heyya.
in all the kegilaan of yest, i didn't have time to blog. so just a quick recap. i went to the arts bazaar, where i bought the spongebob boxers, a pair of purple beach slippers with a silouhette of a bikini babe [that's starting to come off, actually, due to friction and attrition and stuff] and a waaaay-cool puma bling bag that cost 30 bucks, AND THEN LATER, those $16.90 earrings i was lusting after. haha. by then my wallet statement stood at -$2. congrats ain. oh and i had like, 2 large yoghurts! the first was a new concoction of peach, kiwi and choc chip cookies. as usual, sedap. i have excellent taste la, can't really deny it. haha. the second was atikk's treat--she was in a good mood pasal baru dpt her laptop--this time a completely fruity blend of strawberry, peach and kiwi. i think. then the penerbitan meeting went better than i expected it to. LOADS better, really. and then we went for dinner afterwards, it was really fun. haha.
so that was yest. today, my one and only day off for the entire semester, i hit the beach with fan. the sun wasn't really out much, but not bad la. i got darker, anyway. we played with D for awhile, then we watched this group of quite-pro people playing frisbee, and my whole perspective on it changed. oh i also found out that fan likes rugby. hehe. hm den biaser ah, rendam, keluar balik, mandi and stuff.. we had dinner at mac's, where i tried the wireless for the first time, how exciting! haha.
met sya, shafa and ili, SUPER late, but better than never, and just in time for 95 anyway. joined atikk and di at central forum, and then kiter masuk ah. oh it was SHIT boring! not the fault of the organisers, of course. i'd just like to blame the 6382749274 people who were SITTING DOWN, right infront of the stage. alamak, mintak kena sepak sey. so nak dance pun cam lain macam kan, we wouldn't wanna look like pompan kuning, bumping and grinding to a friggin rock song! i got bored halfway through a set and we went to get yoghurt, hehe. i got my favourite, the straw-blue-oreo. yums. large of course. double yums. it all ends too quickly, though. me and the yoghurt, i mean. well finally PLP came on, i was SO excited, i'd been waiting for it for like 2 weeks la. they did four songs, the third of which is my absolute favourite, Love Song For A Love Song, this really slow number which really goes all the way into your heart. and as the song ended i realised how stupid i was NOT to think of recording it. bodoh! aku bodoh. memang betul ah. so i recorded part of the last one, which, predictably, was Blow. it was great! my virgin PLP gig. haha. and then we left. haha. we hung out in baba's room [thanks for ur hospitality, baba, even though u weren't there!] till like 11-ish, with me DJing the songs on my beloved D. haha.

it was back to school today. haha. but it wasn't too bad la. except it was so darn freaking hot! anyway, i met baba at the forum at around 245, and we checked out the forum co-op and the bazaar thingy. it was SO cool! i was just dying of lust for the items like the spongebob boxers and this heeeuuuge pair of earrings that cost, unfortunately, $16.90. so i didn't buy anything then, even though i would have KILLED for the earrings, cos i didn't have enough money. but i'ma go back tmr and buy out the place. hopefully the earrings are still there, but if not, i guess we weren't fated to be together. oh i DID buy this yoghurt thingy, sedap gilerrr! i bought blueberry-strawberry-oreo, which SOUNDS weird, but is really great. the sweetness of the oreos counteracts the masamness of the others. anyway. it's great. besok confirm aku beli lagi. wahahaha.
and of cos, more cute guys. haha. bynk cute viks. it's amazing. and there's gam's relative, and his cute vik fren who reminds us of decaf. nice.
oh there was a bazaar thingy at science also, but less cool lah. more organised, less of that bugis village feel. so. yeah. haha. but there's the body shop sale, so i'll definitely attack that before/between lec(s) tmr.
we were late for lec, and it was SO annoying cos we had to sit on the extra2 chairs, merepek siak! we couldn't see shit, i couldn't hear shit, and of course there was hardly any room for my elbows to breathe. so my non-attention span became even shorter, and everyone else was amazed when they discovered that instead of feverishly writing notes, i was making a list of the latest cute guys and subsequently a shopping list for tmr. well, all i can say is, that's me! hahaha.
i dropped by WS on the way back, and i visited work, but there was like a queue and everything so i didn't get to talk to diana. takpe bun wasn't there anyway. at least, i don't THINK so. i think i'll drop by during the weekend, when hannan's around, and talk to them then. it's the stupid $4 sundae promo lah. everyone's clamouring to eat ice-cream then.
klah. i shd sleep early i.e. after CSI: Miami, cos i'm meeting amy and baba at 9 to start my new shopping adventure! skali kedai belum bukak eh. i'll laugh at myself la.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
went to watch the fireworks live at the esplanade, with hannan, umar, fadhila, her friend, and what looked like 5930482038593 other bodies. it was people, people and more people. but worth it la, the fireworks were great. i was torn between the rocketlike ones on one side, and the cute shower-of-sparks that looked like sparkling gold bits, on the other side. beautiful. oh and guess who i saw? siols and gang! hahahahahaha.
after that i met fan, after enduring beribu obstacles like being detoured on our way to citylink mall, being completely disoriented and lost, etc. and we walked all over marina square trying to decide where to eat, by which time all available places were closed [swensen's, starbucks] or full [LJS]. i was gonna start crying, and he was just sniggering away. i wanted to kill him. anyway we finally decided to eat at the lido mac's, and finally, i went home with a happy tummy. haha.
except now i'm craving swensen's. darn.
ohyah this is to sya [i hope you're reading this]: do you KNOW that syed is 17?!?!?!?!? tak caya sey! he looks about 89!

argh. guess who i dreamt about last night? it involved these 2 guys suddenly visiting me kat rumah, and i was all like, shocked and shit. and one of them [din] went to the kitchen and started cooking or something, while the OTHER one stayed in my room and tried to start a conversation with me. while i was being all hostile and angry. OMG! what a stupid dream! help!
i hate cryptic dreams that are caused by excessive propaganda. okay i'm too dream-disoriented to blog properly. bye.

today was the first day of school. haha. i sound like some little kid. but anyway, yah. i woke up specially [or rather, i asked my mom to wake me up] at 430 so that i could get out of the house comfortably by 615. not badlah, i made it in good time. then i met gamar at the bus stop, and we went all over the science block looking for LT32. pagi-pagi buter! was SO not in the mood.
lectures weren't too bad, but i kept nodding off! it was worst in the maths lec [the last one of the day], i actually tertidored and had multiple dreams. giler! oh yes i also took a photo of me looking bored. hahah. kalau takder kerje i'll upload it. one GREAT thing about maths lec, though. CBG! haha. i will NOT state what that stands for, but i WILL say that he's really cute! haha. and he injects cahaya into an otherwise boring lecture. in all senses of the word.
by the end of the day, i was SO tired [i don't know why, considering all i did was alternately sit around in air-conditioned LTs and sit around in assorted canteens.], i actually fell asleep in the train the moment i got a seat. ALL the way to pasir ris. and i didn't wanna wake up even then.
ohyes something important. there's some weird shit going on, on the right-hand side of this page. i've already disclaimed responsibility for any shit that goes on, but i just wanna reiterate that i hold absolutely NO responsibility for all this shit, especially those not written by me.
i really hope i get to go out tmr. malas ah nak duduk rumah.

i'm with D now, for like the billionth time since i woke up today. for the uninitiated, D is the name of my notebook. woohoo! we have such a bright future ahead of us, D and i. i've changed the wallpaper, set up Entertainment Central, and even uploaded beribu new photos that i just took today, including one of D and me. hahaha. how exciting. cos i also installed the Bluetooth thingy, so D is now Bluetooth-enabled, and i've been pumping in those new photos all day. all of me, of course. what's the sense in having your own laptop if you don't put your stamp on it right? haha. sorry aku giler.
but seriously, other than the time i spent with D, today was shit boring man! i didn't step out of the house at all, not even to buang sampah. and no one called or whatever. so sad. so i've been eating and self-socialising in my room all day. sigh.

and that's me and D. haha. takder kerje betul sey.

wow. despite the horrible start to my day tadi pagi [i woke up late], i had an otherwise great day.
i went to pick up my laptop. when the guy took it out of the box, i wanted to kiss it and run my hands all over its smooth surface. but i held myself back. haha. but anyway, so much for it being 1.75kg, cos by the time i reached BV mrt station, my arm was dying already. dahlah kena pegang si red plastic bag skali, AND my wallet containing my ezlink. but anyway. i got home safe and sound. and there was this really intriguing guy in the train. manjen, cute-faced, no glasses, baru balik floorball training, with a nice huge crumpler, AND the latest harry potter! he'd just begun to read it. how cute! i was like thinking, ahh, perfect guy--cute, plays floorball, reads harry potter in public.. haha. sorry aku giler.
okay, so i reached home and quickly got ready so i cld be at cck by 2. and i was sitting there, in one of my current favourite outfits [incl shades], waiting for 39.. and all these non-39 buses came and went, and i got increasingly impatient. and then 17 came, and i was staring blankly at the people in the bus, when one of them waved at me. my first thought was, alah just some lame mat.. but i gave him a second look anyway. and GUESS who it was! BUN! i wanted to die. okay, no, i didn't. but omg! and what did i do, in response to his friendly gesture? i gasped and covered my mouth, macam ternampak a jumping mayat gitu. eyes popping and all. and he kinda grinned, the way he always does. and i was just sitting there, smiling back at him, but really wanting to do a dance a la Puteri Gunung Ledang, if anyone watched it. and then the bus REFUSED to move, so we were stuck there with nothing to do but look at each other/NOT look at each other/smile at each other/NOT smile at each other. everyone else in the bus, in his vicinity, was kinda looking at us strangely. buat malu. finally the bus moved off, but the euphoric feeling lingered. i was like asking silently, God, is this a sign? i mean, he was right there, in MY neighbourhood, ALONE, despite living in bedok! plus he waved at me first. maybe the absence of azhar allowed him to lose his inhibitions about being more than indifferent towards me. i dunno. it COULD have been a sign. ah bun. how i've missed you. thing was, in the train earlier, i was thinking of looking him up at work, just because. and instead. he was delivered right into my lap. okay, not directly into my lap [although maybe i wouldn't mind, God], but near it anyway. ah too bad i cldn't hit him with a msg or anything after tt, since we don't have each other's numbers.
okay that's enough about bun for one week. haha. yeah, lyn's farewell at rachel's. really fun. we watched School of Rock and yaxin and i semangatly learned the pattycake game that jack black was playing with miranda cosgrove [summer]. we've almost got it down pat.
then my sister and i drove to suntec to get me a ring [don't ask, but it has nothing to do with samit/kashbir/bun proposing to me]. i got a really nice one. it looks childish, yes, but HELL. who gives a flying fuck, yes? it's sapphire surrounded by topaz stones in a flower shape, in a white gold setting. now, don't go getting any ideas about robbing me yes? i'll be destroyed forever. oh and we were passing by one of the shops in the basement. it's called Bakin' Boys or smthg similar. and i thoughtlessly commented, "hmm, Bakin' Boys.. so do they hire girls?" and we laughed so loud that one of the bakin' boys [the less cute one] actually laughed at us. peeee je.
hm and now, at the risk of sounding cryptic [which i hate], i was wishing SO hard i could tell my sister. but i didn't. maybe a lot later lah.
i was kinda missing fan today. but too much of a good thing is bad, right?

