old geezers should sadar diri, or be shot.

case #1: we were at taha's traffic light [cehdehbah macam some new club je] waiting to cross and the grossest pakcik made a fucking wide right turn on his bike--ending up really close to us--and winked as he passed. wthhhh. i didn't hesitate, and turned with a beauty of a middle finger. amek kau obat! i hope he saw it in the mirror or something. *glares*

case #2: we were walking past the flats next to TRL to the interchange. and SOME old geezer of a pakcik stood there next to his bike and STARED blatantly at us. um, hello, i have eyes. arghhhh kalau tua kerepot nak mampos tu, sadarlah diri sikit.

*%$&%&(*^%&^$&^%.

anyways. on to happier times. [HAPPIER TIMES!!!] i was sitting at the reporting area, waiting for pract to start. there was this 2A/2 manjen dude sitting a seat away from me. [the seat in between was empty.] and he kept staring at my hand. [there's a henna tattoo on it.] after awhile he just looked directly at me and said, "you're heartbroken issit?" and i was like, "ohmigod! umm.. haha.. it's nothing.. it's just for fun..!" i was so embarrassed. i dunno. it was all blurred already, i didn't expect him to be able to read it. now he thinks i'm a loserette who wears her heart on her sleeve [in this case, the back of her hand].

i have NO idea why that was categorized under "happier times", haha. but u know. it wasn't unpleasant. haha.

yeah i would think that's it for today. nites.

"Eh aku nak yang tu. Yang pakai baju."

"Ooooh he's so cute. His name can be 'Ge' so i can call him 'Bangga'."

i KNOW, right?

followed nat to CDC, where i saw fai, AGAIN. aperni??? two days in a row? macam sial. he didn't see me, once again. anyway i don't know what would happen if he saw me. so apaperlahs. then we met our friend!!! he's taking driving now, after having passed his 2B. hehe. he's SO freaking adorable laaaa. love the smile. love it.

then kiter gi tampines, had lunch at KFC, where we bumped into the two cute judges from Cakap Petah. yay. so i like, said hi to them. lamely, of course. but anyway. a "hi" is a "hi" no matter how lame it is.

after that we went to PRCL pasal TRL was closed in preparation for Polling Day. there were so many books i wanted to borrow. bodoh nyer loan limit. don't you know people are free giler now, and can prolly finish 16 books in a week? relek suaaa. thenthenthennnn we went downstairs and i talked to bun for awhile. ahhhhh bunnnnnn. he's SOOOOO cute laaaaa. i love his voice. i love his eyebrows. i love the intonation and inflection when he talks. i love his goatee. i love his hair. i REAAAAALLLYYYY miss working with him. ohWELL. bye bun. biler2 kiter bebual lagi lah. not that we have much to talk about. haha.

we were walking towards the int when i became very aware of the two guys walking behind us. rupernyer BAIK GUY & KASHBIRRRRR!!! <3 pasir ris is SO much more happening than i thought it was. =DDDDDDDDDD

wow. today was.. amazing. i'm prolly gonna ramble on and on, so chrono is prolly the way to go.

gen bio
wasn't too bad, i suppose. there were a few qns i couldn't do, even with the notes. plus i didn't manage to print the systematics/taxonomy/whatever notes, so i had to hentam all the kingdom-phylum-whocares questions. genes textbook was a lifesaver, btw. i now <3 my genes textbook. haha. padahal, tadi blah siang, and dumped all the notes inside the locker.

train ride to bugis
featured this uber-cute ITE mat from clementi. i <3<3<3<3 ITE mats! [yeah like no one knows THAT.] anyways he was wowwowWOW with smooth nat-like hair that all but covered his two single-pierced ears, with a silver earring in each. and all tall and slim, and his face is, by itself, lawar. indie, phi and erm.. bulat. haha.

had lunch
at eatz'19. it's quite nice. sikit though, i think. but whatever. it was fun. it was cool. and yeah. shades-businessman-guy was cute. well after that we just kinda walked all over the world, it seemed, until finally we landed at marina square, got lost at the furniture-and-bridal section of the mall, and ended off with yummy cold stuff from venezia.

orchard
where baba nat and i lepaked at lido, which was SO BLOODY empty and un-happening except for harry potter and his gang. then we went to far east, and i got a new shibuya top! woohoo! it was only 20 bucks, so it wasn't THAT bad right? [wait till you see what happens next.] anyway then we decided to split cos three dodols wanted to go home/to RGS/jumpa mak diorang. so nat and i went to check out

forever 21 and topshop
as usual. at topshop, i found this pair of grey skinny jeans and another pair of black skinny-fit jeans THAT ACTUALLY FIT ME! come on, forgive me for what i did next but i had to! after much deliberation, and traipsing around the shop barefoot, and jumping up and down in the changing cubicle to check the better fit, i decided on the grey ones. i <3 my new jeans!

cantik kan cantik kan cantik kan? i was lounging around in them just now until my mom knocked on the door. so to avoid awkward questions, i scrambled out of the jeans as fast as i could. haha. [by the way, the answer to one of those awkward questions is: $96.]

lido mac's
where we rested our aching stalks [kaki lah!] and derrieres and exercised our eyes. guess who i saw? [besides fai--not ***rul---that is. :S] herizal!!! [he's my primary school friend, for the uninformed.] and wow he actually recognised me from 50m away. so he like, waved. TOtally!!!

finally
we dragged our sorry butts off the wicker/rattan/whatever chairs and headed home. and guess who we saw at the mosaic mural??? well i saw him first. even though it was already like, 8-ish, and therefore really dark. somehow i STILL managed to see HIM first, even though there was a manjen dude with them too. see, there were these four guys. one was wearing a yellow tshirt and a cap. you could hardly see his face for all it was worth. and i smiled at him and said, "hi!" it was OM!!! then we macam, exchanged news of our respective whereabouts [while nat made merry with ashraf, haha]. wow. he's in airforce now. coolness. and he thought i was in NTU, for some odd reason or other. anyways. THAT was cool.

ohandinthetrainithinkisawtheguywholiketookourphotostheothertime
butanywayhegotoffatcityhallsoapaperlah.

oh and THIS is my latest luka, from where i fell at the E-brake:

tatatititutuuuuuu.

*yeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

two cute guys in the library!!! *jumps around* [they're manjen though, but HEY, i take what i can get.]

toodles.

beautiful day. and today's security person at the desk is really nice. one of those fair tudunged ladies. i staggered towards her with my laptop, adapter and revlon bag and she was like, "okay darling!" haha. and you know, it's all sunny and stuff. STILL no cute guys, but what did i expect, coming here, right?

[and i wish that totally uncute guy would stop walking in front of me.]

i had a dream involving ms lee [carlyn] last night. wth. OBVIOUSLY a sign that bio is getting to me. ohyeah there was also a guy who resembled daniel. haha.

i don't know why but i love this song.

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse.
Barely stuttered out, "A joke of a romantic," stuck to my tongue.
Weighed down with words too over-dramatic.
Tonight it's "It can't get much worse" vs. "No one should ever feel like..."

I'm two quarters and a heart down.
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds.
These words are all I have so I'll write them.
So you need them just to get by.

(whispered part - Pete)
We're going into B-minor.

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time.
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead.
Dance
This is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me.

You always fold just before you're found out.
Drink up it's last call, last resort, but only the first mistake.

I'm two quarters and a heart down.
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds.
These words are all I have so I'll write them.
So you need them just to get by.

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine,
You've been saving for his mattress, love.

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time.
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead.
Dance
This is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me.

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine,
You've been saving for his mattress.
I only want sympathy in the form of you,
Crawling into bed with me.

Dance, Dance
We're falling apart to half time.
Dance, Dance
And these are the lives you'd love to lead.
Dance
This is the way they'd love. (Way they'd love.)
Dance
This is the way they'd love. (Way they'd love.)
Dance
This is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me.

Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance
Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boy

i watched The Wild yesterday. turns out it's not as similar to Madagascar as i'd thought. i guess animators just generalise lions to be the most personable of all zoo-kept animals. i dunno. but HELL the pigeons are hilarious. and the soundtrack's great too. i love the lifehouse song. or whatever it is.

ANYWAYS. i was at the cine-heeren traffic light junction, and i met ANAN, my adorable-beyond-adorable junior from rj!!! he was with his mom--totally laaaaaa. hahha. well i said hi, and talked abit, and he still looks the same! and yeah then on the way home i was remembering the first time i saw him, and all the merepek things i bought for him, back when he was my mortal. haha. okay whatever. aku giler.

i woke up late today, so tak sempat gi library. maybe tomorr-AH. watched Mermaidia instead. haha. it's quite nice, after all.

i've been fucking bored all day, excuse my french.

and while i was watching some lame movie on 58 outside [in the living room], kak yuyut and kak pipit came by with their respective anaks. kak yut has one and kak pipit has two. i swear the babies are just gorgeous. and kak yut looks great. i can't believe we used to play together like a decade ago, and now both are married with children. i got so sad and depressed, cos i wanna be married with kids too.

after that i shut myself in my room and watched Transamerica. it's quite cool, actually. there are some really funny bits. but oh God, i was SO disturbed by the scene where toby was in the back of the truck with the dirty old man. i swear, it just burned my eyes. how could anyone--ANYONE!--do that?!?!? but you know. it's definitely not one of those ditzy chickflicks i usually watch.

iwannagooutifeellikei'minjail.

it was chinese today. pretty alright, i guess. HATED the compo though. and there were some parts i totally DID NOT GET, but i filled everything up in the end. it was facking cold though, and poor thaiguy next to me was audibly shivering and it was all i could do not to offer to share my jacket. haha. he was adorable, by the way. he jumped over the two rows of seats cos he was too malas to walk around to the back. but damn his phone kept vibrating. annoying, much? but otherwise, cute. oooOOOooo and virgin was there too! TOTALLY. i had NO idea he was taking chinese too! mannn is he hot or WHAT. i swear, i kept staring at him. [i think nat and i were strategically placed, cos everytime we looked at each other, we got to see BOTH guys cos they were like in between. besss. so we kept grinning at each other and making funny faces and shit. i tell you, arts exams ROCK.] there was one point where he was leaning back, and you could TOTALLY see his pecs through the tshirt! i nearly fainted.

sigh. okay now i really have to get to it. physical chem AND genes on thursday, i am completely and utterly doomed. gotta hit the airport tomorrow, cos

bye friends.

