complications, complications.

oh and sorry atikk, i just felt like being a homebody today. haha.

fan called to apologise. which DEFINITELY complicates things. nasib baik my mom decided she needed to use the phone, so i just said i had to go. hahaha. okay i know i'm mean and i'm horrible, and i'm a ho. takyah cakap. aku dah tahu dah.

once again i was freaking early for driving. i just don't get it. i left the house at 115. and i reached there at 215! even before the previous class was let off. baik ainnn. so biaser ah, i just sat there enjoying the aircon and checking out the people who walked past. the mubarak guy wasn't in sight though. ohwell. we weren't meant to be, i suppose. sudahlah aku. i only saw him for 100 mins anyway. oh but there were these 2 riders. cute sey, one of them totally reminds me of loner guy with his missing teeth/tooth. and they ended up taking the bus to yishun with me too. and it was so cute, they were like reenacting their lesson with their other friend. OH and i saw a girl fall off her bike la tadi!!! i DIED.

okay, i spent like 3 and a half freaking hours on the phone last night with some guy i've hardly spoken to before, and DEFINITELY never met before. oh AND he's like twenty-freaking-six years old. haha. but somehow those 3 hours just flew by. extremely pleasantly [except for 10 minutes in which he expressed displeasure at my wanting to ride] too. well i guess there's just some people you can click with yea.

more driving today, and the class 2b people were riding pillion today, so cool! so biaser ah, aku distracted. and today it was junctions. not bad, but i'm still mounting the stupid left kerb. ohyah and YET ANOTHER instructor smiled at me. bagos. aku nak students, bukan instructor la dol! haha.

then i hung out at baba's house, devoured the last of the lemau cookies, and met aliq at yck. then we met nat, and we got our helmets! cam exciting with a twist of lemon. aperje aku. it transpired that our helmet host was none other than taha!!! i was SO surprised. no, really. well he's really nice. haha.

and maybe it's too early to tell, but i like being with aliq. even though he STILL reminds me of hannan at regular intervals. haha.

so i ended my first driving practical today with the conclusion tt i'll prolly NEVER pass. i kept mounting the kerb, for one. and i'd turn the wheel back before the 80% point or whatever. but the instructor was nice, totally patient and everything, and he also reminded me of ng tze beng and crystal [supervisor, swensen's]. and he kept saying stuff like, "slowly slowly.. see abang skared already.." or "careful, u want to knock over fatty ah? see he skared already.." haha. hilarious. i was literally roaring with laughter.

and of cos, the cute guys. OH the cute guys. basically, about 30% of the riders. there was one particular guy who looked ALOT like mubarak [as in, ahmad, from rj]. but MUCH cuter, and hotter. i think he was taking class 2 or 2A cos he was pretty much unsupervised. and very hottt!!! i kept on staring at him [and his fellow riders], i was totally distracted la, how am i ever gonna learn anything? but i think he completely hates me cos i was driving so badly and slowly and totally blocking his way and everything. ohwells. let's hope i improve so next time he'll be impressed with my skills. yarrite.

me: kau gi library buat pe? start blajar for next sem?
baba: tak, aku nak mintak young mats' numbers.

oooOOOooo. yesterday was so fun laaa. after spending macam prolly the last month being mad at fan, i managed to forget it for one night. went to devil's bar with ph*ahem* and his sister. i was so lucky, i managed to get a lift from my sister, who got home just as i was leaving. haha. anywaysss. it was fun. quadriceps and other assorted muscles are aching, but it was great. and i met bart!!! for the uninitiated, bart's this cute pizza guy i kinda liked back when i was working. but he stopped working round bout march or something. he looks the same, except he put on weight. haha. oh and there was this really hot black guy, dressed to attract amy in a cool long-sleeved shirt and pants, and he totally tore up the dance floor la! with those samsung-phone-advert moves. i DIED. he was amazingly hot, and totally tak perasan or anything! wowwww.

it was more fan drama earlier today, which included him waking me up at friggin 830 when i'd only gone to sleep at 7-freaking-30 am la! sial betul sey. so in the words of baba, "fan biarkan ronyok!"

and then it was more shopping today. gilerrssss. and i was a bit pissed that no jeans would fit my 42" plasma tv.

wow i just had the most lepakish day everrr.

woke up in the wee hours of the morning to meet nat at pasir ris to enrol for.. *ahem*. ohmann i had NO idea all the cute guys were at the other end of the train! okay, i had an inkling when i saw h*ahem* on the way to skl dulu. but samit was always in MY carriage! well. anyways. i shall convert next year or something. trust nat to keep something like this from me. ah anyway, i nearly died at CDC cos the CD mats were just everywhere! woohooooo. as a result, i kept saying, 5 mins more, 5 mins more, sampailah i was late for 3j meeting.

which was, btw, a nightmare as always for a shitty marketing officer like me.

but after tt was cool. we cabbed to bugis and spent the rest of the usable day lepaking at mac's. singing along to christmas songs, and crapping as usual. highlights include: carrot-rabbit-dazril, ice-skating, and atikk's MCR boyfriend. have fun man.

me: "mak aku anna belle francis, kau tak tahu?"
baba: "ohhh.."
baba again: "patutlah muker kau cam sheikh haikel!!!"

i KNOW, right? haha.

i'm ever so tired.

after a very nervous morning and afternoon, i actually passed my BTT! yay. thanks God. [in other words, Syukur Alhamdulillah.] so i think my first practical's this monday. yepp.

met up with filza in the evening. it's been so bloody long i can't believe i let so much time go by without meeting up. and incidentally, her dad knows loner guy's dad. as in, good friends. how unfair is that? i nearly died when she smsed me, "do u know this guy who lives near pasir ris pri, rides a bike, dad's name is m****** and is in chem yr 1?" haha. anyway i couldn't resist, i just HAD to shop. i bought a scarf frm forever 21 and 2 of those plain tops from topshop. i decided that since i always wear the ones i already have, i might as well add to the collection so i'd have more of the same tops to rotate. haha.

well it doesn't sound like much, but i had fun. =D

i was so malas to blog yesterday. so here i am now.

aku malas nak kasi details, although i'd say that it went great. he's adorable, really nice [but comments on cute guys abit too much for my liking], the food was good, and the movie [Just Like Heaven] was really sweet. and yes he like paid for everything [except my shopping], despite my violent protests. [well, i maintain that it wasn't a date.]

i saw dil and chuckie [a.k.a. matair asilah] at HMV. is chuckie working there? cool. and dil is still hot, and there was another cute guy there. mannn now i wanna work there. haha. i bought 4 movies--Troy, Shall We Dance?, The Wedding Planner and Deal With It, which, incidentally, is the only one i haven't watched before--and the cute rafi guy rang them up for me. woohoo! haha. and maybe now he knows my name, cos i was using my master.

anyways after that we walked all the way down to dhoby ghaut. lovely lights, especially outside the istana. i like the whole blue-purple stars theme. lovelylovely.

yesyes then we went home, but he kept saying sorry cos he felt bad for going home early. haha.

since ahmad is such a terrible photographer, i can't post the pics of the pizza hut celebration. haha. so kat atas tu is a scene from Bring It On, one of my all-time favourite movies, and the one i watched tonight.

so anyway i had fun. i'm just gonna skip the calculus part cos it was just horrible la. no other word for it.

we went to the marina pizza hut [newly opened, it's lovely and cosy with great decor, especially now it's christmas and everything], and we had [for archive's sakes] the large stuffed crust supreme splitzza, garlic bread, baked beefballs in Alfredo sauce and--my personal favourite--10 pcs honey-roasted wings. mannn. sedap giler bodoh! everything, everything, everything was yummy. the last two items are obviously new additions. and both rockkkk. the beefballs were extremely erm, beefy, and the wings were wowwww. i swear, it was just the perfect christmassy taste. i knocked back at least three.

of course, what's a great restaurant experience without cute help? there was this really cute guy with a universally baik-yet-slightly-handsome face. and he had such a nice smile. sighhh. i tried countless times to look at his name, and just as i'd convinced ahmad to try and look at it for me, he [the guy] came forward to clear the table. woohoo! aku pon aper lagi, berharirayelah. oh and his name? well let's just say tt when i finally saw it, i commented, "wow it goes with the season!" haha. it's okay. only orang high-class will get the joke. =D ooh

after tt, kiter sempat gi swensen's for dessert. i was gonna have the MAF i've been craving for about a month, but the marina one has yogen fruz [yogen'a love it!] so i got that instead. yum, and according to ahmad, "step healthy to make up for what u ate at pizza hut." kurang asam. dahlah amek gambar blur. hotak dier ah. [i hope you're reading this!!! haha.] and of cos, by some stroke of luck, MDM was working. oh he's ever so handsome, even amy agrees. i GOTTA marry someone like that.

and then it was another nice walk home from the mrt for me. i hope i can make it a habit.

so in addition to the islam paper being objectively difficult today, i TOTALLY and UTTERLY could NOT concentrate.

but in the morning i got a good-luck sms from drivingchef, followed by an entire train ride with double decaf, whose real name is REALLY cool! haha. but of cos, privacy reasons, takleh letak kat sini. i attempted to follow him to LT8, but the idiot gi jalan blakang aku at first, so aku terkial2, so in the end i had to kol ahmad and wail at him for directions. haha. but i spotted double decaf going into the gents, so maybe it was a good thing i didn't follow him after all. hahaha.

and then of course, in the LT, pasta sat next to me. on my left, to be precise. and to make matters worse, he's kidal, so we were kinda aligned towards each other. AND he was so cute, he put on a white cap to keep his floppy hair off his face. i must have done that lean-back-and-pretend-to-think-but-actually-checking-him-out move like a billion and one times. mannn. he's just so fugly but totally redeemed by his pillar bod and blonde hair! sigh. of course, in 2 hours the exam was over and that was the last i ever saw of him. [cheyy dramatic sial.]

reached pasir ris without much happening, except for this vik with the SLEAZIEST eyes sitting next to me [actually, i sat next to him first, but HEY i was tired!], and this literally fat guy who was so fat, i wanted to move to the vik's lap, and when we reached pasir ris i practically ran out of the train. then i visited shasha for awhile, and walked home again. seriously. walking home's such fun. this time there was a red rhino full of my fireman mats, woohoo! totally hot.

