been getting lotsa weird stares for my hair. ohwell. hazards of the job, i guess. kan't be avoided. i am SOOOO sleepy! and i have the driest eyes on the planet!
anyway haha hockey match got cancelled cos it was raining all day and the pitch was "waterlogged", iylia sed. haiz. but rugby was still on, altho it started like a billion hours late. we won!!! it was fun! except for the rabid rugby mom behind me. eeps. but hey, i wanna be a rugby mom too. a lovable one, of cos. haha. [okay like kamie says, "i'm dreaming, people, don't stop me."] i thot nasi was hot!!! as in, his playing. i mean, looks-wise is a given lar. and lauk's not too bad yah? all those cool kicks/trials/whatchamacallits. hez amazing. and i would never let a rugby entry go without mentioning burger. he was, of cos, being burgerly good. as only he can be. baba and i made up a burger cheer:
Me: "Go [Burger]!"
Baba: "All right [Burger]!"
Me: "Go [Burger]!"
Baba: "All right [Burger]!"
and you get the drift. it was fun. or did i say tt already? izzat came! wad a sight, him limping all across the D in his tj uniform. haha. and OM was there, woohoo! and baba was drooling over her jimmy shergill/decaf. haha. oh baba, i'm so sorry to hear about him. i kan't believe he was the third guy who destroyed my dreams, and probably yours too. is it really tt easy to stop liking someone?
on a lighter note, MOLESTER ALERT! i was innocently watching the game, den my eyes strayed to BFG who was walking towards the standing rj supporters. i watched absentmindedly as he made a beeline for impostor, sidled up to impostor's southwest, and placed his left hand on impostor's left butt cheek [fingers downward] and squeezed it!!! TWICE!!! it diden stop there! he removed his hand and moved even closer to impostor and put his arm ard his shoulders! why, why, why did i have to witness such antics? i was juz beginning to have extremely favourable opinions on BFG! and he decides to go crooked! infront of me, no less! barely 2 days after the smooching lesbians! sorry, but it was juz too much. it was a slow, calculated move, which, btw, invited no other response from impostor other than a normal-speed turning of the head to look at his gay partner. okayokay. maybe i'm being a prude. sorry if i am. but this is not smthg i'm used to, neither is it smthg i wanna get used to. well. think abt it.
acherli i'm juz killing time before 1130, cos i missed the 8pm telecast of charmed. OHYAH. we took the bus to harbourfront with like, suaner and perut and 2 j1 guys! so i made their status known to baba, and we started up the whole, "eh ain, last time when we were in bishan we kept getting suaned rite?"/"yah baba, thatz why you only got 10 points and couldn't go to rj rite?" plus we were squeezed in right next to suaner and perut. ahahaha. they were silent, btw. and when we reached harbourfront, they appeared to scuttle off quite quickly. so we relek2ed.. BUT. they were still there when we went down, and as i passed i THINK they sed nasi's name! eeps. oh and most of us happened to get off at serangoon. yes, including thin fren. so i coughed out a name. haha. and they turned around. haha. padan muker. try to get me, willya? i'll get yu back! plus we even went to the same bus stop. sheesh. naseb baik dorang tak naik 53. it woulda been too much.
ok yea so tt shd be it. excitement hid, but followed me home. wow.

Ohyea forgot to add, tmrz d official full moon of may! So make sure yu catch it w sumone special!

i'm in "love" with OM again!!! haha. ttz wat kamilah sez.. "love", i mean. acherli it was juz a teeny thing tt happened in the library juz now. he was there, and ili the subtle decided to like, go to the computer terminal RIGHT NEXT to him! so after hovering there uncertainly, i decided to juz sit at the table infront of him. but i refused to face him, of cos.. even then.. yu shoulda seen the look on stupid amir's face when he joined us!!! buat maluuuu.. then the bell rang and i waited awhile so tt OM cld go first, but he was moving so slowly, by the time i got to my bag, he was still there.. and i tried to cepat� by juz grabbing my bag, but THEN the bag on top of mine decides to teeter dangerously, so he reaches out his hand to steady the bag for my while i grab mine... but i diden get to say thanks!!!!!! cos it happened too fast. but yea i'm still reeling from it now.
i got this book out of the library juz now, getting over it by anna maxted. well she totally reminds me of shafa!!!! itz so amusingly written in shafa's hilariously indignant tone! anyway, yah, so i'm really enjoying it.. although itz juz another of those chick lit stuff with the tried-and-tested guys-are-such-fuckshits storylines..
speaking of chick lit stuff, i watched my most-nak-tgk chick flick juz now!!! win a date with tad hamilton may have one of the most annoyingly long titles tt even rivals crouching tiger, hidden dragon, but itz reaaaaaallllllyyyyy nice!! okayokay, itz predictable, but tt doesn't mean it sux.. i mean, a brownie's predictable, but we all love it anyway rite? anyway, by "predictable" i meant tt yu know how itz gonna end. but still. watch it for the incredibly aww-inducing character of topher grace! and the innocence of kate bosworth's rosalee! acherli, now i feel like getting bangs like hers. haha. yah and i diden cry much, but like wow. the smile lines are really endearingly cute, and the soundtrack rox too, btw..
ohyah and ili reckons OM dropped econs. and i would have to agree. he wouldn't pon econs tutorial otherwise rite? argh. the only thing we had in common, and he drops it!!! now what am i gonna do? oh and i suppose he just dropped it, like, within last week.. sigh. how sad.

Pete: [to Tad] Like do you know she has six smiles? One when something really makes her laugh. One when she's making plans. One when she is laughing out of politeness. One when she is uncomfortable. One when she is making fun of herself. And one when... she's talking about her friends.

Rosalee: You have five smiles Pete. One when you think someone an idiot. One when you think someone's REALLY an idiot. One when you're singing to Barry White. One when you're getting all dressed up. And one when you're looking at me.

alamak i diden do any hw today!!! well anyway, i had ANOTHER[!!!] solid dream.. it was about like, me, driving to his house. apeee je..
u noe, i was juz thinking juz now, that if blogging existed when i was in primary skl, i'd have years upon years upon years of recorded memories to look back on. but obviously, my primary skl years missed out on tt little trend, and so the primary skl memories are juz trying to hold fast to any brain space they can grab. i wonder what brought this on? haha. anyway i remembered, among other things, malay class. he started saying "whaaaaaat only!" as an english alternative to "ape je.." and even then, i found it amusing. haha. primary 4. wow, to go back to those days. of cos, i'd like to go back to those days, knowing the things i do now. but yea ttz not possible. haha. funny how some things change, and others don't.
what merepek is this? i'll spare everyone and stop now.

i set the alarm to wake me at 9, which it did, but then i snoozed back into this solid dream and refused to wake up. but itz not that bad a dream. it involved him wanting to set me up with sum guy who was working at sum grocery store, and he gave me the guy's number and told me to meet him at sum overhead bridge or smthg at 2pm. well yah. another of my characteristic weird dreams. he was being all understanding and big-brotherly. totally clean dream. wahaha. it even had a segment where i was with hana and sya n filza and ili, and hana sed to me, "ain, yu're like the only one of all of us who acherli does ur hw.." and i was like, "yar, hana, did it take yu tt long to realise?" which is, btw, HOW untrue.
so yah as a result, i woke up late and i ALMOST diden go for viesta but unfortunately [as i thot then], sya was already waiting at the int, so i had to go lah. but of cos, it wasn't an unfortunacy after all. but let me juz reiterate tt i was THIS close to watching the noontime cartoons. neway. at the int i had this general smile on my face, cos i was talking to sya who was behind me, but then this cute vik saw me smiling and smiled BACK and nodded at me!!!!!!!!! warh! i was, of cos, blown away. okay not really. swayed somewhat.
the first rj person we saw at vj was....... [wait for it!]...........was...............was................was................................was...................... TOOT FREN! hahahaha. then came a series of other unremarkables, with the first REMARKABLE rj person i saw being.................DG!!! wahahaha. he, btw, stayed till the end also! met pat, and yah zhaf and red, who were with dino [rem him from mendaki awards? he was sitting next to faezah. the injustice.]. suff and mus and the rest of them. solid, of cos. thanks to shafa for alerting me of his arrival. i know how much yu think hez un-cute. tpjc guy kept appearing.. and paul was playing the in the current-j5 soccer match!!! haha. and of cos, siam. yu know, the last person i expected to see was burger. but there he was, plain as day. i guess i overreacted, though. sorry, sya. ohyah jelly and deedee and nita and munz and hui-en.. and billions of lawar guys, espesh the viks!!! hebatz. ohyah and lin zhi also, and huanling.. and yas and her whole family..
and i was in the hall talking to kamie, and then i turned and saw this cute guy talking into the mike, and mentioned him, and kamie sed, "hez mine!" so i was like, "haha okay, whatz his name?" and she sed, "shabbir!" and i was like, "ohmigawd! shabbir? as in shabbir ali? shabbir ali KSA?" and then certain primary skl memories flitted through my mind, and i went to talk to him, haha.
besides sweating buckets and watching lawar ppl, we got a snapple [which was my best purchase there!!!], hung out with mus, hung out with shafa, hung out with amal and kamie, hung out with ellina, and watched the soccer match. fun.
went to catch the angklung concert at sentosa. hai i had to pay 3 bucks! tak adil. managed to catch the last 10 mins, but it was better than nothing. and watched the magical sentosa show. kool sia. but yu know, butt aches destroyed the experience. but yah it was a great time..

