wo mei you nan peng you ying wei wo pa commitment.

filza is crazy.

filza says:
he lives at the block next to pasir ris pri
filza says:
so u can go give him a wake up shout
filza says:
from the carpark

that's not all.

filza says:
or u can ask him for a ride back to pasir ris!
filza says:
just say that you're broke, your hp is out of batt
Shopgirl says:
and how am i supposed to do tt?
filza says:
and you cant find your friends
Shopgirl says:
if i cld, i wld have done it a long time ago
Shopgirl says:
haha
filza says:
and you need to get home pronto
Shopgirl says:
wow
filza says:
coz you need to babysit your bro
Shopgirl says:
hahaha
Shopgirl says:
that's a huge story
Shopgirl says:
where's he gonna korek the other helmet from?
filza says:
its crappy..
filza says:
yea.. you have one dont you?
Shopgirl says:
yeah
Shopgirl says:
but wld i be doing carrying it ard skl?
filza says:
say you had lessons earlier!

yup. hope she didn't catch it from me.

MOS was awesome.

long entry ahead, jgn bacer sudah.

i'm so glad hanom didn't decide to cancel on me. well i was the earliest, and most on time, reaching at exactly 8. haha. i know, freaking early right? anyway after 739273 trains, the other two arrived. on the way there we jakun-ly watched the G-Max ride. it's so freaking cool! and scary. in fact, i was screaming even before the ride started.



i nearly fainted when i saw the batman lights thingy. HOW COOL! and yes i thot it was lame that we were so early. but we were too late for presale tickets. so we had to like queue up at around 9 to get in. there was this uncle-looking guy in front of us, alone, balding, complete with a windbreaker and holding a bottle of season's ice lemon tea which the bouncer [or whoever] unceremoniously threw into a nearby bin. kesian. but after that he snagged a table. kurang asam nye pakcik. yeah anyway since were were early and all, the music wasn't that hot, and no one was dancing, and anyway it was rather empty. so hannan brought us on a sort-of tour. we went to the house room--which is huge--and up the escalator to the retro room--small but really really cute with a colourful lighted-squares dancefloor and billions of discoballs, and those swinging bubble-things you sit in, and of course, colourful retro prints and textures all over the walls--around the second floor of house, which had chandeliers over the two staircases!!! and back to schmoove smoove or whatever, then we went back out.



went to 7-11, bought some provisions, then hanom and i watched a magic show while hannan and filza went off somewhere to lepak. then hanom and i decided to go back in. STILL the action blom start yet, so we took one more walk round [house had the hottest bartender!], and went back. by that time the cage was packed, so we selited ourselves in, and had a ball of a time dancing. but mannn it was freaking packed, and it was SOOOO hot for like 614729 hours before they decided to kindly crank up the aircon. and we got moved around the floor alot. somehow from the front, we ended up near the DJ console. WHERE hanom was promptly approached by this uber-hot navy guy. and I had to dance with his TAK-cute, and SHORT, friend, dean. after a while he decided to leave, and i was freaking wobbly and disoriented, so i sought refuge in the toilet, which, btw, ROCKS. there are actual red chairs infront of 7291273 mirrors for u to sit on and touch up your makeup. the cubicle doors are frosted glass. and the sinks are cool too. and there's a full-length mirror in one corner for that overall view. haha.





anyway then after like half an hour or so, the navy guy HAS to leave, and he asks hanom to come along with him and his other navy buddies. of course, hanom doesn't wanna go alone, so she asks me. and I refuse to go, cos i'm not remotely interested in any of them. haha. so he says to hanom, "okay, i guess i'll see you never then.." i nearly died. macam cute gitu. ohwell. sorry. after tt, we just chilled outside for awhile, had a drink from the vending machine, tried to regain the use of our legs, and braved our way back in. but schmoove smoove was full house, so we had to enter by house.



it was FREAKING packed. but whatever, we managed to get back into the cage thingy. and after a while we found ourselves in the middle of this group of five mats. next thing i know, hanom's dancing with the one nearest to her, so i'm like, crap, i'm dancing in the middle of four guys! haha. but it turned out great, actually. and then later i got to dance for the briefest of moments with this guy i'd been eyeing, simply cos he looked so weird with his funny cap, SHADES and purple tshirt. haha.

yeah and i bumped into fadhilah, who still looks the same, haha. and i saw huzer. bynk NS guys la. the group of mats were NS guys too.



ahhhh it was totally cool. and i lost fai outside the club, but u know, i wasn't too fussed. had breakfast with hanom at liang court mac's, and just as we were about to leave, this american dude, david, decided to join us. mampos. he was drunk, and incredibly frank and candid. and he wouldn't stop tormenting hanom about her sexy glasses and big hair, etc. i nearly died of laughter.

in baba's dorm now.

i had the craziest supper with her and atikk at fongseng, involving baba's "die-girl-die" pedas-nak-mampos nasi goreng. well it was like this--she asked the guy, "ader cili padi kan?" and he said yes so she said, "okay, letak cili padi.. banyak banyak banyak banyak." so when it arrived, she started complaining about how pedas it was. so i reached over and speared about 5 grains of it. after 2 seconds the cili padi kicked in and i almost died. but after a while, and extra orders of air, we managed to make quite a tidy business of it all.

cute guys were NOT aplenty. but ader a few la. this NS tallslimcute manjen guy. haha. and this mat in an adidas jacket, naik motor. woohooo!!! and loadsa beautiful bikes. a couple of fazers, side by side. one silver one black. with colourful arai/shoei helmets. i took some photos tapi cam, tak terjadi pasal it was dark and all.

test SUCKED. ohyeah i think i said that in the previous entry. but anyway after the stupid horror movie i went downstairs and hung out with azy, farid and my brother's guitar. haha. farid rides his company's bike, a yamaha, RXZ i think. and he has this cool piercing on his lower lip, with a blue jewel stud. very super cool.

okay check out the time i really gotta sleep soon. nanti besok cranky.

well! i actually had a great morning! i left the house like freaking early, and there were basically no hiccups, except i missed the 359 so i had to walk to the main bus stop and all that merepek. anyway. the train was fairly boring, practically no guys at all. argh. but then somewhere past raffles place this cute specs guy got in. he was adorable. mim, and i love his glasses. those allif kinds. i love allif glasses. yeah so anyway i was mugging away, cos i wasn't sleepy. and it was so cool, he kept looking at me and i kept looking at him. too soon, dah sampai bv, and when i got up he was looking at me again and i totally couldn't keep a smile off my face. what a great start to the day. woohoo!

test was shitty, though. not that i'm surprised, or blaming anyone besides myself. haha. well at least i fared better than loner guy. biler test abis, dier baru bangun!!! kesian sey. well that led me to formulate these two merepek msges to nat: Definitely. In fact, i'll provide a special personal service. Which involves me entering his room and gently shaking him awake, complete with coffee etc. Haha. followed by Haha. Ohwell. Kalau dier tido mati no choice kena kasar sikit ah. But i'm hoping the electricity of my touch will jolt him awake. yes, i know. giler much? haha.

actually, i'm sorry, i'm just trying to distract myself here. i'm watching The Wig on my own at home. and i know my mom claims it's not scary, but it is. haha.

happy 20th birthday raihan.

[not that you're gonna read this or whatever. but you know. i don't want to msg you again and bother you or whatever. so i'm just sending this out into the void in the hopes it might reach you. yep.]

riding was alright today. i didn't pass. AGAIN. but i didn't expect to, actually. so it's okay. at least i fell only once. i'm so proud of that. and now i have like a calar on my right knee. my poor right side is so battered. kesian. anyway no outstanding cute guys today, so the extent of embarrassment wasn't too large.

what WAS great about riding was what happened after that. i was like standing at the rows near the lockers and taking out our stuff. and there was this guy, mim with afro-ish hair, who'd just arrived for his orientation for pract one (2A/2). and the instructor was pointing him to the lockers and stuff. so he came over to the lockers. and started rummaging around, checking his wallet several times, then the other compartments of his bag. all the while i keep turning round to look at him. after a while i just grit my teeth and asked him, "ader one dollar tak?" and he replied the negative, so i took out my wallet and got ready to give him a dollar coin. but he took out a 10-dollar note and said, "do you have change?" luckily i did. and then he said thanks and stuff. woohoo! rocksssss.

okay i haven't done any studying since monday evening so i better start now.

LOVING this valentine's day week for TV, btw. yesternight it was Love Actually and tonight it's Ever After: A Cinderella Story. can't rem what's tmr, but friday it's Raising Helen. anyway i caught the tail-end of Love Actually this afternoon, and i was positively bawling when colin firth's character proposed to aurelia. it was SO sweet. arghhh.

alright i really have to go now.

i'm so bored. and for the record, i've had three vday smses so far. haha. i'm not boasting, i swear. one of them was from this unknown number: El0w ain, hapi valentinez 2 u.. and i was like wondering who the HELL it was. so i said, sorry, but who are you? and it turned out to be fan. firstly, kalau kau dah tukar nombor, and masih nak contact aku, please inform me of the change. and secondly, DON'T contact me anymore. haha. i felt bad la, when i found out it was him. but well.

i'm still wondering if i should reply.

it's been a really uneventful day actually. can't wait to go home and sleep.

just an update of how my arm's looking.




and if u didn't realise, that means it's worse. haha. if u're reading this shafa, i'm really sorry to gross you out.