sigh. feeling really melancholy for reasons as yet unknown to me. well. apaperlah. all i can say is, ALHAMDULILLAH cos i finally got my fifth module, a food chem GEM. not my first choice, but i'd planned on taking it anyway, so takpelah. now i'm just wondering how much i paid for it. haha.

went to watch marebito with fan today. it SUCKS. DON'T watch it. we were both dying of confusion, gore and boredom. the tagline for the movie is "the most twisted japanese horror movie", and it won some award or other, AND it was NC-16, so i thought it'd be all great and scary. well, all i can say is, the tagline was a complete lie except for the words "twisted", "japanese" and "movie". it was twisted, all right. [okay i'm gonna put a spoiler here because the movie is so bad i don't want anyone to watch it, so i'm assuming anyone reading this won't be watching it, and therefore will not mind the spoiler.] this is an example of how twisted it was: the protagonist is this oddball cameraman guy, and he raised his daughter to drink only blood, and sometimes when he's out of blood supplies, he cuts himself so that she feeds on him. so in the last scene, the girl is really impoverished, and blood supplies are out. so what does he do? he cuts his lip/tongue, and lets her suck on the blood streaming out. i mean, really! that was unnatural in more ways than one! yes so that was it. there was nothing to do with horror, except for silent, standing ghosts of people he killed. they appeared, um, twice? and did nothing except to stand there behind him. congrats.
ohyeah and we met sara and fari at metro. where sara proceeded to embarrass me mortally like she hasn't done for about 3-4 years. haha.

i was watching CSI: Miami III just now and i almost cried when speedle died! actually there were little hints that he would be the one dying, from the new publicity shots which conveniently leave him out, and then 15 minutes into the show calleigh says, "i would love to kill speedle now." because he borrowed her stuff and neglected to charge it before returning it. but STILL! why speedle? i love him! okay i love eric more, but speedle! he's hardworking, cute, funny and brave. i, along with probably half the other CSI: Miami fans, was hoping it'd be alex who died. but while she was doing the autopsy just now i realised it could never be her, cos then there'd be no one to do the autopsy on HER body. haha. okay sorry.

i SO wanna kick myself right now. because i FORGOT TO BID DURING CLOSE BIDDING! goodbye, Chinese I. and possibly my SS module too. i am SO pissed with myself. and on top of it all, they even extended the close bidding period, which means that people had 2 extra hours to outbid me! omg. i'm REALLY angry with myself.
which is not to say i didn't have a nice day otherwise. haha. met up with irfan, and we hung out, and when we went to WS to eat, i dropped by ex-workplace and said hi to shirley and fizah, and found out that they transferred one of the cute TCL guys to WS. cool.
train-wreck-incident-of-the-day: some old person fainted right in the middle of the path from the bus stop to my block. like, right across it. so that the path was effectively blocked. oh it was so scary. and then the ambulance got there and *blushblush* i thought the paramedics were cute. sorry, orang tua who fainted. hope you feel better soon.

HEYYYYYYYYYY!
as the exuberant greeting above demonstrates, i am in an excellent mood right now. well i hit the beach with sya this afternoon. i was off to a bad start really, cos i woke up super late, and THEN it started raining. heavily. with gales and all. i was as gloomy as the weather. but then by the time we actually reached sentosa, the rain finally stopped. so. yay!
anyway let me just cut to the chase here. the beach was deserted, so sya and i took our time choosing our pondok, with the wide selection available. we ended up at this pondok with a group of 3 malay guys as our neighbours (i.e. one pondok away). anyway, then 3 more guys joined them, and they were actually cute!!! so we kinda sat up and took notice, and quickly picked one each. haha. then one of them kept positioning himself too close to us. seriously. we were just lying there minding our own business, when he came and stood not 2 metres away from us. then, i was rendaming in the water when this time, he stood at the water's edge. i was like, erm.. cos his friends were busy doing somersaults and handstands or whatever. finally, when i was done rendaming, and i came out to join sya, he came over, said hi and introduced himself. his name's helmi (surprise surprise!), and he turned out to be the cutest in the group. tall, nice bod, great smooth tanned complexion, and of course handsome face. haha. anyway the guys invited us to join them, and we did. brought our mats and bags over and everything. besides helmi, there was syed, zul, irfan and 2 unidentified guys who were mostly MIA so takpe. well i know sya may not have had the best time, but i had a blast! more details to come later, i hope.. byeee!

went out for a drive with zul and kak ida just now. we picked up zul's new PINK ipod mini [yes he chose the colour--seriously, i don't know what's getting into him these days], and went for an early dinner. but since we went all the way to bukit batok, we had quite a long drive back, during which i complained at length about my mom refusing to let me go to KL, and had things put more or less into perspective for me. haha.
i'm so glad i got out of the house today, i would have spent it sleeping away instead! and i foresee the same thing happening on wednesday, so i think i'll plan to create alternative timetables, and play the urbz, which i haven't touched in months. haha.

Well you can dance
Every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye
Let him hold you tight
And you can smile
Every smile for the man
Who held your hand
'Neath the pale moonlight
But don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

Oh I know
That the music's fine
Like sparkling wine
Go and have your fun
Laugh and sing
But while we're apart
Don't give your heart
To anyone
And don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

Baby, don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never, never let you go
I love you, oh so much

You can dance
Go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to go
If he asks
If you're all alone
Can he walk you home
You must tell him no
Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
Save the last dance for me

Oh I know
That the music's fine
Like sparkling wine
Go and have your fun
Laugh and sing
But while we're apart
Don't give your heart
To anyone
And don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling, save the last dance for me

So don't forget who's taking you home
Or in who's arms you're gonna be
So darling save the last dance for me
Oh baby, won't you save the last dance for me
Ooh, you make a promise
That you'll save the last dance for me
Save the last dance
The very last dance
For me - Michael Buble

had dinner at fish&co T2 with my sis/mum/brother and ellna just now, and the bartender, imran, was really cute! haha. but yeah he's old, maybe around 27. but really cute! with goatee and everything, and slightly pillarish. very friendly too, in an awad salim kinda way. haha. i SO wanna go back there.
i was watching the weekly the nanny marathon this afternoon. it's SO funny. i love niles. he's so wittily amusing. and C.C. was telling him, "Niles, you're a butler! Butle!" hilarious.
i'm feeling mildly depressed right now. i'm not sure why, but i think it's a case of the back-to-school blues. plus quitting. ah that was just terrible. i still feel the pain. oh AND i had this horrible horrible nightmare about--ok takper i'm not posting it here for fear of discovery. haha.

wow was the weather great today or what? i could hardly wake up, let alone get out of bed, with the glorious rain pouring down and making my bed exponentially more comfortable than it normally is. i finally dragged myself out of bed at around 1, so i could be in time to meet shafa later.
we ate at jason's as usual, then guess who we bumped into at the fourth floor lift landing? nicholas! as in tiup! ahh he still looks the same, all lost and bewildered. and the best part is he finally remembers me, without prompting. haha. great.
anyway after that we launched into full-blown shopping. or at least, i did. i have a pretty good haul. a long skirt in shades of blue and green from levelone, and FOUR new tops from topshop. coolness! i LOVE shopping.
hm then we went mat-watching at our usual place, and we also managed to catch the fireworks again. fun. and there were a couple of guys there who were talking in sign language, which made me think they were bisu, but shafa claims she heard voices. so. hmm. haha.
finally, i dropped by my [ex-]workplace to hand in my resignation letter. i wanted to shrivel up and die when i saw the expression on abg amin's face. i felt SO bad. but then i caught sight of lion and ching ching, and my resolve strengthened. so. i'm a free woman now. yay.

so guess what happened yest after i was done blogging? ex-con, that's what. he came online and asked me to send him some song, and then we started talking, woohoo! ah he's as cute as ever, and he kept changing his display pic so i got an entire slideshow of his photos, effectively. i even saw a couple in which he actually had hair. very cute. he also said something like, "dah lame tak nampak awk", which made me realise that i haven't seen him in 4 freaking months! omg. that's SUCH a long time. and yet i still like him and all that shit. 4 months. wow.
i would love to go into details of what was said last night, but i don't want to obsess over him, so this is where it ends. haha.
welcome tea was nice. i wish i wore something more sitting-on-the-floor-friendly, though. but anyway, raihan was there, of course, looking even more adorable than the last time, with his specs and new haircut. ahhhhh cutenyer. i kept glancing at him, he's SO comel! -dies- and ohyah new guy! new guy! new guy! haha. amy, baba and i met him as we were making our sorry way down to MPSH to get our notebooks. he was walking to the UCC, with his new notebook, and, just as i was thinking he was cute, he smiled, which crushed me for some reason cos i thought he knew baba or smthg. anyway, he asked us if we were from/going to the welcome tea, and he said he was on his way there, and THEN he told us to prepare for a long wait at the notebook collection centre cos he'd been waiting since 11, and it was like, what, 4-plus then? so aper nak buat, after some moments of deliberation, baba and i made our sorry way back. hahaha. but no biggie, the food was great and everything, and atikk, di, baba and i were being totally anti. we were also taking our time sampling practically every single thing on the buffet table. yeah tt shd be it. raihan rocks, woohoo!
ohyah. i forgot to document my train journey. firstly, john eber was in the train! he was in the 2-person seat, and i was across the doors from him, in my usual corner seat. it WAS him, it was really him, i swear! he lives in pasir ris, like other little-known hot guys e.g. samit! i can't believe it! i couldn't believe it. anyway he STILL didn't get off when i got off at BV, so i'm assuming he was going to like NTU or smthg. wow. maybe we'll take the train together again. he'll be a.. second-generation samit, if you will. haha. ape je. padahal he's older than samit. oh and secondly, there was this 2-year-old chinese boy in a mclaren stroller with the cutest mangkuk hair and huge eyes, who, to put it matter-of-factly, had a crush on me. no, really! i was just sitting there, minding my own beeswax, when he came in with his parents, and he started staring at me with those huge eyes, so i just smiled lah. and then he just kept staring, albeit intermittently. i think his parents were pissed, cos he was supposed to be lying down drinking his orange juice, but he kept sitting up to look at me. he even started imitating me at around aljunied. i kept yawning, i was so sleepy, and he watched me and then he covered his mouth too. then i crossed my legs, and he did that too. it was SO cute, but really kind of weird. there was this schoolboy standing between us [he was opposite me], and he actually leaned forward in his stroller to look at me. i think his parents hated me for like, keeping him awake and active, but hey, i didn't do anything! all i did was smile at him. and then when i finally got off, he actually turned around in his stroller to watch me. weirdness. if not for him, i could have concentrated fully on john eber. hopefully we'll meet again. haha.