Dreamt abt solid. Late meetg sya for viesta. Haha. Yea wad a name. Met alot of ppl, ex-rgs, n ex-loyang, n of cos sjimats. Oh n zhaf n red.. Solid too. Tpjc guy oso. Paul frm smu! Lepaked n ate n watched current vjc vs j5 vjc soccer. Current got like 2 goals in 10 mins. K bye.

alamak i'm telling yu, yusri looks like burger!!!

wow. ngantuk. oh therez this interesting friendster-like thingy.. itz kalled naseeb.. itz kwite new, i think.. itz for muslims!!! wow, a way to stay in touch with my roots [been hearing tt alot during the interviews]! and i'm not being sarcastic. so anyway, go and sign up, itz free unless yu want premium membership.. and do add me, sejukkk@hotmail.com..
oh i'm watching the iran-m'sia soccer match now. the iranian guys are HOW LAWARRRRR!!! i'm juz dying. there was one playing juz now, but stupid syamsul or whatever his name was injured him juz now. and i forgot his name, but hez number 20. sapersaper yang tahu, siler enlighten. but anyway. the rest of them are lawar too!!! they were filming the bench people, and they were juz a line of lawar people who look NOTHING like bayu. har. [hehe sorry. itz juz tt i saw him juz now. ohyah and i shouted "bayu!" and he turned ard. eeps. same thing happened with thin fren too, yest or smthg. tak paham.] alamak eh. my dad keeps hopping channels!!! please. juz let me watch the match. btw i dunno why they keep track of offsides. does it matter at all in scoring? once again, saper saper, plz enlighten. ooh my number 20 is back. oooh. namer dier A. Borhani. or R. Borhani. sorry buter.
well sorry enuff about soccer from my point of view. post-laila party, anyone who was involved in the production is invited!!! 10 may at aranda country club, bbq in the afternoon.. vcd screening, photos, and a surprise for the j1s!!! heh. so yah. i'm a par-tayy haiwan!!!
[hey the iranian players asyik jatuh-jatuh je!!! stop jumping ard!!!]
[oooh. another one. A. Alizadeh. number 18.]
okay. interviews. really cool after all. i mean at first i was juz dying, my butt was screaming, but of cos tak didengari. and it was juz how hot. and well [ooh H. Kabi got a great far corner goal!!!!] each interview lasted an average of like 20 mins. eeps. kalau dalam aircon takper jugak. anyway. at first i thot the creative qns were kinda merepek, but it gave me a chance to really stare at them without unnerving them, and itz kwite interesting and, if i may say it, entertaining, to see them try to dig themselves out of the hole they create when they describe the gambars in detail. cute. very cute. my favourite is still shafia's goldfish thing. cool. hm. interview stats. shafia was the first interviewee; shamiah was the last. when shamiah was like 2cm from the door, nizam stood up and started cheering.. haha. we, of cos, joined in, once she left fully. [ooh A. Alizadeh juz fed the ball really well! but sum guy messed it up and headed it over the bar.] erm. nadia was the only girl who picked the totally angular gambar. and rudy was the only guy who picked the sphere-included gambar. thenn.. haha hafiz spoke at like 2 decibels. some people were totally falling asleep. and, we ended the interviews officially at like 5.57 pm or smthg. whee! [ooh A. Alizadeh headed in the best-fed goal!!! look at him smile!!!] ohyah i'm still kinda ticked about the whole skiving thing. and therez really no other word for it. itz skiving. completely unreasonable skiving. ohyah. therefore we ended up looking like [wow madanchi is cute too!] simon, paula and randy. since everybody knows who simon n paula are, randy was obviously sya. haha. ohyah. i thot it was kwite nice of sya to still go, since i've always thot tt PRO is along the same level as QM while treasurer is abt the same level of secretary. well ttz juz what i think. [alamak my Borhani is leaving!!! juz cos he screwed up sum ball handling.]
adoi. eh, you know what. i'm beginning to think tt someone is cute. but i'm not talking abt redboy, dun worry. btw his new haircut is cute!! haha. [ohmigawd the guy called yusri looked like burger for one very skary moment there!!!!]
ohyah. let me juz add this for the interviews. whatever perceptions we have of the exco candidates, most of them change radically when we interview them. IF we're around for the interviews, of course. so yah.
should i stay to give more commentaries? alah takyah ah. okay nitez.

Memandangkan i wun haf time to blog tonite (or tmr nite for tt matter), i juz wanted to say tt dr chan was being a fuckshit juz now. Oh i saw tilani juz now! Heh. N i screwed up my essay sia. Har. Oh haha redboy keeps passg by n lookg in. Cute. Oh whatever i'll go n change now.

i wasn't gonna blog, then i went thru the gallery of my fone-taken fotos. there's the one of fariq. head shot, too. and itz juz funny how quickly things can change huh? and of cos, there'll always be tt photo of sya n her idiot to remind me of tt fact. then there r the photos of righthandside, reminding me how cute 17-year-olds can be. and of cos, the photos of ALL the cute guys i've ever taken. haha.
well. had a lazy day today. i feel like one of those snakes my mom's always accusing me of being. well bye.

haha i juz remembered my wahlieu. and therefore i'm laughing infront of the comp.
ohyah. shafa's latest joke:
me: shafa, stop trying to pull a straight face!
her: so, do you want me to pull a curly face?

yoyoyo.
watched the ac-rj hockey match. 3-0!!! wow. i juz lurved ashraf's goal, it was juz soooooooo cool! haha. kesian. i thot shah was really kwite good.. maybe shengrong's juz too good for them, i dunno. haha. it was fun, we [sya n me] met asilah, amal sara, yazid, and fazly.
went for lunch at ritchie riche with shafa also.. after tt we went for dessert plak, kat DQ!!! like i'm not fat enuff!!! the 0.6kg i lost is juz zooming back as i type. then we went to the toilet, where we met baba, then we met filza downstairs [i lurve her roxy top], and then we trained to bedok, where we unsuccessfully tried to cab and ended up 38-ing to tj..
where we met sooooooo many people, including the tj soccer capt a.k.a. bapak!!! interestingly enuff, his name is tt of sya's own bapak.. so i guess we kan change tt to "sya's bapak" instead. wahaha. and even more news! he has a twin!!! wahlau! which means another bapak on the block! wahaha. hidayah was juaraing, and tarianing.. wow shez sooooo cool!!! what a lovely voice!!! i'm proud to call her my pri skl fren, haha. met ashedah too.. and.. saper lagi.. well alot of people.. oh and original FGM was juz sooo adorable!!! heh. and i'm sorry, but i cldn't really enjoy it cos number 1, i needed to pee [for the 4th time], and number 2, they plagiarised the [extremely cool and well-executed] taunting scene from leta sangatkah seorang penari?. hahah. lots of other reasons also, sebenarnye.
after tt we hung around for awhile, me ogling solid, sya admiring certain ppl quietly, shafa being shafa.. then we went for MORE FOOD at bk!!! so yah now i'm juz full to bursting.
and shafa's idea of the spoof entry is cool, but i'll save tt for a time when i feel more up to it lar..
ooh before i forget, solid rox!

what. a. HORRIBLE. day.
yes i sed day. the morning was bad enuff. i HONESTLY thot it cldn't get any worse. really. then i had to trip and fall RIGHT OUTSIDE SCHOOL, and skin my knee again rite? waddehell. i guess God realised i've been having too nice a life or smthg. it was juz horrible. dahlah. whatz the point of talking about horrible stuff. then i'll b reminded of it if i decide to read my entries again.
yest's match was cool! [wow tt was a quick switch. amazing what a good sleep does to ur emotional well-being.] nyjc won, 2-1. he still looks great. even with bad hair. even though now i know he's another of those terrible bad boys ili hypothesises i like. haha. he played well.. but acherli they're not tt great, i'm not surprised they diden get thru. after tt baba n i went to eat at jon's salon, so yea tt craving is satisfied. haha. then we went into sponge. there's this really nice pair of vans shoes.. white.. the insole is colourful graffiti.. i lurve it. but of cos, at 119 bucks, i guess i'll have to wait awhile. i think i'll let my brother wear it to skl if i get it.. heh. hez been wanting skater shoes tt are wearable to skl. of cos, HIS skater shoes are wearable to my skl but not his. well. plz wait awhile, dear brother. since yu were nice enuff to lend me yur discman, i'll repay the kind deed.
the hockey match was nice too. i was standing sesatly with the saints.. haha. and cheering REALLY loudly for rj. i juz wanna thank the saints for not killing me. that was 1-0. kesian irwan. it was a deflect-deflect-deflect-masok goal. i thot he was pretty good. and the next day ashraf thanked me for coming down!!! wow. i diden even know he saw me there. or kared. how nice. ooh and i met ashedah, shez in tpjc hockey, shez the goalie!!! cool. ohyah and the farhan guy is really cute.. haha. albeit an almost spitting image of omar.
okay i decided to finish sya's 10 things you didn't know about laila

6. The role of Fairy GodMat was written for a guy who isn't even in rj.
7. Behind-the-scenes stuff tt will not be featured in the vcd include spoofs of the confrontation scene by yus and aisyah, jau standing on the table jiwanging, rudy lip-syncing to westlife, and ALL THE BOYS trying to do skateboard stunts.
8. During the auditions, one guy's interpretation of Mikhail moved one of the scriptwriters to tears.
9. Laila would have been Kisah Cinta Sejati, written by Ain and Ili Hazwani, if not for circumstances beyond our control.
10. Rita would have been Wati, but it apparently diden sound bitchy enough.

How stupid wld it look if i went up to jon's salon now and had lunch alone? I really wanna eat, n i really wanna eat there.. Or i cld possibly juz starve till i get home later. But i'm still going to watch! I dun kare! Kampung fried rice, i miss u!

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate

I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate

Dressed up up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out on the frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big fright
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough,
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday
I'm in love

15:09
not bad huh?
well, gtg. itz too blardee hot, and kazaa is screwing up big time sial.
oh a brighter note, there was a cute "relative of hichael" in number 3, and the st. pat's guy was skateboarding when i got home. heh.
dahlah bye.
oh btw rempah rox!

kiter dah transfer the photos!!! trying to figure out how to get the wallpaper to show. and i juz realised tt i lost ALL the movies i ever dled!!! what the fuck! now i have to like, go n buy or dl again. amazingly, to kill a mockingbird is intact. now, tell me, why would i give half a shit about that movie? sheesh.
on another note, it was a really exciting match. my throat is halfway to the sore house. i was sitting next to the iskhandar guy.. and his friends were infront of me.. and i juz kept screaming and screaming, and they kept turning to look at me. lyn also. and there was one point i yelled "relek sua!" during a lull. aaarggh. memalukan. adil's adiks, amelia and the cute liddle boy were there too. cool sey. what a cute liddle boy! i still rem seeing him at mac's.. and smiling at him even tho he diden have a clue who i was. adzfar's parents came too.. how nice n supportive! there was this lamlam-type councillor who was leading the jj cheering. eeeeww. lauk was there, and nasi.. whee!
did i miss out anything? ohYAH! there's this excellent soccer hero in jj. number 23, aptly. [although i'm sure HE won't cheat on his wife n 2 kids.] his name is andrew. a vik. very cute. tall. dark.
i still kan't get solid's smile out of my head.
ohyah. the score. we're through to the next round [unlike laz year!]!!! and it seemed to be 0-0, but there was one point in the second half where i SWEAR the ball was in the corner of jj's goal. so it coulda been 1-0. haha.
dahlah. ngantok ah. i'm gonna sleep now. more match support coming up in 2 days. personal match support, i mean. sorry kiter tak minat squash.

