bimbodoh moment of the day: "the machine swallowed my card!"

anyway, thanks to the brilliant ng tze beng, i ended up reaching home at around, oh i dunno, 755pm?!?!?! i should have just gone home with CBG yeah? alah tapi maluuuu. well so i bukaed in 359 with the sweet that the bungkus2 "hantu" gave me just now. rupernyer sedap jugak. nicer than the apple actually. hahaha. oh and i had the LOVELIEST sleep in the train. sedap giler, cam tanak bangun sey.

and i'm getting my birkens tmr, WITH or WITHOUT a shopping partner. argh it's times like these when i miss shafa the most.

happy hallowe'en. i actually took a photo with one of the hooded "ghosts" walking around. so fun!

i'm so annoyed. now my sister is wearing my favourite saints tshirt around the house, knotted round her waist, as a baju tidur. wow. it's one of my favourite tshirts! ameklah tshirt lain sial. and when i shrieked at her not to wear it, she completely ignored me.

fuck. if this is how it's gonna be, i'd rather she go back to her fucking marine parade condo and have her and my mom continue to be angry at each other. although THAT won't happen. i think my mom'd rather have her back than have both me and zul around. you know, ever-loving firstborns.

once again, one of those things that seem too teeny to get so uptight about, but i AM anyway.

every saturday i come home thinking maybe i do like him enough to believe i'm not single.

well anyway. had penyiaran meeting in the late morning. quite enjoyable. plus i was there an hour early, so i sat there finishing one of my islam books. missed D terribly, but u know, berat and all. after tt i hung out with hanom for awhile, then took the eastbound train together. where we discussed first impressions. and i think general first impressions of me can be summed up in one word: bimbodoh. kan dazril kan? [not tt u read this blog. but we know who DOES!!! (sorry aku giler)]

i'm glad i didn't commit to seni iftar, cos i met fan right after the meeting to go shopping at queensway. well, he shopped. i salivated. there was this whole range of marc ecko watches with an average price of $300; a bright-giler-nak-mampos puma-ferrari jacket i just HAVE TO HAVE; AAAAAAAAAANNNNNDDD.. the iscream yoghurt counter!!! i died. okay actually prices are like a dollar higher, which is alot. but u know! sedap! for a moment my puasa wavered. sorry, God. it wasn't cos i was hungry [i wasn't. yet.], but it's just tt i love it so much! i think i could spend the rest of my life living on it. alone.

fan has a similar shopping style as me. it's quite amusing really.

anyway on our way out we bumped into two adorable boys--the respective brothers of non-fren and burger. how adorable! i wanted to grab each one and hug him. haha. i refrained from doing so, of course. glad to see that they're still alive and healthy, and that they seem to be taking after their abangs excellently.

after some difficulty deciding where to buka--fish & co/swensen's/pizza hut--we finally plumped for pizza hut. in the end kena 44 bucks plus sial. haha. the girl serving us, nurul, was really nice and she completely reminds me of nadzi. and there was one guy who reminded me of zul [adik akulah]. ah bagoslah tu. and did u know the ILT is actual tea? so they give u simple syrup to add to ur preference. sedap gilerr. and three lemon slices. i was in heaven. and i had no idea they switched radio channels just before buka. how considerate!

i can still taste the stuffed crust. ohyeah and i finally fulfilled my kepinginan rhumba frappucino at the TM starbucks. all guys on duty. mostly cute. hehe.

i am a loser.

firstly, i confuse night and day. tadi before buka i took a nap cos i was so freakin' tired. but my mom had to come and wake me several times before i actually staggered outside to buka. after buka, dah sembahyang, i went back to dreamland. bila tersedar, i saw that the clock showed almost 9, and i was CONVINCED it was 9 in the morning.

related to that, i left D on while i was sleeping. so a couple of people msned me, and i completely ignored them cos i was sleeping. haha. seriously. i slept for 2 hrs--9 to 11--with D still on and blaring songs which i didn't really hear anyway. i even had some dream about doing a project with julian and jon chen. why julian and jon chen? God i really have no idea.

next time, NO MORE all-nighters.