then i reached home and unwrapped my new hooksonyou earrings [which came by registered mail yest but we weren't home so my mom collected them from the post office tadi]. i got two pairs--yummy-looking cherry pies, and dangly red ones. yay. i SO can't wait to show them off. prolly on monday.

i watched she's all that for the 62853rd time just now. rachael leigh cook is so exquisitely pretty. and freddie's just very hot in the movie. AND paul walker's in it too! and i love the scene where they dance by the pool. tres romantic. and very picturesque.

somehow i'm in an incurable movie mood these days. so. wonder what i'll watch tmr.. haha.

hi i've missed u. and by "u", i mean my blog. haha.

just wanted to drop u a line in the midst of stressing out over my remaining 2 papers.

drivingchef has been keeping up with those mixed signals, congrats to him. i walked home from the mrt yesterday cos of the lovely weather and my shitty food security paper--which i "finished" 45 minutes ahead of time. dropped by swensen's first, but as usual, i didn't manage to cross paths with bun. i guess it's a sign. too bad, cos he was actually the first nice guy i've liked since the beginning of the year. oh speaking of bun, i realised yesterday [while staring at loner guy for the last hour of CM1111] that loner guy reminds me of bun, ALOT. those thick eyebrows. the build. the hair! so cute! but he's just lacking in bun's lips. that's about it. okay sorry for talking about the lips. amy'll prolly have loads of stupid [not to mention dirty] things to say about that.

i kinda can't wait for tuesday, but i'm kinda dreading it too. but that's only normal right? and he IS a nice guy right? i've had enough of all these other guys [i.e. mats] who don't really like the me inside. not that he likes me, of course. haha.

in keeping up with the random-thoughts theme of this entry, i think lydia looks great. if i'd just come back after a multiple-month stint in perth, i'd prolly be half-bald from tearing patches of my hair out in the process of dealing with the man they call my uncle.

yep that was fun. time to hit the sack.

heyyyyyyy

okay, the past 24 hours have been surreal. there's just no other word for it.

i spent like, almost 12 hours at the airport mugging away. it was horrible. i hate mugging. [saper suker eh?] but it's like worse alone. haha. but. butbutbut. okay dengar betul2. i finally went home at like 8-ish, i took 53 cam biaser and everything. i was looking all slenger and oily and fat, i mean, WHO looks good after a day of mugging? but as the bus approached the T2 checkpoint, aku masuk angin aper entah, and i rebanged my hair and rearranged it in a less slenger way lah. you know, just in case the checkpoint police guy was hot [i.e. samit, or those yg sewaktu dengannya]. okay, so he entered the bus. but my view was blocked for the entire first half of his walk, by the stupid EZlink card reader. and then as he passed me, i nearly died! i'd know tt face anywhere! it was--[no not samit] HAFIZ AS'ARI!!! i DIED. i swear. ohmannn. he's so cool! i had half a mind to shout, "hafiz!!!" but i didn't. i know he wants to meet his fans and all that, tapi what if i embarrassed him, or myself [in the likely case dier buat bodoh ke..]? so aku diam je. but when he was positioned outside the bus, i turned and stared [at his nametag, just to make sure]. ohman. he's so cool. and u know the thing about "celebrities" is, you support them even more once you've met them, pasal now they've somehow been humanised or smthg. anyway. it was cool. i hope i'll bump into him again in a less scrutinisable context, so tt i can actually say hi. but you know. i prolly WON'T be so lucky again. and it took every last ounce of self-restraint i possessed, and then some, to keep myself from dancing away in the aisle.

yeah. so that was the airport thing.

last night was a whole different story. it involved loads of crying over movies and then some scary questions, answers and statements from drivingchef, which culminated in HIS ASKING FOR MY NUMBER!!! woohoo!

and i spent the better part of the day smsing him. ahhhh..

oh and sorry for the long hafiz as'ari paragraph.

"The odd thing about this form of communication is, that you�re more likely to talk about nothing rather than something but I just wanna say, that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many.. somethings. So thanks." -Kathleen Kelly, You've Got Mail

Wow. Amazing. I actually got through CM1101. Haha. Banyak calculations la, tt�s why. I mean yeah, I forgot like half the formulas, but at least I didn�t feel like crying after the paper.

Afterwards, me and Nat were just like, eh nak terkencing, but the toilets are all full, so let�s go to YIH. But then Nat was like, why don�t we go mac�s skali? And I was like, Nat don�t tempt me! But you know me. In the end kiter pergi jugak. Hahaha. Had my usual and everything, it was great, and then in the train home ader jugak cute guys yang aku dapat tgk. Haha.

Nat�s right, the weather�s really great today. It�s been cool all the way till now. Very very nice. I should have just walked home from the interchange. Tapi aku bodoh. Takper I�ll try it on Friday after Islam.

When I got home, guess what I did? I turned on my D, switched off the lights, and watched the 7936492nd screening of You�ve Got Mail. Melalaked as usual, round bout the time she saw herself twirling in the shop, and when Joe Fox asked her, "If I hadn�t been Fox Books, and you hadn�t been The Shop Around the Corner.. And you and I had just met.. [pause] I would have asked for your number.. And I wouldn�t have been able to wait 24 hours before calling you up and saying, how bout coffee.. or dinner.. or a movie? ..For as long as we both shall live."



And of course, the final scene. Ah. How I love that movie.

woohoo. so suff's open house was a blast, rupernyer, despite the gaping hole that was the absence of his bctc friends. haha.

in the 39 to yishun this group of YP mats was on the bus with me. one of the cuter ones sat next to me, and he said to his friend, "eh amek gambar, amek gambar!" i tried my best to pretend i was pekak [listening to mp3s], but i wanted to laugh really. but 30 seconds later he added, "amek aku soranglah.." yarrite, YP mat. ohwell. he would have been irresistible had he not been smelling of fags. i mean, he was wearing capals! i lurve capals. and all of them were wearing capals, i think.

i am in love with suff's littlest brother, aidil. he's so adorable with that mangkuk hair and big eyes and takder gigi.. and i was telling amy and baba that THAT is what ishmael is gonna look like, insya-Allah. so, i continued, i better not marry anyone with curly hair. recessive genes, y'know. haha. or whatever.



ooh we watched the butterfly effect partway and it is SO freaky in a non-hantu way. kesian aku nyer ashton. i ate so much, pon maseh sempat gi swensen's for dessert after tt, where this poser CSR commented directly to me, "cantik bunga!" eeee. kalau kau poser, jgn cakap ngan akulah.

anyways. bottomline is, i had fun, so thanks to everyone for making me feel non-intruding. yay.


me posing with the ayams. yummm.


my ex-friends languishing in "jail".


group pic!

thanks baba. it's completely untrue though. okay not COMPLETELY. but about 50% is merepek. when, for example, did i have an interest in politics?

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously. Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart.

Your date match profile: Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about. Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Funny 3. Traditional 4. Big-Hearted 5. Romantic 6. Religious 7. Shy 8. Practical 9. Sensual 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Funny 2. Shy 3. Conservative 4. Traditional 5. Romantic 6. Religious 7. Practical 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Big-Hearted 10. Stylish

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

The other night they were playing our song
Hadn't heard it for oh so long
Took me back darlin' to that time in my car
When you cried all night cause we'd gone too far

Can I ever getcha back
Getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Can I ever getcha back

I'm getting tired laying around here at night
Thinkin' bout some other guy holding you tight
He may have money and a brand new car
May even treat you like a movie star
And no matter what he ever do for you
He can never love you like I can do
So if I leave her and you leave him

Can we ever get it back again
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Getcha back getcha back baby
Gonna getcha back getcha back
Can I ever getcha back

Bow bow bow oop

Bow bow bow oop

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him
(Getcha back) can we make it
(Getcha back) get it back again

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him
(Getcha back) can we make it
(Getcha back) get it back again

(Getcha back) I'll leave her
(Getcha back) and you leave him -Beach Boys

i totally didn't do anything today. i mean, i'm not gonna call 4 hours busing and mrting and walking over the island, eating a grand total of 6 roti kirais over the course of the day, and watching herbie: fully loaded--actually doing anything.

i never have very much to blog about anymore. how sad. maybe it'll be better after the exams.

i'm SO hungry. i blame ahmad and dazril for sitting next to me, and for not tambahing so i couldn't tambah without looking greedy either. it's one thing to tambah food infront of girls [i.e. rgs jalan raya sec 4], but it's a whole other issue tambahing infront of guys.

hate guys.

what a lie.

anyway i had a great time at casa amy, with her entire family, shah, atikk, ahmad and daz. we should SO do it again.

and thanks to lina for taking the camwhore pics of me and atikk on the windowseat. haha.

i'm so sleepy. and drivingchef da tido, so yeah i'm gonna sleep right after this.

last night was Operation H*****. it was so crazy and nerve-wracking, for both of us. although i played more of a passive role, it was MY reputation on the line there! one slip of the finger and i'd have lost my drivingchef forever. so i was just like panicking at every little thing baba updated me on. well. to make a long and painful story short, it seems successful so far. but we'll see how it goes yes? i have half a mind to back out anyway.

this morning i was running a little late. u know, the rain and all. i even decided to skip breakfast so i cld get 15 extra minutes of sleep. i didn't sleep well la, with the loud guruhs and drivingchef nightmares and all. so anyway, i'd actually missed the samit bus, so i didn't think i was gonna see him, but hey. when i got on the bus, there he was!!! ahh samit. you rock. with your longgar police pants and handsome-nak-bunuh-diri face.

when i got there, i was just settling down and everything when this manjen guy came with a copy of the straits times and put his stuff down and i almost died cos it was STUDY BUDDY! ah he's still as adorable, but less slengerly so. and i think he remembers me! =D yey.

and then, at like 8-ish, this talldarkhandsome guy in a cool black shirt with sinewy arms showing, cool broken-into jeans, black crumpler bag and handphone pouch and laptop, walked past. and i went into a pseudo-seizure, prodded baba roughly and hissed, "KASHBIR!!!" totally. the last person i expected to see. omg. he's just so incredibly hot. who'd have thought i'd get to see both of them in the same day? i'm just so incredibly lucky.

dahlah aku ngantok. despite all the cool sightings niari, the studying wasn't that great. and there's more to come tmr. argh.

you can always tell when it's exam time. my bed gets doubly messy. it's so funny. books here, notes there, loose papers and pens all over. have fun ain.

watched the goblet of fire today. yes today. cool huh? at century cineplex. it's quite good, i suppose. i can't give an objective opinion la, pasal i hate the new dumbledore STILL, and the deviations from the book really get to me. so yeah. but cedric IS SO HOTTT. kill me now!!! haha. and krum is endlessly sweet, despite looking abit too tua for his character. ohwells. can't have everything, can we?

we saw MDM at the airport bus terminal. looking as good as ever. i HAVE to marry someone like that.

and this was in one of my notebooks tt i recently rediscovered. i posted it before, i think. but i really like the simplicity of it. and the stupid drawings i made alongside it in my notebook. it's not another funny merepek poem though. just merepek.

me & you
in bright blue hues
under the same colour sky
and if it ever
starts to rain
i'll never say goodbye
now we're wearing
yellow raincoats
and together we brave the downpour
my straggly hair
hangs over my face
yet you move close to me all the more
me and you
we're sitting down
your arm encircled round me
we've been through many
kinds of weather
but we stay forever happy. -230402-

Me and my bag
take up the whole aisle
We stand together
for a really long while.