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hmm..

so i decided to try something new today in 1121, called "listening in lecture". and hey, it worked. some stuffs actually penetrated this thick skull i affectionately call my head. haha. i'll try it again next time and maybe then i'll be able to do well. or better. or something.

sorry for the macam, incessant blogging. haha. trying to keep myself awake. cos i was up till two last night, bitching with atikk and baba. and, TOTAL EMBARRASSAMUNDO MOMENT when i accidentally dragged dhanny into the convo. and the other two dongdongs tak prasan. so i frantically PMed baba to stop talking. and we quickly exited the convo. mannn. buat malu gilerrrr.

oooOOOoooh this morning i was freaking groggy, i totally slept all the way in the train, but this time, in a very dignified manner. somehow i'd managed to wedge my head into the corner formed by the glass panel and the back wall or whatever. and i slept in that almost-upright position like, forever. haha. ohyah but NOT the point. okay then i was stoning at the bus stop, leaning against the pillar and stoning la. in my not-totally-there state i kinda noticed this kinda-cute-from-afar guy sitting on the railing at the opposite bus stop. so aku cam, stared. and he cam, stared back! haha. and it went on it like that, except that i couldn't hold his stare and i had to keep looking away. haha. anyways. then our respective buses [95, 111] arrived, so that was the end of it. well. i gotta say that definitely woke me up. hahahaha.

Bila kita dalam salam perpisahan
Namun aku tetap bersamamu
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan
Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki
Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...
Kau warisan wanita ynag terakhir
Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir... -Teacher's Pet

yest while we were waiting to cross the road at WRL, there was this adorable little boy of around two or three years of age who wandered up to me and tried to stand next to me at the traffic light. then he held out his hand to salam me. so his mom was like telling him to salam atikk and di, but he refused to! then he toddled away waving bye to me. HOW. ADORABLE.

so yest i bumped into helmi. and today while i was in 858 on the way to woodlands, i caught sight of this familiar-looking guy waiting at the kerb alone near yishun mrt. guess who. FAN. God, i nearly died. he was just standing there, in his tshirt and shorts and that jacket he always wears. thankfully, dier tak nampak aku. but wow. of all places. well he looks quite well-adjusted to me, so there goes the guilt out the window. haha. i guess he was from his cousin's place or something.

pesta pantun finals were great. fadila rocked the house, as usual. she's so adorable. and so spontaneous. but i think i already covered that the last time, so takper. after tt some of us were chilling out at mac's, and, bitten by the pesta pantun bug, we [fezhah, atikk, di, haikal, mateen, faizal, me] had our own borak-borak pantun. mostly to the theme of "attack atikk". hahaha. mann there were so many zingers, but i totally can't remember them all. let's see..

naik perahu ke pulau ketam
katil atikk ader banyak cum. [fezhah]

bawak kereta boot kat blakang
atikk nyer rambut asal cam skunk? [me!]

and so it went. there was also a classic blooper moment when haikal tried to attack me, but his first line was something like "dalam parang banyak gun", so i thought for awhile and i said, "what's parang?" to which he replied, "WAR!" we all died.

ahhh that was fun!

sigh. i bumped into excon again, at cine this time. he was with a couple of girls. tu je. him and those two girls. actually, i was gonna get ON the escalator, and he'd just gotten OFF. and i macam, stopped the presses and said hi to him. and exchanged pleasantries. this time i just let it go at that. instead of pretending like he's gonna ask me out. cos obviously he's not. and i've learnt that, i suppose. but you know. that didn't stop me from checking him out head to toe. still looks the same as i remember, right down to the shiny tongue stud. bye helmi. boys like you weren't made for girls like me. i guess.

i got the coolest silver link-chain bracelet. makes a little bit of a noise, and is kinda heavy. but i love it anyway. it really provides a contrast to my other bracelet.
me: why don't they have stainless steel bracelets? [pause] ohwait, that's handcuffs. haha.

ran a couple of errands, and then we watched Walk The Line, which is really very nice to watch. happy ending too, so yay. haha. i had no idea the singapore idol auditions were there, how interesting. and we were watching the movie on the sixth floor, incidentally, so they had to like check our tickets at the going-up escalator and all. excitiooonnggg. hahaha.

when i got home, i watched Cinderella 2 on dvd. woohoo. it's adorable. espesh when anastasia [the stepsister] falls in love [with the baker, no less]. cute.

alritey time to go to bed, i was just giving updates. nites.

so anyway. vday's a no-go. so i'll just.. go home straight after gen bio lect. yup.

one more thing i just remembered about KTM dude. he's a P-plate! cute nyer! so there's this scram with the cool thor sticker on it, and the P-plate kat atas. -melts-

every part of my body is aching. i'm pretty sure it's from all that falling and getting up. this is prolly the hardest thing i've ever been faced with. but i'm not giving up. i'm not giving up. so God, Your blessings i humbly ask for.

lab was really cool today. lovelablovelablovelab. [and i mean chem lab.] i wanted to take photos and such, but cam, takper ah. haha. but i thot the simple distillation setup looked cool. in fact i'm of the opinion that it looks COOLER than the reflux setup. more stuffs to pasang and look at. like the cool blue clips. sigh. just when i'm beginning to give up on chem, it redeems itself during labtimes.

chinese was great, then sleepy, then great again. no small thanks to thaiguy [who has the most adorable goatee EVER], yann/jann/whatever, and the cute pink-cheeked brunette in the first row. after that, the three of us went home, with much kecohness again. loadsa fun though, and "dazril" was just too cute. haha. i love SOC, or whatever he was la. haha.

when i got off at pasir ris, i decided to drop by the library on a whim, and i bumped into kak adila! [the tarian one.] as usual, aku macam, screamed embarrassingly. haha. bebual jap [she still looks the same, and she's still so cool], and then i got a coupla books out of the lib. along the way, dapat a much-needed ego-boost. heh. then i managed to catch a glimpse of bun at the fountain. oh bun. he's so cute, and so nice. and i know that's like the 6294762nd time i've said that, but it hasn't stopped being true. and i wanted to like drop by and say hi, but u know. he doesn't like me, so why should i impose my brazen presence on him? anyway it was busy, i don't wanna make life difficult for him either. oh but how i miss him. and

it's just sad how we never stop wanting what we can't have.

i realise that i sounded quite curt in the last entry. haha. si Ugly Couple totally turned me off la. let me also add here that both of them are macam tak-langsing and pasty-fair. so like YAH. there's absolutely nothing redeeming about them.

was kinda flirting with dhanny after 3J meeting yest when hanom turned off the outlet power to my D. i just stared at my blank screen in shock. i hope he doesn't think i blew him off, and therefore i'm not interested. cos i am. haha. except that he's so freaking quiet sometimes. how boring. or maybe he finds me boring too. how would i know.

after the smart money workshop, in which i finally had a net worth of more than a million dollars, we went to hazwani to eat. and i was checking out the bikes. there was a pizza hut entourage which included a lovely red honda [SP, i think] and he changed the windscreen thingy to red. lawarnyeeee.


lawar kan?

and then about 15 minutes later this guy comes zooming in on his orange KTM. i nearly died. lawar giler!!! on close inspection i realised that he was also wearing a black KTM tshirt [lettering in orange], and KTM gloves. cute nyer! and to top it off, black shoes and black helmet. he looked so adorable, even though i wouldn't look twice at him on the streets. hehe. but yeah cute.


totally loving it!

photos courtesy of di's sony ericsson, and sorry they're shitty. i was too chicken to go right up there and take the photo.

PLUS, KTM guy caught me checking out his ride. buat maluuu. i kept turning and turning to look, so i guess it was fairly obvious. ohWELL. then dier gi bilang kawan2 dier. double malu! anyways then he sat down and took out his iBook. totally la!!! budak poly/uni!!! ahhh. bes.

too bad the night ended on a sour note, cos my chicken cutlet rice took about, oh, i dunno, fortyfreakingfive minutes to arrive? and then, it wasn't even chicken cutlet rice--it was chicken cutlet [with fries etc]. the look on my face was priceless. never have i had such a dissatisfying eating-out experience.

but u know, thanks to EO for giving us a lift home. so cool!!!

i'll love you forever, i'll like you for always.. as long as i'm living, my baby you'll be.



check out what i got at the latest prac. mampos aku. it was a horrible prac by any standards. the first part of the figure 8 was alright and really fast. skali biler sampai the second part i fell. it happened again. and again. and again. sial betul. don't wanna talk about it, it was just horrible.

anyway, update on the ite mat who took our photo. i was at the century square food court with azy last night and suddenly they appeared! him and the other two, plus a couple more mats la. i nearly died. but at the same time, i was kinda drooling at him. he was in his uniform and he just looked SO good. apparently they recognised me too, cos azy sed they were looking over and laughing.

argh tadi the UGLIEST mat-minah couple and their friend were making fun of me as i used my laptop in the train. like, whatever sial. the ugly mat--whose face was covered in those horrible huge close-set pimples that are so bad they look more like boils--step typing with exaggerrated expressions. i looked up and gave him one venomous stare, and jelinged. his equally-ugly girlfriend nudged him to stop, but she was still laughing. whatever. fuck u all.

yest night i got the ultimate ego boost. we [nat and i] were in the train on the way home. and these three ITE mats got on. so i was like, "nat kau nak pilih satu?" and she demurred, so i decided to choose the cutest one, who was wearing a puma singlet and berms and was really cute in a skinny way la. okay, so after a few stops, people got off and they sat down opposite us. nat and i were being a huge mrt nuisance, laughing and giggling all the way. ANYWAYS. cute skinny guy starts fiddling with his phone, and since we were still in the tunnel, and it was one of those nokia phones where you have to twist it to take a photo, we realised that he was taking our photo!!! so blatantly somemore. and macam, just smiling nonchalantly to himself. berani sey. but u know, he was cute. so we just gave him the license to be a voyeur. later, when 90% of the train got off at tampines, and he and i were the only ones left, HE TOOK ANOTHER ONE!

unfortunately, that was the extent of his interest in us. ohWELL.

