okay. idol half-time analysis. haha. i am so voting for beverly man! i love her! shez so cool and cute and i really love her voice! congrats to haizad for singing one of my favourite songs of all time, and also one of the sweetest songs known to man.. but yah he appears to mumble alot. itz quite annoying. how many chances does he get before he'll sing properly? dunno whether to vote or not. shirin was quite cute also, maybe i'll vote her.. anyway did u know the singapore idol official website is not the mediacorp one? yah. acherli itz this starhub website. billions of videos, articles, and photos. so. yes. go check it out! and sign up, tt way yu get to view the videos. there are 4 of david de cruz alone!
yes. seeing samit this morning. i woke up at 6. tapi dunno why i was malas. so i asked my mom to wake me up again at 7. [in tt one hour of sleep i had this beyond-freaky dream about baba and 2 guys. one of the guys acherli exists, but the other one i've never met before. ANYWAY.] somehow i was all ready and packed by 8. but i wanted to miss the bus crowd. or so i thought. so i watched sum hallmark movie for half an hour and left the house at 830, and YES the bus was NOT crowded! and who was sitting in the front seat? samitttttt!!! i'm almost convinced it was fate. i managed to get one photo of him. back view, as usual. but it was closer than the first one! omg samit you rock! hez like the handsomest guy in the planet!!! i swear. he was reading today, then after he finished he watched CNA on tvmobile, and i cld see his profile, his long lashes, his chiselled face, like wow!
[eh you know wat, sylvester just performed and hez really quite good after all!]
the airport niari tak ramai orang, cos it was raining. soopa heavily. takpe. the less people, the better. however there was this pair of girl friends who were doing some aggressive active depression. a sample: "i'm just so tired these days.." "yah i'll be studying until 3, and then i really can't do anything more.." "i just have no energy for anything now.." erm, heLLO!!! they were sitting right next to me! can't you see i'm studying here? like sengajer sey! kurang asam! so i stuffed my headphones back in to block them out. like seriously, they were talking relatively loudly. shut up sial! okay, at the same time i was feeling skared tt i'd be like that a couple of years down the road. but most people live for now, so i was more annoyed than skared.
i now know what ivan meant about voting everyone just to be fair. i have 4 votes to use this week [cos i din vote last week]. howww...

Yaarrrh! Itz samit again! Confirm dier kerje kat airport! He juz finishd readg today, now hez watchg cna. Omg samit u rock!

i was soopa productive today! haha. or maybe i just feel tt way cos i kept on writing and writing.. and punching numbers in the calculator. there was no one interesting today. just more airport mats. and tt cute mj vik frm yest. itz all so nice and empty right up till 1pm.. wow.. so the only distractions will be toilet urges. haha.
ivan seems extremely communicative these days. i bet itz all the studying he does. hahaha. it can seriously unhinge minds, this studying.
oh i just watched american psycho 2: all-american girl. mila kunis is so HOT! she's really cute and all small and brunette and exotic.. she was born in ukraine.. and shez 3 yrs older than me. tt wld be.. 21! yup.
okay whatever i'm really tired. and hungry. but kan't eat till tmr morning! oh i got this postcard just now frm nickelodeon. it was advertising this way cool event called "let's just play!" on 2 october, somewhere near bugis. i really hope i kan go!!! should be fun.. i mean, it won't ALL be kids right?

just wanted to drop a line before i *sigh* go and study. yest xfren talked to me! we were on the same train and he got out closer to the escalator, but he waited for me outside his door, and then we walked together and he started talking to me.. cool sey.. i mean, wat a friendly gesture. haha.
also, filza and i were on 359 home and we saw arman crossing the road. woohoo! presumably frm taking 12 home frm skl. whatever. he rox!
i had this odd dream involving baba, fana, a catwalk and an old friend. haha. nightmare, actually. okay. bye.

