There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't, you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl, it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye -paraphrased from Chris Brown

guess what i did just now? i went on a singapore river tour! how incredibly fun! and beautiful! it costs 12 bucks for an adult. anyways. very nice. we got in at the riverside point stop. and swayed all down the river and back up. it was all so beautiful, cos it was round bout 730, so everything was lighted up and stuff. if only i'd had a camera. i'd have been snapping away like those tourists infront of me. i nearly died when we passed the fullerton. it was SO undescribably lovely. from all angles! including the merlion angle. well. the whole experience rocked. there's nothing like being right smack in the middle of a river with breathtaking sights on both sides.

i have to do that again. it was so great. touristy, but who cares? it was great. and liang court starbucks has the cutest baristas in town! plus they serve frappucinos in a really nice tall starbucks glass. classy..

today's cute guy was this mim dude in a pink tshirt, khaki berms, white adidas velcro shoes with black ankle socks, dark shades and a messenger bag. i know, freaking detailed right? but he was so cute! and i had to bite my lip to keep from smiling to myself. he smelled great, too. and of all the seats in the train, he had to pick the one 3 seats away from the corner one i was in. totally laaaa!!! too bad, we had to part at city hall. but, as with all other cute train guys, it was nice while it lasted.

i can't look at cisco vans [trucks?] the same way again. not since the other day when nat and i were walking to the eunos mrt bus stop and she said, "eh check out the cisco guy.." so i turned and looked right into the van [truck?] and found myself staring the driver right in the eye. how embarrassing. well. he was cute. but nat was telling me to look at the one in the passenger seat, actually. anyway i macam, doubled my pace and tried not to laugh so hard or look so embarrassed. ohWELLs. adventure of that day.

well i thot the bengkel yest was great. the kids are so adorable. irma and i were laughing over their conversation at lunch. yup. really cute. and really funny. and the videos they made were hilarious. whatever doubts i had, whatever shittiness i experienced throughout the preparation stage of this project, they were all forgotten/dispelled as i sat there yesterday watching it all unfold. thanks to everyone who made it all possible, but since amy is the only one applicable who'll read this, thanks amy!!! everyone loved your certificate design. and hajar said it was a pity we bought such nice paper cos she liked your original design with the background. anyway, the gist of it is, thanks. you made my job THAT much easier. yeps.

it's been so long since i last blogged! haha. pe je. yesterday i watched Fearless with azy, and i actually fell asleep. i think it was halfway thru, i just gave up cos i was so freaking tired and sleepy, so i slept. all the way till the movie ended. how sad. sorry jet li. aku tak sengaje. i mean, he was cute and funny and all, but i was just beat.

the chinese test wasn't too bad, i think i might actually pass. haha. i think thaiguy is so cute and witty! arghhh. mati aku. and yest he was wearing a nusantara top. loves it! haha.

ohMAN i took so freaking long in lab!!! pasal i was too skared to turn up the hotplate to "high", so i guess it wasn't hot enough, so i had to add loads and loads of water, until it actually passed the 150ml mark! how stupid of me! dahlah aku duduk candlelight ngan bulan [or whatever his name is]. sheeesh. so anyway, i had to like, evaporate off the water, and wait for it to crystallise. then i sat for eons at the vacuum-Buchner area, before nat realised that the stupid vacuum was off! bodohnyer aku. then i did the melting point thingy, and the drying thingy. i lost bynk mass and all, so it weighed 2.something grams je. i'm a losaaaaa. ohwell. it wasn't a total loss--i took beribu pics. haha.

bengkel's been really great so far. the lone boy here is adorable. he's funny and outspoken, sounds like rudy and looks like, erm, a mat, i suppose. a dark one.

ohwells. i had loads more to write, but i guess i can't remember them all now. finally my stressful week is over, nak dikatakan, and i'll sleep my way through CNY.