"is it just me, or do you only sleep during the day?"

was what fathrul said to me at 330 this morning. i thought it was quite funny. not to mention partially true. haha.

so i went to skl for about an hour today. aje. wow. i was supposed to go for TTT at 135, but i was SO sleepy from the previous 2 nights that aku malas nak bangun. in the end i was woken up by a phone call from fai. [no, not rul.] it's amazing how he always manages to call me at exactly the wrong time. but anyway, it woke me up, so that served its purpose.

yeah so i rushed to skl and everything, and met up with diatch to do mkting stuffs. she took over the project network proposal, thankfully. it was driving me nuts really. anyway i was GONNA go for eugene at 4, but when i called amy, she was still in the library, with NO PLANS whatsoever to go for the lecture, so i just went home la.

SO. i was in skl from 305 to 415. that's hardly an hour! so i rushed all over the planet for what was essentially nothing. great. in fact, the only thing i got out of today was how to take out D's battery. haha.

2 nights. i won't be able pull an all-nighter for 2 nights. will DEFINITELY miss it, and all other things associated with it.

i was having another of my haggard days today. seriously, i didn't even wanna look at myself in the mirror. it was THAT horrible. and i slept like giler in the train home and everything. but anyway, the point is, when i got home i was teetering on the edge of grumpy.

and then i saw this:




korang tak faham. i've been wanting an armchair in my room ever since i could sit. haha. and this is MY armchair, the one i used to sit in, in the living room, back in its heyday. but then we got a new sofa set and i casually suggested they put this one in my room. but takde space. so i sleep over at RH for one night, and i come home to this! what a lovely surprise.

so. guess where i'm sitting now?

Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa yang berbeda
Mungkin kusalah mengartikannya
Yang kurasa cinta

Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu

Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri

Kau buatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Kau buatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri -Peter Pan

nice huh? i love this yearly tradition of mine. really helps me look forward to rayer/ramadhan.

we bukaed at komala's, i had my usual. sedap gilerrsss. it was quite fun, cos there was a cute vik outside, working at the coffeeshop next door, "offering" me his drink. no really he was cute. which was primarily why i layaned him.

then we began our trek around the bazaar. we must've walked around each place at least twice. my kakis are just dying now. there were some really droolworthy bajus, but my baju quota has long since been reached so yeah. we bought yummy ice-blended drinks for $2.50 at the part outside darul arqam. then we did our inai, and sat at a fly-infested bench for like 45 minutes waiting for it to dry. gilersss. but it was good mat-watching. they can't see you at all, but you have a great view of them.

hmm we met ammar. syahida's right, he's definitely less cute now. still cute, but less so. ohwell he still remembers me at least. i'm so touched. haha. cam real. nolah but most ppl don't rem me, so cam sedih. we also saw syed faisal, but tt's about it la. actually it was kinda boring people-wise cos tak ramai orang ah. there were definitely more people the wednesday i went. yeah so other than a few cute guys, nothing really tickled my eyeballs.

two notable guys in the train. first was nazril, brother of BR. and the other was helmi kasui. hahahaha. unfortunately si helmi kasui left without telling me. -merajuk- wow and we actually caught the last 96 back, by a hairbreadth.

sahur at fongseng laterrr.

what amy and i were doing last night:



hehe. after which i added, "vulgar sey anak kedua kau! ikot bapak dier.."

ohwells. i had fun last night. ended up sleeping at 2 even though i was supposed to sleep at 10. and i came to skl with mubs just now.

i love it when it rains. no, scratch that. i love it when it rains when i'm at home, snug in my bed, in an introspective mood.

so anyway. i remembered this during sahur.

me: dahlah aku tanak lagilah baba. perut aku nak dekat tutup ni. dier tgh buat closing.

baba: aku tengok kau belum soda pe..

wahahahaha. okay of course only baba and i get it. but thanks halim for introducing the perut-tutup concept to us.

