smalam kiter gi jalan raya. it was great. even tho i had to wake up at 730 to be rewarded with a totally anticlimactic morning. we had breakfast at jp banquet, den went to fana's hse, where i fattened up on tom yam, then to kamie's hse [on the way we saw a really cute 20-plus vik with a cool zigzag stubble and bad hair, and a cute mim who was apparently unsure of his sexuality. we haf sum nice pics.], where we killed 2 hours watching k3g. waddehell! haha. cam takde kerje gitu. but yu see, her hse is so comfy and all. then baba's hse, where i ate 5 ayams frm the kari ayam.. which was soopa nice.. and we discovered that the cool clock had her parents' names on it. last but DEFINITELY not least, was the clincher: ili's hse.. i lurve the curtains, they look lyke flowing water.. haha. and we were served satay!!! i'm really not a satay person, acherli. and i had 5 ayams in me already rite. but i just ate one stick after the other, until i was like, "eh? dahbis?" ohwell. too bad. then we played with bunga apis!!! ...where i discovered tt i'm not such a pyromaniac after all. haha. but they were really pretty.. and it was like the most hari raya thing i've ever done. then it was a sleepy 39 ride back home.. =D did i already say tt i love 39?
today went queensway with my mommy, sister, brother, cik jun n elna.. and i got my new skl shoes.. yeah.. they're orange. i know, illegal. whatever possessed me to choose those, rite.. acherli, i was after this cool nike presto, light grey with pink ticks and stuff.. but they diden have my size.. guess what size they had? XS!?!?!!? no way in hell i cld fit into such an inhuman size. and i loved those shoes so..
..sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
haha sorry i'll go now.

