapi cam malas, so maybe tonight. tata.

i am SO smashed right now, i swear.

my eyes are macam STILL red from yesterday, weirdly. so i kept my shades on even till 7-plus, just to hide the scary redness from the world. and they're STILL red now, with the contacts off, plus i look like a nerd in my ill-fitting glasses. i never wear my glasses at home cos i don't really need it, but i figure i might as well try and protect my eyes from house dust, or whatever it is. haha.

anyway just now was the FOC06 grand finale. it was so totally cool la. and you know, i was hanging with a totally different crew [chehdebah, "crew" sey] than last year, so it was like, different dynamics and all. [aper yang aku merepek ni?] but u know, it was fun. afro is such a great host, i swear. i love that he speaks malay so flawlessly and effortlessly. and asyurah has the loveliest voice.

i think i spotted the freshie who pissed me off last night. nanti kau.

oh and totally laaaa, crushing on MerryChristmas, he's so freaking adorable!!! arghhh.

dah nak tido. asal these days aku cam busy giler gitu?

wedding was a blast. baba and i were macam classic overstayers, sampai 3 jam duduk kat situ! but it was fun. espesh the part with the cute food guy. yups. and of course, as with any other time i attend a wedding, i find a renewed fervour to get married. like now NOW.



sorry i look like crap.

hey friends.

i have macam loads to talk about, but i've been busy lately so everything is kinda delayed, and therefore, stale. so bear with me.

smalam aku gatal2 gi CDC even though i didn't have anything on there. step nak top-up my account and book lesson je. haha. and to collect threadless tees from Miss Jalan Kelempong, of course. i <3 them, by the way. espesh the captain awesome one or whatever his name is. you know what i love the most about threadless tees? they look absolutely terrif with sleeves! yessahhh! anyways yeah as usual about 749274 of your ordinary, run-of-the-mill cute guys. yayyy!

oohyeah on the way to CDC, there was this hot mat in 21, butbutBUT... he had macam 28402749283 square centimetres of tattoos on him. kalau cool rugged ones on his calves and pecs takper jugak [not that i could see aforementioned body parts], they were macam on his NECK and [wait for it] HIS CHIN!!! as in, where people grow their goatees? yeah right there. i nearly died of shock, revulsion, and voyeurism. it totally ruined his hotness, i can tell you that!

after CDC we went to eat and run errands at tampines, as usual. there was this mat who was walking from the opposite direction at the mrt station, and from kira2 50 metres away he was staring at us with a look that screamed, "CHECK ME CHECKING YOU OUT!" i was so whatevered, i stared back at him and muttered, "hello mat, you're not gonna get either of us with the way you stare!" but you know, he didn't hear me. haha. so he just continued doing what he was doing. and i continued being whatevered. so whatevered, in fact, that when we'd already passed each other, i turned back and OH GOD he was still staring and then he WAVED! i nearly died. mostly cos he's about five years younger than us. haha.

after that was PPP rehearsal, which was a blast too, yay. i know there are times i kick myself for being involved when i promised myself i'd be lazy, but other times [like last night], it's loads of fun.

today was pretty great too. raime took circuit revision, so i was in great spirits. haha. and he told us to use the kickstart. mampos. i took #16 at first, which actually has trouble starting--kickstart or otherwise. i swear i had to macam kick it 84027492 times, even with the choke on. anyways later i switched to #13, which started on my first kick! TOTALLY. i'm addicted. i shall kickstart next time. *jumps around* but anyway i realised that when you don't fall, there's not really much to do during circuit revision. so i got bored and sat for 15 whole minutes at the reporting area, where BP was giving a lecture to the 2A/2 guys on the perils of smoking and how much tar gets in your lungs, etc. really amusing. it was like, raime and BP sitting side-by-side!!! *heart* oh and i had a chat with juwakhir at the traffic light--he's basically disturbed by the fact that i still haven't passed despite him seeing me there like all the time. haha.

anyways, it was cool, despite the hot-as-hell weather. prolly to make up for yesterday.

went home and put on my green dress [TOtally! significance = raihan!] and went to orchard with amin. his friend, firdaus, is really cute and looks no older than 18.

i was already in 12, homeward bound, with this really hot mim dude [and deutschland supporter, i was amused to note by his wristbands]. no, he's really hot. his arms are elephant-trunk-standard! and don't get me started on his legs. i was sitting there [he was standing in front of me] wondering i wonder what's underneath that shirt.. haha. and he's handsome too! i was macam praying he'd get off at pasir ris with me, but it was not to be. [he lives in katong.]

which was okay, cos around that area, shah called and asked to meet, so i got right off that bus, and patah-balik-ed to city hall. hahaha. it was fun though. loads of breezes and people staring at the green vision that was ME! haha. anyway it was just for awhile, then i took the train back with his friend who's really nice and un-crappy, and unfortunately, whose name i've forgotten.

yupyup so. dahbis!

hanom and i went looking for those SIA-engineer-type jumpsuits today. so we hit beach road, where we found the coolest vintage shop which had, among other apparel and accessories, 48027402 pairs of shades. i nearly keeled over and died.

we had lunch [okay so it was already 6ish] at bugiscafe, which so totally rocks balls laaaaaa!!! i am so going back there. for one thing, ALL the staff is macam, malay. and the prices are all below 10 bucks. and there's free wireless. plus, a really cute guy in a purple tshirt. [favourite colour, if you didn't realise by now.] he works there, presumably, but was off-duty at that time. adorableadorableadorable. anyway our waiter macam, dropped the plate of tuna thingy on our table, it was so embarassing for all and sundry. i swear. kesian dier. i bet he was macam traumatised for life. ohhhhh and the brownie!!! it came with caramel and crushed almonds, and hanom witnessed first-hand, my infamous orgasmic food face. sorry hanom, i warned you.

got lost in chinatown--which in some parts REALLY resembles china--and finally we went home. i actually slept in the bus, all through katong. neck hurts like fuck, but you know. it was a lovely nap. haha.

okay big day tomorrow. nites!

sorry no updates cos i've been having a boring life. boring, but busy. i can't believe i promised myself no more projects after taridra and now i'm in PPP AND FOC. wthhhh. mampos. biler nak dapat 2B niiiiiiii!!!

ooh and i finally passed pract 7, woohoo! thanks roger!



ignoring the madrasah girls in the corner, that's the back of the top deck of the new wheelchair-friendly 21. three seats face each other!!! cool huh? okay sorry dayah and i were jakun.