ohyah almost forgot, renji came by with his sispec friends. haha. and he's officially the last NS guy i'll ever meet at work.

i'm in a really bad mood.
1. at work just now, i was yo-yoing between my two options: quitting or sticking it out. cos i just got my fountain training stuff today, and i've been looking forward to it and all. and abg amin has been really nice and everything. PLUS bun will still be working. BUT. there's still the fact tt i don't like working as much as i used to. i haven't counted down the hours for months, and suddenly i'm looking forward to knock-off time all over again. there has to be some reason why i don't enjoy working anymore, but even though i can't pinpoint it exactly, why torture myself? i know that future jobs may be worse than this--fussier bosses, bigger crowd, etc--but maybe i just need this break. i've been living with myself for 18 years, and if there's anything i've learnt about myself, it's that i need my downtime. and i had loads of that in JC--all my bio breaks, my early days, my movie mondays.. and now that i'm starting uni, i can't exactly have my downtime if i'm working weekends right? so. this is the way it goes, i guess. i'm really sad about all this, cos God only knows how much i love working there, and how much i'll miss certain people. i was so confident that i'd be able to continue working, but really, recent events have convinced me otherwise. well. maybe one day i'll come crawling back, and maybe they'll want to take me back.
2. and this bidding shit is pissing me off. the bid range is like, 1-389 or smthg. heLLO! what the hell am i supposed to bid then? and who has so many points that they can afford to put 300+ points on ONE module? kalau aku taruk bynk, takut nanti next sem dah tak cukup points plak.. den kalau aku taruk sikit sangat, nanti tak dapat module, terpakse reshuffle every damn thing. and cos of the tea session tmr, i can't participate in the close bidding, unless i lug a notebook around with me all over campus lah. ARGH.
3. and i wanna do smthg fun before school starts!!!!!!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. ain
2. no-rain
3. norain (obviously)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eyes
2. a**. haha.
3. pierced navel?

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. stomach (fat)
2. thighs (fat)
3. nose (flat)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. javanese (a grandma)
2. indian (her husband)
3. chinese (half each of the other grandparental set)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. ghosts
2. creepy crawlies
3. and yes the afterlife, and the torture and comes with it

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. anti-acne stuffs
2. moisturiser
3. yakult. it's good for ur digestion.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. 102 class tee
2. black fbts
3. getah rambut? i dunno....

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. McFly!!! i love u, harry!
2. Rooney
3. Jennifer Lopez (i just think she's cool)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Istimewa - Indigo
2. Dream A Little Dream of Me - The Mamas and the Papas
3. She Left Me - McFly

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love
2. affection
3. someone to send me home on a bike

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i'm watching tv now
2. i'm gonna marry daniel carter
3. at the age of 22

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. bedek blonde hair
2. pillarish build
3. tanned/dark complexion

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. dancing
2. lepaking
3. reading

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. see him again
2. snuggle under the covers
3. go tanning (even though it's 1247am!!!)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. runway model (DON'T laugh!)
2. flight attendant a.k.a. air stewardess
3. CSI (i SAID don't laugh!)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. NZ
2. Goa, India
3. the beaches of Spain

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. ishmael
2. iman almira
3. ayesha

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get married
2. have 2 beautiful kids
3. run my own business

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. my room is a pigsty
2. love to eat
3. i'm loud (and who can disagree?)

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i love boys
2. i like skirts
3. i'm a hopeless romantic

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Harry Judd (McFly)
2. Joel Madden
3. Jesse Metcalfe (Desperate Housewives)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
uhh.. i dunno.. i don't really read the answers anyway, so takpelah.

heyheyheyyy..
why am i so chirpy? entah. anyway as i'd predicted, i zoomed through matriculation as best as i could yest. it wasn't by choice anyway, cos i desperately needed to pee. i met lots of ppl i knew, but none of them were matriculating with me, unfortunately, so i had to occupy myself by ter-dengaring conversations btwn a group of guy prcs and a bunch of manjen girls. the most interesting person i spotted was this malay guy with shaggy hair, biggish build, and.. oh i dunno, he just resembles one of those bronzed 20-something beach mats i see all the time. didn't catch his name though, since i'm pekak and all.
hm. met up with the PsMS today, and hung out in filza and hana's hostel room. it's nicer than raffles hall, that's for sure. and it has this IKEA vibe--mainly cos they bought out the entire IKEA when they were decorating. haha. NO cute guys spotted, btw. except for the cute ITE mat on the train. anyway i went to work after that, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, and now i'm having second thoughts about quitting, since everyone seems more bearable now. but takpelah. oh bun came by just now, cos he was meeting azhar [whose last day was today, incidentally], and after hanging out for awhile, they walked past the front, and nadirah nudged me. i looked up to see them, and in mock rage, i kicked nadirah. unfortunately, they caught that act of aggression and sniggered, and i was left standing there, blushing to the tips of my toes. AAAAAAAAAARGH.
of course, to top it off, my mom went to bed before i could ask her for permission to go KL this weekend. double argh. i need time to convince her, and it's not exactly on my side right now.

guess who was on las vegas tonight?!?!?! michael buble! ahhhh.. so cute.
today's a day of guess-whos, really, cos guess who boarded the bus just as i was fretting about being late to meet baba? haha. haven't seen him in awhile, and coincidentally, i was just thinking about him last night or smthg. it was nice talking to him and yes, he's as cute as ever.
sneaked into the arts/law matric fair today, it was really packed. panas nak mampos. and i signed up for everything i'd ever want to sign up for, so i'm just gonna express my way out of there tmr. as best as i can, anyway. and then i'm gonna sign up for the cool DBS NUS card. yays. i LOOOOOOVE cards. i've handled so many of them since becoming cashier--i especially love the oddly-shaped titanium card, this pretty flower-covered card, and the UOB visa and debit minis.. but i'm totally against credit cards, cos i don't want to turn into a Becky Bloomwood, so debit cards are just right. can't wait to receive it! i think i might just go out and celebrate with a mini-shopping spree or smthg. hahaha.
and i also selected my notebook. or rather, i thrust a sheaf of notebook pamphlets at my dad and waited for him to choose one. i'm getting the Fujitsu LifeBook S7020, btw. can't wait to receive this, too! and this time i'll celebrate by spending a whole day with it at home [cos i have starhub wireless broadband or whatever it's called].
after the whole matric fair thingy, baba and i took a break at the YIH canteen, then in her hostel room, then we waited for about 2649372 years for a 95 to come and allow us to board, THEN, out of desperation, we cabbed to clementi and took a train from there. and we bumped into kaks faridah and shahisdah, how cool! [there were also a couple of cute guys who made the over-delayed meal even more yummy.] then it turned out we all had the same idea of going for ice-cream at swensen's, so we went there next, and finally, senak nak mampos, we went home. and btw, kak faridah totally shot down ALL the guys i told her about [including raihan and jack]!!! i was just SO sad.. haha.

i was, as i told hannan, in a bad mood today. aderlah sebab2 tertentu. haha. anyway, i basically spent it bumming around the house, which i found extremely objectionable, cos i had so many plans at first. plans which fell apart one by one, unfortunately. but it wasn't all bad--a long-awaited sms finally came in, and i've been considerably less moody since.
but aaargh i had another of my ex-con dreams last night, HOW unsettling!

i reached home at around midnight to a bolted door, AGAIN. this is so fucking annoying. the door to my room was open, i was obviously not in it, so what is the deal here? did they suddenly forget that i exist? tak puas hati sey.
anyway other than that, i had quite a nice day. mat-watching with shafa, and then i joined the class at lido for some more bumming around. ohyes and i dropped by work before going to meet shafa, and hung out with them for awhile. was having a good time till ching ching decided to butt in. everyone else [i.e. everyone else from TCL] just ignored me, which is what she should have been doing. cow.
i was so lazy today, i watched bride & prejudice for the gazillionth time [but this time on dvd]. so sweet. i almost cried this time. anyway this was one of the songs. very nice.
Can you, can you, can you, can you

[chorus]
Can you touch my body
Make me feel like I never felt
Deliver it, make me shiver from head to toe
Move my waistline side to side
Come and push up on me
I'm feeling hot tonight [2x]

What I gotta do to get a little closer to you (to you)
I've been watchin' you, I really wanna get to know you (know you)
I'm kinda feelin' your vibe as I look in your eyes
And you're watchin' my thighs movin' left to right
So what you wanna do (wanna do)
You come to me and I'll come to you

[chorus 2x]

If I could be alone with you
This is what I would do (I would do)
I would grab you by the hand and begin to show you (show you)
How to make it real hot, never want it to stop
Take it up to the top, make my body rock
So what you gonna do (gonna do)
You come to me and I'll come to you

[chorus 2x]

Now can ya rock it up rock it up, don't stop
Just move ya waistline from side to side
Now watch ya push it up, push it up and do ya body right
Do ya body right, do ya body right
[2x]

[chorus 2x]

Can you, can you, can you, can you

i had a just-bearable 12-5 today. haha. nadirah was helping me count down the hours. ooh and the john-eber-lookalike walked past again, i've now come to the welcome conclusion that he lives in pasir ris. yay.
after work i ate at magic wok with shasha, then i went back down and waited for nores and jess, and hung out with them till 930. haha. takder kerje betul. but it wasn't a total loss. i got to watch bun working and stuff. i guess that no matter what i tell myself or other people, i can't just stop liking him so easily.

i actually had a terrific day at work today. surprise, surprise right? haha.
it started when i was walking from the bus stop, and i thought i saw eric from a distance, but i couldn't believe my eyes, and started rubbing them vigorously to make sure i wasn't mistaken. yet i couldn't stop a smile spreading itself across my face. and it really was him! and he was night MOD, i was SO happy like you wouldn't believe! haha.
and then, of course, bun arrived for work at 6, and the day just got that much brighter. without azhar around, he doesn't seem to feel the need to prove that he doesn't like me, so things were much easier. and nadirah was working too, so the three of us had loads of fun laughing at stella and stuff.
finally, guess who boarded my bus home? the cute-but-formerly-mop-haired security guard! he's friggin cool man. all tall and fair and bad-boy-ish. loves it!
and then i reached home to find that the door was bolted. what the hell rite? it wasn't even midnight. of course, since my sister is on one of her rare home visits, they conveniently forget that they have another daughter.