heyhey.
maths was freakishly doable. haha. anyway i went to the airport after skl like i planned. no one much, really. there were these 2 mats who were like, "blajar!!!" haha. and my study buddy came, like around 6. bodoh. i was getting ready to leave already! anyway, these stupid cj guys were like, exclaiming how he [study buddy] is at the airport everyday and sniggering. sudahlah! what, like itz wrong to study at the airport? does he bother people? no. so leave him alone! whatever sial.
ANYWAY, the thing that hit me was he was wearing an rj tshirt!!! haha. like wow. obviously hez not frm my skl or i woulda noticed him earlier. haha. but seriously. hez so cute and adorable and pink, who wouldn't notice him? so i guess he got his friend to buy it for him or something, and wears it out, like i wear my saints tshirts. haha. but wow he looks so cute, and like there was a connection between us just now! so.. bagoslah.. haha.
fana's favourite shamo was working today. i was hungry and wanted to buy cheesesticks but i diden wanna go to the counter in case i saw him and i started laughing. i mean, takkan nak ketawe alone, buat malu je. haha. i met cik noliah in the toilet, with ema and era, and they gave me a lift home. which was great, at least i din hafta walk tt far.
ohno therez this cool virus movie playing on starmovies. how am i supposed to sleep? shit. well at least i won't be skared. yest i watched 3 cerita hantus and i couldn't go to sleep. the hindi one was my favourite, i forgot the title but the translation is fear is forbidden. cool sia. saif ali khan rox.

my cute study buddy was at the airport today! woohoo! hez so adorable!!! and tt chiam guy was there too. both studying alone. semangat sey. i'm malas to study alone on saturdays.
i'm so tired. dahlah i haf nothing more to say. baba n fana were offering ideas on how i kan talk to OM abt his bag. haha. klakar sial.

yoyoyo.
wow today was the exact opposite of yest!!! i studied and studied and studied until itz all coming out of my ears! the manjen skaterboi was there. hez really cute. and he was alone for a long time also, and these 2 cute little malay boys like, kept kacauing him. they sat at his table, and talked to him, and threw things under his table. and even though he looks so garang and everything, he acherli layaned them! it was soooo cute. as in, the boys, him, and basically the whole situation ah. i was like smiling to myself. haha. oooh and lisa came for lunch with her friends.. haha. she looked surprised to see me again. there were childcare kids also, but this time, they were really cute and lawar! i think they're like, anak expats.. lotz of beautiful, mixed faces and non-Singaporean names like Yuki, Elliot, Aidan.. Yuki was my fav [name]. wow. i'd love for my anak[s] to look liddat.
anyway then i got home, bummed, and went for tuition. another last-minute thing, which i've decided not to refuse since itz almost like money dropping into your lap. i said "almost". the pri 5 boys were exceptionally rowdy today!!! i wanted to kill myself. well, at least you kan't say i diden earn the money. but yu know what? i was stressing as usual, what to do with them and stuff, but rupernyer itz not tt hard. when yu're infront of them all liddat, it juz comes naturally, that you know what to do. haha. well. whatever. itz still tiring. espesh for my throat/salivary glands. i think yu kan make lotsa money selling thirst-quenching drinks to teachers/tutors. i was dying after half an hour. you hafta talk nonstop, and add in the occasional shout and stuff. urgh.
ivan n i had one of those rare sms conversations today about idol. hez all for haizad and shirin. haha. i'm all for taufik now. haizad was abit annoying tt time when he argued with the judges. although he looked great last night. like wow. but taufik!!! he sang my girl!!! i love that song! i kan't figure out if i love the song or the movie more, but i really love them both!!! hebat seyyy. anyway, ivan is like, semangat giler. he plans to vote all the malays next week, "to be fair". therefore running up a huge phone bill. haha. funny. well, i love to see ppl tagging, love y'all!
more studying coming up tmr. itz the last bout of studying before prelims officially starts [by my definition]. eeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.

guess what i did today. nothing!!!! my mom woke me up at 6, and i couldn't take it, i juz turned off the light and went back to sleep. sorry man, i'm just too tired these days. i don't even know why. itz not like i've been super-active these past few days. and that sunburn seems to be the most serious sunburn of my lifetime. itz peeling rather grossly now. eew.
oh and wow amazingly, they chose haizad for wildcard!!! haha. looks like we'll get to see THAT much more of him. ooh and he looked really great tonight.. wow. and it appears tt all the malays got in! hebattt... haha. i diden vote today. i'm saving it for next week.. woohoo!