another one:

baba: okay, so what's taking the ice-cream so long?

me: dier tengah kejar lembu to get the milk.

baba: yah, and dier tgh mining for sand--to make glass.

baba again: dier tgh ber-sex! asal asal?

me: to give birth to the glassblower! and tukang buat fountain!!!

yup. yelah takyah cakap ah, kiter giler.

interesting thing happened today. well, I thought it was interesting, anyway.

i was sitting at the void deck with fan, and my mom came by and asked what i was doing. nolah not in a marah way, just cam, casually, i suppose. i mati2 thought she specially came from upstairs at first. but rupernyer she was from loyang point. so she went, "siape ni?" and i was like, "kawan ain.." and i weirdly introed them. and then he salamed her, which i thought was so cute, cos i didn't even salam her myself, out of shock. haha. well whatever. i just found it mildly interesting cos that's the closest she's ever come to my personal life. and it seems there IS something to be said about the other benefits of not PDAing. haha.

shasha pulak cakap, "rock rock sey kau pilih.." lucky she was busy, or i would have replied, "bukan aku yang pilih!"

we bukaed at mac's today. and there were some really cute guys. i swear. these cute guys just pop up whenever i'm with him, just to spite me. haha. like there was this REALLY cute guy in red, sitting directly infront of me about 3 tables away with his gf. i couldn't help but stare at him, y'know? and there was this hot vik who looks 100% mim--one of fan's seniors in PA. hmm and then in the 359 queue there was this really cute guy called shaik. or whatever. hahaha.

it's pissing me off though, that i still don't know where we are, and that i can always get angry at him, but when i see him again, it all kinda evaporates.

ooh i bought myself a new automatic pencil eyeliner today! in green.. i wanted a change of shade, since i've used black since sec 2, and i'm already using brown. so yeah. but ouch it cost $15.90. the maybelline ones were cheaper, $9.90/$8.90, but odd/limited colours. and he chose the l'oreal one, haha.

thanks everyone for your support for the awards. i can't believe this is the third year and it's still going strong. and to think it was born during a boring afternoon, in the middle of an econs/chem/bio paper. sorry if you guys don't know half of the awardees. i know it kind of kills the fun. but ohWELLS.

anyway, the sentimentalities out of the way, i actually had a great 2 hours at lt14 with atikk etc. the two of us were just dancing to our own songs, or singing along to Minah Tudung, my current second favourite song. and then there were those cute guys at the next table. which was why i ended up leaving at 11, instead of at 1030 as originally planned. haha.

took the train home with haikal. he's so funny!!! i was totally dying. we both were. cos i was telling him some of the stupid jokes i read with amy the other time. and then we were talking about front-centre-knotted skirts and shurtain-cower-dresses. giler!!! alah budak loyang. whaddya expect? [i still can't believe it's such a small world and tt he's actually a budak loyang.]

so the interesting thing that happened today, as atikk and i sat down, side-by-side, and turned on our respective laptops:

atikk: [is silent for a few moments as she logs into msn] AIN!!! did you block me on msn???

me: [stumped] ohyah sorry.. i didn't want you to bug me.. [sees the funny side and starts laughing] anyway, you MUST have realised something weird when you didn't see me online for like the past week!!!

so anyway, she proceeded to msn shah and amy and tell them about my cardinal sin of blocking her. both darlings denied any knowledge, and attempted to defend me. so it was HILARIOUS. atikk showed me her convo window with amy, while i showed her MY amy window tt said: "AINNNN!!! atikk tahu kau block dier!!!" yes, like i said, hilarious.

okays, once again we're back!!! it's the ain awards 2005!!!

[side note: actually, i mati2 thought tt today was the 19th. so i was gonna post this tmr. ape je. nasib baik nat bilang.]

Main Awards
Most Perfect: Laptop-Packer/Family Man
Most Missed: Bun
Most Charming: Prince
Cutest [Little Boy]: Tommy Starbucks
Cutest [Model]: Sir Tingles
Nicest-Looking: Abang Science
Nicest: CBG
Current Favourite: Loner Guy [who else, right?]