I've been really tryin', baby
Tryin' to hold back this feelin' for so long
And if you feel like I feel, baby
Then come on, oh come on
Let's get it on, oh baby
Let's get it on
Let's love, baby
Let's get it on
Sugar, let's get it on

We're all sensitive people
With so much to give
Understand me, sugar
Since we got to be here
Let's live
I love you

There's nothing wrong with me lovin' you, baby no no
And givin' yourself to me could never be wrong
If the love is true, oh baby

Don't you know how sweet and wonderful
Life can be
I'm asking you baby
To get it on with me

I ain't gonna worry
I ain't gonna push
I won't push you baby
So come on, come on, come on, come on, come on baby
Stop beatin' round the bush

Let's get it on
Let's get it on
You know what I'm talkin' about
Come on baby, hey girl
Let your love come out
If you believe in love
Let's get it on
Let's get it on, baby
This minute, oh yeah
Let's get it on
Please get it on

So come on, come on, come on, come on, come on darlin'
Stop beatin' 'round the bush

Gonna get it on
I wanna get it on
You don't have to worry that it's wrong
If the spirit moves ya
Let me groove ya... good

Let your love come down
Get it on, come on baby -Marvin Gaye

(+)
i dropped by NTUC before going home just now. and i spent $29.90!!! aper niiiii... all i wanted to buy was some shampoo--ended up buying a $12.95 bottle of shampoo, the corresponding conditioner AND some hair serum. aku giler. i'm probably the only person [other than shafa] i know who turns an NTUC visit into a shopping spree. :S

i was quite hurt/disappointed/mad that loner guy didn't show up today. he's not dead--i know that much--so i really wonder what could be wrong. but whateverlah. i'm not really in a position to wonder about him anyway.

anyways, guess who sat next to me for the paper? the same guy who was candlelighting with me for the lab sessions!!! ya Allah. is this another cruel and odd twist of fate? dahlah we were wearing the same colour combination. what are the odds man, what are the odds. nasib baik i didn't just burst out laughing there.

then i rushed home and back out. the concert was great. yup. no cute guys, i mean, it's an angklung concert, what do you expect?!?!?!

cute guy in the train this afternoon. nice striped long-sleeved shirt, khaki-mustard-coloured pants, white canvas shoes, and a very antagonistic face. plus he even looks like hello kitty, a little. he got off at kallang though.

and what do you know, we actually took the same train back!!! amazing. this would be where i proclaim, "IT'S FATE!" but sorry, he was with his girl.

ohwell, that's life.

perfumes was.. erm, okay. i hope i pass. cos like, there were alot of things i couldn't do. i knew more stuff than i didn't, but still.

i was walking past bras basah complex, and as usual, checking out the bikes. i saw a Ducati!!! a Monster 400, FN-FP plate, tak ingat. but wow. i know it's not a sportsbike, but it's still a Ducati, and it was just sitting there, barely a metre away from me, and it took every last ounce of self-control i had not to go any closer and run my hands all over it. mmmmm.

anyways. i'd like to thank Baba for putting up with me this afternoon. i kinda went schizo and she had to rein me back in. not that SHE'S completely siuman herself, as evidenced by this statement she made:

4/20/2006 5:27:27 PM self-destructive impulses : kau kencing ke kau brew kau nyer kencing into wine?

i KNOW, right?

okay cepatcepat gtg i don't think i'll be able to finish today howwwwwww.

and there's actually a cute guy here, on MY side of the library! this mim dude in a cap and well, now he's sleeping to the music from his laptop.

since there were a few glaring errors in baba's post yesterday regarding Asian Wonder Woman, i shall post the true dialogue here:

guy wearing aforementioned T-shirt walks by.
me: ah, pon bes pe, baju kau!
baba: ah, pon pompan pe kau!

---

yeah so anyway. i went to blendinn for the first time yest. haikal's friend is still cute, i have to admit. and he's pretty friendly too. and he remembers me. wow. totally la. i had to like, check that my mouth was closed every few seconds, kalau tak i'd be openly drooling. and he wasn't the only hot one around. there was this other guy, pun macam vik-ish sikit, and all casually dressed, and all cool-jambangy, big eyes, dark hair, etc. i swear he's so hot like you wouldn't believe. plus his name is only an alphabet away from mine. haha! cos he like, held out his hand and introduced himself, and i was like, "ain." and he was like, "huh?" [okay fine i know no one gets this, but takper.]

ohwell. that's about as exciting as my life got. :(

i don't normally like to do this [post videos], but..

it's weird--i failed pract 5 with 20 points and an immediate failure, but i'm still :DDDDDDDDD

know why know why know why know why???






well it's pretty obvious, isn't it? it has to be because of a guy!

he was having revision circuit with me too, and he smiled at me when i ter-blocked his way because i fell at the crank course. i'd met him before, a couple of times, and during a particularly bad pract 3 [in which i fell like EVERY TIME], he soliticiously asked if i was okay, etc. so he actually remembered me!!! yay.

anyway i kept on falling during the last 30 minutes of revision circuit, and so after that i went to the toilet to clean my wounds, and when i came back, most of the people were gone, but he was still there. and as i was making my way to my bag, he turned to me and started talking. something about, was i having pract 8 after that, and what time etc. so i sat down next to him and we just continued talking. FOR THE NEXT 45 MINUTES!!!

you know, stuff like what bike we're planning to get [he wants either a TZM or a 125Z], when we're planning to pass TP, normalnormal riding stuff, and about school and stuffs.

i couldn't tear my eyes off his eyelashes, which i SWEAR are so incredible. he's arab, which should explain it. hahaha. no but seriously. incredible lashes, framing heeeuuggge eyes. if you think mubs' or harun's lashes are great, you haven't seen NOTHING yet! his are all long like snuffleupagus' but they're not straight, they're beautifully curled in a way that NO mascara to date has achieved. [incongrous thought: we should so totally have kids--they'd be so lawar that people will be BEGGING us to procreate sampai my legs koyak. haha.] plus his cute shaggy hair and everything [he used to be botak though]--he's adorable.

and he was like, "your mom is malay eh?" cos he thought i was like, serani or something!!! what IS it about me? i used to think guys [ishmael, azy, fan, etc] only said that to menggatal, but u know, obviously that wasn't his intention so.. i dunno.

he's nice. and friendly. he has like loads of friends he made at CDC. all the pract 5 people, for example. and before he left, he said bye to me at the canteen! [i was this close to asking him to join me for a drink.] ah he's just too nice. a year younger, though. :( but he lives in tampines, AND he's an ITE mat, woohoo!

my favourite part of the whole thing is that he's seen me fall SO many times, in all positions and at all courses, but he STILL talks to me! like, you know, he's not thinking, slenger sey budak ni asyik jatuh je.. dahlah tanak bebual ngan dier. in fact, he actually told me about his own fall at the E-brake.

sorry i've been going on and on. it's pretty foretold i prolly won't see him again. or setakat hi-and-bye je.

sigh.

why are all the cute guys on the other side of the library??? bodoh.

sorry, i'm just taking a blogging break before i go back to work. haven't made much progress, as is usual for me at this time of the semester. but with any luck [and God's grace], i'll scrape through again. anyways i was at my bus stop this afternoon waiting for my bus, when i saw a cute guy in the other bus that was just waiting there. well i got to thinking that he looked kinda familiar. then i realised it was sirtinglesssssss!!! i nearly died. he's too hot. and he was just sitting there, reading a paper, in the bus that was just waiting at MY bus stop! [it was 81, btw. wonder where he was from. hm.] so since i couldn't deny my elation any longer, i smsed baba. and she replied with: aiyoo maybe its a sign tt u going to b his wife MADU! hahaha

-.-

thanks baba but i'll pass. on the madu part, i mean. if it was just "wife MADU", i completely would NOT mind. hahahaha.

the stress is getting to me. [even though i've hardly studied.] no, really. like last night i had a REALLY merepek dream about this guy [who shall remain unnamed to protect MY identity. haha.] and suddenly i was swimming down a river [can i swim?] and at the riverbank i realised i'd lost my $129 birkenstocks [which apparently i'd been swimming in] during the swim. and i was REALLY PISSED and kicking up a fuss, and all.

the night before that it was some feud with my brother, and basically it's been one merepek dream after another.

aperjeeeee.