today's chinese was okay, but peter was totally missing!!! maner dier ni??? and besides him, alot of people tak dtg also. wonder why.

and although loner guy DID come for lec, i hardly got to see him. -sadsad- love the pants though.

yesterday my sms to amy was "sabar. motor ******** takleh start tadi."
today i said to her, "aku naik motor aku ah niari." woohoooooo. berangan doksss.

amy: [to shah] d*z*** kan nak kahwin pakai t-shirt and jeans.. kau kahwinlah pakai t-shirt and jeans SKIRT!

how boring can chem lecture be?

dah lama eh aku tak blog? ohwell. bynk keje ah. haha. i forgot whatever happened the past few days anyway.

riding-wise, i've been good. despite the fact tt i still didn't clear pract 3 on my third try. BUT. it's all still cool. pasal one, i didn't fall during the actual figure of 8, at all!!! and two, i talked to two guys that day--a cute mim with allif specs, and this manjen dude and i discussed how shitty the whole prac 3 is. oh yeah and three, it actually wasn't that hot, although it was sunny. as in, my face wasn't sweating, so that can only be a good thing. haha.

i saw 5.5 cute guys in the train today, despite the phenomenally-long 15-minute wait for 359 this morning. hotak berjambul ah. i was standing there like an idiot, waiting and waiting and waiting. yes i know i should have just walked to the main bus stop. tapi cam malas. and stubborn. haha. ohwell. the guys sorta made up for it. there was Sly-looking Abdillah, Grown-up Rudy [who turned out to be Sly-looking Abdillah's friend], Very Hot Guy, Hot Guy, and Perplexed Face. the 0.5 goes to this other guy who was sitting infront of me, tapi muker cam karat sikit. haha.

i thot pesta pantun yest was great. it was funny, entertaining, eye-opening, but minimal eye candy ah. there was one girl from yishun jc who was really really good. spontaneous, funny, cute, semangat and just great la. anyways after that baba and i went to parkway parade swensen's and had our usuals, plus a topless 5. yummy-yummers. before and after pics:




bus zooms past.
me: NOOOoooo!!!...
nat: kau sleng ah ain..! i'm SURE you were gonna chase after it laaa.
bus zooms past on opposite side of road.
nat: NOOOOOOOOoooooo!!!...
haha. i know aku giler.

so, as one can tell from reading my blog entries, i've done nothing during the uber-long CNY-Muharram weekend besides go out, go out and go out. sunday was fireworks at the esplanade, monday was singapore river cruise, tuesday was Cheaper by the Dozen 2 [carmen electra is hothothot, and tom welling's SO facking cute. BUT WHERE WAS ASHTON??? although i have to concede that the replacement guy is cute. STILL.] at shaw house [or whatever it's called], which rocks!

and yesterday we had dinner at swensen's. haha.

oh and i passed my FTT. haha. although i'm only at subject 19 now [right turns], so lagi lama baru aku amek test la. i did directional change, which is so freaking fun. i mean, it's all very slow-go and relaxing. yup. jangan terlanggar kerb sua. hung out at baba's place in between the test and driving. and we browsed people's profiles on friendster. so fun. i think the last time we did that was with samit. [as in, we checked out his profile. we didn't check out profiles with him. haha.]

on tuesday at tong seng there was this uber-irritating girl. part of a posse of hip-hoppers, a mix of pompans and lelakis. she talked in english la, kinda loudly and, of course, irritatingly. with her coloured contacts and french braid and makeup, i felt like i was watching a rerun. so i was like, "do i talk like that?" and azy was like, "umm..." i DIED. he hastened to add that i don't talk as loud. SHEESH. well u know what they say, it takes one to know one. and i felt repulsed that people might be have the same opinion of me. but. that's not all! about 10 minutes later, one of the guys was like, "kau tak makan, ain?" and another guy quipped, "ain tak makan? ain tak makan?!?!?!" her name was ain!!! i completely terasered in more ways than one.

well, unpleasant memories aside, i actually managed to finish my lab report today, and i just handed it in at the lab. and i got a glimpse of loner guy while i was at it. SO FUN. so cute so cute so cute!!! haha.

yup that should be it. back to my prelab.

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't, you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl, it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye -paraphrased from Chris Brown

guess what i did just now? i went on a singapore river tour! how incredibly fun! and beautiful! it costs 12 bucks for an adult. anyways. very nice. we got in at the riverside point stop. and swayed all down the river and back up. it was all so beautiful, cos it was round bout 730, so everything was lighted up and stuff. if only i'd had a camera. i'd have been snapping away like those tourists infront of me. i nearly died when we passed the fullerton. it was SO undescribably lovely. from all angles! including the merlion angle. well. the whole experience rocked. there's nothing like being right smack in the middle of a river with breathtaking sights on both sides.

i have to do that again. it was so great. touristy, but who cares? it was great. and liang court starbucks has the cutest baristas in town! plus they serve frappucinos in a really nice tall starbucks glass. classy..

today's cute guy was this mim dude in a pink tshirt, khaki berms, white adidas velcro shoes with black ankle socks, dark shades and a messenger bag. i know, freaking detailed right? but he was so cute! and i had to bite my lip to keep from smiling to myself. he smelled great, too. and of all the seats in the train, he had to pick the one 3 seats away from the corner one i was in. totally laaaa!!! too bad, we had to part at city hall. but, as with all other cute train guys, it was nice while it lasted.

i can't look at cisco vans [trucks?] the same way again. not since the other day when nat and i were walking to the eunos mrt bus stop and she said, "eh check out the cisco guy.." so i turned and looked right into the van [truck?] and found myself staring the driver right in the eye. how embarrassing. well. he was cute. but nat was telling me to look at the one in the passenger seat, actually. anyway i macam, doubled my pace and tried not to laugh so hard or look so embarrassed. ohWELLs. adventure of that day.

well i thot the bengkel yest was great. the kids are so adorable. irma and i were laughing over their conversation at lunch. yup. really cute. and really funny. and the videos they made were hilarious. whatever doubts i had, whatever shittiness i experienced throughout the preparation stage of this project, they were all forgotten/dispelled as i sat there yesterday watching it all unfold. thanks to everyone who made it all possible, but since amy is the only one applicable who'll read this, thanks amy!!! everyone loved your certificate design. and hajar said it was a pity we bought such nice paper cos she liked your original design with the background. anyway, the gist of it is, thanks. you made my job THAT much easier. yeps.

it's been so long since i last blogged! haha. pe je. yesterday i watched Fearless with azy, and i actually fell asleep. i think it was halfway thru, i just gave up cos i was so freaking tired and sleepy, so i slept. all the way till the movie ended. how sad. sorry jet li. aku tak sengaje. i mean, he was cute and funny and all, but i was just beat.

the chinese test wasn't too bad, i think i might actually pass. haha. i think thaiguy is so cute and witty! arghhh. mati aku. and yest he was wearing a nusantara top. loves it! haha.

ohMAN i took so freaking long in lab!!! pasal i was too skared to turn up the hotplate to "high", so i guess it wasn't hot enough, so i had to add loads and loads of water, until it actually passed the 150ml mark! how stupid of me! dahlah aku duduk candlelight ngan bulan [or whatever his name is]. sheeesh. so anyway, i had to like, evaporate off the water, and wait for it to crystallise. then i sat for eons at the vacuum-Buchner area, before nat realised that the stupid vacuum was off! bodohnyer aku. then i did the melting point thingy, and the drying thingy. i lost bynk mass and all, so it weighed 2.something grams je. i'm a losaaaaa. ohwell. it wasn't a total loss--i took beribu pics. haha.

bengkel's been really great so far. the lone boy here is adorable. he's funny and outspoken, sounds like rudy and looks like, erm, a mat, i suppose. a dark one.

ohwells. i had loads more to write, but i guess i can't remember them all now. finally my stressful week is over, nak dikatakan, and i'll sleep my way through CNY.

fuck the poets of the past, my friends.
there are no beautiful suicides
just cold corpses with shit in their pants
& the end of the gifts. - Postsecret

i was like dying yest after driving. pasal i was hungry. and my mom cooked mi putih. so, NO WAY. i stupidly took the bus home, and i was just freezing my fingers off. and everything else too. serious. my fingers were numb and could hardly move. then i started having horrible tummyaches. anyway, azy decided to meet me for dinner la, so i wldn't have to eat disgusting mi putih. yeah so i waited at the int, practising my chinese characters, ironically while listening to my jiwang malay songs. hahaha. well i finally met farid, and his girlfriend. he has this really cool-looking bike, all sleek and dark, but it's kickstart. ohwell.

driving was great. i did countless right turns and U-turns. quite fun. yay.

yest after riding an ite mat chatted me up! woohoo! haha. slight problem though: he's kinda not-cute. and short. ohwell. but he was really nice. cos it was my first pract 3, and duh, figure of 8, so aku macam jatuh2 everywhere. my poor bike. i think i fell a minimum of 10 times. i even macam, zoomed ACROSS the grass verge at one point. it was crazy. and painful. and dirty [bynk mud patches]. and, of course, highly embarrassing. i have brand new bruises now. and we [nat & me] were thinking that i should like, label my bruises. and watch the progress of their disappearance/fadeaways. yah ANYWAY. i was just sitting there after the pract--momentarily alone pasal nat gi minum air--and macam, terlantar there on the chair. and he was packing his stuff two chairs away from me. suddenly i heard a voice say, "okay tak?" rupernyer dier bebual ngan aku!!! so i was like, yeah thanks and all that la. and he was like, telling me, don't worry, that actually i was quite steady in general, and that all i needed to do was practise more. yup. i thought it was really nice of him. if i were some ite mat, and i kept seeing ME fall 159462094 times, i'd just brand me as a loser and avoid any form of contact. so anyway i thought it was nice of him la, to be so supportive and all. yup. i think he was on circuit revision yest.