And sometimes when space
is especially tight,
Some assholes [how dare they?]
will try to alight.

They ruthlessly try to
claw past us
For fear of being
trapped in the bus.

So the nametag's screwed
And my energy's spent
But my bag's intact,
not a sign of a dent.

Sometimes these assholes
will make me lose balance
But inside, we just pray
that they get their comeuppance.

At this point I conclude
That the universe sucks
And my life on this planet--
It's not worth 2 bucks.

But then a lim
will look my way
My bag stays silent
but I think, "Hurray!"

Turbulent weather
And human walls
Bugis to Boon Lay
We've been through it all.

Me and my bag
we stand as one
We look good together
Who can beat us?--none.

i think i wrote that back in sec 3, about my huge blue haversack. found it while rummaging through piles of dusty books and notes, trying to find my chem stuffs from yesteryear. haha.

had fun studying today, back at my old spot. and i finally saw samit, after about 10 months. i'm serious. NOT exaggerating. and he saw me. and well he looks the same as ever, effortlessly handsome and endlessly cool.

tadi macam bynk nak blog, skarang dah luper segala2nya. ohwells. hope u enjoyed the poem. it's written in my characteristic merepek style. oh and i found a rangkap of malay poem i wrote in answer to ahmad fathi's pantun greeting on msn, about 3 years ago. haha. memories can be so fun.

I actually had a good, less-than-boring day today. Haha. Woke up late as usual, although I mysteriously tersedared at 830 in the morning, despite having slept at about 3. anyway, out of some kegilaan of mine, I decided to follow my parents to jalan raya today. Haha. Don�t ask why. Okay fine, it was cos when I asked my mom, "mummy nak gi maner?" and she replied, "gi rumah kakak mummy kat bendeemer," I immediately thought of the makcik with the four mat sons. But when my mom sed, "asal, nak ikut?" I just gave a non-commital "belum mandi ah" in reply, cos aku takot dier tahu my true agenda. Haha. But about 30 seconds after that I went to mandi, hoping she�d get the subtle hint. Thankfully, she DID wait for me and I siaped in about 15 minutes flat, which is a real achievement for me.

Okay, for the record, it WASN�T that makcik�s house. BUT. She WAS there! With one of her cute sons. I nearly died. His name�s Azhar, or something similar. But I can�t figure out if he was the one who said bye to us. Well but the point is, tak sia-sia aku pergi. Haha. And the mother was telling us that her youngest son was asking about me and my sister. And how he asked her, "mama, itu adik mama [referring to my mom] betul-betul ke olok-olok?" Cute. I suppose he was checking on marriage legality issues or something. Haha.

Well we went to another house after that, then I went to shasha�s house! Wow. Cool. It was me and shima and imah at first, then the two left, and I hung around for awhile, before nan and umar finally showed up. It was really fun, we ate and had free maltesers and fruit cocktail, watched movies AND sang karaoke. Ahh I so did not regret going. Fun fun funnn.

And if you�re wondering why this looks different from my normal posts, it�s cos I�m typing with Microsoft word first, so they autocorrect all my small caps and stuff.

This always happens. Just as I reach the end of my rope with him [or whatever that saying is], he does something and manages to extricate himself out from the depths of my wrath. And for the first time I was talking to him on the phone while chatting to SOMEONE ELSE online! It felt so weird and guilt-inspiring.

Yeah well anyway I had an okay day today. Went to ssdc again, once again beribu mat motors. And while I was walking back to yck mrt, I stood there waiting to cross the road. But oh my God, what timing! A whole line of class 2 students was cruising past on their way back. I nearly died of embarrassment and awkwardness. [Kadang2 kalau banyak sangat, susah nak tengok.] But I spotted a few cute ones la. Ironic thing was, the one who macam, smiled at me, was the instructor at the tail end. Ya Allah. Buat malu je sey.

You know what I love? Guys who love babies/kids. No I�m serious. It really gives them a human touch. It shows a whole new side to them, and they have THAT much more depth. To me anyway. Like, even if he�s the nerdiest-looking guy on the planet, or the most gangsterish, the fact that they like kids kinda redeems them. Haha.

it's been too long.

the 72947294 hours i wasn't blogging, i was busy sleeping [never got enough] and going crazy over chem test and the islam essay. yeah. man it was horrible. next sem [if there IS a next sem for me], i'll make sure this doesn't happen again.

driving chef's been great. so supportive and patient and well he's just incredibly sweet.

sigh.

on monday i was going to ssdc and this mrt man [i.e. smrt officer] stopped me after i passed thru the barrier at khatib, and asked to see my card. heLLO, pakcik! okay maybe those blonde streaks make me look like a minah who's too stupid to be studying at tertiary level, whether it be poly or uni. but STILL. don't make it so obvious la. i guess he's just bored pasal those terrorists were foiled before they could bomb neighbouring yishun mrt.

i lurve the ite mats at ssdc. yey.

okay and btw, abovementioned blonde streaks are now all but gone. cos i went to see jack on monday and i got my roots done, and the streaks have been muted by the new brown colour. it's still a love-hate thing though. i love the new colour, but i really miss some of the streaks. well. takpe. anyway nurul was the only one who noticed the new colour. and daz was the only one who noticed i cut my hair. woksss. well, jadilah.

anyway since i was finally freed today, i celebrated by going for ice-cream with my chem peeps. but it kinda expanded into this whole big lunch at sakura followed by ice-cream, with a bit of shopping in between. seriously. aku ngan shah have this becky bloomwood disease man. this time she got a really pretty turquoise-ish shrug with a satin ribbon, and beribu fabric bunga tudung pins. and *I* got a loner guy bag for like $25, AND 3 fake bunga hairpins. they didn't have a price display or anything, i got a shock when she rang up the total and it came to $11+. i had to use my NETS cos takder lagi duit!!! i'm a losaaa.

it's not a crime to go out on dates with different people at the same time right? i mean, as long as you're not dating them in the same instant.

i. am. so. senak.

had another of those rare hangout sessions with the brother and sister just now at the T2 fish & co. God. i adore fish & co. i could live there. and this time there was another cute bartender. all goateed and farhan-like hair and basically very hot. mim, of course. seriously. he was shit hot. i wanted to die. but he didn't serve us at all! yargh. imran the first cute bartender was working too. but he was in the kitchen for some odd reason. ohman i am so going back there, even though the service kinda sucked this time. i had my usual, plus some health-conscious tea, and a ben & jerry's sundae. ohman. camna tak gemuk gini? and yes they actually serve ben & jerry's. yummmm.

and then i came home and watched the rest of dil to pagal hai, which i've already watched before anyway, but just HAD to watch again. besok tak skl pe. hahaha. not that i've done any actual studying. takkan next sem nak amek 10 modules sak. arghhhhh.

drivingchefdrivingchefdrivingchef. kalau kau dah tido, SWITCH OFF YOUR LAPPY.

WOKAY i just got caught off-guard by a bunch of sadistic relatives. and i don't even know them!!!

i'd just reached home, and all that gedebak-gedebuk, and i was coming out of the toilet, all slenger-ish in my RED M&Ms BOXERS and ratty srjc netball tshirt dating back about a decade [i swear!]. my mom calls me, "ain!" and i look into the living room, and i realise that there's a whole freakin' family there, and i can see them, which means they can see me, and it's all just highly embarrassing cos i look so shitty and they're all baju-kurunged, and the worst part is... there are cute guys!!!

in fact, this family has like 4 sons and no daughters, it seems. and at least 2 out of the 4 sons are cute. and they all saw me in my slenger getup! i was SO mortified. my boxers!!! well luckily the mother came into the kitchen, so i was saved the agony of having to go right out and salam her. hahaha. anyway i went discreetly to my room, changed, and made an appearance again so tt my mom could intro me to the father. [pasal belum pernah jumpe kan.] and ALL the sons turned around to look at me. buat maluuuuuuu.

eh but seriously they're cute! a bunch of cute mats sitting in my living room!

anyway, photos. these two were taken yesterday. excuse my scruffy brother, i know he's nothing like atikk's brothers, Cutie and Jambang.




as you can tell, i'm taller than the people in the first row. haha. and i'm also the darkest. which explains why my mom keeps complaining when i go tanning.



this was what atikk's pathetic "wear-baju-kurung-day" attempts came to. haha. kat bawah are me and amy, and the photo in which atikk claims she looks like a gay. haha. forgive my bloated face, i was in bouts of laughter seeing atikk in baju kurung and stuff.




and that's fazli and me. bertembung on the way to the canteen, so i couldn't resist. he's so funnily cute.

i was gonna blog this morning before we left the house, but D kept hanging and stuff. so yeah. anyway let's get the necessaries out of the way.