She's got a ass like loaf of bread
You want a slice
But she's the girl you can take her home to mother
But she don’t want ya bread
Brother, ya betta think twice (twice)
See, ya can see the heat I will be her bottle

[Chorus]
(She's an angel) She's the girl, I want to share my dreams
(Oh, she's an angel) I don't care if she can't fly over things
(Ohhh! She's an angel) I don't care if ya can't see her wings
(Watch her flyyy, yeah, ohh oh)

She's in my dreams when I sleep, yeah yeah, whoa (whoa)
But when I wake she's gone so I weep, yeah yeah

[Chorus]
(She's an angel) She's the girl, I want to share my dreams
(Oh, she's an angel) I don't care if she can't fly over things
(Ohhh! She's an angel) I don't care if ya can't see her wings
(Watch her flyyy, yeah, ohh oh)

[Bridge]
"Hello, hey mom,
I love you too,
I'm just nervous about this girl
what do you think I should do?
I'm talking to her,
I'm here with her dad.
You sure?
I'ma do it now"

(Ding, dong)
Father can she hang with me tonight
To go to the mall, whoa oh (whoa)
I won't touch ya girl in your sight
Don't you see at all

[Chorus]
(She's an angel) She's the girl, I want to share my dreams
(Oh, she's an angel) I don't care if she can't fly over things
(Ohhh! She's an angel) I don't care if ya can't see her wings
(Watch her flyyy, yeah, ohh oh) -Pharrell

hardy has been torturing me worse and worse each week. today it actually progressed to physical abuse. which had me retaliating by kicking him dangerously close to his family jewels. haha. ohwell. if he weren't cute, he wouldn't be getting away with it.

i was chatting to baba about our first PHR, and raihan and berg_zerg and adil and all the other tarian guys. and we reminisced about the first combined tarian practice we had. it was in the then-newly-erected RGS gym, at the far end. i guess the hottest guy of the moment then was yazid, cos baba and i were arguing over who'd get him as her partner. well then the dance began, and from our positions and everything, it was pretty clear i'd get him as my partner, and i was all rejoicing inside, when BABA sengajerly and kurang-asam-ly cuts into the line so that SHE'D be the one in line to get him as her partner. i was fuming, i don't have to say. but u know, i couldn't just stand there fuming, so i went on"stage" in my new bumped-off position, and ended up having this not-so-bad-looking guy in specs as my partner. well, unfortunately [or fortunately, however you look at it], the choreography was obviously not complete yet, so we kinda stopped halfway, in our pairs. awkward, much? and my new partner seemed kinda quiet, so i was pleasantly surprised when he smiled sheepishly at me and said, "hi." so i said "hi" back! haha.

and of course by then i wasn't fuming anymore cos i was thinking about how nice that guy was.

it's funny how things turn out, isn't it? =DDDDDD

There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth
In your eyes

What an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it be this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along

There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along

There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you

But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
And it is you I have loved all along

And no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
It is you I have loved all along

Over and over I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins
And I am filled with the sweetest devotion
As I look into your perfect face

There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along - Dana Glover

i've been doing online quizzes and watching youtube videos ALL DAY LONG. with a little bit of cosmetics reading thrown in. somebody saaaaavvve me.

well i was waiting for subuh but i guess it came to me. just let me finish this first.

saw Jack [my hairdresser, not **dil***] today, and my hair's shorter and lighter, although it's not really visible to the naked eye. haha. or whatever. but i still love it.

dinner with atikk, di, nom-ha and sala at hazwani. sala is REALLY nice! haha. plus you know, we went to the same kindergarten and all, only one year apart. it also helps that he's in police, and he was wearing the shirt and pants book-in/out attire just now. dahlah aku kena boothseat ngan dier. dodol. anyways ATIKK, i really am sorry about the whole deserting-him-at-the-MRT-station thing. i SWEAR it wasn't on purpose. i REALLY hope he's not hurt/belittled/mad.

and then what i thought might be a great end to the night turned out quite shitty. in fact, i think the journey home was more fun than the time i spent there. for example, did you know that you can bersila in smrt buses? in fact, you can contort your entire body into a whole host of different positions to best suit your comfort level. cool huh? now you know.

but you know, saving graces existed. like the two cute mats who smiled at me and said bye when they left. and the friend of Wan MoS [forgot his name] i bumped into at the podium. he's adorable. [but old.] or maybe i just love the fact that he doesn't smoke OR drink.

and last night was also the full moon, btw. i *heart* full moons.

happy good friday.

by the time i logged in, i decided i was in no mood to blog.

but i had a GREAT time tanning. great sun, no distractions, and i think i even managed to fall asleep.

after that the day was really REALLY crappy. i had an uber-DUHH moment, i found out with absolute certainty that teaching will never be a career option, and i saw a dead cat. UGH.

lapar. i think i have that bottomless pit disease that was featured in CSI tadi. something about a faulty hypothalmus. doctor doctor, where are you?

why the hell am i hungry, when i've already had dinner?

only God can answer that question.

there was a cute guy in the train this morning. okay, not cute, but he had an overall cute vibe la. shirt, jeans, green sweater/jacket [i've never figured out what to call it actually], nat-like hair, and an ipod video. most of the time, he was watching The Simpsons. haha. how do i know that, you ask? well, he sat right next to me, that's how! yayyy. too bad he was only interested in his ipod video. but to my credit, he didn't move away, even when the train was almost empty and the rest of the row was free. yay!!!

haha i know aku giler.

the last chinese tutorial was great as usual. [but there were these two girls in the corner whom i thought were kinda sorta step know-it-all-ish. ohNO am i like that?!?!?! i'm really sorry if i am! i totally didn't mean to be!]

well then lunch at fongseng followed by people-watching in the library. people-watching: both cyber- and 3D-. haha. next, my final tutorial with danielllll, and the last bio lect.

i'm gonna miss this.

so the light in my room macam something wrong. so i dragged out the cube light kumara gave me last year and plugged it in, so i wouldn't have to lug my laptop outside and do my work there. i'm in a roombody [that's a more specialised version of "homebody", i would imagine] mood right now, so yeah.

bumped into amy's umar at the YIH canteen this afternoon. he's a really nice and friendly guy. good for you, amy! hahaha. kidding. yeah but it was cool. plus, as nat pointed out, "i can't believe he recognised you from the back!"

once again, i had lots to say before i opened the Blogger window, but now i'm just lost for words.

the word "bantal" takes on a whole new meaning now, thanks to my friend nat and HER friend **op**ns. haha.

okay time for bed. work awaits tomorrow.

i finally decided to explore the extensive DVD collection at home today, so i watched Cry_Wolf while having brunch [haha!]. and wow it was great. i totally thought it was Rich though, but it turned out to be Dodger! omggg. kesian for the hot guy. ohwell. and the whole bapak-cleaner thing. wow. love the twists. really unexpected, some of them. they completely fooled me, that's what they did.

after that, i couldn't resist, i had to watch another one. so i put on Nanny McPhee, which was great too! and really funny! and yeah it was sad when she had to leave.

finally, it was the 1950 cartoon Cinderella. prolly one of the best-known stories of all time. every little girl wants to be her, and some big girls still do.

Grand Duke: Well, if I may say so, Your Majesty, I did try to warn you; but you, Sire, are incurably romantic. No doubt you saw the whole pretty picture in detail. The young prince bowing to the assembly. Suddenly he stops. He looks up. For, lo, there she stands. The girl of his dreams. Who she is or whence she came, he knows not, nor does he care for his heart tells him that here, here is the maid he is predestined to be his bride. A pretty plot for fairy tales, Sire. But in real life... oh, no. No, it was foredoomed to failure.

further superficial attributes: "he can't be too into tvmobile.. macam slenger.." --"aku tak kisah pasal race or religion la.." --"can be of a totally different concept as long as he doesn't try to force it on me.."

so. the psych experiment was a total nightmare, bar none! stares, comments, questions-asked-indirectly-but-too-loudly, and more stares. it was terrible. not to mention the lack of mobility i experienced at ALL times. this includes going to the toilet, sitting down, lying down, eating, and even turning my head to check out guys. basically, EVERYTHING.

the BP monitoring was alright, i guess, but sometimes it'd be too painful for me to take. and the electrodes were HELL. one of them was frequently misaligned, and i had to like, press it hard into my stomach to make sure the light was blinking. but seriously. the stupid fanny pack is facking annoying. i really don't know what's worse, the omnipresent fanny pack, or the incessant stares.

i'm not really sure what exactly it was about the whole experiment, but i really had no mood to do ANYTHING throughout the 24-hour monitoring period. i didn't even wanna move. in fact, i didn't even wanna eat. serious takder selera sey. and this morning when i woke up i didn't even have breakfast before going to skl to take off the cursed things.

dahlah when i peeled off the base electrode around my stomach, i found that it'd cut me a little bit. so there's a 1-cm-long cut on my stomach, which bloody hurts when kena air, or even when i move. wth.

but once it was all off, i felt SO much better. i rushed home, and mandied and all. i have never before in my life been so happy to mandi! haha.

plus i got to see yesterday's cute poly guys again. the one who's the expt subject is called ahmad, he's 18, and his ID is 241, if i'm not wrong. ahhh yes he's cute.

yeah. that shd be it.

more superficial attributes: "tattoos are okay, but it can't like, COVER his whole body or whatever ah. subtle. discreet. cool." --"firefighter!!!" --"MUST ride a bike. can't be a wave. scram or sportsbike ah." --"must not speak english shittily."


btw i couldn't resist, i took that in the national lib toilet the other day cos i was having such a good hair day. :DDDD

now i remember what happened yest. i was at khatib mrt going to ssdc, and suddenly i realised that a couple of malay schoolgirls were giggling and looking in my direction [no they weren't looking at me!]. i was wondering why, when the train came and as i walked towards it, i saw that khairul anugerah was standing a coupla metres to my right. a-ha. so they were ogling at him. anyway to my pleasant surprise he looked kinda normal, even cool with his blonde hair and cap and stuff. and to be perfectly honest, i was a little starstruck too, but only for a millisecond! cos then i remembered how i hate his talking voice [no offence, it's a personal choice]. haha. i msged baba and she said "what if kau go up to him and say 'hi i really like you.. you remind me of my friend, [insert namer pompuan]'" i nearly died laughing.

ughhh and i'm doing psych experiment now so i'm totally not in the moooood!!! but there were two cute malay poly guys who were experiment subjects too. cute AND witty. aren't they just the best kind? "i just got hooked up by a guy--a GUY HOOKER!!!" told you they were cute. :PPPPP

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--"...in some societies, that'd be termed 'abuse'.."
--"well in some societies, you'd be termed 'mine'.."