fuck the poets of the past, my friends.
there are no beautiful suicides
just cold corpses with shit in their pants
& the end of the gifts. - Postsecret

i was like dying yest after driving. pasal i was hungry. and my mom cooked mi putih. so, NO WAY. i stupidly took the bus home, and i was just freezing my fingers off. and everything else too. serious. my fingers were numb and could hardly move. then i started having horrible tummyaches. anyway, azy decided to meet me for dinner la, so i wldn't have to eat disgusting mi putih. yeah so i waited at the int, practising my chinese characters, ironically while listening to my jiwang malay songs. hahaha. well i finally met farid, and his girlfriend. he has this really cool-looking bike, all sleek and dark, but it's kickstart. ohwell.

driving was great. i did countless right turns and U-turns. quite fun. yay.

yest after riding an ite mat chatted me up! woohoo! haha. slight problem though: he's kinda not-cute. and short. ohwell. but he was really nice. cos it was my first pract 3, and duh, figure of 8, so aku macam jatuh2 everywhere. my poor bike. i think i fell a minimum of 10 times. i even macam, zoomed ACROSS the grass verge at one point. it was crazy. and painful. and dirty [bynk mud patches]. and, of course, highly embarrassing. i have brand new bruises now. and we [nat & me] were thinking that i should like, label my bruises. and watch the progress of their disappearance/fadeaways. yah ANYWAY. i was just sitting there after the pract--momentarily alone pasal nat gi minum air--and macam, terlantar there on the chair. and he was packing his stuff two chairs away from me. suddenly i heard a voice say, "okay tak?" rupernyer dier bebual ngan aku!!! so i was like, yeah thanks and all that la. and he was like, telling me, don't worry, that actually i was quite steady in general, and that all i needed to do was practise more. yup. i thought it was really nice of him. if i were some ite mat, and i kept seeing ME fall 159462094 times, i'd just brand me as a loser and avoid any form of contact. so anyway i thought it was nice of him la, to be so supportive and all. yup. i think he was on circuit revision yest.

after that i caught Memoirs of a Geisha with azy. it's REALLY GOOD. i nearly died when i fell in love with ken watanabe too. haha. and it was so cool that it has a happy ending. i love happy endings. greatgreatgreat movie. and zhang ziyi is incredibly pretty. and the little kid who plays chiyo is pretty too!

oh speaking of asian actors i fall in love with, do u know why Fearless is jet li's final martial arts movie? cos he has some kinda spine problem, so he's unable to do any more action movies [unless, of course, he's acting as the incapacitated former hero a la bruce wayne in batman of the future. haha. sorry jet. u know i love you.]!!! isn't that so sad! i totally love him la! but apparently this isn't the end of him, he'll be acting in non-action movies i guess, in so-called serious roles. but anyway. gotta watch this swan song for sure.

chinese tutorial this morning was great, despite the severe lack of sleep i was experiencing. peter sat next to me [or rather, I sat next to him] and he looked SOOOOO good in a long-sleeved shirt with the sleeves rolled up mid-forearm [striped], berms, and cool white slippers. which macam sorta matched MY NUM slippers, so that's a bonus point for him. anyways. whenever our eyes bertembung, i almost drowned. he has the most AMAZING eyes which are a shade of blue somewhere in between pale and electric. man. i nearly died. i love his hair too. such a nice balance between boring blonde and sedate brown. okay now i sound like a hairdresser/hair-dye-promoter. anyways. he rocks. i look forward to every tutorial just to see him. cos he's so amazingly lawar. and those rosy cheeks. they just sum everything up beautifully. now. excuse me while i swoon.

me: maybe he doesn't come on thursdays..
amy: today is tuesday.
baba: mampos. aku baru nak add, "agaknye dier takut hantu, malam jumaat".
collective laughter.

i know it's been like eons since i last blogged. alot has happened, and i've been too tired/busy/dissatisfied to blog.

i passed my pract 2 though, did i mention? it was so cool. i could hardly believe it at first. cos i kept losing my balance, had to put my right foot on the ground a coupla times. so i didn't really think i'd pass. but i did. i think we all did, cos before returning our booklets si tamrin was like giving some lecture on how important pract 2 was, and how we'd be doing it all our lives, etc. so i was like thinking, does this mean we all pass? well. guess so. pract 3 today, and i'm kinda nervous. but with God's grace, i will get through it la, and eventually pass. someday. haha.

i lovelovelove the cute guys at riding. i swear i do.

