okay let's change the mood here. i'm gonna embark on the latest trend to hit my blogosphere. here goes. [ohyes i've been kind enough to put who's who so that you guys don't have to scroll up and down. haha.]

20 people

1) amy
2) baba
3) helmi
4) shah
5) atikk
6) sya
7) ili
8) fan
9) shafa
10) hanom
11) josh
12) nurul
13) hannan
14) farah
15) amir rj
16) my brother
17) irma
18) nadia
19) fana
20) diyana

-How did you meet 19?:
i met fana in sec 1. she thought i was dao. WHATEVER FANA. i was shy!!!

-What would you do if you never met 5?:
atikk?!?!?! ohman. i'd prolly be a LOT saner. yalah, and a lot more boring.

-What do you honestly think of 10?:
well i FIRST thought hanom was dao, during the camp. cos she looked so cool with that hair and she never talked to me! so i thought that she thought that she was too cool for me. anyway, i've since found out that she's LOADS of fun. and bau-eh!!!

-Have you ever liked no.3?:
haha. helmi.. that's the million-dollar question, innit? yes i had a huge crush on him at work.

-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?:
hmm, i'd say, "amy, mintak maaf for all that i've done to make you more giler or whatever. and for irritating you during lectures or when u're in a sad/serious mood. but you'll be glad to know i'm getting married to Loner Guy and we're naming the baby after you."

-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
hmm.. baba and josh.. never thought about it.. maybe yeah.. cos josh is like the chinese/christian version of sotong..

-Do you think 12 is hot?:
nurul??? hahaha. no, i think she's very sweet and cute!

-Is 17 attached?
yesyesyes! irma's attached to a cool guy she met online! hidup AM! haha.

-Tell me something about 11
josh is very weird, but cute.

-Do you know any of 3's family members?:
ahahaha. NO. but i met his mom once, when she came looking for him.

-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?:
farah is a perfect 10! yay! AND she's also a 2[timer]!!!

-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you:
well, i'd say, "sorry shah, but you KNOW i'm with loner guy right?" haha.

-What language does 19 speak?:
ah. fana'll kill me if get this wrong. okay, malay, english, and SOME HINDI.

-Who is 8 going out with?:
8 is going out with me!!!

-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?:
nadia and atikk?!?!?!? ohmannn... i'd die to see that. macam cute semacam.

-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
physically talked? ages ago man, before she went to france. i miss you sya! and our tanning sessions!

-What is 18's favorite band?
nadia's fav band? entah eh. i'm stumped here, people. rgs dikir! haha.

-Does 4 have any siblings?:
God knows. sorry shah aku really tak tahu. haha.

-Would you ever date 1?:
i would NEVA date amy. don't worry, halim. haha.

-Would you ever date 7?
ili?!?! aku tanak date gerls la ppl!!! aku straight tau~!

-Is 15 single?:
umm, amir eh.. i think so la..

-what is 19s last name?:
[19 is fana.] mehanathan. wahahaha.

-What is 3's middle name?:
tak taulah. helmi agaknye. since he's mohd helmi.

-What is 10's fantasy?:
hanom's ULTIMATE fantasy is to get together with BOTH bob and the sweet guy who's so in love with her. [-tak puas hati-]

-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
farah and fana? ah sahlah tu. since they have exactly the same name.

-What school does 16 go to?:
[my brother zul] dunman secondary

-What school does 19 go to?:
"lipospray, hello?" wahahaha.

-Where does 9 live?:
shafa used to live in lakeside, but now she's in LONDON!!! -cries- [why? pasal jealous AND rindu.]

-tell me something about 13?
hannan's kurus as a stick, looks slenger, but he's SO much fun to lepak with. aside from the smoking. :P

-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
haha atikk and sya? seeing as they've only met once, under cover of the night [that's not as bad as it sounds], i'd say NOT.

-Is 20 older than you?:
yupyup di's older by a coupla months or so.

-what do you think of number 16?:
i think that we'll never ever be close. and that's sad, since i'm like his sister. and the age gap is only 4 years. i also think that he's gotten really cute lately.

-is 9 your ex?
shafa? hahahah.

-one word to describe 6?
[sya.] feisty.

- how is 2?
oh baba eh? dier setan nak mampos. i have NO idea why she thinks that the guy she currently likes will EVER like her. tak sedar diri.
NO WAY! i love her and i can't live without her, and even if i did have to, once we meet again, it's like nothing was lost in between.

-what kind of couple would 5 and 14 be?
a lesbian one. not that atikk minds, but farah's already juggling 2 guys so... hahaha.

-does 9 make you horny?
nolah, but redhuan once said.. oh wait this is a public blog. shh..

excuse me in advance.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i don't wish to elaborate, cos i don't want to dwell on this, OR be reminded of it in the near/distant future. to me, shitty things are best left forgotten. unless they're associated with nice things i.e. the embarrassing crimes i commit infront of loner guy. ahh loner guy. see? i feel better already.

and now i can start getting over ex-con.

by the way, i'm not normally so angry/vulgar/whatever. i think.

Dalam hati ini ada nama mu
Nama seorang insan yang aku rindu
Dalam diri ini ada sayang mu
Sayangnya dirimu tidak mengerti

Dalam senyuman ini ada tangisan
Tangisan seorang insan terluka
Dalam jiwa ini ada pilunya
Pilu yang membuat aku menangis
Oh hibanya...

Sayu hati... sayu sekali
Melihat engkau berpimpin tangan
Dengan si dia
Sakit hati... sakit sekali
Pabila cinta yang aku beri tak dihargai

Sungguh terhina letih tidak bermaya
Rasa terkilan bunga yang ku puja
Kini mekar harum di jambangan orang
Kau yang ku sayang
Aku yang gundah

Kalau tahu sakit begini
Tidak aku bermain cinta
Kalau tahu siksa begini
Tidak aku menyanyangi mu
Pilu resah di hati ini
Mengusung rindu...
Ku tak berdaya -Spin

i'm in such a jiwang mood. i saw ex-con was listening to this song, so i decided to get it.. and mannn it really tugs at your heart. especially when he sings "sayu hati.. sayu sekali.." macam nak nangis, giler!

on the other side of the coin, listen to David Banner's Play. it's guaranteed to never get any radio airplay in singapore. i mean, it's so raunchy, it's practically porn. but don't get the wrong idea about me. i heard it on nova 93.7, and it was censored [i.e. different lyrics] then, so i was like totally fooled by the heavy beats and stuff. but when i heard the original, mata terbeliak sey.

I know you're out there baby
Somewhere..
There's someone out there for me (I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name (Won't somebody tell me her name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane (That's right)
How does she laugh, how does she cry
What's the color of her eyes
Does she even realize, I'm here
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world
Da da da da da
Where are you...

I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (I'm right here) yeah yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high
Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high Lalalaa (Where are you)

There's someone out there for me (There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently (so patiently)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This lifelong search is going to drive me insane; Thats right

How does he laugh, how does he cry
What's the color of his eyes
Does he even realize, I'm here

Where is she, where is she, where is she
Where is this beautiful girl
Who is she, who is she
Who's going to complete my world

Where is he, where is he, where is he
Where is this beautiful guy
Who is he, who is he
Who's going to take me so high

Lalalaalalaa
I know you're out there
Lalalaalalaa

Where are you
I'm going to look all over the world baby
Because I know you're out there
I know it might sound crazy but I think I love you

Lalalaalalaa

Where are you

semangat sak aku, blog after subuh. anyways.

i ate at fish & co AGAIN yesterday! this is really starting to worry me. yeah i was with fan this time and when he said the magic words, i just went into convulsions. this time it was the bugis one. it has really nice ambience, but it was playing my brother's music. tak main sey. but the really nice lim server put us at this corner, and i got to sit on the cushioned seat with about 3 bantals around. so fun. the food wasn't as great though--we had the same thing i always have, and this time, the prawns kinda stuck to the shells and the calamari was weird cos the taste and the calamari didn't really fuse well. eh abeh aku eksyen connoisseur kat sini. then we went to bugis village, but thankfully, nothing caught my fancy.

well anyway after that i went to the airport to say bye to shafa. and at the same time, i was saying bye to tanning at sentosa, mat-watching sessions, sinful fish & co dinners, g****-bashing, and spur-of-the-moment meet-ups. did i miss out anything? i don't think so la. 9 months, 9 months..

ohman but some of her cousins/uncles/whatevers were SO cute! there was one olive-green boy about 15 gitu--he reminds me of the boy who came for Malam Pentas II. there was this father-of-a-baby, similar to jason in looks but MUCH cuter. and there was this skinny mat who reminds me of fai[rul]. haha. cute.

yesterday i thought i had loads to write about, but it all seems to have diffused out of my head. so i'll end this here and go back to staring at ex-con on msn.

ooh i love my new lanyard!

ever watched tiga abdul? it's arguably one of my favourite p. ramlee movies. anyway. i felt like mem aloya kue lapis when he showed me the watch. thank God i didn't faint. i mean, it was kinda illegible. that was my first opinion of it. and now that i've had time to think about it, i think he made a boo-boo. i think he was trying to make it deeper then the alignment was messed up so there was a double-vision effect. anyway. what to do. takkan nak sandpaper the thing sampai smooth kan. so i took it and left. it really is a beautiful thing. so to me, that little thingy on the side won't mar its appearance much.

then i went to isetan to check out the mambo and billabong sections for his present. i finally settled for this black-and-white belt with a normal buckle, but splashed all over with the brand-name. haha. i was completely lost when i had to pick the size, and decided to go for the S/M. i made my brother try it on when i got home, and since it fits him fine, it shd be okay lah. i think. cos i only have 3 days to exchange it. and then, cos i was feeling so mysteriously down, i plumped for a pretty white billabong lanyard. haha. mampos. so i spent close to a hundred, AGAIN.

i LOVE mario's new(?) song, Girl I Need, featuring baby cham or whoever. it's so.. relaxing and cute. and it's positive, unlike the first two singles. hahaha. okay aku dah giler. and i don't even know why.

just a quick and semi-disappointed note before i blah.

i just received intelligence that loner guy is NOT from cj, and i now know his five modules [2 of which are arts ones, and one of which baba is allegedly taking as well], AND he has legions of admirers. -nangis at the prospect of so much competition to face that i might as well just drop out and mampos now-

and there was some mat technician, TAK CUTE, who kept saying assalamu'alaikum and bye just now. whatever. and i better get lost now and prepare to embarrass myself at far east.