Subsidiary Awards

Gatsby Best Hair is self-explanatorily awarded to the guy with the best hairstyle. The winner enjoys a year's supply of products from the well-known brand, and has the privilege of becoming the face of Gatsby this year. This award goes to... Cute Sideburns!

Mr Pasir Ris-Punggol is also self-explanatorily given to the cutest guy in the far-east side. He has the coveted honour of being the face of activities based the Pasir Ris-Punggol area. Clearly, the winner can be no other than... Loner Guy!

The Hugo Boss Boss Man has to be cool, hot, sexy, and everything else. He also has to know when NOT to play by the rules. And so this year's Boss Man is... Kashbir!

Our Flash 'N' Splash Surfer Dude is the one with the best beach look, including tan, hairstyle, and of course the requisite hot bod. He gets to be the face of Flash 'N' Splash for the year, plus all his outfits will be sponsored by them. And the lucky winner is... Pasta!

Harley Davidson Bad Boy will get not just clothes and a year's modelling contract, but also 2 new motorbikes from the label [one for his gf, presumably], to further supplement his bad-boy image. And this year's Bad Boy is... Ex-Con!

SDU's Perfect Match goes to the guy who'll make a great life partner, in all aspects [physical, spiritual, emotional] of life. This year's winner is... Bapak!

And then we have Mr. Bollywood, which goes to the cutest vik, and that's... Double Decaf!

Lim Seng Tjoe Mr. Science goes to the cutest, freshest guy in Science, who makes me glad to be in Science. Yay. So that goes to... Sialsss!

Power 98's Most Melodious Voice gets to choose between a recording contract and a year's internship as a DJ at abovementioned radio station. And the winner is.. BR!

Now we have The Red Roof Lumpurs Relek One Corner award, which goes to the most lumpurish guy of all... Mamat!

And finally, the LEAST coveted award of Freakazoid of the Year [again, self-explanatory] goes to... Mubs!

yay okay i'm done. i'm quite sad that not everyone won something, but if i had to do it like that, besok pon tak game. so yup this is it for this year. insya-Allah next yr ader lagie eh?

i used to think i was nuts.

i was right. but my friends are far worse. for solid evidence, look to the right.

i got back yesterday at a quarter to midnight. i hadn't realised it was that late. i guess time REALLY flies when you're having fun. we were finally seated at like 9, so dah makan makan makan [i had the CHEESHEE, esprit passionfruit and gold rush], and ketawer, we ended up being the last customers. you know, the kind that they're glad to see the back of. haha. oh but it was loads of fun. and we DID end up using the $26 voucher.

some highlights: merepeking about BR, merepeking about loner guy, merepeking about ahem-ahem, NOT merepeking about mubs, figuring out what EXACTLY takes a bus so long to arrive, and just loads of assorted shit like eating rumputs.

woohoo and to further enhance my enjoyment of the day, it was lovely weather, low temperatures, and loads of my favourite ite mats. yey.

btw, IGNORE baba. she ate too much ice-cream. 7 ounces.

i'ma make you want to get with me tonight
i'ma put those naughty thoughts into your mind
i'm gonna show you clearly i can rock your world
you're gonna know for sure that i should be your girl-Mariah Carey

are song lyrics really true? cos if they are.. well then loner guy better watch out. haha.

this is what i have to put up with from my friend amy.



naturally, names have been censored to protect MY privacy. whatever's left of it anyway.

it's so nice to just sit by the window in my room and chill. you know, breathe in the fresh morning air and all. and at this odd hour of the morning, i can pretend it's night time. i'd rather chill at night. but then i wouldn't be able to function in school. so it's a trade-off, really. i'll save the night-chilling for vacation time.