'My heart skipped a beat.' now i know what tt means. Neway i forgot to mentn d cool 5 dollar note d bk guy gave me. D entire white part w yusof ishak's face was obscured in tamil writg. D guy was like, 'oh my God!' n den he started laughing, so i d?d too. For the record, he changed d note for me. I still say itz a love note frm OM to me. Heh.

juz caught yet another "here's-a-new-way-to-be-white" ad. whatever. whatz so great about looking sickly and ghostly? apeee je. hm i juz sed the same thing twice.
anyway. i'm here to fill in the GLARING BLANKS from sya's entry. hahaha. but letz start from the beginning.
the sun was unbearably hot, as itz been this past week. i wanted to tan on the lounger, but it was so hot, even the pool water was hot, and i juz stayed in the same spot for like the one and a half hour i was there. haha. and the menthol shower gel and lotion helped coolify things..
then i stupidly got off at red house, so i stupidly decided to walk to holland v. got some lunch and had to walk to skl pulak! my bag was killing me. i met kwee yong on the overhead bridge, haha. reached skl more than an hour late, but there really wasn't much for me to do yet.. so.. i kinda forgot what i did. ohyah we continued the tech from the day before, and then we did a tech with actors, then we had dinner. in between the techs i was sitting with the primary skl art club in lt2 painting my nails. haha.
ili joined us too.. and there was sum squabbling over the song playlist with hadri and hafiz and jau and hana.. hahah. then we got changed and chilled and put on makeup. my eyeliner went really well with the pinky makeup, but i checked the fotos and i look swollen!!!! disgusting!!!! help!!!
sya keeps suaning me about solid. i'll be trying to accomodate his wishes somehow, and then she'll make sum shrewd comment on it. therefore i think he knows.
i skived off for awhile to talk to shafa, who came into lt2.. and then fana called so i abandoned all duties and rushed to welcome her [and fariq, i admit]. den duty called, loudly, so yah i went into the lt.. met alot of ppl, since i was hanging round the door. nydia came in with farah, who gave us a box of ferrero rocher, how nice.. and non-fren came in alone like 2 minutes later. he looked good, i must admit. like really good. ok i better shut up now. i saw the sji guys, they were sitting right next to my family.. and the rgs gerls.. abg ram came alone, haiyah.. i thot he'd bring his entire family.. but nice to have his support.. and i feel bad for screwing up the dance. and baba and fazli or however yu spell his name. sara aliya amal came in late.. they were extremely supportive though..
it went extremely well. besides the fact that THEY WEREN'T SPEAKING LOUDLY ENUFF. ppl at the back were getting seriously bored. but there were nice surprises. the GodMats were adorably cute. everyone laughed at haikel, for reasons un-understandable to me. like, he only had to come out for people to start laughing. and yashira was really fierce.. and aisyah was bitchy!!! i could hear the murmurs from the crowd. and i lurve jau and shamiah's cute anak manja scenes.. nizam and i were roaring with laughter, juz like during the techs. iylia was lovable as mikhail, i'm pretty sure everyone wanted mikh to end up with laila. and of cos, yus. she looked soooo pretty. and i was really afraid she wouldn't smile during the last dance, but people were like laughing during the last dance so i guess it made them both smile too. i screwed up the tarian, and i cldn't smile properly, but it was fun anyway. and yes i absolutely loved the wardrobe malfunction. and nadia played really well!!! i knew she cld do it.. itz really something to hear words u penned down for someone who means alot to you, being conveyed beautifully to 200-odd people. really. thanks so much, azi, for lending ur sweet voice to my words. and to filza, for composing a more-than-perfect accompaniment for the words. and to nadia, for playing it.
during the curtain call i mentioned tt i was skared i wld cry to rempah, and he gave me a pat on the back!!! how sweet! afterwards i talked to fana, and embarrassed myself infront of fariq, and then i talked to baba, and then to adil, n i thanked nydia for coming, and took photos.. with my GodMats, and with best actor.. haha.
yeah then i talked to filza's dad, and then me shafa sya went for a post-production dinner at bk. the guys [ivan n the j1s and izzat] were there too. we stayed till they offed the aircon, and even the radio.. haha. but it was fun catching up with shafa, kan't wait to see her for gema.. cabbed home with adzfar and hafiz. me n sya were talking crap, and yu shoulda seen her when rempah left!!! she waved and gushed and everything!!! shez crazy, i tell yu. it was worse than me with solid. ohyah speaking of solid, we told shafa about him, and she put this whole sexual spin on things.. shitlar. now i kan't think of/look at him without thinking abt what she sed. arrrgghh.
yes people, we shd make laila: songs from the play, laila: the play and behind the scenes, with a special interview with the scriptwriters, and other cool laila merchandise. sponsors, anyone? contact me plz.
i'm really glad nizam moved me from the sound room to the top. tt way i got to watch our masterpiece. and only while watching it last night did i realise how much it was meant for him. him who did not watch it. him. and azi's singing almost made me cry. haiz. filza, you would have been proud of them. i know it was. things we hadn't thought possible 2 months ago somehow became a reality. and tt means tt my dreams came true after all! i still remember writing kisah cinta sejati, with all my dreams of how it would turn out. and that happened last night!! albeit with a different script. everything else was the same. and the other difference is tt it was for him, not burger. but they're both the same kinda guy? stuck with manjen mambangs. well. letz not think abt tt.
i had a great time doing laila. thanks for making it a great time, everyone.
i watched into the mirror today. it iz the best horror movie i've watched. cos itz based on a real, solid [heh] plot. unlike the flimsy curtains most horror movies are. niceee.. and i'm full frm the sinful swensen's sundae and the meal..
oklah i guess i shd go now. need to do hw.

i am so tired. and it looks like no one else is online. so i shd juz save this madness for tmr.
summary: went swimming. tech without actors. full run without costumes. dinner/makeup madness. meeting fariq and not knowing what to say. pre-performance technical madness. lovely drama, not smooth but no one seemed to care. and best of all, no CRYING! embarrassing myself with fariq afterwards. post-production dinner with the guys and shafa. being high and silly in the cab.
and here i am. also notes for the next [detailed] entry. non-fren looked good, so did the original FGM. non-fren looked really good, and i think sya's crush on rempah is growing. and mine on solid. erms. ohyah. need to talk to fana ASAP. hope it'll be on monday then.
i checked out the photos, and i look DAMN ugly! why diden anyone have the courtesy to tell me?!?!?! argh. now therez really no point in printing the photos. since i look so fugly. blargly. haha. tt reminds me of butoh. hahahaha.
nitez. or shd i say morning.

I'm hungry. Today's the day my dreams r supposed to come true. Fariq's watching! Wow. I diden think it possible.

Haha. Yest filza was enchanted by solid's voice n muker kesian again. N i wasn't! Heh. I turned things ard yest n made him get me stuff. Ha! (Acherli tt was cos i was juz bz w rempah.) Wow yest's 5-dish lunch! I'm still reelg frm it. Oh n d feather guy. Hottt! U noe wad? Solid luks damn gd in all tt. Hai. Ok. I'm gonna slp in d lib durg bio break. No one kan stop me!

I made this really cool interceptn durg frisbee! Haha. Neway, yest righthandside was a 10 on d cute scales. Fyi. N jus was an 8. D cartoon was so offly funny! Hm. Wad else. Stupid irresponsible shits r ruing d laila xperience sial. Yet i still kan't marah them. I juz fume afterward or smthg stupid liddat. I'm not hurtg frm 20 min run yet. Wonder when. Oklah. Bye. Wish us luck.

Wad m i doing, i'm juz wastg time b4 pe. Sheesh. In d wrongest place to waste time. Fariq! Where r yu?

juz wanted to drop a line here before my jack n jill supper. today was a blast. the evening wasn't so great but it tapered off to a passable end.
haha. i was JUST about to leave mac's after almost finishing my lunch, skali my ghim moh crush walked in! so of cos i cldn't leave then! so waited till 3-plus for azi to finish skl. the match was terrible, sa outnumbered us 3 to 1. and we lost 2-0. and the annoying jj mats behind me were HOW ANNOYING. and dearest, darlingest rempah got injured. haiz. kesianznye. i practically tuned out after tt. haha. then.. then! the match ended, whistlewhistle, whatever lar.. and i stood up and looked round, as is my custom to do. and there he was, rite at the far end! fariq! with like, his vik fren from fun-o-rama i think. and he looked at me and smiled and waved [again!]!!!! wow. so i waved back, of cos. then i juz HAD to tell azi abt him, so she turned to look at him, and he n his frens were like looking. alamak. i bet i'm known to them as "the gerl who likes fariq". alah. takper. he seems to have a number of vik frens. aha. there was also this uber-hot dyed-blonde vik, perfect cultivated goatee and dalam lingkungan usia 25-30, according to azi. sheesh azi. inaccurate much? haha.
also discovered tt kooi fei has billions of erm.. people also. haha. we were totally giggling over the whole BFG-OM thing. and yah, i'm juz curious to know how azi knows, and why shez keeping it such a big secret. i mean, isn't it like the other way round? juz a thot.
haiz solid. is there anything more i kan say about you? all yu have to do it ask and yu will get. and righthandside. btw, righthandside IS one word.
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kenyangnye... i've been eating non-stop since i woke up this morning.. had another too-early-night as usual.. had billions of weird dreams, but none of those horrible solid dreams, thankfully. wow. if we cld control our dreams.. i'd go wild.. and if our dreams meant something, i wonder what mine would mean. that i'd love to see siam rolling down the hill as i sit on a log with righthandside? that wei acherli asked me and fana to go n watch him play bball? that HE is really gonna masuk meminang in the rgs malay room? that i'm gonna be performing a dance with OM sumday?
ok. merepekism. kan't find my nmr notes. hope itz in skl.. starting tmr i'll be kwite swamped with laila stuff. so i guess i oughta finish my hw tonight or smthg. but yu know i juz can't bring myself to do tt. and i juz realised tt wednesday afternoon there's chem! argh. and i gotta pick up costume stuff! aiyah. pon again, if it comes to tt. i'm being so ponny this week. annoying sia.
why are they showing the prince of egypt [again]? issit cos itz easter weekend? but doesn't moses have like nothing to do with easter? ttz passover rite? apeee je si channel 5.
next next wednesday i'm NOT going to eat chapati. i'm gonna drag filza to watch the match. ha. so there.

omigosh! guess what? i'm watching a wrinkle in time! itz so beautiful and colourful! complete with a cute guy too. and the pegasus[es].. wow..

strangely, i'm not sleepy. haven't been since the middle of chem lec. mebbe my body's just used to it, after like, 3 days of late nights. i kan't believe the late nights are not even due to merayauing. but i HAVE lost my short-term memory. i can't remember, for the life of me, what happened on monday. besides going for econs lec and OM not being there as usual la. oh and an encounter with the ever-hot rempah. i think. then kya hu wa?
tuesday was tech again, with costumes. great costumes, guys. i lurve my GodMats' costumes. yes MY GodMats. my idea wat.. to have a mat as the "godmother", i mean. yah and solid has this amazing physical power over me. dahlah. will not elaborate. it makes people like sya puke and people like shaf laugh. [hehe tt rhymes.] so i guess itz not meant for the general public.
yest we went to order costumes and then we went to ritchie riche.. heh. where raven was waiting.. he also covered the cost of hana's drink. haha. well. filza n i will tell her this hari raya, dun worry. and basically, all the people there are full of crap except for the boss, whom we met on saturday. met suff n mus n 2 other sa ppl.. and hazrulnizam n his sister at tm.. and my loyang junior at spotlight.
ohyah juz remembered. went to jj on monday! saw this cute j1 soccer vik. haha. and i lurve ahmad's hoodie, but it kinda won't fit most people, so haha yah.
and speaking of jj, i also met fariq on the train on tues. he sat next to me, then when we reached bv, i got up, and turned to him, and he smiled at me and WAVED! i was juz dying. no doubt bout tt. hope to see him again soon, in better circumstances. i always feel like talking to him, but i'm juz too skared to. one day larh.
juz now was tarian. rempah told me all bout soccer next week. soccer season starts, nak katekan, next week. i really wanna watch. i mean reallyreallyreally. and filza suddenly asked, "ain, why do u want to pon econs lec to watch?" and yah. she hits at the right spots all the time. i don't get how she does it. i still rem, when i dropped bio, it was cos i finally felt ready after talking to her. wow.
yu know, after all the stuff tt rangga sed, esp the initial asking thingy, i really thot it would last longer than this. i diden think problems could crop up so fast. itz been like a month. max. so yah basically i dun get it. and it seems to bother her so much. and now it doesn't seem like itz gonna get better. but we kan always pray, i guess.
i think bayu is SO COOL for having the religion i'm learning about now! but ttz about it. haha. sorry sya n nadia, i dun agree with yu guys. juz like yu dun agree about solid. argh i mentioned him again!