cya!

okay just a quickie before i run off to calculus. this time i won't be late so i won't be tempted to skip. or that's my aim, anyway.

had lunch at arts caf with amy as usual tadi, and i found a NEW cute guy!!! DCBG!!! [macam a combination of BCBG and CBG. but anyway.] yup he was eating there with his friends, and he's just extremely cool, but less on the cute. haha. and then here i am at my usual table at the arts linkway or whatever, and about 15 minutes ago, two cute guys walked past and kamie "witnessed" me having convulsions. they looked very beachy--tanned, tall and slim with cool blonde-ish hair. yum.

okaylah. other than that, nothing exciting happened. all the ite mats are like eluding me for some reason or other.. -sedih-

i'm bored. and why is my finger peeling?

okay randomthoughtsrandomthoughts. anyway. studied at central lib today with baba. actually, i didn't do much studying. it was more of surfing the net, listening to wmp on my earphones and booking my practical driving lessons. haha. THEN i actually got down to doing my calculus tutorial. mampos. then u know, we had lunch, then the 3J meeting, which i so totally tuned out of. sorry atikk. oh and there was this cute technician-type guy with blonde hair, who dropped by the student lounge, and by then i was just gone la. haha. too bad he split early.

speaking of splitting early, green guy's identity has finally been revealed. thanks to everyone for your snippets of info and comments and stuff. it's all been encouraging, but now we know the truth, we can all move on. of course by "we", i really mean me. hahaha. but hey it's not a crime for me to think he's cute. naseb baik aku tak mintak to amek gambar ngan dier. buat malu sial.

well i thought it'd be a shitty and boring ride home, since the rest of the day was like that, but as i approached my usual door at orchard mrt, i saw the rj guys. jau, hafiz, rudy, adzfar, iylia. yup. i don't think i missed out anyone, did i? anyway. so i sed hey and was entertained by them the whole ride home la. well, the whole ride home till tampines anyway. they're all so cute. and they haven't changed a bit. not from last year, anyway.

i checked out the belts at topman but the ones with big buckles TAK LAWAR! so it's back to the hunt tmr. i'm getting sick and tired of all this myself. haha. i just wanna plonk down $115 for the fossil watch and give it to him. but to avoid my mom screaming at me after she updates my passbook, i'll refrain from doing that.

heyya.

the persuratan bbq was really fun! at first, prospects were bad, cos baba, hanom and i were the only first-years.. so we sat at the lobster/carrot on the playground and merepeked among ourselves. but then the SAM ppl came and that was when the party started. highlights include: me deejaying and dancing at atikk's lappie, us playing at the playground, eating [but of course] and everyone watching as i surfed friendster [including ex-con's and baba's photos. haha. both were instant hits.].

we did NOT, however, get to see kamalingam's hot brother pasal he was hiding at home. D-A-R-N. but i got to see ite lumpurs at lot1. hahaha. funnn.

yay. like the pic? baba gave it to me. it's an avatar of me, obviously.

i've bumped into syukri twice in as many weeks. at least, i think it's him. really looks like him. only he's much cuter now. well, being thai-malay, he was always cute. but much cuter, and really cool now. the last time, i bumped into him at the 359 queue. today, i actually saw him from raffles place. tapi being buter, i didn't know it was him until he sat next to me in the 359 queue. still. him being so cute and cool and all, why would he remember me right? which was primarily why i didn't say hi to him. but. curiosity MUST be put to rest. so if i DO bump into him again, i'll say hi. skali bukan dier. buat malu sak.

went to sentosa with shafa tadie. it was raining quite a bit in the morning, so we did NOT expect the fierce sun and all. but it was so bad that the sweat was just dripping down my face as i lay there reading cleo, so we kinda gave up early, showered, and made the cardinal mistake of eating at fish n co. again. but man was it delicious or what. we kinda ate the same thing again, but HECK CARE! i'll be half-glad when she leaves, at least i won't be indulging in such guilty pleasures for the next 9 months. [haha sorry shafa.]

then i met fana at jp, and we proceeded to trawl through orchard road looking for fan's birthday present. boleh jadi giler sey. i decided that watches are abit too steep for my pocket [and will invite unanswerable questions from my mom], so i'm really kinda stumped. i could go back to the [original] raihan standby of boxers, tapi cam.. entah. suggestions will be welcome.

anyway i rounded off the night with a grande rhumba frappucino at starbucks, made by the still-cute dil, who's considerably friendlier now that he's forgotten who we are. haha. i still rem when he used to be all stuck-up. tembak.. oh then i got home to a very annoying mother. sorry, but yah. i blame my sister, mostly. tanak elaborate ah. why dwell on the upsetting?

jalan-jalan kesana kesini
boringnyer hidop aku ini.

sorry aku giler. i thought open mic 2 was great. in some ways it was better than the first [location rocked], but i thought the content was pretty weak at some points. aku malas nak elaborate on the technical aspects of it, so i'll just do what i do best. okay, for the record, neither mubs nor loner guy turned up. and amy owes me a mcflurry now. ahahaha. i thought the performance by afro and friends was so cool. so funny and stuff. and then there was this like, 15-year-old boy who wandered in from downstairs, and he just stood there watching the last few perfs. cute sey. we offered him drinks and food and he was like, "segan ah.." haha. and later when i said, "thanks for coming!" he replied, "thanks for inviting me.." which had me feeling a bit wrong-footed. and then there was green guy. ah. he was really cute. i took about 74928402 photos of him, from all imaginable angles, and it wasn't even my camera. so i'm fervently praying that amy won't delete them all from her camera. memories, you know. too bad he hadta split early. i was like, "don't leave me, green guy!" not that dier pedulikan. hahahaha. yah i had a nice time, and thanks to everyone for coming. and everyone else for helping.

after that i hung out at the 24hr coffeeshop with fan, where he proved that NS guys DO have nothing else to talk about. haha. but hey, i found out that he's in the same squad as nam. nam rizuan, i mean. small world, much? i don't think he met azhar yet, though, or he would have told me.

and today i just slept around the house, bo-ring! and i realised that there's only one season of CSI left--CSI: Miami. the rest are all reruns. sheesh. takpe. better than not having CSI at all.

well i have a busy 4 days ahead, so much love to all! green guy, please reappear in my life! yay!

heys.

the SCCCI mid-autumn function thingy wasn't a total dud afterall. i met zub, harun and the SMU girl there. takder cute guys though. and the food was mostly masin except for the yummy tandoori chicken with yoghurt sauce. and i tried the sushi from the conveyor belt, for the first time. the salmon was great. raw-ly delicious. and of cos, zub and i rounded it off with ice-cream topped with hot fudge, almond slivers, dollops of whipped cream and chopped strawberries. yum to infinity!

besides the food, everyone was really nice and friendly and seemed genuinely interesting in us and our parents. espesh the SMU guys. it was definitely a new experience for me. oh and when we were walking out i discovered that it's practically rite next to the SPANS clubhouse. ah, memories.

i skipped calculus tutorial cos 1. i was late, 2. i was already in a bad state from being bodohly embarrassed at the library, and 3. malas pasal the bus was full and i wanted to save money and take public transport home. ain, ain.

i was chatting to yazid just now, before lab. and he was telling me about seeing some rainbow. which reminded me. i was at sentosa the other day, tanning [what else?], and i looked up and saw a rainbow. faint, but visible. and as i stared at it, i realised that it kinda extended quite a distance. then i realised it was a full circle. it looked so pretty, with the clouds and blue sky and everything. so i said, "wow that rainbow is a full circle!" and fan was like, "you don't know? all rainbows are circles." well, actually, NO, i didn't. i've always seen just an arc of the circle, so i've always believed that a rainbow was an arc. anyway. cool.

okay i know that was an amy-styled disjointed entry, but i forgot all about the rainbow till now, so i really wanted to write about it. so. yes.

and tmr's open mic night 2! 8-10, at the red roof [level 4], kembangan CC. walking distance from kembangan mrt. it's free and all, so do grace us with your presence!

just checking in. i'm at amy's favourite study-cum-berasmaradana place. i was supposed to do my prelab, tapi tak tahu buat, so here i am, blogging.
i have a packed-and-boring day ahead of me, so i'm just bracing myself, and savouring whatever freedom i have left now. bye.
ohyes i had some stupid dream about loner guy last night. bagoss. it's prolly the trauma of yesterday getting to me.

i was kinda depressed smalam, so i refrained from blogging in order to spare everyone the boredom of reading some kinda depressed entry.

anyway, yest i finally took the first step to establishing contact with loner guy. warning: it's a sad and slenger story, so i suggest everyone stop reading NOW. yah anyway, we had the stack of fliers, and after many false starts, i decided to go to the co-op with shah, and pass him one on my way back. so we were at the co-op, and then amy joined us, and then we were waiting while shah paid for her stuff, and then LONER GUY WALKS IN! alone, of course. and shah and amy parted like the red sea, leaving me standing stupidly in the middle of the entrance. and then setan's hands push me forward, and i find myself saying, "hi, sorry, please come for malam pentas.." and thrusting a flier at him. and he gave me this Look, and after about 5 lightyears he says, "okay, i'll think about it.."

so you can understand why i practically ran full-out from the co-op, refused to re-enter the LT, was dragged up the stairs, and started making plans to transfer out of NUS into SMU and/or get plastic surgery done over the 4-day break. but the initial embarrassment has since faded [i managed to NOT BOLT when we terserempaked at the lift just now], replaced by a permanent broken spirit. pray for me, and insya-Allah, i'll recover.

i'm really supposed to be doing my calculus tutorial now, tapi malas sey. the worst of it is that i'll just do it tmr during my 2-4 break la..