went out with azy yest to get my new shoes. this red-and-black vans pair. i know they look like darth maul, but i think they're adorable. adorable and loud. haha. at first the TM shop takde, and i was kicking up a fuss and being all grumpy. so we went to orchard. where, of course, the shaw centre one pun takder. finally we found it at stadium. yay. and i found this really really nice black puma jacket that is to DIE for. 79 bucks, though. and i really can't afford any luxuries while i'm paying for my practs and berangan2 nak save up for a bike and stuff so.. i dunno. guess i won't be getting it la. i don't actually NEED another jacket anyway. [yeah ain, keep telling yourself that. someday you may actually believe it. haha.]

there was a cute guy at the 359 bus stop this morning. mim, i think. and one of those nat types. u know, black, headphones, sneakers and all? yeah. he's really cool. with his hair and everything. but that was about the only good thing about missing my bus this morning. there was some annoying old perv sitting next to me. argh. i wanted to stick a pen in his face. or his balding head, i'm not too fussy really. i promise i will not miss the bus next time. those CD mats are missing me something terrible. haha.

i got a really rude shock yest night when i got home. fan msged me to ask what i was doing and stuff. so i sed, just got home.. and he was like, from work? to which i replied, no, from going out.. so HE asked, oh.. wif? and i panicked a bit and decided not to reply at all since i didn't wanna lie, and i didn't exactly wanna tell him either. i thought that was the end of it BUT. he msged again, Went wif sum1 special? which kind of sealed it. i didn't reply AT ALL. but i was wondering how he came to tt conclusion. maybe he saw me with azy. maybe one of his friends saw me with azy. highly unlikely, considering NONE of them know me. and of course, there's the equally unlikely option of him being extra intuitive. wahahaha.

and i can't wait to get out of this backstabbing community known as PBM. irony, irony.

i caught Green Street Hooligans at lido yest. and yes i'm gonna call it that, instead of "Football Hooligans", cos it's the original title anyway, and it sounds SO much cooler, no? yeah well anyway. it was great. excellent. violent and real and gritty and elijah wood is very cute in it, but completely overshadowed by the hot guy playing pete. woohoo!!! i nearly died cos he was just so amazingly hot. botak, cool, AND he teaches! what more can you ask for, right?

driving today was okay, i suppose, but i dunno. i was kinda shitty. it was better with ong. ohwell. but i spent like, the entire time out on the road, how cool is that? still. sometimes i wish i was back on the circuit so i can check out all the riding mats. ohWELL.

i dropped by work today to collect my cheque. unfortunately, it's crossed, so i HAVE to bank it in. damn. i dunno how i'm gonna top up my storevalue account now. anyway. i was starving at that point. not having eaten breakfast and all. you know i can't function if i don't eat before leaving the house. even if i'm FREAKING late, i always take the time to eat. everything else takes a backseat. but it was macam, disgusting stale pizzas. tak main ah. and i was just staring longingly at fish & co. i nearly walked in, since dah dapat gaji and all. but u know, my aloneness stopped me. i mean, i HAVE eaten alone before, but that was at like, bk or mac's or whatever. not an actual restaurant like fish & co or swensen's or whatever. so i wasn't ready to make that my virgin solitary meal. or whatever. haha.

had dinner with azy just now. this cat which hangs around my estate just wouldn't leave us alone! i wouldn't mind if it just sat there [which it did at first]. but noooo. it macam, jumped up to us. and that's not enough! it snuggled up to me!!! aperniii??? i nearly died of fear. haha. i know it's irrational to be so scared. but i am, okay? so there. well azy tried to get it away from me, but it macam, stuck out its claws, apparently, so he couldn't really do anything. while it just baringed against my legs. seriously. i was paralysed with fear.

but as you can see, i got away. haha.

last one. turns out the "farhan" who's supposed to be working at my place isn't him after all. sigh. i dropped by swensen's just now after dinner. and he was at the fountain. and i just stood there, smiling at his back [he was washing up] until he turned around and sed, "eh kau! kau buat aper kat sini?" sigh. i really really really miss him. i don't even know why. it's just that he's so adorable. and nice. and cute. and i love his hair and his face and his kurusness and his love with bikes. i was gonna macam, make conversation with him, when stella came and said, "eh yang, you tunggu farhan ah?" well. i turned red enough to shame my roxy handbag and said, "hotak kau ah!" and left. sigh. thanks for kacau-ing daun, stella. amazing how it's been almost half a year and she STILL thinks i like him. and i thought she was slow.