*melts*

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oh and we were doing more friendster surfing during perfumes, and there was this third-degree friend we were checking out. i was looking at the connections thingy, to see how i was connected to him. and then i said, "oh dier kenal babang aba!" no it's not a typo. i swear i said that. and i couldn't stop laughing fit to breathe!

hilarious.

*denialdenialdenial*

[hey, "daniel" is an anagram of "denial"!!! sorry random thought.]

i was boring nat silly yesterday with my list of superficial attributes in a guy. fifteen minutes after i started, i was STILL GOING. "must be able to drive, but doesn't have to have a car." --"doesn't drink!!!" --"can't smoke alot." and so on. it was fun though.

and there's this range of foreign language phrasebooks in the co-op, by lonely planet, which is REALLY a laugh, cos there's a section called "Romance", where they have phrases ranging from, "Can I have your number?" to "Kiss me." to "Easy tiger!" to "I can't get it up--sorry." i nearly dieddddd. klakarrrr gilerrr.

it's like i had so much more to talk about earlier today, but now i feel deflated. so. this is it.

*dances around*

*dances some more*

*still dancing*

sorry. it's just that today, despite starting out none-too-well, was terrif.

chinese oral featured the question, "wo yao shenme?" dahlah i was the first one to go and all. and i wanted to kench! well i said something like, "wo yao hen duo dongxi, ke shi wo bu hui mai yin wei wo bu gou qian. wo yao mai yi fu, youde yifu gui de, youde pianyi. wo ye yao mai biao. shi meiguo biao, suoyi hen gui." and then i was stuck. so he asked what i would do if i had LOADS of money. then it hit me. "wo yao mai che, ye yao mai mo-tuo [how to spell eh? motor laaa]." and he was like, "ni yao mai mo-tuo? ni hui jia ma?" and i was like, "wo zai xue le.." anyway then we talked for awhile about riding and driving [how he finds it hard, etc], and then it was OVER! woohoo.

then it was lunch with nat and zaf, followed by a 45-minute friendster surfing session at central lib. WOOHOO!!! after that it decided to rain more elephants, pasal smalam tak puas hati, so i had to inch my way to singapore post centre, which, btw, is a really lovely place after all. the lady at the counter was nice too. and i got my AE tops!!! yay! and i didn't even get that wet, i don't know why everyone was cowering away at the main shelters.

finally it was riding, where i finally passed my pract 4, thanks, in large part, to raime. once again, i *heart* raime. oh and this cool manjen dude talked to me! woohoo [third time]!

yups and i'm laughing away while chatting to loner guy's friend now. who, btw, also happens to be samit's friend. interesting how he happens to know all the guys i like.

Amine - says:
patutla kau goodmood
Shopgirl thermally inaccessible says:
yessss
Shopgirl thermally inaccessible says:
in fact, if the windows weren't fixed with grilles, i'll float out into the night sky

i'm starving like blom makan 10 hari, and it's raining elephants outside, and i just found out what sincere REALLY means, firsthand.

so i decided it's time for a blogging break before i go back to lab, whose discussion i HAVE to finish today. HAVE TO. MUST.

and iCell is being annoying. it was so facking slow. even my notoriously tortoise-speed wireless connection at home is faster.

and where are the cute guys anyway? all i have is some butch sitting infront of me. and another one strolling the aisles, also infront of me. butch buat aperrrrrrrrr.

okay enough griping. sorry.

i swear the view from here is SO nice. i wanna take loads and loads of photos, but macam, MALU. hahaha. i mean, i'm like alone, and people already stare at me as is. no point attracting further attention. wahahahaha.

yest night i chatted to loner guy's friend again. he's so incredibly adorable. and witty. and funny. and cute. [and i just realised that adorable=cute, and witty=funny. haha. sorry.] but no, really. aku baru type hi, and his reply made me laugh macam orang giler. and thennnnn.. he asked for my number!!! haha. actually i kinda have amy to thank for that, cos i was complaining to him about how i'd had enough of sexual innuendoes for one day, cos my friend [amyy the clean] had been feeding disgusting scenes inside my head all day. so he said something like, "okay give me your number and i'll tell you more titillating scenes.." when i was like, "what for?" he said, "actually i just wanted to ask for your number.."

*insert jumping ninja thingy from MSN*

if THAT's not enough, a little later he said something along the lines of, "since you like being forced into things, it'll be useful when we're copulating.. --i mean socializing!" hahahaha! dier cute!

okay sorry. i know nat is already sick of me going on about him. and she thinks my interest's gonna fizzle out soon anyway. just like with 4028402 other guys i meet online. [i have to say she has a point, though.] and I was saying, it might turn out into a hairul thing, where i really really really liked him. for real. amek kau obat!

sorry aku giler. okay lah 3 hours to go.

so the second heart charm fell off my bracelet.

i picked it up off the ground, and walked on, while unclasping the bracelet from my wrist.

it has to be a sign. what else?

yessahhh. first they cancelled my shift for today cos they're not busy. so i spent the past 3 hours doing the perfumes webpage. and now i'm finally done, except for verin's part la. haha. i'm so proud of myself. i mean, i even did the homepage, thanks to picasa's collage tool. heh. takyah fiddle around with photoshop anymore. [although fiddling around with photoshop is so much more fun than picasa-ing..]

i even managed to find time to surf britney's new fragrance website. with this to show for it:

and tomorrow i'll do my lab report. yay.

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oooOOOooo. a courier just knocked on the door 15 minutes ago asking for "abdul rashid" when i realised he was holding my shipment from the US! excitinggg. but it's only the american apparel tshirt, rupernyer. i'll prolly get the AE stuff tomorrow night or something. well at any rate, the tshirt rocks, it's like so thin, and i can't wait to get it printed! yay!

you know what, not working on sunday night totally rocks. i should do it more often. [not that i can, really.]

penat sey. i was gonna do some work before i went to sleep, but i guess that idea's out. maybe monday. [cos u know, who am i kidding if i sed i was planning to do some work tmr?]

went out with amir today. we watched Half Light [a demi moore vehicle] at the cathay, which rocks ass. it's like so freaking nice, i swear! the lifts are cool, and at level 5 there's a snack bar, a kacang putih bar, a movie memorabilia shop and the requisite ticket counters, of course. haha. level 6 is the cinema auditorium, with yet another snack bar, just in case kau luper nak beli earlier i suppose, and those plush sofa seats INSIDE, just past the ushers' station. plus for food like baked rice etc, they actually send it to you inside, on a tray, kalau kau dah masuk already. totally laaaaaa. anyway the rest of the building's supposed to have shops etc, but belum build lagi.. in the meantime there are those work panels with cute cartoons on them. seriously, they're so funny. anyway. nice place. OH AND THE TOILETS! the sinks are these flat black polished granite-y things that are tilted back 30 degrees, so that whatever air that keluars, it just gets drained away automatically. okay u know what, there is no way i can describe it to justice. so go see for yourself. :DDDDD

and still, i *heart* mats!!!

i. am. so. tired. and hungry. and bored. i was supposed to wake up at 930 just now, but ended up jolting myself awake at 1040. aku bodoh! somehow when the handphone alarm sounded, i'd managed to turn it off. and somehow, i don't even remember that happening.

well this morning was the last lab this semester. so i took a few more photos than usual. haha. but i wasn't prepared for the romantic interlude that took place between me and DIP1-namesake. see, the calorimeters we were using were wet la, so we were supposed to dry them off at the start of the experiment. so we made our way to the shelf where the tissue paper was. he reached there first, so he tore off some tissue la. then he saw me approaching, so he PASSED THE TISSUE TO ME!!! i nearly died. i mean, how sacrificial of him! he had to take another wad of tissue for himself after that. ahhhh. totally laaaa. then he said, "this is the biggest toilet paper roll ever.." to which i could only reply, "haha yeah.." cos my mind was busy screaming, he's talking to me!!!! well shah made her way there as fast as she could, when she saw that exchange, but he completely ignored her arrival. *nyeh-nyeh* haha. yup. then later i was telling shah, "this is the most tiring thing i've ever done!" while stirring the stupid calorimeter, and he laughed!!! dier suker aku!!! woohoo!!! [sad, then, that we may never have the same lab again.]


and yest was the 3j junior closing bbq, which rocked, cos i totally tore up the place with songs from atikk's laptop. hahaha.

wednesday, however, was like THE day. went tanning in the afternoon. it was facking hot at first, then it started raining at like 130. so i left early. sorry, hot wildwildwet lifeguards. after that i had driving, which was alright, more or less, and where i saw sani baru abis riding. his TP's in april, and dier sebok2 nak beli aprilia too!!! yah well anyway after THAT was the salam launch at samar. totally la, i *heart* anak satayclub, and Matair Maryam! [Matair Maryam's this cute guy from the house band, who--duh--looks like matair maryam. haha.]

thennnn... we went to MoS! heru drove me, dayah, and her two BRE friends there. totally laaaa. berlambak guys, as usual. beribu orang, as usual. notable guys wld be vince, the hot feringhee i danced with FIRST, and the adorable young nat-type mat i danced with. vince is this 20-year-old filipino guy living in san diego, and just doing all the touristy stuff in singapore till tmr [sat]. me and dayah were sitting outside, drinking [super big gulp and snapple la, what were u thinking?!?!?!], and he happened to sit next to me and after a while, he just started talking to us. he told dayah "you have very nice teeth," at which aku cam, malu cos MY gigis are jongang. haha. anyway he was cute, and dayah totally macam, fell. haha. klakar. after his friends made him leave, she was so takder mood nak dance. giler. and the hot feringhee. i SWEAR. he was so hot. all chiselled features--perfect nose, nice brows, great eyes, and arresting smile. and tall, and really nice. he looks like a vik, actually, but dayah cakap dier orang putih. apaperlah. whatever it is, he's hot. and he danced with ME! FIRST! i couldn't believe my luck! *jumps around* but i LOST him when he went to throw away his bottle! YARGHHHH. i'm still macam, beating myself up over it now. basically, dayah and i are still sad. :(

but u know, other than that, it was a great night. i can't wait to go again, but it'll have to wait till after exams.

just a short one, cos i'm gonna be swamped today.

yesterday after taridra we went for dinner/supper at hazwani, AS USUAL. haha. this time the after-meal topic was marriage. it was SO cool. arranged marriages, atikk and me lamenting why OUR parents aren't arranging our marriages, fez asking how we're gonna initiate sex infront of the kids.. TOTALLY LAAAAAAAAAA.

i love my hazwani suppers. sampai sana kul 8ish, left at almost 11!

kesian kurus. he's just sitting there alone. i SO know how that feels. well, at least he got a good seat. amy wanted to macam, invite him to sit with us, but u know, I'm not gonna be the one to do that. haha.

taridra meeting later. so i'm gonna be home late. and i have loads of things to do tmr. nothing which includes my studies, so i better get started now.

lyrics break!

