okay amy u officially have a friend. and we officially have the lowest chem scores in our little circle of chem friends, to date.
anyway, i went to meet a new friend at bugis just now. at first i was like SO skared cos he kept saying, "jgn muntah when u see my face.." i mean, HOW could anyone feel secure after hearing that right? so when i reached bugis, i was like, shit, which ugly guy is him? and i hardly looked around in case i spotted THE ugly guy. haha. but omg he turned out to be SO HOT. i swear, i swear! he's the kind of guy i'd spot walking down the street, and nudge amy/baba/shafa/whoever, and say, "aku ambik dier..!" yup. i mean, okay, firstly he looks like a vik. secondly, he has THE sexiest trimmed five-o'clock shadow, frappe pon kalah. and thirdly, he's tall and not kurus kering, but just nice. like baby bear. ohman seriously, i was like, wow i can't believe i'm walking around bugis with this guy! anyway we didn't have much time [pasal kena buat test kan], so we just went for dinner at this chicken rice place [and i saw fairuz TCL swensen's there, plus loads of other cute lumpurs], and then we took 12 home. and barely minutes after he walked me home, he msged to say thanks for having dinner with him, and wished me good luck for the test. and i was just swooning cos i thought that was SO sweet! and when i replied and said thanks for everything [cos he was being totally gentlemanly all night], he responded with "thanks again.." !!! could you die?!?!?! how can someone be hot AND sweet? [okay now he sounds like a teh. hahaha.]
and anyone who asks me the question, "maner kau nak campak fan?" will have our friendship ties severed forever.
Friday, September 30, 2005
"you kissed my lips and then you take my breath away.." -joe [the singer]
in the library now. mendak sey. i have loads of work to do. 3j stuff, taridra stuff, penyiaran stuff, and assorted academic stuff. tapi cam malas nak buat sey. oh i wish i was at the arts linkway. kat library maner ader cute guys nak lalu-lalang sey. haha.
lab was quite okay. as usual, aku nak terkencing, which spoiled the experience la. haha. and i hate when i feel my phone vibrating in the middle of like, an experiment or smthg. but anyway. so i went for a toilet break. and when i walked back inside, FUUUYOOOOOOO!!! the smell just hit me in the face! it was a horrible and potent combination of sulfur and ammonia. takleh angkat sakkkk.. you know, the label claimed that it was dilute ammonia, but bau dier macam extra-strong hair dye sey. and when you mix the reagents, e.g. dilute ammonia and dilute HCl, you'll like, see fumes. padahal dier tulis "dilute" pe. NOT getting it. so i was thinking, the only shitty thing about chemistry is the baus. haha. tu je yg aku takleh angkat. everything else is quite fun la. ohyah so back to the test. it was this pretty pretty olive-green colour that i later realised was the exact shade of the dangly earrings i was wearing! so of cos, i HAD to take a picture. nanti malam aku post. how cool rite? i mean, it totally strengthened my love for chemistry. haha. oh maaf i'm supposed to talk about the TEST. it was oklah, but i kinda got sick of centrifuging after the third one. haha. annoying sak. i got Fe(III), which i was pretty sure was right after all the merepek gross brown ppts. and i got Ni(II), which made sense cos what else could have caused the pretty green shade right? [mannn i was so in love with my solution, i wanted to bring the remainder home with me. tapi takder available receptacles. takkan nak taruk dlm waterbottle adidas aku kan.] oh and i got nitrate(V), which i concluded after getting my first-ever brown ring!!! excitiooonnngggg.. and i finished [crapping] everything about 10 minutes early, it was so cool. so i left early again. i love finishing lab early. it gives one a sense of freedom. hahaha.
i can't believe i just wrote a whole run-on paragraph on my CM1111 lab. haha. i like lab la. the prelab jitters are annoying, but once i get into it, it's all very fun. and my lab partner is so nerdily cute. haha. okay, he's not my lab partner, he's my lab neighbour, technically. i remember being skared pasal i didn't know anyone in lab 1, but now i talk to both my lab neighbours, so everything's cool. i think that they think aku eksyen pandai, though. cos i always finish early. not that i actually DO the experiments. kadang2 malas. malas and takot. takot the whole thing will blow up in my face. so generally, i stay away from heating over a flame, heating in a water bath, and adding concentrated reagents, in that order. then i just cam, try and figure out what the right results are. or ask shah. or dengar2 [which has never worked, cos i'm pekak].
okla okla enough chem stuff. tadi pat arts canteen some OLD and TAK CUTE mim worker was staring at me. like, blatantly staring. he was with his colleague or whatever, but facing me. and he just stared and stared pat muker aku non-stop, while drinking his air. annoying sak. and even when he got up to leave, he HAD to like take the route closest to our table, and continued staring at me. then he put his cup away, and went back to staring at me as he left the canteen. um, seriously. sedarlah diri sikit. i bet he was hoping for me to like, smile at him or something. not in this life, bang.
oh cool i just met abang jufri here, at central lib. and i just borrowed my first book. ahaha. sleng sey aku.
in the library now. mendak sey. i have loads of work to do. 3j stuff, taridra stuff, penyiaran stuff, and assorted academic stuff. tapi cam malas nak buat sey. oh i wish i was at the arts linkway. kat library maner ader cute guys nak lalu-lalang sey. haha.
lab was quite okay. as usual, aku nak terkencing, which spoiled the experience la. haha. and i hate when i feel my phone vibrating in the middle of like, an experiment or smthg. but anyway. so i went for a toilet break. and when i walked back inside, FUUUYOOOOOOO!!! the smell just hit me in the face! it was a horrible and potent combination of sulfur and ammonia. takleh angkat sakkkk.. you know, the label claimed that it was dilute ammonia, but bau dier macam extra-strong hair dye sey. and when you mix the reagents, e.g. dilute ammonia and dilute HCl, you'll like, see fumes. padahal dier tulis "dilute" pe. NOT getting it. so i was thinking, the only shitty thing about chemistry is the baus. haha. tu je yg aku takleh angkat. everything else is quite fun la. ohyah so back to the test. it was this pretty pretty olive-green colour that i later realised was the exact shade of the dangly earrings i was wearing! so of cos, i HAD to take a picture. nanti malam aku post. how cool rite? i mean, it totally strengthened my love for chemistry. haha. oh maaf i'm supposed to talk about the TEST. it was oklah, but i kinda got sick of centrifuging after the third one. haha. annoying sak. i got Fe(III), which i was pretty sure was right after all the merepek gross brown ppts. and i got Ni(II), which made sense cos what else could have caused the pretty green shade right? [mannn i was so in love with my solution, i wanted to bring the remainder home with me. tapi takder available receptacles. takkan nak taruk dlm waterbottle adidas aku kan.] oh and i got nitrate(V), which i concluded after getting my first-ever brown ring!!! excitiooonnngggg.. and i finished [crapping] everything about 10 minutes early, it was so cool. so i left early again. i love finishing lab early. it gives one a sense of freedom. hahaha.
i can't believe i just wrote a whole run-on paragraph on my CM1111 lab. haha. i like lab la. the prelab jitters are annoying, but once i get into it, it's all very fun. and my lab partner is so nerdily cute. haha. okay, he's not my lab partner, he's my lab neighbour, technically. i remember being skared pasal i didn't know anyone in lab 1, but now i talk to both my lab neighbours, so everything's cool. i think that they think aku eksyen pandai, though. cos i always finish early. not that i actually DO the experiments. kadang2 malas. malas and takot. takot the whole thing will blow up in my face. so generally, i stay away from heating over a flame, heating in a water bath, and adding concentrated reagents, in that order. then i just cam, try and figure out what the right results are. or ask shah. or dengar2 [which has never worked, cos i'm pekak].
okla okla enough chem stuff. tadi pat arts canteen some OLD and TAK CUTE mim worker was staring at me. like, blatantly staring. he was with his colleague or whatever, but facing me. and he just stared and stared pat muker aku non-stop, while drinking his air. annoying sak. and even when he got up to leave, he HAD to like take the route closest to our table, and continued staring at me. then he put his cup away, and went back to staring at me as he left the canteen. um, seriously. sedarlah diri sikit. i bet he was hoping for me to like, smile at him or something. not in this life, bang.
oh cool i just met abang jufri here, at central lib. and i just borrowed my first book. ahaha. sleng sey aku.
doing my usual prelab surfing at the usual place. and there's this guy at the next table who's completely freaking me out, i think he has Tourette's syndrome or something. he's totally interfering with my normally-peaceful chillout time man. i know it may not be his fault, but STILL. hancur concentration aku.
i've made big plans to skip calculus tutorial today cos i SWEAR, i can't do the 6th tutorial AT ALL, even after thumbing the textbook dry. mampos. so i'm gonna just chillout pat arts linkway and wait for the germans to finish their tutorial. then i'll hang with them till their lecture starts la. and in all the bits of free time that i have, i'll get started on the taridra minutes and the penyiaran concept paper. ARGH banyaknyer kerje! is there another way out, apart from bunuh diri?
aku pon nak kahwin..!
i've made big plans to skip calculus tutorial today cos i SWEAR, i can't do the 6th tutorial AT ALL, even after thumbing the textbook dry. mampos. so i'm gonna just chillout pat arts linkway and wait for the germans to finish their tutorial. then i'll hang with them till their lecture starts la. and in all the bits of free time that i have, i'll get started on the taridra minutes and the penyiaran concept paper. ARGH banyaknyer kerje! is there another way out, apart from bunuh diri?
aku pon nak kahwin..!
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
"bau ape tu macam nangka?"
was what i said at the bus stop while waiting for the 96 home just now. turns out someone had sprayed deodorant on herself, and that someone was practically next to me. understandably, we [me, shah, di, amy, halim] burst into laughter. and everyone attempted to sever ties with me. kauuuu. cramps giler sak tadi..
and i ended off the day perfectly, when my bus driver drove me home! haha. okay, by "my bus driver", i mean the 359 bus driver who always smiles at me and who lets me off nearer to my house, and who waves bye. yup so it was cool.
anyway i thought SAM was great. overall great, anyway. and don't kill me for saying this, but i thought atikk's favourite person was really quite good! well it was filled with laughs and some struck-chords i.e. teraser, and all. and there was stuff that NUS ppl wld appreciate more than the rest of the audience. oh and of cos, bynk GGMs in the audience too. yum.
what else? ohyes i found another GGM in islam. he's a decaf-lookalike, so i'm gonna call him double decaf. hahaha. i THINK he might possibly be someone baba and i spotted earlier. anyway, he's really handsome and looks pillarish. yay. oh and we named someone else, abang engine!!! [irma's idea actually, but when she found out that he's in the same batch, she wanted to take it back. sorry, too late, irma.]
and although i started blogging this at 1-something a.m., it's like 3-something a.m. now. guess why i'm still awake. and no, i wasn't doing anything productive. so i think after i sahur and pray, i'm gonna sleep till it's exactly time to wake up for skl. damnn. biler nak blajar sakkk.. guarantee mesti fail nyer. and tmr, due to lack of sleep, i'm gonna sleep almost the moment i get home. so yeah. have fun. [btw, that means that i won't be studying for thursday's big test. omg i am such a loser.]
was what i said at the bus stop while waiting for the 96 home just now. turns out someone had sprayed deodorant on herself, and that someone was practically next to me. understandably, we [me, shah, di, amy, halim] burst into laughter. and everyone attempted to sever ties with me. kauuuu. cramps giler sak tadi..
and i ended off the day perfectly, when my bus driver drove me home! haha. okay, by "my bus driver", i mean the 359 bus driver who always smiles at me and who lets me off nearer to my house, and who waves bye. yup so it was cool.
anyway i thought SAM was great. overall great, anyway. and don't kill me for saying this, but i thought atikk's favourite person was really quite good! well it was filled with laughs and some struck-chords i.e. teraser, and all. and there was stuff that NUS ppl wld appreciate more than the rest of the audience. oh and of cos, bynk GGMs in the audience too. yum.
what else? ohyes i found another GGM in islam. he's a decaf-lookalike, so i'm gonna call him double decaf. hahaha. i THINK he might possibly be someone baba and i spotted earlier. anyway, he's really handsome and looks pillarish. yay. oh and we named someone else, abang engine!!! [irma's idea actually, but when she found out that he's in the same batch, she wanted to take it back. sorry, too late, irma.]
and although i started blogging this at 1-something a.m., it's like 3-something a.m. now. guess why i'm still awake. and no, i wasn't doing anything productive. so i think after i sahur and pray, i'm gonna sleep till it's exactly time to wake up for skl. damnn. biler nak blajar sakkk.. guarantee mesti fail nyer. and tmr, due to lack of sleep, i'm gonna sleep almost the moment i get home. so yeah. have fun. [btw, that means that i won't be studying for thursday's big test. omg i am such a loser.]