i know it's weird that i mention azy and bun in almost the same breath. but you see, there's a difference here. it's okay to do that cos i can never have bun. i found that out a long time ago. so. yeah. i just have to live with it. and continue missing him. cos that's about all i can do.

me: asal kau asyik bising pasal tu? kau dah regret dropping him kan?
baba: ewah, drop sey! kau ingat dier aper, module?

giler.

so, even though i didn't pass the pract, yest was a blast.

i officially have a crush on the manjen dude from our first lesson. yes and i still don't know his name. but anyway. i sat around at the canteen and waited, then when i got there, he was sitting there and this huge smile just spread itself on my face. then i sat infront of him and macam, bebual. it was so cool. he was doing circuit revision. and we actually talked! he's in RP, first-year, and you know, stuff like that. he's so adorable. and he has the most endearing smile known to womankind. it didn't stop there. whenever we bertembunged at intersections or junctions, he'd smile at me. the other time he stopped behind me at the red light and smiled in my rearview mirror. oh he's SO adorable. kill me now.

the lesson itself was okay. i was pretty nervous about falling and stuff, but the worst of it was that my Rowley XLTs kept getting stuck after changing up, i got rust on my sleeve, and i lost my balance a coupla times and had to put my left foot down. haha. ohyeah and i was like the only girl in that lesson, macam bodoh sey. and there was only one other girl around. as a result, people actually macam, noticed me. ohwell. no friendly guys this time. but at least ader tt manjen dude.

azy met me at the canteen after my lesson, and we went to TM. at taha's void deck i complained that i was getting blisters from my shoes, so we exchanged footwear. yes like that scene in My Sassy Girl. i felt so horrible and guilty. yet, comfortable. hahahaha.

oooOOOooo and this morning's chinese tutorial was amazing. seven of us, and only the three of us were singaporeans. there's a really really cute swede, peter. rosy cheeks and well he just looks great. mmhmm. and it was very fun la. the tutor kept on making me answer his questions. like, "what does gao xing mean?" or "is 'lah' derived from the malay language?" hahah. buat malu. but mostly i cld answer the qns la. prolly the first tutorial i didn't feel like falling asleep in, despite the fact that i had less than 5 hours last night.

just now loner guy was in lec. woohoo.

shah: thanks ain aku sayang kau!
shah: though you don't like the female touch..

hm. yest i had such a horrible time at first. i went out to go to baba's place before going to work. i waited at the bus stop. the bus came. i boarded it. i tapped my wallet. it didn't beep. i realised tt i'd left my ezlink card BACK AT HOME. i embarrassedly asked the driver to let me off. it started raining. i walked home. it rained EVEN MORE HEAVILY. i was like, wth? serious. muka aku cam nak bunuh any living thing that dared stray into my path. i reached home, and ignored my sister, who looked at me quizzically and prolly asked something which i didn't hear. i stood for a few indecisive minutes in my room, wondering what to do, since it was already 3, and work started at 6 and all. finally i decided to just go back out there, since i was already dressed and since i'd already made plans. you can't bring me down with a little cloudburst and some mild embarrassment. i'm stronger than that. yet, i was close to tears not 5 minutes earlier. okay so i went back out. and then abg rahim called and said i didn't have to come to work. woohoo! so i spent a few glorious lepaking hours at baba's place, then i went home and caught raising helen like i'd been wanting too. woohoo. it rocks la. i almost cried again. haha.

and then THIS morning i missed one train, but u know, no biggie cos i was still early. haha. and then CD mats just started streaming into the train! at the rate of 2 per station. it was so cool. love love love CD mats. i was totally feasting. haha. that was super-fun.

so. i went out with fan today. i think the last time we went out was like, the last week of ramadhan. so you know. it's been awhile. and yes i DID miss him, those first few weeks. i did. but you know, it wore off. it's like i'm a souffle, and you can't turn the heat up too high, or leave me in the oven for too long. i'll deflate. okay sorry for the dumb analogy. call me fickle. call me a ho. call me whateverlah, i mean, you might be right. how would i know. but that's what i'm like lah.