after that i caught Memoirs of a Geisha with azy. it's REALLY GOOD. i nearly died when i fell in love with ken watanabe too. haha. and it was so cool that it has a happy ending. i love happy endings. greatgreatgreat movie. and zhang ziyi is incredibly pretty. and the little kid who plays chiyo is pretty too!

oh speaking of asian actors i fall in love with, do u know why Fearless is jet li's final martial arts movie? cos he has some kinda spine problem, so he's unable to do any more action movies [unless, of course, he's acting as the incapacitated former hero a la bruce wayne in batman of the future. haha. sorry jet. u know i love you.]!!! isn't that so sad! i totally love him la! but apparently this isn't the end of him, he'll be acting in non-action movies i guess, in so-called serious roles. but anyway. gotta watch this swan song for sure.

chinese tutorial this morning was great, despite the severe lack of sleep i was experiencing. peter sat next to me [or rather, I sat next to him] and he looked SOOOOO good in a long-sleeved shirt with the sleeves rolled up mid-forearm [striped], berms, and cool white slippers. which macam sorta matched MY NUM slippers, so that's a bonus point for him. anyways. whenever our eyes bertembung, i almost drowned. he has the most AMAZING eyes which are a shade of blue somewhere in between pale and electric. man. i nearly died. i love his hair too. such a nice balance between boring blonde and sedate brown. okay now i sound like a hairdresser/hair-dye-promoter. anyways. he rocks. i look forward to every tutorial just to see him. cos he's so amazingly lawar. and those rosy cheeks. they just sum everything up beautifully. now. excuse me while i swoon.

me: maybe he doesn't come on thursdays..
amy: today is tuesday.
baba: mampos. aku baru nak add, "agaknye dier takut hantu, malam jumaat".
collective laughter.

i know it's been like eons since i last blogged. alot has happened, and i've been too tired/busy/dissatisfied to blog.

i passed my pract 2 though, did i mention? it was so cool. i could hardly believe it at first. cos i kept losing my balance, had to put my right foot on the ground a coupla times. so i didn't really think i'd pass. but i did. i think we all did, cos before returning our booklets si tamrin was like giving some lecture on how important pract 2 was, and how we'd be doing it all our lives, etc. so i was like thinking, does this mean we all pass? well. guess so. pract 3 today, and i'm kinda nervous. but with God's grace, i will get through it la, and eventually pass. someday. haha.

i lovelovelove the cute guys at riding. i swear i do.

went out with azy yest to get my new shoes. this red-and-black vans pair. i know they look like darth maul, but i think they're adorable. adorable and loud. haha. at first the TM shop takde, and i was kicking up a fuss and being all grumpy. so we went to orchard. where, of course, the shaw centre one pun takder. finally we found it at stadium. yay. and i found this really really nice black puma jacket that is to DIE for. 79 bucks, though. and i really can't afford any luxuries while i'm paying for my practs and berangan2 nak save up for a bike and stuff so.. i dunno. guess i won't be getting it la. i don't actually NEED another jacket anyway. [yeah ain, keep telling yourself that. someday you may actually believe it. haha.]

there was a cute guy at the 359 bus stop this morning. mim, i think. and one of those nat types. u know, black, headphones, sneakers and all? yeah. he's really cool. with his hair and everything. but that was about the only good thing about missing my bus this morning. there was some annoying old perv sitting next to me. argh. i wanted to stick a pen in his face. or his balding head, i'm not too fussy really. i promise i will not miss the bus next time. those CD mats are missing me something terrible. haha.

i got a really rude shock yest night when i got home. fan msged me to ask what i was doing and stuff. so i sed, just got home.. and he was like, from work? to which i replied, no, from going out.. so HE asked, oh.. wif? and i panicked a bit and decided not to reply at all since i didn't wanna lie, and i didn't exactly wanna tell him either. i thought that was the end of it BUT. he msged again, Went wif sum1 special? which kind of sealed it. i didn't reply AT ALL. but i was wondering how he came to tt conclusion. maybe he saw me with azy. maybe one of his friends saw me with azy. highly unlikely, considering NONE of them know me. and of course, there's the equally unlikely option of him being extra intuitive. wahahaha.

and i can't wait to get out of this backstabbing community known as PBM. irony, irony.

i caught Green Street Hooligans at lido yest. and yes i'm gonna call it that, instead of "Football Hooligans", cos it's the original title anyway, and it sounds SO much cooler, no? yeah well anyway. it was great. excellent. violent and real and gritty and elijah wood is very cute in it, but completely overshadowed by the hot guy playing pete. woohoo!!! i nearly died cos he was just so amazingly hot. botak, cool, AND he teaches! what more can you ask for, right?

driving today was okay, i suppose, but i dunno. i was kinda shitty. it was better with ong. ohwell. but i spent like, the entire time out on the road, how cool is that? still. sometimes i wish i was back on the circuit so i can check out all the riding mats. ohWELL.

i dropped by work today to collect my cheque. unfortunately, it's crossed, so i HAVE to bank it in. damn. i dunno how i'm gonna top up my storevalue account now. anyway. i was starving at that point. not having eaten breakfast and all. you know i can't function if i don't eat before leaving the house. even if i'm FREAKING late, i always take the time to eat. everything else takes a backseat. but it was macam, disgusting stale pizzas. tak main ah. and i was just staring longingly at fish & co. i nearly walked in, since dah dapat gaji and all. but u know, my aloneness stopped me. i mean, i HAVE eaten alone before, but that was at like, bk or mac's or whatever. not an actual restaurant like fish & co or swensen's or whatever. so i wasn't ready to make that my virgin solitary meal. or whatever. haha.

had dinner with azy just now. this cat which hangs around my estate just wouldn't leave us alone! i wouldn't mind if it just sat there [which it did at first]. but noooo. it macam, jumped up to us. and that's not enough! it snuggled up to me!!! aperniii??? i nearly died of fear. haha. i know it's irrational to be so scared. but i am, okay? so there. well azy tried to get it away from me, but it macam, stuck out its claws, apparently, so he couldn't really do anything. while it just baringed against my legs. seriously. i was paralysed with fear.

but as you can see, i got away. haha.

last one. turns out the "farhan" who's supposed to be working at my place isn't him after all. sigh. i dropped by swensen's just now after dinner. and he was at the fountain. and i just stood there, smiling at his back [he was washing up] until he turned around and sed, "eh kau! kau buat aper kat sini?" sigh. i really really really miss him. i don't even know why. it's just that he's so adorable. and nice. and cute. and i love his hair and his face and his kurusness and his love with bikes. i was gonna macam, make conversation with him, when stella came and said, "eh yang, you tunggu farhan ah?" well. i turned red enough to shame my roxy handbag and said, "hotak kau ah!" and left. sigh. thanks for kacau-ing daun, stella. amazing how it's been almost half a year and she STILL thinks i like him. and i thought she was slow.

i know it's weird that i mention azy and bun in almost the same breath. but you see, there's a difference here. it's okay to do that cos i can never have bun. i found that out a long time ago. so. yeah. i just have to live with it. and continue missing him. cos that's about all i can do.

me: asal kau asyik bising pasal tu? kau dah regret dropping him kan?
baba: ewah, drop sey! kau ingat dier aper, module?

giler.

so, even though i didn't pass the pract, yest was a blast.

i officially have a crush on the manjen dude from our first lesson. yes and i still don't know his name. but anyway. i sat around at the canteen and waited, then when i got there, he was sitting there and this huge smile just spread itself on my face. then i sat infront of him and macam, bebual. it was so cool. he was doing circuit revision. and we actually talked! he's in RP, first-year, and you know, stuff like that. he's so adorable. and he has the most endearing smile known to womankind. it didn't stop there. whenever we bertembunged at intersections or junctions, he'd smile at me. the other time he stopped behind me at the red light and smiled in my rearview mirror. oh he's SO adorable. kill me now.

the lesson itself was okay. i was pretty nervous about falling and stuff, but the worst of it was that my Rowley XLTs kept getting stuck after changing up, i got rust on my sleeve, and i lost my balance a coupla times and had to put my left foot down. haha. ohyeah and i was like the only girl in that lesson, macam bodoh sey. and there was only one other girl around. as a result, people actually macam, noticed me. ohwell. no friendly guys this time. but at least ader tt manjen dude.

azy met me at the canteen after my lesson, and we went to TM. at taha's void deck i complained that i was getting blisters from my shoes, so we exchanged footwear. yes like that scene in My Sassy Girl. i felt so horrible and guilty. yet, comfortable. hahahaha.

oooOOOooo and this morning's chinese tutorial was amazing. seven of us, and only the three of us were singaporeans. there's a really really cute swede, peter. rosy cheeks and well he just looks great. mmhmm. and it was very fun la. the tutor kept on making me answer his questions. like, "what does gao xing mean?" or "is 'lah' derived from the malay language?" hahah. buat malu. but mostly i cld answer the qns la. prolly the first tutorial i didn't feel like falling asleep in, despite the fact that i had less than 5 hours last night.

just now loner guy was in lec. woohoo.

shah: thanks ain aku sayang kau!
shah: though you don't like the female touch..