ah..
had a great day. admittedly, i spent practically all of it lepaking. but who cares? i was hanging out with nores, fidah, hannan and umar. [and jess and ah-ee for awhile.] sebenarnye we were at orchard, but jess wanted to meet us at WS, so we went all the way back. anyway takpe, we hung out at TM starbucks and ate and drank and talked and smoked [well, some of us smoked]. and i took the opportunity to people-watch too, it was great. we spent so much time and money there, that when kak nores went in to ask for plain water, they gave it to us in 2 starbucks mugs [while everyone else got the flimsy plastic cups]. haha. but hannan sed we have to find somewhere less ex than starbucks next time.
argh it's back to work tmr. can't wait to quit.

i need a new job. i spent most of the time at work tadie, counting down the hours till i could finally go home. and then abg rahim called. and i happened to be answering the phone. i wanted to cry.
i'm sorely kicking myself for not bringing a camera to camp. my only excuse is, they didn't put it down in the packlist!!! haha.
well. it's an off day tmr. yay.

so i finished harry potter and the half-blood prince. and i'm ever so sad about how things have turned out. ohyes warning: spoilers ahead. anyway, i must admit that i was kinda rushing through the part leading to dumbledore's murder, cos i was on my break then, and i was eating at the same time and everything. i. am. SO. sad! seriously. now dumbledore's dead, it's like nothing else matters anymore. it's like there's nothing to live for. it's like hope just died along with him. and i can't believe he died at the hands of snape, when voldemort himself is afraid of him. i never really believed that snape was on the good side, but i didn't think he'd actually stoop to killing dumbledore, when he's given him so many chances and believed in him so deeply. and speaking of snape, i was making a few guesses as to who the half-blood prince could be, but he never crossed my mind. weird. and by the way, who's scrimgeour? i know i've come across his name in one of the earlier books, but i can't remember the context. oh, and doesn't the part where harry breaks up with ginny remind you forcibly of the last scene in spider-man? haha. all the little love sub-plots are so annoying sometimes. i kept thinking, "just tell him/her you like him/her already!" it'd save us all the trouble. and i KNEW, i just KNEW, that ron and hermione liked each other. the chemistry between them just leaps out of the pages. oh but ugh, malfoy and pansy parkinson? gross. too bad there aren't any pretty slytherin girls for him to hook up with. and haha, i'd always thought blaise zabini was a girl. bodoh. eh, doesn't slytherin only take in pure-bloods? i know riddle got in cos he's slytherin's heir, but how about snape? maybe he's somehow descended from slytherin too..
anyway, sad as i am about dumbledore's untimely passing [yet, "death is but the next great adventure"], and as tak-puas-hati as i feel about this latest turn of events, i'm still gonna get the final book, cos i just HAVE to find out how it ends. and who the HELL is R.A.B?!?!?! omg. omg. OMG! i've just figured it out! right here, right now! it HAS to be Regulus Black! he even addresses the note to "the Dark Lord", and only death eaters refer to him as that. ok i've just checked book 5 and the stupid family tree states his name as "Regulus Black" je, so i dunno where the "A" came from, so it might not be him. darn. but it COULD be! oh and just wondering, how will the next book be written, if harry's not planning to return to hogwarts? i mean, so it'll just follow him all around england and the world, looking for the horcruxes? i hope ginny joins him, btw. i find her ever-changing hookups extremely annoying, but you know--at least she went back to the original.
okay that's enough of harry potter for now. i actually went to sleep at six-freaking-A.M. smalam cos i was too drawn into the book to tido. as a result, i woke up late [1100], so i had to rush and skip breakfast [!!!!!!] just so i could get to work 15 minutes late. but hey, it wasn't a total loss, cos i bumped into MDM outside the mrt station, and he smiled at me. ahhhhh..

haha. since amy recommended my blog as the one with the boy details, i shall add some more.
there was also atikk's bf, so named cos they were wearing the same thing on day 0. haha. he kept filming in our direction, how annoying! and then he even filmed our merepek newspaper headlines. buat malu sey. after a couple of days i finally conceded that he's quite cute la. haha.
atikk's bf was accompliced [is that a word?] by omar mubarak. haha. actually, that's his only claim to fame, so takpelah.
then there was hang jebat/johnny-depp-wannabe. haha. we were so annoyed by his actionness, funn-ay.
hm and tt concludes my camp snippets for today.
wow. yesterday's CCD was cute nak mampos. the best part was that i couldn't tell what race he was. he's either manjen or malay. and he was wearing a black polo with "mohawk" embossed on the front. at first he was just hovering around the entrance, and i was hovering around the hosting area, telling shasha how cute i thought he was. a few times he made as if to go in, tapi tak masuk2. finally he and his vik friend took the escalator upstairs, so i was like, "sigh, goodbye cute guy." imagine my utter amazement when he walked in about 15 minutes later! i was at the fountain area then, and when i saw him, i slumped weakly against the sink. haha. bodoh. according to umar, my face was all red too. anyway, i got to take his order and everything, and i was so oddly self-conscious, i felt like i was gonna trip over nothing and fall flat on my face, or drop my order pad into his ice-water or smthg! ah he's so cute, and all pillarish. i love pillars. tapi dier makan budget ah, calamari, SOD and a cookie summit with extra toppings. i wanted to give him a discount [just because he's so darn cute], but stupid MOD tak kasi. ape nak buat. anyway his vik fren blanjaed him, and then they tipped 50 cents. [which of course i kept, if only to remember him by.]
jessica's party yest was really fun. i finished work at 5, so i hung out at work with diana, until shasha came with her husband at ard 730. then we took a cab there, pasal malas nak naik bas and malas nak jalan. at first we thought we got the wrong room, cos it was manjens left and right. and then finally they got the idea and called, "shuxian!!!" so i added, "shuxian, ni de pengyou lai lo!" which made everyone laugh. bodoh. anyway, we hung out, ate abit, drank abit, cut the cake and took photos and stuff.. i must say, the otak-otak was first-class! haha. practically everyone was there, the kitchen staff including wenxing came [and brought their own beer, haha]!!! and then when the night-shift people came [azhar, farhan, hannan, stella], the real fun started. we went to an unoccupied room and hung out there, talking and playing cards. i was not too bad, considering my lack of practice. haha. farhan and azhar treated me like their personal dayang, asking me to refill their cups and get them food and shit. but you know me. tak pernah cakap no punye.. well, the relatives finally tapered out, so we went back to the original room, and just hung out there, enjoying kak nores' company. shasha and i were also checking out the cute mats walking past. and there were loads. cos there was some huge gathering going on at one of the nearby rooms. bes sey. i love mat-watching. anyway, it started getting late, so everyone left, one by one, until it was just jess, ah-ee, jessica's fren whose name i didn't catch, ah-boy, nores, me, hannan, azhar and farhan. i was really okay with leaving at any time, so when farhan finally decided to leave at around 4, we slowly pulled ourselves together, and shared a cab home. haha. i think the bun situation is improving--only ah-boy suans me about him now.
anyway, last night we were formulating plans to quit together and shit, cos WS is going to the dogs. so i wasn't looking forward to work today or anything. well, i arrived at work, on time as usual. and after punching my card and putting on my shoes, i joined shasha at table 44. then ching ching came out and said, "you free tak?" i was expecting her to ask me to do smthg merapek like sweeping the alfresco area or tidying up some other place, but then she asked me if i cld go to tampines. so guess what. i spent tadi's shift at tampines central instead of white sands. on the train i was just so freaked out, i had absolutely no emotional preparation for this, and i had to go into unchartered territory alone, with no fellow colleagues?!?!?! at that point i would have welcomed even azhar, or even stella, asalkan it's someone i know, but i wasn't that lucky. well for what it was worth, i had quite an okay time ah. i finally appreciate the real meaning of "busy", and in some ways it's kinda easier working at TCL than WS. for one, when you take an order, you just have to key it in. takyah kasi setting, takyah buat air, you're basically just free. so that was great. oh and the dishwashers are much nicer, and hands-on, so there's less of that shuttling back-and-forth with trays of annoying heavy plates. and there are so many malays, like wow man. so it's easy to talk to them. and then there was fairuz. haha. i had to suffer the mortal embarrassment of slipping and falling, hard, in front of him. luckily he was the only witness. or is that unluckily? he was all worried: "eh, okay tak? are u sure u're okay? tu jatuh serious tu.." and though i brushed it off for pride's sake, he was right. i now have this stupid scratch on my right forearm, from the sharp table corner. and then after that he kept laughing at me for my stupid comments: "ni mop air buang kat mana? kat longkang eh?" and every time he saw me after that, he couldn't stop himself from laughing. haha. but u know, he's nice. yay. so that was my first day at tampines. it's all good.

i was thinking about camp, and i remembered one DEFINITE downer. we were looking for the stupid dragonboat station, and we ended up at what i assume to be the secondary SDBA headquarters. it was completely devoid of people, even though the gates were wide open. so we thought we'd look around, just in case. we'd been looking around for 5 minutes when this heeeuuuge dog just bounded out of some kayaks, barking away. omg. i almost had a heart attack right there. [i didn't.] instead i just grabbed fazli's arm as we made our "jangan-lari-nanti-dier-kejar" walk out of that cursed place.
well. that was camp snippet of the day. haha. anyway i got to work today, in good spirits, and suddenly everything was different. skarang macam dah takde mood nak work sey. and i was so looking forward to this as a sort of permanent job. everyone's leaving or gone. it's like, where is my motivation?! and i'm not talking ex-con here. i'm talking about everyone else who's meant anything to me. kak nores, mr rahim, wenxing.. it's just so sad. and poor diana was so not into it today, she made a billion mistakes, macam dier nyer first day plak. all i can say is, naseb baik jeslyn was working today. or i wouldn't have survived.
it's jessica's party tmr. i wonder what it'll be like, with all this hanging over us.