i did absolutely nothing today. woke up, ate, read, slept, woke up again, read, ate, read, mandied, and now here i am. haha. was planning to go to the library but at this moment itz already closing or closed or smthg. wanted to continue the obs chronicles.. tapi cam malas ah..
okaylah. on the first day, we were separated, and i mean separated, into our watches. 7 watches in all. they did it alphabetically. as in, sya came after me, so i was in one watch and she was in another. she was, of cos, in the same watch as her fren. and i was in darlink OM's buddy watch. haha. jadilah eh.. and we were sitting about 30cm apart.. and we smiled at each other!!! woohoo! that was the first step, as i saw it.. hehe. okay OM stories aside, we did the trust fall [which was soopa skary!!!!!!!], the trust dive [my first time bursting out in uncontrollable laughter, and which also included some serious zao genging], then we pitched tents and all.. we soon became really good at it, btw.
second day. and the inverse tower. we were at the exact same spot i was 2 years ago. this time i did the inner face alone!! woohoo! sya did the funky log ladder thing with her fren, of cos. they succeeded beautifully. then me and sandy navigated us to camp 2. there's this horrible neverending slope you have to get thru, whose sole aim in life is to kill as many backpack-laden obs-ers as poss. kaoz. after that comes a hundred steps to further death, then yu reach the camp.. well at least there were showers there too..
third day. we had the best morning circle of my life. haha. i dunno. the place was just so nice. we were at the seaview parade. and they gave us 10 minutes alone time. i ran off to the stone wall nearest to the water and tiaraped there writing. the breeze was blowing, the salty briny smell was swirling round, there was a dead fish floating in the water.. haha. but it was reallyreally nice. i've never enjoyed the water as much as i did that morning. and that was when i decided what exactly to say to him. haha. oh and we had 3.5k run earlier. i died. but it was okay in the end. after tt there was kayaking.. i remembered how much i hate kayaking.. but how i love floating in the water.. and i had a billion fibreglass cuts in addition. then we went for land ex.. it diden take very long.. mebbe slightly more than 2 hrs ttz all.. cos we were just walking round tt region of the island. while my poor, poor OM had to go all the way to a jetty in the north and come back. our campsite was about 200m or so away from the reservoir. and tt was the first time i had a general conversation with him. hahaha. i will not give details. it seems too mundane. then.. that night was the best i ever had. we spent 3 hours, and more, writing stuff about our watchmates.. by the end i really went crazy, laughing at the most non-laughable things and making others laugh at my laughter. yes and ttz why it was fun.
the next day was solo. about 20 hrs or so of it. it was preceded by a morning circle right on top of the reservoir. we were THIS close. but hardly talked. why? guess i was still skared. malu. whatever elses ah. solo was great. it would have been greater if i weren't bleeding. but i kan't control bodily functions, can i? slept alot. cooked 2 packets of noodles which i cldn't finish at night, and very dilute milo which was acherli the highlight of my meal. but cooking was the best part la.. that, and hearing the azans coming loud and clear from johor, malaysia. i was crying kwite abit for unknown reasons. the first 5 ppl walked around and came for a visit. it was nice to see them, but i diden join them cos i felt too gross. shahul went back alone and got lost, haha. tt was funny. ahmad and kwee yong came visiting too, later.. and in the morning ahmad went round waking ppl up. i went to sleep rite after isyak. but i kept waking up after like, 30 mins to 1 hr.. dunno why. it was a cozy sleep, though. aside frm the fact tt i dreamt about wishing stairs at one point. eek. i was cuddled up next to my bag with my mosquito repellent and lighter within reach. also watched alot of flies kill themselves in my candle as i tried to write a note to jon. ohyah. i am and excellent lighter-lighter. my first time, and it lit beautifully! i am an expert. woohoo. haha. hm i woke up waaay before subuh. and solo was over. i'd welcome another one, acherli. next time i'll bring more insect repellent. for example, mortein. haha. and i'll also invent a grasshopper repellent. you shd have seen those idiots invading my groundsheet every 5 seconds! and me slapping the stupid groundsheet to skare them away! haha. itz funny now, but i was freaked then cos i thot they'd jump into my clothes or smthg.
we got back to camp 1 safe and sound. i quickly went to change my pad. we diden do much, just had a mini sea ex, got a briefing on the sea ex, and went to unpack and pack at the bunks. and that was when i asked him. in his track pants and jacket and glasses and earring and pulling tt adorable beanie on and off, how could i NOT? and no one overheard, and he sed okay.. -cries- haha i just remembered, we were sitting in the aircon room during the briefing and ivan and i were just dying of pee. it was hilarious. finally we just scampered out of the room, really cuden take it anymore.. ohyah and after the mini sea ex i saw an expression on mr. wangi�an syurga's face tt totally killed my opinion of him. haha.
next day was sea ex. i died. soopa happy to land on sembawang beach. the 5.8k run was.. haha funny. i did not run at all. but i completed it, nevertheless. there were these stupid mats who set up camp rite next to us. and they even called my name out loud! freaky.
day after tt, we woke up at 3-plus am.. kayaked around 5-plus.. went to causeway [where amir saw us!!!].. and i switched kayaks with mag n ivan.. then began my ordeal. kayaked with kwee yong, then we both started crying.. then with yee yen.. and zhenzhen started crying.. then we beached up, and i spent the time peeing and relaxing in the sea.. then with ivan.. we were usually infront.. but then ivan's abrasions got too much, and we died and started cursing.. then mark came over instead, and HE started cursing.. then frank and sumit [or however yu spell it] saved us by towing us to changi ALL THE WAY. yu don't know how grateful i was to them. i felt like such a jinx. and towards the end, it got cooler and mark was like, freezing. wahaha. saper suruh tak pakai baju. hez so kurus summore. so i paddled while he splashed in the water.. and when we reached our destination, the waves crashed us to shore.. ooh skary.. cos sumit got crushed by our stupid jinxed kayak. but tt night was the second best i ever had.. we had a lovely shower.. and hung out at the sidewalk cooking.. feeding the cats.. i finished 2 cans of campbell's soup with shi han.. and shared my owl cereal with denise mag ivan and shi han. mm.. had a good sleep too..
then the next day, we kayaked back to lovely lovely ubin.. my hero, OM, was kayaking alone.. haha. so cool! he rawks.. when we got back i was just sooooooo happy!!! so happy, i was helping out everywhere. carrying the kayak here, taking out stuff there, bringing the trolley down, etc.. we showered, then we climbed the tripod.. wow.. ours was really easy, but yu shoulda seen OM's.. i was staring practically open-mouthed as he caught hold of the trapeze bar.. like sum circus natural or smthg. anyway my commitment was to study every week. haha. tt in itself is a tall order. but i'll do it. i'll see myself standing up there on the plank, like wendy on hook's ship, and i'll do it. i'll see myself down there watching him swinging on the bar, and i'll do it. i'll remember as the whole eng soon rushed to the belayer and pravin prepared to jump onto the bar. hehehe. cute sey.
i woke up on the last day, with just me and denise in the tent. for sum inexplicable reason, i thot tt the tent was floating in the water, and tt i was supposed to paddle us around or we'd go off course. then i saw denise sleeping, and i heard someone say, "don't worry, yu dun need to paddle, we're towing yu.." so i went back to sleep. hey. i acherli FELT us swaying in the water. =P then it was the 9k run. i really really wanna thank tt pj gerl, i forgot her name, for supporting the 3 of us [sha, azza (?), me] thruout the run. and my 5-day obs memories too.. the last 3 km or so was all the 5-day obs memories flooding back. cos it was part of our land ex route. the land ex tt fana and i navigated us along.. i saw the tarmac road.. the roadsigns.. the shelter we ate lunch at.. the sluice gates and the bridge and the water rushing past. and i remembered everything. i remembered why i went back for the 9-day. i ran the last 100m or so alone.. they were banging on pails.. and screaming.. and cheering.. and i was getting goosebumps, although i'm not sure from what. i am sure that i stole a glance at he who was sitting there with the pail-bangers and cheerers. and i was rubbing my arms to rid myself of the goosebumps.. yeah so anyway, i did it. in 1 hr 33 mins or smthg along those lines. yu know what, i couldn't believe it when we reached the tower just outside the gates. i thought i was hallucinating. haha. guess i owe it to the 2 times a day pt also, for getting me thru the run. i really thot i'd take 2hrs. and more. anyway then it was breakfast. then back to the bunks. in the end we just lost the entrenching tool. which was about 6 bucks.. thanks to the super organised storeperson, i'd say. who was that, yu ask? ME!!!!!! hahaa. then we went for the last meal and the story continues in the previous entry. =D
i had so much fun. i took away with me countless memories, a fitter body, many new friends including the one i've been wanting to make, 2 new tshirts and a new metal waterbottle, and a lovely, if somewhat uneven, tan. and i feel so much better about myself. hello, this is ain, who termengah-mengahs after 1 round of the track! and i completed a 9k run!!! with minimal aches and pains! [seriously. my worst aches n pains came from stupid kayaking.] well yah. so ttz it. everyone who has not gone for obs and still has a chance too, plz go yah..