i'm watching the alien hindi movie on sctv. haha. wow hrithik rocks man! his eyes are soooooo captivating!
anyway, yest there was this boy who rollerbladed through mac's flapping his arms like wings. baba and i were just dying of laughter. and i got sunburned frm tt 1 hour of swimming! how is tt possible? i thot it was just a rash yest, but today itz painful and pedih, and i just put the cream, and it was juz stinging like siao.
today bynk orang cute. haha. the one on top was the highlight. i would say hez cuter than the ramli sarip guy. anyway this one's in SP. he was studying really diligently, alone! and hez a vik, his hair is like longish, and at first we couldn't decide if he looked 18 or 38. after like 15 minutes, me and fana decided we liked him. hahah. hez not conventionally cute or anything, but he has SUCH a baik face!!! like so decent and nice.. so i decided to call him dev. we were trying to think of ways to like, ambik nice upclose shots of him, but settled for the 4 fotos tt we accumulated over the couple of hours he was there. and when he left, we diden see!!! cos this stupid isky's-fren-lookalike [we kall him "wak"] got up and we turned to look at him, and at the same moment dev left!!! anyway yah after tt si wak had the NERVE to occupy the same table dev just vacated!!! tembak..
there was this cute beng who sat next to me in the bus. u noe, one of the pink shirt variety. at first i put my bag next to me. then i shifted it to my lap. and he sat down, and sed "thanks"!!! wow. how.. polite! then later he was playing with the garfield tissue can with his friends and it hit me and landed next to me, and he said sorry!!! yes.. nice guy.. haha.
i'm really tired. lots more studying tmr.. byez.. ooh hrithik is soooo cute!!!
ohwait i juz remembered.. fana has a crush on another of my fellow rafflesians.. who's NOT a vik! haha. klakar.

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lapar ah. but therez nth i feel like eating.
anyway studying today was quite okay, i finished my organic revision tutorials, all of them, and marked them too! haha. then.. oh jeremy came and talked for a few minutes.. and we went swimming in the morning [as in, me and BABA], it was really fun, tapi cuma sempat swim for 1 hr ah.. sayang.. but how fun! i swear i'm more tanned now. haha. even though it was only one hr.
FINALLY the mcfly cd is out! i can't wait to scrape up enuff money to buy it. and just now i almost went nuts in popular cos i found a mag with them on the cover!!! but it was like $6.90!!! banyak duit aku.. nak makan pon takder duit seyy. so. yah. we'll hafta scrape up money for tt too. hm.
saw quite alot of rj ppl today.. there was tt guy frm 3c.. and celene's bf.. and tt cute j1 guy.. who came to like, bacer suratkhabar.
lapar ah. i'll go scavenge for food in a minute. and wow i'm racking up the mcdonald's points like a pro!!! haha. k, i'm out.

hahha. i'm watching friends now. the girl acting as erica is really cute!!! shez also the girl who was the hot chick's best friend, april. shez soooo cute!!! wow.