fun fact of the day: throughout the 3-day-3-night camp i just came back from, i've had approximately 11 hours of sleep. max. so this'll be short, and the panjanger parts will come soon.
so yay it was a blast! quoting from my PPG notebook entry, "it definitely was not without its downs". but other than that, it was SO much fun.
highlights include the dinner function at marina promenade, winning best team (!!!) and the after-dinner at fong seng. [more accurately, the prata shop, where we were also joined by a couple of other facis AND jack. -cairs-] and of course, this wouldn't be an ain entry if i didn't mention the boys. hahaha.
anyway disclaimer here before i jump into anything. no real names when i'm gushing, of course. so for example, the guy i'm cairing over a few lines above is not really called jack. haha. so basically what i'm trying to say is, any names that sound familiar or shit, are purely coincidental.
okaylah since i already mentioned jack i shall start with him. he's SO universally handsome! big exotic-brown eyes and strong features, and kinda quietly-nice.
and speaking of quietly-nice, there was baik guy, who's just that! like, he just exudes baik vibes within a kilometre of wherever he is. such that whenever he's around, you'll [or more accurately, baba and i] feel like you're the biggest sinner on the planet. haha. but he's also very smart and he kept on dropping by my group, like contributing to our discussions or playing games with us.
then there's my personal favourite, raihan. his real name's actually very nice, but of course i can't document it here. so anyway, first time i saw him, i was like omg. he's so cool. he's all smiley and jovial and all pillarish with thick floppy hair and he looks like a combination of khairuddin samsudin and a friend of mine. and he's so friendly, i didn't get him as my i/c or faci or anything, but he still came by and talked to my group sometimes, and last night at marina promenade, when he came by my group and asked my name, i almost fainted. haha. okay fine so he was trying to teach me how black magic works, but he asked my name!!! totally unnecessary pe.. ah cute.
oh and then there was kashbir. kashbir is like, a muslim version of samit. the first time i saw him was on the second day [tuesday afternoon], and i did a double-take cos he was the spitting image of another friend of mine. i mati� thot it was him for awhile, before i rationalized that it couldn't possibly be him. haha. so yeah, he looks like samit plus that friend of mine, so basically it's like all samit's sharp features have been sandpapered down a little. and i love the way he talks, it's so deliberate. it's like everything about him is deliberate--the way he walks, talks, even prays. and how cool of him to wear long-sleeved stuffs on a hot afternoon. AND he prays regularly. excellent. haha. i suppose the only problem was that every time i got the chance to see him, i was in an ugly, flustered and basically unglamorous state. tak fair sey.
but then again, takpelah. the girl:guy ratio is atrocious. even if i were in some sort of "glamorous" state, nak katakan, why would they look twice at me kan? there were a billion more girls to look at pe.
dahlahdahlah aku nak tido.

ah. yest was better. even though shasha was working, they put me as cashier--for fear of a relapse, i suppose. so it was all good. oh and during briefing half of us were bawling away, cos we were marking kak nores' last day. sigh. i really have nothing to say about that. i'm gonna miss her so badly, and i'm not the only one of course. at first i wasn't crying, but i dunno, in the last 5 minutes of her speech i just dissolved. teruk sey. luckily my eyeliner didn't run. and on the other side, the guys--hannan, azhar and bun--were making stupid comments and jokes. boys will be boys.
well. look at the time. i still haven't packed OR mandied. see y'all in 4 days.

so i just had the worst day of my life.
okay, no, but for a moment there i really believed the world was out to get me.
see, i was having horrible cramps today. but other than that, everything seemed great cos everyone was working--me, hannan, liyana, diana, azhar, jeslyn, and of course bun. plus i was cashier. like i said a billion times before, LOVE being cashier. so i was all set for a good day at work. then the cramps started getting worse. the magnitude of which would have had me screaming and writhing in my bed at home. and that's not all! in the process of hammering a large block of dry ice, i pounded my own thumb instead. i had no idea the extent of the damage then, since it was still encased in the glove. but when i was done packing the cake, i pulled off the glove, expecting maybe a simple bruise but NO--it was bleeding. i was so shocked. and that's still not the end of the story. the cramps got dramatically worse. i got the chills, and my face was turned pale. so i escaped to the storeroom for a quick sit-down, but i felt SO cold and shivery inside, i had to come back out. then there was a cake to pack, and i was SO not receptive/friendly/whatever. i packed the cake in slow silence, and while i was counting the candles [thankfully just one], i started seeing double. that was really the last straw. the moment i was done with that cake, i asked to leave. collapsed for a few minutes in the storeroom, before the biting cold forced me to get myself together, and i took my pain outside. rafidah, nores and fizah were still there, so i just hung with them. by then i was in a cold sweat, and futilely punching my abdomen area in an effort to ease the pain. and ugh i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror later, i was all yellow [i.e. pale]!!! it was horrible. i looked like the walking dead, in addition to feeling like one. anyway i sat with them awhile, talking my pain away, until finally i felt well enough to take the bus home. know what's the worst part? okay, the second worst part first. bun didn't even show an ounce of concern for me, even though i'd stumbled past him on my way out. he just deftly elaked. and the worst part was that my parents didn't even notice i was home from work early, didn't even ask me about it. wow. such parental concern. you know what they asked me about instead? they asked me, AGAIN, why i didn't go for the APC tests.
anyway sorry to spew all this here, but i had to unload it somewhere. it was really horrible. i've never felt such pain before. it's not like i have anything to show for it [i.e. battle scars].
anyway i got home and watched some of the pacifier and all of hide and seek, which i think sucks, but is in the vein of what lies beneath and God i hate those kinda movies! oh i also watched madagascar before work, it's really cute. david schwimmer is SO ross-ly funny.

ohyah forgot to add. we bumped into tommy starbucks outside tangs, on our way to far east. and moments before that i'd been considering dropping by starbucks to see him again, just cos i haven't seen him in a long time. he's DEFINITELY less cute than when i first saw him. he used to be all fresh and bright, but now he looks kinda drug-addictish. ohwell. i guess i was bound to grow out of that one sometime. too bad i spent so many brain cells crushing on him.

SO tired.
it was back to the beach again for me and sya today. we were pretty late, around 2pm or so, but it was quite deserted, being a school afternoon and all. we took the same bus in as shuhail, he's so cute but he doesn't sound like i expected him to. haha. anyway it was good tanning, strong sun, minimal clouds, and very very peaceful i.e. no yapping canines. i just love bumming at the beach, it's great. oh ugh there was this blonde-and-goateed malay guy at cool deck, who had the nerve to say "bye" to us while his gf was busy rummaging around in her bag. get. a. grip.
then we went to jason's for sustenance, where the guy remembered my usual order, STILL! haha. and then i went crazy, shopping around at mango, forever 21 and even popular. lotsa fun. very tiring. so it's off to bed for me. soon. haha.
i find that i'm not so excited about it anymore. why is that, i wonder? i'm not sure, but i just know that i'll be going with a masam face and really horrible expectations of what's to come. and wishing that i was at work instead. argh. maybe i should NEVER have started working.

so i watched fantastic four today with baba at causeway point. i love causeway point. it has practically everything--shops, cinema, young mats, ite mats and viks! haha. anyway, the movie was great! i love jessica alba, she's so pretty, and wow all the guys are cute. i've loved julian mcmahon since he made his appearance on charmed as cole/belthazor/the source [sorry, i'm a big charmed fan], and ALL the male members of fantastic four are SO cute! i mean, even ben grimm is cute, when he's not orange rocky road. haha. and i seriously can't decide if i like the sedately-suave reed richards, or wisecrackingly-hot johnny storm, better. haha. great GREAT movie, with the promise of a sequel. oh but you know, when i mean "great", it means that i liked it, and i like movies like honey, the stepford wives, and ella enchanted, so just be warned. but also be warned that johnny storm is hot in more ways than one!!! supernova!
i had this weird dream last night involving me transferring to tampines, along with like half the staff of WS, and hafizah stealing my shoes while i walked around barefoot. i also flirted with lucaz, baba's ex-colleague from J8. "weird" doesn't begin to describe that dream, really.
THEN i jolted myself awake, cos my arm was in this awkward dangling-off-my-bed position, pinned down by my bolster and comforter, and it was hurting me. i checked the time, it was only 4 a.m., which meant i'd been sleeping for maybe an hour!!! so i just lay there for a few minutes, stoning, and then my phone beeps! at 4-freaking-A.M.! but all is well, cos i know who that's from, and i've been expecting it, so isn't that cool? anyway my point here is that i found it amazing that i tersadar moments before i received an all-important message, and i hope it happens again. haha.
oh i just remembered this way-cool scene from the movie. so johnny is at this dirt bike competition, and the announcer coaxes him to do a way-cool, way-out trick. so he swings himself totally off the bike, loses control, and turns into his human torch form, and flies for the first time, and at the same time, the chorus of on fire booms out very cornily. but WAAAAAY cool.

...budak ite pon tak nak suke budak uni, ape nak buat?...

two things to talk about, generally.
1. the excellent customer service i provide. [provided i like you. haha.] there were these 2 caucasian guys who came in the other night. i pride myself on liking gelaper people, so it was much to my consternation that i actually found one of them cute. haha. anyway. that's not the point. the other guy [the one i DIDN'T find cute], directed that a $2.50 tip be passed to me. wow. and i was flattered and amazed, cos i didn't even take their order or anything, i just happened to serve their drinks and clear some of their dishes and refill their ice-water [they drink like fish]. so. WAY cool. and the great thing was, he came by again tadi!!! at first i didn't realise, cos he was with a different companion, but well, i kinda-sorta rem what he looks like. so i was like grinning in amusement--i mean, he had such an enjoyable time last night that he HAD to come back the next day? coolness.
2. the sad realisation that i mean less than nothing to bun. it's really. REALLY sad to watch him checking out some sweet-looking, fair-skinned, petite girl, or that butt-cleavage swank salesgirl, or basically, girls who'll never be classified under the same heading as me. i was thinking the other night, jealousy must be the most painful emotion. oh this is so annoying, and people keep insisting on suaning me about him, with him within earshot!!! fucking embarrassing. it was about the same with ex-con, actually, but AT LEAST ex-con didn't feel the need to avoid me like the fucking plague. like just now, bun was like, "ma'am, saya balik dulu eh.. bapak saya nak ambik ah.." rafidah asked him, "betul bapak kau amik?" and he laughed. whatever. takyah bohong ah. tak suka means tak suka, and i got it, man. and THEN, filza came by, so i went off early with her, and where was bun, who'd wanted to "balik dulu"? still sitting there, waiting for the rest. HOW is this fair, how?
oh one more thing. 5 july 2005, 0150hrs, SotB. just so i don't forget what all this shit has driven me to do.

oh forgot to mention. i dropped by hmv and got one of the things on my July budget: the PLP CD. i loved Blow so much, i just had to get it. [plus it's undownloadable, so i didn't really have a choice. haha.]
and i calculated my budget for this month, it's less than 400 bucks! so i can prolly have that shopping spree after all! yay.