anyway. i had fun. cos u know, he's fun to hang out with. he's interesting and funny and all. and he didn't seem to mind my state of dress. we just walked around beach road and got his police pants. and btw i have to go back there and check out the secondhand bookshop. and the tshirts. yeah then we cabbed to yishun, and he dropped me off at the country club.

the charity dinner was great. kashbir was there [but with his gf]. wak was there. i love his hair. what else. yeah it was fun. great camwhoring guys! haha. great food too. most of it similar to magic wok offerings.

klah. somehow my mood has been killed. i shall go read a book. then i have to go work tmr. tata.

just checking in, cos i don't go online at home anymore, since i have work and stuff. it was really busy yest.. i nearly died. haha. and a couple of the girls from white sands came, and despite looking endlessly bitchy and minah, they were quite nice and friendly to me. hahaha. and one of them IS suria. i KNEW it was her. i can't believe it, though. she definitely doesn't look like she's given birth before.

oh anyway, another thingy that happened at work. wheee. abg rahim called this guy "farhan" and asked him to confirm dier nak keje kul brape all that. i think it might be bun, you know. so i nearly did a victory dance right there. but he's working lunchtime la, so we won't be working together. dang. anyway it might not be him. well. just pray it's him. i miss him loads. he's such a cutie. it'd be great to work with him again.

ah and the sun appears to have come out of hiding! i'm so excited and happy!!! woohoo!!! so i celebrated it by wearing my green topshop shades, yay. and there were a coupla cute guys in the train. how fun. lovelovelove cute guys.

ohWOW. i saw like one of the most captivating guys EVER, last night in 21 home from work. he's this muslim vik, really tall and slim and very darkly good-looking. AND. that's not all! he was wearing a black guy's jubah or whatever they call it. u know, the kind the alim people wear with pants. except his was full-length, reaching all the way to his feet, so no pants la. omg. i totally died. wait. that's not all. he had dyed blonde hair. how do i know it was dyed? cos his eyebrows were black. haha! ooh and he was wearing celak, which enhanced his looks even more, if that's possible, AND he was listening to his discman, which enhanced his coolness, and of cos, he was with his parents, which enhanced his budak-baik-ness. oh God. he was just too perfect. i couldn't take my eyes off him. haha.

anyway i passed my RTT, which, objectively speaking, isn't too much of a surprise considering i passed BTT only last month, and anyway i did like 8930482 practice tests before this. haha. oh and we had lunch at fish & co before that, really yummy! a coupla cute guys, not that squidward-with-blonde-hair was one of them. haha.

i just finished stuffing my face. sheesh. ohwell. first day back at school was okay. pretty short. unfortunately, i only spotted loner guy AFTER lecture was over.

hm and then cosmetics was okay. obviously more girls than guys. i found the cute guy for this sem, haha. this rosy-cheeked manjen dude. niceee. oh but so much for me doing well this sem, cos 5 minutes into cosmetics and i was surfing for zoombinis and visiting myscene. sheesh.

ohwell. maybe thursday will be a better day.

omgggg. guess which cute guy from my past i bumped into yest night??? ex-con. i died. i can't believe how long it's been since i last saw him. 9 months, to be exact. his last day at work. and i missed him like crazy those first few months, and i'd have given anything just to see him again, but i never saw him. i did get to talk to him online a coupla times, but that was it. and then a few months ago i never saw him online again. so yesterday was a huge and pleasant surprise for me. i was with azy, actually, on the way to as-shalihin. and i was kinda tired and stuff, so i was just walking without really caring about the people around. then suddenly i saw a familiar face from about 10 metres away. and he was looking at me too. and then my face just broke into the biggest smile ever, the way he used to make me smile back in the swensen's days. yeah so i just stood there for awhile, talking to him. usual platonic stuff like "kau ngan saper?" [him] and "dah lama aku tak jumpa kau!" [me]. amazing how i hadn't forgotten his face after all those months. and that usual bored expression of his. and his voice. oh God. i just missed him so much. despite his setanness. i know. i'm a sucker for punishment. or something. and i suppose that was prolly a one-time thing and i'll never see him again. but there is no way i'll forget him. as shitty as he is, i'll never forget him. even now i keep replaying last night in my head. and i think that if i were ever lucky enough to bump into him again, that stupid grin would prolly slide involuntarily onto my face again.