Before anything began between us
You were like my best friend
The one I used to run and talk to
When me and my girl was having problems
You used to say it'll be OK
Suggest little nice things I should do
And when I go home at night and lay my head down
All I seemed to think about was you
And how

You make me wanna leave the one I'm with
Start a new relationship with you
This is what you do
Think about a ring and all the things it come along with
You make me
You make me -Usher

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i had SUCH a stupid dream last night. it was chem-themed, and involved me swimming around in chem equations and thermodynamic formulas, guest-starring wee boon and his (very-short) wife and their new car.

APEEEE JE.

Ayam hitam telurnya putih
Mencari makan di pinggir kali
Beta hitam giginya putih
kalau ketawa manis sekali
Ayo, mama mama jangan marah beta
Dia cuma cuma cuma cium beta
Ayo, mama mama jangan marah beta
'Lah orang muda punya biasa -Ayo Mama

maybe it's the upcoming angklung concert or something [which i'm not performing in], but the lyrics of this song were playing in my head so i decided to Google it.

well i actually had a nice day today. i'm not sorry about the previous entry, cos, you know, i had my reasons. but u know, sorry for being so violent and public about it.

hm. i think that's all. byeeee.

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i have SUCH a packed week ahead. and i just found out i have a genes essay due this friday. i am SO screwed.

on the other hand, i'm going out with amir on sat! yay!!! finally, a nice platonic outing! what a lovely change.. =DDDDDD

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

why the FUCK did she have to go tell my mom?

did I spill the beans when she had assorted guys over in her room, back when she was in JC/uni/whatever? did I tell my mom she was still seeing kumara? did i EVER tell on her, in fact?

_{no, i never did.}

i got this sms from dayah this afternoon [okay, it was about 1236pm..]: Ain aku mimpi rumah kau tebakar.. Den u wanted come sleepover my house.. Haha

GILER!!!

haha. yup i just thought it was hilarious.

i'm so bored. there's like nothing to blog about anymore. in fact, there's nothing to do online anymore. yesterday i found myself going through my hotmail inbox and checking out all of hairul's forwards, for lack of things to do. sheesh.

well i had a great day today. i think. albeit boring. i got my chinese test back, and i did pretty well, alhamdulillah. but u know. tu baru midterm. masih ader exam, so jgn nak sit on my so-called laurels yet. haha. thaiguy was looking really cute today, his hair is so budak-baik-ish. and we attempted to go after virgin after class but when it became clear that he was heading to YIH, we gave up. haha.

i thought lab was pretty alright. beautiful almond-scented crystals everywhere. what screwed it up was me having to do TLC thrice. to prevent me from crying into my hexane:diethyl ether solvent, shah helped me do my third and final one which was, thankfully, successful. haha.

nat's crystals were formed under pressure, so they were small but sparkly! i totally loved them. mine were the pseudo-ideal crystals, of course. -ducks to avoid objects being hurled-




and after lab we risked breaking our necks to check out this scram:



lawar right??? totally reminiscent of the KTM guy's KTM at hazwani. wonder what he's up to..

so zack asked me to zouk tonight. on him. and i was sorely tempted, but no. no more creepy-guys-whom-i'll-never-like-so-there's-no-point-leading-them-on-anyway.

this morning in lab ahmad and syaban came in together, and i burst out laughing cos they were both wearing black shirts. funnayfunnay.

i'm sorry, my dear friend.
i love you.
next time will be better.

Why did the fly fly?
-Because the spider spied 'er.

i *heart* CSI.

so i thought i'd wake up at four, but i totally refused to wake up when my mom tried to. haha. so. i told her to wake me at six instead. then i took my time getting dress, and i still reached skl in time for the second half of 1121. haha.

still a little sleepy though. and feeling slightly burnt. but i'll survive.

okay, driving was a bitch today. i nearly killed myself, twice. and i struck the kerb like 84028302 million times. plus, you know, the rain didn't help.

but the rest of the day was GREAT. loads of cute guys. LOADS. totally fun.

yup bye.

me at my slengerest.

"what if it gets to **dil***? mampos aku!"

the story goes like this: i was eating my OCKsoftsquid, which was every bit as liat as i'd predicted. it was already the last piece, and i was struggling and using all available appendages, when, out of nowhere, he whipped out a disposable camera and snapped me in action. and if that's not enough, the situation was made worse when amy quipped, "dier suker kau lah ain, sebenarnyer..!"

i should have seen it coming. he was giving me weird stares while i was manoevering my way around the squid. yAAAARgh.

other than that, it was a great day.

i hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, the sun and me have big plans.

checkitouttttt.







the fonts on this comp are too cool to waste!!! thanks zul!

thanks for the link, nat.

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DISEMBER

* Sangat setia dan pemurah.
* Bersifat patriotik.
* Sangat aktif dalam permainan dan pergaulan.
* Sikap kurang sabar dan tergesa-gesa.
* Bercita-cita tinggi.
* Suka menjadi orang yang berpengaruh dalam organisasi.
* Seronok bila didampingi.
* Suka bercampur dengan orang.
* Suka dipuji, diberi perhatian dan dibelai.
* Sangat jujur, amanah dan bertolak ansur.
* Tidak pandai berpura-pura.
* Cepat marah.
* Perangai yang mudah berubah-ubah.
* Tidak ego walaupun harga dirinya sangat tinggi.
* Benci pada kongkongan.
* Suka berlawak.
* Pandai buat lawak dan berfikiran logik

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and yes, they're ALL true. espesh that glaring big one. i HATE being tied down [or boxed in, or whatever]. why can't you guys get that into your heads?

so i actually hit the books yesterday. yes, believe it. i took 12 to national library and stayed there till closing time. haha. but no, that's not as great as it sounds. i left the house at like 4 in the afternoon, haha. consequently reaching there at about five. but wow. you know why i love it? cos it reminds me of the RJ library. i ADORED the RJ library. despite the having to put 30% of my stuff in the locker and lugging the other 70% in my arms to the nearest available table [EXACTLY the same procedure in LCKRL, btw], the lack of eye-candy [ditto the LCKRL], it has dillions of books, and it's just so fun and bynk sunlight. i'm like a plant. i *heart* sunlight.

haha.

and this morning there were oodles of cute guys in the train, so fun.

i was at the canteen with amy when she said, "eh ain, mat!" so i turned, just as she added, "tapi dier bersih-bersih.." dahlah tu, he was skinny and TAK-CUTE langsung. i quickly turned back and burst out laughing. buat maluuuuuuuu.

oh the test was urgh as usual. plus dil didn't come for the third time in a row. honestly, aku taulah dier pandai, but how pandai can you be, to NOT turn up for ANY of the tests at all?

yesterday's cute guys were these three malay dudes in the train home. i think they're from SP, cos i'd seen one of them before. anyway, they were cute. haha. and the one i'd seen before, he had a cookie monster keychain on his bag, and a hello kitty dangly thingy on his handphone. i nearly died laughing looking at the hello kitty crap. the other two were cute too, and one of them was wearing an orange nickelodeon tshirt. cute nyerrr. he kinda had a goatee, which really upped the constrast.

then when nat got off at tnm, the middle one said, "bye.. alah baru nak tengok beg.." or some crap.. and when they all got off at tampines, they stood at the platform waving vigorously at me.

:DDDDDDDDD

I remember walking through park
On the phone talking till it's dark
Laying on the golden sands
Holding hands
Till we got golden tans
Knowing one day we gon' wear golden bands
Let's take it back when you had my name on your nails
And you came with the bails
Soon as I came in the jail
You was there for me
But I don't see you as much now
I guess I dropped the ball on a game-winning touchdown - Used To Be by Ryan Leslie f Fabolous

i love that song, somehow.

lab ended like, within an hour. bes... haha, since i already blogged this morning i don't have much to write now la. i'll be starting my lab report soon. just enjoying my downtime now. heh.

anyway, check it out. i'm gonna get this printed on a tshirt. sort of an antithesis to the "gua *heart* minahs" tshirts i've been seeing everywhere.

aku nak terkencing. tapi aku tahan skejap. cos i have to blog about yest night.

the day itself went pretty alright. i skipped lecture cos i just couldn't seem to drag my sorry ass out of bed at 4 a.m. came to skl in the afternoon to meet naz and nat. so far, so good. ate oodles and oodles of foodles. [sorry aku giler.] then the 3j meeting, where i actually had to pay more than scant attention for once, cos i was taking minutes. hahaha.

after tt we had dinner/supper at hazwani. there were these three uber-hot army guys [mim]. all tall, dark and handsome. i nearly died. too bad they sat so far away, and completely out of the line of my vision. me, atikk and dayah kept turning round to check them out, but they were like forever being blocked!!! and then it was total heartbreak when they left. arghhh.

we were also joined by tilam [i forgot his real name], and horis [however you spell it], who i just realised looks like p. ramlee!!! haha. so atikk and i started acting out p.ramlee scenes. it was crazy.

then we went home la, and at the bus stop were those three hot army guys!!! woohoo! unfortunately, they were supremely uninterested. sedih. even though i went to all the trouble of buying this month's cleo and everything so we'd get to see more of them. hahaha. the cutest one lives right there in clementi, and OH he is so hot, please kill me now.