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
okay let's change the mood here. i'm gonna embark on the latest trend to hit my blogosphere. here goes. [ohyes i've been kind enough to put who's who so that you guys don't have to scroll up and down. haha.]
20 people
1) amy
2) baba
3) helmi
4) shah
5) atikk
6) sya
7) ili
8) fan
9) shafa
10) hanom
11) josh
12) nurul
13) hannan
14) farah
15) amir rj
16) my brother
17) irma
18) nadia
19) fana
20) diyana
-How did you meet 19?:
i met fana in sec 1. she thought i was dao. WHATEVER FANA. i was shy!!!
-What would you do if you never met 5?:
atikk?!?!?! ohman. i'd prolly be a LOT saner. yalah, and a lot more boring.
-What do you honestly think of 10?:
well i FIRST thought hanom was dao, during the camp. cos she looked so cool with that hair and she never talked to me! so i thought that she thought that she was too cool for me. anyway, i've since found out that she's LOADS of fun. and bau-eh!!!
-Have you ever liked no.3?:
haha. helmi.. that's the million-dollar question, innit? yes i had a huge crush on him at work.
-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?:
hmm, i'd say, "amy, mintak maaf for all that i've done to make you more giler or whatever. and for irritating you during lectures or when u're in a sad/serious mood. but you'll be glad to know i'm getting married to Loner Guy and we're naming the baby after you."
-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
hmm.. baba and josh.. never thought about it.. maybe yeah.. cos josh is like the chinese/christian version of sotong..
-Do you think 12 is hot?:
nurul??? hahaha. no, i think she's very sweet and cute!
-Is 17 attached?
yesyesyes! irma's attached to a cool guy she met online! hidup AM! haha.
-Tell me something about 11
josh is very weird, but cute.
-Do you know any of 3's family members?:
ahahaha. NO. but i met his mom once, when she came looking for him.
-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?:
farah is a perfect 10! yay! AND she's also a 2[timer]!!!
-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you:
well, i'd say, "sorry shah, but you KNOW i'm with loner guy right?" haha.
-What language does 19 speak?:
ah. fana'll kill me if get this wrong. okay, malay, english, and SOME HINDI.
-Who is 8 going out with?:
8 is going out with me!!!
-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?:
nadia and atikk?!?!?!? ohmannn... i'd die to see that. macam cute semacam.
-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
physically talked? ages ago man, before she went to france. i miss you sya! and our tanning sessions!
-What is 18's favorite band?
nadia's fav band? entah eh. i'm stumped here, people. rgs dikir! haha.
-Does 4 have any siblings?:
God knows. sorry shah aku really tak tahu. haha.
-Would you ever date 1?:
i would NEVA date amy. don't worry, halim. haha.
-Would you ever date 7?
ili?!?! aku tanak date gerls la ppl!!! aku straight tau~!
-Is 15 single?:
umm, amir eh.. i think so la..
-what is 19s last name?:
[19 is fana.] mehanathan. wahahaha.
-What is 3's middle name?:
tak taulah. helmi agaknye. since he's mohd helmi.
-What is 10's fantasy?:
hanom's ULTIMATE fantasy is to get together with BOTH bob and the sweet guy who's so in love with her. [-tak puas hati-]
-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
farah and fana? ah sahlah tu. since they have exactly the same name.
-What school does 16 go to?:
[my brother zul] dunman secondary
-What school does 19 go to?:
"lipospray, hello?" wahahaha.
-Where does 9 live?:
shafa used to live in lakeside, but now she's in LONDON!!! -cries- [why? pasal jealous AND rindu.]
-tell me something about 13?
hannan's kurus as a stick, looks slenger, but he's SO much fun to lepak with. aside from the smoking. :P
-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
haha atikk and sya? seeing as they've only met once, under cover of the night [that's not as bad as it sounds], i'd say NOT.
-Is 20 older than you?:
yupyup di's older by a coupla months or so.
-what do you think of number 16?:
i think that we'll never ever be close. and that's sad, since i'm like his sister. and the age gap is only 4 years. i also think that he's gotten really cute lately.
-is 9 your ex?
shafa? hahahah.
-one word to describe 6?
[sya.] feisty.
- how is 2?
oh baba eh? dier setan nak mampos. i have NO idea why she thinks that the guy she currently likes will EVER like her. tak sedar diri.
NO WAY! i love her and i can't live without her, and even if i did have to, once we meet again, it's like nothing was lost in between.
-what kind of couple would 5 and 14 be?
a lesbian one. not that atikk minds, but farah's already juggling 2 guys so... hahaha.
-does 9 make you horny?
nolah, but redhuan once said.. oh wait this is a public blog. shh..
20 people
1) amy
2) baba
3) helmi
4) shah
5) atikk
6) sya
7) ili
8) fan
9) shafa
10) hanom
11) josh
12) nurul
13) hannan
14) farah
15) amir rj
16) my brother
17) irma
18) nadia
19) fana
20) diyana
-How did you meet 19?:
i met fana in sec 1. she thought i was dao. WHATEVER FANA. i was shy!!!
-What would you do if you never met 5?:
atikk?!?!?! ohman. i'd prolly be a LOT saner. yalah, and a lot more boring.
-What do you honestly think of 10?:
well i FIRST thought hanom was dao, during the camp. cos she looked so cool with that hair and she never talked to me! so i thought that she thought that she was too cool for me. anyway, i've since found out that she's LOADS of fun. and bau-eh!!!
-Have you ever liked no.3?:
haha. helmi.. that's the million-dollar question, innit? yes i had a huge crush on him at work.
-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?:
hmm, i'd say, "amy, mintak maaf for all that i've done to make you more giler or whatever. and for irritating you during lectures or when u're in a sad/serious mood. but you'll be glad to know i'm getting married to Loner Guy and we're naming the baby after you."
-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
hmm.. baba and josh.. never thought about it.. maybe yeah.. cos josh is like the chinese/christian version of sotong..
-Do you think 12 is hot?:
nurul??? hahaha. no, i think she's very sweet and cute!
-Is 17 attached?
yesyesyes! irma's attached to a cool guy she met online! hidup AM! haha.
-Tell me something about 11
josh is very weird, but cute.
-Do you know any of 3's family members?:
ahahaha. NO. but i met his mom once, when she came looking for him.
-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?:
farah is a perfect 10! yay! AND she's also a 2[timer]!!!
-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you:
well, i'd say, "sorry shah, but you KNOW i'm with loner guy right?" haha.
-What language does 19 speak?:
ah. fana'll kill me if get this wrong. okay, malay, english, and SOME HINDI.
-Who is 8 going out with?:
8 is going out with me!!!
-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?:
nadia and atikk?!?!?!? ohmannn... i'd die to see that. macam cute semacam.
-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
physically talked? ages ago man, before she went to france. i miss you sya! and our tanning sessions!
-What is 18's favorite band?
nadia's fav band? entah eh. i'm stumped here, people. rgs dikir! haha.
-Does 4 have any siblings?:
God knows. sorry shah aku really tak tahu. haha.
-Would you ever date 1?:
i would NEVA date amy. don't worry, halim. haha.
-Would you ever date 7?
ili?!?! aku tanak date gerls la ppl!!! aku straight tau~!
-Is 15 single?:
umm, amir eh.. i think so la..
-what is 19s last name?:
[19 is fana.] mehanathan. wahahaha.
-What is 3's middle name?:
tak taulah. helmi agaknye. since he's mohd helmi.
-What is 10's fantasy?:
hanom's ULTIMATE fantasy is to get together with BOTH bob and the sweet guy who's so in love with her. [-tak puas hati-]
-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
farah and fana? ah sahlah tu. since they have exactly the same name.
-What school does 16 go to?:
[my brother zul] dunman secondary
-What school does 19 go to?:
"lipospray, hello?" wahahaha.
-Where does 9 live?:
shafa used to live in lakeside, but now she's in LONDON!!! -cries- [why? pasal jealous AND rindu.]
-tell me something about 13?
hannan's kurus as a stick, looks slenger, but he's SO much fun to lepak with. aside from the smoking. :P
-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
haha atikk and sya? seeing as they've only met once, under cover of the night [that's not as bad as it sounds], i'd say NOT.
-Is 20 older than you?:
yupyup di's older by a coupla months or so.
-what do you think of number 16?:
i think that we'll never ever be close. and that's sad, since i'm like his sister. and the age gap is only 4 years. i also think that he's gotten really cute lately.
-is 9 your ex?
shafa? hahahah.
-one word to describe 6?
[sya.] feisty.
- how is 2?
oh baba eh? dier setan nak mampos. i have NO idea why she thinks that the guy she currently likes will EVER like her. tak sedar diri.
NO WAY! i love her and i can't live without her, and even if i did have to, once we meet again, it's like nothing was lost in between.
-what kind of couple would 5 and 14 be?
a lesbian one. not that atikk minds, but farah's already juggling 2 guys so... hahaha.
-does 9 make you horny?
nolah, but redhuan once said.. oh wait this is a public blog. shh..
Monday, September 26, 2005
excuse me in advance.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
i don't wish to elaborate, cos i don't want to dwell on this, OR be reminded of it in the near/distant future. to me, shitty things are best left forgotten. unless they're associated with nice things i.e. the embarrassing crimes i commit infront of loner guy. ahh loner guy. see? i feel better already.
and now i can start getting over ex-con.
by the way, i'm not normally so angry/vulgar/whatever. i think.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
i don't wish to elaborate, cos i don't want to dwell on this, OR be reminded of it in the near/distant future. to me, shitty things are best left forgotten. unless they're associated with nice things i.e. the embarrassing crimes i commit infront of loner guy. ahh loner guy. see? i feel better already.
and now i can start getting over ex-con.
by the way, i'm not normally so angry/vulgar/whatever. i think.
Dalam hati ini ada nama mu
Nama seorang insan yang aku rindu
Dalam diri ini ada sayang mu
Sayangnya dirimu tidak mengerti
Dalam senyuman ini ada tangisan
Tangisan seorang insan terluka
Dalam jiwa ini ada pilunya
Pilu yang membuat aku menangis
Oh hibanya...
Sayu hati... sayu sekali
Melihat engkau berpimpin tangan
Dengan si dia
Sakit hati... sakit sekali
Pabila cinta yang aku beri tak dihargai
Sungguh terhina letih tidak bermaya
Rasa terkilan bunga yang ku puja
Kini mekar harum di jambangan orang
Kau yang ku sayang
Aku yang gundah
Kalau tahu sakit begini
Tidak aku bermain cinta
Kalau tahu siksa begini
Tidak aku menyanyangi mu
Pilu resah di hati ini
Mengusung rindu...