ohyeah and yest was the bbq. quite fun yea. yah but di and i were tak puas hati with the meagre amount of food we ate la. even though we weren't strictly hungry. haha.

sorry but back to the ex-con thing. it HAD to be fate. it just had to. for one, i wasn't even gonna meet azy at first. i was gonna join atikk and zahdan in going to K5. and anyway, azy wanted to eat at afghanistan, but he made a wrong turn. and you know, i dunno! i just can't believe i got to meet ex-con again, just when i least expected it.

hi friends. i'd like to start by thanking God. for letting me get the next 3 stamps required to pass lesson one. so, THANKS GOD. it meant so much to me. espesh since i kinda screwed up the figure S thing by falling/stalling ALL THE FREAKING TIME. no really. so i concluded that they passed me out of pity. it WAS my sixth session, you know. and when i collected my booklet, the guy gave me a Look, i gave him one in return, and he said, "come back again.." so my dejected face came on, and i opened the booklet and there were those 3 huge stamps! i died. no i didn't. in fact, i exclaimed, "OH MY GOD!" at around 83028402 decibels. and he laughed. yup. once again, thanks God.

a few cute guys. and some of them were in my lesson. a pity most of them were in orientation. dahlah tu, at the end of the lesson they were completely clueless, and the instructor told them to put back their number tags, and they were still like, lost. the cutest one turned to me, and i was like, "um, taruk balik [points to number tags].." and he was like, "OH!" adorable. but u know. it was cool. cos there were only 4 of us repeating. so we had plenty of time for everything. and i ended up being the only girl and i was like going so slowly, 30km/h, so i think they had a hard time trying NOT to overtake me. sorry dudes. and then yeah at the figure S shit, i stalled so many freaking times. kesian the manjen dude who went after me. he had to wait like ALL the time. but don't worry, it's all good, cos we terserempaked at the bus stop afterwards, i lent him like 30 cents and we had a short chat. another cool thing about riding lessons: you get to meet new people and make new friends. funfunfun. and u know. the wind and rain in your face. cooooool.

oh and surprisesurprise, i'm taking 6 mods this sem. something i NEVER considered, to be perfectly honest. but i couldn't bear to drop ANY of the mods i got. so. yes.
-the two chem mods, CM1121 and CM1131,
-TWO life sciences mods, LSM1301 and LSM1302: general bio and genes & society,
-PR2202: cosmetics and perfumes,
-and of course, LAC1201, the one i've been coveting since LAST sem: chinese.

busybusybusy. if i can't take it i'll S/U one of them la. i hope i can make it, cos it'll be great to take 4 mods in a sem. i'm kinda scared at the prospect of being SO occupied, but at least it leaves NO time for guys. which can only be a good thing, the way things have been going. yeah.

yah i almost forgot to mention the SORRY condition of the toilet at orchard mrt. it used to be one of my favourites, back in the RGS days. i used to go there all the time, before skl, after skl, whenever. NOW it's been downsized to three cubicles. all sitting. problem is, NONE of them are usable! when i went yest afternoon, the first was flooded, the middle one had no tissue and was teenily flooded, and the last one had what looked like a mound of shit on the ledge above/behind the toilet bowl! ohyes there was also bloody tissue on the floor in between the first and middle cubicles, and of course, the whole freaking place STANK. too bad aku dah takleh tahan. if not, i'd have scarpered. GOD. never again. never again. ironic, of course, that it was the orchard one, and not, say, the pasir ris one, that was gross.

how sad to end my entry on that note. well. i have a busy life ahead of me. so i better make like a bee and buzz off now.