yoyoyoz..
it was a nice day today. if yu overlook the fact tt i hadta wake up at 8. no, 745. man i hate waking up early. but i'll be doing tt for the next week ah.. i'm watching monsoon wedding again. it definitely rates as one of my all-time favourite movies. itz not draggy and looooong like certain hindi movies which will will remain unnamed. haha.
anyway. i woke up. then we went for breakfast at mac's. then we hung around for like 15 minutes at the top floor. i got a cute pair of earrings!!! they're colourful concentric hearts. is there such a thing? and they're abit senget, not perfect hearts. haha. stella paid for them, it was so nice of her. and then we watched the movie, face. it wasn't bad since both my brother and i closed my eyes whenever the threatening music came on, and then afterwards we asked, "aper? aper?" anyway it was equal parts hantu and murder mystery so it was okaylah. after tt my brother went off to the army open hse, and my mom kept looking at his friends.. protective, much? yah. the rest of us went jalan2ing. lego clikits has a whole new range of stuffs! therez a kit for a bag, one for this pink purse, and a couple for skl stuff like pencil cases, rulers etc. i wanna get all of those!!! espesh the stationery kit!!! imagine using a nice pink flowery ruler for maths 'a' levels! funn.. but no, i diden get any toys this time. haha. oooh and winx club has this amazing range of merchandise!!! they have really cool bags and even shoes for little kids.. and wow the bags are really nice.. but no, i din get any bags either. i did get a pair of indigo-wash jeans and a purple top from bossini. there were sum nice jeans at giordano, but they were amazingly low rise, and the waistbands like, were gaping at my so-called waist cos of my uniquely huge ass. i almost got a nice pair of butterfly sandals frm bata but they were like 48 bucks, after discount! takyah ah. so thatz all i got.
u noe my mom says "fuck"? hahah. i swear. she said it to me like twice today. in an actual conversation. she was talking about how there are many malay guys who "fuck around". i thot i heard her wrongly the first time. but really, i din!!! haha. anyway, i told her about wanting my belly button pierced, and she was like, you have to ask ur dad about tt. TANAK AH! haha.
shit man. u kan't start studying again if yu lose ur momentum. okay. takper. start again.

i spent all day bumming around at home. hey, i deserve it, been studying all week! there was tt cool hindi movie this afternoon, tehzeeb. it was about a mother-daughter relationship. and arjun rampal is so hot! hahaha. now i'm watching eddie's million dollar cookoff. hahah. itz pretty cool, and eddie and his 2 brothers are so cute! plus itz all about food, itz like eating without getting fat. okay ttz dumb. and right after this is the guru. another of those NC-16 movies i missed out on. so. here i come!
itz like we're running out of time. i wish it would go more slowly. and more quickly at the same time.

initiate sms exchange.
10:03pm ivan: i think haizad imram is so hot!
me: Yeah me too.. But tt was kinda abrupt.. Well, too bad hez out..
10:08pm ivan: heh because i just saw him on 8days and i thought you'd think so too. yea keep muggin.
end sms exchange.
hahahaha. ivan, you r so merepek!

heyya.
that sounds happy. i'm not really, acherli. anyway today there was a cute guy in the morning.. wearing a nice crisp white shirt and jeans. manjen. he looks like a cute renji. note: i sed CUTE renji. haha.
nothing much happened larh. i'm really sick of studying already. baru 2 days in a row. dah nak give up. but really. itz so annoyingly tiring. and i've even lost my appetite. i get home, stuff in a few grains of rice, and stone infront of the tv. and the laptop/comp, of cos. haha. well. memandangkan my current weight, i'd say ttz a good thing. haha. so studies, do your thing.
now i rem what happened today. i got suaned, ttz wat. today was one of the worst! no, no, it wasn't sum ex-RI loser. it was those 2 idiots, baba n fana. they derive an evil pleasure out of making fun of OM. i will never forget tt hari raya joke. eeeyer. tak klakar sey. okay, meybe itz ABIT funny. but itz not TT funny. well. fana sed tt they can only stop if i stop liking him, which, according to her, is not gonna happen. haha. whatever. these days he seems like fresh news all over. dunno y. last night i couldn't sleep and i read the obs diary. hahaha. it was.. funny in an off way. after reading 3 pages i decided i shd just save it for this december. then it'll be exactly 1 year since i last wrote it. but i managed to glean sum info frm the first 3 pages: he smiled at me on the first day. haha. wow. i forgot about tt. doesn't tt juz show how nice he is? ok. i'll stop. promise. i'll stop now.
watching hannibal now! i wasn't 16 then. and i only cheated my way thru 1 movie: monsoon wedding. which i've watched 3 more times since. hahaha. oh tmrz the guru. i tried to watch tt too, in SEC FOUR. i said "tried". so. yah. i'll watch it this time.
the ikea catalog came today. i've GOT to stop thinking about furniture and houses and soundtracks! hahaha.
i listened to the diary of alicia keys like 5 times today. merepek. as in me. not her. itz really really nice. everything's nice! i kan't wait to buy mcfly though. anyone finds it, plz tell me!