Ku tak berdaya -Spin
i'm in such a jiwang mood. i saw ex-con was listening to this song, so i decided to get it.. and mannn it really tugs at your heart. especially when he sings "sayu hati.. sayu sekali.." macam nak nangis, giler!
on the other side of the coin, listen to David Banner's Play. it's guaranteed to never get any radio airplay in singapore. i mean, it's so raunchy, it's practically porn. but don't get the wrong idea about me. i heard it on nova 93.7, and it was censored [i.e. different lyrics] then, so i was like totally fooled by the heavy beats and stuff. but when i heard the original, mata terbeliak sey.
Nama seorang insan yang aku rindu
Dalam diri ini ada sayang mu
Sayangnya dirimu tidak mengerti
Dalam senyuman ini ada tangisan
Tangisan seorang insan terluka
Dalam jiwa ini ada pilunya
Pilu yang membuat aku menangis
Oh hibanya...
Sayu hati... sayu sekali
Melihat engkau berpimpin tangan
Dengan si dia
Sakit hati... sakit sekali
Pabila cinta yang aku beri tak dihargai
Sungguh terhina letih tidak bermaya
Rasa terkilan bunga yang ku puja
Kini mekar harum di jambangan orang
Kau yang ku sayang
Aku yang gundah
Kalau tahu sakit begini
Tidak aku bermain cinta
Kalau tahu siksa begini
Tidak aku menyanyangi mu
Pilu resah di hati ini
Mengusung rindu...
Ku tak berdaya -Spin
i'm in such a jiwang mood. i saw ex-con was listening to this song, so i decided to get it.. and mannn it really tugs at your heart. especially when he sings "sayu hati.. sayu sekali.." macam nak nangis, giler!
on the other side of the coin, listen to David Banner's Play. it's guaranteed to never get any radio airplay in singapore. i mean, it's so raunchy, it's practically porn. but don't get the wrong idea about me. i heard it on nova 93.7, and it was censored [i.e. different lyrics] then, so i was like totally fooled by the heavy beats and stuff. but when i heard the original, mata terbeliak sey.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
I know you're out there baby
Somewhere..
There's someone out there for me (I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name (Won't somebody tell me her name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane (That's right)
How does she laugh, how does she cry
What's the color of her eyes
Does she even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Da da da da da
Where are you...
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (I'm right here) yeah yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high Lalalaa (Where are you)
There's someone out there for me (There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently (so patiently)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane; Thats right
How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Lalalaalalaa
I know you're out there
Lalalaalalaa
Where are you
I'm going to look all over the world baby
Because I know you're out there
I know it might sound crazy but I think I love you
Lalalaalalaa
Where are you
Somewhere..
There's someone out there for me (I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name (Won't somebody tell me her name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane (That's right)
How does she laugh, how does she cry
What's the color of her eyes
Does she even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Da da da da da
Where are you...
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (I'm right here) yeah yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high Lalalaa (Where are you)
There's someone out there for me (There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently (so patiently)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane; Thats right
How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Lalalaalalaa
I know you're out there
Lalalaalalaa
Where are you
I'm going to look all over the world baby
Because I know you're out there
I know it might sound crazy but I think I love you
Lalalaalalaa
Where are you
semangat sak aku, blog after subuh. anyways.
i ate at fish & co AGAIN yesterday! this is really starting to worry me. yeah i was with fan this time and when he said the magic words, i just went into convulsions. this time it was the bugis one. it has really nice ambience, but it was playing my brother's music. tak main sey. but the really nice lim server put us at this corner, and i got to sit on the cushioned seat with about 3 bantals around. so fun. the food wasn't as great though--we had the same thing i always have, and this time, the prawns kinda stuck to the shells and the calamari was weird cos the taste and the calamari didn't really fuse well. eh abeh aku eksyen connoisseur kat sini. then we went to bugis village, but thankfully, nothing caught my fancy.
well anyway after that i went to the airport to say bye to shafa. and at the same time, i was saying bye to tanning at sentosa, mat-watching sessions, sinful fish & co dinners, g****-bashing, and spur-of-the-moment meet-ups. did i miss out anything? i don't think so la. 9 months, 9 months..
ohman but some of her cousins/uncles/whatevers were SO cute! there was one olive-green boy about 15 gitu--he reminds me of the boy who came for Malam Pentas II. there was this father-of-a-baby, similar to jason in looks but MUCH cuter. and there was this skinny mat who reminds me of fai[rul]. haha. cute.
yesterday i thought i had loads to write about, but it all seems to have diffused out of my head. so i'll end this here and go back to staring at ex-con on msn.
ooh i love my new lanyard!
i ate at fish & co AGAIN yesterday! this is really starting to worry me. yeah i was with fan this time and when he said the magic words, i just went into convulsions. this time it was the bugis one. it has really nice ambience, but it was playing my brother's music. tak main sey. but the really nice lim server put us at this corner, and i got to sit on the cushioned seat with about 3 bantals around. so fun. the food wasn't as great though--we had the same thing i always have, and this time, the prawns kinda stuck to the shells and the calamari was weird cos the taste and the calamari didn't really fuse well. eh abeh aku eksyen connoisseur kat sini. then we went to bugis village, but thankfully, nothing caught my fancy.
well anyway after that i went to the airport to say bye to shafa. and at the same time, i was saying bye to tanning at sentosa, mat-watching sessions, sinful fish & co dinners, g****-bashing, and spur-of-the-moment meet-ups. did i miss out anything? i don't think so la. 9 months, 9 months..
ohman but some of her cousins/uncles/whatevers were SO cute! there was one olive-green boy about 15 gitu--he reminds me of the boy who came for Malam Pentas II. there was this father-of-a-baby, similar to jason in looks but MUCH cuter. and there was this skinny mat who reminds me of fai[rul]. haha. cute.
yesterday i thought i had loads to write about, but it all seems to have diffused out of my head. so i'll end this here and go back to staring at ex-con on msn.
ooh i love my new lanyard!
Friday, September 23, 2005
ever watched tiga abdul? it's arguably one of my favourite p. ramlee movies. anyway. i felt like mem aloya kue lapis when he showed me the watch. thank God i didn't faint. i mean, it was kinda illegible. that was my first opinion of it. and now that i've had time to think about it, i think he made a boo-boo. i think he was trying to make it deeper then the alignment was messed up so there was a double-vision effect. anyway. what to do. takkan nak sandpaper the thing sampai smooth kan. so i took it and left. it really is a beautiful thing. so to me, that little thingy on the side won't mar its appearance much.
then i went to isetan to check out the mambo and billabong sections for his present. i finally settled for this black-and-white belt with a normal buckle, but splashed all over with the brand-name. haha. i was completely lost when i had to pick the size, and decided to go for the S/M. i made my brother try it on when i got home, and since it fits him fine, it shd be okay lah. i think. cos i only have 3 days to exchange it. and then, cos i was feeling so mysteriously down, i plumped for a pretty white billabong lanyard. haha. mampos. so i spent close to a hundred, AGAIN.
i LOVE mario's new(?) song, Girl I Need, featuring baby cham or whoever. it's so.. relaxing and cute. and it's positive, unlike the first two singles. hahaha. okay aku dah giler. and i don't even know why.
then i went to isetan to check out the mambo and billabong sections for his present. i finally settled for this black-and-white belt with a normal buckle, but splashed all over with the brand-name. haha. i was completely lost when i had to pick the size, and decided to go for the S/M. i made my brother try it on when i got home, and since it fits him fine, it shd be okay lah. i think. cos i only have 3 days to exchange it. and then, cos i was feeling so mysteriously down, i plumped for a pretty white billabong lanyard. haha. mampos. so i spent close to a hundred, AGAIN.
i LOVE mario's new(?) song, Girl I Need, featuring baby cham or whoever. it's so.. relaxing and cute. and it's positive, unlike the first two singles. hahaha. okay aku dah giler. and i don't even know why.
just a quick and semi-disappointed note before i blah.
i just received intelligence that loner guy is NOT from cj, and i now know his five modules [2 of which are arts ones, and one of which baba is allegedly taking as well], AND he has legions of admirers. -nangis at the prospect of so much competition to face that i might as well just drop out and mampos now-
and there was some mat technician, TAK CUTE, who kept saying assalamu'alaikum and bye just now. whatever. and i better get lost now and prepare to embarrass myself at far east.
cya!
i just received intelligence that loner guy is NOT from cj, and i now know his five modules [2 of which are arts ones, and one of which baba is allegedly taking as well], AND he has legions of admirers. -nangis at the prospect of so much competition to face that i might as well just drop out and mampos now-
and there was some mat technician, TAK CUTE, who kept saying assalamu'alaikum and bye just now. whatever. and i better get lost now and prepare to embarrass myself at far east.
cya!
okay just a quickie before i run off to calculus. this time i won't be late so i won't be tempted to skip. or that's my aim, anyway.
had lunch at arts caf with amy as usual tadi, and i found a NEW cute guy!!! DCBG!!! [macam a combination of BCBG and CBG. but anyway.] yup he was eating there with his friends, and he's just extremely cool, but less on the cute. haha. and then here i am at my usual table at the arts linkway or whatever, and about 15 minutes ago, two cute guys walked past and kamie "witnessed" me having convulsions. they looked very beachy--tanned, tall and slim with cool blonde-ish hair. yum.
okaylah. other than that, nothing exciting happened. all the ite mats are like eluding me for some reason or other.. -sedih-
had lunch at arts caf with amy as usual tadi, and i found a NEW cute guy!!! DCBG!!! [macam a combination of BCBG and CBG. but anyway.] yup he was eating there with his friends, and he's just extremely cool, but less on the cute. haha. and then here i am at my usual table at the arts linkway or whatever, and about 15 minutes ago, two cute guys walked past and kamie "witnessed" me having convulsions. they looked very beachy--tanned, tall and slim with cool blonde-ish hair. yum.
okaylah. other than that, nothing exciting happened. all the ite mats are like eluding me for some reason or other.. -sedih-
i'm bored. and why is my finger peeling?
okay randomthoughtsrandomthoughts. anyway. studied at central lib today with baba. actually, i didn't do much studying. it was more of surfing the net, listening to wmp on my earphones and booking my practical driving lessons. haha. THEN i actually got down to doing my calculus tutorial. mampos. then u know, we had lunch, then the 3J meeting, which i so totally tuned out of. sorry atikk. oh and there was this cute technician-type guy with blonde hair, who dropped by the student lounge, and by then i was just gone la. haha. too bad he split early.
speaking of splitting early, green guy's identity has finally been revealed. thanks to everyone for your snippets of info and comments and stuff. it's all been encouraging, but now we know the truth, we can all move on. of course by "we", i really mean me. hahaha. but hey it's not a crime for me to think he's cute. naseb baik aku tak mintak to amek gambar ngan dier. buat malu sial.
well i thought it'd be a shitty and boring ride home, since the rest of the day was like that, but as i approached my usual door at orchard mrt, i saw the rj guys. jau, hafiz, rudy, adzfar, iylia. yup. i don't think i missed out anyone, did i? anyway. so i sed hey and was entertained by them the whole ride home la. well, the whole ride home till tampines anyway. they're all so cute. and they haven't changed a bit. not from last year, anyway.
i checked out the belts at topman but the ones with big buckles TAK LAWAR! so it's back to the hunt tmr. i'm getting sick and tired of all this myself. haha. i just wanna plonk down $115 for the fossil watch and give it to him. but to avoid my mom screaming at me after she updates my passbook, i'll refrain from doing that.