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin to one and all. but i'm pretty sure i'll make those same mistakes again in the coming year. *does the amy face*

well as usual, i was friggin bored for the most part of the day. the route was
mak-->mak ngah-->nek hawa-->nek uteh-->nek andak-->sakura@eastpoint-->nek timah-->nek ngah.
haha. anyway biaserlah, tak bynk cute guys. in fact, practically non-existent. but at neks hawa/uteh there was this guy who macam, gave us [me/my sister] a hint of a smile. problem was, both of us were wondering if he was the bapak or the anak. then nek hawa gave him duit raya, at which point i muttered, "yesss the mystery is solved!" haha. ohwells. he's not tt cute lah, but he's a very nice abang and all that. so i tried to arrange my face into a more friendly expression. haha. and at nek andak's there was the same cute guy i saw last year. in black again, i think. but again, he's another of those guys who're supremely uninterested in me. haha. and there was this hot tall guy in the freshest, loveliest shade of green, with really cool stubble. but he kept hanging out in the room. ohwells.

yeah about the "sakura@eastpoint" part. my mom doesn't really like the seasonal lemakish food. so she just HAD to go have some clear fishball soup or whatever. haha. yep.

best part about the whole day was, we reached home at 920. that's gotta be a record or something. yeyyy.

when i left the house this morning [albeit a little late], i expected to come home with a pair of birkenstocks and a cute white billabong handbag. but i wasn't really looking forward to the shopping, cos going alone makes it an arduous task, while going with someone else makes it uber-fun. but anyways. i was in quite an agreeable mood this morning. and there was a semi-cute ite mat in the train. all the way to city hall. so that was good. he also looked familiar, but i couldn't place him for all the 12 stops.

by the time i reached skl, aku nak terkencing [as usual], and only shah was there. the idiot went and msged me on msn, and the alert sound reverberated the whole of the 6th level, buat malu sey. aku belom plug in earphones, relek babe! unfortunately since we BOTH had laptops, we wasted quite a bit of time interacting with each other. macam bisu gitu eh. boleh bebual tanak bebual, nak msn. a few hours later shah and me turned into shah, me, amy, their respective pasangans, and alfian, for a while. but it was fun. i even managed to finish practically all my readings. tapi in the end i didn't return the books pasal malas. [i DID attempt to upah al 5, then 10, dollars to return my books, but he didn't find the offer attractive enough.]

there were quite a number of GGMs. in chrono order, surfer 1 [the ONLY cool guy i saw at matric]--who studied alone, semangat sey!, bouncer--who has a gf i think, headphones/kasut guy [he scribbled "they're headphones dammit" on his cool sneakers], and surfer 2--who has a bike, yey. yup that was fun.

at first before 1 i guess there was no one online, but they started coming online at like 1-plus. so when a certain someone came online at 2, i abandoned all plans to go shopping and it was all amy could do to drag me away from my msn. :( haha. well, bad timing. aper nak buat kan. but i maintain that if she came back earlier from gallivanting with mubs, it could ALL have been avoided.

we bused to orchard, and split up there. i attacked the birkenstock shop right away. the nice rudy-looking guy helped me find a design that they actually had my size in, and i found out tt i'm a 40, not a 42! like i said to amy, "42 tu pantat aku gaknye." wahaha. yeah so my birks, lovely lovely lovely. nasib baik they didn't have the heidi klum range or i'd never have left the shop.



dropped by the crumpler shop [with the birkenstock shopping bag in prominent display so they'd think i was rich], where nothing really tickled my eyeballs except for the laptop cases. kiutttt. and we kept walking past fish & co, i nearly went in and ordered my usual seafood platter for two. hahaha.

there was a display of calendars outside borders, so we went back downstairs, where i had a hard time choosing between disney princesses and betty & veronica. serious it was a hard time. and the uber-hot, uber-cool, and suave-nak-mampos cashier, amir, didn't really help matters. haha. mannn he's seriously the personification of TallDarkHandsome. -mati- he seemed supremely uninterested in me, unsurprisingly. i'm sure he has his pick-and-choose of girls. oh right. the calendars. well i decided that my dislike of archie outweighs that of mulan, so...

yeah so after that we went back across the road, and into lido isetan where i showed amy the white billabong handbag. i was all set to buy it when she suggested we go look at the roxy bags at pacific. so we trooped back downstairs, into pacific plaza. besides cute green-guy-lookalike, i found the cutest clutch/handbag at ripcurl! and for only $29.90! [the billabong was a relatively-exorbitant $39.90.] so i was like, aaaarrgghhh and we decided to go have a gander at what roxy had to offer. WELL. at roxy i found the coolest, boldest fire-engine red handbag!!! it cost $46 originally, but they were giving 20% off. so i stood there, in the throes of indecision. [in the meantime, this manjen girl walks in with her boyfriend, and what is she wearing? the exact fuschia topshop sleeveless ribbed top! i nearly keeled over and died, and kind amy decided to abandon me by laughing away in the next aisle. i grabbed the red handbag and this furry black one and tried to hide my top behind it. luckily she left in a hurry. i guess dier pon perasan.] amy was salivating over this gorgeous brown button-down top, which looks boho and beachy and formal all at the same time. lovely price of 70 bucks too. haha. ok back to my dilemma. by this time i'd decided not to get the billabong. tak worth it. it was the most ex of the three anyway. finally amy volunteered that the roxy suited me better. so i was about to get the roxy when she said, "are you sure?" and that's when it hit me! a brainwave, i mean. i used the card for the roxy and we went back downstairs where i used cash for the ripcurl. kan senang.





yey. so i was happy. oh and i was waiting for the train at raffles place when this group of ite mats came by. and one of them was the same one i'd met in the morning! coolness. as in, what a coincidence. and in the train there was the cutest guy in a striped tshirt and jeans tucked into his adidas. cutenyer. and he kept sleeping. and he turns out to live 3 stops away from me. he was sleeping everywhere--in the train, the bus, agaknyer bus stop jugak. like i was telling shah this morning, i love guys who sleep. they look so innocent and vulnerable--no matter how setan they may be inside.

so. recap eh. i left the house expecting to come home with a pair of birks and a handbag, and i come home with



a pair of birks, TWO handbags AND a disney princesses calendar.

bimbodoh moment of the day: "the machine swallowed my card!"

anyway, thanks to the brilliant ng tze beng, i ended up reaching home at around, oh i dunno, 755pm?!?!?! i should have just gone home with CBG yeah? alah tapi maluuuu. well so i bukaed in 359 with the sweet that the bungkus2 "hantu" gave me just now. rupernyer sedap jugak. nicer than the apple actually. hahaha. oh and i had the LOVELIEST sleep in the train. sedap giler, cam tanak bangun sey.

and i'm getting my birkens tmr, WITH or WITHOUT a shopping partner. argh it's times like these when i miss shafa the most.

happy hallowe'en. i actually took a photo with one of the hooded "ghosts" walking around. so fun!

i'm so annoyed. now my sister is wearing my favourite saints tshirt around the house, knotted round her waist, as a baju tidur. wow. it's one of my favourite tshirts! ameklah tshirt lain sial. and when i shrieked at her not to wear it, she completely ignored me.

fuck. if this is how it's gonna be, i'd rather she go back to her fucking marine parade condo and have her and my mom continue to be angry at each other. although THAT won't happen. i think my mom'd rather have her back than have both me and zul around. you know, ever-loving firstborns.

once again, one of those things that seem too teeny to get so uptight about, but i AM anyway.

every saturday i come home thinking maybe i do like him enough to believe i'm not single.

well anyway. had penyiaran meeting in the late morning. quite enjoyable. plus i was there an hour early, so i sat there finishing one of my islam books. missed D terribly, but u know, berat and all. after tt i hung out with hanom for awhile, then took the eastbound train together. where we discussed first impressions. and i think general first impressions of me can be summed up in one word: bimbodoh. kan dazril kan? [not tt u read this blog. but we know who DOES!!! (sorry aku giler)]

i'm glad i didn't commit to seni iftar, cos i met fan right after the meeting to go shopping at queensway. well, he shopped. i salivated. there was this whole range of marc ecko watches with an average price of $300; a bright-giler-nak-mampos puma-ferrari jacket i just HAVE TO HAVE; AAAAAAAAAANNNNNDDD.. the iscream yoghurt counter!!! i died. okay actually prices are like a dollar higher, which is alot. but u know! sedap! for a moment my puasa wavered. sorry, God. it wasn't cos i was hungry [i wasn't. yet.], but it's just tt i love it so much! i think i could spend the rest of my life living on it. alone.

fan has a similar shopping style as me. it's quite amusing really.

anyway on our way out we bumped into two adorable boys--the respective brothers of non-fren and burger. how adorable! i wanted to grab each one and hug him. haha. i refrained from doing so, of course. glad to see that they're still alive and healthy, and that they seem to be taking after their abangs excellently.

after some difficulty deciding where to buka--fish & co/swensen's/pizza hut--we finally plumped for pizza hut. in the end kena 44 bucks plus sial. haha. the girl serving us, nurul, was really nice and she completely reminds me of nadzi. and there was one guy who reminded me of zul [adik akulah]. ah bagoslah tu. and did u know the ILT is actual tea? so they give u simple syrup to add to ur preference. sedap gilerr. and three lemon slices. i was in heaven. and i had no idea they switched radio channels just before buka. how considerate!

i can still taste the stuffed crust. ohyeah and i finally fulfilled my kepinginan rhumba frappucino at the TM starbucks. all guys on duty. mostly cute. hehe.

i am a loser.

firstly, i confuse night and day. tadi before buka i took a nap cos i was so freakin' tired. but my mom had to come and wake me several times before i actually staggered outside to buka. after buka, dah sembahyang, i went back to dreamland. bila tersedar, i saw that the clock showed almost 9, and i was CONVINCED it was 9 in the morning.

related to that, i left D on while i was sleeping. so a couple of people msned me, and i completely ignored them cos i was sleeping. haha. seriously. i slept for 2 hrs--9 to 11--with D still on and blaring songs which i didn't really hear anyway. i even had some dream about doing a project with julian and jon chen. why julian and jon chen? God i really have no idea.

next time, NO MORE all-nighters.