the past 24 hours were so great for me, that i don't know how to fully express my gratitude to God and the cogs of fate.
firstly, after work yest we [wan ing, crystal, rafidah, diana, eric, nores and I!] arranged to go off for supper at the 24hrs coffeeshop/foodcourt/whatever-you-call-them-these-days. it was so cool. we closed in record time, and tapaued the ice-cream we made diana scoop for us. and ate it, while running, on the way to the int. and it was just so cool, we sat there, talking and laughing and exchanging accounts of our work-related nightmares, family issues and shit. and on the side, i opened my eyes to a phenomenon-of-sorts, which i've been pretty much blind to for the past 18 years. i know so-called muslims drink and all, but i never realised that they do it in bright lighting as well. there were tables and tables of all these malay guys with bloodshot eyes, with mugs and buckets of ice and bottles of tiger beer, carlsberg, or stout or whatever shit it is that they drink. and the saddest part? some of them are cute!!!!!!! -wails- haha. that's just like me, right? to wail about cute drinking guys.
so today was my off day, and i got to go out! yay! haha. went out with amir, we watched In My Father's Den, which is an unassuming movie, but very disturbing and great storyline which did NOT lose my attention for a second, not like those artsy movies they like to make these days. but banyak partial nudity sial. was it M18? i didn't really know. haha. and we watched it in the cool preview theatre at cine. nice.
anyway that was not the greatest part. the great part was.. okay i'll start from the beginning. i met amir at the top floor of the heeren, and we made our way down, level by level. and at the second floor, we were about to turun, when i saw this familiar figure who'd just reached the second floor from the opp escalator. and i was like, hey it's azhar. so i wanted to say hi ah. i thought he was alone at first, then i saw that there was another guy with him, so i gave the other guy another glance and yes, it WAS bun. haha. they didn't see me at first, just continued walking into Flash 'N' Splash, so i said, "yo!" and azhar turned and he was all shocked and said, "kau tak kerje?" it took a few more seconds before bun turned around and realised i was there. sigh. we didn't talk much, but.. it was nice seeing him, after a week, when i least expected to.
i met fana too, at far east. that was nice. i hadn't seen her since months ago, when we met for lunch at pizza hut, kamie's ex-workplace. haha. oh amir and i had lunch at jason's, and the guy [not jason] recognised me, and as i opened my mouth to order, he interjected, "nasi goreng kampung, tanak sayur?" isn't that cool? i'm an official regular now!!!
and when i finally reached pasir ris, i dropped by work, just to see bun again. i was talking to diana cos she was cashier. and azhar was doing fountain, and i THINK he gestured to bun to come to the fountain area, cos his face appeared and when he saw me, he was like, "alah kau lagi.." and i SWEAR he knows, cos azhar said something cryptic about seeing me again, and shouldn't bun do something about it? and if he didn't know, NOW he does, cos next, rafidah came in and said loudly, "kau datang carik [bun] eh?" and azhar was still standing there, plain as day. oh the range of colours my face flashed, it was better than a diorama any day. and THEN, to complicate matters further, fadhila turned up. [all the guys like her.] i would have laughed hysterically if i'd had the energy to. instead i rounded off the day by eating our takeaway ice-cream while walking home with her.

i had a pretty restful off day tadie. in fact, i haven't had a restful off day in a long time. haha. but actually, i'd rather go out. home is so boring that i have nothing else to do but sleep, and there's a limit to how much sleeping you can do in 24 hours, which explains why i drifted awake round bout 1115 just now. and i can't muster enough energy to start playing the urbz again.
i was so scared abt the stupid checkup, which was this morning. and i almost got off at the wrong stop. but i had the common sense to verify with the driver, so thank God for that. and i spent the entire checkup with this girl i met in the bus, so it wasn't that bad at all. and when i got home, more sleeping for me. haha.

i got in to work today at 1150, or thereabouts, and took my time getting ready in the storeroom. then Jessica popped in and said, "eh, you see who's here already!" for some mad reason i thought it was the new sup, and, out of curiosity, i just went out to take a peek. and at the same moment, the dashing man at table 31 looked up. guess who?!?!?! MDM! i wanted to faint. but instead, i just gasped and escaped back to the storeroom. haha. he stayed for around 15 minutes or so, doing the paperwork. it was SO great. he is SO great. sigh. and i was doing cashier, so while i was counting the money he was leaving, and he actually said bye! like, really cheerily! ah he's just amazing.
and now i'm poring over this teeny map of my soon-to-be school, trying to figure out how to get to the UHWC tomorrow.
i have THREE 12-11s this week. tadi, lusa and sunday. but it's all good, cos Bun's 12-11 on sunday too. yay.

well. i got my cert and my yearbook and some CD, at the price of 2 blisters, approximately 5ml of perspiration, a parched throat, 4 missed calls and $1.26 on my EZLink card. it's not like i look so great in the yearbook anyway. well. it's been done. one less thing to worry about.
the next thing to worry about will be the medical checkup this thursday. i'm gonna drink like, gallons of my 50% lemonade before i leave the hse, to ensure that i'll be able to pee. haha. but i mean, seriously. are they afraid we have diabetes, or that we take drugs or smthg?!?!
i was cashier today, it was so slack. i love being cashier. it's my favourite job, really, and i'm getting better at it. okay, fine, it was a slow day too. but it's still fun when it's busy. it's LESS fun, but STILL fun. anyway today during slack periods, i just stood there folding the latest fun sheets and doing origami with Azhar. haha.

so Baba and i had our last go at the unlimited scoops promo at MSQ. and the best part was my dark predictions that HE wouldn't be around didn't come true!!! ahh he's just so amazing. like, the dream man. my dream man. MDM. like, he smiles 80% of the time, and he's always so friendly and cheerful, it's very welcoming! sighhh.. why can't he be my RM? i'd request to work 12-11, 7 days a week man!
work wasn't too bad, despite the fact that i was about 10 minutes late. i was doing alfresco, and things were especially slow, since school started again today and all. so i had an easy time of it. oh and speaking of school, i have to trudge all the way down to bishan tmr afternoon to get my stupid cert. cheapos. why can't they just mail it?

hey.
i just want to stop at that, but fine, i'll go on. haha.
i watched Batman Begins the other night, it was great. but Christian Bale is kind of a now-he's-cute-now-he's-not guy. so that was pissing me off a little. but it's really eye-opening, cos i mean, the origins of Batman are not as widely known as, say, Superman's or Spider-Man's or even the PPGs. and.. now that i think about it, Batman has a special meaning for me cos it was Allif's alternate identity in primary school. haha. PLUS i have a huge crush on his [Batman's] successor, otherwise known as Batman of the Future.
and yest i hit the beach with Sya. it was great and all, with GGMs scattered here and there, but the presence of 3 yapping, UNLEASHED dogs really put a dampener on things. espesh when one of them bounded yappingly onto the mat, not 5 inches away from me. i screamed and banged into the pillar of the hut. in an alternate universe, i'd have kicked it to the next beach. but. reality bites. haha.
today was my long-awaited shift with Bun. but you know what? it wasn't all that great. for starters, when he arrived, he completely ignored me and settled himself at the next table, even though the other seat at my table was unoccupied. then he went in to punch his card, and when he came out, he resumed his antisocial seat. in fact, we didn't talk to each other for the first half-hour of work. isn't that sad? sigh. apaperlah. what's not meant to be, just WON'T happen no matter how hard you wish it to. and so another week will pass till this happens again.

hm. work. was. tiring. i was really very grumpy during closing. but it all worked out. and tmr's my off day, yay! ...but it's so packed with things to do that i don't think it'll serve the actual purpose of an off day. i mean, the next day i'm right back at work. but BUN will be working, yay! and i think i'll drop by work tmr and just have a look at him. haha. excuse my kegilaan, but i haven't seen him for a full week!
penat sey. i shd really be sleeping now.
and i don't WANT to go to uni. i'm really comfortable with my work-6-days-a-week, bum-at-the-beach-once-a-week life. can i just do this forever?

so. the CCD was this malay guy in a big white shirt and wearing a helmet. at first he wasn't even a C(ustomer), he was just C(ute). he dashed past the storefront and up the escalator (in the helmet), and even then i could tell he was cute, so i pointed him out to ShaSha. and then, 5 minutes later, he walks in! [by this time he's taken off the helmet, and is now carrying it.] so ShaSha calls out, "AIN!" and i dash to the cake area to help him select a cake. shortly after, a girl walks in and joins him, but don't worry people, it's his sister. he said so. anyway the [blackforest] cake was for his mom's 54th birthday. i should know, i packed it with tender loving care. Mr. Rahim offered to write "Selamat Harijadi Mak" on a white chocolate slab, but they were in a hurry. anyway. he's cute! -dies-
Filza dropped by with her mother and sister(s?), but other than that, it was an uneventful day.
ohyeah, and this afternoon i was almost "late" for work cos i was sorting through school stuff. or ex-school stuff, anyway. i can safely say tt some of the stuff was at least half a decade old! haha. i.e., sec one. and there was all kinds of junk: PBL shits, this old Kukup newsletter, hidden-away photographs and letters, and posters and page-cutouts of people like Prince William, Hayden Christensen and--get this--Scott Moffat! haha. anyway it all brought back memories, and i can't believe i almost let them all get thrown out. of course, i'm not saying there wasn't any stupid stuff that i'd rather curse into oblivion, but most of it was sweet old memories. DUSTY, sweet old memories. like my RGS planner which has since disintegrated into a cracked, crumbly mess of "leather". anyway i'm still not through with it all, so i guess i'll have to get back to it later this week. good luck to me.

ooh yest one of the cute regulars, a talldarkhandsome serani guy, came by. he's just so amazingly and undeniably handsome! and it turns out the bespectacled guy he always comes with is his colleague, not his brother, and the little girl is the daughter of the colleague. they're really close, TDH and the little girl. how cool yeah? okay, she's not that little, she's around 11-13, i suppose. haha.
it's a full moon tonight. very nice, but kinda blurry. i wonder why some calendars mark down full and new moons. i mean, who really wants to take note, right? [besides me, anyway.]
it was quite an easy day today, actually. Mr. Rahim was morning MOD, so it was all quite slack, and me, ShaSha and Liyana hung out in the fountain area stealing food. wahahaha. and i did night cashier with the AM cash, and everything tallied and stuff, it was great. haha. and the auntie saved me some rice and curry without me even asking. basically, everything went really well for me. and tomorrow i'm working at night, which means i can wake up late again! only 2 days till my off day. [and next week is another hell of a week, with two 12-11s, and only one day with Bun. again.]
oh. yes. i was just hit by a silly, yet logical "why-not?" thought last night: why can't cherry stems be edible? then i wouldn't have to pick them up off tables, or sweep them off floors. well. just a thought.