ANYWAY. i had a nice day yest, actually, it's just the dregs of it that was horrible. after skl i went to boon lay to meet shafa. we were gonna have dinner at banquet, then there was a fish n co ad on the escalator down, so i was like, "oh there's a fish n co here?" and shafa was like, "eh.. i didn't know that.." and when we reached the basement, we turned to each other and said, "so.. u wanna eat there instead?" haha. bodoh. so ads DO work after all. but mannn i don't regret it langsong! the seafood platter ROCKED, and i can practically still taste it now. yums. and the service was excellent. so excellent, in fact, that we tipped one of them $2 each. after that we walked around jurong point, and i got the cutest batman bag at jennyfer! seriously. i find it really cool and cute. firstly, it somehow it reminds me of loner guy. and secondly and more importantly, it reminds me of allif, my primary school crush. i remember asking him to write in my autograph book and he headed his entry "Batman's profile". so i've always associated batman with him. ah he was so cute and cool. wonder what he's doing now.. [quick quiz: what song is that line from?]

so. i love my new bag. ohman and some cute guy just caught me singing to myself. darnnn.

ah. i just got home, like, a half-hour ago. baikkk.

but it wasn't ALL bad. actually, i don't mind going home late, if i have nothing on the next day. i mean, train's all nice and empty, no crowds, nice night breeze.. how could anyone NOT love it? well anyway. there was more tonight. i was going down the escalator at pasir ris and who did i see??!?!?! [NO, not samit!!! i'm not tt lucky, really.] manggar guy!!! [recap: manggar guy's this tall, fair and skinny cool guy i met at a recent orang kahwin. he was delegated the task of carrying the bunga manggars.] i can't BELIEVE he lives in pasir ris. he was still looking cute, with his stylishly-messy blonde hair and a horizontally-striped green-and-white tshirt, light-coloured pants and those same white sneakers hanging on his skinny cool frame. unfortunately, he beloked in the opposite direction. i had half-a-mind to follow him, but it WAS mid-freaking-night, and cinderella had to be home, so i said a silent bye and went my own way. haha. insya-Allah we'll meet again, if we're meant to.

oh i've been telling everyone my wantan story, but it's macam so sedih, that i just have to document it again. i was having lunch at the arts canteen with hanom and elda, and i didn't wanna eat rice so i was telling hanom i'd get 2 plates of fried wantan. no problem there, right? so i went and ordered from the makcik, "fried wantan dua piring.." and i had to repeat it for some reason, then she asked, "nak pedas ke tak?" and i was like thinking, oh, i have a choice? cool. so i said okay. and waited. after a while, i saw her lifting some mee-like stuff from the kuali. and i was like, wth is tt? and frantically looked at the menuboard to see if there were other "fried wantans" i'd mistakenly ordered. takdeee je. well she came bearing those 2 plates of FRIED MACARONI! and i was SO at a loss for words, all i could say was, "berapa?" and ended up paying 2-freaking-bucks for stuff that i never even dreamed of wanting. and to save myself the embarrassment, i took 2 sets of utensils, konon eksyen ah. but when i got back to my table, i started wailing about how the makcik was pekak and everything, and hanom just laughed and laughed and laughed until she was crying. then she took pity on me and went to buy me a plate. mannnn. sedih sey.

shahreena and i hung out after dk to like, try and do our lab reports. susah giler bodoh. and si zahdan isn't even online for me to ask him the beribu qns i have. smalam aku asyik nampak nama dier je, sampai naik jelak. nari takde langsong. damn. and shah and i aren't even close to being done with our reports. even though we left skl at like 11. sheesh. eh but it was fun man. all un-hot and empty and i just blasted my music for miles. bes. we shd definitely do it again.

and loner guy will be glad to know that i'm coming tomorrow. [unless, of cos, samit asks me out, which will happen at the same time badaks fly.]

i'm gonna be late for dikir but whatever, updates!!!

haha the story goes like this.. i accompanied bau-eh and elda to their islam tutorial so i cld sit at the benches outside and do my work before MY islam tutorial started. so. okay. i found a seat, but it was nowhere near a powerpoint, so my battery was being used up bit by bit. in the meantime, while i was sitting down, i noticed this handsome-giler-nak-mampos guy sitting at the end near the powerpoint, with sona and another girl i didn't know. i was had half-a-mind to go say hi to sona, at the same time use the powerpoint and ALSO macam, be in closer proximity to him la. but aku malas and takot, cos he's so freaking handsome. so i stayed where i was. anyway just as i was steeling myself, si sona belah! so my chance was gone. well takpe, the guy in between me and handsome-giler-nak-mampos finally left, so i moved closer to the powerpoint [a.k.a. handsome-giler-nak-mampos], and attempted to macam, plug in my adapter. too late, i realised that i was still a wee bit too far from the powerpoint. so i spent a good part of my time embarrassing myself. i was like, "sorry, sorry.." and when my adapter continued to bother him, "i'm really sorry.." and then he said, "do you wanna switch places?" and i was like, "oh! do you mind?" and he, of course, said no. so i thanked him beribus and proceeded to switch places. ahhhh. i thought that was that, so that was when i blogged the previous entry about how handsome he is. seriously. he looks SO handsome, he couldn't just be malay, you know what i mean? and in addition to his looks, he's popular too! random guys kept stopping by at the table to say hi and bersembang with him. and they weren't just ANY random guys. they were random CUTE guys. haha.

anyway, revelation struck about 15 minutes later, when di stopped by my table with an odd look on her face. i put two and two together, and voila! handsome-giler-nak-mampos is sir tingles! baikkkk...

omg i'm sorry but i'm outside my islam tutorial class now and the cutest guy just like, tukar tempat ngan aku! help he's so baik and handsome and hardworking and GOD i'm just gonna die now.

i was innocently walking along the path across the grass towards LT10 for my islam lec. i happened to be looking down, and guess what i saw?!?!?!? a condom wrapper!! a freaking condom wrapper!?!?! omg. i almost died and killed myself right there. what is a condom wrapper doing in the middle of a grass patch leading to arts? well, that is a question only the perpetrators can answer. hahaha.
islam lec was cool this time, cos i was sitting with bau-eh. hahaha. and we were sitting on top, so better view la. hahaha. funnn. but unfortunately, we didn't get to promote, pasal instead of having a break, she ended lecture early. ohwells.
aku nak terkench. wow it's a great view here at the forum. just spotted one GGM! whee! okay sorry aku giler. i need to go and do my tutorials now. just wanted to report the condom incident la.

heyheyheyyyy.

why am i so upbeat? pasal loner guy's actually in lecture now! woohoo. so there goes my plan to cam, wear tatty clothes on Mondays. hahahaha.

well i finally got through the marking yesterday. out of pure irritation, i failed like about 80% of them. no, make that 90%. ha. lain kali jangan jadi bodoh and piss me off, or i'll fail you. so there. oh actually the comprehension wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i created my own answer key in like 10 minutes, including the one for the summary. i just cobbled together some answers. mampos ah. and if they don't get the same answer as me, well too bad for them. never mind that i didn't use to do so well in comprehension. i remember one time i got so pissed with a summary in sec 2, that i wrote about 3 sentences and handed it in. skali dapat 8/15 sak. it just shows how incredibly intelligent i am. so yah. i was finally done, so i cam, celebrated with some 50% lemonade and my PLP cd.

then i went to swensen's WS to meet the rest for azhar's farewell. SEKALI DIER TAK JADI SAK. and you know if azhar doesn't show, farhan won't either. so bergembiralah kau. anyway takper, we [me, diana, shasha and her husband] went anyway, to meet hannan and umar at simpang bedok. ah it was so fun. i had cheese prata and cheese-mushroom prata, with 2 glasses of lime juice, and topped off with a 100ml haagen-dazs cookies&cream. yum. the only boring part was takder cute guys. bo-RING! oh i just love hanging out with my work friends. they're so fun. aside from the smoking, of course. anyway i finally got home at like 230, and after all the gedebak-gedebuk, i slept at 3. woke up at 5, so you can imagine how hyper i was today. looking forward to the ite mats and all.

SEKALI takder bodoh. okay, there were like a couple in 53, but NONE at the ite dover bus stop!!! what did i get instead? these three secondary school boys, SMOKING at the commonwealth bus stop. sedappp je. one was in his lower sec shorts, another in his stupid trucker cap [and after he finished smoking, he took out a mirror and started picking at what i imagine were blackheads] and the last one in his baju rumah, lying down on the bench macam rumah dier gitu. oh but later the cutest botak guy came out of a cab. he was all vik, and botak [duh] with glasses and black tshirt, nice pants, kasut, cool haversack and yalah he was just cool okay? okay. then 147 came and he boarded it, and guess where he sat? seblah driver!?!?!? i mean, seriously. only the coolest people can do that. [okay, elaborating on "seblah driver": u know the seat next to the ex-transitlink machine? it's the nearest to the driver la. yeah. there.]

aaaaaaahhhhh loner guy is so freaking cute aku akan mati! mati, i tell you. he's just terlentoking there in the back. and i just wanna cam, offer my shoulder so he won't get a neckache when he wakes up. we all know how annoying tt can be. ahhhhh.. and he's wearing his cool cap again. ahhhh. mati aku. loner guy, sit next to me!!!! [tepilah shahreena!] i wonder what he has after this. should i like, tail him? oh wait. is he gonna rush to his scrambler and zoom off? then i SHOULD follow him.

dahlah sebelum aku terkencing. daaa.

OHHH speaking of "daaa", i finally met indra tadi! he's not bad la, he has such big eyes, and when he knows ure malay, he'll talk to you in indonesian. so fun. so i was just like, replying in indonesian. bes sey. i totally support you with him, amy. he's better than mubs anyday. i mean, at least indra TALKS to me, despite having only met me once.

okla okla amy loves halim anyways. <--[amy wrote that, to macam quell her guilt. so i'll just leave it there, shall i?]

daaa!

i'm taking a much-needed break from marking. i feel like crying. and the worst is yet to come. i waded through a stack of formal letters yesterday. it was like drowning. i'd intended to stay up all night and finish ALL the marking, but once i was done with that stack, i just HAD to crash. so. yeah.
and i just finished a stack of reports. you know, where there's a fire at ur camp so u have to write a report to the police sergeant or whatever. well i have a report right now:
To: Sergeant Loner Guy
Save me, I'm dying!
From: Ain
so anyway, that wasn't too bad cos reports are nice and brief, as i have just demonstrated above. but like i said earlier, the worst is yet to come. i have a thick stack of comprehension to mark. you know what's the worst part? there's no answer key. and it's a full-blown comprehension, with summary and shit. and where's the answer-fucking-key? takde langsong, that's where. how do u mark a summary without a fucking answer key? am i supposed to like create one myself? omg i really really feel like crying right now, i've never had such a miserable time before in my life.
sorry for all the negativity, but i hate this!