okay randomthoughtsrandomthoughts. anyway. studied at central lib today with baba. actually, i didn't do much studying. it was more of surfing the net, listening to wmp on my earphones and booking my practical driving lessons. haha. THEN i actually got down to doing my calculus tutorial. mampos. then u know, we had lunch, then the 3J meeting, which i so totally tuned out of. sorry atikk. oh and there was this cute technician-type guy with blonde hair, who dropped by the student lounge, and by then i was just gone la. haha. too bad he split early.
speaking of splitting early, green guy's identity has finally been revealed. thanks to everyone for your snippets of info and comments and stuff. it's all been encouraging, but now we know the truth, we can all move on. of course by "we", i really mean me. hahaha. but hey it's not a crime for me to think he's cute. naseb baik aku tak mintak to amek gambar ngan dier. buat malu sial.
well i thought it'd be a shitty and boring ride home, since the rest of the day was like that, but as i approached my usual door at orchard mrt, i saw the rj guys. jau, hafiz, rudy, adzfar, iylia. yup. i don't think i missed out anyone, did i? anyway. so i sed hey and was entertained by them the whole ride home la. well, the whole ride home till tampines anyway. they're all so cute. and they haven't changed a bit. not from last year, anyway.
i checked out the belts at topman but the ones with big buckles TAK LAWAR! so it's back to the hunt tmr. i'm getting sick and tired of all this myself. haha. i just wanna plonk down $115 for the fossil watch and give it to him. but to avoid my mom screaming at me after she updates my passbook, i'll refrain from doing that.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
heyya.
the persuratan bbq was really fun! at first, prospects were bad, cos baba, hanom and i were the only first-years.. so we sat at the lobster/carrot on the playground and merepeked among ourselves. but then the SAM ppl came and that was when the party started. highlights include: me deejaying and dancing at atikk's lappie, us playing at the playground, eating [but of course] and everyone watching as i surfed friendster [including ex-con's and baba's photos. haha. both were instant hits.].
we did NOT, however, get to see kamalingam's hot brother pasal he was hiding at home. D-A-R-N. but i got to see ite lumpurs at lot1. hahaha. funnn.
the persuratan bbq was really fun! at first, prospects were bad, cos baba, hanom and i were the only first-years.. so we sat at the lobster/carrot on the playground and merepeked among ourselves. but then the SAM ppl came and that was when the party started. highlights include: me deejaying and dancing at atikk's lappie, us playing at the playground, eating [but of course] and everyone watching as i surfed friendster [including ex-con's and baba's photos. haha. both were instant hits.].
we did NOT, however, get to see kamalingam's hot brother pasal he was hiding at home. D-A-R-N. but i got to see ite lumpurs at lot1. hahaha. funnn.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
yay. like the pic? baba gave it to me. it's an avatar of me, obviously.
i've bumped into syukri twice in as many weeks. at least, i think it's him. really looks like him. only he's much cuter now. well, being thai-malay, he was always cute. but much cuter, and really cool now. the last time, i bumped into him at the 359 queue. today, i actually saw him from raffles place. tapi being buter, i didn't know it was him until he sat next to me in the 359 queue. still. him being so cute and cool and all, why would he remember me right? which was primarily why i didn't say hi to him. but. curiosity MUST be put to rest. so if i DO bump into him again, i'll say hi. skali bukan dier. buat malu sak.
went to sentosa with shafa tadie. it was raining quite a bit in the morning, so we did NOT expect the fierce sun and all. but it was so bad that the sweat was just dripping down my face as i lay there reading cleo, so we kinda gave up early, showered, and made the cardinal mistake of eating at fish n co. again. but man was it delicious or what. we kinda ate the same thing again, but HECK CARE! i'll be half-glad when she leaves, at least i won't be indulging in such guilty pleasures for the next 9 months. [haha sorry shafa.]
then i met fana at jp, and we proceeded to trawl through orchard road looking for fan's birthday present. boleh jadi giler sey. i decided that watches are abit too steep for my pocket [and will invite unanswerable questions from my mom], so i'm really kinda stumped. i could go back to the [original] raihan standby of boxers, tapi cam.. entah. suggestions will be welcome.
anyway i rounded off the night with a grande rhumba frappucino at starbucks, made by the still-cute dil, who's considerably friendlier now that he's forgotten who we are. haha. i still rem when he used to be all stuck-up. tembak.. oh then i got home to a very annoying mother. sorry, but yah. i blame my sister, mostly. tanak elaborate ah. why dwell on the upsetting?
Sunday, September 18, 2005
jalan-jalan kesana kesini
boringnyer hidop aku ini.
sorry aku giler. i thought open mic 2 was great. in some ways it was better than the first [location rocked], but i thought the content was pretty weak at some points. aku malas nak elaborate on the technical aspects of it, so i'll just do what i do best. okay, for the record, neither mubs nor loner guy turned up. and amy owes me a mcflurry now. ahahaha. i thought the performance by afro and friends was so cool. so funny and stuff. and then there was this like, 15-year-old boy who wandered in from downstairs, and he just stood there watching the last few perfs. cute sey. we offered him drinks and food and he was like, "segan ah.." haha. and later when i said, "thanks for coming!" he replied, "thanks for inviting me.." which had me feeling a bit wrong-footed. and then there was green guy. ah. he was really cute. i took about 74928402 photos of him, from all imaginable angles, and it wasn't even my camera. so i'm fervently praying that amy won't delete them all from her camera. memories, you know. too bad he hadta split early. i was like, "don't leave me, green guy!" not that dier pedulikan. hahahaha. yah i had a nice time, and thanks to everyone for coming. and everyone else for helping.
after that i hung out at the 24hr coffeeshop with fan, where he proved that NS guys DO have nothing else to talk about. haha. but hey, i found out that he's in the same squad as nam. nam rizuan, i mean. small world, much? i don't think he met azhar yet, though, or he would have told me.
and today i just slept around the house, bo-ring! and i realised that there's only one season of CSI left--CSI: Miami. the rest are all reruns. sheesh. takpe. better than not having CSI at all.
well i have a busy 4 days ahead, so much love to all! green guy, please reappear in my life! yay!
boringnyer hidop aku ini.
sorry aku giler. i thought open mic 2 was great. in some ways it was better than the first [location rocked], but i thought the content was pretty weak at some points. aku malas nak elaborate on the technical aspects of it, so i'll just do what i do best. okay, for the record, neither mubs nor loner guy turned up. and amy owes me a mcflurry now. ahahaha. i thought the performance by afro and friends was so cool. so funny and stuff. and then there was this like, 15-year-old boy who wandered in from downstairs, and he just stood there watching the last few perfs. cute sey. we offered him drinks and food and he was like, "segan ah.." haha. and later when i said, "thanks for coming!" he replied, "thanks for inviting me.." which had me feeling a bit wrong-footed. and then there was green guy. ah. he was really cute. i took about 74928402 photos of him, from all imaginable angles, and it wasn't even my camera. so i'm fervently praying that amy won't delete them all from her camera. memories, you know. too bad he hadta split early. i was like, "don't leave me, green guy!" not that dier pedulikan. hahahaha. yah i had a nice time, and thanks to everyone for coming. and everyone else for helping.
after that i hung out at the 24hr coffeeshop with fan, where he proved that NS guys DO have nothing else to talk about. haha. but hey, i found out that he's in the same squad as nam. nam rizuan, i mean. small world, much? i don't think he met azhar yet, though, or he would have told me.
and today i just slept around the house, bo-ring! and i realised that there's only one season of CSI left--CSI: Miami. the rest are all reruns. sheesh. takpe. better than not having CSI at all.
well i have a busy 4 days ahead, so much love to all! green guy, please reappear in my life! yay!
Friday, September 16, 2005
heys.
the SCCCI mid-autumn function thingy wasn't a total dud afterall. i met zub, harun and the SMU girl there. takder cute guys though. and the food was mostly masin except for the yummy tandoori chicken with yoghurt sauce. and i tried the sushi from the conveyor belt, for the first time. the salmon was great. raw-ly delicious. and of cos, zub and i rounded it off with ice-cream topped with hot fudge, almond slivers, dollops of whipped cream and chopped strawberries. yum to infinity!
besides the food, everyone was really nice and friendly and seemed genuinely interesting in us and our parents. espesh the SMU guys. it was definitely a new experience for me. oh and when we were walking out i discovered that it's practically rite next to the SPANS clubhouse. ah, memories.
i skipped calculus tutorial cos 1. i was late, 2. i was already in a bad state from being bodohly embarrassed at the library, and 3. malas pasal the bus was full and i wanted to save money and take public transport home. ain, ain.
the SCCCI mid-autumn function thingy wasn't a total dud afterall. i met zub, harun and the SMU girl there. takder cute guys though. and the food was mostly masin except for the yummy tandoori chicken with yoghurt sauce. and i tried the sushi from the conveyor belt, for the first time. the salmon was great. raw-ly delicious. and of cos, zub and i rounded it off with ice-cream topped with hot fudge, almond slivers, dollops of whipped cream and chopped strawberries. yum to infinity!
besides the food, everyone was really nice and friendly and seemed genuinely interesting in us and our parents. espesh the SMU guys. it was definitely a new experience for me. oh and when we were walking out i discovered that it's practically rite next to the SPANS clubhouse. ah, memories.
i skipped calculus tutorial cos 1. i was late, 2. i was already in a bad state from being bodohly embarrassed at the library, and 3. malas pasal the bus was full and i wanted to save money and take public transport home. ain, ain.
i was chatting to yazid just now, before lab. and he was telling me about seeing some rainbow. which reminded me. i was at sentosa the other day, tanning [what else?], and i looked up and saw a rainbow. faint, but visible. and as i stared at it, i realised that it kinda extended quite a distance. then i realised it was a full circle. it looked so pretty, with the clouds and blue sky and everything. so i said, "wow that rainbow is a full circle!" and fan was like, "you don't know? all rainbows are circles." well, actually, NO, i didn't. i've always seen just an arc of the circle, so i've always believed that a rainbow was an arc. anyway. cool.
okay i know that was an amy-styled disjointed entry, but i forgot all about the rainbow till now, so i really wanted to write about it. so. yes.
and tmr's open mic night 2! 8-10, at the red roof [level 4], kembangan CC. walking distance from kembangan mrt. it's free and all, so do grace us with your presence!
okay i know that was an amy-styled disjointed entry, but i forgot all about the rainbow till now, so i really wanted to write about it. so. yes.
and tmr's open mic night 2! 8-10, at the red roof [level 4], kembangan CC. walking distance from kembangan mrt. it's free and all, so do grace us with your presence!
just checking in. i'm at amy's favourite study-cum-berasmaradana place. i was supposed to do my prelab, tapi tak tahu buat, so here i am, blogging.
i have a packed-and-boring day ahead of me, so i'm just bracing myself, and savouring whatever freedom i have left now. bye.
ohyes i had some stupid dream about loner guy last night. bagoss. it's prolly the trauma of yesterday getting to me.
i have a packed-and-boring day ahead of me, so i'm just bracing myself, and savouring whatever freedom i have left now. bye.
ohyes i had some stupid dream about loner guy last night. bagoss. it's prolly the trauma of yesterday getting to me.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
i was kinda depressed smalam, so i refrained from blogging in order to spare everyone the boredom of reading some kinda depressed entry.
anyway, yest i finally took the first step to establishing contact with loner guy. warning: it's a sad and slenger story, so i suggest everyone stop reading NOW. yah anyway, we had the stack of fliers, and after many false starts, i decided to go to the co-op with shah, and pass him one on my way back. so we were at the co-op, and then amy joined us, and then we were waiting while shah paid for her stuff, and then LONER GUY WALKS IN! alone, of course. and shah and amy parted like the red sea, leaving me standing stupidly in the middle of the entrance. and then setan's hands push me forward, and i find myself saying, "hi, sorry, please come for malam pentas.." and thrusting a flier at him. and he gave me this Look, and after about 5 lightyears he says, "okay, i'll think about it.."
so you can understand why i practically ran full-out from the co-op, refused to re-enter the LT, was dragged up the stairs, and started making plans to transfer out of NUS into SMU and/or get plastic surgery done over the 4-day break. but the initial embarrassment has since faded [i managed to NOT BOLT when we terserempaked at the lift just now], replaced by a permanent broken spirit. pray for me, and insya-Allah, i'll recover.
i'm really supposed to be doing my calculus tutorial now, tapi malas sey. the worst of it is that i'll just do it tmr during my 2-4 break la..