"is it just me, or do you only sleep during the day?"

was what fathrul said to me at 330 this morning. i thought it was quite funny. not to mention partially true. haha.

so i went to skl for about an hour today. aje. wow. i was supposed to go for TTT at 135, but i was SO sleepy from the previous 2 nights that aku malas nak bangun. in the end i was woken up by a phone call from fai. [no, not rul.] it's amazing how he always manages to call me at exactly the wrong time. but anyway, it woke me up, so that served its purpose.

yeah so i rushed to skl and everything, and met up with diatch to do mkting stuffs. she took over the project network proposal, thankfully. it was driving me nuts really. anyway i was GONNA go for eugene at 4, but when i called amy, she was still in the library, with NO PLANS whatsoever to go for the lecture, so i just went home la.

SO. i was in skl from 305 to 415. that's hardly an hour! so i rushed all over the planet for what was essentially nothing. great. in fact, the only thing i got out of today was how to take out D's battery. haha.

2 nights. i won't be able pull an all-nighter for 2 nights. will DEFINITELY miss it, and all other things associated with it.

i was having another of my haggard days today. seriously, i didn't even wanna look at myself in the mirror. it was THAT horrible. and i slept like giler in the train home and everything. but anyway, the point is, when i got home i was teetering on the edge of grumpy.

and then i saw this:




korang tak faham. i've been wanting an armchair in my room ever since i could sit. haha. and this is MY armchair, the one i used to sit in, in the living room, back in its heyday. but then we got a new sofa set and i casually suggested they put this one in my room. but takde space. so i sleep over at RH for one night, and i come home to this! what a lovely surprise.

so. guess where i'm sitting now?

Kukatakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka menghampirinya

Kau beri rasa yang berbeda
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Yang kurasa cinta

Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
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Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
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Kau redupkan lagi
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Tuk melihatmu

Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri

Kau buatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
Kau buatku merasakan yang tlah terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri -Peter Pan

nice huh? i love this yearly tradition of mine. really helps me look forward to rayer/ramadhan.

we bukaed at komala's, i had my usual. sedap gilerrsss. it was quite fun, cos there was a cute vik outside, working at the coffeeshop next door, "offering" me his drink. no really he was cute. which was primarily why i layaned him.

then we began our trek around the bazaar. we must've walked around each place at least twice. my kakis are just dying now. there were some really droolworthy bajus, but my baju quota has long since been reached so yeah. we bought yummy ice-blended drinks for $2.50 at the part outside darul arqam. then we did our inai, and sat at a fly-infested bench for like 45 minutes waiting for it to dry. gilersss. but it was good mat-watching. they can't see you at all, but you have a great view of them.

hmm we met ammar. syahida's right, he's definitely less cute now. still cute, but less so. ohwell he still remembers me at least. i'm so touched. haha. cam real. nolah but most ppl don't rem me, so cam sedih. we also saw syed faisal, but tt's about it la. actually it was kinda boring people-wise cos tak ramai orang ah. there were definitely more people the wednesday i went. yeah so other than a few cute guys, nothing really tickled my eyeballs.

two notable guys in the train. first was nazril, brother of BR. and the other was helmi kasui. hahahaha. unfortunately si helmi kasui left without telling me. -merajuk- wow and we actually caught the last 96 back, by a hairbreadth.

sahur at fongseng laterrr.

what amy and i were doing last night:



hehe. after which i added, "vulgar sey anak kedua kau! ikot bapak dier.."

ohwells. i had fun last night. ended up sleeping at 2 even though i was supposed to sleep at 10. and i came to skl with mubs just now.

i love it when it rains. no, scratch that. i love it when it rains when i'm at home, snug in my bed, in an introspective mood.

so anyway. i remembered this during sahur.

me: dahlah aku tanak lagilah baba. perut aku nak dekat tutup ni. dier tgh buat closing.

baba: aku tengok kau belum soda pe..

wahahahaha. okay of course only baba and i get it. but thanks halim for introducing the perut-tutup concept to us.

another one:

baba: okay, so what's taking the ice-cream so long?

me: dier tengah kejar lembu to get the milk.

baba: yah, and dier tgh mining for sand--to make glass.

baba again: dier tgh ber-sex! asal asal?

me: to give birth to the glassblower! and tukang buat fountain!!!

yup. yelah takyah cakap ah, kiter giler.

interesting thing happened today. well, I thought it was interesting, anyway.

i was sitting at the void deck with fan, and my mom came by and asked what i was doing. nolah not in a marah way, just cam, casually, i suppose. i mati2 thought she specially came from upstairs at first. but rupernyer she was from loyang point. so she went, "siape ni?" and i was like, "kawan ain.." and i weirdly introed them. and then he salamed her, which i thought was so cute, cos i didn't even salam her myself, out of shock. haha. well whatever. i just found it mildly interesting cos that's the closest she's ever come to my personal life. and it seems there IS something to be said about the other benefits of not PDAing. haha.

shasha pulak cakap, "rock rock sey kau pilih.." lucky she was busy, or i would have replied, "bukan aku yang pilih!"

we bukaed at mac's today. and there were some really cute guys. i swear. these cute guys just pop up whenever i'm with him, just to spite me. haha. like there was this REALLY cute guy in red, sitting directly infront of me about 3 tables away with his gf. i couldn't help but stare at him, y'know? and there was this hot vik who looks 100% mim--one of fan's seniors in PA. hmm and then in the 359 queue there was this really cute guy called shaik. or whatever. hahaha.

it's pissing me off though, that i still don't know where we are, and that i can always get angry at him, but when i see him again, it all kinda evaporates.

ooh i bought myself a new automatic pencil eyeliner today! in green.. i wanted a change of shade, since i've used black since sec 2, and i'm already using brown. so yeah. but ouch it cost $15.90. the maybelline ones were cheaper, $9.90/$8.90, but odd/limited colours. and he chose the l'oreal one, haha.

thanks everyone for your support for the awards. i can't believe this is the third year and it's still going strong. and to think it was born during a boring afternoon, in the middle of an econs/chem/bio paper. sorry if you guys don't know half of the awardees. i know it kind of kills the fun. but ohWELLS.

anyway, the sentimentalities out of the way, i actually had a great 2 hours at lt14 with atikk etc. the two of us were just dancing to our own songs, or singing along to Minah Tudung, my current second favourite song. and then there were those cute guys at the next table. which was why i ended up leaving at 11, instead of at 1030 as originally planned. haha.

took the train home with haikal. he's so funny!!! i was totally dying. we both were. cos i was telling him some of the stupid jokes i read with amy the other time. and then we were talking about front-centre-knotted skirts and shurtain-cower-dresses. giler!!! alah budak loyang. whaddya expect? [i still can't believe it's such a small world and tt he's actually a budak loyang.]

so the interesting thing that happened today, as atikk and i sat down, side-by-side, and turned on our respective laptops:

atikk: [is silent for a few moments as she logs into msn] AIN!!! did you block me on msn???

me: [stumped] ohyah sorry.. i didn't want you to bug me.. [sees the funny side and starts laughing] anyway, you MUST have realised something weird when you didn't see me online for like the past week!!!

so anyway, she proceeded to msn shah and amy and tell them about my cardinal sin of blocking her. both darlings denied any knowledge, and attempted to defend me. so it was HILARIOUS. atikk showed me her convo window with amy, while i showed her MY amy window tt said: "AINNNN!!! atikk tahu kau block dier!!!" yes, like i said, hilarious.

okays, once again we're back!!! it's the ain awards 2005!!!

[side note: actually, i mati2 thought tt today was the 19th. so i was gonna post this tmr. ape je. nasib baik nat bilang.]

Main Awards
Most Perfect: Laptop-Packer/Family Man
Most Missed: Bun
Most Charming: Prince
Cutest [Little Boy]: Tommy Starbucks
Cutest [Model]: Sir Tingles
Nicest-Looking: Abang Science
Nicest: CBG
Current Favourite: Loner Guy [who else, right?]



Subsidiary Awards

Gatsby Best Hair is self-explanatorily awarded to the guy with the best hairstyle. The winner enjoys a year's supply of products from the well-known brand, and has the privilege of becoming the face of Gatsby this year. This award goes to... Cute Sideburns!

Mr Pasir Ris-Punggol is also self-explanatorily given to the cutest guy in the far-east side. He has the coveted honour of being the face of activities based the Pasir Ris-Punggol area. Clearly, the winner can be no other than... Loner Guy!

The Hugo Boss Boss Man has to be cool, hot, sexy, and everything else. He also has to know when NOT to play by the rules. And so this year's Boss Man is... Kashbir!

Our Flash 'N' Splash Surfer Dude is the one with the best beach look, including tan, hairstyle, and of course the requisite hot bod. He gets to be the face of Flash 'N' Splash for the year, plus all his outfits will be sponsored by them. And the lucky winner is... Pasta!

Harley Davidson Bad Boy will get not just clothes and a year's modelling contract, but also 2 new motorbikes from the label [one for his gf, presumably], to further supplement his bad-boy image. And this year's Bad Boy is... Ex-Con!

SDU's Perfect Match goes to the guy who'll make a great life partner, in all aspects [physical, spiritual, emotional] of life. This year's winner is... Bapak!

And then we have Mr. Bollywood, which goes to the cutest vik, and that's... Double Decaf!

Lim Seng Tjoe Mr. Science goes to the cutest, freshest guy in Science, who makes me glad to be in Science. Yay. So that goes to... Sialsss!

Power 98's Most Melodious Voice gets to choose between a recording contract and a year's internship as a DJ at abovementioned radio station. And the winner is.. BR!

Now we have The Red Roof Lumpurs Relek One Corner award, which goes to the most lumpurish guy of all... Mamat!