my legs are crying now. it was another shitty 12-11. but hey, at least i didn't have to do closing inside, which i'm eternally thankful for. and ALSO, i didn't have to do night cashier, cos the micros system decided to conk out at around, oh i dunno, 10pm?!?! so when i left at around 1130, poor Rafidah was still there trying to do closing.
of all nights for the computer to crash, it had to be the night where new girl was doing closing, alone. but at least it was a monday. and we had to make everyone pay in cash, leceh giler sial. one of my alfresco customers had to go withdraw cash and everything, i felt really bad and stupid.
it's only been 2 days without Bun around and already i feel something missing. but at least when he's not around, i don't get suaned. THAT's something.
Wenxing is leaving us this thurs to become the head chef at tampines. sedih sey. he's so nice, and he's so cute and funny, why can't he stay and the other chef go? sigh.

firstly, my mom's back!!! i'm SO happy. i was at the gate just now, thinking, only 2 more days till she comes back... and i opened the door and she was just sitting there. yay. no more mi mangkuk for me! or hangus garlic bread.
so. all the clothes that i kirimed my sister to buy are here. i have 2 new skirts, a brown corduroy one and this shitty khaki one which apparently cost $2. but don't tell my mom i think it's shitty. haha. okay, to me, long=shitty, and knee-length-and-below=long, so. yeah. and i have a dusty pink hoodie, a matching dusty pink tshirt, plus 2 new boxers. one is this cute red M&Ms one. loves it!
i'm more tired than usual, cos i did the 12-11 today, with more coming up tmr. i did cashier in the afternoon, and there was this beyond-cute guy picking up a cake. i remember seeing him reserve the cake on friday. and there he was, back. sigh. and i even have his telephone number. haha. but don't worry, i won't harass him or anything. it's just for.. memory's sake. haha.
there were so many cute boys today. like that little malay boy at table 1 who turned 7 today. he's all round and fair and chubby, and just very pinchably cute! i wanted to like, steal him and hide him away in the storeroom or smthg.
oh and Andee came by with his entire family! haha. cool.
sigh. i don't like working with the new girl cos she's too slow, and her biological systems do not agree with my nasal passages. also, she's weird and calls everyone "abang" or "kakak", even though she was born in 1986 too. which makes her logically older than me, since not many people my age are born after dec 20. and you know, that means it's "Abang Azhar", and "Abang Farhan", which really makes me squirm. but i think she's starting to see sense, cos just now she was trying to call Hannan and was at a loss for words/names. so. yeah.

i need to sleep. i just KNOW i won't be able to wake up tmr.
i did closing today after prolonged--and failed--negotiations with the other THREE people working inside. and then i started to cry. for no apparent reason. so i concluded, closing and me don't go together. cos the last time i did closing, i literally felt like crying also. merepek.
Fadhila came by to eat again, since this is her last day off before school starts. and i was talking to her at the cashier area before she walked in, then i turned around and saw Bun standing there, staring after her. she sat outside as usual, and i dunno if it was on purpose, but he took her order. then he asked me, "dier kerja mana ah? --asal biler aku gi dier takde? --nama dier ape ah? dier tinggal maner? --dier single tak?..aku dah lama single ah.." i swear, i wanted to cry. and i tried to be all casual and candid about it, but i have no idea if he could tell i was just burning inside. i mean, don't get me wrong, i loved having her there, and i went out a couple of times to chat to them [nasib baik tak kene marah for skiving]. but like i sadly told Diana later, "aku dier tak suka, kawan aku dier suka.." and she replied sagely, "tulah, like i said before, yang dekat dier tak nak, nak yang jauh.." well. apaperlah. Liyana asked, "so do you like him?" and i said, "can we just pretend i don't? it's easier that way." anyway today was the last day i get to work with him, he's off tmr, and he starts school this monday so basically, i won't see him till next sunday. let's see how i get through the week without him. maybe it'll help things in the long run. like, absence makes the heart grow cold.
the chinese pizza guy was working all day today. his name is.. well let's just say that it makes me want to change my name to Barbie. hahahaha.

i just kinda shopped till i dropped. and i broke rule #4 in my budget page: no unplanned spending. this is horrible. i mean, okay, i got my freshbox t-shirt [planned spending], and Hannan's birthday present, and that was all just fine and dandy, but then i went and got a The Nightmare Before Christmas bag, and a fake butterfly tattoo [i aspire to be the "butterfly tattoo right above your navel/belly button's pierced too" girl in Slow Down], AND a free-sample-not-for-sale vial of some Escada perfume. i almost got Britney's Curious too. [it smells pear-ish, fyi.] sheesh. and then i almost bought a dangly navel stud for $25. but thankfully, almost doesn't count.
anyway we essentially walked all the way from bugis to OG and back. in my flat white sandals. so i'm really tired now. oh and i encountered a blast from the past, in the form of good ol' Madaminah. hahahaha.
i worked 12-5 today, and the CCD was this tall guy with dark hair and rosy skin, prolly anglo-chinese. he's also aussie, i think. he had fish and chips [which i happened to have after work, haha], and played with his sister's baby. oh he's so amazingly handsome, i really hope he comes back! and he also settled the bill with his card, so i managed to find out his name. heh. let's just say that his initials are JLT. haha.

i hate it when plans are cancelled on me. and i hate that every freaking time i look forward to something, it ends up cancelling out on me.
anyway. work was okay. we finished quite early, it was great. i love finishing early. oh and i got new hazel-coloured contacts at WS before work tadie.
argh i'm sorry but the new girl is really annoying me!

i had quite a good day at work. i prefer it when Bun doesn't have Azhar around. he's much nicer then. haha. hm and i got to eat actual chicken baked rice today, cos it was a wrong order. loves it! well. apaperlah. that's all the news for today.
oohyah i watched the last bit of When Harry Met Sally, for the hundredth time, and i actually cried at the new year's party scene. unlike Ili, i adore Meg Ryan movies.

Harry Burns: I've been doing a lot of thinking, and the thing is, I love you.
Sally Albright: What?
Harry Burns: I love you.
Sally Albright: How do you expect me to respond to this?
Harry Burns: How about, you love me too.
Sally Albright: How about, I'm leaving.
Harry Burns: I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Sally Albright: You see? That is just like you, Harry. You say things like that, and you make it impossible for me to hate you.

sigh.

i forgot to add yest that sunday's CCD was this cute malay guy, with dyed light brown hair, and big eyes, and dark brows. he's apparently around the same age as me, and my favourite part was when he came in pushing his 2-year-old sister in her stroller. [my second favourite part was when he settled the $97++ bill personally, using his NETS.] he had sirloin steak AND rodeo wings AND a sarsaparilla. oh he's so incredibly cute, the tommy kind of cute, and that kind of cute is--well--timeless. haha. well anyway i shirked my cashier duties to serve Mr. Timelessly Cute, whose name, btw, is Din. haha. cos his dad went, "nak apa, Din?" and turned to him. aaaaahh.

so today was Hana's beach party. sorry to sound less than thrilled, but i'm just very VERY tired. my eyes are lelaping of their own accord, and i'm almost powerless to stop it. so i'll try to make this fast, then maybe i can catch the 2 a.m. Friends. haha.
omigawd i'm just really malas to type! okay, we tanned, i slept in the shade to Milah's cool CDs [all R&B, rap, hip-hop.. loves it!], and we rendam2ed in the disgusting water. i sat at the water's edge watching Hana, Milah and Sya swim over to this teeny isle/island/block of sand with accompanying trees, and was invited by the malay guys a couple of metres away to join in their water games. haha. they were part of a motley crew of chinese people ranging from the ages of 19-44, so we were trying REALLY hard to figure out how they were all connected. and we finally came to the satisfying [and accurate!] conclusion that they were McDonald's crew. haha. mystery solved!
hm what else did we do? yes Sya and i walked to New Zealand Natural, where i finally got to see the skimming mats in action, after like, 4 years. and where there was a cute malay guy at the next table. smoking. [but of course.] haha. anyway, let's just say i've found my spot. so, can't wait for the saturday after next.
urgh. and we passed by one of those seaside pubs, where this group of 34-year-olds quipped, "thirsty?!?!" please. if you're 34, do NOT try to talk to girls not even of modern marriageable age.
after that we had dinner at someplace in boat quay. i won't elaborate, cos it was just such a painful experience for us all. haha. then we hung out at the esplanade [the sort of mini-amphi where they have public gigs], then we finally made our painful way home.
i was talking rather loudly to Filza on the train home, about uni stuff, work stuff, miscellaneous stuff ah. then as we were reaching pasir ris, the malay guy next to me turned to us and said, "excuse me, i couldn't help but eavesdrop on your conversation.." and i SWEAR, my blood froze in my veins just about then, cos i thought he wanted to scold me for talking too loudly. [while Filza thought he was gonna scold us for laughing at his fat friend who'd been sitting opposite us a few stops ago.] anyway, he proceeded to explain that he'd just graduated from NUS, ..., and basically he just wanted to encourage us to attend the FOC. haha. well, i was just still in shock, so all i can say is, i'm just glad he didn't scold us. he was a big guy, and all, so it was very scary when he said his opening words.
anyway. i'm finally home after the long day, so nite.

i just watched Saturday Night Live for the first time, and it's SO cool! no one told me how great it is! so i'm gonna watch it every week from now. yay. another form of Saturday night entertainment for me.
so my mom left for perth this morning. and i'm gonna be surviving on takeout for the next ten days. haha. i brought up a few topics with her just now. ALL of which she gave resounding "no"s to. i want to take a motorcycle license. NO, it's dangerous. i want to go to London. NO, it's expensive. i want to get a hostel room. NO, it's expensive AND potentially dangerous, and my sister didn't get one till her last semester. sheesh.
there's a cute new pizza guy. yes i know i say that like, every month or something. but this one's different. he's chinese, for one. i never thought i'd ever see a chinese pizza delivery guy. and he's just cute ah, with a friendly face, and cool too. not like some of the toot ones, with their shirts tucked in and everything. tak main sey. haha.
well. 12-11 tmr. but other than that, this coming week is really one to look forward to. yay.