i can't type. or write. or hold cutlery. i'm also sleepy. not tired tho. but sad. also happy and ecstatic. overjoyed. expectant of things to come. embarrassed. alot la. right now my body is capitalising on sleepy, but since i love blogging so much, i decided to sacrifice sleep to give a brief rundown. don't worry, i wasn't kempunan blogging during obs, cos i kept writing in my journal. =D
anyway obs was great and all, i managed to do everything and i MEAN everything, including finishing the inverse tower all by myself, and finishing the 9k run in under 2 hours.
but what i really wanna talk about was the highlight of today. cos the rest of it is already encapsulated in my obs journal. so anyway, the highlight of today, and the entire course, was OM, of course. buddy watch summore. i was sooooo happy. wasn't even homesick. not a little. and i really think it was bcos of him. like, there was something to look forward to everyday, and that was seeing him. yesterday he scaled the tripod first and swung onto one of those trapeze kinda bars. i was just awed. but no one noticed, dun worry. anyway just now our watches were the last 2 to have lunch, and i waited till the ppl in my watch were napping and his watch was relaxing, then i went up to him and he looked up and sed, "oh! yah.." and he got up and followed me as i got up to take the camera. then he stood there and asked, "take where?" and we trying to decide then he decided to stand infront of the pool but then the sun was behind us, so we moved sideways, then went to sum nondescript blue wall.. and he was like, "like photo studio liddat.." haha. sorry. i'm just.. enraptured.. then we took two fotos. mag was like, "stand closer.." haha waddehell. then we were done and he was like, "muz give me one ok?" hello?!??! OM, if yu wanted me to give yu the whole camera i would! couldn't stop smiling after that. he just looked so good today. and everyday.
but anyway i checked the camera later and there was no sign of the gambars. reallyreally sad. but i'm gonna ask for another one. next yr, i suppose. i mean, when am i gonna see him again rite? yah hopefully he'll be as nice as he was today, and the past 9 days.. aaaarrgghh.. bigbig crush!!! you can't spend 9 days watching someone seem so handsome and heroic and NOT stop crushing on them.
when i got home today it was empty and i just stood in the doorway staring at the balcony, about to laugh. cos throughout the past nine days i never thought once about home. and itz like i forgot i live here, at home, not back there at ubin. funny rite?
anyway i want to write so much more, but i'm really sleepy. will dump my clothes and eat den sleep. dah. next time i finish this k..

ohyah how cld i forget. when we were at the yishun house, there was this other family tt came. one of the minimats looked almost exactly like arman, that cute oeps boy who sumtimes takes the bus with me. but i diden know how to verify that. ohwell. too bad. he was cute anyway.