ANYWAY. i had a nice day yest, actually, it's just the dregs of it that was horrible. after skl i went to boon lay to meet shafa. we were gonna have dinner at banquet, then there was a fish n co ad on the escalator down, so i was like, "oh there's a fish n co here?" and shafa was like, "eh.. i didn't know that.." and when we reached the basement, we turned to each other and said, "so.. u wanna eat there instead?" haha. bodoh. so ads DO work after all. but mannn i don't regret it langsong! the seafood platter ROCKED, and i can practically still taste it now. yums. and the service was excellent. so excellent, in fact, that we tipped one of them $2 each. after that we walked around jurong point, and i got the cutest batman bag at jennyfer! seriously. i find it really cool and cute. firstly, it somehow it reminds me of loner guy. and secondly and more importantly, it reminds me of allif, my primary school crush. i remember asking him to write in my autograph book and he headed his entry "Batman's profile". so i've always associated batman with him. ah he was so cute and cool. wonder what he's doing now.. [quick quiz: what song is that line from?]
so. i love my new bag. ohman and some cute guy just caught me singing to myself. darnnn.
anyway, yest i finally took the first step to establishing contact with loner guy. warning: it's a sad and slenger story, so i suggest everyone stop reading NOW. yah anyway, we had the stack of fliers, and after many false starts, i decided to go to the co-op with shah, and pass him one on my way back. so we were at the co-op, and then amy joined us, and then we were waiting while shah paid for her stuff, and then LONER GUY WALKS IN! alone, of course. and shah and amy parted like the red sea, leaving me standing stupidly in the middle of the entrance. and then setan's hands push me forward, and i find myself saying, "hi, sorry, please come for malam pentas.." and thrusting a flier at him. and he gave me this Look, and after about 5 lightyears he says, "okay, i'll think about it.."
so you can understand why i practically ran full-out from the co-op, refused to re-enter the LT, was dragged up the stairs, and started making plans to transfer out of NUS into SMU and/or get plastic surgery done over the 4-day break. but the initial embarrassment has since faded [i managed to NOT BOLT when we terserempaked at the lift just now], replaced by a permanent broken spirit. pray for me, and insya-Allah, i'll recover.
i'm really supposed to be doing my calculus tutorial now, tapi malas sey. the worst of it is that i'll just do it tmr during my 2-4 break la..
ANYWAY. i had a nice day yest, actually, it's just the dregs of it that was horrible. after skl i went to boon lay to meet shafa. we were gonna have dinner at banquet, then there was a fish n co ad on the escalator down, so i was like, "oh there's a fish n co here?" and shafa was like, "eh.. i didn't know that.." and when we reached the basement, we turned to each other and said, "so.. u wanna eat there instead?" haha. bodoh. so ads DO work after all. but mannn i don't regret it langsong! the seafood platter ROCKED, and i can practically still taste it now. yums. and the service was excellent. so excellent, in fact, that we tipped one of them $2 each. after that we walked around jurong point, and i got the cutest batman bag at jennyfer! seriously. i find it really cool and cute. firstly, it somehow it reminds me of loner guy. and secondly and more importantly, it reminds me of allif, my primary school crush. i remember asking him to write in my autograph book and he headed his entry "Batman's profile". so i've always associated batman with him. ah he was so cute and cool. wonder what he's doing now.. [quick quiz: what song is that line from?]
so. i love my new bag. ohman and some cute guy just caught me singing to myself. darnnn.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
ah. i just got home, like, a half-hour ago. baikkk.
but it wasn't ALL bad. actually, i don't mind going home late, if i have nothing on the next day. i mean, train's all nice and empty, no crowds, nice night breeze.. how could anyone NOT love it? well anyway. there was more tonight. i was going down the escalator at pasir ris and who did i see??!?!?! [NO, not samit!!! i'm not tt lucky, really.] manggar guy!!! [recap: manggar guy's this tall, fair and skinny cool guy i met at a recent orang kahwin. he was delegated the task of carrying the bunga manggars.] i can't BELIEVE he lives in pasir ris. he was still looking cute, with his stylishly-messy blonde hair and a horizontally-striped green-and-white tshirt, light-coloured pants and those same white sneakers hanging on his skinny cool frame. unfortunately, he beloked in the opposite direction. i had half-a-mind to follow him, but it WAS mid-freaking-night, and cinderella had to be home, so i said a silent bye and went my own way. haha. insya-Allah we'll meet again, if we're meant to.
oh i've been telling everyone my wantan story, but it's macam so sedih, that i just have to document it again. i was having lunch at the arts canteen with hanom and elda, and i didn't wanna eat rice so i was telling hanom i'd get 2 plates of fried wantan. no problem there, right? so i went and ordered from the makcik, "fried wantan dua piring.." and i had to repeat it for some reason, then she asked, "nak pedas ke tak?" and i was like thinking, oh, i have a choice? cool. so i said okay. and waited. after a while, i saw her lifting some mee-like stuff from the kuali. and i was like, wth is tt? and frantically looked at the menuboard to see if there were other "fried wantans" i'd mistakenly ordered. takdeee je. well she came bearing those 2 plates of FRIED MACARONI! and i was SO at a loss for words, all i could say was, "berapa?" and ended up paying 2-freaking-bucks for stuff that i never even dreamed of wanting. and to save myself the embarrassment, i took 2 sets of utensils, konon eksyen ah. but when i got back to my table, i started wailing about how the makcik was pekak and everything, and hanom just laughed and laughed and laughed until she was crying. then she took pity on me and went to buy me a plate. mannnn. sedih sey.
shahreena and i hung out after dk to like, try and do our lab reports. susah giler bodoh. and si zahdan isn't even online for me to ask him the beribu qns i have. smalam aku asyik nampak nama dier je, sampai naik jelak. nari takde langsong. damn. and shah and i aren't even close to being done with our reports. even though we left skl at like 11. sheesh. eh but it was fun man. all un-hot and empty and i just blasted my music for miles. bes. we shd definitely do it again.
and loner guy will be glad to know that i'm coming tomorrow. [unless, of cos, samit asks me out, which will happen at the same time badaks fly.]
but it wasn't ALL bad. actually, i don't mind going home late, if i have nothing on the next day. i mean, train's all nice and empty, no crowds, nice night breeze.. how could anyone NOT love it? well anyway. there was more tonight. i was going down the escalator at pasir ris and who did i see??!?!?! [NO, not samit!!! i'm not tt lucky, really.] manggar guy!!! [recap: manggar guy's this tall, fair and skinny cool guy i met at a recent orang kahwin. he was delegated the task of carrying the bunga manggars.] i can't BELIEVE he lives in pasir ris. he was still looking cute, with his stylishly-messy blonde hair and a horizontally-striped green-and-white tshirt, light-coloured pants and those same white sneakers hanging on his skinny cool frame. unfortunately, he beloked in the opposite direction. i had half-a-mind to follow him, but it WAS mid-freaking-night, and cinderella had to be home, so i said a silent bye and went my own way. haha. insya-Allah we'll meet again, if we're meant to.
oh i've been telling everyone my wantan story, but it's macam so sedih, that i just have to document it again. i was having lunch at the arts canteen with hanom and elda, and i didn't wanna eat rice so i was telling hanom i'd get 2 plates of fried wantan. no problem there, right? so i went and ordered from the makcik, "fried wantan dua piring.." and i had to repeat it for some reason, then she asked, "nak pedas ke tak?" and i was like thinking, oh, i have a choice? cool. so i said okay. and waited. after a while, i saw her lifting some mee-like stuff from the kuali. and i was like, wth is tt? and frantically looked at the menuboard to see if there were other "fried wantans" i'd mistakenly ordered. takdeee je. well she came bearing those 2 plates of FRIED MACARONI! and i was SO at a loss for words, all i could say was, "berapa?" and ended up paying 2-freaking-bucks for stuff that i never even dreamed of wanting. and to save myself the embarrassment, i took 2 sets of utensils, konon eksyen ah. but when i got back to my table, i started wailing about how the makcik was pekak and everything, and hanom just laughed and laughed and laughed until she was crying. then she took pity on me and went to buy me a plate. mannnn. sedih sey.
shahreena and i hung out after dk to like, try and do our lab reports. susah giler bodoh. and si zahdan isn't even online for me to ask him the beribu qns i have. smalam aku asyik nampak nama dier je, sampai naik jelak. nari takde langsong. damn. and shah and i aren't even close to being done with our reports. even though we left skl at like 11. sheesh. eh but it was fun man. all un-hot and empty and i just blasted my music for miles. bes. we shd definitely do it again.
and loner guy will be glad to know that i'm coming tomorrow. [unless, of cos, samit asks me out, which will happen at the same time badaks fly.]
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
i'm gonna be late for dikir but whatever, updates!!!
haha the story goes like this.. i accompanied bau-eh and elda to their islam tutorial so i cld sit at the benches outside and do my work before MY islam tutorial started. so. okay. i found a seat, but it was nowhere near a powerpoint, so my battery was being used up bit by bit. in the meantime, while i was sitting down, i noticed this handsome-giler-nak-mampos guy sitting at the end near the powerpoint, with sona and another girl i didn't know. i was had half-a-mind to go say hi to sona, at the same time use the powerpoint and ALSO macam, be in closer proximity to him la. but aku malas and takot, cos he's so freaking handsome. so i stayed where i was. anyway just as i was steeling myself, si sona belah! so my chance was gone. well takpe, the guy in between me and handsome-giler-nak-mampos finally left, so i moved closer to the powerpoint [a.k.a. handsome-giler-nak-mampos], and attempted to macam, plug in my adapter. too late, i realised that i was still a wee bit too far from the powerpoint. so i spent a good part of my time embarrassing myself. i was like, "sorry, sorry.." and when my adapter continued to bother him, "i'm really sorry.." and then he said, "do you wanna switch places?" and i was like, "oh! do you mind?" and he, of course, said no. so i thanked him beribus and proceeded to switch places. ahhhh. i thought that was that, so that was when i blogged the previous entry about how handsome he is. seriously. he looks SO handsome, he couldn't just be malay, you know what i mean? and in addition to his looks, he's popular too! random guys kept stopping by at the table to say hi and bersembang with him. and they weren't just ANY random guys. they were random CUTE guys. haha.
anyway, revelation struck about 15 minutes later, when di stopped by my table with an odd look on her face. i put two and two together, and voila! handsome-giler-nak-mampos is sir tingles! baikkkk...