heyheyhey.
i woke up late this morning, still stuck in yesterday's bad mood, so when i found out tt today's menu was lauk lemak chilli padi, i settled myself down with 2 plates of that and the fantastic four dvd. well by the time the movie was over, i was sleepy again. so i went back into my room to sleep. but cam tak selesa, cos i was having cramps. then my phone beeped. it was fan, and he wanted to chill out, so i promptly dropped everything [including those three cursed stacks of marking, my food security powerpoint slides, and the publicity stuff for OMN, plus the lectures of the past 3 weeks tt i have to catch up with], and got ready to go out. haha. nothing can get me out of the doldrums as quickly as making plans to go out.
we watched the longest yard, which was GREAT! i enjoyed every other minute of it. [why "every other minute"? cos i was resisting the carnal urge to pee. turns out so was he. haha.] it was funny, and sad, and heart-tugging, and the soundtrack freaking rocks! oh and yeah i guess guys will particularly enjoy all the wrestlers cameo-ing in the movie.
and today it was just wall-to-wall mats. so fun! it would have been more fun if i was with shafa, but hey. dah bagus tu ader. hahaha.
okay then it's back to marking losers' compos. bye.

sigh. i'm in some kind of a bad mood. not even loner guy can cheer me up now. i think it's the sheer amount of things that i have to do. and the failed mat-watching session did NOT help. but maybe dorky fringe will be around if i come by again. haha. he's dorkily cute.
i don't even know why i'm still awake now. the only reason i'm not closing my eyes and succumbing to the calls of setan and going to sleep is cos i'm listening to urban essentials, the one bright spark in my life.
ah apparently it's ended so dreamland, here i come.

yawn. so it was another of those kena-bantai-rabak days at school today. seriously. it didn't take much for me to completely nod off in the train home. and having to wake up with horrible neckaches. argh. well i suppose i shd be thankful for tt, kalau tak i might double-telajak like danial did [he got in at pasir ris, and woke up in pasir ris. like wth?!?!].
pract wasn't too bad, but i was seething with jealousy over amy's exponential progress these past few days. while MY "progress" has a negative gradient, if at all.
i digress. anyway remember i had an interview at mendaki sometime last week? [recap: it went horribly, as all my interviews do. and this was by far the worst, i thought. cos the guy explicitly said that i shouldn't be so shy and that i should speak up more. PLUS i didn't know a THING about the organisation that was offering the scholarship.] well despite all that happened, rupernyer my blisters did not come to nought this time! i actually got the scholarship! tak caya seyyy. so, alhamdulillah is all i can say now. alhamdulillah and wow. haha.
the only thing that macam, spoiled it was when i got home, the envelope was on the friggin kitchen table, and it was dah terbukak already lah. like wth? last i heard, going through mail that is not your own is a federal offence ah. geram sey. she opens every single mendaki letter, and then she interrogates me about it afterwards. how fucking annoying. at least, if u're so interested to know, can't you like wait till i get home?!?!?! and then still have the nerve to "seal" it back, when it's so obviously torn open already. orang buter pon boleh tahu sak. aaaarghh.
i really don't know why i'm so pissed about what may seem like a small matter, but i am. it's like such a blatant invasion of privacy. and then dah bukak, nak pretend as if nothing happened, as if it just opened by itself issit? i better stop before i accidentally punch D in the screen.

aaaahhh i swear, he just looks better and better everyday. like today he somehow managed to look smartly casual in his cap ngan polo shirt and ahhhh i was just dying cos he's so incredibly good-looking! mampos aku. sigh. but u know, afterwards he had to rush off for pract so cam yahh.. bye bye loner guy.
anyway my battery's like running out so i better get lost soon.
but wow i'm just like sitting here, trying to like find his bike so i can stare at it, but tak jumpe2. maybe bapak dier hantar or smthg.

'sup.
remember when i said loner guy and i were meant to be? i wasn't kidding man! now i find out tt he lives in the exact same town as me! what are the odds man, what are the odds.
skived off school again--fully-aware of the risks of missing yet another rare chance to see loner guy--to hit the beach with fan. and ended up getting burnt. seriously. i'm gelap now, with a tinge of pink. hahaha. takpe it was fun. and loads more people today, cos it's school holiday and all. my favourite part was going solo to new zealand natural, buying a double scoop, and sitting there checking out the [younger] skimming mats. my second favourite part? okay there were these 4 malay girls, whom i'd noticed early on, and labelled biatches. skali i was stuck showering at the communal showers, in the MIDDLE of them. and they were all kecohing and stuff, about people staring at us, and scrubbing the sand tt was stuck in secret crevices, etc. after a while, the bitchiest-looking one actually talked to me. haha. so i responded in kind. and whaddya know? we're friends! funn-ay. so seriously, all these people you think are bitches, rupernyer they're quite nice after all.
then went home, and back out to meet shafa. nothing much, we just cam, ate at jason's, got me a rhumba frappucino, and did the lightest shopping possible. hahaha.
i just logged into wholivesnearyou, and guess what? some lim msged me! GOD. and not just ANY lim, a 16-year-old lim! aper ni? thanks man, thanks.
ooh my levelone card finally came, can't wait to start racking up points! yay.

a sampling of the open mic night pics..

in the lull after chem lec. perfect time to blog. i hate blogging during lec, macam there's the permanent feeling of people looking over your shoulder. NOT my definition of privacy. well i'm just praying that amy's right and people don't have lec now.
once again, a no-show by loner guy. but it's okay. got a few more nuggets of info about him, from our reliable and quite-discreet spy. i must personally thank him one day. hahaha. anyway it turns out i'm mostly right about him. loner guy, i mean. espesh when i found out tt i'd predicted his jc correctly. we are SO meant to be, man! hahaha.
after my run of bad luck yest, i met fan at clementi anyway, and doubled back to pasir ris to meet hannan AGAIN. hahah. as usual, we lepaked at mac's. very fun. i love lepaking. it has to be my favourite pastime, seriously. and there were a couple of cute guys at the next table playing jiwang malay songs on their laptop. too bad dorang smoke. wait, what am i talking about? i'm practically a black lungs society member myself, with all the passive smoking i subject myself to. anyway, we unfortunately missed the last 17 home, so i paid for a cab la. haha kesian aku. pokkai, as [the genuine] raihan once said.
i don't know what's wrong with loner guy. why doesn't he just come on monday? doesn't he know that you need a good start to the week? and a good start, for me, means him? so can he like come to ensure that my week starts off well? yargh. takpe. thanks to fana's little crush on mug dulu [and counting], she has the yearbook and can therefore macam, do a little search for him. [loner guy, not mug.] yay. so i'm just praying now la.
okla it's another packed tuesday tmr, and i have to get a lot of work done. so maybe i'll be back. or maybe not. btw, malam pentas pics are up! [i took the liberty of NOT including my beribu self-taken photos, for obvious reasons. haha.] so anyway, kalau free, check it out.

of all times for the jamban to rosak, it had to be when *I* was using it.

anyway. i thought malam pentas was fantastic. i took like beribu photos and i have to say my favourite performance was vanilla shaque's. i was totally bopping away in the back. hahaha. and i thought it might cam, ter-overtime, but not sampai one hour! but anyway, really cool, and thanks to everyone who came and more importantly, everyone who did the dirty work. and i think that inasmuch as it didn't fulfil certain objectives, it fulfilled others in that it made everyone else [like me] want to perform next time. so look out for the next night. sep 17.
i have photos!!!!!!! but i'll upload them later yea.

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside your trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely little lumps

Check it out

I drive these brothers crazy
I do it on the daily
they treat me really nicely
They buy me all these ice
Dolce and Gabbana
Fendi and that Donna Karan
They be sharin'
All their money got me wearing fly
Whether I ain't askin
They say they love mah ass in
Seven Jeans
True religion
I say no
but they keep givin
So I keep on takin
And no I ain't takin
We can keep on takin
Now keep on demonstratin

My love my love my love my love
you love my lady lumps
my hump my hump my hump
my humps they got you..

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk..

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream

Cause of my humps my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps

Check it out

[Will.i.am]

I met a girl down at the disco
She said hey hey hey ya lets go
I can be ya baby, you could be my honey
Lets spend time not money
And mix your milk with my coco puff
milky milky coco
mix your milk with my coco puff
Milky milky
Riiiiight...

[Fergie]

They say I'm really sexy
The boys they wanna sex me
They always standin next to me
Always dancin next to me
tryna feel my hump hump
Lookin at my lump lump
you can look but you can't touch it
if you touch it
I'ma start some drama
you don't want no drama
No no drama no no no no drama
So don't
Pull on my hand boy
you ain't my man boy
I'm just tryna dance boy

And move my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump my hump
my hump my hump my hump my hump my lovely lady lumps
my lovely lady lumps my lovely lady lumps
In the back and in the front

my loving got you..

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off my hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that ass
all that ass inside your jeans

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you scream
make you scream make you scream

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that junk
all that junk inside that trunk

[Fergie]

I'ma get get get get you drunk
get you love drunk off this hump

[Will.i.am]

Whatcha gonna do with all that breast
all that breast inside that shirt

[Fergie]

I'ma make make make make you work
make you work work make you work

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..and spending time on me..

[Will.i.am]

She's got me spending..