everyone is ignoring me on msn, so i'll just go back to my blog, cos my blog always listens. :)

i have a new online friend. haha. the 49305849203rd, actually. but who cares? it's fun. and i'm not gonna stop for anything in the world. PLUS, like shah said, i don't have anyone to answer to. [actually, she was talking about loner guy. but i think it applies to me too. haha.] yup. this one looks like the baik type actually. i'm really curious to know what that's like. the baik type, i mean. so it should be even more fun.

smalam i committed a cardinal sin. i'm really sorry, but i just had to! i was at the forum, on the way to the lib, and i passed by the iscream yoghurt stall! i almost died of kempunan-ness, longing and ecstasy. and i found atikk in the library, so we went back downstairs and got one each. unfortunately, the forum kan ramai orang, so yeah, everyone saw us purchasing food. ohWELLS. sorry. it was my last day, so enjoying it while it lasted. kalau nak tunggu si baba berlunch ngan aku, sampai lain tahun pon aku tak makan sey.

i gots to be on my way to school soon. which means i gots to siap soon. malas sey. can't wait for tmr. i can just relek2 at home. doing nothing. as always. the only time i do anything productive is in the train, and like i said yesterday, i can't exactly take the train back and forth from boon lay for like 8 hours straight, can i?

ohWELLs. i'll be seeing freakazoid in a couple of hours. TAK interested man!

i woke up late again this morning. pasal smalam i went to geylang with nan, shima, shasha, her husband and 2 of their friends. we didn't get home tt late lah, about 1 in the morning, but somehow i couldn't wake up for sahur anyway. i had a great time, btw. we saw like a billion cute guys. like this tall blonde one wearing a cool sleeveless tshirt and just looking very hot, at one of the 24-hr coffeeshops. his friend's car was parked right next to us, so we got to see them drive off. oh and this smouldering vik-looking guy sitting about 5 metres directly infront of me, and we exchanged stares. haha. AND ahmad latiff, who's also bleached blonde, and has the greatest calves ever bestowed upon man.

ah and on the way to skl there was this cute talldarkhandsome vik in the train in a red shirt and who smells really enticingly of adzfar/clinique happy. hahaha. it took me back to days of tarian at odd hours of the night, seeing OM after training, etc. very fun days, those were.

wah smalam lepas buker tros tido sey. camna tak gemok? and then i cldn't even wake up for sahur, and i vaguely remember answering a call from hannan in the middle of the night [?], although i don't really rem what was exchanged. haha.

and then today i went to geylang in the afternoon with my mom and mak. [btw, they're 2 different people. one's my mom. the other's my aunt. ANYWAYS.] we met syida and her parents in the bus. and we all spent the journey catching up. i was a tad jealous to hear that her [cute arab] boyfriend was bukaing at her house tonight. but owells. takder orang nak aku.

geylang was fine. i got 2 new bajus. should be enough i suppose. but neither of them are skl-wearable. so. yeah. takkan nak pakai aku nyer sky-blue one tak abis2, nanti mubs ingat aku dier nyer baju soulmate. there was this REALLY NICE lace one i would have killed for, except it cost $250 and well, some human lives are worth less than that. i wanted to get a black one!!! so that during jalan raya, i have 70% more chances of finding a baju kurung soulmate!!! tapi takder yg caught my fancy so yeah. and then we went to the pasar, and i actually saw a cute guy who was there with his parents. naturally, he was looking at me too, since people like me ARE a rare sight in pasar geylang. i was thanking God that i was wearing three-quarters and my nonslip slippers. hahaha. yeah anyway he was cute, and i'd bet my 2 new bajus that he's really nice too. since he was at the pasar and all. ohwells.

next time if i'm feeling up to it i shall attempt to follow my mom to the pasar again and look for cute guys. hahaha.

and then balek aku tido lagi, bukaed, watched confessions of a teenage drama queen, and we went to loyang point where i rented.. erm, i can't rem what i rented. there was a cute guy at sheng siong. but i think he was with his wife. ohWELL. ohYAH i rented you got served, X-Men 1.5 and one more i can't rem. so nampaknyer i'll be ponning wed again to habiskan the dvds. hahahaha.

okay i'm gonna start now, bye.