haha the story goes like this.. i accompanied bau-eh and elda to their islam tutorial so i cld sit at the benches outside and do my work before MY islam tutorial started. so. okay. i found a seat, but it was nowhere near a powerpoint, so my battery was being used up bit by bit. in the meantime, while i was sitting down, i noticed this handsome-giler-nak-mampos guy sitting at the end near the powerpoint, with sona and another girl i didn't know. i was had half-a-mind to go say hi to sona, at the same time use the powerpoint and ALSO macam, be in closer proximity to him la. but aku malas and takot, cos he's so freaking handsome. so i stayed where i was. anyway just as i was steeling myself, si sona belah! so my chance was gone. well takpe, the guy in between me and handsome-giler-nak-mampos finally left, so i moved closer to the powerpoint [a.k.a. handsome-giler-nak-mampos], and attempted to macam, plug in my adapter. too late, i realised that i was still a wee bit too far from the powerpoint. so i spent a good part of my time embarrassing myself. i was like, "sorry, sorry.." and when my adapter continued to bother him, "i'm really sorry.." and then he said, "do you wanna switch places?" and i was like, "oh! do you mind?" and he, of course, said no. so i thanked him beribus and proceeded to switch places. ahhhh. i thought that was that, so that was when i blogged the previous entry about how handsome he is. seriously. he looks SO handsome, he couldn't just be malay, you know what i mean? and in addition to his looks, he's popular too! random guys kept stopping by at the table to say hi and bersembang with him. and they weren't just ANY random guys. they were random CUTE guys. haha.
anyway, revelation struck about 15 minutes later, when di stopped by my table with an odd look on her face. i put two and two together, and voila! handsome-giler-nak-mampos is sir tingles! baikkkk...
i was innocently walking along the path across the grass towards LT10 for my islam lec. i happened to be looking down, and guess what i saw?!?!?!? a condom wrapper!! a freaking condom wrapper!?!?! omg. i almost died and killed myself right there. what is a condom wrapper doing in the middle of a grass patch leading to arts? well, that is a question only the perpetrators can answer. hahaha.
islam lec was cool this time, cos i was sitting with bau-eh. hahaha. and we were sitting on top, so better view la. hahaha. funnn. but unfortunately, we didn't get to promote, pasal instead of having a break, she ended lecture early. ohwells.
aku nak terkench. wow it's a great view here at the forum. just spotted one GGM! whee! okay sorry aku giler. i need to go and do my tutorials now. just wanted to report the condom incident la.
islam lec was cool this time, cos i was sitting with bau-eh. hahaha. and we were sitting on top, so better view la. hahaha. funnn. but unfortunately, we didn't get to promote, pasal instead of having a break, she ended lecture early. ohwells.
aku nak terkench. wow it's a great view here at the forum. just spotted one GGM! whee! okay sorry aku giler. i need to go and do my tutorials now. just wanted to report the condom incident la.
Monday, September 12, 2005
heyheyheyyyy.
why am i so upbeat? pasal loner guy's actually in lecture now! woohoo. so there goes my plan to cam, wear tatty clothes on Mondays. hahahaha.
well i finally got through the marking yesterday. out of pure irritation, i failed like about 80% of them. no, make that 90%. ha. lain kali jangan jadi bodoh and piss me off, or i'll fail you. so there. oh actually the comprehension wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i created my own answer key in like 10 minutes, including the one for the summary. i just cobbled together some answers. mampos ah. and if they don't get the same answer as me, well too bad for them. never mind that i didn't use to do so well in comprehension. i remember one time i got so pissed with a summary in sec 2, that i wrote about 3 sentences and handed it in. skali dapat 8/15 sak. it just shows how incredibly intelligent i am. so yah. i was finally done, so i cam, celebrated with some 50% lemonade and my PLP cd.
then i went to swensen's WS to meet the rest for azhar's farewell. SEKALI DIER TAK JADI SAK. and you know if azhar doesn't show, farhan won't either. so bergembiralah kau. anyway takper, we [me, diana, shasha and her husband] went anyway, to meet hannan and umar at simpang bedok. ah it was so fun. i had cheese prata and cheese-mushroom prata, with 2 glasses of lime juice, and topped off with a 100ml haagen-dazs cookies&cream. yum. the only boring part was takder cute guys. bo-RING! oh i just love hanging out with my work friends. they're so fun. aside from the smoking, of course. anyway i finally got home at like 230, and after all the gedebak-gedebuk, i slept at 3. woke up at 5, so you can imagine how hyper i was today. looking forward to the ite mats and all.
SEKALI takder bodoh. okay, there were like a couple in 53, but NONE at the ite dover bus stop!!! what did i get instead? these three secondary school boys, SMOKING at the commonwealth bus stop. sedappp je. one was in his lower sec shorts, another in his stupid trucker cap [and after he finished smoking, he took out a mirror and started picking at what i imagine were blackheads] and the last one in his baju rumah, lying down on the bench macam rumah dier gitu. oh but later the cutest botak guy came out of a cab. he was all vik, and botak [duh] with glasses and black tshirt, nice pants, kasut, cool haversack and yalah he was just cool okay? okay. then 147 came and he boarded it, and guess where he sat? seblah driver!?!?!? i mean, seriously. only the coolest people can do that. [okay, elaborating on "seblah driver": u know the seat next to the ex-transitlink machine? it's the nearest to the driver la. yeah. there.]
aaaaaaahhhhh loner guy is so freaking cute aku akan mati! mati, i tell you. he's just terlentoking there in the back. and i just wanna cam, offer my shoulder so he won't get a neckache when he wakes up. we all know how annoying tt can be. ahhhhh.. and he's wearing his cool cap again. ahhhh. mati aku. loner guy, sit next to me!!!! [tepilah shahreena!] i wonder what he has after this. should i like, tail him? oh wait. is he gonna rush to his scrambler and zoom off? then i SHOULD follow him.
dahlah sebelum aku terkencing. daaa.
OHHH speaking of "daaa", i finally met indra tadi! he's not bad la, he has such big eyes, and when he knows ure malay, he'll talk to you in indonesian. so fun. so i was just like, replying in indonesian. bes sey. i totally support you with him, amy. he's better than mubs anyday. i mean, at least indra TALKS to me, despite having only met me once.
okla okla amy loves halim anyways. <--[amy wrote that, to macam quell her guilt. so i'll just leave it there, shall i?]
daaa!
why am i so upbeat? pasal loner guy's actually in lecture now! woohoo. so there goes my plan to cam, wear tatty clothes on Mondays. hahahaha.
well i finally got through the marking yesterday. out of pure irritation, i failed like about 80% of them. no, make that 90%. ha. lain kali jangan jadi bodoh and piss me off, or i'll fail you. so there. oh actually the comprehension wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i created my own answer key in like 10 minutes, including the one for the summary. i just cobbled together some answers. mampos ah. and if they don't get the same answer as me, well too bad for them. never mind that i didn't use to do so well in comprehension. i remember one time i got so pissed with a summary in sec 2, that i wrote about 3 sentences and handed it in. skali dapat 8/15 sak. it just shows how incredibly intelligent i am. so yah. i was finally done, so i cam, celebrated with some 50% lemonade and my PLP cd.
then i went to swensen's WS to meet the rest for azhar's farewell. SEKALI DIER TAK JADI SAK. and you know if azhar doesn't show, farhan won't either. so bergembiralah kau. anyway takper, we [me, diana, shasha and her husband] went anyway, to meet hannan and umar at simpang bedok. ah it was so fun. i had cheese prata and cheese-mushroom prata, with 2 glasses of lime juice, and topped off with a 100ml haagen-dazs cookies&cream. yum. the only boring part was takder cute guys. bo-RING! oh i just love hanging out with my work friends. they're so fun. aside from the smoking, of course. anyway i finally got home at like 230, and after all the gedebak-gedebuk, i slept at 3. woke up at 5, so you can imagine how hyper i was today. looking forward to the ite mats and all.
SEKALI takder bodoh. okay, there were like a couple in 53, but NONE at the ite dover bus stop!!! what did i get instead? these three secondary school boys, SMOKING at the commonwealth bus stop. sedappp je. one was in his lower sec shorts, another in his stupid trucker cap [and after he finished smoking, he took out a mirror and started picking at what i imagine were blackheads] and the last one in his baju rumah, lying down on the bench macam rumah dier gitu. oh but later the cutest botak guy came out of a cab. he was all vik, and botak [duh] with glasses and black tshirt, nice pants, kasut, cool haversack and yalah he was just cool okay? okay. then 147 came and he boarded it, and guess where he sat? seblah driver!?!?!? i mean, seriously. only the coolest people can do that. [okay, elaborating on "seblah driver": u know the seat next to the ex-transitlink machine? it's the nearest to the driver la. yeah. there.]
aaaaaaahhhhh loner guy is so freaking cute aku akan mati! mati, i tell you. he's just terlentoking there in the back. and i just wanna cam, offer my shoulder so he won't get a neckache when he wakes up. we all know how annoying tt can be. ahhhhh.. and he's wearing his cool cap again. ahhhh. mati aku. loner guy, sit next to me!!!! [tepilah shahreena!] i wonder what he has after this. should i like, tail him? oh wait. is he gonna rush to his scrambler and zoom off? then i SHOULD follow him.
dahlah sebelum aku terkencing. daaa.
OHHH speaking of "daaa", i finally met indra tadi! he's not bad la, he has such big eyes, and when he knows ure malay, he'll talk to you in indonesian. so fun. so i was just like, replying in indonesian. bes sey. i totally support you with him, amy. he's better than mubs anyday. i mean, at least indra TALKS to me, despite having only met me once.
okla okla amy loves halim anyways. <--[amy wrote that, to macam quell her guilt. so i'll just leave it there, shall i?]
daaa!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
i'm taking a much-needed break from marking. i feel like crying. and the worst is yet to come. i waded through a stack of formal letters yesterday. it was like drowning. i'd intended to stay up all night and finish ALL the marking, but once i was done with that stack, i just HAD to crash. so. yeah.
and i just finished a stack of reports. you know, where there's a fire at ur camp so u have to write a report to the police sergeant or whatever. well i have a report right now:
To: Sergeant Loner Guy
Save me, I'm dying!
From: Ain
so anyway, that wasn't too bad cos reports are nice and brief, as i have just demonstrated above. but like i said earlier, the worst is yet to come. i have a thick stack of comprehension to mark. you know what's the worst part? there's no answer key. and it's a full-blown comprehension, with summary and shit. and where's the answer-fucking-key? takde langsong, that's where. how do u mark a summary without a fucking answer key? am i supposed to like create one myself? omg i really really feel like crying right now, i've never had such a miserable time before in my life.
sorry for all the negativity, but i hate this!
and i just finished a stack of reports. you know, where there's a fire at ur camp so u have to write a report to the police sergeant or whatever. well i have a report right now:
To: Sergeant Loner Guy
Save me, I'm dying!