[Fergie]

Ohh..Spending all your money on me..uh on me on me..

well before i leave for the SIASU educational awards, ALONE, i HAD to write about the horrible nightmare i just had!
i was walking by WS swensen's when i realised it was no longer swensen's, it was now some cafe-ish thing, like coffee bean used to be next door, but selling ice-cream. and abg rahim was there, in like, the ex-swensen's CSR uniform, clearing the tables. and i looked inside and everyone was there--azhar, nores, farhan, hannan.. so i was like, "alrite!" and i rushed in to say hi and like, apply for job which i SO would get anyway since abg rahim knows me. hahahaha.
okay obviously that wasn't the nightmare. but it was a weird dream anyway. getting back to the point, the next thing i knew, i was like, pregnant, and due to give birth any day. and instead of like, stressing over the birth, i was wondering what to name my baby!!!! apparently i had to come up with the name in the next hour or whatever or.. i dunno what the "or" was. so i was just scrambling around for names [even though i already have a list in my head, i dunno why i didn't think of that in the dream!], and guess what i finally came up with. Emma Farha!!!!!!!!!!!!! astaghfirullah. i nearly died when i woke up and went over the dream. no offence baba, but it was just weird, you know?
so anyway. i'm done for now. bye.

i'm at CENTRAL library PERK point. haha. geddit?
smalam was boring as hell, i think, except for the part where i got to sit practically within hugging range of loner guy, whom i now know is single. hahahahaha! thanks to our spy. bes. unfortunately, later i completely embarrassed myself di hadapan dier. first, in my hurry to leave the LT at eat at YIH, i just upped and walked away with shah, then stood at the end of the row saying, "amy cepatlah!" then shah went back to retrieve amy, and she saw a laptop just sitting there. she asked amy, "amy whose laptop is this?" reply: "AIN PUNYA LAH! eh ain your laptop lah!" and he was still sitting there tau. alone and alert. so i had to like go back and take the laptop, thereby identifying myself to him. mampos. that's not the end. we went out by the back, and i attempted to open the CONTROL ROOM DOOR, instead of the back door! so he effectively thinks i'm a clumsy bimbo now. grrrreat.
and today i was late for pract again. dahlah kena stomped on the foot by some slenger bacin. geram aku. and i was sitting at the seats in the middle of central lib, innocently doing my maths tutorial, but people walking by just kept staring at me! and i know it's not because of my stunning looks. hahaha. oklah we're gonna be late for seni potluck, which i did not bring anything for so i'm just gonna self-impose an eating ban. hahaha. anyway we gotta get going. hahaha.

heyhey. so the interview was like shitty, as usual. then amy and i cabbed to skl. the test was shitty too. and the pre-test lecture was spent checking out loner guy. whose name i now know. woohoo! and it WAS one of the 2 narrowed-down choices. haha. i couldn't do like more than half the questions, so i just taruk any answer, and blah. ohyah i was wearing baju kurung, and once again, bynk comments from orangs. merepeks.
i met fan at pasir ris mrt, and since everyone else was gonna be late, we had our last go at the $4 sundae thingy at WS swensen's. no one interesting working, though, except for fidah. takpe. si lion gave me my final cheque. and oh a couple of tampines people were eating there too. fairuz and the blonde girl. and with them was a mimlim.
speaking of WHOM. chinablack was just packed with mimlims la! gilerrr. but i had fun. among the mimlims ader cute guys jugak, and annoying shits like this kurus-nak-mampos guy wearing what-were-practically-bellbottoms and who looked SO incredibly gay that i could smell it from a mile away but who turned out to be possibly straight when i saw him bumping and grinding with some girl, and this manjen fatso who danced horribly and kept taking photos of himself with his phone while he was dancing on the podium. YUCK.
well consequently i finally tidoed at 4-plus, and overslept till 945!!! so cam tak sempat makan OR buat my lab report. bodoh. but CM1101 lec was worth it. he was practically behind me la! wowss. so cute sia. takleh tahan. and we found out one more teeny bit of info about him. encouraging bit of info. haha. and he's having lab now, yay. too bad tadi aku embarrassed myself in front of him.

wow. i practically just got home from dinner. sempat sey. i am so completely broke right now. dahlah tadi aku bangun lambat. i woke up at like 9-freaking-a.m., and therefore missed my favourite lecture ever [islam and contemporary malay society]! bodohnye aku! it's all because of the late-night habbo-ing la. den i was just in time for chem tutorial, naseb baik i did some of it in the train, or i'd have shown up with like, a blank piece of foolscap. den calculus lab, which is so relaxing and fun, and of cos ader CBG to up the fun factor. haha.
there was a cute pan-Asian-looking guy pat YIH canteen tadi. niceee. haha. and i actually ate nasi, plus the sedap-nak-mampos 80-cent eclair. yummy yum-yum. ohyah then a couple of meetings, quite fun la. you should have seen amy going crazy. pe je. then we had dinner at hazwani again. i love checking out the lumpurs there. the ones eating, not working lah. yg working boleh balek tido.
well i better get some work done. i'm so behind already, and tutorials just started. slenger ah aku.

ah ngantuk semacam. but my comp is so slow i thought i'd just blog skejap.
i went shopping yest, as half the world knows. and i got 2 items of clothing i've never possessed before in my natural-born life. very exciting. then we ate at komala's [yum], went to TM where i bumped into a billion people--nizam, fadhila and jeslyn--and then dropped by work to say hi to hannan. so after i got home, i washed my face, took out my contacts, and went back to work to meet nan again. and we lepaked at mac's till midnight [the cinderella curfew, once again]. so nice. i've missed him. he was one of the saving graces of work, when it started to get shitty. isn't it amazing how you don't even have to try with some people? how it just flows?
today i was totally tuning out during lecture, no thanks to the double no-show of a certain loner guy. i was playing solitaire variations and habbo-ing. okay, habbo-ing is like the latest phenomenon to hit singapore. i swear. haha. so what if it's actually targeted to 14-18 year-olds? it's really cute and colourful and addictive. it's basically IRC plus The Sims. and no one, no one, except God, knows exactly how much i love The Sims. haha. so yeah. even when you're not chatting, which for me is most of the time, you just rendam2 in the swimming pool. very luxurious and fun. it's a hotel ah konon, and you go into the different rooms and restaurants and guest rooms and talk to the other people. you can also dance or wave. haha. cute sey. i'd just like to thank my brother for introducing me to habbo. i spent the entire calculus lec habbo-ing with some receptionist on her day off tadi. and just 15 minutes ago i was habbo-ing with some guy who lives in pasir ris, and who turned out to know one of my primary school friends. small world huh?
so once again, it's habbo hotel.

look at the time! takleh tido ah, since i've been berlendiring around the house all day. seriously. i finally officially got out of the bed at like 5-freaking-p.m. so. faham2lah. hahaha.
i went to sya's farewell with ili and amir, but we'd missed CBG by 1.5 hrs. darn. i was hoping to konon get a formal intro lah, so i'd be able to like say hi to him in skl or smthg. ohwell. takpe. not meant to be, i suppose. at least we got to see josh. and i'm still considering buying his wallet from him. it looks good and very sleek and stuff. yes i know it's a guy's wallet and all, but it looks really nice. 30 bucks though, so i thought i'd fikir dua kali. hahaha.
aku nak terkencing. ok out of point, speaking of which, i'm still marking the literally-stupid sec one compos my sister handed me. oh God it is SUCH a painful process. they ramble on and on and on, and not even in coherent english, and then in the last two lines or so they tell me about the most humiliating incident, which isn't even that humiliating sometimes. and 80% of these idiots can't spell. irritating sia. or am i just very hard to please? well whatever it is i know i'm not made to teach sec 1 english. or any-level english la.
the moment i came online, amir was like, "ain i heard u have a boyfriend. issit true?" haha. i found that weird, for some reason. and he's NOT my boyfriend.

hi friends.
school was pretty enjoyable today, aside from the part where i was running all over science to find my calculus tutorial. i bought fresh provisions from the co-op--fruity bix bars, wild berry--which i'm exremely tempted to devour right now. haha. also spotted a couple more GGMs, including this member of the faculty who was laden with books so i opened the doors for him. heh. hey i was just being nice la.
i dropped by work again today, to satisfy my craving for bun. i just couldn't suppress a smile when i saw him at the fountain, wearing a mask and everything. who knew anyone could look even cuter with half his face obscured? the usual pang of i-miss-working-itis hit me again, of course. but other than that, i chatted normally with bun, diana and fidah. [liyana totally ignored me for some reason.] and i got a wild wild berry milkshake float. yum. fidah didn't want me to pay at first, but i insisted, so she billed me for a bottle of mineral water. gilerrr.
people i meet after a long time of not meeting keep asking me "how's school?" and i get caught off-guard cos i've never really thought about it, so i boringly reply, "great!" when i'm thinking about people like loner guy and pasta, or "fine.." when i've spent the past few waking hours wandering about with my eyes barely half-open. so i was just wondering, how IS school? well, despite the reaching-home-at-11pm, the lectures that put me to sleep [in fact, they put me into an actual REM cycle], the tutorials that i sometimes can't do, the goggles that slip so far down my nose that my nose stud is the only thing holding them up, and the annoying, shitty and wholly-inefficient 95 at all times of the day, i'd have to say that it's loads of fun. i mean, to counter them, there's the GGMs [but of course], mac's, prata at fong seng, the interesting-nak-mampos islam lectures, playing with D at all corners of the campus, the yoghurt bars, the beribu-ribu benches, the airconditioned tutorial rooms, and the non-GGM people. rawks!

i caught the maid with fan yest, and as a result, could not sleep last night. hahaha. i knew the postman was cute, and he turned out to be haizad imram. haha. too bad in the end he was deaf. i really thought he'd end up the hero and marry rosa. how childish can you get right? aku, i mean.
i'm sooooo tired. i can't survive on a mere 2 hours of sleep. i just can't. dahlah i was late for lab this morning. it just wasn't my day la. haha. and the PD meeting was so hot and ended so late, i wanted to cry and tear off all my clothes cos i was feeling so rimas! giler eh.
but i dropped by work tadi, with the intention of seeing bun. unfortunately, he wasn't working today. but shasha was, so i just waited for her and stuff. i miss working so much, especially at times like these. "times like these"=feeling stressed about school, and watching other people work. sometimes i still have to resist answering the home phone with, "thank you for calling white sands swensen's, norain speaking, how may i help you?"
ah i was totally obsessing over loner guy tadi. hahaha. cos sya was in school, and i was dying for her to have a look at him. so after the lec, i practically chased him out of the LT while calling sya on my phone. i made her run all the way from the canteen to LT 27 la, but it was worth it. we got to see him zoom off noisily on his cool scrambler. ah, he's just VERY cool and good-looking. confirm dah ader gf. ohwell.
we have a new nickname! [cos during calculus lec i terlelap, and ended up mengigauing, according to amy. so i HAD to keep awake somehow.] it's quite a cool and ingenious nickname, if i say so myself. haha. eh but i'm not gonna put it here lah. blogs are so dangerous these days. kan raihan kan?

ah. it was a jam-packed day today. SS lecture was great as usual, except it went waaay overtime, and with the rain and everything, i was just in NO mood to go for food security. so i joined baba and irma for lunch. where we like, formulated alternatives in case you find urself with a tray full of food but no available tables at mac's. haha. then i went for my SS tutorial, which was cool too, except that THAT was overstretched too, so i ended up being half-a-freakin'-hour late for chem tutorial. haha. luckily leonard, or whoever, was really nice about it. then we had calculus lab, which was quite fun actually. too bad ader CCTV cameras, kalau tak i'd be surfing the net and shit. haha.
found beribu more GGMs today. the more notable ones were danker and the guy at technoedge who was checking out irma. oh and the cute guy in 96. hahaha.
i really think i'm gonna fail all my modules. dahlah tadi aku tak gi food security, tomorrow i'm not even going to skl cos i'm finally gonna watch the maid. hahaha.
i was trying to do next week's baju timetable, but i really can't think of what to wear to impress pasta. yes pasta's the latest residential GGM. yayy.