_{i don't get it. when you talk to me itz like i'm the only one in the world. and somehow i feel so special. and then i start to blush. and i get flustered. and my judgement goes even more haywire than usual. the way you speak, the way you look, the way your eyes go here and stay there.. i just don't get how you do it! but you do.. and then i get all confused. and itz very hard to think logically. and the stuff you say! itz like exactly what i need to hear, without knowing it till i acherli hear it!}

okay time for bed yah?

haha i'm watching 40 days 40 nights.. kwite cute.. josh hartnett's character reminds me of jau, abit.. so funny..
went to komala's just now.. played are re are and jaane dil mein thanks to munz's one dollar. haha. next time muz go again. i'll bring 2 one-dollar coins.. and i kan play 4 songs! yay.. but we ate too much.. haha.. i'm still full now, so i kan't get to sleep. kan't do hw either cos i left it in the locker. tmr my bag'll be heavy. heavy AND big. darn. what a combi.
i spent so much time waiting to get out of the house, i watched charlie's angels: full throttle again. haha. takder kerje. with the stupid assignment 19 looming above me somemore.
isn't it funny? that the feringhees make such a big deal out of not having sex, while we're here in singapore saying tt we're not having enough. and there's also been no dispute on the difficulty of not having sex. they made a movie out of the difficulty of having sex!!! it muz form a huge part of their lives, for that to happen..
ooh my ass still hurts. help. i kan't lean back, itz too horrible..
was juz wondering what else to give my mortal. i found this actual cake of soap at levelone for him.. itz about 20-plus bucks, itz a cake of soap in the form of a slice of chocolate cake. itz cute, and it smells like chocolate and everything.. and i mean, although he kan't eat it, he kan like, use it after training.. rite? but i have no money yet.. so i need to get smthg else in the meantime..
laila. a story for the true romantic, written by a hopeless romantic.

Little surfer, little one
Made my heart come all undone.
Do you love me?
Do you surfer girl?
My little surfer girl.

I have watched you on the shore
Standing by the ocean's roar.
Do you love me?
Do you surfer girl?

We could ride the surf together
While our love would grow.
In my woody, I would take you
Everywhere I go.

So I say from me to you
I will make your dreams come true.
Do you love me?
Do you surfer girl?
My little surfer girl.
Little one.
Little one.

Yang mana satu
Idaman kalbu
Tidak tertahan
Menanggung rindu
Mungkinkah jauh
Berbatu-batu
Atau di balik
Awan yang biru

Kalaulah aku
Jadi temanmu
Masak-memasak
Serah padaku

Kalaulah aku
Jadi suami
Kain baju
Aku cuci

Hai tukang masak
Aku tak sudi
Hai tukang cuci
Menyakitkan hati
Aku mencari
Biar berpadan
Asal di hati
Dapat berkenan

Inilah dia
Yang dicari-carinya
Misai tebal
Ular sawa

Ini orangnya
Idaman dara
Lawa tiada
Manis ada

Oh sungguh susah
Cari pasangan
Tak mau yang gagah
Kurus pun bukan
Hati dah bosan
Tidak berkenan
Sebab perangai
Tidak siuman

Biarlah setan
Ataupun hantu
Cukup bulan
Makan batu

Biarlah hantu
Atau jembalang
Balik kampung
Tanam kacang

haha i'm watching labu & labi now, to research the song tt rudy is supposed to sing. funny. dah lamer tak tgk cerite p ramlee.
went for costume research with hana tadie.. the blond vik working at sponge is really lawar. i wanted to steal him away and make him act in our play. acherli alot of ppl were really lawar. including the cook at ritchie riche who asked hana out. haha. i told her she shd have kept him in reserve. oh n ritchie riche is really very nice, wish i'd discovered it earlier, since itz been ard since at least 1994..
i kept on wishing we had a thousand bucks.. i would have really gone to town, getting GodMat outfits. you kan seriously get a complete GodMat outfit at 77th street.. shirts, tshirts, visors, silver accessories, baggy jeans, bags, and even the boxers.. arrrgghh. ohyah speaking of "arrrgghh", the stussy OM figurine dah takder!!! i think sumone bought them up!!! they haf other figurines, but no more OM!!! -sad-
haha. tadie while waiting for hana, i saw bomba in the bus. i cld see his coloured contacts from outside. wahaha.

I had such a terrible dream this morng! It was btwn 8 n 845. Neway, it was abt solid. It was juz horribly real. N now i juz kan't get it out of my mind. Watched a really cool olsen twins movie tadi. Haha dahlah bye.

got this from baba's blog. the first part i dun agree with, but the second part is so apt.

i really didn't know what to say,
you came to talk to me
but i chose to walk away..

though we may not be the way we used to be,
the feelings still stand strong everyday.

ohyah and i met kwee yong!!! she was going home, of cos.. haha.

hey darlinks. if yu dunno yet, the drama survived!!! we officially haf a drama at 7pm on the 17th of this month. tix go at 6 bux. lt 1, rjc. buybuybuy!!! get from me at 98734192.. before wed.
haha. juz a fruitless attempt to get ppl to come and watch.
neway, yah. i was being really piss-prone today. so were most other ppl, i think. yah. den.. ermm.. ohyah sya n i were experimenting with the skateboard, itz kwite fun but i was mostly afraid of falling. i'll try to do the jump thing next time. problem is, the skateboard is kwite the guy magnet.. haha. we just put it there at the foyer and all these j1 guys started coming to try it out. it was kwite cool acherli, considering itz such an old and buruk board.
hm. i juz lurve the sound room! itz sooooo cool! i juz love pressing the buttons, adjusting the volume, this and that.. wow.. i seriously feel like one of those knob-adjusting people in a studio during song recordings. haha.
tarian was okay, cramped giler tho. and rudy forgot to dance! haha. klakar. and the final tarian was cool but the stupid guys were snickering away.
i think the godmats r doing so much better. but like, solid pisses me off sumtimes. and we got lotsa laffter from adzfar n fairuz during their scenes, so it shd be a good thing rite?
speaking of rempah, he was being so unbelievably rempahy today! like, smiling here, smiling there.. stare here, stare there. itz horrible. everytime i look at him and he looks back i feel like i got caught doing smthg i wasn't supposed to do. haha. apeee je. merepekism. well he seriously wants to dance. itz funny. thenn.. hmm..
sya n i were practising tarian in the sound room. how hilarious. it was like a half-metre by one metre space..
there was a millipede fight in the lt tadi. stupid boys. and stupid jus was chasing me with the stupid millipede. which totally reminded me of my dad.
i think nasi knows. or mebbe i'm juz being paranoid. itz just tt i kept seeing him and he kept seeing me today. before pe, i saw him a total of 3 separate times. as in, during the ten mins before pe. then after pe, i saw him again.. then before gp i saw him AGAIN. so yah. juz a thot. hm. sya mentioned lauk juz now. i'm not sure y.
i'm stressing over their costumes. itz a stressful job. shit lar. naseb baik we chose it to be a modern play. wat if it were set in victorian times etc? haf fun getting costumes, man..
2 ahmads are supposed to lend me extremely crucial stuff. they better come thru.
i'm so sleepy!!! tanak bangon sey besok!!!
yu know what, making rempah my in-house happy fren was such a great idea.. except i shd have juz done it earlier. now "happy fren" seems like a "happy t fren"-only concept. whenever i want to say happy fren i say happy T fren. well. juz a thot. once again, he has a cute way of sneezing. he bends all the way into an L. sho cute!
and speaking of cute, i thot i'd immortalise the whole "i-thot-bfg-was-cute" thing here: BFG was wearing glasses on thursday and was looked really cute!!! i almost got swayed, then i saw tt my hero OM was next to him. hah. too late, BFG! hehe.
ohyah. my hero, OM. he was in skl so late today! with burger. haha. and juz now siam walked past, and i was trying to cover sya's eyes but i ended up slapping her face. haha, and to make matters worse, siam saw me doing it! hilarious. but still. itz sad how frens can... well.. forget their friendship. after like 4 yrs. even tho it was juz an acquaintance.. i mean.. it shd mean smthg, rite? we all chatted and went out and all.. and itz juz sad lah.
new nickname! bayu, for nadia's latest crush. ahahaha.
wad an exciting end to the day tadie! it felt like a police chase or smthg. us being the criminals, of cos. or cowardly police running away from the criminals, if yu prefer.
did i forget any cool details? i ran like 5 or so rounds juz now. fun. i was listening to my mp3s.. so yah it was extremely bearable. and very good for my skin colour. jon chen was like, "did yu change race?" and started laughing. apeee je. the laughing part, i mean. well i'm his tanning idol. haha.
righthandside was extra cute today! i was making him throw away his stuff, and i had to like, beat him with my umbrella.. and he was also playing with it.. i haf a picture!!! haha.
ok dahlah. buang ruang je. hahha. it rhymes!

Hm. I survived pe.. N i had like, 2 helpgs of iced lemon tea. Whee! Oh n yest durg tarian spy n lauk were admirg our pro-ness.. Hehe. And tryg to dance too. I find tt so cute. Happy t fren was also tryg to dance our tarian in additn to his. Hehe. Nasi was totally uninterested. Takpe.. N rempah diden bring his scent so he had to use mine. Hehe. Hez hot. No arguments there. Oh n i still wanna work in d sound room. Oklah bye now.