From: Ain
so anyway, that wasn't too bad cos reports are nice and brief, as i have just demonstrated above. but like i said earlier, the worst is yet to come. i have a thick stack of comprehension to mark. you know what's the worst part? there's no answer key. and it's a full-blown comprehension, with summary and shit. and where's the answer-fucking-key? takde langsong, that's where. how do u mark a summary without a fucking answer key? am i supposed to like create one myself? omg i really really feel like crying right now, i've never had such a miserable time before in my life.
sorry for all the negativity, but i hate this!
heyheyhey.
i woke up late this morning, still stuck in yesterday's bad mood, so when i found out tt today's menu was lauk lemak chilli padi, i settled myself down with 2 plates of that and the fantastic four dvd. well by the time the movie was over, i was sleepy again. so i went back into my room to sleep. but cam tak selesa, cos i was having cramps. then my phone beeped. it was fan, and he wanted to chill out, so i promptly dropped everything [including those three cursed stacks of marking, my food security powerpoint slides, and the publicity stuff for OMN, plus the lectures of the past 3 weeks tt i have to catch up with], and got ready to go out. haha. nothing can get me out of the doldrums as quickly as making plans to go out.
we watched the longest yard, which was GREAT! i enjoyed every other minute of it. [why "every other minute"? cos i was resisting the carnal urge to pee. turns out so was he. haha.] it was funny, and sad, and heart-tugging, and the soundtrack freaking rocks! oh and yeah i guess guys will particularly enjoy all the wrestlers cameo-ing in the movie.
and today it was just wall-to-wall mats. so fun! it would have been more fun if i was with shafa, but hey. dah bagus tu ader. hahaha.
okay then it's back to marking losers' compos. bye.
i woke up late this morning, still stuck in yesterday's bad mood, so when i found out tt today's menu was lauk lemak chilli padi, i settled myself down with 2 plates of that and the fantastic four dvd. well by the time the movie was over, i was sleepy again. so i went back into my room to sleep. but cam tak selesa, cos i was having cramps. then my phone beeped. it was fan, and he wanted to chill out, so i promptly dropped everything [including those three cursed stacks of marking, my food security powerpoint slides, and the publicity stuff for OMN, plus the lectures of the past 3 weeks tt i have to catch up with], and got ready to go out. haha. nothing can get me out of the doldrums as quickly as making plans to go out.
we watched the longest yard, which was GREAT! i enjoyed every other minute of it. [why "every other minute"? cos i was resisting the carnal urge to pee. turns out so was he. haha.] it was funny, and sad, and heart-tugging, and the soundtrack freaking rocks! oh and yeah i guess guys will particularly enjoy all the wrestlers cameo-ing in the movie.
and today it was just wall-to-wall mats. so fun! it would have been more fun if i was with shafa, but hey. dah bagus tu ader. hahaha.
okay then it's back to marking losers' compos. bye.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
sigh. i'm in some kind of a bad mood. not even loner guy can cheer me up now. i think it's the sheer amount of things that i have to do. and the failed mat-watching session did NOT help. but maybe dorky fringe will be around if i come by again. haha. he's dorkily cute.
i don't even know why i'm still awake now. the only reason i'm not closing my eyes and succumbing to the calls of setan and going to sleep is cos i'm listening to urban essentials, the one bright spark in my life.
ah apparently it's ended so dreamland, here i come.
i don't even know why i'm still awake now. the only reason i'm not closing my eyes and succumbing to the calls of setan and going to sleep is cos i'm listening to urban essentials, the one bright spark in my life.
ah apparently it's ended so dreamland, here i come.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
yawn. so it was another of those kena-bantai-rabak days at school today. seriously. it didn't take much for me to completely nod off in the train home. and having to wake up with horrible neckaches. argh. well i suppose i shd be thankful for tt, kalau tak i might double-telajak like danial did [he got in at pasir ris, and woke up in pasir ris. like wth?!?!].
pract wasn't too bad, but i was seething with jealousy over amy's exponential progress these past few days. while MY "progress" has a negative gradient, if at all.
i digress. anyway remember i had an interview at mendaki sometime last week? [recap: it went horribly, as all my interviews do. and this was by far the worst, i thought. cos the guy explicitly said that i shouldn't be so shy and that i should speak up more. PLUS i didn't know a THING about the organisation that was offering the scholarship.] well despite all that happened, rupernyer my blisters did not come to nought this time! i actually got the scholarship! tak caya seyyy. so, alhamdulillah is all i can say now. alhamdulillah and wow. haha.
the only thing that macam, spoiled it was when i got home, the envelope was on the friggin kitchen table, and it was dah terbukak already lah. like wth? last i heard, going through mail that is not your own is a federal offence ah. geram sey. she opens every single mendaki letter, and then she interrogates me about it afterwards. how fucking annoying. at least, if u're so interested to know, can't you like wait till i get home?!?!?! and then still have the nerve to "seal" it back, when it's so obviously torn open already. orang buter pon boleh tahu sak. aaaarghh.
i really don't know why i'm so pissed about what may seem like a small matter, but i am. it's like such a blatant invasion of privacy. and then dah bukak, nak pretend as if nothing happened, as if it just opened by itself issit? i better stop before i accidentally punch D in the screen.
pract wasn't too bad, but i was seething with jealousy over amy's exponential progress these past few days. while MY "progress" has a negative gradient, if at all.
i digress. anyway remember i had an interview at mendaki sometime last week? [recap: it went horribly, as all my interviews do. and this was by far the worst, i thought. cos the guy explicitly said that i shouldn't be so shy and that i should speak up more. PLUS i didn't know a THING about the organisation that was offering the scholarship.] well despite all that happened, rupernyer my blisters did not come to nought this time! i actually got the scholarship! tak caya seyyy. so, alhamdulillah is all i can say now. alhamdulillah and wow. haha.
the only thing that macam, spoiled it was when i got home, the envelope was on the friggin kitchen table, and it was dah terbukak already lah. like wth? last i heard, going through mail that is not your own is a federal offence ah. geram sey. she opens every single mendaki letter, and then she interrogates me about it afterwards. how fucking annoying. at least, if u're so interested to know, can't you like wait till i get home?!?!?! and then still have the nerve to "seal" it back, when it's so obviously torn open already. orang buter pon boleh tahu sak. aaaarghh.
i really don't know why i'm so pissed about what may seem like a small matter, but i am. it's like such a blatant invasion of privacy. and then dah bukak, nak pretend as if nothing happened, as if it just opened by itself issit? i better stop before i accidentally punch D in the screen.
aaaahhh i swear, he just looks better and better everyday. like today he somehow managed to look smartly casual in his cap ngan polo shirt and ahhhh i was just dying cos he's so incredibly good-looking! mampos aku. sigh. but u know, afterwards he had to rush off for pract so cam yahh.. bye bye loner guy.
anyway my battery's like running out so i better get lost soon.
but wow i'm just like sitting here, trying to like find his bike so i can stare at it, but tak jumpe2. maybe bapak dier hantar or smthg.
anyway my battery's like running out so i better get lost soon.
but wow i'm just like sitting here, trying to like find his bike so i can stare at it, but tak jumpe2. maybe bapak dier hantar or smthg.
'sup.
remember when i said loner guy and i were meant to be? i wasn't kidding man! now i find out tt he lives in the exact same town as me! what are the odds man, what are the odds.
skived off school again--fully-aware of the risks of missing yet another rare chance to see loner guy--to hit the beach with fan. and ended up getting burnt. seriously. i'm gelap now, with a tinge of pink. hahaha. takpe it was fun. and loads more people today, cos it's school holiday and all. my favourite part was going solo to new zealand natural, buying a double scoop, and sitting there checking out the [younger] skimming mats. my second favourite part? okay there were these 4 malay girls, whom i'd noticed early on, and labelled biatches. skali i was stuck showering at the communal showers, in the MIDDLE of them. and they were all kecohing and stuff, about people staring at us, and scrubbing the sand tt was stuck in secret crevices, etc. after a while, the bitchiest-looking one actually talked to me. haha. so i responded in kind. and whaddya know? we're friends! funn-ay. so seriously, all these people you think are bitches, rupernyer they're quite nice after all.
then went home, and back out to meet shafa. nothing much, we just cam, ate at jason's, got me a rhumba frappucino, and did the lightest shopping possible. hahaha.
i just logged into wholivesnearyou, and guess what? some lim msged me! GOD. and not just ANY lim, a 16-year-old lim! aper ni? thanks man, thanks.
ooh my levelone card finally came, can't wait to start racking up points! yay.
remember when i said loner guy and i were meant to be? i wasn't kidding man! now i find out tt he lives in the exact same town as me! what are the odds man, what are the odds.
skived off school again--fully-aware of the risks of missing yet another rare chance to see loner guy--to hit the beach with fan. and ended up getting burnt. seriously. i'm gelap now, with a tinge of pink. hahaha. takpe it was fun. and loads more people today, cos it's school holiday and all. my favourite part was going solo to new zealand natural, buying a double scoop, and sitting there checking out the [younger] skimming mats. my second favourite part? okay there were these 4 malay girls, whom i'd noticed early on, and labelled biatches. skali i was stuck showering at the communal showers, in the MIDDLE of them. and they were all kecohing and stuff, about people staring at us, and scrubbing the sand tt was stuck in secret crevices, etc. after a while, the bitchiest-looking one actually talked to me. haha. so i responded in kind. and whaddya know? we're friends! funn-ay. so seriously, all these people you think are bitches, rupernyer they're quite nice after all.
then went home, and back out to meet shafa. nothing much, we just cam, ate at jason's, got me a rhumba frappucino, and did the lightest shopping possible. hahaha.
i just logged into wholivesnearyou, and guess what? some lim msged me! GOD. and not just ANY lim, a 16-year-old lim! aper ni? thanks man, thanks.
ooh my levelone card finally came, can't wait to start racking up points! yay.
Monday, September 05, 2005
in the lull after chem lec. perfect time to blog. i hate blogging during lec, macam there's the permanent feeling of people looking over your shoulder. NOT my definition of privacy. well i'm just praying that amy's right and people don't have lec now.
once again, a no-show by loner guy. but it's okay. got a few more nuggets of info about him, from our reliable and quite-discreet spy. i must personally thank him one day. hahaha. anyway it turns out i'm mostly right about him. loner guy, i mean. espesh when i found out tt i'd predicted his jc correctly. we are SO meant to be, man! hahaha.
after my run of bad luck yest, i met fan at clementi anyway, and doubled back to pasir ris to meet hannan AGAIN. hahah. as usual, we lepaked at mac's. very fun. i love lepaking. it has to be my favourite pastime, seriously. and there were a couple of cute guys at the next table playing jiwang malay songs on their laptop. too bad dorang smoke. wait, what am i talking about? i'm practically a black lungs society member myself, with all the passive smoking i subject myself to. anyway, we unfortunately missed the last 17 home, so i paid for a cab la. haha kesian aku. pokkai, as [the genuine] raihan once said.
i don't know what's wrong with loner guy. why doesn't he just come on monday? doesn't he know that you need a good start to the week? and a good start, for me, means him? so can he like come to ensure that my week starts off well? yargh. takpe. thanks to fana's little crush on mug dulu [and counting], she has the yearbook and can therefore macam, do a little search for him. [loner guy, not mug.] yay. so i'm just praying now la.
okla it's another packed tuesday tmr, and i have to get a lot of work done. so maybe i'll be back. or maybe not. btw, malam pentas pics are up! [i took the liberty of NOT including my beribu self-taken photos, for obvious reasons. haha.] so anyway, kalau free, check it out.
once again, a no-show by loner guy. but it's okay. got a few more nuggets of info about him, from our reliable and quite-discreet spy. i must personally thank him one day. hahaha. anyway it turns out i'm mostly right about him. loner guy, i mean. espesh when i found out tt i'd predicted his jc correctly. we are SO meant to be, man! hahaha.
after my run of bad luck yest, i met fan at clementi anyway, and doubled back to pasir ris to meet hannan AGAIN. hahah. as usual, we lepaked at mac's. very fun. i love lepaking. it has to be my favourite pastime, seriously. and there were a couple of cute guys at the next table playing jiwang malay songs on their laptop. too bad dorang smoke. wait, what am i talking about? i'm practically a black lungs society member myself, with all the passive smoking i subject myself to. anyway, we unfortunately missed the last 17 home, so i paid for a cab la. haha kesian aku. pokkai, as [the genuine] raihan once said.
i don't know what's wrong with loner guy. why doesn't he just come on monday? doesn't he know that you need a good start to the week? and a good start, for me, means him? so can he like come to ensure that my week starts off well? yargh. takpe. thanks to fana's little crush on mug dulu [and counting], she has the yearbook and can therefore macam, do a little search for him. [loner guy, not mug.] yay. so i'm just praying now la.
okla it's another packed tuesday tmr, and i have to get a lot of work done. so maybe i'll be back. or maybe not. btw, malam pentas pics are up! [i took the liberty of NOT including my beribu self-taken photos, for obvious reasons. haha.] so anyway, kalau free, check it out.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
of all times for the jamban to rosak, it had to be when *I* was using it.
anyway. i thought malam pentas was fantastic. i took like beribu photos and i have to say my favourite performance was vanilla shaque's. i was totally bopping away in the back. hahaha. and i thought it might cam, ter-overtime, but not sampai one hour! but anyway, really cool, and thanks to everyone who came and more importantly, everyone who did the dirty work. and i think that inasmuch as it didn't fulfil certain objectives, it fulfilled others in that it made everyone else [like me] want to perform next time. so look out for the next night. sep 17.
i have photos!!!!!!! but i'll upload them later yea.