yo. i'm in calculus lec now. woohoo! ever since i found the powerpoints kat bawah my pantat, the day has gotten THAT much brighter. i've been using D like, nonstop ah. sorry, calculus lec. but if i weren't typing now, i'd be sleeping. maner satu kau prefer?
i just gave amy a whole slideshow of my phone-taken photos. i feel so proud now. i'm quite the photographer lah. haha. ohyeah and i almost finished my maths and CM1101 tutorials. yay. aku pandai!
dahlah tu, during the CM1101 lecture just now, i was doing some online shopping. bes sey. except that vans.com doesn't ship to countries outside the US. so i'll just have to settle for drooling je. BUT i think victoriassecret.com ships here, so maybe i'll get something from them soon. yay tak sabar! oh and i bookmarked Dogs Playing Poker, for future boring lectures. i know, i know, i'm gonna fail my modules. but right now, keeping awake and keeping alive seems much more important to me.
oh yah and check out the cool photo of me and baba, kat atas! mann.. we went to bed at like 3 a.m. sial! so i totally could not wake up this morning. still. can't WAIT for next sunday.

well, So The Drama was great. i practically cried at the end. when she and ron got together. sighhh.
anyway, i'm in baba's room now, and we're like on our respective darlings, side-by-side at the table. by "darlings" i mean laptops, of course. hahahaha. it would make such a pretty picture, except takde camera. haha. i've made attempts of cos, but sumer muker aku. wahahaha. anyway it's fun. except look at the time now, and i have a class at like 8 tmr lah! haha.
hm i got a bit of some tutorials done tadi, kat ginza plaza mac's. haha. don't ask how i ended up there. but it's very nice. i love the stone tables with accompanying boothseats. and it's so empty and sunyi. except for the stupid tv blaring in the background. but that can be ignored. haha. and fan helped me go through a couple of compos. sec 1 compos. and they're so bodoh i wanted to cry!!! sigh. well at least i made some progress.

wow i can't wait, in just a few minutes i'll be watching kim possible's first feature film, Kim Possible The Movie: So The Drama! haha. how exciting. i've been glued to the tv all day, watching the lead-up to this movie. macam budak kecik sey. but whateverlah. well, kim beckons! bye!

yoohoo!
i love it when i think a day will turn out boring and shitty, and it goes out of its way to prove me wrong. haha.
since atikk decided to blow me off tadi, i thought i'd revert to my original plan of going home and doubling back. but at the bus stop we met baba and kamie, who were going to the open mic meeting which i wasn't informed about! so. yes. obviously, i seized that chance and went to the meeting. haha. where i found out more stuff about PKII. yaargh. [but to be perfectly honest, his position in the grand scheme of things doesn't change. haha.] then we had lunch at mac's [sorry, amy! but it's the side-effects of being my friend.] and then baba and i doubled back to science, where we bought matching mp3 players. haha. they look like cute little candy bars. and mine cost 70 bucks. my mom is SO gonna kill me. which is why i'm not gonna tell her. yet. haha. and i was so excited and tak-sabar, that the moment i reached the YIH student lounge, i turned on my laptop and started transferring my mp3s. giler. haha. you know what the preset songs were? Like A Virgin and Swear It Again. !!! nothing to say, really.
anyway the meeting wasn't too bad. definitely shorter than i expected. and i also became a PD. hahahaha. well, a co-PD at least. thank God for the "co-" part. yup. it seems kinda exciting though. so we'll see how it goes.
then i met fan at west mall for more swensen's. haha. his friend was working, coincidentally, and for a while i was SOOOOOOOO jealous of him cos i miss working so much. sigh. anyway. *I* had a coit tower, vanilla changed to cofy. yum. and i paid with my card again. now, i really SHOULDN'T get used to this. haha. yeah then my sister picked us up, dropped him off at the bus stop, and sent me home, while interrogating me about him. hahahaha. well at least with her i don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not. you know what she said? "isn't he a bit small for you?" apaperlah.

where am i? i'm at central forum like some sesat science student, waiting for atikk to come so that i can finally go pee. haha.
we had to split into groups during GEM today. i was so freaked i'd be left all alone and group-less, but alhamdulillah, the girl next to me was alone too, so between us we managed to form a group of 4, which, by medieval standards, had to NOT be gender-exclusive. whatever. and then i found out that there IS a GGM in my GEM after all. heh.
i'm coughing like crazy cos i had ice-cream last night, and i'm still not over my cold. seriously. i was attempting suicide by going to swensen's yest. haha.
i know amy's really excited about the prospect of studying again, but i still can't get used to it. i wanna get on a bus and never, EVER get off, y'know what i mean? and drive far far away from this scary place that is NUS. it's NOT getting any less scary. espesh when on my way to LT24 tadi, i passed by this booth and PKII [Pantat Kuali the Second] was just sitting there. yes, looking cute, but then all the stuff that atikk told me about him started flooding my mind and suddenly i was angry and embarrassed and flustered and crush-y, all at once.
well. i let my mouth [or fingers] run away from me, as usual.

so today was a total dud. dahlah aku spent 20 minutes waiting for stupid 95 to come. dahlah hujan nonstop. dahlah aku dapat nonsense tutorial timeslots, and in some cases, tak dapat langsong.
but u know, there were some nice teeny things. things like loner guy. he's all cool with his standard berms and tshirt and bag and helmet and that cool vibe he exudes from 275967829 kms away. niiice. things like decaf(!), who i finally saw today and who's as handsome as ever and still remembers me and even waved to me tadi. when sluardlm all but ignored me. haha. and things like all the other GGMs who peppered my way out of the science block and to the bus stop.
i took 10 from kent ridge terminal for some bus therapy. i haven't had bus therapy in awhile, maybe cos i didn't really need it. but i find that even if u don't think u need it, u better go get some anyway, in case u relapse or smthg. so yeah. butt cramps and escalated risk of DVT and everything, but a certain calmness remained. and it was a great view too, all bodies of water and esplanade and whatnots. and i found out that 10 ALSO goes to hbf. which means YET another route to sentosa for me! haha. maybe i WILL go alone someday. someday lah. when i really can't find any other kakis.
i wanted to go visit bun today, but when i got to pasir ris it was barely 4, and he'd only start work at 6, so takkan aku nak tunggu 2 hours kan. so i just ran a couple of errands, visited fidah for awhile, then i took the bus home. then my sister picked me up, we went for lunch, and then we drove to holland v, shopped around [omg i was just like, gripping my wallet tight all the way, kalau tak i'd prolly have bought this skirt and that skirt, and those slippers and that ashtray! yes ashtray! aku dah giler!], and then we went for ice-cream at swensen's, which i paid for with the status symbol that is MY NEW DEBIT CARD! hahaha. anyway then we shopped around kat KAP cold storage, and went to pick up mummy, and finally i got home at like 1130. wow. so i guess i better go join my bed now. nites.

i'm majorly pissed. i managed to mengharungi all the CORS obstacles, all the way into the ranking page. so dahbis rank, i clicked submit, and.. I GOT KICKED OUT! argh. darah up sey. so i'm definitely not going to school today, considering it's almost 2 and i haven't even mandied yet, and yah. so just kirim salam to the loner guy. ahahaha.
PLUS, my mom has just decided she's gonna quit her job. so as of tmr, she won't be working anymore! so as of tmr, she'll be around, AT HOME, between the hours of 3 and 11! arghhh. this is all my sister's fault. she's decided that she wants to get back together with her ex, which comes as no surprise to me, cos she still has his face as her phone wallpaper. i mean, duh, am i blind? so you know. the whole sandiwara has been kickstarted again. and now my mom will be at home all day! argghhhhhhhhhhh.
okay well, while i'm waiting for CORS to accept me back, i'm gonna check out which buses i can take in order to see ITE mats on the way to skl. wahaha.

i had my first SS and GEM lecs today. they weren't too bad la, but i was SO sleepy! again! so i totally dozed off during the GEM lec. the MS one wasn't too bad, it was really interesting! but i was all sick and shivery and everything--it really put a dampener on things. anyway, haha one of the lecs was great cos there were QUITE a number of GGMs, a rarity in my other lectures. so. alhamdulillah. definitely looking forward to the next one. and this time i'll sleep early the night before.
funny thing, i was waiting for fan at BV mrt just now, i was just sitting down reading Angels & Demons [for the first time, it's really great rupernyer], when this vik-looking guy approached me. he wanted directions to MOE, cos he was having some kind of job interview at someplace near it. he was talking to me in malay, mostly, so i dunno if he's really a vik ah. anyway, it took me 5 full minutes to get him clear about where he was going. so he said thanks and then he said, "nama?" and i was like, "huh?" and he repeated, "nama?" um, hi, can i get a slow playback here? was he asking for my name? and why? anyway i decided to assume that he WAS asking my name, for simplicity's sake, and i replied, "i'm ain.." and he was like, "okay.." and left me standing there feeling wrong-footed and confused. in case anyone's wondering, he WAS quite cute tapi cam 25-ish gitu ah.
another thing. WHY is it, that whenever i'm out with fan, there are always LOADS of cute guys around? no, seriously. we were in the train, and on one side there were about 4 cute individual malay guys. on the other side there was a group of 4 cute mats. and NEXT to fan was another cute guy, all hiphop-styled. ARGH.

ahhhh. penat sey. i'm really, incredibly tired. it was worst during maths lec, i was just dozing off, accompanied by actual merepek dreams! in chem i actually had a dream about the original sya's fren. apeeee je.
anyway. other than the lecs, school was great. found a few more GGMs! and we had lunch at mac's, and i activated my DBS NUS card, and had quite a productive seni meeting followed by a merepek dinner with atikk at the cheese prata shop. yum. that was my favourite part, cos i lurve eating. i had the maggi goreng, one prata kosong and the ubiquitious lime juice. haha. loves it!
ooh i'm watching Las Vegas now, it promises to be a great episode cos the Black Eyed Peas are in it, and it was during the filming of this episode that josh duhamel actually got together with fergie! ahhh.
and yay i got the SIA award thingy again. more money, just rolling in! this really calls for a major shopping spree. shafa?