AND THEN, in the train, i was happily studying chinese for today's midterm, when some guy sits next to me [pasal si BODOH zahdan tanak duduk sebelah aku] and keeps staring at me and my book. after a while he asked, "are you chinese?" well, duh. a blind man would know the answer to that right? yeah he proceeded to ask how long i'd been studying chinese, and where i was heading to, my name, my age, etc. dayah was furiously poking a hole in my arm with her elbow, and smsing me "are you ok?" and she tried to rescue me by staging a conversation about KKO and everything. ironically, at the same time, she offered pen and paper when he asked for my number. mampos. [his name, btw, is hisham, but apparently his friends call him "ace". WO-kay.] fast facts: he's NOT cute, and i swear he looks about 30+++!!!

aper ni??? of all types of people to approach me on the train, it had to be THAT kind??? and he just kept going on and on about what kind of guy i liked, even though i told him that i don't WANT a boyfriend. sheesh. get the hint, why don't you?

eight cute mats. one MRT carriage. two rows. and one of them singing a line from Hafiz As'ari: "Masya-Allah, Masya-Allah, tak bleh angkat.."

i mean, he-LLO! thank God my nicole richie shades filtered off most of the amusement from my eyes. and i swear, all of them were cute.

too bad they're all about sixteen.

i hate blogging bout shitty/sad/generally negative things cos then when i read past entries, i'll be reminded of them, and that'll get me down. so i filter those out too.

which is why i'm left with this crap above.

maybe a break.

[sean msged today after almost three months. AND I REALLY THOUGHT HE'D FORGOTTEN ME!!! it was exactly what i needed, yo.]

checkitoutttt.



i actually PASSED my genes MCQ test! i am SO happy. that's like, my first non-chinese pass this semester. maybe there's hope for me yet.

mannn. i had SUCH a boring weekend after petah. dahlah si dol fai MoS nak merajuk kat aku, basically the only interesting thing tt happened was that i had a dream about EH-UU. in which he wasn't acting very EH-UU-ly. don't ask. you don't want to know. wahaha.

train ride was alright. the absence of normal-school-going kids wasn't very noticeable. and there were a couple of cute guys, but nothing that kept me awake or whatever. haha.

hope riding's alright later. kalau tak pun, hope there are hotties abound.

yeah. dream on.

i've been too tired and too bored by life to blog these few days.

and right now, i'm supremely annoyed cos NOVA93.7 has just decided to conk out on me, just as urban essentials is about to come on. ARGH.

and that's all for today, folks.

i'm SO sleepy. i could hardly open my eyes in the train and bus just now. it really sucks having to come to skl at freaking eight in the morning when YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE CLASSES!

so i don't think i'm coming tomorrow. it's too kesian for my body to wake up at freaking four a.m. for six consecutive mornings.

i don't really have much to write sebenarnye. haha. i should really be doing something constructive, like lab report [i started to type "rab leport"!!!] or bio essay or something la.

after this, k?

after bio yest i went to bukit batok with amy. and met up with herry. it bothers me slightly that he looks like herman--my sister's ex whom my mom used to refer to as "si janggut"--but you know, whatever. haha. anyway we just hung out skejap then he sent me home. it was my first time on a bike on the expressway!!! totally laaa! it was FACKING cold. man. mampos aku. but it was fun. and there was this stretch of road that was all winding and twisting, and it was like being on a huge figure 8 or something! very fun. but next time [if there IS a next time], i'm SO not wearing a skirt. haha.

yesterday during lunch

Baba has finished arranging her fries on her tray and decides she can't finish them cos she's full.

Baba: ain, kau nak tak? aku ader mayonnaise lagi! [points in what she thinks is a tantalising manner to the white blob on her tray, adjacent to the fries.]

Me: [adamantly] no way! even if you dipped them in Essence of Hoirul i wouldn't eat them!

as a result, she almost puked. wahahahaha.

just a holla while i wait for bio lect to start.

[actually i'm also sort of waiting for this cute WLNY guy to come online, but that's a whole different story. haha.]

boring boring boring skl, no excitement at all, and even loner guy wasn't around for lect today. so nat and i were watching videos on youtube, wonderful invention that it is. maybe later i'll go back there again.

nat and i were people-watching the other day at lido mac's, when she said, "this place rocks cos they can't see you looking at them." well i was about to sampuk when she continued, "but it sucks cos they can't see you looking at them."



when alfian saw this picture, he said: "macam orang mintak cium.. then u macam malu malu ahh cannot!" that guy is crazy.



my nicole richie shades!



new module. it's called Kursus Rumahtangga 101.

so was today a BLAST or what???

i actually went to skl [albeit skipped lectureS] and finished my perfumes quiz, among assorted other things. no cute guys except for a little respite provided by batu giling, yay. he's SO hot i tell you! then i lunched with baba irma and farah, and left for riding.

i was in a bit of a mess pasal i was running late. HATE BEING LATE. as anyone even remotely acquainted with me would know. well anyway riding was alright. i didn't fall, which is great. and which i miss. not falling, that is. hahaha. but it's HARD! my E-brake sucks butt. my plank was like 4.6s!!! and slalom was abit slow [but yes, loads of fun]. there were a few cute guys. this allif-type who was behind me, wearing the nicest beige ribbed sweater and those allif specs i LOVE. too bad i totally embarrassed myself infront of him by making a right turn cos i was stupidly following people yg nak tukar bike, and then changing lane back IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TURN. oh and when he smiles--spitting image of bun! i nearly died.

at the end of it, i was so sweaty and gross. and all frumpy cos bag aku berat, then ader notebook, then ader helmet, and u know, i just looked so bag-lady-ish. so i was just walking slowly and deliberately to taha's house, to allow the least amount of perspiration to keluar. then at the filter lane this [wave, i think] bike passed me. the rider turned to look at me, and he was like smiling. then the pillion pun toleh. and at the end of the lane, they turned again. so i couldn't help but smile back la.

well i thought that was it. so i was waiting for the traffic light to change, and smiling to myself. haha. beginnings of a great mood. then biler aku tengah cross, they passed me again and they were smiling at me again and the rider waved. [btw, this means that they actually U-turned. and thanks to the jam, they managed to catch me at the same place.] so i was like, okay kalau dier U-turn tt means they're gonna try and find me right.. but i didn't think they would cos they didn't know exactly where i was going what. the area around taha's place bynk carparks. i continued my slow deliberate walk to the lift landing, sampai and picit the button. then the pillion appeared!!! i was so shocked. and no prizes for guessing what happened next. [he asked for my number on the rider's behalf.] u know, i never understood why people need wakils to ask for other people's numbers. tanyer sendiri ah. baru tunjuk terrer sikit. ohwells.

yep so that was one HUGE egoboost. ohyeah the guy's name is herry. yup.

<sub>you see, it's so easy to meet someone online and ask for their number, ONLINE. it's so easy to dance with someone in a club and ask for their number after. it's so easy to exchange meaningful glances with someone for over an hour, and then ask for their number.

so how about something that poses more of a challenge?</sub>

hm then at the bus stop there was this really cute guy wearing the exact same XL2 vans i was! dahlah tu, dier pakai eyeliner dokkkk! hothothot.

yeah. had a GREAT day.

i spent like 7285038 dollars today. padahal baru dapat gaji. and nak kirekan my gaji was already used up in advance for miscellaneous expenses. i am so screwed!

and today wasn't even a designated keluar-berjalan2 day. let alone a shopping day.

we had a perfumes meeting pat paragon starbucks. it was pretty fun actually. haha. but u know. paragon. sunday. takder orang hebat ah. and after that the four of us went to wisma, and that's when the craziness started.

first it was the face shop. the nail polish was only $2.50 each! and such adorable shades! there was one of huge glitter stars and other glitter bits on clear polish. i bought a sky blue one and a topcoat. and nearly plumped for some purple loose powder as well.

there was this cute, friendly little manjen girl who was so excited over the clear glitter polish. she was like showing me her nails and all. cute sey. then her mother made her come over and put glitter eyeshadow on her eyelids in a really unskillful manner. and she was like wailing, "mummy!!!" really sadly and trying to rub it off. i felt sorry for her so i took out my mirror and said, "you want to see?" and she hated it, of course, cos it was SO badly applied. she went back to her mom to try and get it off but her mom tanak, so she ran back to me, and i helped her blend it, and i let her look in the mirror again and she actually liked it! oh she was just SO adorable.

then it was forever 21, where i nearly bought a pair of nicole richie shades tapi decided to hold back my decision, konon nak survey other shops. so we went to topshop where i went kinda crazy buying three tops i already have but in different colours, and tried on a really cute pair of jeans. grey, uber-low-rise, and tapered. yes sorry i have a secret desire to own a pair of tapered jeans. kill me now, hafiz as'ari.