bayu, move aside. there's a new hot iranian/persian/whatever guy in town! haha. no, i dunno his name. no, i dunno where he goes to skl. i'm not even sure if he goes to skl in singapore. hahaha. i was at the airport this morning, and then he came! with his family. hez tall, at least. and his head is proportionate to his body, at least. he has completely black hair, really dark eyes, was wearing all black, and basically, he looks smoulderingly good. haha. no idea how old he is, though. maybe 18-21. haha.
i lost my ring. itz a silly and painful story. so i'm not gonna relate it. for those who know the origins of the ring, ure prolly thinking, "padan muker!" well. i dunno. maybe. but it did mean alot to me. because it gave the world a very useful illusion. and it was a perfect fit, too! and it was just nice, discreet, constant accessory i could wear even in skl. and i used to fiddle with it, or take it off and look at it, and everything. i was really sad just now, i almost cried. but now i'm a little better. i think it'll take me a while, but i'll get over it. i will.

top ten most annoying things when i'm studying alone
1. couples who PDA
2. noise. [btw, therez a distinction btwn noise and music. but ttz a subjective concept, of course.]
3. idiot strangers staring
4. needing to go to the toilet but my mp3 player hasn't finished playing yet
5. being sleepy
6. being bored

oh, forget it. i can't think of the rest. itz just that i was bothered by numbers 1 and 3 just now. this couple was sitting at the next table, and the girl kept on staring at me!!! boyfriend dier tak pasal, dier yang melebih. whatever. it was really annoying me. shez sum tpjc girl, i think. am i so interesting tt she has to keep looking at me? in between PDA-ing with her bf, tt is. eee. so, i left as soon as i could.

awww... haizad tak masok... look at him, so cute!!! sedih sey..
but congrats to christopher! heheh.

haha. i saw joy at the airport yest. in fact, she sat next to me. hahah. but i diden tegur her. we weren't exactly best friends, even though she sat next to me in class. ANYWAY. we were having lunch, at one of the outside tables, and the guy from the bus walked past! and he saw me! and he smiled at me! woohoo! haha. k whatever. i blahed at 830, cos of this stupid guy who resembles this other stupid guy, who was still studying there. we kalled him sharp, and baba was like, "he sounds like a tv!" anyway, so i just HAD to watch the vcd when i got home, so i turned it on at around 9-plus. i was juz watching it alone at first, then my dad and brother came and joined me! i guess gangs of new york is sum kinda guy movie. anyway, it was HOW bloody long! we finished watching at 12.. but itz really nice, abit the violent, but really really nice.. and it has some history bits in it and stuff, really cool. and irish accents are damn cool sey! except leo's accent was abit off. anyway, it was nice overall, daniel day-lewis is so hateable there!!! espesh when he literally knifed the poor barber in the back!!! sedih.
today was.. ohyah gp paper. oklah. i finished it like 12 minutes early, for paper 1, and i was so skared, cos that never happens. so. i wrote to myself on the qn paper. haha. bored. after tt me n munz went to the weights room. wow. i muz be really unfit, cos i was totally dying after the 20 min run. and all pink. or red. or whatever. and there were all these physics idiots who have lockers in the sports block. doofus was annoyingly kepo. sheesh. stop looking down and go for ur physics paper la.. tembak.. yah anyway nice day larh.. train was empty and all, and there were these cute little gmss minimats spraying their hair purple. cute sey.
speaking of younger guys, arman reappeared! on monday morning, i think. or was it tuesday morning? well whatever, he reappeared on 359. hez even thinner now! but still looks good.
u noe wad, haizad's performance was sadly uninspiring. i diden even understand the first few lines he sang, and i love that song, really. christopher michael was great though. all sincere and cute. well. we'll see, yah?
oh the little AIDS-stricken boy they're showing on tv, hez really really adorable!!! hehehe. how old is he? 4 rite? i like the long hair and all, he looks so cheerful.

Omg! Ok, not really. But still. The hottest vik in my estate was in 53! Hez talldarkhandsome w gd music taste n smells gd too! Wow. He has a funky watch n an ornamental ring on his left fourth finger. Oh n there was this burger lookalike w his dad, tapi dier dah blah. Haha.