Been a bz life. Sunday i was at airport w fana and WE SAW THE JAPAN SOCCER TEAM! Therez this cute botak guy. N yest i met fadhly in d train home. He has sideburns! N a chain! N hez going 4 ns tmr i think. Same as isky! I haf a new ghim moh crush to replace d lost ones. He looks un-manjen. Heh. N he caught me starg at him. Haha.

darlinkss!!!
the day started out extremely shittily, letz not discuss it. thanks soooo much sya, for accompanying me to the doctor.. yes and thanks to the doctor too. haha. the moment i got into the auditorium, omar was like, "ain yu're sooper late!" haha. well, at least it was a friendly face, or i prolly wouldn't have gone in at all. as everyone knows, we got last, with 26 points. takperlah, i know they tried their best and it wasn't a fair comp. we went to anatolia after that, the guys were devouring one dish after another. it was also nizam's and jau's first time trying out cinnamon buns. hehe. klakar. then hana came, and we watched scooby doo 2: monsters unleashed. i like daphne. what cool clothes, in my favourite colour summore! haha. and later we were at b1 of ps, and this guy was like staring at me, and i realised it was hichael!!! woohoo!!! the genuine, actual hichael! i seriously died. then i was like, "hana, turn now! now! the guy in blue polo shirt and khakis!" and she saw him! woohoo! another hichael-bandwagon-jumper.. haha. i got my purple eyeliner, so fun.. haha. and we went to heeren and i found a nice new bag to buy. wahaha. and we were also checking out clothes for mikhail. hahahaha. whee!
i was in 81 home and this guy got in, he had latte hair, but the bantalish part was dyed blonde!!! wahahaha. hilarious. cute, too. oh n of cos the 81 passed the pet shop, and i caught a glimpse of my chowchow [let's kall it gabe], he was sleeping. kiut!!!

cool. the title of aforementioned movie is a reference to a quote from Francis Bacon, who wrote abt crocodiles, which shed tears when they devour their prey. hence, crocodile tears! wow.
okay this movie is too psychological for me. time to sleep.
nadia thinks OM is cute in a mat kinda way. haha. ttz an interesting view, which i kan't validate objectively, though.

hi. i'm watching this cool jude law movie on star movies. haha. ohyah itz called the wisdom of crocodiles. altho i haf no idea what crocs haf to do with vampires.
neway. took bus to skl to reduce exposure to people. but there was this lumpur who sat behind me all the way, making me feel soopa stupid. ohwellz. best actor is not only best director but best stuntman!!! there was a lull during drama and so rudy put on the westlife cd and jau stood on the table and jiwanged, and rudy ran around with a mike serenading the other two, while best stuntman [also bests actor and director] tried to do skateboard stunts. haha. it was hilarious.
tarian was useless, i dunno why we bother. i also dunno why we think we kan join the comp with such HIGH levels of energy.
i am so brown, i need white clothes to show off!
i was looking and looking for OM, and i cldn't seem to find him, and i juz happened to think of him and then we were just walking and then i heard his name! and i knew he wasn't there, so i thot i was juz hallucinating, then i wondered if it was also another guy's name, cos there were other guys about, and then suddenly we stopped. then i turned and there he was. he was there all the while. wow. with caf. i suppose caf really doesn't stay in the east.
rempah. haha. we met him on the way home. he's weird. i really think hez weird. but more about that in another blog.
forgot to mention, wednesday at jon's salon this ri/rj guy walked past with his rgs sister and mother, and then he looked at me and smiled and waved! haha. no idea who he is.. but i smiled back.. haha cool.
my butt really hurts, itz seriously unbearable. help.
i have new solid graffiti on my script. whee!
update on bomba: sideburns gone, rems steps relatively well, dances well. heh. i'm kwite lucky, i realise. and so is shaf, with her sbf/mdp.
so i'll see yu all tmr.

Wad a FUCKING PISSIFYING day. Some days it juz doesn't pay to get up.

i know you, i walked with you once upon a dream.. i know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam.. and i know it's true, that visions are seldom what they seem.. but if i know you, i know what you'll do--you'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream.. --from sleeping beauty

wow. what a day. yah went to t2 for breakfast, sat there till like 1130.. maths paper was not too bad, i think. of cos i diden know the formula for volume of solid of revolution so i kinda got stuck there. horrible. and penat2 i learned the y-squared and whatever graphs, but it diden come out.. and it was even hotter today! i was positively dying.
then we went to far east.. met shafa.. i wasn't really surprised, seeing as jon's salon is her central perk.. haha.. hm.. ohyah sponge and fluid are related rite, ttz so cute!! we kept on checking out earrings and shoes and clothes until i finally realised it was 620.. haha.. den had dinner at fish n co.. [argh ronel, jasmine's brother, is cute!] and then dropped by orchard again, where they had this bottle of johnson&johnson's bedtime lotion, for free trial. i took 2 helpings.. now i smell divine!!! haha.
dear sun, pls stay out tmr. thanks.
somehow there's not much to say tonight. ohwell. takpe. the less the better. ohyah. i know! OM rocks. hez juz incredibly handsome and cute. haha. juz now sya n i had a little debate on whether OM is happier than happy T fren. opinions? all are welcome. haha. [as long as they're in favour of OM.]
dahlah. there's much to do tmr. bye.

Haha i'm tryg to decide whether to get a second breakfast or not.. There was a really cute st pat's guy in 53. He had rangga hair n brown eyes! Woh. N pillarish build. I had another righthandside dream. Kan't rem wat tho. D t2 bk is too open n bright for my taste. Well. Cya.

some people are just SO weird. give me the fictional mikhail any day.
watching my siblings play bubble bobble on playstation. i was so totally reminded of playing playstation during class chalet! that was the ultimate fun man! oh and the laptop is acherli on my lap. i think i'm gonna get roasted lap after this. haha.
i'm bored. tmr is maths. i dunno what to do till then. it involves going to the t2 bk and relaxing on the armchairs, but i dunno how that'll be. wake up at 8? wake up at 9? i dunno. maybe juz a simple wake up at 7.. then i need to decide what book to bring. cos i kan't just relax there and stare into space, can i?
today was really kwite nice after all. bk was sooooo empty.. and OM looked incredibly good today, espesh when he was playing hula hoops. hehe. ooh and espesh ESPESH when he changed shirt!!! wahlau.. i was dying. i swear. yu shd have seen me melt next to the vending machine.
yah the only glitch was prolly the econs test. it was so hot and muggy! i tied my hair up highhigh, bunned it, and drove the cekak right into my head to avoid stupid fringe annoying my face. and rolled up my sleeves and stuck my skirt high up. sorry, but i was sweating, it was tt hot! and i guess the good thing abt it being a hard paper [for me] was that i diden have lotsa free time during the paper to stress abt how badly i was doing. haha. how off. after checking my mcq twice, i retied my hair, and then time was up. darn. should have tried to sneak a look at OM. but then again, he was HOW FAR AWAY. unlike stupid [juz kidding] happy T fren, who was like, a metre or so away. i think sya iz eternally grateful to the gerl who diden turn up. haha. [this laptop is starting to roast my lap.]
i walked into the lt expecting the worst, but they were doing the wedding scene! i walked in juz as laila was walking away, and i looked up and saw best actor sitting up there watching it, and offering his suggestions. i seriously died. apparently the guys were pretty serious about the rehearsal.. i'm so touched, seriously! wow. and they told me tt he demoed alot of roles for them.. wow. looks like best actor is best director too. i think if i had my way, i'd make him president. haha. he really is great.. after the guys left, we fooled around alot.. i mean, how many times can you do makcik and bimbo scenes rite? we did the confrontation scene twice.. and aisyah makes a great firdaus.. she did it so well, yu'd never know she had trouble as rita.. yah it was fun.. hope to get the godmats next time.
okay i'll just relate my horrible nightmare now. there was this forest, and there was this big hill in the forest.. and i was at the foot of the hill with righthandside. we were sitting on this huge log. then i turned and saw batu at the top of the hill. burger was there too. she put her arms around him from behind and hugged him tightly. and i got all disgusted or smthg and i squealed to righthandside, "righthandside, look! make her stop!" and he was like, "aiyah juz forget it lah.. dun bother with her.." so i turned back to him ah. i could hear their voices, i could hear them talking, even though they were right at the top and we were right at the bottom and it was a big hill. then she moved to stand infront of him and they hugged, and they swayed from side to side, then they rolled down the hill! i could see her grinning. anyway then i just threw all caution to the wind and grabbed righthandside's arm and screamed for him to make it stop. and all he could do was try to calm me down. oh what a nightmare.
that shd be it. byebye.

pita bread is my new favourite food! woohoo!

today was really kwite a nice day, considering.
woke up fine, got dressed fine, saw fariq.. heheh.. tak sempat senyum tho.. cos dee2 came in too with kitfei so i was talking to them.. haha. i kan't believe tt annoying ac guy is in her jr class.
only burger was at the bus stop, talking to sum man.. i thot he was gonna miss the bus.. yah and basically, NO ONE was there! bo-ring.
chem was not too bad. i was complaining about the distinct lack of ionic equilibria. haha. there was a grand total of 3 qns, 2 of them in mcq. as usual i diden get to finish the paper, but i did most of it so i'm fine. did mcq for 10 mins [stopped at qn 9], then decided to move on, and went back to mcq in the last 10 mins. mostly my ass was hurting. yu know what? i think itz from sitting for 12 hrs at bk. sheesh.
i diden see too many people.. hm. whytee.. alot of siam.. and i mean ALOT. spy.. non-fren.. green fren.. sluardalam.. bomba.. sum righthandside and sum rempah.. ohyah and sum air [like i kare!]. and not forgetting OM, WHOM FILZA STOLE FROM ME DURING THE CHEM TEST!!!
went to airport after skl. nice. it was devoid of studying ppl. hehe. seriously. i dun think my butt can stand another 4 hrs of hard plastic bk seat! mebbe i shd go to the t2 one tmr..
i want purple eyeliner. remind me to get.
oh. and solid has nice music taste!

[in a marah tone] hei OM!
[OM turns]
[lying thru teeth] OM, i dun like you!
--
OM, are you listening, i don't like you!

an alternative:
[isky starts walking away]
[in the same marah tone as above] hey isky!
[isky turns]
isky, i like you.
--
isky, are yu listening? i like you! [run away for dear life]

i was supposed to add a disclaimer: me not going to do vol of solid of revolution DOES NOT mean itz not gonna come out, it juz means i've given up on it.
well anyway i'm watching romeo now. and i cld juz die, hez too hot! he has the sexiest voice on the planet, he juz looks soooooooooo good, and he raps and skates and plays bball, and bikes, and EVERYTHING! so yah. my new favourite celebrity. romeo.

woke up at 6, decided not to, and woke up again at ten.. haha. then i lazed around till 11-plus.. until fana saved the day by msging me to meet at the airport.. haha. so i got there ard 230.. and did lotsa chem mcqs.. haha.. and sum structured.. saw ziwei.. but no one else interesting ah..
my mom is on that you-haf-a-bf kick again. waddehell. i have no idea why she thinks up such ridiculousness. what kan i possibly do to convince her of the stark truth?
need to study summore tmr. but where and when? hm. will play it by ear as usual. the mp3 player is screwing up already. i dun geddit. issit juz me?
wat flattering article came out abt julie? 2 ppl haf asked me abt her already.. haha.

ooh i forgot to add. smalam i had this freaky and horrible dream. i was in my balcony [2nd floor], and suddenly dee2's face popped up outside the window. hello! second floor! yah she was with asilah and another gerl. and she was like, "hey ain!" and i sed hey back.. and then she asked, "hey yu with nasi rite?" and i was like -WHAAT?- and she just grinned and sed, "yah i heard it from [someone].. how come yu din tell me?" and then asilah sed, "oh yu're his messenger rite?" and then there was sum weird confused argument, and i woke up as quickly as i cld.