lepas tu kiter jalan2 kat taka skejap, then nat and me went to far east and walked around there. i got my nicole richies for $15 at this shop in levelone. LOVING THEM. yups then we hung out at lido mac's till her parents arrived.

and pat pasir ris [and dlm train] ader beribu NS guys! woohoo!

will sleep soon, i promise. it's just that too much happened today for me to NOT dwell on everything. so maybe unloading it here will help some. who knew so much could happen in a day?

yest i thought i was having the worst day of my life. dahlah si bodoh CBLC guy refused to print my lab report, preferring to print twenty-fucking-eight pages of some pdf file instead. so i had to double back there after bio lab and get the stuff and hand it in. so as we were settling our samples and shit in the organic lab, i caught a glimpse of this cute guy out of the corner of my eye. i turned for a better look, and... guess who??? so i hissed, "nat kau tgk tu saper!" yes it was loner guy. in all his lab-coated, lab-goggled glory, holding a separatory funnel in the most adorable lost manner. who knew one could look EVEN hotter in those dorky things? well, dahlah dier notice aku notice dier, he was also completely lost and therefore aggravated the situation by catwalking up and down several times in search of some reagent or other. hmm. separatory funnel means dier tgh buat experiment 2 right? but why? and it wasn't even his lab session. questions, questions. anyway i held in it for as long as possible, then when we finally left the lab i made a right turn and did a spirited loner guy dance. that was cool.

today sucked too, cos i freaking woke up late so i had to cab to skl. and i hate cabbing, even in the best of times. but u know what, the kids were so adorable, and so were two of the judges [we all know WHICH two], and i did have loads of fun after all. after tt hanom and i went to collect my paycheques [hardy was working] and then we hung out at orchard.

went to far east, where we bumped into bun. he was coming down the escalator. with a girl. who's definitely not the same kind of girl i am, so i guess there was never any hope for me. anyway. after i managed to put my eyeballs back in their sockets, i hazarded, "hi.. jalan-jalan awak?" with a discreet glance at the girl.
and he replied, "ah'ah.. [pause] gi mana? pun jalan-jalan?"
me: "yah.. tak keje niari?"
him: "tak.. niari off.."
me: "okaylah.. bye.."
and i walked off and got on the escalator as calmly as possible. and tried REALLY hard not to look back. but i couldn't help it, i looked back!!! and he was looking back at me too, and smiling that adorable innocent smile of his and i nearly DIED of pure unadulterated heartbreak. he looks EXACTLY as i remember him, except his goatee is much thicker. oh God. i missed him so much. i really liked him. and he knew it. and he just macam, step bodoh. and now he has a freaking girlfriend!!! -wails- i'm sorry. i'm just sad. he was (is?) prolly one of the few genuinely nice guys i like(d?).

i was quite a pain after that [sorry hanom], reminiscing the bun days, and pasrah-ing. yeah anyway we ate at jon's salon, where the guy remembered my order [as usual], but the cook didn't [AS USUAL], and then when we were paying the bill, the guy asked after shafa [are u reading this shafa?]. then i said something about her coming back in june, and i'm POSITIVE i saw jason's head turn towards me as if he caught what i was saying. COOL. haha.

bumped into nadiy at the lift [he's HEEEUGE] and then we went to lido mac's and hung out there people-watching, which was lovely. then while i was waiting at orchard mrt, i met fariq [i totally didn't recognise him at first, i thot some weird mat was waving at me for no reason], and then pat with DAVID [foo]! i nearly died [AGAIN] of [minor, this time] heartbreak. sigh. in the end dier dapat david. when she cld have had andrew?!?!? [that's his name right? i totally forgot. alah the smart guy who tergiler2kan her lah.]

yeah then i met up with the two wans [from MoS] and hung out with them and their friends, aminur [who DOESN'T smoke! wow!], mimah and linda. beribu mats siol kat taka. totally laaaa. then the two girls left, so it was macam, me and the guys. but it was alrite. they're fun. and they took turns carrying my bag. klakar. i thot aminur was quiet at first [ditto for him, i'm sure], but he warmed up after awhile.

it was lovely and all, but then the second wan told me that the first wan really seems to like me! about 15 minutes later, the first wan told me that the second wan likes me. so aper ni??? jangan suker akulah, orang-orang. i lose interest easily. dahlah both of them just went thru 4- and 6-year relationship breakups recently. do NOT wanna be responsible for macam, hurting them or whatever. argh. i mean, i just like to hang out. i already told them pe. i said, "i wanna play the field.." the first time i met them. i also said, "sometimes i don't like to layan people." so aper ni, suckers for punishment? alah. entahlah. we'll deal with it when we come to it la.

nites.

just checking in.

i had a fight with my mom this morning. the topics concerned were
1. me coming home late on school nights, and
2. my skimpy tops.
YES i know what everyone's dying to say at this point. so don't say it. well it wouldn't make a difference anyhow. anyway i don't like to argue with my mom, even when i completely TAK AGREE LANGSONG, so i just kept quiet while she bisinged and bisinged and bisinged. after that i went to my room, closed the door and started gathering my bag and stuff. then i opened the door to exit my room, and she pounced on me again and she was all like, "ain tak dengar tadi mummy cakap? asal belum tukar baju?" i was momentarily speechless actually. then i said, "ain dah lambat," [which, if you realise, doesn't exactly answer the question.] and left while she threatened to throw away all my tops if i continue wearing them.

wait. if i wear them, she'll throw them away. if i don't, they'll never see the light of day. so. what happens now? either way, they don't get worn then, right? well i'm sorry. i know it's against the principles of my religion and all. but. you know. okay actually i don't know. but i don't WANT to change. so much of our well-being is tied to the way we feel about ourselves. and the way i feel about myself is tied to what i wear. so you know, work it out. and i've seen worse, y'know? i'm definitely not bottom-rung bitch-dressing material here.

besides, there's that nagging thought at the back of my head that says: my sister dresses like that too.

i HATE that i've written so much about this, but it's just really upsetting la, and i can't get it out of my head, and i gotta face it anyhow. no idea how i'm gonna do it.

anyway, filza took this at MoS with her cameraphone. yay. speaking of which, my calves and assorted other muscles in my body are STILL in agony.



lab was alrite. i thot my candlelight dinner guy looked espesh nice today. in his shirt and all. yay. and he like, laughed at one of my witty comments. whee!!! but it was also crappy cos we messed up the filling up of the dumas bulb with water. so we had to do it all over again. takper. wee boon was really nice and supportive, so it was bearable.

yest i woke up feeling crappy. so crappy, in fact, that i contemplated NOT going for both riding and driving. but somehow i managed to drag myself out of bed and got ready. but i looked SOOOOO frumpy somehow. it was just crappy. and macam, seluar aku felt ketat. SHEEESH. seluars should never feel ketat when you're riding. anyway at the last minute i grabbed one of my carik-pasal tops to change into for driving. wahaha.

okay so. riding. it was so bloodyfucking hot. i nearly died. nasib baik i was wearing what i was wearing. oh and there was this uberuberuber hot mim guy. all talldarkhandsome and looking espesh crisp in a long-sleeved white tshirt. KILL ME NOW. he was having pract 8. okay. the pract. as usual i was excellent at the stupid slope. i swear. when finally i get to do circuit revision, i'm gonna skip the slope la. haha. then came the figure 8. the warmup was alright, but there was some miscommunication, which was quite funny really. anyway i didn't fall, NOT EVEN ONCE! i made like one wide turn, but the rest was okay, if a bit wobbly. and at one point si instructor was like, "don't bank so much la." haha. mannn. dahlah aku nyer indicator cacat, and refuses to turn off even biler aku picit. and i was convinced i was gonna get heatstroke or something cos i SWEAR it was so hot, and we didn't get a break, although si raime told us to just go park the bike for awhile and minum air kalau nak. but of course. NO WAY i was gonna do that. the more chances the better. my eighth pract okay, jangan main2. so it was over, all too soon. but i can feel my confidence increasing with each pract, so it's not too bad. well then i nearly died of disappointment when he gave back my booklet first. but when i opened it, i passed my pract 3!!! i nearly died of happiness and relief.

yeah so i celebrated. yah cam real. i just bought loads of stuff at the mama shop, and topped up my account and shit. then i was like an hour early for driving. haha. bodoh. well we did vertical parking, which was not too much trouble, yay. and bynk budak pract 1, so i was cuci-ing mater.

after driving i was at yishun as usual so i got like TWO soft squid and a mac's ILT [as part of my celebrations, haha], went home and conked out.

i was all ready to buat lab report and zhui jiao, skali i went online and si dodol filza asked me to MoS with hana and saida, their NTU friend. aku aper lagi. pantang sey. haha. i took the last 12 to clarke quay, it was pretty cool, except macam bynk orang tengok2. it's so facking annoying. kalau nak bawak jacket macam leceh cos then i'll have to find somewhere to stash it.

well it was great. loved it. there was this guy who joget rabak giler sampai terjatuh2 and langgar2 everyone in the vicinity [feringhee], after that it was some unknown malay/manjen guy who CAN'T DANCE and was also freaking boring, then this guy i thot was vik but had an american accent. he was sweet. hmm after that it was eddie, the most rabak of the lot. mampos aku. after that i kinda gave up and danced with the girls. ohyeah i got to go up on the podium with filza, it was so cool! literally AND figuratively. haha. ohyah. there was this really cute guy. he's macam, mixed. and extremely cute. i swear. the moment i saw him, i was like, "what is THAT???" and totally la, sparks flew within 10 seconds. haha. that was cool. too bad that was it. tu je. bye, the first hot guy who was ever interested in me.