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside your trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely little lumps
Check it out
I drive these brothers crazy
I do it on the daily
they treat me really nicely
They buy me all these ice
Dolce and Gabbana
Fendi and that Donna Karan
They be sharin'
All their money got me wearing fly
Whether I ain't askin
They say they love mah ass in
Seven Jeans
True religion
I say no
but they keep givin
So I keep on takin
And no I ain't takin
We can keep on takin
Now keep on demonstratin
My love my love my love my love
you love my lady lumps
my hump my hump my hump
my humps they got you..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk..
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream
Cause of my humps my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
Check it out
[Will.i.am]
I met a girl down at the disco
She said hey hey hey ya lets go
I can be ya baby, you could be my honey
Lets spend time not money
And mix your milk with my coco puff
milky milky coco
mix your milk with my coco puff
Milky milky
Riiiiight...
[Fergie]
They say I'm really sexy
The boys they wanna sex me
They always standin next to me
Always dancin next to me
tryna feel my hump hump
Lookin at my lump lump
you can look but you can't touch it
if you touch it
I'ma start some drama
you don't want no drama
No no drama no no no no drama
So don't
Pull on my hand boy
you ain't my man boy
I'm just tryna dance boy
And move my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
my lovely lady lumps my lovely lady lumps
In the back and in the front
my loving got you..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off this hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that breast
all that breast inside that shirt
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you work
make you work work make you work
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
anyway. i thought malam pentas was fantastic. i took like beribu photos and i have to say my favourite performance was vanilla shaque's. i was totally bopping away in the back. hahaha. and i thought it might cam, ter-overtime, but not sampai one hour! but anyway, really cool, and thanks to everyone who came and more importantly, everyone who did the dirty work. and i think that inasmuch as it didn't fulfil certain objectives, it fulfilled others in that it made everyone else [like me] want to perform next time. so look out for the next night. sep 17.
i have photos!!!!!!! but i'll upload them later yea.
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside your trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely little lumps
Check it out
I drive these brothers crazy
I do it on the daily
they treat me really nicely
They buy me all these ice
Dolce and Gabbana
Fendi and that Donna Karan
They be sharin'
All their money got me wearing fly
Whether I ain't askin
They say they love mah ass in
Seven Jeans
True religion
I say no
but they keep givin
So I keep on takin
And no I ain't takin
We can keep on takin
Now keep on demonstratin
My love my love my love my love
you love my lady lumps
my hump my hump my hump
my humps they got you..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk..
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream
Cause of my humps my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
Check it out
[Will.i.am]
I met a girl down at the disco
She said hey hey hey ya lets go
I can be ya baby, you could be my honey
Lets spend time not money
And mix your milk with my coco puff
milky milky coco
mix your milk with my coco puff
Milky milky
Riiiiight...
[Fergie]
They say I'm really sexy
The boys they wanna sex me
They always standin next to me
Always dancin next to me
tryna feel my hump hump
Lookin at my lump lump
you can look but you can't touch it
if you touch it
I'ma start some drama
you don't want no drama
No no drama no no no no drama
So don't
Pull on my hand boy
you ain't my man boy
I'm just tryna dance boy
And move my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
my lovely lady lumps my lovely lady lumps
In the back and in the front
my loving got you..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk
[Fergie]
I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off this hump
[Will.i.am]
Whatcha gonna do with all that breast
all that breast inside that shirt
[Fergie]
I'ma make make make make you work
make you work work make you work
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..
[Will.i.am]
She's got me spending..
[Fergie]
Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..
Saturday, September 03, 2005
well before i leave for the SIASU educational awards, ALONE, i HAD to write about the horrible nightmare i just had!
i was walking by WS swensen's when i realised it was no longer swensen's, it was now some cafe-ish thing, like coffee bean used to be next door, but selling ice-cream. and abg rahim was there, in like, the ex-swensen's CSR uniform, clearing the tables. and i looked inside and everyone was there--azhar, nores, farhan, hannan.. so i was like, "alrite!" and i rushed in to say hi and like, apply for job which i SO would get anyway since abg rahim knows me. hahahaha.
okay obviously that wasn't the nightmare. but it was a weird dream anyway. getting back to the point, the next thing i knew, i was like, pregnant, and due to give birth any day. and instead of like, stressing over the birth, i was wondering what to name my baby!!!! apparently i had to come up with the name in the next hour or whatever or.. i dunno what the "or" was. so i was just scrambling around for names [even though i already have a list in my head, i dunno why i didn't think of that in the dream!], and guess what i finally came up with. Emma Farha!!!!!!!!!!!!! astaghfirullah. i nearly died when i woke up and went over the dream. no offence baba, but it was just weird, you know?
so anyway. i'm done for now. bye.
i was walking by WS swensen's when i realised it was no longer swensen's, it was now some cafe-ish thing, like coffee bean used to be next door, but selling ice-cream. and abg rahim was there, in like, the ex-swensen's CSR uniform, clearing the tables. and i looked inside and everyone was there--azhar, nores, farhan, hannan.. so i was like, "alrite!" and i rushed in to say hi and like, apply for job which i SO would get anyway since abg rahim knows me. hahahaha.
okay obviously that wasn't the nightmare. but it was a weird dream anyway. getting back to the point, the next thing i knew, i was like, pregnant, and due to give birth any day. and instead of like, stressing over the birth, i was wondering what to name my baby!!!! apparently i had to come up with the name in the next hour or whatever or.. i dunno what the "or" was. so i was just scrambling around for names [even though i already have a list in my head, i dunno why i didn't think of that in the dream!], and guess what i finally came up with. Emma Farha!!!!!!!!!!!!! astaghfirullah. i nearly died when i woke up and went over the dream. no offence baba, but it was just weird, you know?
so anyway. i'm done for now. bye.
Friday, September 02, 2005
i'm at CENTRAL library PERK point. haha. geddit?
smalam was boring as hell, i think, except for the part where i got to sit practically within hugging range of loner guy, whom i now know is single. hahahahaha! thanks to our spy. bes. unfortunately, later i completely embarrassed myself di hadapan dier. first, in my hurry to leave the LT at eat at YIH, i just upped and walked away with shah, then stood at the end of the row saying, "amy cepatlah!" then shah went back to retrieve amy, and she saw a laptop just sitting there. she asked amy, "amy whose laptop is this?" reply: "AIN PUNYA LAH! eh ain your laptop lah!" and he was still sitting there tau. alone and alert. so i had to like go back and take the laptop, thereby identifying myself to him. mampos. that's not the end. we went out by the back, and i attempted to open the CONTROL ROOM DOOR, instead of the back door! so he effectively thinks i'm a clumsy bimbo now. grrrreat.
and today i was late for pract again. dahlah kena stomped on the foot by some slenger bacin. geram aku. and i was sitting at the seats in the middle of central lib, innocently doing my maths tutorial, but people walking by just kept staring at me! and i know it's not because of my stunning looks. hahaha. oklah we're gonna be late for seni potluck, which i did not bring anything for so i'm just gonna self-impose an eating ban. hahaha. anyway we gotta get going. hahaha.
smalam was boring as hell, i think, except for the part where i got to sit practically within hugging range of loner guy, whom i now know is single. hahahahaha! thanks to our spy. bes. unfortunately, later i completely embarrassed myself di hadapan dier. first, in my hurry to leave the LT at eat at YIH, i just upped and walked away with shah, then stood at the end of the row saying, "amy cepatlah!" then shah went back to retrieve amy, and she saw a laptop just sitting there. she asked amy, "amy whose laptop is this?" reply: "AIN PUNYA LAH! eh ain your laptop lah!" and he was still sitting there tau. alone and alert. so i had to like go back and take the laptop, thereby identifying myself to him. mampos. that's not the end. we went out by the back, and i attempted to open the CONTROL ROOM DOOR, instead of the back door! so he effectively thinks i'm a clumsy bimbo now. grrrreat.
and today i was late for pract again. dahlah kena stomped on the foot by some slenger bacin. geram aku. and i was sitting at the seats in the middle of central lib, innocently doing my maths tutorial, but people walking by just kept staring at me! and i know it's not because of my stunning looks. hahaha. oklah we're gonna be late for seni potluck, which i did not bring anything for so i'm just gonna self-impose an eating ban. hahaha. anyway we gotta get going. hahaha.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
heyhey. so the interview was like shitty, as usual. then amy and i cabbed to skl. the test was shitty too. and the pre-test lecture was spent checking out loner guy. whose name i now know. woohoo! and it WAS one of the 2 narrowed-down choices. haha. i couldn't do like more than half the questions, so i just taruk any answer, and blah. ohyah i was wearing baju kurung, and once again, bynk comments from orangs. merepeks.
i met fan at pasir ris mrt, and since everyone else was gonna be late, we had our last go at the $4 sundae thingy at WS swensen's. no one interesting working, though, except for fidah. takpe. si lion gave me my final cheque. and oh a couple of tampines people were eating there too. fairuz and the blonde girl. and with them was a mimlim.
speaking of WHOM. chinablack was just packed with mimlims la! gilerrr. but i had fun. among the mimlims ader cute guys jugak, and annoying shits like this kurus-nak-mampos guy wearing what-were-practically-bellbottoms and who looked SO incredibly gay that i could smell it from a mile away but who turned out to be possibly straight when i saw him bumping and grinding with some girl, and this manjen fatso who danced horribly and kept taking photos of himself with his phone while he was dancing on the podium. YUCK.
well consequently i finally tidoed at 4-plus, and overslept till 945!!! so cam tak sempat makan OR buat my lab report. bodoh. but CM1101 lec was worth it. he was practically behind me la! wowss. so cute sia. takleh tahan. and we found out one more teeny bit of info about him. encouraging bit of info. haha. and he's having lab now, yay. too bad tadi aku embarrassed myself in front of him.
i met fan at pasir ris mrt, and since everyone else was gonna be late, we had our last go at the $4 sundae thingy at WS swensen's. no one interesting working, though, except for fidah. takpe. si lion gave me my final cheque. and oh a couple of tampines people were eating there too. fairuz and the blonde girl. and with them was a mimlim.
speaking of WHOM. chinablack was just packed with mimlims la! gilerrr. but i had fun. among the mimlims ader cute guys jugak, and annoying shits like this kurus-nak-mampos guy wearing what-were-practically-bellbottoms and who looked SO incredibly gay that i could smell it from a mile away but who turned out to be possibly straight when i saw him bumping and grinding with some girl, and this manjen fatso who danced horribly and kept taking photos of himself with his phone while he was dancing on the podium. YUCK.
well consequently i finally tidoed at 4-plus, and overslept till 945!!! so cam tak sempat makan OR buat my lab report. bodoh. but CM1101 lec was worth it. he was practically behind me la! wowss. so cute sia. takleh tahan. and we found out one more teeny bit of info about him. encouraging bit of info. haha. and he's having lab now, yay. too bad tadi aku embarrassed myself in front of him.
Bye bye Studio 1!
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