just watched rugrats: all grown up.. tommy is really cute now! haha. chuckie wears braces. phil has gross long hair and wears a cap. haha.
anyway. biaser ah, niari woke up at 6.. but had more time to lounge around.. so i ate second and third helpings of breakie, wrapped the present [only to reach skl later and find out that i get to keep the sweater after all. haha.], etc. i found a new cute mim guy. ac. same age. heh. yah i'm really happy for everyone who gets to stay, most of all, my mortal.. and no i haven't thought of anything nice enuff to give him..
drama was fine.. and now i know why solid was so pissed. aiyah.. so sad. and to think he was so happy smalam. haiz. righthandside was being his normal cute self, he's improving, it shows! tarian was okay. what is WITH bomba's hair? -dies- and rempah. sheesh. tanak masuk tarian cakap jelah. tembak..
shall i be honest? i dun think we'll make it by the thirtieth. itz not just the acting, itz everything else! the props, the tarianS, and everything! this is sad. well, i know we're all trying our best here. [except for exceptions, of course.]
haha. just now OM descended the stairs and i ran figure of 8s around shaf and sya. it was fun, but sya got dizzy and broke formation. sheesh. well OM, i wish you just weren't as lawar. but i guess yu kan't be.
watching happy T fren dance the lenggang step was really hilarious! he looked sooooo cute!!! haha. hm wonder if we cld kick out rempah and take him instead? heh. how adorable tt wld look. him with his cheeks and elastics [or whatever they're called].
wat annoying lumpurs, in the train. hmph. the only reason i was standing there was cos it was bekas yellow guy with big eyes, and the fariq lookalike.. haha. who got off at tanah merah, btw. it cld possibly be his brother, i swear! haha.
was wondering if ms norhuda musa was in any way related to rempah's dad, since both are related to shafia. shaf?
had my deeelish caramel creme pie again! whee! sorry sya, i guess not everyone likes it. but how cldn't they? it rawks! pointed out solid's hse to sya on the way home.. haha. sorry i think i'm annoying everyone with my current solid obsession. juz tell me if yu get irritated. oh and i diden get sesat during the walk home. in fact, itz kinda nice. i shall try it again next time. =D
well this seems really disjointed. maafans. oh hey, kan i choreograph the yus-jau dance? hehe.

i'm gonna chicken out. i just know it. itz juz too skary lar..
too many short entries yest. well. sorry, i was juz feeling stupid, and i was trying to distract myself. anyway i got a ticket, zoomed into the theatre, and zoomed out after it ended. for some reason, there were lotsa kids. apee je. i wldn't bring my kids to watch tt show. tengoklah sum cartoon or whatever. ANYWAY. no couples surrounded me! woohoo! i was acherli flanked by 2 groups of girl friends.. haha. so yah tt was kinda why it went fine. also, random acts of kindness rock. it makes yu feel so good inside! you'll juz be glowing with the knowledge of what yu did.. -sigh- yah i took 518 home cos i cldn't handle the train ride back. it was freezing tho. at the end of the ride, everything i touched seemed to be water. but it wasn't, it was juz.. cold.
ohyah and i really enjoyed the "freeze" thing. haha. it was hilarious. i mean, *moof*? haha. i was seriously roaring with laffter.
solid was really happy today. smiling here, smiling there. twirling and dancing around. singing his cute mat song. and he seriously blossomed at our suggestion! he got all excited and stuff, and i was just dying there to see him so happy. and he acherli joined us for our discussion after that, instead of antisocialising. it was almost unreal. sorry, am i too solid-oriented? haha. he still has tt weird power lar..
anyway we walked to the malay cupboard after tt, and saw OM studying at the batu table. hrm. i juz scratched sum of it off this morning. wonder if they noticed. and maybe i'm paranoid [okay, i probably am], but decaf looked up and nudged him. yargh. well, at least i got to see him.
apparently the heart cushion on my bag is the exact one izzat has. hm. is tt suspicious? i dun even remember who gave it to me. went to heeren, but i dun think the shop was open, half of them were closed!!! apeee je. so i went to the post office, chickened out, and got sum gold paper from popular. but i swear i'll chicken out tmr too! neway. rushed to the padang, thinking i was gonna be late.. i think i managed to catch like the last quarter or the last half of the guys' game. why does NJ wear shorts? cam cacat gitu. it doesn't help tt most of them are short, effectively making them look like sec skl kids. [kids? haha. who do i think i am?] they could juz wear those slacks things in red.. and i din think the game was boring at all, altho i diden always understand it. i kinda thot it ended too soon. haha. ili's coach is really funny: "second strikeout of 2004!" haha.
i din study at all today. sorry, i was really really sleepy! do yu realise that i haven't been able to wake up early for the entire week? that includes tmr and sunday. puh-leeze. you dare to call this a holiday? and if i'm not sleeping, i'm too into white oleander. kan't say i like the storyline, but it juz draws me in. after tt will be animal husbandry, which the reallyreally cool someone like you was based on.
my voice seems a wee bit different. yeah! mebbe i'm getting a sore throat! okay. now, back to my book. i will study tmr. 8 a.m. i promise. but i won't promise not to chicken out.

D movie was reallyreallyreally nice. 2 of d boys r damn cute. And d gerl is cute too! But wad a sad endg.. :'(

Oh good news, there'll only b one couple. On my left. Haha.

Yoyoyo wassup.. Haha. My first time watchg movie alone so i feel kinda weird n stupid.. And i'm gonna be flanked by 2 couples.. Darn.. The perk is tt i get a nice seat in row M. Haha. Well i'll check back in later..

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up
Invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together

{Refrain}
I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together--Turtles

ah i'm bored. and pissed with myself. went to study.. but halfway thru i realised that i diden bring my amides!!! arghs. so i had to plow through the REST, which was still alot. i wanted to die. it was juz horrible, and i kept forgetting stuff. i tell yu, it wasn't so bad last year..
and i hate couples. yes i do. there was only one yest. today there were three! and one of them HAD to sit at the next table! and bising2 all the way. sheesh. thank god i had earfones.
there was this guy.. he was the SPITTING IMAGE of my mortal! i was juz dying. but he diden linger, unfortunately.. and no, he wasn't my mortal, prolly a couple of years older, and he was speaking malay so yah. hm i acherli love these viks who r acherli mims. i mean, yu get viks, without the language barrier.
so anyway, tmr is chem and econs.. and i haven't really done shit. darn. and to top it off, i'm like, broke. 12 hrs studying outside with only 5 bucks? i had to break into my earnings to keep alive. okay i'm exaggerating, but not abt the 5 bucks thing.

Open your eyes and take in everything that you see
Look at all the colors, red, yellow, blue, & green
We can take an airplane and fly across the globe
Look down upon the colors, everyone come on, let's go
Because

Love, love, love, la la love
La la love makes the world go 'round
Love, love, love, la la love
La la love makes the world go 'round

Open your ears and listen what the world has to say
Hear the birds & bells and you will have a brighter day
Everyone has a special song deep inside their heart
If you want, you could sing with us, it's the perfect place to start

Love, love, love, la la love
La la love makes the world go 'round
You can't hurt me with the things that you do
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you
Puppy dogs, kitty cats swimming through love

Love, love, love, la la love
La la love makes the world go 'round
Love, love, love, la la love
La la love makes the world go 'round
Main vocals: Bubbles
Backup vocals: Blossom & Buttercup
Guitar: Blossom & Buttercup
Drums: Bubbles

this morning i forgot what time i usually go to the airport, so i kinda hung out at home and wasted abt half an hour. haiya. ohwell. nemind. today was useful in that i figured out what to avoid in the common test.. namely volume of solid of revolution, p&c and.. ok i forgot, but itz written on my foolscap.
btw ppl shd juz NOT stare at me. i dun look THAT weird/interesting/whatever.
i thot the perfume [female, i think itz kalled] was kwite nice.. unfortunately i was broke, having spent my bucks on my stomach and eyes and ears.
the new mp3 player is great, i juz hate earphones, as everyone knows.. it hurts..
juz discovered tt the song irwan was singing, "semua tak sama/tak pernah sama/dulu kau ada rambut/skarang kau takda rambut", iz padi's semua tak sama. haha. itz nice..
haha when i reached the airport juz now, there were juz glops of viks all over the arrival hall, in all shapes and sizes! i was simply dying. haha. and later i saw ac guys.. apparently sum skl trip.. kool sia.. i wanted to like hop on the plane with them.. ohwell..
noisy kinderland kids were there too. yu shd have seen the heads of the studying ppl snap to look at them, and then not knowing whether to laugh or cry. haha.
and juz now when the perfume woman approached me, i had to hold in my laffter, cos i was juz remembering what shafia sed abt perfume ppl.. haha.

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i am bored. i am dying. i am supposed to be doing work, but what haf i been doing since i got home just now? well, basically, i bummed around watching ada apa dengan cinta. [again.] then i bummed around in my room reading. i am currently bumming around watching pretty woman. [again.] and i realise i only have 2 days of burger king left. sheesh. how utterly shittifying. well. whatever. at least today wasn't a total waste.
ohyeah there's a new hottie on my fone! heh. check it out whenever.. and the best part is, he's only 3 years younger! haha.
yu know what, i think i terlajaked to the airport today cos it juz wanted to remind me to go there tmr. and the day after. well it looks like i kan stay there all day now. yeah.
chem with OM on thursday. i kan hardly wait. not.

My ass is dying. Kyu? Cos i terlajaked my stop, ttz y. Too freakin sleepy i guess. Well swimmg was great, sun abit d shy but i got a tan! It started pourg juz after 12 tho, bad luck. Well, back to my book to keep awake. Btw 'msg in a bottle' sux. Horrible endg.

i juz watched legally blonde for like, the billionth time. yest i acherli watched you've got mail as well. haha. meybe if i'm in the mood i'll watch another one tonight. haha. since my brother's juz coming back from camp tonight..
sigh. woke up late today. what horrible cramps. anyway yah i woke up at like 2 so it was too late to mandi and get out of the house. sheesh. damn off. i really wanted to watch. ohwellz. i caught humraaz instead. hehe. it was.. cool.. but waaaay too long as usual.
hana has a picture of solid!!! i diden know!!! haha. i want!!!
ohyah and whoever has nickelodeon, there's this show called romeo, featuring whats-his-name, of cos.. and his cute liddle brother, that adorable angel in honey.. itz sundays at 4.. and i lurve romeo hez so hot!