hm. yest i had such a horrible time at first. i went out to go to baba's place before going to work. i waited at the bus stop. the bus came. i boarded it. i tapped my wallet. it didn't beep. i realised tt i'd left my ezlink card BACK AT HOME. i embarrassedly asked the driver to let me off. it started raining. i walked home. it rained EVEN MORE HEAVILY. i was like, wth? serious. muka aku cam nak bunuh any living thing that dared stray into my path. i reached home, and ignored my sister, who looked at me quizzically and prolly asked something which i didn't hear. i stood for a few indecisive minutes in my room, wondering what to do, since it was already 3, and work started at 6 and all. finally i decided to just go back out there, since i was already dressed and since i'd already made plans. you can't bring me down with a little cloudburst and some mild embarrassment. i'm stronger than that. yet, i was close to tears not 5 minutes earlier. okay so i went back out. and then abg rahim called and said i didn't have to come to work. woohoo! so i spent a few glorious lepaking hours at baba's place, then i went home and caught raising helen like i'd been wanting too. woohoo. it rocks la. i almost cried again. haha.

and then THIS morning i missed one train, but u know, no biggie cos i was still early. haha. and then CD mats just started streaming into the train! at the rate of 2 per station. it was so cool. love love love CD mats. i was totally feasting. haha. that was super-fun.

so. i went out with fan today. i think the last time we went out was like, the last week of ramadhan. so you know. it's been awhile. and yes i DID miss him, those first few weeks. i did. but you know, it wore off. it's like i'm a souffle, and you can't turn the heat up too high, or leave me in the oven for too long. i'll deflate. okay sorry for the dumb analogy. call me fickle. call me a ho. call me whateverlah, i mean, you might be right. how would i know. but that's what i'm like lah.

anyway. i had fun. cos u know, he's fun to hang out with. he's interesting and funny and all. and he didn't seem to mind my state of dress. we just walked around beach road and got his police pants. and btw i have to go back there and check out the secondhand bookshop. and the tshirts. yeah then we cabbed to yishun, and he dropped me off at the country club.

the charity dinner was great. kashbir was there [but with his gf]. wak was there. i love his hair. what else. yeah it was fun. great camwhoring guys! haha. great food too. most of it similar to magic wok offerings.

klah. somehow my mood has been killed. i shall go read a book. then i have to go work tmr. tata.

just checking in, cos i don't go online at home anymore, since i have work and stuff. it was really busy yest.. i nearly died. haha. and a couple of the girls from white sands came, and despite looking endlessly bitchy and minah, they were quite nice and friendly to me. hahaha. and one of them IS suria. i KNEW it was her. i can't believe it, though. she definitely doesn't look like she's given birth before.

oh anyway, another thingy that happened at work. wheee. abg rahim called this guy "farhan" and asked him to confirm dier nak keje kul brape all that. i think it might be bun, you know. so i nearly did a victory dance right there. but he's working lunchtime la, so we won't be working together. dang. anyway it might not be him. well. just pray it's him. i miss him loads. he's such a cutie. it'd be great to work with him again.

ah and the sun appears to have come out of hiding! i'm so excited and happy!!! woohoo!!! so i celebrated it by wearing my green topshop shades, yay. and there were a coupla cute guys in the train. how fun. lovelovelove cute guys.

ohWOW. i saw like one of the most captivating guys EVER, last night in 21 home from work. he's this muslim vik, really tall and slim and very darkly good-looking. AND. that's not all! he was wearing a black guy's jubah or whatever they call it. u know, the kind the alim people wear with pants. except his was full-length, reaching all the way to his feet, so no pants la. omg. i totally died. wait. that's not all. he had dyed blonde hair. how do i know it was dyed? cos his eyebrows were black. haha! ooh and he was wearing celak, which enhanced his looks even more, if that's possible, AND he was listening to his discman, which enhanced his coolness, and of cos, he was with his parents, which enhanced his budak-baik-ness. oh God. he was just too perfect. i couldn't take my eyes off him. haha.

anyway i passed my RTT, which, objectively speaking, isn't too much of a surprise considering i passed BTT only last month, and anyway i did like 8930482 practice tests before this. haha. oh and we had lunch at fish & co before that, really yummy! a coupla cute guys, not that squidward-with-blonde-hair was one of them. haha.

i just finished stuffing my face. sheesh. ohwell. first day back at school was okay. pretty short. unfortunately, i only spotted loner guy AFTER lecture was over.

hm and then cosmetics was okay. obviously more girls than guys. i found the cute guy for this sem, haha. this rosy-cheeked manjen dude. niceee. oh but so much for me doing well this sem, cos 5 minutes into cosmetics and i was surfing for zoombinis and visiting myscene. sheesh.

ohwell. maybe thursday will be a better day.

omgggg. guess which cute guy from my past i bumped into yest night??? ex-con. i died. i can't believe how long it's been since i last saw him. 9 months, to be exact. his last day at work. and i missed him like crazy those first few months, and i'd have given anything just to see him again, but i never saw him. i did get to talk to him online a coupla times, but that was it. and then a few months ago i never saw him online again. so yesterday was a huge and pleasant surprise for me. i was with azy, actually, on the way to as-shalihin. and i was kinda tired and stuff, so i was just walking without really caring about the people around. then suddenly i saw a familiar face from about 10 metres away. and he was looking at me too. and then my face just broke into the biggest smile ever, the way he used to make me smile back in the swensen's days. yeah so i just stood there for awhile, talking to him. usual platonic stuff like "kau ngan saper?" [him] and "dah lama aku tak jumpa kau!" [me]. amazing how i hadn't forgotten his face after all those months. and that usual bored expression of his. and his voice. oh God. i just missed him so much. despite his setanness. i know. i'm a sucker for punishment. or something. and i suppose that was prolly a one-time thing and i'll never see him again. but there is no way i'll forget him. as shitty as he is, i'll never forget him. even now i keep replaying last night in my head. and i think that if i were ever lucky enough to bump into him again, that stupid grin would prolly slide involuntarily onto my face again.

ohyeah and yest was the bbq. quite fun yea. yah but di and i were tak puas hati with the meagre amount of food we ate la. even though we weren't strictly hungry. haha.

sorry but back to the ex-con thing. it HAD to be fate. it just had to. for one, i wasn't even gonna meet azy at first. i was gonna join atikk and zahdan in going to K5. and anyway, azy wanted to eat at afghanistan, but he made a wrong turn. and you know, i dunno! i just can't believe i got to meet ex-con again, just when i least expected it.

hi friends. i'd like to start by thanking God. for letting me get the next 3 stamps required to pass lesson one. so, THANKS GOD. it meant so much to me. espesh since i kinda screwed up the figure S thing by falling/stalling ALL THE FREAKING TIME. no really. so i concluded that they passed me out of pity. it WAS my sixth session, you know. and when i collected my booklet, the guy gave me a Look, i gave him one in return, and he said, "come back again.." so my dejected face came on, and i opened the booklet and there were those 3 huge stamps! i died. no i didn't. in fact, i exclaimed, "OH MY GOD!" at around 83028402 decibels. and he laughed. yup. once again, thanks God.

a few cute guys. and some of them were in my lesson. a pity most of them were in orientation. dahlah tu, at the end of the lesson they were completely clueless, and the instructor told them to put back their number tags, and they were still like, lost. the cutest one turned to me, and i was like, "um, taruk balik [points to number tags].." and he was like, "OH!" adorable. but u know. it was cool. cos there were only 4 of us repeating. so we had plenty of time for everything. and i ended up being the only girl and i was like going so slowly, 30km/h, so i think they had a hard time trying NOT to overtake me. sorry dudes. and then yeah at the figure S shit, i stalled so many freaking times. kesian the manjen dude who went after me. he had to wait like ALL the time. but don't worry, it's all good, cos we terserempaked at the bus stop afterwards, i lent him like 30 cents and we had a short chat. another cool thing about riding lessons: you get to meet new people and make new friends. funfunfun. and u know. the wind and rain in your face. cooooool.

oh and surprisesurprise, i'm taking 6 mods this sem. something i NEVER considered, to be perfectly honest. but i couldn't bear to drop ANY of the mods i got. so. yes.
-the two chem mods, CM1121 and CM1131,
-TWO life sciences mods, LSM1301 and LSM1302: general bio and genes & society,
-PR2202: cosmetics and perfumes,
-and of course, LAC1201, the one i've been coveting since LAST sem: chinese.

busybusybusy. if i can't take it i'll S/U one of them la. i hope i can make it, cos it'll be great to take 4 mods in a sem. i'm kinda scared at the prospect of being SO occupied, but at least it leaves NO time for guys. which can only be a good thing, the way things have been going. yeah.

yah i almost forgot to mention the SORRY condition of the toilet at orchard mrt. it used to be one of my favourites, back in the RGS days. i used to go there all the time, before skl, after skl, whenever. NOW it's been downsized to three cubicles. all sitting. problem is, NONE of them are usable! when i went yest afternoon, the first was flooded, the middle one had no tissue and was teenily flooded, and the last one had what looked like a mound of shit on the ledge above/behind the toilet bowl! ohyes there was also bloody tissue on the floor in between the first and middle cubicles, and of course, the whole freaking place STANK. too bad aku dah takleh tahan. if not, i'd have scarpered. GOD. never again. never again. ironic, of course, that it was the orchard one, and not, say, the pasir ris one, that was gross.

how sad to end my entry on that note. well. i have a busy life ahead of me. so i better make like a bee and buzz off now.