so the double wedding was today. i was wearing my punjabi suit with the new earrings, haha. and AGAIN, my relatives didn't fail me with the inevitable "Bollywood actress" comments. whateVVER. i was kinda bored at first, cos takde kawan, and i was doing berkat duty. btw the berkat was ferrero rochers. add to that kiasu malays and their anaks, and you can imagine how grumpy and masam-faced i was. BUT. it wasn't a TOTAL loss. there was this really cute guy who caught my eye the moment i saw him. he's from ismawi's side. he was the bunga-manggar-bearer, so he only stayed for a limited time, cos after that it was back to the guy's side pe. anyway. he's all tall and skinny, and wearing a nicely-fitting long-sleeved striped shirt with khaki-coloured pants that sat perfectly on his frame, with white school-like sneakers. plus his lebat yet tidy brownish hair and bluish contacts, he was just irresistible la. i couldn't take my eyes off him. haha. and i finally got the chance to talk to him when ema/era wanted a bunga manggar. their bunga manggar was the modern one, made of colourful pipe cleaners, which i LOVE. anyway so by that time he was getting ready to leave, and he was back on bunga-manggar duty. so i went up to him, with ema/era, and i said, "sorry, can i have one?" please don't ask why i was talking in english. macam eksyen sey. and he mistakenly thought i was offering him a berkat so he held out his hand. and i was like, "um, i mean i want that.." and i pointed to the bunga manggars. and he was like, "oh.." and started laughing sheepishly while his friend suaned him. so i added a "sorry" to soften the blow. then when i got the bunga manggar, i said, "terima kasih.." and walked away. while his friend was still laughing at him. darn. looking back, i should have just given him the whole basket of berkats. to quote atikk again :"haha aku bodoh".
and that was it. when he was gone, the world just seemed that much darker. and after kak cik left for the guy's side, i quit my berkat-giving job and left. but i'm hoping that someday, somehow, our paths will cross again. wahahaha.
met fan at city hall, and we walked for like 8457284 km before we finally found a working wireless at lido mac's. btw, it's REALLY nice and empty, i am SO gonna study there sometime. and i did my marking while he tried to maximise the use of my D's battery. haha. and i finally finished my marking, and now i have 10 bucks more to my name! yeah! oooh and there was this really cute guy at suntec starbucks, he was all fair and goateed and had this cool-without-trying look. his name's khai or smthg. i'll be back, khai! oh but then again. maybe i've had enough of malay starbucks guys i think are cute because they always seem to turn out shitty in the end.

i am having a major sore throat! i blame the yoghurt i've been having for the past 3 days. haha. i mean, what else could it be?
so anyway, i had the most boring day of my life. it was kak yut's and kak cik's nikah today and my sister woke me up at the considerably unearthly hour of 11 a.m. so that we cld be there by noonish. but the nikah was cool lah. i haven't witnessed a nikah in quite a long time. and this time, all the stuff the kadi said actually meant something other than gibberish to me la. tapi panjang giler sey. merepek thoughts like you mean he memorised this? and cepat sikitlah, panas giler bodoh! were running through my head, along with the less-offensive ones like hmm that actually makes sense. haha. food was good, but range of meat dishes were waay limited, i thought. and guys were zilch. tak cute langsong! none, and i mean NONE, of them were cute. i was just bored out of my wits. and rejoiced gratefully when we cld finally go home. when we got home, i hit the bedsheets and finally woke up at 9. haha. and now i'm rounding off a mondo-boring day with two stacks of marking for my sister. [don't worry, i'm getting paid.]
i got my DBS NUS card! woohoo! tak sabar nak activate-->pakai! haha.
actually the only reason why 11 was such an unearthly hour was because i got home at like 6. haha. fan was in tampines that night, and he walked over at like 230 a.m., so we went to the 24hr coffeeshop and i had lime juice and watched him eat and just appreciated the peacefulness of pasir ris at wee hours of the morning. anyway, my mom was just waking up when i got home, nasib baik she didn't get mad. well i don't have much time. 13 september is officially less than a month away, so.. enjoying it while it lasts.

heyya.
in all the kegilaan of yest, i didn't have time to blog. so just a quick recap. i went to the arts bazaar, where i bought the spongebob boxers, a pair of purple beach slippers with a silouhette of a bikini babe [that's starting to come off, actually, due to friction and attrition and stuff] and a waaaay-cool puma bling bag that cost 30 bucks, AND THEN LATER, those $16.90 earrings i was lusting after. haha. by then my wallet statement stood at -$2. congrats ain. oh and i had like, 2 large yoghurts! the first was a new concoction of peach, kiwi and choc chip cookies. as usual, sedap. i have excellent taste la, can't really deny it. haha. the second was atikk's treat--she was in a good mood pasal baru dpt her laptop--this time a completely fruity blend of strawberry, peach and kiwi. i think. then the penerbitan meeting went better than i expected it to. LOADS better, really. and then we went for dinner afterwards, it was really fun. haha.
so that was yest. today, my one and only day off for the entire semester, i hit the beach with fan. the sun wasn't really out much, but not bad la. i got darker, anyway. we played with D for awhile, then we watched this group of quite-pro people playing frisbee, and my whole perspective on it changed. oh i also found out that fan likes rugby. hehe. hm den biaser ah, rendam, keluar balik, mandi and stuff.. we had dinner at mac's, where i tried the wireless for the first time, how exciting! haha.
met sya, shafa and ili, SUPER late, but better than never, and just in time for 95 anyway. joined atikk and di at central forum, and then kiter masuk ah. oh it was SHIT boring! not the fault of the organisers, of course. i'd just like to blame the 6382749274 people who were SITTING DOWN, right infront of the stage. alamak, mintak kena sepak sey. so nak dance pun cam lain macam kan, we wouldn't wanna look like pompan kuning, bumping and grinding to a friggin rock song! i got bored halfway through a set and we went to get yoghurt, hehe. i got my favourite, the straw-blue-oreo. yums. large of course. double yums. it all ends too quickly, though. me and the yoghurt, i mean. well finally PLP came on, i was SO excited, i'd been waiting for it for like 2 weeks la. they did four songs, the third of which is my absolute favourite, Love Song For A Love Song, this really slow number which really goes all the way into your heart. and as the song ended i realised how stupid i was NOT to think of recording it. bodoh! aku bodoh. memang betul ah. so i recorded part of the last one, which, predictably, was Blow. it was great! my virgin PLP gig. haha. and then we left. haha. we hung out in baba's room [thanks for ur hospitality, baba, even though u weren't there!] till like 11-ish, with me DJing the songs on my beloved D. haha.

it was back to school today. haha. but it wasn't too bad la. except it was so darn freaking hot! anyway, i met baba at the forum at around 245, and we checked out the forum co-op and the bazaar thingy. it was SO cool! i was just dying of lust for the items like the spongebob boxers and this heeeuuuge pair of earrings that cost, unfortunately, $16.90. so i didn't buy anything then, even though i would have KILLED for the earrings, cos i didn't have enough money. but i'ma go back tmr and buy out the place. hopefully the earrings are still there, but if not, i guess we weren't fated to be together. oh i DID buy this yoghurt thingy, sedap gilerrr! i bought blueberry-strawberry-oreo, which SOUNDS weird, but is really great. the sweetness of the oreos counteracts the masamness of the others. anyway. it's great. besok confirm aku beli lagi. wahahaha.
and of cos, more cute guys. haha. bynk cute viks. it's amazing. and there's gam's relative, and his cute vik fren who reminds us of decaf. nice.
oh there was a bazaar thingy at science also, but less cool lah. more organised, less of that bugis village feel. so. yeah. haha. but there's the body shop sale, so i'll definitely attack that before/between lec(s) tmr.
we were late for lec, and it was SO annoying cos we had to sit on the extra2 chairs, merepek siak! we couldn't see shit, i couldn't hear shit, and of course there was hardly any room for my elbows to breathe. so my non-attention span became even shorter, and everyone else was amazed when they discovered that instead of feverishly writing notes, i was making a list of the latest cute guys and subsequently a shopping list for tmr. well, all i can say is, that's me! hahaha.
i dropped by WS on the way back, and i visited work, but there was like a queue and everything so i didn't get to talk to diana. takpe bun wasn't there anyway. at least, i don't THINK so. i think i'll drop by during the weekend, when hannan's around, and talk to them then. it's the stupid $4 sundae promo lah. everyone's clamouring to eat ice-cream then.
klah. i shd sleep early i.e. after CSI: Miami, cos i'm meeting amy and baba at 9 to start my new shopping adventure! skali kedai belum bukak eh. i'll laugh at myself la.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
went to watch the fireworks live at the esplanade, with hannan, umar, fadhila, her friend, and what looked like 5930482038593 other bodies. it was people, people and more people. but worth it la, the fireworks were great. i was torn between the rocketlike ones on one side, and the cute shower-of-sparks that looked like sparkling gold bits, on the other side. beautiful. oh and guess who i saw? siols and gang! hahahahahaha.
after that i met fan, after enduring beribu obstacles like being detoured on our way to citylink mall, being completely disoriented and lost, etc. and we walked all over marina square trying to decide where to eat, by which time all available places were closed [swensen's, starbucks] or full [LJS]. i was gonna start crying, and he was just sniggering away. i wanted to kill him. anyway we finally decided to eat at the lido mac's, and finally, i went home with a happy tummy. haha.
except now i'm craving swensen's. darn.
ohyah this is to sya [i hope you're reading this]: do you KNOW that syed is 17?!?!?!?!? tak caya sey! he looks about 89!

argh. guess who i dreamt about last night? it involved these 2 guys suddenly visiting me kat rumah, and i was all like, shocked and shit. and one of them [din] went to the kitchen and started cooking or something, while the OTHER one stayed in my room and tried to start a conversation with me. while i was being all hostile and angry. OMG! what a stupid dream! help!
i hate cryptic dreams that are caused by excessive propaganda. okay i'm too dream-disoriented to blog properly. bye.

today was the first day of school. haha. i sound like some little kid. but anyway, yah. i woke up specially [or rather, i asked my mom to wake me up] at 430 so that i could get out of the house comfortably by 615. not badlah, i made it in good time. then i met gamar at the bus stop, and we went all over the science block looking for LT32. pagi-pagi buter! was SO not in the mood.
lectures weren't too bad, but i kept nodding off! it was worst in the maths lec [the last one of the day], i actually tertidored and had multiple dreams. giler! oh yes i also took a photo of me looking bored. hahah. kalau takder kerje i'll upload it. one GREAT thing about maths lec, though. CBG! haha. i will NOT state what that stands for, but i WILL say that he's really cute! haha. and he injects cahaya into an otherwise boring lecture. in all senses of the word.
by the end of the day, i was SO tired [i don't know why, considering all i did was alternately sit around in air-conditioned LTs and sit around in assorted canteens.], i actually fell asleep in the train the moment i got a seat. ALL the way to pasir ris. and i didn't wanna wake up even then.
ohyes something important. there's some weird shit going on, on the right-hand side of this page. i've already disclaimed responsibility for any shit that goes on, but i just wanna reiterate that i hold absolutely NO responsibility for all this shit, especially those not written by me.
i really hope i get to go out tmr. malas ah nak duduk rumah.