harloeharloeharloe!!!! did i have a great day or what??
firstly i woke up at 7, decided it was impossible, and cancelled plans to go to nus open house. went back to sleep and bummed around the house, went to skl at 2.. met hafie, maly, nurul n shaheda at bv.. haha. the first thing hafie sed was, "hey i rem that bag!" well i'll cut to the chase.. met sya at city hall, late as usual.. saw dani.. and went to catch ili playing. unfortunately, we missed her, so we just went to the tent and started watching rugby 7s.. burger.. nasi.. lauk.. hehehe.. damn cool sia.. but they lost to ac.. but they trashed cj, if i rem correctly.. ili's family was there. so cool!!! and we were like sitting on garbage bins at the side of a lumpur passageway. damn fun. we even saw the swinging mats lounging round on the memorial and being confronted by police.. like woh.. ohyah saw halim.. but diden see my happy fren.. ohwellz.. yu kan't get everything yu want right? also, the suaners were there.. yu know.. suaner original, big suaner, spy n non-fren.. stefanie smokes. gross. i think perut really rox. hez excellent! haha.
after watching alot of stuff, we decided to leave.. then we saw happy T fren, and then we went to eat at komala's.. damn nice.. as usual.. did more of those "when i'm with OM.." thingies.. and i thot the "journalist" was kinda cute.. hehe. then sya left, then ili had to go so we left.. and it was raining outside, so we walked on the inside.. then filza, who was walking infront of me, grabbed my hand, so i looked up. and i saw sum nondescript vik.. whom i'd never look at twice.. and next to him.. DECAF. and i juz like, froze there and stared at him. hahaha. off. also met ivan tan and MAG at city hall. haha. ooh and i saw this frappe/OM/sluardalam hybrid with a diamante stud in his ear. nice!
watching coyote ugly now. lurve it. haha. juz got it at gramophone juz now.. every time i walk into a vcd place i go nuts. i still have 2 more vcds to watch. i swear, i'm crazy. so i promise the next one i'm getting will be honey. i promise. no more frivolous vcd buys. ooh and i'm currently reading message in a bottle.. itz lovely.. sighh..

i hate rempah!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay acherli i dun. itz juz.. hez so weird, you know? we were going home juz now and rempah was there too and at first he sat with us den he decided to stand and he was juz standing there, in front of me, and i was bored and i had nothing to do so i just looked around ah, at all of them. and i mean ALL OF THEM. and maybe itz juz tt my eyes lingered slightly longer on rempah or maybe he juz happened to notice every time i glanced at him. ANYWAY, he juz kept on perasantaning about it!!! and i was juz dying!!! seriously!!! i was dying! i was embarrassed! i bent down to my bag for the longest time, cos i was juz too embarrassed. argh. he is weird. there's no other word for it.
best actor's joke of the day. oh i know who's Fairy GodMat's mother! --who? --Fairy GodMak! he is so funny. i feel bad tt he got home late tho.. oh and he was like imitating Po from teletubbies.. haha. tt is like ancient, but it was juz hilarious! i still find it odd tt he looks so serious but iz the exact opposite of that.
hm. it was cultural exchange day today. best actor was explaining solat principles to 2 vik frens of them. and we were explaining guy-gerl adabs to nita..
argh i got a C for my maths. itz really sad. and i'm even sadder about the fact tt i'm sad, cos as far as i know, i've never been affected by abysmal results before.. this is disturbing.. look what you've done to me, J2 life! well. it was the first lecture test of the term, so i forgive myself. wish i wldn't be so sad tho.
i found KC's locker!!! heheh. and.. i haf righthandside's skl schedule! woohoo! congrats to me!
alrite i better go. ohyah i borrowed a nicholas sparks and a MHC from the library juz now. kan't wait to finish them! yay! oh and thank God for hockey camp next week, i'm gonna study at the airport.. bk, here i come!!!!!!!!!!

my body is aching madly. to put it accurately, i feel as if i've been kayaking the whole day. really. i was pondering it while eating just now. haha.
my mortal thinks i'm madly nice. so do i, acherli. i juz hope he never finds out the degree of madness. hez so cute!
this morning i was really really tired. i haf no idea why. i guess it was like the long day yest plus drama plus tarian. which i've been having for 2 weeks already so i really dun get why i'm only tired NOW. anyway, so i went to sleep in the train, despite fears of the drooling incident repeating itself. then i groggily woke up at lavender or bugis or smthg, and promptly went back to sleep. then i started to dream of batu, then someone poked me roughly awake. it was ili. with her trademark kejut-orang efforts, so reminiscent of my mom when SHE's trying to wake me up in the mornings. anyway then shaf stood infront of me and talked to me lyke normal, and in the middle of our conversation i noticed tt there was a jj person nx to me. i thot it was a gerl at first, so anyway i juz turned to look. and it was like fariq!!!!!!!!!! sitting right next to me! i acherli did a double take. yeeks. buat malu je. he was listening to his discman n smsing. no i did not read his smses. then at bv i got up and turned around and we smiled again. haha. yay. that kept me smiling till i reached skl.. haha.
and maybe the fact tt OM diden do the alternate thing again helped.
gp sucked tho. i was dying to sleep during the second paper, but i cuden!!!! it was too too horrible to finish with sleeping time to spare. i finished my summary proudly and looked at the clock to realise tt i had half n hour left! sheesh.
hm. we were going to mac's juz now. for some reason we used the traffic light and had to walk past the stupid hawker centre, where i spotted ex-fren first. then i watched as he joined a table with OM sitting there. and i heard them call his name as we walked the 2 metres away from them. shit. this suaning will never end as long as i am me.
and guess what? i made this guy fall larh! like flat out on the floor! because of OM! i was walking to the spiral stairs from the lockers and i saw OM with BFG, but i diden follow them, i just went to the foyer really quickly. then while walking in the foyer i quickly looked for OM, just to watch him finish walking to the canteen. and i was just walking n watching, and then this ac guy and this girl comes spinning into my line of walking, and since i'm busy staring at OM, i bump into the guy. hard. hard for him, anyway. i diden feel a thing. and he just went spinning around and fell!!!! in the foyer! in front of everybody! i felt mortified. i apologised to both of them. i juz kept on apologising. they sed it was ok. but i felt soooooooooooo bad! i felt like one of those gone-case stalkers who don't give 2 shits abt what goes on around them. am i that far gone?
on another note, dialogue session was okay. i guess. bearable. green fren was there. haha. juz had to say tt. bye.

Watched honey yest. Damn nice sia. I'm in love w lil romeo. Haha. N honey's bf. And hiphop. N hoodies. Tt was d highlight of my day. D lowlight of my day? Falling down d ghim moh stairs. Yowch. Bruises everywhere. Luckily no witnesses. Well, remind me to watch tad hamilton! Topher grace rox.

5 mins b4 gp n i'm blogging. Keep bumpg into my mortal. But muz control myself. Will not shove my sweater into his arms. Acacia laz nite was kinda borg. Mebbe cos d boy iz so cute. Tiny droplets of rain glisteng on my sweater lyke pieces of glitter. I smell maggi. Lookg forward to my movie later. At least i dun have to keep closg my eyes. Oh btw. I will not open anymore rajiv msgs. Eeps soopa loud thunderboom. Bye.

haha. today was such a cool day. drama prac, as i mentioned. and then we went to orchard cos we wanted to check out the cheerleading. do you KNOW how many hot ruggers were there? wow. there was this cute lumut-looking one, from sum ite.. and suresh IS cute, but somehow, i think OM looks better. haha. sorry fana. tt irritating white badak guy was there too. with his stupid silver cekak, no less! what is his PROBLEM? well the cheerleading was okay. sum ppl should smile more/properly. for example, ivan. i guess he was skared. everytime he's skared he doesn't smile. but lumut is good at smiling. and they weren't extremely confident, yu cld tell. stole steps from bring it on, i saw.. but i like the little dance thing.. nice.. and my biggest complaint is tt it was too short. ohwellz. ooh sya, happy T fren was there! diden see nasi again tho. darn.
thenn.. ohyah we went to lido, ate, then to paragon marketplace.. wow. itz such a high-end supermarket. therez this whole section of shelves with organic/low fat/gluten-free/low sodium foodstuffs. it was called "food 4 life". i'm serious!!! there was like, instant nasi and cute stuff liddat. and hard-as-stone rice cakes. i found sunless tanning lotion, and--wait for it--the ice tea deodorant! all 4 bottles of it!!! haha. but i diden haf the funds so i juz bought the deodorant. haha. well since i haf like 2 types of tanning products sitting in my room, i thot the sunless one cld wait. and we tried to find smthg for my mortal, but cldn't find anything that was EXACTLY right. then we hung out at the mag rack and read about kaks shahidah aziz, nydia, adila h. and mars.. and realised what a pathetic batch WE are.
then we realised it was late so we rushed out of there, but not before i spotted frappe n his gf at starbucks. hehe. well he smiled at me, woohoo! but they looked kinda unhappy so i diden linger. anyway we rushed all the way to royal plaza hotel.. and met ammar on the overhead bridge!!! hez still hot. haha. i was like, "ammar! hello!" and continued rushing. then after maghrib we went to mccafe, decided not to get anything, then went to wisma.. met adammmm!!!! [and his gf..] he was botak!!! he looked funny! at the tangs/lido underpass! haha. i was juz dying. he looks kinda like jon now. as in my obs instructor. hehe. but dun worry adam, i still like you. ohyah and i saw hasan n muslim at the surau. haha when i told filza their names she started laughing.
i bought my darling mortal 360g of some of my favourite things in the world. and itz so valuable, i'm gonna ask shaf to pass it to him instead of risking things by putting it in the class tray. sheesh. so much crime going on in rj now.. anyway i hope he likes it.. i'm pretty sure it was made with love. not mine, but passable anyway yah?
hehe we were having a picnic during drama juz now.. filza's nachos-in-a-biscuit, and oreos.. i think jau iz extremely observant. he looked at me, and he was like, "wow you're wearing fir! i'm so touched!" haha.
i read something juz now.. and i haf to say, he sounds really sad.. but at least i know hez human, and that there's a good side to him after all. so i dun haf to feel so bad abt liking him.
isky got BCC. well i hope he does well, whatever he does..
oh and Q&A of the day! what's primadonna? --before madonna. courtesy of jus and best actor. wahaha. full of crap man..