And finally, the LEAST coveted award of Freakazoid of the Year [again, self-explanatory] goes to... Mubs!

yay okay i'm done. i'm quite sad that not everyone won something, but if i had to do it like that, besok pon tak game. so yup this is it for this year. insya-Allah next yr ader lagie eh?

i used to think i was nuts.

i was right. but my friends are far worse. for solid evidence, look to the right.

i got back yesterday at a quarter to midnight. i hadn't realised it was that late. i guess time REALLY flies when you're having fun. we were finally seated at like 9, so dah makan makan makan [i had the CHEESHEE, esprit passionfruit and gold rush], and ketawer, we ended up being the last customers. you know, the kind that they're glad to see the back of. haha. oh but it was loads of fun. and we DID end up using the $26 voucher.

some highlights: merepeking about BR, merepeking about loner guy, merepeking about ahem-ahem, NOT merepeking about mubs, figuring out what EXACTLY takes a bus so long to arrive, and just loads of assorted shit like eating rumputs.

woohoo and to further enhance my enjoyment of the day, it was lovely weather, low temperatures, and loads of my favourite ite mats. yey.

btw, IGNORE baba. she ate too much ice-cream. 7 ounces.

i'ma make you want to get with me tonight
i'ma put those naughty thoughts into your mind
i'm gonna show you clearly i can rock your world
you're gonna know for sure that i should be your girl-Mariah Carey

are song lyrics really true? cos if they are.. well then loner guy better watch out. haha.

this is what i have to put up with from my friend amy.



naturally, names have been censored to protect MY privacy. whatever's left of it anyway.

it's so nice to just sit by the window in my room and chill. you know, breathe in the fresh morning air and all. and at this odd hour of the morning, i can pretend it's night time. i'd rather chill at night. but then i wouldn't be able to function in school. so it's a trade-off, really. i'll save the night-chilling for vacation time.

everyone is ignoring me on msn, so i'll just go back to my blog, cos my blog always listens. :)

i have a new online friend. haha. the 49305849203rd, actually. but who cares? it's fun. and i'm not gonna stop for anything in the world. PLUS, like shah said, i don't have anyone to answer to. [actually, she was talking about loner guy. but i think it applies to me too. haha.] yup. this one looks like the baik type actually. i'm really curious to know what that's like. the baik type, i mean. so it should be even more fun.

smalam i committed a cardinal sin. i'm really sorry, but i just had to! i was at the forum, on the way to the lib, and i passed by the iscream yoghurt stall! i almost died of kempunan-ness, longing and ecstasy. and i found atikk in the library, so we went back downstairs and got one each. unfortunately, the forum kan ramai orang, so yeah, everyone saw us purchasing food. ohWELLS. sorry. it was my last day, so enjoying it while it lasted. kalau nak tunggu si baba berlunch ngan aku, sampai lain tahun pon aku tak makan sey.

i gots to be on my way to school soon. which means i gots to siap soon. malas sey. can't wait for tmr. i can just relek2 at home. doing nothing. as always. the only time i do anything productive is in the train, and like i said yesterday, i can't exactly take the train back and forth from boon lay for like 8 hours straight, can i?

ohWELLs. i'll be seeing freakazoid in a couple of hours. TAK interested man!

i woke up late again this morning. pasal smalam i went to geylang with nan, shima, shasha, her husband and 2 of their friends. we didn't get home tt late lah, about 1 in the morning, but somehow i couldn't wake up for sahur anyway. i had a great time, btw. we saw like a billion cute guys. like this tall blonde one wearing a cool sleeveless tshirt and just looking very hot, at one of the 24-hr coffeeshops. his friend's car was parked right next to us, so we got to see them drive off. oh and this smouldering vik-looking guy sitting about 5 metres directly infront of me, and we exchanged stares. haha. AND ahmad latiff, who's also bleached blonde, and has the greatest calves ever bestowed upon man.

ah and on the way to skl there was this cute talldarkhandsome vik in the train in a red shirt and who smells really enticingly of adzfar/clinique happy. hahaha. it took me back to days of tarian at odd hours of the night, seeing OM after training, etc. very fun days, those were.

wah smalam lepas buker tros tido sey. camna tak gemok? and then i cldn't even wake up for sahur, and i vaguely remember answering a call from hannan in the middle of the night [?], although i don't really rem what was exchanged. haha.

and then today i went to geylang in the afternoon with my mom and mak. [btw, they're 2 different people. one's my mom. the other's my aunt. ANYWAYS.] we met syida and her parents in the bus. and we all spent the journey catching up. i was a tad jealous to hear that her [cute arab] boyfriend was bukaing at her house tonight. but owells. takder orang nak aku.

geylang was fine. i got 2 new bajus. should be enough i suppose. but neither of them are skl-wearable. so. yeah. takkan nak pakai aku nyer sky-blue one tak abis2, nanti mubs ingat aku dier nyer baju soulmate. there was this REALLY NICE lace one i would have killed for, except it cost $250 and well, some human lives are worth less than that. i wanted to get a black one!!! so that during jalan raya, i have 70% more chances of finding a baju kurung soulmate!!! tapi takder yg caught my fancy so yeah. and then we went to the pasar, and i actually saw a cute guy who was there with his parents. naturally, he was looking at me too, since people like me ARE a rare sight in pasar geylang. i was thanking God that i was wearing three-quarters and my nonslip slippers. hahaha. yeah anyway he was cute, and i'd bet my 2 new bajus that he's really nice too. since he was at the pasar and all. ohwells.

next time if i'm feeling up to it i shall attempt to follow my mom to the pasar again and look for cute guys. hahaha.

and then balek aku tido lagi, bukaed, watched confessions of a teenage drama queen, and we went to loyang point where i rented.. erm, i can't rem what i rented. there was a cute guy at sheng siong. but i think he was with his wife. ohWELL. ohYAH i rented you got served, X-Men 1.5 and one more i can't rem. so nampaknyer i'll be ponning wed again to habiskan the dvds. hahahaha.

okay i'm gonna start now, bye.

amy thinks "pura-pura" is "tortoise" in malay!!!

me: jgn pura-pura tak tahulah amy..
her: i'm not a tortoise!
me: [insert drawing which loosely translates to "tortoise=kura-kura"]

so. back to my less retarded friends. i actually went home after chem lect yest, cos of a number of stupid reasons. takpe i didn't regret it, but i had no bottoms to wear so i had to settle for my brown skirt. then i ended up looking too hot-date-y, so i rabaked down the outfit with my rabak blue slippers. haha.

well the meeting was okay. i think. after that we went to mac's to buka puasa, and that was fun too, cos i finally saw the supposed taufik-lookalike. you know which taufik i mean. haha.

then we went home. well, SOME of us went home. we met claudine [from yesteryear rgs days] in the bus, and i had a nice time talking to her. she's so nice! yups. and there was a cute blonde mat in the train sitting next to zahdan. WOULD have taken a photo, tapi cam malu and stuff. haha. God knows why though, since he was sleeping and it was the perfect opportunity. ohwells.

who else did i see in the train??? this bapak who goes to the downtown east swimming pool with his adorable son to teach him swimming!!! aku cam nak cakap hi, but i'm sure he doesn't rem me and all. i don't even know why i remember him, since the last time i went there was at least 3 months back. oh i know why. pasal 1, his son is REALLY adorable. all tanned and round and earnest and just very cute. and 2, i'd always wondered, dekni tak kerje ke? whenever i saw them cos it was like the middle of a weekday afternoon. well. now we know that he DOES have a day job. or whatever. haha.

yes well anyway, gots to go do my prelab.

heyyy.. i had a lovely chem lab today. cumer si dol NAT tak puas hati with her equations. when i'd given up long ago. anyways. once again, the solutions MATCHED my earrings!!! it was this Fe-SCN complex. really nice. normally it's blood-red, but for this experiment it was less intense, more orangey. i took 2 photos, they were SO pretty!!!

boringboring smalam. cos i skipped lect and stayed home. loner guy, amek kau obat.

so when my friend invited me to join him at geylang [the bazaar, people], i jumped at the invitation. haha. met him at the food court, and we walked around while he complained that there aren't enough guy stalls. haha. thankfully, it wasn't mendak or anything, cos i found out that he knows a certain dear friend of ours. haha.

mannn wall-to-wall mats!!! except without walls! hahaha. very very fun and cuci mata.. except it was painfully hot and i was sweating just SITTING STILL. tak glamer sey. and all the human jams.. eew. hm i was looking for hari raya cards but i didn't really see any. sampul duit ader ah. tu buat ape sey. hahaha. LIKE i have money to give out.

didn't see anyone i knew, but HEY, i suppose it's better than seeing loner guy holding hands with some girl.

i just got this email from some guy.

Hola, me llamo Jose, y soy de Gandia una ciudad en la costa del Mar Mediterraneo en Espa�a.

Me gustaria poder conocerte un poco, si quieres puedes agregarme o enviarme algun mail
y estamos en contacto.

Un saludo. [insert email address here]

i went to babelfish, and it translates loosely as follows:

Hello, I am Jose, and I am of Gandia, a city in the coast of the Mediterranean Sea in Spain. Gustaria me to be able conocerte a little, if you want you can add to me or send algun to me mail and we are in contact with the enemy.

so i was like, huh?!?!?! it was sent from my msn public profile, which doesn't state ANYWHERE that i am spanish-speaking. besides, he's OLD! i went to his msn profile and he's like friggin' 32!!! aper ni?!?!

needless to say, i haven't replied.

day started off frumpy, but ended great.

i regretfully skipped islam lec so that i could have a couple more hours of sleep. frantically did chem tutorial in the train, and a little bit more at the benches outside islam tutorial. lepas tu ader uninvited guest. pe je. takpe. pasta sat practically next to me, so THAT was good. anyway, the rest of school zoomed by, and amy and i soon found ourselves praying asar at the surau.

then kiter jalan2 at far east, where i showed them gerard [yay!] and i also bumped into aishah and dian. funny how they still look the same, yet different. well we ended up eating at jason's, where there was yet another uninvited guest. so the invited guest tak dtg. sebok je sey. i was there first, boy!

so dah makanmakanmakan, it was back to the surau. there was a cute bapak on the overhead bridge, but in the 15-20 minutes i was praying, he sprouted a moustache! unflattering one, at that, so i decided to relegate him to shah. but you know who's cute? halim's friend is CUTE!!! then back to far east for ice-cream. yums. then it was shopping, shopping and more shopping!!! plus a crazy neoprint-taking session. i wonder if anyone else has ever used the half-half curtain technique before. hehe. anyways, i got me a sweet-looking green skirt [hold back the insults, now] and a really nice and deceptively-simple halterneck top from shibuya. i'm sooooo excited, they're both so prettypretty!!!

well by tt time it was getting late, so we decided to split. and i got one last look at that handsome guy that is halim's friend. hahahaha.