hmm after that we went to mac's. [ohyeah we finally left at like 4. haha.] we were positively dying of tiredness over our drinks when these two feringhees came in. one of them was wearing a green suit. grass green. suit as in, his jacket and pants were the same shade and make. so u know me, i was like, "LAWA baju!" haha. well while he queued up, his friend started talking to us from where he was standing at the counter. he was like, "do u girls like my friend's outfit? it's his favourite colour." we nearly died laughing. then he came and sat next to me while waiting for his friend, and just talked to us, like david did the last time. anyway i forgot his name, but he's a Brit, and his friend's Aussie. they were from some yacht at pasir panjang. and boy did he REEK. [of alcohol, duh.] but u know, he was funny. they bought loads of burgers [no drinks], and then they left.

think that's the end of the story? no it's not! haha. we were walking to the taxi stand thingy, and these two mats were macam, trying to flirt with us or some crap. but whatever, so i was malas to take a cab cos macam tanak waste duit. haha. sedih. and the other three were trying to convince me to go back to their hostel. ohwell. tanak ah. and those two guys keluar 7-11 and nak berkenalan with us. so i hung out with them till like 630, nak tunggu first bus nyer pasal. in the end one of them sent me home in a cab. how sweet right?

yo yo yo.

smalam was quite hebat. i needed some sort of a pick-me-up, so i wore one of my ultimate pick-me-up outfits. [in all senses of the word.] so after perfumes i went for driving, which was really quite cool cos i got ong again. yay. everything went pretty cool, except my lane-changing still sucks. but now i think i finally know how to use the rearview mirror. so heh. AAAND. there were like 837650264 people having road riding lessons!!! so it was TOTALLY COOL. very very fun.

and AFTER driving, i walked past si fire station as usual, and that's when i got to thinking, it'd be great to have a CD matair. people would be like, "so tu matair kau?" me: "yup." and they'd ask, "so what does he do?" --"oh, he's a firefighter." TOTALLY LA!

anyway. i walked all the way, dah sampai the guardhouse part. and there were 2 of them in there. and i heard them like, bisinging, and then they were like, "bye!" so i turned around a little to look at them, and i managed to supress my laughter into a smile. so they were like, "alah, senyum senyum.. meh ah..!" well. what was i supposed to do? go to the guardhouse and join them? shout out, "9873****!!!" duhh, no rite? so i just like, tossed my hair and sashayed off. [okay everyone wants to kill me now for step paris hilton.] but i couldn't stop smiling till khatib. whee!

later tt night i went out with MuZ, and i bumped into ammar [who looks more like a bapak than ever, more's the pity], this cute guy who seems to work at novena cos he always comes to my workplace near closing time, AAAAAND fai. no not fai MOS. fai esplanade. i went out with him briefly, before school started. he was with 2 of his friends. and i nearly died when i saw him walking, with his dyed hair and helmet and well. i just died la. so when he stopped to talk to me, i did the same. and when he told me he lost his phone and to msg him my number, i just told him to take it down immediately. ahhh. he's so cute sometimes.

then this morning fai MOS msged me. unfortunately, i only replied like an hour later. so i bet dier takkan dapat the msg or something. damn.

chinese was pretty cool today. it was the self-intro thingy which i stayed up for hours last night to do. and it went over quite well, i think. heh. wo hen xihuan kan haokan nanren. wo you ji ge pengyou, ke shi wo mei you nanpengyou yin wei wo bu mei. yi tian wo yao jia gei haonanren, gen yi ge erzi, yi ge nuer. anyways, it was fun. espesh when i said wo jiao Nor-Ain, ke shi renren jiao wo No-Rain and he said sorry. and ricky is quite weird, but cute at the same time. and jaakob is SOOOO funny. haha.

oooOOOooo and lonerguy was in lect today, as usual. looking toohottohandle as usual with his browntshirt, jeans, slippers, cap and THAT UGLY JINGGA WATCH. but u know. whatever floats your boat, honeybun. and when he smiles, i swear, it's like world peace. so tadi when i saw him doubled over in laughter, i practically went into a seizure. and at the end of the lecture, he was just sitting there alone, and i had to restrain myself from running over and leaping into his lap. anyway finally he left, and he kept looking back [to alfian, duh] and then... HE WAVED!!! [still to alfian] well, nat will testify that i keeled over and swooned onto the chair next to me. bye, dilly darling.

yeah one more thing i did last night. i watched porn! for the first time in my life! haha. it was the infamous NYP one actually. MuZ had it on his phone. it was SO long, and SO explicit, and my first thought was, "oh, so that's what it looks like from the back.." my second thought [of revulsion] was, "putih giler sey diorang!" anyway, if anyone wants to watch it, i'm sure MuZ will be more than happy to send it to me. [yuck, though.]

ohwells. back to life.



i took that this morning. also a representation of my residual good mood. nice, huh?

i didn't know where to selitkan this in the template, so here it goes.

just checking in.

today's been boring with no real long-lasting cute guys. but so far, bearable, cos i haven't yet fallen asleep. BUT. my mp3 player and/or my earphones are like rosak, so i can only hear the background sound of my mp3s, unless i spend the entire time like, pressing my earphone jack to one side. sheesh. how annoying.

anyway. just some random pics i was gonna put up.

my nails as on saturday 25 february. there was a little arrangement of testers, and the promo lady told us to have fun, so i did. of course, she had the last laugh cos i ended up buying three bottles. at $7.90 each. sheeesh.



and a coupla photos i took in the van during newspaper collection a.k.a. astaghfirullah day.

just trying something new:

it's Over. i know i've always said that I Just Wanna Be Loved, but i guess i wasn't that Into You. Butakah Cinta? i would have to say yes. i know that all you had was Harapan Untuk Hidup Bahagia, and i'm really Sorry Sorry for ruining that for you. i guess If It's Lovin' That You Want, i'm not Your Girl. understand that it was Wonderful for me, and you were always a Sweetheart, i was just being a Nasty Girl. i Don't Know Why i'm so Scared of commitment or whatever, or maybe i'm just waiting for The One. and maybe you weren't it. Mungkin Nanti kita kan bertemu lagi, but for now we'll have to Say Goodbye. I Wish You Well, and in the meantime, Don't Forget About Us. because i won't.

okay so THAT's done. anyway just wanted to complain cos this really cute guy added me on friendster. dahlah cute, he rides a bike, AND he drives a mitsubishi, AND if that doesn't rock your socks already, he's in SCDF!!! mati aku. i was just about to send him a message when i scrolled down and found out that he's married. *pffttt* goes the balloon. YARGHHH.

the aprilia rs50 and rs125!!! i didn't even KNOW that 50cc bikes existed! dream bike, definitely. now i wish i lived in italy.






and speaking of dream bikes.. this one is more than a dream bike la, it's more like, a when-pigs-fly bike. cos besides having to scrape up the bucks to buy it, and parallel-import it and whatever, i also have to get a class 2. so have fun la aku.

the ducati 749.



yes i know i'm supposed to be doing my work.

i'm not working today! yessahhhh!

of course that leaves me with no choice but to do the work that's been piling up since EVER. haha. no idea where to start cos there's so much to do. but whatever.

i saw a ducati last night! i was in the bus home from work. and it was parked on the grass verge outside century square. and it was a sportsbike! really really beautiful, all black and shiny, with "ducati" on the fuel tank in white. i nearly died. i couldn't see much though, cos the bus just kinda zoomed past. but it really helped cheer me up.

anyway. guess i should get back to life. academic life, i mean. bye. btw, check out baba's blog for further evidence of how giler i've always been.

i'm so tired. tired tired tired tired.

well i haven't worked in over a month. so it comes as no surprise that those 4 hours were pure torture for my legs. but it's still fun otherwise. maria and bandit and hardy. hardy was so cute today. he kept nudging me, bumping into me, hitting me, and talking to me about articles in weekend today. there's loads of new staff, judging from the unfamiliar punch cards. should be interesting to meet all of them.

i went tanning on thursday. after the first bout of rain, which i evaded by watching erin brockovich. haha. well it cloudbursted a couple of times while i was at the pool, but it was generally okay. there were less than ten people around at any one time. haha. it was fun, though. i don't like crowds anyway. and interestingly enough, i was like the only girl around. funnay funnay. and then like half an hour before i was gonna leave, this really hot vik with a matching bod shows up. and plops his stuff about 2 sun loungers away from me. dayy-um! i had to like carefully avert my eyes when he stripped to his trunks. and then he started doing laps. i nearly died. too bad i had to leave. well the great thing about being the only girl--when i left, he was checking me out. haha. totally!

and on friday evening i had this dream about ****** [hint: vespa. cool giler.]. i dreamt tt we were together!!! and that all the other girls were crazy about him too, but he was totally oblivious to them. and even when one of the girls came up to him to do some stupid dare involving asking for his autograph, he remained cool and calm and collected and just signed the card with hardly a glance at the girl. then i woke up to a message from nat--and promptly went back to sleep. the dream actually continued with nat herself telling me that he didn't like me after all, that he was tiring of me cos i was getting too clingy.

aper ni???!!!

anyway i really hope nan asks me along this sat. i SO need an outlet.

if my life were a movie, this would be the part where the audience collectively screams at the lead actress to make the right choice. choose the guy who's completely into her and is genuinely in love with her. be mature, grow up, and stop playing the field. because, you know, if she doesn't make the right choice now, the poor audience will have to sit through a series of crappy follow-up mistakes in her life, at the end of which she'll realise that she was wrong to have thrown the right guy away, but that it's too late to get him back. and THEN the audience will have to watch her cry her life away.

but it's NOT a movie.

or maybe it is, cos it's like i can hear the audience screaming at me, but from really far away.

so if you don't mind, i'm just gonna make the wrong choice here.

i hate sounding cryptic but..

<sub>if this is a test, i'm failing it on purpose.

cos i don't need you. and i hope i didn't unintentionally give the impression that i did.</sub>