i'm with D now, for like the billionth time since i woke up today. for the uninitiated, D is the name of my notebook. woohoo! we have such a bright future ahead of us, D and i. i've changed the wallpaper, set up Entertainment Central, and even uploaded beribu new photos that i just took today, including one of D and me. hahaha. how exciting. cos i also installed the Bluetooth thingy, so D is now Bluetooth-enabled, and i've been pumping in those new photos all day. all of me, of course. what's the sense in having your own laptop if you don't put your stamp on it right? haha. sorry aku giler.
but seriously, other than the time i spent with D, today was shit boring man! i didn't step out of the house at all, not even to buang sampah. and no one called or whatever. so sad. so i've been eating and self-socialising in my room all day. sigh.

and that's me and D. haha. takder kerje betul sey.

wow. despite the horrible start to my day tadi pagi [i woke up late], i had an otherwise great day.
i went to pick up my laptop. when the guy took it out of the box, i wanted to kiss it and run my hands all over its smooth surface. but i held myself back. haha. but anyway, so much for it being 1.75kg, cos by the time i reached BV mrt station, my arm was dying already. dahlah kena pegang si red plastic bag skali, AND my wallet containing my ezlink. but anyway. i got home safe and sound. and there was this really intriguing guy in the train. manjen, cute-faced, no glasses, baru balik floorball training, with a nice huge crumpler, AND the latest harry potter! he'd just begun to read it. how cute! i was like thinking, ahh, perfect guy--cute, plays floorball, reads harry potter in public.. haha. sorry aku giler.
okay, so i reached home and quickly got ready so i cld be at cck by 2. and i was sitting there, in one of my current favourite outfits [incl shades], waiting for 39.. and all these non-39 buses came and went, and i got increasingly impatient. and then 17 came, and i was staring blankly at the people in the bus, when one of them waved at me. my first thought was, alah just some lame mat.. but i gave him a second look anyway. and GUESS who it was! BUN! i wanted to die. okay, no, i didn't. but omg! and what did i do, in response to his friendly gesture? i gasped and covered my mouth, macam ternampak a jumping mayat gitu. eyes popping and all. and he kinda grinned, the way he always does. and i was just sitting there, smiling back at him, but really wanting to do a dance a la Puteri Gunung Ledang, if anyone watched it. and then the bus REFUSED to move, so we were stuck there with nothing to do but look at each other/NOT look at each other/smile at each other/NOT smile at each other. everyone else in the bus, in his vicinity, was kinda looking at us strangely. buat malu. finally the bus moved off, but the euphoric feeling lingered. i was like asking silently, God, is this a sign? i mean, he was right there, in MY neighbourhood, ALONE, despite living in bedok! plus he waved at me first. maybe the absence of azhar allowed him to lose his inhibitions about being more than indifferent towards me. i dunno. it COULD have been a sign. ah bun. how i've missed you. thing was, in the train earlier, i was thinking of looking him up at work, just because. and instead. he was delivered right into my lap. okay, not directly into my lap [although maybe i wouldn't mind, God], but near it anyway. ah too bad i cldn't hit him with a msg or anything after tt, since we don't have each other's numbers.
okay that's enough about bun for one week. haha. yeah, lyn's farewell at rachel's. really fun. we watched School of Rock and yaxin and i semangatly learned the pattycake game that jack black was playing with miranda cosgrove [summer]. we've almost got it down pat.
then my sister and i drove to suntec to get me a ring [don't ask, but it has nothing to do with samit/kashbir/bun proposing to me]. i got a really nice one. it looks childish, yes, but HELL. who gives a flying fuck, yes? it's sapphire surrounded by topaz stones in a flower shape, in a white gold setting. now, don't go getting any ideas about robbing me yes? i'll be destroyed forever. oh and we were passing by one of the shops in the basement. it's called Bakin' Boys or smthg similar. and i thoughtlessly commented, "hmm, Bakin' Boys.. so do they hire girls?" and we laughed so loud that one of the bakin' boys [the less cute one] actually laughed at us. peeee je.
hm and now, at the risk of sounding cryptic [which i hate], i was wishing SO hard i could tell my sister. but i didn't. maybe a lot later lah.
i was kinda missing fan today. but too much of a good thing is bad, right?

sigh. feeling really melancholy for reasons as yet unknown to me. well. apaperlah. all i can say is, ALHAMDULILLAH cos i finally got my fifth module, a food chem GEM. not my first choice, but i'd planned on taking it anyway, so takpelah. now i'm just wondering how much i paid for it. haha.

went to watch marebito with fan today. it SUCKS. DON'T watch it. we were both dying of confusion, gore and boredom. the tagline for the movie is "the most twisted japanese horror movie", and it won some award or other, AND it was NC-16, so i thought it'd be all great and scary. well, all i can say is, the tagline was a complete lie except for the words "twisted", "japanese" and "movie". it was twisted, all right. [okay i'm gonna put a spoiler here because the movie is so bad i don't want anyone to watch it, so i'm assuming anyone reading this won't be watching it, and therefore will not mind the spoiler.] this is an example of how twisted it was: the protagonist is this oddball cameraman guy, and he raised his daughter to drink only blood, and sometimes when he's out of blood supplies, he cuts himself so that she feeds on him. so in the last scene, the girl is really impoverished, and blood supplies are out. so what does he do? he cuts his lip/tongue, and lets her suck on the blood streaming out. i mean, really! that was unnatural in more ways than one! yes so that was it. there was nothing to do with horror, except for silent, standing ghosts of people he killed. they appeared, um, twice? and did nothing except to stand there behind him. congrats.
ohyeah and we met sara and fari at metro. where sara proceeded to embarrass me mortally like she hasn't done for about 3-4 years. haha.

i was watching CSI: Miami III just now and i almost cried when speedle died! actually there were little hints that he would be the one dying, from the new publicity shots which conveniently leave him out, and then 15 minutes into the show calleigh says, "i would love to kill speedle now." because he borrowed her stuff and neglected to charge it before returning it. but STILL! why speedle? i love him! okay i love eric more, but speedle! he's hardworking, cute, funny and brave. i, along with probably half the other CSI: Miami fans, was hoping it'd be alex who died. but while she was doing the autopsy just now i realised it could never be her, cos then there'd be no one to do the autopsy on HER body. haha. okay sorry.

i SO wanna kick myself right now. because i FORGOT TO BID DURING CLOSE BIDDING! goodbye, Chinese I. and possibly my SS module too. i am SO pissed with myself. and on top of it all, they even extended the close bidding period, which means that people had 2 extra hours to outbid me! omg. i'm REALLY angry with myself.
which is not to say i didn't have a nice day otherwise. haha. met up with irfan, and we hung out, and when we went to WS to eat, i dropped by ex-workplace and said hi to shirley and fizah, and found out that they transferred one of the cute TCL guys to WS. cool.
train-wreck-incident-of-the-day: some old person fainted right in the middle of the path from the bus stop to my block. like, right across it. so that the path was effectively blocked. oh it was so scary. and then the ambulance got there and *blushblush* i thought the paramedics were cute. sorry, orang tua who fainted. hope you feel better soon.

HEYYYYYYYYYY!
as the exuberant greeting above demonstrates, i am in an excellent mood right now. well i hit the beach with sya this afternoon. i was off to a bad start really, cos i woke up super late, and THEN it started raining. heavily. with gales and all. i was as gloomy as the weather. but then by the time we actually reached sentosa, the rain finally stopped. so. yay!
anyway let me just cut to the chase here. the beach was deserted, so sya and i took our time choosing our pondok, with the wide selection available. we ended up at this pondok with a group of 3 malay guys as our neighbours (i.e. one pondok away). anyway, then 3 more guys joined them, and they were actually cute!!! so we kinda sat up and took notice, and quickly picked one each. haha. then one of them kept positioning himself too close to us. seriously. we were just lying there minding our own business, when he came and stood not 2 metres away from us. then, i was rendaming in the water when this time, he stood at the water's edge. i was like, erm.. cos his friends were busy doing somersaults and handstands or whatever. finally, when i was done rendaming, and i came out to join sya, he came over, said hi and introduced himself. his name's helmi (surprise surprise!), and he turned out to be the cutest in the group. tall, nice bod, great smooth tanned complexion, and of course handsome face. haha. anyway the guys invited us to join them, and we did. brought our mats and bags over and everything. besides helmi, there was syed, zul, irfan and 2 unidentified guys who were mostly MIA so takpe. well i know sya may not have had the best time, but i had a blast! more details to come later, i hope.. byeee!

went out for a drive with zul and kak ida just now. we picked up zul's new PINK ipod mini [yes he chose the colour--seriously, i don't know what's getting into him these days], and went for an early dinner. but since we went all the way to bukit batok, we had quite a long drive back, during which i complained at length about my mom refusing to let me go to KL, and had things put more or less into perspective for me. haha.
i'm so glad i got out of the house today, i would have spent it sleeping away instead! and i foresee the same thing happening on wednesday, so i think i'll plan to create alternative timetables, and play the urbz, which i haven't touched in months. haha.

Well you can dance
Every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye
Let him hold you tight
And you can smile
Every smile for the man
Who held your hand
'Neath the pale moonlight
But don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

Oh I know
That the music's fine
Like sparkling wine
Go and have your fun
Laugh and sing
But while we're apart
Don't give your heart
To anyone
And don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

Baby, don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never, never let you go
I love you, oh so much

You can dance
Go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks
If you're all alone
Can he walk you home
You must tell him no
Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me

Oh I know
That the music's fine
Like sparkling wine
Go and have your fun
Laugh and sing
But while we're apart
Don't give your heart
To anyone
And don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

So don't forget who's taking you home
Or in who's arms you're gonna be
So darling save the last dance for me
Oh baby, won't you save the last dance for me
Ooh, you make a promise
That you'll save the last dance for me
Save the last dance
The very last dance
For me - Michael Buble