so dalam train, aku tido2 pasal penat. and while on the escalator down, i noticed this guy from the back, who seemed kinda cute. later while walking to the int, i realised tt it was CBG rupernyer. i was debating whether to say hi or not. but when he stopped and stood right in the middle of the int, i decided to just waddehellkan ah. so i waved and said hi. and he said hi back! ah he's just very nice. and it was the perfect end to a lovely day.

back in RJ i ADORED the library, and now in uni, the library and i are good mates once again. check out the view. all blue sky and floaty white clouds. loves it. don't get the wrong idea, though. not that i get much studying done, but it's just a pleasant feeling, being in the library, whether i'm alone or with my giler pals e.g. amy-"bapak"-lia.

speaking of whom, BR has the nicest voice known to man!!! really. i was like totally cairing. in fact, as i said to shah, i quickly plugged in my earphones, kalau tak, terkencing jugak aku kat lt tu.

ahahaha. oh yeah calculus test was okay. i mean, at least i didn't spend the entire hour sitting there staring at my paper. wahaha.

well. it's the 10th. time for the pre-awards show. names of contenders are subject to change, and all votes are accepted, although not necessarily considered. :)

the ain awards

contenders:
1. loner guy
2. PKII
3. BR
4. mubs
5. laptop-packer/family man
6. sir tingles
7. pasta
8. double decaf
9. bapak
10. sialssss [kawan siolsss]
11. prince
12. kashbir
13. mamat
14. CBG
15. indra mac's
16. baik german guy
17. ex-con
18. bun
19. WS security guard
20. abang engine
21. abang science
22. cute sideburns
23. cute stripes
24. tommy starbucks
25. hilman

nominees

most perfect
loner guy
laptop-packer/family man
sir tingles
kashbir
abang science

most missed
kashbir
ex-con
bun
cute sideburns

most charming
mubs [but only cos nat said so!]
prince
indra mac's
bun
abang engine

cutest [little boy]
PKII
BR
mamat
tommy starbucks

cutest [model]
laptop-packer/family man
sir tingles
kashbir
CBG
cute sideburns

nicest-looking
mubs
laptop-packer/family man
baik german guy
abang science
cute stripes
hilman

nicest
BR
laptop-packer/family man
bapak
CBG
abang engine
abang science
hilman


yups. that's the lineup for the ain awards 2005. exciting nak mampos kan? btw i do realise that si laptop-packer/family man seems to be nominated like all the time, but i swear it's not cos i like him or anything. he just happens to fit the criteria, that's all. i'm not saying he's gonna win everything, you'll just have to tune in to find out. and for ain awards virgins, just cos some of them aren't nominated at all, doesn't mean they won't win anything. there's always the subsidiary awards, which, to me, are more exciting than the main ones. plus they keep changing every year. and then there's the much-coveted [cam real je] current favourite award. sooooooo.. don't forget to come back!!!

i actually had a really great day!!! haha.

well at first i was just lazing around at home as usual.. kalau fan wants to go out he'll usually msg me at like 4, so i had plenty of time. so i finished up the english concept paper, mandied, and went out [to the living room] to spend some quality time with the tv. haha. there was this really interesting murder-hantu-mystery thing showing on starmovies.

anyway, unsurprisingly, fan msged me at like 350. so i dropped by white sands [where the cute botak security guard was working today!!!], and visited shasha and nan and everyone else for awhile. oh i totally miss working there. then i met fan at lavender. we went to beach road, where there's a whole level of kedais i never knew existed! and there was this shop with a range of puma green-guy-type jackets i was just salivating over. i am SO gonna go back there.

predictably, we bukaed at beach road also. the mutton chop's great, tapi cam sikit sgt. oh but the mats!!! beribu gilers!!! i was having loads of fun checking them out. albeit discreetly.

then we went home. as in, my home. and i dropped by swensen's again, where i got a free strawberry cone! yums. free stuff always tastes twice as nice. anyway then we hung out kat bawah blok, with my laptop.

i dunno why it felt like such a nice day, but it does. maybe this weekend, things seemed less complicated. of course, NOW i won't get to see him for the next couple of weekends. but we'll see how that goes.

[okay, to macam, spoil the mood, si diatch just smsed me to tell me loner guy's attached. booooooooo.]

hahaha. okay why am i laughing to myself? cos i just read through the ain awards transcripts of the past 2 years. i'm so glad i remembered in time, now i can have a third award ceremony this year!!!

the ain awards is held yearly, and they basically honour the guys that walk in and out of my life. the awards are traditionally given out on 20 october, but shortlisting and selection starts anytime before, so if anyone has any ideas for guys to honour, just tell me yea?

i'm SO excited. we have a whole new crop of nominees to work with!!!

what do you call a mat who's always late? [no, not "baba's boyfriend/soulmate"!]

you call him..

matlamBat!!!

okay sorry i'm finally getting down to doing my week-overdue PBM work, so i'm exponentially more giler than usual now. mannn.. tak betul sey aku. but then i came up with that joke in the middle of typing "matlamat", so i burst into laughter. haha.

for anyone who's reading this and IS pissed with my complete lack of responsibility regarding PBM work, be informed that it's my secret desire to get kicked out for abovementioned undependability. and maybe then i'll be able to get back to fixing my own screwed-up life.

okay i'm sorry but i HAD to blog, even though it's like 3 minutes till my GEM meeting.

anyway. i had 2 nightmares last night. okay, actually, more, but these two really kinda stuck with me.

first, i was out with my friends, e.g. amy, baba, etc. and then i received this sms from fan. it went like this: "i meet you at [insert place and time here] k? loner guy loner guy loner guy..." no, i'm serious, the sms actually said tt. so i was getting all freaked out, cos i knew tt somehow he'd found out tt i liked loner guy, and he was prolly gonna like, dump me because of that. ANYWAY it was just damn stupid and i spent the rest of the dream freaking out. "how did he find out? HOW?"

the second one was about ex-con. i was in a restaurant/chalet/library with my sister, and he came and just butted in, and started flirting with me. and he tried to make out with me, right in front of my sister!!! dier giler!!!

okay stupid dreams. i'm dead.

so was the makan berdamai a BLAST or what?!?!?! haha. for starters, BERIBU cute guys. all those viks and other exotic guys. and the food was great--nasi, ayam masak lemak, and paru2s. oh well there were sayurs but i didn't take notice. aku makan berlambak sak. and then there were the sweet stuffs which i just took, including the half-eaten donut thingy. hahaha. i was halfway through biting my kuih bakar when i saw the unattended donut, so i put down the kuih bakar and attacked the donut instead. afterwards i went back to the kuih bakar. haha. and i also togoked like 3 cups of air. gelojoh sak. tak malu aku, dahlah we were surrounded by guys.

anyway FUNNY INCIDENT. i accidentally knocked over atikk's drink while gelojohly eating. it spilled all over my skirt, and some onto the tikar. so what did i do? i sat there, staring at the mess, looked around, saw my 3 makan-mates [atikk, di, hanom] doing the same thing, and i exclaimed, "react, people!!!" we were quite terpegun at first, cos my skirt didn't seem to be absorbing the water at first. atikk reacted quickest, she found half a packet of pocket tissues. OBVIOUSLY, tak cukup, so she was like, "i don't care ain, i'm just gonna wipe it with your skirt!!!" and proceeded to do just that. finally, after taking a 89204204-year-long walk, atikk found fadzli, who had a packet of serviettes, and we used tt to mop up the mess. i ended up looking like aku terkencing, which is actually not hard to believe, considering i comment, "nak terkencing!" about 5 times a day. on average.

anyway, we ended the lovely makan session with a couple of sparklers and a purple lighter. it was SO fun, as u can see from the pictures below. i spelled out "[insert loner guy's name here] loves ain!!!" 3 separate times. it was SO fun.

i went to school early today JUST to glimpse loner guy at lecture. i could have come later, at like 2 or even 5. anyway. he looked good today, as always. he always looks good. anyway, we happened to be going the same way as him, cos i was going to the lab to hand in my report. so we were like "following" him. apparently dier toleh at us. anyway, instead of turning right at the lift, he just kept on walking!!! so aku sed angrily, "aper kau jalan straight? bodoh nyer loner guy. LOSAAAAAAAAAAAAR!!!" in the end dier patah balek sak.

then later shah and i were waiting for the lift at the 4th level, and the lift got there, and then the other guy who was waiting stepped in, PAS TU THEY CLOSED THE FUCKING DOORS ON US!!! bodoh. geram aku.

i don't know why, but i never have much to blog about these days. ANYWAY. i went home straight after CM1111 lec today, with nat. we passed by this passably-cute guy on a pretty cobalt blue bike and wearing a helmet with FLOWER decals. haha. he was getting impatient, and after a while he started tooting the horn. haha. we thought he was giving loner guy a lift home or something, but noooo..

it had to be fate, it just had to be. nat and i ter-missed the first 95 pasal aku malas nak lari. so we were just there at the bus stop, and loner guy comes walking with mamat and his friend. sighhhh. u know what, his missing teeth are SO cute somehow! anyway, they sat right at the back and we heard them talking about like chem lab or whatever. and they were right behind us while walking to the mrt, SEKALI they detoured to the toilet!!! bodoh. we were contemplating whether or not to wait, but the next train was relatively empty so i just jumped into it. then as it moved off, i saw him just getting off the escalator. BODOH.

so. when i reached pasir ris, *I* made a detour to the toilet. then i lengah2ed a while, and started walking very slowly to the interchange. i was like 2 metres away from the interchange and giving up, pasal batang hidung dier pon takder. then suddenly he was infront of me. unfortunately, he doesn't take my bus. but at least he lives on the same side of pasir ris as me [he took 3]! yay.

so yes, tt was me stalking loner guy.

morning latest: atikk has decided to steal Loner Guy from me. she was talking to him in MS tutorial today about his bike accident which left him with a scar on his face, and gigi rongak. so i can just say goodbye to him permanently.

i'm so sleepy, i could cry. i don't even know why i'm so tired. i mean, i slept at like 1230 je what. i normally sleep later than that, with no problems. so anyway, i have totally no mood for skl today. dahlah kena model baju kurung. i dunno what fit of craziness seized me and made me volunteer, anyway. but it's been done so i just gotta grit my teeth and do it. oh God and i still have to cut out the teeny cookie fliers, when all i wanna do is plop my head on the table and sleep. even if loner guy decided to catwalk up and down in front of me 32949203 times, i'd just go to sleep.