[ohyes. i forsee grumpiness and crabbiness in my future, due to all these thingies i've committed myself to. so that might be the tone of later posts. just a general warning. sorry in advance.]

woohoo driving was great today. i got some manjen dude called ong, who doesn't talk much, but was a great influence to my driving. i was totally great, i swear! haha. and he passed my stage one, and yeah it was just cool. and it finally rained during driving, how exhilarating! haha. but at first aku macam terkial2 cos i had NO idea how to operate the windscreen wipers. so i ter-activated the spray jets or whatever. TWICE. and he was like, "nevermind nevermind, must wash, cos kena rain all dirty already." haha. i DIED. also, the classic: "yellow box can go in.." so i proceeded to ease off the brake and move forward. and he was like, "wah like that also u believe ah?" and he just died laughing.

actually i spent all my time on the road today, so i didn't see any cute riders. ohwell. there were a coupla cute pedestrians, and this vik who took the same train from khatib with me. i still dunno if he was going for driving or riding.

yeah then it was the secretaries meeting followed by home. ohwell. safe and sedentary day for me.

hey.

had my first riding prac alone today. alone=no nat. haha. but it was okay. i finally got one stamp. Lord knows when i'll get all four, but i have faith. i think. i actually managed to talk to a couple of the people in my lesson. there was this guy whose license was revoked, and that's why he's retaking. and there was this girl--the only other girl in my lesson--who wasn't too bad. we actually did everything today--changing gears, main circuit, braking at high gear, braking at low speed, cornering on third gear, and of course, that irritating figure S thingy. and annoyingly, my bike stalled while i was on third gear and about to change up. TWICE. and the second time, there was a freaking car behind me! how shitty is that? nevertheless, aku dapat one stamp so i'm not complaining. i still think riding in the rain is fun. except the raincoat pants are really ketat. haha. it's hard to sit on the bike properly. and my jeans got wet anyway. OH and while i was putting on my raincoat, i saw fai! [no not the one from my past, the one from baba's past.] i couldn't help but stare. i thot he didn't recognise me in all my paddington bear glory, but i was wrong. hahaa.

okay sorry that was one run-on para. cute guys aplenty, those CD mats who noticed the thingy hanging on my bag, and this extremely cute talldarkhandsome dude taking his class 2A, i think. i even took some time off to watch him do the bumpy course. oh is he hot or WHAT. haha.

yea so that was today's prac. i was so tired after all the rain and stuff. i came home and i slept, but then i had riding dreams. which explains why i'm awake now. =D

work was like, the best yesterday! haha. when i came in it was still very light outside, which was cool. and there was like a cute vik at table 18, but unfortunately he was just leaving. ohwell. but then later, i was just watching the people walk past, and there was this really really cute manjen guy with his friend. he was all tall and fair and chiselled and bigGER eyes, and he just exuded that cool vibe from 9472054389 km away. so i was like, please come and eat here, please come and eat here.. but they just bypassed us. so i was like feeling sad, but then i realised they were reading the top 10 poster! so u know, the life seeped back into me. and a coupla minutes later they walked in. woohoo! they sat at table 20, and i hovered around the area waiting to take their orders. both of them were really nice, actually, although they took quite a long time. he ordered kuay teow but with chilli padi, and when i clarified his order, he was like, "i like it hot." i like it hot!!! i DIED on the spot. i felt like saying, "so do i. and not just in that way." of course aku diam. i don't wanna lose my job. anyways. yes. he was completely adorable. this is the manjen guy to end all manjen guys.

next. 9 police dudes [baru walk out for today's passing out] sat at table 22. a mix of manjen and mims and mim-viks. and some were really cute! one of the malay dudes was cute la, but he was MIA most of the time. anyhows, i still macam, staked my claim and i made everyone back off so i cld take their order. i really thought they'd be like those army dudes from my swensen's days and order beribus, but they just had their own stuffs from the top 10. HOW disappointing. haha.

coolest thing was that both instances of cute guys enjoyed the songs from my CD! woohoo! the manjen dude was really cute, he was like singing along to hold me down. ahhh mati aku. kill me now.

yup. all in a day's work.

heyhey. i've been waiting for the general school holidays to end so i cld go tanning. yay and finally the day came. it was great. great sun, great empty pool, loads of fun. can't wait to do it again, only problem is i don't really have much time left either. ohwell. i missed tanning. great catching up with it today. the sun missed me.

i was fretting at first, at being the only member of my family stuck home on new year's eve. but then again. till last year, i think i always spent 31st dec at home. so why buck the trend? besides, i have to do my high/low points thingy, which i completely forgot about until 20 minutes ago! so now i have an hour and 45 minutes to do it. here goes nothing..

high points of 2005
*taufik--meeting him at amy's
*working at swensen's--incorporating ex-con, hanging out with liyana, cute NS guys, bun, CCDs
*mat-watching with shafa
*tanning with shafa
*bumping into OM at work
*clubbing for the first time
*"double-date" with sya josh and shaun
*seeing samit on vday
*getting my new piercing [cool sial!]
*getting my results
*bumping into scaryhots at work
*EB preview + photo with karl
*shopping spree sponsored by my sister
*EB finals
*getting into NUS
*wild wild wet
*MSQ swensen's and MDM
*first meeting fai at the esplanade
*supper with the swensen's people
*FOC
*attachment at TCL
*lepaking with the swensen's people
*bumping into john eber in the train
*meeting fan for the first time at silosa
*spotting the first cute guy in skl
*fireworks at esplanade on national day
*getting my new mp3 player
*malam pentas
*hanging out at simpang bedok with swensen's people
*encounter with sir tingles
*persuratan bbq
*SAM
*meeting sheikh for the first time
*iftar
*ain awards
*geylang with sani
*geylang with swensen's people
*buka-ing swensen's with the giler girls and halim
*geylang with baba + sahur at fongseng
*getting the armchair in my room
*drivingchef
*bumping into kashbir at the airport
*suff's open house
*bumping into hafiz as'ari at the airport
*post-exam thingy with chem people
*devil's
*riding theory lessons
*working again
*my nineteenth


low points of 2005
*carlsberg guy
*meeting some old bugger at downtown east
*WS coffee bean closing
*worrying about results [A's]
*getting my new piercing [sakit bodoh!]
*runaway bills
*ex-con leaving
*being stalked
*SotB
*kak nores leaving
*leaving swensen's
*doing my sister's marking
*the wantan story
*the ultimate embarrassment that was loner guy
*getting punkd
*when atikk tried to steal loner guy away
*all-nighters
*the exams
*first riding prac
*falling off my bike


okay so sheikh called at around 11, asked me out, and i said okay. so i spent new year's at pasir ris park. don't worry, there were loads of people around. haha. and don't be fooled by the lack of low points as compared to high points, i'm basically an escapist which means i prolly didn't post half the shitty things that happened to me.

just call me Bruise Lee.

sorry i stole that from udu. but anyway. i have like a billion bruises now from riding [still at lesson one, thank you very much]. i fell off my bike like 9048204 times. i swear. kesian si instructor had to help my lift my bike for 9048203 of those times. but other than that, it was quite enjoyable. i managed to go to third gear without much difficulty, and stopping's a bit better now. i have 2 more lesson ones waiting in the wings. i may need another one. so we'll see how it goes la. mannn. baru lesson one and i'm already spending hundreds. ohwell. insya-Allah i will get past this. it took me three PE lessons to do the forward roll, so i'm assuming this is the same.

u know what's fun, though? riding in the rain. or riding the mini-circuit in the rain anyway. it's all cold and splashy and just very cooling and nyaman. yes. fun. haha. and of cos, the post-lesson canteen sessions. today there was this cute police dude called tarmize. isn't that the most??? he has really sexayyy eyes, and a cute rosebud mouth. nice hair too. nat doesn't agree but hey, what does she know. she thought he was cute too, until she caught the back view. so yeah jgn dgr cakap dier. haha.

it's amazing how a day can swing from being wildly fun and amusing to being a pain in my 42" plasma tv.

let's talk fun first.

"fun" not "fan".

riding was great, i thought. aside from the fact that my gear-shifting was shitty and therefore i'll have to have AT LEAST two more lessons, which, by the way, was what i said the last time. anyways. it was cool. cute guys here and there. and one whose helmet was the same colour as mine, yey! we have the same taste! haha. yeah and after the lesson i saw the manjen dude from our first-ever lesson. and i smiled and just started talking to him. halfway through i was like, wait he looks kinda cute. is he really that guy, or am i talking to some stranger? don't worry, it WAS him. somehow yes, he does look cuter now. he's at lesson 3 already, he simply rocks man! and then there was the stoplight dude from theory. i just smiled at him la, takyah buat small talk. haha. and of cos, hanging out at the canteen was fun as always. love my CD mats.

i really don't wanna delve into the shittier parts of the last couple of days of my life. so we'll just leave it here, shall we?

maybe i'm just not cut out for relationships.

the past couple of days at work have been really busy. full house, both nights. but the upside, of course, is that there's a 100% chance of seeing at least one CCD. and i saw about three per night. not bad, i would say. and auntie's much nicer to me now somehow. haha. oh but i swear tonight was so incredibly busy that i almost finished a whole order pad. tinggal one more sheet je. and it was full at the end of last night.

more cool presents. i got a pink osiris cap from my brother [so sweet!] and an oceanus the body shop set from fana. ohyes and i got a quilt to fill in my new quilt cover. hahaha. funnn.

today was cool. mediacorp-->screenbox meeting in the morning, then 3J meeting, after which we bummed round as usual and i camwhored with amy's new razr!!! hahaha. checkitouttt.

okay photos that should have been put up years ago.


an ACTUAL screencapture of that escalator scene in shall we dance, not just some miserable photo taken by a razr. hehe. sorry amy.


me and baba at istana park. lovely place.


interesting form of vandalism at the istana park pavillion. if i remember correctly, it says "mats & minahs" should not be in this room. better leave or you are discrimination yourself in the public. go figure.


a bunch of 18-to-19-year-olds invaded spotlight and held a masquerade party.


the birthday cake i'd been idaming for about 9 months [halfway while working at swensen's]. if you can't read it, it says happy 19th ain.. make a wish! and yes, i thought of it myself. i wanted something more elaborate like tale as old as time--may your Belle find her Beast.. but macam, malu. haha.


the girls who cut the cake. yayyyy. practising for when they have kids, i'm supposing.


group pic! i had a great time guys, thanks!!!