[ohyes. i forsee grumpiness and crabbiness in my future, due to all these thingies i've committed myself to. so that might be the tone of later posts. just a general warning. sorry in advance.]

woohoo driving was great today. i got some manjen dude called ong, who doesn't talk much, but was a great influence to my driving. i was totally great, i swear! haha. and he passed my stage one, and yeah it was just cool. and it finally rained during driving, how exhilarating! haha. but at first aku macam terkial2 cos i had NO idea how to operate the windscreen wipers. so i ter-activated the spray jets or whatever. TWICE. and he was like, "nevermind nevermind, must wash, cos kena rain all dirty already." haha. i DIED. also, the classic: "yellow box can go in.." so i proceeded to ease off the brake and move forward. and he was like, "wah like that also u believe ah?" and he just died laughing.

actually i spent all my time on the road today, so i didn't see any cute riders. ohwell. there were a coupla cute pedestrians, and this vik who took the same train from khatib with me. i still dunno if he was going for driving or riding.

yeah then it was the secretaries meeting followed by home. ohwell. safe and sedentary day for me.

hey.

had my first riding prac alone today. alone=no nat. haha. but it was okay. i finally got one stamp. Lord knows when i'll get all four, but i have faith. i think. i actually managed to talk to a couple of the people in my lesson. there was this guy whose license was revoked, and that's why he's retaking. and there was this girl--the only other girl in my lesson--who wasn't too bad. we actually did everything today--changing gears, main circuit, braking at high gear, braking at low speed, cornering on third gear, and of course, that irritating figure S thingy. and annoyingly, my bike stalled while i was on third gear and about to change up. TWICE. and the second time, there was a freaking car behind me! how shitty is that? nevertheless, aku dapat one stamp so i'm not complaining. i still think riding in the rain is fun. except the raincoat pants are really ketat. haha. it's hard to sit on the bike properly. and my jeans got wet anyway. OH and while i was putting on my raincoat, i saw fai! [no not the one from my past, the one from baba's past.] i couldn't help but stare. i thot he didn't recognise me in all my paddington bear glory, but i was wrong. hahaa.

okay sorry that was one run-on para. cute guys aplenty, those CD mats who noticed the thingy hanging on my bag, and this extremely cute talldarkhandsome dude taking his class 2A, i think. i even took some time off to watch him do the bumpy course. oh is he hot or WHAT. haha.

yea so that was today's prac. i was so tired after all the rain and stuff. i came home and i slept, but then i had riding dreams. which explains why i'm awake now. =D

work was like, the best yesterday! haha. when i came in it was still very light outside, which was cool. and there was like a cute vik at table 18, but unfortunately he was just leaving. ohwell. but then later, i was just watching the people walk past, and there was this really really cute manjen guy with his friend. he was all tall and fair and chiselled and bigGER eyes, and he just exuded that cool vibe from 9472054389 km away. so i was like, please come and eat here, please come and eat here.. but they just bypassed us. so i was like feeling sad, but then i realised they were reading the top 10 poster! so u know, the life seeped back into me. and a coupla minutes later they walked in. woohoo! they sat at table 20, and i hovered around the area waiting to take their orders. both of them were really nice, actually, although they took quite a long time. he ordered kuay teow but with chilli padi, and when i clarified his order, he was like, "i like it hot." i like it hot!!! i DIED on the spot. i felt like saying, "so do i. and not just in that way." of course aku diam. i don't wanna lose my job. anyways. yes. he was completely adorable. this is the manjen guy to end all manjen guys.

next. 9 police dudes [baru walk out for today's passing out] sat at table 22. a mix of manjen and mims and mim-viks. and some were really cute! one of the malay dudes was cute la, but he was MIA most of the time. anyhows, i still macam, staked my claim and i made everyone back off so i cld take their order. i really thought they'd be like those army dudes from my swensen's days and order beribus, but they just had their own stuffs from the top 10. HOW disappointing. haha.

coolest thing was that both instances of cute guys enjoyed the songs from my CD! woohoo! the manjen dude was really cute, he was like singing along to hold me down. ahhh mati aku. kill me now.

yup. all in a day's work.

heyhey. i've been waiting for the general school holidays to end so i cld go tanning. yay and finally the day came. it was great. great sun, great empty pool, loads of fun. can't wait to do it again, only problem is i don't really have much time left either. ohwell. i missed tanning. great catching up with it today. the sun missed me.