i'm sick of feeling so tired. i think i'd rather have my sedentary lifestyle back, than an active one where i'm in 8392802 friggin projects. but i can't bring myself to quit. it's not that they need me so terribly or anything, cos i've never really contributed that much, but how do i go about quitting? cos i SO want to.

anyway, in the likely case that i won't be able to blog anymore today, selamat berpuasa.

oooh i just got home from bugis, and guess who i saw being driven up to my block?!?! this cute regular customer from swensen's! the tall and handsome serani guy, who always comes in with his colleague and the daughter [the colleague's, not his]. oh he's SO handsome, SO hot! i almost died right there, thinking about the possibility of him living so near me. ahhhh.

i haven't been online practically ALL weekend. so i'm getting my blogging fix now. in the science lib, during CM1111 lecture time. haha.

anyway, i thought yesterday's weather was THE most beautiful. all clear blue skies and perfect sun [i.e. it was sunny giler, but not the kind where u sweat], and a nice, non-cold but refreshing breeze. i thought i was in perth, so niceeeee. so i was glad to be outdoors. haha. i hung out at starbucks PS with fan, where i met tzing [yay!] working there, and i enjoyed the beeyootiful weather, then we went to watch corpse bride, which is so cute, and a little sad. then we went back to pasir ris, hung out some more, and i went to meet nan. buat malu though. everyone kept asking, "kau dari maner?" like i was some kinda freak show. i dress like that all the time what. why is it that *I*'m the only one who gets the flak? well anyway, hannan was like totally nice and non-judgemental, haha, so i was really glad.

saturday was the 3J meeting. i love the red roof. it's so nice and friendly. ooh and we saw adzfar and rudy. ah my juniors are so adorable. after tt kiter gi makan and hang out at raimah's. and i let atikk listen to my new favourite song. i'm confident by the look on her face that night that it's her new favourite song too. ooh and baba and atikk gave a combined syarahan on the topic of "syurga di bawah telapak kaki abang". haha. HTBT [had to be there, and you weren't]!!! hahahaha. sorry aku giler. but it was hilarious. anyway then i went home, siap2, and sempat receive a photo of abang engine, before zooming out of the house again. met sheikh at his workplace, walked to bugis, and we watched the 40-year-old virgin, which is really quite funny and a great movie after all. haha. even though it was initially an urggghhh choice. yup. so anyway, by the time we got to chinablack, dah full house. so aku cam malas. and hanom was at devil's bar, but we cldn't get in cos sheikh's only 19. so we just sat outside hilton and waited for hanom to come out. and then the 3 of us basically sat around orchard till about 6-ish. haha. betulnyer takde kerje. dahlah aku pakai heels. sakit giler bodoh. and all for naught.

okay amy u officially have a friend. and we officially have the lowest chem scores in our little circle of chem friends, to date.

anyway, i went to meet a new friend at bugis just now. at first i was like SO skared cos he kept saying, "jgn muntah when u see my face.." i mean, HOW could anyone feel secure after hearing that right? so when i reached bugis, i was like, shit, which ugly guy is him? and i hardly looked around in case i spotted THE ugly guy. haha. but omg he turned out to be SO HOT. i swear, i swear! he's the kind of guy i'd spot walking down the street, and nudge amy/baba/shafa/whoever, and say, "aku ambik dier..!" yup. i mean, okay, firstly he looks like a vik. secondly, he has THE sexiest trimmed five-o'clock shadow, frappe pon kalah. and thirdly, he's tall and not kurus kering, but just nice. like baby bear. ohman seriously, i was like, wow i can't believe i'm walking around bugis with this guy! anyway we didn't have much time [pasal kena buat test kan], so we just went for dinner at this chicken rice place [and i saw fairuz TCL swensen's there, plus loads of other cute lumpurs], and then we took 12 home. and barely minutes after he walked me home, he msged to say thanks for having dinner with him, and wished me good luck for the test. and i was just swooning cos i thought that was SO sweet! and when i replied and said thanks for everything [cos he was being totally gentlemanly all night], he responded with "thanks again.." !!! could you die?!?!?! how can someone be hot AND sweet? [okay now he sounds like a teh. hahaha.]

and anyone who asks me the question, "maner kau nak campak fan?" will have our friendship ties severed forever.

okay sorry just a quick one before i depress myself with the test. i just got home from meeting the AM guy, and he is SO HOT! mannn. kill me now.

"you kissed my lips and then you take my breath away.." -joe [the singer]

in the library now. mendak sey. i have loads of work to do. 3j stuff, taridra stuff, penyiaran stuff, and assorted academic stuff. tapi cam malas nak buat sey. oh i wish i was at the arts linkway. kat library maner ader cute guys nak lalu-lalang sey. haha.

lab was quite okay. as usual, aku nak terkencing, which spoiled the experience la. haha. and i hate when i feel my phone vibrating in the middle of like, an experiment or smthg. but anyway. so i went for a toilet break. and when i walked back inside, FUUUYOOOOOOO!!! the smell just hit me in the face! it was a horrible and potent combination of sulfur and ammonia. takleh angkat sakkkk.. you know, the label claimed that it was dilute ammonia, but bau dier macam extra-strong hair dye sey. and when you mix the reagents, e.g. dilute ammonia and dilute HCl, you'll like, see fumes. padahal dier tulis "dilute" pe. NOT getting it. so i was thinking, the only shitty thing about chemistry is the baus. haha. tu je yg aku takleh angkat. everything else is quite fun la. ohyah so back to the test. it was this pretty pretty olive-green colour that i later realised was the exact shade of the dangly earrings i was wearing! so of cos, i HAD to take a picture. nanti malam aku post. how cool rite? i mean, it totally strengthened my love for chemistry. haha. oh maaf i'm supposed to talk about the TEST. it was oklah, but i kinda got sick of centrifuging after the third one. haha. annoying sak. i got Fe(III), which i was pretty sure was right after all the merepek gross brown ppts. and i got Ni(II), which made sense cos what else could have caused the pretty green shade right? [mannn i was so in love with my solution, i wanted to bring the remainder home with me. tapi takder available receptacles. takkan nak taruk dlm waterbottle adidas aku kan.] oh and i got nitrate(V), which i concluded after getting my first-ever brown ring!!! excitiooonnngggg.. and i finished [crapping] everything about 10 minutes early, it was so cool. so i left early again. i love finishing lab early. it gives one a sense of freedom. hahaha.

i can't believe i just wrote a whole run-on paragraph on my CM1111 lab. haha. i like lab la. the prelab jitters are annoying, but once i get into it, it's all very fun. and my lab partner is so nerdily cute. haha. okay, he's not my lab partner, he's my lab neighbour, technically. i remember being skared pasal i didn't know anyone in lab 1, but now i talk to both my lab neighbours, so everything's cool. i think that they think aku eksyen pandai, though. cos i always finish early. not that i actually DO the experiments. kadang2 malas. malas and takot. takot the whole thing will blow up in my face. so generally, i stay away from heating over a flame, heating in a water bath, and adding concentrated reagents, in that order. then i just cam, try and figure out what the right results are. or ask shah. or dengar2 [which has never worked, cos i'm pekak].

okla okla enough chem stuff. tadi pat arts canteen some OLD and TAK CUTE mim worker was staring at me. like, blatantly staring. he was with his colleague or whatever, but facing me. and he just stared and stared pat muker aku non-stop, while drinking his air. annoying sak. and even when he got up to leave, he HAD to like take the route closest to our table, and continued staring at me. then he put his cup away, and went back to staring at me as he left the canteen. um, seriously. sedarlah diri sikit. i bet he was hoping for me to like, smile at him or something. not in this life, bang.

oh cool i just met abang jufri here, at central lib. and i just borrowed my first book. ahaha. sleng sey aku.

doing my usual prelab surfing at the usual place. and there's this guy at the next table who's completely freaking me out, i think he has Tourette's syndrome or something. he's totally interfering with my normally-peaceful chillout time man. i know it may not be his fault, but STILL. hancur concentration aku.

i've made big plans to skip calculus tutorial today cos i SWEAR, i can't do the 6th tutorial AT ALL, even after thumbing the textbook dry. mampos. so i'm gonna just chillout pat arts linkway and wait for the germans to finish their tutorial. then i'll hang with them till their lecture starts la. and in all the bits of free time that i have, i'll get started on the taridra minutes and the penyiaran concept paper. ARGH banyaknyer kerje! is there another way out, apart from bunuh diri?

aku pon nak kahwin..!

"bau ape tu macam nangka?"

was what i said at the bus stop while waiting for the 96 home just now. turns out someone had sprayed deodorant on herself, and that someone was practically next to me. understandably, we [me, shah, di, amy, halim] burst into laughter. and everyone attempted to sever ties with me. kauuuu. cramps giler sak tadi..

and i ended off the day perfectly, when my bus driver drove me home! haha. okay, by "my bus driver", i mean the 359 bus driver who always smiles at me and who lets me off nearer to my house, and who waves bye. yup so it was cool.

anyway i thought SAM was great. overall great, anyway. and don't kill me for saying this, but i thought atikk's favourite person was really quite good! well it was filled with laughs and some struck-chords i.e. teraser, and all. and there was stuff that NUS ppl wld appreciate more than the rest of the audience. oh and of cos, bynk GGMs in the audience too. yum.

what else? ohyes i found another GGM in islam. he's a decaf-lookalike, so i'm gonna call him double decaf. hahaha. i THINK he might possibly be someone baba and i spotted earlier. anyway, he's really handsome and looks pillarish. yay. oh and we named someone else, abang engine!!! [irma's idea actually, but when she found out that he's in the same batch, she wanted to take it back. sorry, too late, irma.]

and although i started blogging this at 1-something a.m., it's like 3-something a.m. now. guess why i'm still awake. and no, i wasn't doing anything productive. so i think after i sahur and pray, i'm gonna sleep till it's exactly time to wake up for skl. damnn. biler nak blajar sakkk.. guarantee mesti fail nyer. and tmr, due to lack of sleep, i'm gonna sleep almost the moment i get home. so yeah. have fun. [btw, that means that i won't be studying for thursday's big test. omg i am such a loser.]