the bouquet baba gave me, lying on my NEW bikini babe quilt cover!!!

dahlah bynk sangat tu pun..

i have to be getting ready for work soon, but i've been dying to blog about my fantastic birthday yesterday. in fact, it was prolly--and excuse the cliche here--the best birthday i've ever had. no, seriously!

oh but u know it's gonna be a long entry so takyah read on la.

okay so i started it off by waking up at 10, then bumming around etc, and dressing up giler, like i was going for some christmas party or smthg, complete with my huge berat $16.90 earrings. met amy at pasir ris mrt, where i yelped loudly upon seeing their collective present for me--the NUM slippers i've been dying to get. that's not all, i proceeded to try them on for size, in the middle of everyone. i know, aku giler. then we picked up my beautiful beauty and the beast cake--and no, it wasn't just an ironic statement--waited for shah a lil bit, then went to my place, where baba was waiting at the void deck with a bouquet of lovely roses. [hi raihan.]

sampai rumah, we cut the cake and stuffs while watching _spongebob and shall we dance. woohoo. love that movie. love jennifer. SO wanna be like her. after eating and bumming around for hours, we ended it off at swensen's, where i bodohly had baked rice AND fries. i know, aku giler. well we redeemed si firehouse happy birthday, so THAT was more ice-cream. then i headed for glass house to meet the class.

super-cool!!! we sat upstairs, had the most adorable waiter who reminds me of both ishmael and hairul. too bad i forgot his name. and josh went down to get the band to sing a birthday song for me, totally mortifying but uber cool. and at least i was the first one. after that a whole slew of birthday songs came by and annoyed us greatly. and then they gave me a single scoop chocolate ice-cream with a cherry on top. i DIED. my third helping of ice-cream!!!! gila kappa? dahlah aku makan si new york fish and chips. endlessly yummy, but my stomach was just crying "mercy!" oh but it was lovely to see the class again and everything, and it's like all those times in primary school where you couldn't celebrate your birthday with your class cos it fell in december were compensated by that one night. that, in itself, was fun enough.

then i met sean, who took me to labrador park! my first time! it was really really nice! i swear! and the view is fabulous! i swear, i died. then we drove past half the christmas lightup--really cool this year--and we actually got tickets to king kong, much to my initial consternation. but hey it turned out to be great, despite the fact that my neck died sitting in the front row and it was three hours long. freaky at some points, funny at others, and i almost cried when mr. hayes died. i cried when kong died though [even though i knew it was gonna happen], it was just such an undeserving death! i guess i must have seemed really distraught cos sean was like, "are you okay?" haha. i was fine, i was fine! yup by then it was like 2 in the morning, so we just drove home.

yeah. i had fun. i had SO much fun. so thanks to everyone who shared the day with me. oh and fana sent me this in the middle of the movie: Hey! Norain bte abdul rashid has finally turned 19! Yay! Other than my normal wishes like longevity, gd health, wealth and yu be blessed wif lotsa joy and many beautiful stuffs and moments in life,..I also pray tt yu'll meet E ONE who's sweet, caring, understanding and most importantly will luv and appreciate yu more than yu luv him.. Luv yu and cherish yu lotz babe.. Ps. I hope i'm the last person to wish yu today! :) [she was.]

great. i just bought a bikini babe quilt cover and a teeny bottle of perfume. i'm a losaaaa. tak abis2 buang duit je. but it was fun. after the 3j meeting i hung out with atikk di hanom at mac's/PS, and i just got wasted on ILT and atikk's secondhand smoke -glares-. yup. then haikal dayah and shan joined us, and we finally macam, separated at 7ish. then me atikk di walked down orchard, halfway down which *I* spotted hug-came (!!!), much to my surprise. and later we bumped into jonchen zhihan daph and carissa. cool. haven't seen them, minus zhihan, in quite awhile. then i boarded 36 to like, go home. but the ride was freaking bumpy, and let me just say tt there were no bumps on the stupid road. how freaking annoying. i got sick of it after like three stops. so i got off at city hall, walked to the 12 busstop, and got a lovely smooth ride home. it was so fun, walking down city hall alone in my christmas elf getup. i love long walks alone. really relaxing. sigh.

work yest was great, more boring than usual. but great. hardy was adorable as usual. i swear. he's so cute. sigh. and for once there was a CCD. with his gf, unfortunately, so i avoided them as much as possible. but he was cute. macam a cute mateen, with his long-sleeved shirt and cool hair. mmhmm.

oooOOOooo on saturday i bought christmas decorations, and i just put them up today! how exciting!!! nolah setakat 6 balls, in shades of purple, all over my blue ceiling. lawarrrr.

so i've finally turned 19, something that i haven't been wanting to do for the past week and so i've been holding on desperately to my 18-year-old status for the past 24 hrs. i got this bizarre wish from atikk: "MAY YOUR BOOBS GROW IN THE COMING YEAR! and ur butt grows bigger too!" mind you, these were accompanied by a couple of graphic emoticons. yes atikk giler. at least, that's how i programmed her number into my phone.

today was second pract, which was definitely better. mainly cos i was able to balance this time. BUT. butbutbut. i totally macam took a fall during the mini-circuit, and landed hard on my chest. it still throbs now. ugh. but u know, the instructor was really nice about it, and he even helped me lift my bike. interestingly enough, i keep veering to the right with bikes, as i do for bicycles. haha. oooOOOooo and today's cute pract guy was this tall goateed guy, totally la! and he warmed up next to me and everything. i very nearly died. he was taking his last 2A lesson. cool sey banggg.. haha okay i'm sorry i said that. oh and totally laaa when we went to the canteen later there were just beribus CD mats. loves it!

then later during theory the fat guy who was wearing red yest [and consequently got called on for looking like a stop light, therefore he wore green today] turned to me and said, "girl.. niari amek pract eh?" and proceeded to ask what time and everything. NO nat he doesn't like me. clearly he likes you, cuma i was sitting nearer to him. i suppose he thot we might be taking the same pract. well, no such luck, stoplight. oh and of cos, si liquid eyes came again [late]. we thought he went to sembahyang, but i suppose not. not very alim, these guys are. not that i'm surprised. oh and later when we were lining up to get our booklets stamped, liquid eyes happened to be behind me [btw, he was wearing the same shirt as yest. ni lagi satu nyer ahmad tau. hahaha.], so aku macam sengaje opened my booklet to the inside cover so he'd see my hot passport photo. haha. it worked, cos nat said he was looking at it. woohoo! too bad, that was like the only form of contact we had. boo.

tt should be it for today. i predict i'll have to take at least 2 more lesson ones. ohwell.

i'm really sleepy and zombie-fied right now. serious. takleh angkatttt. i didn't even do much yest, just a couple of boring theory lessons and dinner with the SA peeps. and i predict i'll be dead by the end of the day. i have practical followed by the last 2 theory lessons! yes i'm definitely gonna die.

and yet, there are rewards. cute guys in every sudut of the theory classroom! plus i saw hichael hanging round CDC yest.. i guess he's taking driving there.. he still looks the same, and memories of JC1 came flooding back like crazy. sometimes i'm tempted to think life was much easier then, when i didn't have to juggle ANY three persons or make a choice.

the 5 random things or whatever thingy

1. my latest crush is hardy, from work. whee~
2. i'm at baba's place now, trying to decide between her butterfly hoop earrings or her retro pink ones.
3. my face is dao and i look like i wanna kill someone but i'm just scared inside.
4. i still harbour an irrational and unattainable desire of becoming a model.
5. aku nak terberak. haha now THAT'S random.

and i was walking or whatever just now when i realised that this song [or this PART, anyway] completely and totally reminds me of azy.

i know that he loves me cos he told me so
i know that he loves me cos his feelings show
when he stares at me, you see he cares for me
you see how he's so deep in love
i know that he loves me cos it's obvious
i know that he loves me cos it's me he trusts
and he's missin' me, if he's not kissin' me
when he looks at me, his brown eyes tell his soul

i dunno what was wrong with me today. i actually FORGOT to wear earrings! aper ni? so i was feeling listless on the way to driving, and during driving and all that, and i had no idea why. until i looked in the mirror and i realised i had NO earrings on! okay, laugh if you want, but for me, [and don't kill me now] earrings are like tudung--for the non-tudunged me. so macam there was something missing all along, and so THAT was why i felt listless. so the moment aku sampai rumah baba tadi i asked her for a pair of earrings. hahaha.

i. am. SO. tireddddd. i blame fan. saper suroh dier kol aku malam2 buta and REFUSE to listen to my repeated "i'm tired"s? well. takper. whatever lah eh.

i reached home from work at like 1140 gitu. wow. hey but it was pretty fun today, cos abg rahim was working, so i felt slightly more at ease. and of cos, i'd be lying if i said hardy [yes that's how it's spelt] had nothing to do with it. he's just so incredibly adorable! macam the way he talks, the way he sings, the way he walks.. sighhh. tadi in the middle of nothing he gave me a sweet. haha. so of cos, aku yang giler ini kept the wrapper. hahaha. and just now at closing time he said to maria, "eh, kasi aku plastic bag satu--aku nak bungkus ain.." and i was macam standing there right next to him! [plastic bag=trash bag; he was doing trash duty] ahhhhhhh. and he was like, "smalam aku off.. aku jalan2 ngan ain ah.." aku macam, died right there on the spot while eating my nasi goreng belacan. dahlah dier melenggeng [that's the word right?] all over the place during closing.. it was all i could do not to stand there and just stare at him.

what IS it with me and H-guys? helmi was my first crush at swensen's. mannnn.

i haven't blogged for ages. haha. so let's pick up where we left off. haha. aku giler.