Wad a relaxg drama prac. N nasi was ard for my viewg pleasure! (There was also lauk. N rempah.) And righthandside! Being his normal cute self. N i think axe iz acherli kinda sexy. Cldn't stop starg. Darn.

filza's not replying!!! argh. does tt mean tt there's no drama tmr? i feel stupid and irresponsible. okay mebbe shez sleeping, but still. confirmlah dulu kalau yepun. okay i'll juz wake up at 8 tmr to check my fone, then go back to sleep. k? okay.
i feel terrible. din noe itz been liddat for him.. and if he'd only just TOLD us what was wrong, i would have begged to let him leave! i swear! yargh. i feel terrible. i feel mean. i'm so sorry yah.. i am!!!
and i'm still confused about wat i'm gonna do with regard to my [extremely adorable and lawar] mortal. [ohyah juz now during extra chem i was sleeping ah.. haha.. and i kept having dream snippets of various guys.. including abovementioned mortal! hmm..] neway, these days i keep on thinking of the first time i noticed him. haha. i'm reading the entry now. 5 jan, 10.38pm. "was watching the 6pm storyline, or trying to.. and i found the first official cute j1!!! official as in, i diden know he existed before. hahaha. yes he's a vik. and yes he's poser. but hez so hot!!!" haha. that's so funny. it really is! haha. sorry. and i also rem watching him having his training while we met our junior class, and then later, that night, seeing him and hearing shaf talk to him.. and barely hearing the words as she sed he was in her class. we were outside lt 1 then. the little path to the canteen. and it was like night-time. and i remember screaming and jumping around and stuff, as the night breeze blew. sigh.. hard to believe more than a month has passed since then. and tt he might possibly be gone. i'm praying for yu, my mortal.. the "first official cute j1".. please stay..

hm.. juz thot of sumting.. fana muz be sunk in depression or smthg.. since her darling got BCD.. sigh.. feel better, fana!

lotsa little surprises today. this cute ns guy kalled dev in the train. haha. tilani's cuter but dev juz reminded me of latte. haha. and i was staring at him and thinking, "this is what latte will looks like when hez older.." hehe. i'm so sleepy! okay, i'll continue first. pe was great, i finally saw the strategy in frisbee.. and after tt i did a very slow 30 min run.. which included like 10 minutes of incline! i was seriously dying. haha. next week mebbe i'll up it. then when i walked out, nasi was rite there, juz outside the weights room! i was seriously dying [again].
i got an a2 for malay. i almost kan't believe it. really. but i AM glad, at least my year of taking malay when i really diden have to AFTER ALL wasn't a waste. and i got an a for chem test. 75%. haha. that was a pleasant surprise too.
and after skl juz now we were praying at the surau, and taufik was sitting outside after tt. so i decided to juz say hello. i was juz surprised, cos hez really friendly but it was like the first time we talked. neway, remember the time i ponned a wednesday and i went out with fana, and saw nasi? and i was wearing tk uniform and i went to eat at jon's salon and he was there with his police friends and they were discussing why i was wearing tt uniform. well neway, it turns out he thot i was my sister, cos it cldn't be me cos i was in rj. haha. well itz juz funny.
wahaha. ili braked when she saw lumut! ..okay sorry, i juz agree with what sya sed last year, about how you can never really stop liking someone once yu start.
swimming was great, there's now a visible tan! one gripe tho--no cute guys! haha. takpe. we had fun discussing ppl and stuffz.. and now i feel extremely moisturised, etc. why am i crapping? i shd stop.

jasmine is lawar. solid is sad. filza and i were feeling so sad and helpless. kiter tanyer pon dier tanak bilang. sigh. never seen him liddat before.. writing jiwang lyrics on the board, arguing with hadri.. it was skary.. wonder whatz wrong. and my mortal! i got the letter from him today. the last sentence made me cry, itz so.. nice.. and now i'm juz thinking of a way to like, give him the thing if he does leave. but i really hope it doesn't come to that, not because i don't want to give it to him, but because i'll juz be sad if he leaves. juz like i'll be sad if rempah leaves. or anyone lar, acherli. haiz. apaper lah eh. what kan i do, besides pray for the best..
what a sweet voice she has! jasmine, i mean. yu know what, i wanted to say alot more juz now, but i kinda forgot.. how sad. i really had alot to say.
ohyah. heard ex-fren talking in malay juz now. hilarious. in my initial words, it provided me with "pleasure". haha. i realised later tt i meant "amusement". hehe. and sya sed it was cos of our "legacy"! woohoo! our malay legacy! haha. i thot it sounded extremely cool, and anyway since i'm feeling friendlier towards him these days, it sounded great lar.
chatting with akil now.. so funny how we kan talk online but cld never talk face-to-face, 7 years ago.

i'm having the horriblest week of my life! fever on sunday AND monday, and now itz wednesday and i'm having a swollen mouth! or whatever those thingies in my mouth are. itz juz damn pissing, and now i kan't even swallow cos it hurts. which means i kan't eat cos it hurts. and therefore this.. disease has just taken away one of my favourite pastimes. weird things have been happening. amidst the horrible, i mean. for example, i juz got this msg from sum guy called darren. erm. do i know a darren? itz juz tt i'm skared if i ask "who r yu?" he'll get hurt or pissed or whatever. haha. the only darren i kan think of now is sya's mortal. and tt can't be right! well, any ideas, do tell.
also found out tt i kan't wap anymore. no idea why, but im too skared to ask my dad.
this morning i finally saw fariq again. haiz. since the info fana gave me on saturday, i feel veh offed abt it. which does not mean tt i dun think he's cute anymore. oh and my mortal missed the bus. kesiannye. yu shoulda seen me bisinging! sheesh.
lotsa hw to do, and no idea why i'm not, but.. well i think i juz need to give my throat sum rest. by sleeping. a vow of silence is kinda a tall order for me. i mean, then i wldn't be able to scream "OM!" etc. haha.
i like the way my cool plasters look. but i dun think i'll wear more tmr unless it really stings.
ain't nasi hot? haha. he was lining up behind me just now. heh heh. sorry, but he is.
i went home with hana just now after another excruciatingly painful meeting. i rem the first time i took 105 with her. i diden really know her tt well then, but now shez acherli a pms! and i have regular tuesday lunch with her and filza! so fun! and they always help me keep my sanity. i'm glad to be able to tell her stuff.. so i dun always have to write down everything here. since it cld potentially hurt. if we all spoke our minds, i'm pretty sure hearts would be breaking repeatedly everyday. every hour. every second. oh and that reminded me to go for my personal movie soon. like very soon. like extremely soon. i juz dunno where. acherli tampines wld be juz fine lar. i dun kare much anymore. who could i meet, besides primary skl friends rite?
speaking of that, i met akil on friendster! haha. i never thought i'd meet him again. apparently he's seen me in the train alot, with sum other gerls.. and he saw me wearing tk pinafore too.. hm i never noticed.. but ttz cos he looks how diff lar.. well.. i'll try to keep my eyes open next time. then i'll say hi instead.
i think i used to prefer being in skl to being at home. now, i'd rather be home. skl is almost as excruciatingly painful as just now's meeting. sorry, but i juz hate sitting round for too long. at least i home i kan baring2, watch vcds, or dance or sing, etc. ohyah speaking of which, i am going to geylang.. erm.. soon.. wanna get more tarian cds.. cos i juz realised tt if i sit around waiting for tarian to come to me, i'll never be satisfied. too little tarians in rj ah. i'm pretty sure shaf feels the same way too.
am i anti? sumtimes i feel tt i am, but i juz let myself be so. mostly cos i dun like being with ppl who make me feel rotten. cos i can pretty much succeed at tt by myself.

sheesh. every time i haf a long day, i haf lotsa things to write.. but i kan't wapblog cos when i haf a long day, i go back late, and tt means i go back with people, meaning tt as a person, i shdn't be anti and therefore not wapblog. sigh. meaning tt i'll always forget the finer points of my day. but i'll try my best now.
i am gonna give my mortal my sweater if he doesn't make it. but i hope he does. please, God.
tilani was in the train again!
tarian was cool. darn now pedas will prolly know his name. cos i call him sedap. haha. long story. but it involves righthandside. haha. hailah pedas, the way yu talk and act really freaks me out sometimes. itz like yu KNOW we think yu're pedas. btw he's now rempah. which means we kan acherli have him with nasi and lauk n air! hahahaha. we now also have actions for many ppl incl burger, batu, and even burger&batu, collectively! ohyah after tarian i was sitting at the top of the gate, enjoying the feeling, then i screamed, "OM, since yu dun love me, i'll jump!" and jumped. but my landing diden go as planned. the cat instincts kicked in and i landed on all fours [meaning i skinned my knees]. but tt means i get to wear cool plasters tmr!!!
i was cramming integrals for maths test at bamboo garden juz now when i heard a guy call, "ain!" and i turned, expecting sum ex-fren derivative, but it was fazly! so i screamed, and i was like, "itz youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!" haha. he withdrew from cj sey.. i guess he really dussnt like it there.. wish he cld come to rj though. haiz. hm vj or ac.. but how the hell do you samakan the two? anyway hez like freaking tall, or mebbe i juz haven't seen him for a long time, and his hair and his eyes r soooo much browner than i remembered..! hailah batch of 1987. asal korang sumer lawar-lawar? well speaking of maths test [originally anyway], i did all the qns except 1b!!! congrats to ain. that is not boasting. cos my answers r prolly wrong. but hey! method marks works all the time. i thot latte looked pretty cute juz now. haha. but ttz juz me.
what an extremely exciting post-pe period. batu sitting down rite next to our bags, talking bout everything in her life. us spying on spy n her. if this keeps up... our malay could become really really excellent! haha. oohyah and whytee kept walking around! and bouncing ard! and lazing ard!! congrats to sya, hez extremely cute in an extremely interesting manner. and watching cj get euphoric over his 3-pointers was sooooooooooo cool! as in, i've never seen a guy so happy before. i swear, he really looked radiant etc to me.. and cikgu was being really nice today so filza got skared. haha. apeee je. i juz count my blessings.. and hope not to annoy her anymore.. but i always succeed in doing so, inevitably. sheesh.
[and tt marks the end! cos i started and ended with the same word! aah watever. or shd i say, "kya-ever!" "kyu?" you ask? haha. i dunno. ohyah i'm supposed to put my kembar pic here. jap eh.]

i'm so tired. i'm suffering a relapse, acherli. horrible. i'm all shivery AGAIN. how annoying. anyway i guess i shd sleep soon, i juz wanted to like, say some things.
number one. i scribbled a i'll-pray-for-you-to-stay-in-rj-since-yu-haf-9-points letter to my mortal, on the back of a photo order list.. and i went out and bought him a dove hazelnut chocolate bar and passed it to shafia. and guess what she told me? apparently he was saying tt if he diden stay, he wldn't be able to write to me, and i wldn't be able to write to him.. and shaf asked him if he'd miss me, and he sed YES!!! i almost fell over the railing when i heard tt! hehe. yah ttz like so sweet. or so i think. well i guess i kan't help being nice to him.. hez so easy to be nice to.. like alot of ppl are now, acherli.. itz juz tt i'm in the perfect position to be nice to him. too bad i'm such an ass to my other mortal. but like.. wow.. i'd haf thot ppl like him wldn't be so into this angel-mortal thingy, and tt he'd juz stop writing.. haha. guess i was wrong! [i wld smile now, but i'm juz feeling too ill. bye bye, maths test.]
and number two, i was in the train home with filza juz now, and we met shaffique!!! he got in at like outram park or tanjong pagar or smthg, and we kept on staring at each other, then finally i remembered his name, and we xchanged basic news.. while i stared at his bag and his friend's soopa-off hair, and filza stared at his apparently-lovely eyes. haha. i think he looks really good now, and itz so cool tt he rems me! hm forgot to ask if he still keeps in touch with ahmad.. ohwellz..
alrite ttz all i kan muster up the energy for. cya.

Tech Support: Yes, Ma'am.... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart, ma'am?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running, ma'am?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off, ma'am?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support : With pleasure. Go to your start menu and evoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components ." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry, ma'am. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non- technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you!

Ya ya ya, i shd b doing maths now but i'm juz so malas! Oh itz d 12pm bell. Neway, yest i reached wrl n got a fever, so din do anything at all. Met 'faezah' at bk. He lives in woodlands! Oh n tilan iz acherli tilani. Haha. He was in d train again. Ohno adzfar juz told me his appeal din get thru! Tt really sux! Shit sia. N now i'm sad again. (But congrats, hana n rajiv!)