CCDs today were a couple of cute CD guys. in case anyone doesn't know by now, i. LURVE. budak CD. i dunno, they just look really good in uniform, and especially in the red rhino or whatever that vehicle is called. loves it! haha. so anyway. yes. two malay CD guys. one was wearing full uniform, i was totally melting as i took their order. and the other was wearing half-uni, and TOTALLY reminded me of righthandside. they ordered a combo each, and changed the ice-cream flavour to SCC. haha. i was like, "Kak, budak CD tu cute sey.." and she was like, "sorry sikit eh, they're mine!" and i replied, "come on lah, ader duer pe! you take one, i take one!" haha. i "took" the one in full uniform, and she took the righthandside one. i thought they were gonna stay a while, but i think they got a msg to get back to the fire post or smthg, cos they started wolfing down their food and asked for the ice-cream to be packed. while Kak Nores, Diana and i scrambled to settle their bill and get their ice-cream. haha. funn-ay. i even used my bare hands to scoop up the dry ice. and i only do that for the most important people. haha. cute ah. Kak Nores was like, "damn i should have asked for his number!" haha. let's hope they come back.
Bun was working, which i'm beginning to treasure more and more everyday cos he starts school on the 20th. [God i just realised that's the same as Ex-Con going back into the service! the cruel irony.] anyway, after work he mentioned that he doesn't have a girlfriend, and Diana sed, "tulah, kau ngan Azhar same aje--yang dekat tak nak, nak carik yang jauh2.." and Mortified Me started walking like a kilometre ahead. and Bun replied, "aper? dekat? siape yg dekat?" oh God. nampak sah eksyen bodoh sey. and both Kak Nores and Diana hinted even MORE heavily, it was just buat malu siak. well. he has one day to forget about it. [he's off tmr.] so let's hope he does. haha.
my mom's leaving for Perth tmr, and i have NO idea how i'm gonna deal with it for the next 10 days. any moms-for-hire available? willing to pay, ermm, 50 bucks flat fee. haha.

when i got to work [early] today, Kak Nores stared at me, and after a few minutes, remarked that i looked pretty. i received the compliment with little enthusiasm. i mean, it wasn't as if anyone was around [besides Azhar, he SO does not count!] to appreciate how i looked right? cos Bun was supposed to be working, but he was on MC. sedih siak.
CCD was this guy at table 41 with his guy friends/colleagues/fellow NSmen [?]. we all thought he was manjen, skali he started talking on the phone in malay, and Kak Nores and i stared at each other in shock. haha.
i hate that i don't want to ever leave the house anymore. and i hate that i dread coming home too. and i hate that my eyes dart nervously left and right, and that i now view motorcylists with apprehension.

i just had THE most harrowing experience. so i'd just like to thank Shafa and my parents for being so accomodating.
and totally unconnected to abovementioned experience was this nightmare i just had last night. i was doing opening [at work], and i was setting up the tables in the alfresco area, testing them carefully to make sure they were stable. while doing this, i noticed that Azhar and Bun were standing there, making fun of me. Azhar was making some wisecrack about what i was doing, and Bun was laughing in response. and naturally, i was hurt. but i pretended to be all light and breezy about it. then we had briefing at table 44, and somehow my mom was there. after the briefing, i broke down and told my mom what happened with Azhar and Bun. and she got really angry and told me, right off, to quit my job. and i was begging her not to make me do that, like, "i don't WANT to quit! don't make me quit!" and crying and crying. i was crying so hard, and so passionately, that i woke up to find that i was actually crying. oh God. how. horrible.
went for lunch at T2 with Baba. i ate SO much. i had the crayfish pasta with spicy oriental sauce, shared a fries, the EL dessert, and half a coit tower. giler eh? but Fadhila was working, so i got my 10% discount, cos she told her AM i'm from WS. cool. and what was cooler, was that they didn't charge us for the fries. i'm not sure why. and Fadh doesn't know either. ohwell. takper. they were over-fried anyway.
CCD was.. haha, let's just say he's too old and too happily married for me. but he has SUCH a great smile, and he's just so incredibly handsome! when i saw him, i gasped and went right to the cashier counter for a better look. he bought sea soup again. and he'd just finished work, judging by his crisp white shirt. AND he remembers me! haha. he smiled right at me and said something or other about buying takeaway.
Ex-Con is back on mainland, at least until the 20th. he gets his posting on the 17th. wow i still miss him, can you believe it? sometimes i look at the fountain and i can still see him standing there with the mask under his chin. and i still remember what he used to smell like, and when some tak-guna customer wearing his perfume walks in, i feel like kicking him out. how long has it been? belum dua bulan eh. but it feels like so much longer. maybe cause a lot has happened since, yet i still haven't forgotten him.

[luper nak ckp, yest Baba's ex came with what looked like his entire family. haha. i love the fact that they're not the tudunged family all my other friends seem to have. makes my family seem more normal, blonde hair, short skirts and all.]
anyway. i was in the train home just now, falling asleep. and when i sadar-ed, i noticed this SAS boy standing infront of me. he was tall, wearing glasses, and looked vaguely familiar. i would have left it at that, but he kept staring and STARING at me, in an almost angry way. then. realisation hit. he's one of my train buddies from last year. of course, by "train buddies", i mean the people i used to see in the morning, when i took the train to Buona Vista. not that i said hi to them, or smiled at them, or anything. well anyway, i'm glad he remembers me and all, but is it necessary to stare in such a hostile manner? i wanted to smile at him, but well, i was scared he would bite so i just stared stonily back. haha. he grew so much taller in less than a year, and he's even grown into his angular looks! haha. maybe i'll bump into him again. and maybe this time i'll just smile. i have at least 2 more years of chances [he's in sec 2 this year]..
went to Sentosa with Sya and Shafa just now, just to tan and bum around. i wasn't having too great a time of it, due to circumstances beyond my control, but it was okay. and there were NO cute guys! and they were all manjens, not a single lumpur in sight! i even walked up and down the beach, alone, to look for them, but they were just nowhere to be found. i was REALLY disappointed. well. maybe it'll be better next time.

okay i had a REALLY bad day overall. i swear. so i'll just try to forget that instead of writing about it.
CCDs today ROCKED! haha. there were 5 malay guys who came in and had ice-cream. and by a stroke of luck, i happened to be doing hosting at that exact moment, so i gave them menus and all that, and i did everything else, like serving their ice-cream, and getting the bill. and they were in a silly mood [or maybe they're always silly], like when Crystal said, "welcome to Swensen's!" one of them replied, "welcome.." haha. cute. and then when one of them ordered a topless 5, he said, "topless 5.." and mimed taking off his shirt. and "sticky chewy chocolate--but not too sticky.." i was trying SO hard to supress my laughter. and practically all of them were cute! the cutest was wearing blue, and he had straight, gelled hair, and cool pierced ear(s) with earrings on. but he had to leave early, unfortunately. and the second cutest was fair and big-eyed, and with a cool goatee. [he was the one who had the topless 5.] ah cute sey, they totally brightened up my otherwise-horrible day.. haha.

the day started out so horribly, i was prepared for a huge malapetaka at work. thankfully, none hit. haha.
lotsa CCDs, all at table 7. there were these 2 cute little boys. i think they're malay, but very exotic-looking. ranging from 2-4 years of age. the younger one is SO cute, he's like a mini rugger, and if his parents had left him alone for one second, i'd have stolen him and brought him home with me. SO cute. and he kept putting on this Hi-5 cap that was too big for him. aaah cutenyer! the other CCD was this indonesian guy, i think, with his girlfriend and another couple. he's short, but seriously handsome. haha. as Diana said, "takleh angkz!" haha.
Fadilah came to eat with her friend, so i had fun talking to them. and i think i'm gonna return the favour and eat at T2 next week. i'll try the claypot specials this time! yay.
i dunno why they keep teasing me about Hannan. it's SO annoying. just cos we like to talk to each other, and we always eat together [cos we're the only ones who eat leftovers, haha], and he helps me light the tealights when i'm doing alfresco. bodoh siak. i firmly believe, now, that i DO have a "suan-me-please!" face.

hm. i watched Dwidarma at RJ today. it was really good, i thought. i really liked the second one, it was SO funny. Shamiah makes such a great bimbo! haha. oh they were all funny and it was all good..
and i received comments about my hair. Hafiz claimed it looks like Matin's unruly brown-blonde wig. but Nadia and Yus love it. so. haha i dunno. actually i'm beginning to like it alot myself. it's different [from my old hair], that's for sure. and at least i don't look like i have tiger stripes on my head anymore. haha. but it's so sad, my hair's all dry now, when it used to be lushly un-dry underneath my fingers. i really hope it recovers soon. yuck it feels like straw now, instead of hair. man i really didn't mean to do this to it.
well. it's back to work tmr. hope Bun's working.

ah. kenyang. my resolve to start dieting has, well, dissolved after seeing all the cool new promo items they have. giler bodoh. tonight i had the spicy chunks of boneless chicken, raisin rice, chilli fries, 2 scoops of raspberry crumble ice-cream, and a coupla prawn dippers.
speaking of which, my new favourite ice-cream flavour is Raspberry Crumble! it also happens to be the Flavour-of-the-Month. it's vanilla, i think, with a hint of raspberry, and there are generous bits of actual crumble [you know, the yummy breadcrumbs in like, apple crumble] inside. it's crazy delicious [and prolly twice as fattening as any other ice-cream flavour]! but really! gotta have it man!
CCD was this man who bought takeaway. i swear, he's like the handsomest guy in the world. he's tall, and not-too-skinny, not-too-broad, and just very good-looking with relatively big eyes, and a great nose and a just a hint of a tan. unfortunately, he's also married. haha. but wow. a cute chinese guy. how often do you get those?
i had quite a horrible 24 hours before i started work today. [long story. but suffice to say that i've learnt my lesson, and i am SO not ever gonna mess with the chemical makeup of my hair again. i am also never gonna visit any salon/stylist other than Peter at Storm Hair.] so i wasn't in the best of moods. dahlah tu, i was virtually the only malay, and they kept talking in mandarin and other dialects. how. annoying.
it's my off day tmr. was planning to spend the earlier part of it bumming around at home, but i received a much better offer from Shafa, so i think i might just take her up on it.

heyhey. i worked the incredibly inhuman 12-11 shift today. but Rafidah had it worse--she worked 9-11 out of pity for me. anyway. it was SO tiring, cos both lunch and dinner were busy. usually lunch is pretty slow. but nooooooo. it was crazy, and by 730 i was taking 2-second squatting breaks in shadowy corners.
but it wasn't ALL bad. we had the briefing for the june-july promo, complete with all 7 dishes. and after that we got to eat said dishes. so aku aper lagie, berhari rayelah. plus it was my break right after that, so i carried out everything that they couldn't finish, and devoured it all. okay, no not really. Umar and the latest addition [yet another Farhan], ate quite alot too. haha. i dunno if it's just me, but the new Farhan is kinda cute too. but 17, unfortunately. anyway he seems quite nice, although yet another smoker, and he also eats like a trash compactor. and we have a new girl, who's starting full-time this weekend.
and in the evening there were 3 CD guys who walked past, so i was like pointing them out excitedly to Shasha, and they saw, and apparently one of them waved. haha. buat malu je. but whatever. like i'm ever gonna see them again. ooh and there was a cute talldarkhandsome policeman who walked past with 3 other colleagues. ah, guys in uniform.
oh ugh, hate to end this off on a shitty note, but we have an official Swensen's CD to be played, and it has a pretty good mix of recent hits and dulu-dulu stuff, but that's not the point. the point is that they have a Swensen's jingle [not unlike the Mac's one], which they managed to selit after every few songs. how. totally. mortifying.