saturday i macam, fell off the bicycle and now i have battle scars! whee! then at night me, atikk and hanom went to hrc. haha. mannn beribu sakkk lims! mati aku. i swear they were macam everywhere! pusing sini, lim. pusing sana, lim. the music was good except the live band cam, suara tak sedap. and the stupid crowd only got onto the dancefloor at 1. but other than that, great! haha. yup, ader cute guys. but i was missing aliq.

oh and i had work yest, for the first time. alah from 6-10 je. tak lama. it wasn't too bad, i kinda enjoyed doing it all over again. and yes there was the requisite cute co-worker. his name's hadi and he's really adorable and stuffs. all short and tanned with dazril-like hair. hahaha. and quite friendly too. and when i asked how old he was, he said 17, and i totally believed him! then he made me guess how old he was, and after some deliberation, i said 19. and he got all grinny and he was like, "eh maria, aku 19 ah!--eh bandit, aku 19 sey!--eh i'm 19 sia!" he was so freaking happy and i was so freaking embarrassed, especially when he finally revealed that he was 24. hahaha. ohman but he is SO cute. smokes, though. biaser ah. no surprise.

oh riding SUCKED. other than the beribu cute mats and this one guy in particular who asked, "lesson brape?" when we were clearly wearing red tags. ahhhhhh. too bad he wasn't cute. his friend was, though. anyways. after that i went to swensen's, where i FINALLY met bun!!! i missed him sooooo much! when he looked up from the fountain and smiled, i very nearly died. i swear. he looks as adorable as i remember, with shorter hair this time. unfortunately his smile also rendered me speechless, so all i could come up with to ask him was, "kau dah pass motor?" he has. haha.

then i went to meet faliq, THEN in the 359 queue home, i met danial! [the guy i met on habbo.] unfortunately, aku macam malu nak tegur dier, while he didn't recognise me. so. yeah. i just spent the ride wondering if it was really him or not.

this morning i was running late cos i missed the 359 and all, and then in the bus suddenly i got to thinking about bumping into him last night.. SKALI DIER NAIK BUS!!! haha. so i was like, okay, this time i AM gonna talk to him. dahlah dier duduk blakang aku. AND smells of helmi. as in, he wears the same scent as helmi. this really irresistible spicy-flowery scent la. yah but anyway, i was still skared to turn around and ask those three simple words ["are you danial?" lah, don't think stupid.]. but finally biler dah turun bus, and he was almost next to me i turned and talked to him. so cool! i love meeting online friends in real life. too bad fathrul wasn't there too. i haven't seen him in oh so long. would be nice to see him again la.

today driving was okay, i think my blind spot bole pass la. haha. biaser ah, cute guys here, cute guys there. very fun. and i took a different route today, which macam passed by AMK, so cool!!!

yeah well i better go now or i'll be late for work.

wow so i watched saw 2 yest night. it was gore-rible! but wow the plot's just so amazingly slick, like a harry potter book! you know, when you like, find out the ending and you're like, damn i KNEW there was something tak kena with what i saw/heard earlier! but anyways, great movie.

i know why i like driving. cos i'm concentrating so hard on the road and checking my blind spot [one of my weaknesses, btw] and whatever that i totally forget everything else. [which is great.] it's sort of like working at swensen's dulu, that's why i enjoyed it so much. anyways yest i got a different instructor, this malay dude who's fairly cute, quite friendly and smells like aliq. oh and smokes. mann the moment dier masuk kereta it hit me. sheesh orang2 ni.

ohyah a big thanks to baba for accompanying me to watch holidays on ice - hollywood, which was promising at first but got annoying when it stretched to 3 hrs. kesian aku nyer 42" plasma tv.

today was my first day out on the road. it was cool! i think in some ways it was easier than circuit. but i had this carnal urge to floor the accelerator. haha. oh and there was this army truck infront of me at one junction. with four manjen guys in the back. and it was macam so embarrassing cos they were like staring at me and smiling, and aku cam tak tahu how to respond cos my instructor was next to me! so i just like, step safety check and i looked at my mirrors and steering wheel and other vehicles and shit. and then they watched as i made a left turn. naseb baik tak terlanggar apaper.

after tt i went over to baba's place where we watched bring it on again, which, frankly, sucks. but anyway. then we had lunch at KFC, and then we queued up for beribu hours for our rhumba frappucinos. there was this cute guy called azizi who looks like jambang, woohoo! and one guy who looks like fir. oh and boredom really does things to you.

to raihan-lookalike: "hi.. abang haus? nak queue up kat depan ngan ayang?"

cute green guy to me: "hey baby.. u haus? nak minum air i sikit?" [cos he already had his drink]

complications, complications.

oh and sorry atikk, i just felt like being a homebody today. haha.

fan called to apologise. which DEFINITELY complicates things. nasib baik my mom decided she needed to use the phone, so i just said i had to go. hahaha. okay i know i'm mean and i'm horrible, and i'm a ho. takyah cakap. aku dah tahu dah.

once again i was freaking early for driving. i just don't get it. i left the house at 115. and i reached there at 215! even before the previous class was let off. baik ainnn. so biaser ah, i just sat there enjoying the aircon and checking out the people who walked past. the mubarak guy wasn't in sight though. ohwell. we weren't meant to be, i suppose. sudahlah aku. i only saw him for 100 mins anyway. oh but there were these 2 riders. cute sey, one of them totally reminds me of loner guy with his missing teeth/tooth. and they ended up taking the bus to yishun with me too. and it was so cute, they were like reenacting their lesson with their other friend. OH and i saw a girl fall off her bike la tadi!!! i DIED.

okay, i spent like 3 and a half freaking hours on the phone last night with some guy i've hardly spoken to before, and DEFINITELY never met before. oh AND he's like twenty-freaking-six years old. haha. but somehow those 3 hours just flew by. extremely pleasantly [except for 10 minutes in which he expressed displeasure at my wanting to ride] too. well i guess there's just some people you can click with yea.

more driving today, and the class 2b people were riding pillion today, so cool! so biaser ah, aku distracted. and today it was junctions. not bad, but i'm still mounting the stupid left kerb. ohyah and YET ANOTHER instructor smiled at me. bagos. aku nak students, bukan instructor la dol! haha.

then i hung out at baba's house, devoured the last of the lemau cookies, and met aliq at yck. then we met nat, and we got our helmets! cam exciting with a twist of lemon. aperje aku. it transpired that our helmet host was none other than taha!!! i was SO surprised. no, really. well he's really nice. haha.

and maybe it's too early to tell, but i like being with aliq. even though he STILL reminds me of hannan at regular intervals. haha.

so i ended my first driving practical today with the conclusion tt i'll prolly NEVER pass. i kept mounting the kerb, for one. and i'd turn the wheel back before the 80% point or whatever. but the instructor was nice, totally patient and everything, and he also reminded me of ng tze beng and crystal [supervisor, swensen's]. and he kept saying stuff like, "slowly slowly.. see abang skared already.." or "careful, u want to knock over fatty ah? see he skared already.." haha. hilarious. i was literally roaring with laughter.

and of cos, the cute guys. OH the cute guys. basically, about 30% of the riders. there was one particular guy who looked ALOT like mubarak [as in, ahmad, from rj]. but MUCH cuter, and hotter. i think he was taking class 2 or 2A cos he was pretty much unsupervised. and very hottt!!! i kept on staring at him [and his fellow riders], i was totally distracted la, how am i ever gonna learn anything? but i think he completely hates me cos i was driving so badly and slowly and totally blocking his way and everything. ohwells. let's hope i improve so next time he'll be impressed with my skills. yarrite.

me: kau gi library buat pe? start blajar for next sem?
baba: tak, aku nak mintak young mats' numbers.

oooOOOooo. yesterday was so fun laaa. after spending macam prolly the last month being mad at fan, i managed to forget it for one night. went to devil's bar with ph*ahem* and his sister. i was so lucky, i managed to get a lift from my sister, who got home just as i was leaving. haha. anywaysss. it was fun. quadriceps and other assorted muscles are aching, but it was great. and i met bart!!! for the uninitiated, bart's this cute pizza guy i kinda liked back when i was working. but he stopped working round bout march or something. he looks the same, except he put on weight. haha. oh and there was this really hot black guy, dressed to attract amy in a cool long-sleeved shirt and pants, and he totally tore up the dance floor la! with those samsung-phone-advert moves. i DIED. he was amazingly hot, and totally tak perasan or anything! wowwww.

it was more fan drama earlier today, which included him waking me up at friggin 830 when i'd only gone to sleep at 7-freaking-30 am la! sial betul sey. so in the words of baba, "fan biarkan ronyok!"

and then it was more shopping today. gilerrssss. and i was a bit pissed that no jeans would fit my 42" plasma tv.

wow i just had the most lepakish day everrr.

woke up in the wee hours of the morning to meet nat at pasir ris to enrol for.. *ahem*. ohmann i had NO idea all the cute guys were at the other end of the train! okay, i had an inkling when i saw h*ahem* on the way to skl dulu. but samit was always in MY carriage! well. anyways. i shall convert next year or something. trust nat to keep something like this from me. ah anyway, i nearly died at CDC cos the CD mats were just everywhere! woohooooo. as a result, i kept saying, 5 mins more, 5 mins more, sampailah i was late for 3j meeting.

which was, btw, a nightmare as always for a shitty marketing officer like me.

but after tt was cool. we cabbed to bugis and spent the rest of the usable day lepaking at mac's. singing along to christmas songs, and crapping as usual. highlights include: carrot-rabbit-dazril, ice-skating, and atikk's MCR boyfriend. have fun man.

me: "mak aku anna belle francis, kau tak tahu?"
baba: "ohhh.."
baba again: "patutlah muker kau cam sheikh haikel!!!"

i KNOW, right? haha.