yesterday was much cooler than the day before. haha. firstly, i woke up late, like 12-plus.. and did not go out of the room until the guests left. then i just lek2ed at home till we left house at 3-plus. we basically visited abah's relatives and mama's relatives.. so it was cooler cos the people we visited were generally not sad ah.. and not in a sad state. denn.. ohyah my sister picked me and zul up at yishun around 8. and we wended our way out of the maze tt was yishun ring road to northpoint.. found my stuff, ate my last mcpepper meal.. and we went home.
ayah saw my fone yest and asked who it was. my sister saw my fone yest too and sed, "is this kumara?" i wanted to die. and i screamed, "NO!! y would i want his picture on my fone?" and later in the car she asked, "so issit a guy or a girl anyway?" and once again i was indignant. and i exclaimed, "duh, itz a guy!!!" and can you believe she sed, "well.. you know.. sometimes itz too dark to tell.." i really wanted to die then.
ooh in northpoint mac's this vik came in ah.. glasses, BEAKY NOSE, cute. for one wild moment i thot he was latte. but don't worry, everyone, he wasn't. isn't. whatever. hehe. but if latte has an adik, i think thatz the one.
anyway i'm all packed and i think i look like i'm going into the army or smthg. hello, even ns guys don't carry half the load i'm carrying, i bet.. and i know i'll embarrass myself there somehow. God, pls dun let me embarrass myself. anyway, goodbye civilisation.

ohyes forgot to say.. i got an early, albeit accidental, birthday present frm my sister today. itz a polaroid cam--instaxmini or smthg liddat. itz pink!

so tiredddd.. but i thot i'd just check in and say that. got home at 10. i know we were travelling in the car and all, but itz still tiring. and ppl saying i'm tall doesn't help things. are they blind or smthg? well, when *I*'m tall, itz relative. literally. everyone in my family is short[er than me, but my brother will probably grow summore anyway], so of cos i look tall. seriously. 161? tall? bullshit sia. get an eye.
i had the greatest meal [if yu cld call it that] at mak ngah's hse. it was juz lontong and sambal goreng, dry. but the sambal goreng was like wo. firstly, no tahus. secondly, itz 70% parus. thirdly, it has prawns. and last but mostly, the paru is soooooo soft and un-chewy! i'd go so far as to call it "melt-in-the-mouth".. so i vow that my parus, when i learn to make them, will be the same.
ok bye.

malas nak post, acherli. but i'll just write a few lines. selamat hari raya, all.
to those i know i was supposed to send cards to, sorry, the laziness kinda got out of hand this year.
to those who got irritated when i was too noisy, too crude, too anything, sorry bout that too. but expect more from me in the coming year. and i'll be apologising again, i'm sure.
to people i still owe stuff [e.g. $$, books, favours, etc.] to, siler halalkan. or yu kan forgive and remind me, but isn't halalkan so much better for all of us?
to others who feel i owe them some sort of apology that doesn't fall under any of the above categories, this is it.

my sister just saw a dead cat. run over by a car. ee. kesian.

so like i was saying, selamat hari raya.

heyy.. i've been slacking ard this ramadhan.. haven't done anything except wash my own plates. so at least i'll have smthg to apologise for. anyway, we just got a new reader's digest condensed book!!! it has a nicholas sparks inside!!! i cannot wait to read it..

which idiot is masaking at this time of the nite?

i smell kari. kari ayam? kari daging? the all-in-one kari tt u eat with roti kirai? mmmmmmm..

hey.. i'm not a hari raya buff.. haven't been for some years.. but there's a nice way to get into the mood.. fireworks! now, i know they're banned here, but you kan check them out on yur comp! really nice.. really cool.. fireworks, here i come!

i found a new bus route to skl!!! haha itz 12 till somewhere in kallang, and 196 to bv.. heh. can't wait to try it out.

guess what. my mom acherli mentioned the topic of the photo on my mirror today. haha. we were watching theem thaka theem [or however it is yu spell it..] and my sister was like, trying to make her change the channel since, of course, we diden understand a word of it, then my mom was like, "eh, korang sumer ader matair india, korang tanak tengok.." and i was like, "hey! aper korang sumer? satu orang je pe.." and she was like, "abeh gambar tu? bukan india ke?" yeeps. maluuu.

heyya. i went to watch wishing stairs with my mom and brother today. i met that st. nick's gerl again.. she'll be in sec 3 now.. haha i still dunno her name, and she doesn't know mine, but i know tt she was having lunch at tm with her mom.. haha. anyway the movie was really skary.. but if yu realise, there's not much of ghosts.. more like spooky situations.. i kept screaming and screaming, of cos. and there was this couple sitting infront of me, and they acherli LEFT about 20 minutes before the show ended. can yu believe it? buang duit sey. but then again, people who spend half the movie with their hands over their eyes pon tgh waste duit rite.. haha. and no, i wasn't one of them. i closed my eyes only about 20% of the time.
oh i watched dil hai tumhaare yest.. i dun like the ending, and therefore, i dun like the movie! ooh and i also watched rugby world cup finals just now.. i really think aust was being dumb in the first half.. buang karen je support diorang.. and i still love wilkinson.. hez really really cool.. ... the glimpses of the royal family were cool too.. harry rocks.. [all harrys rock.]

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.--10 Things I Hate About You

okay i'll go into details here and now.
so i met fana at tampines mrt, about 10 minutes late. then we went straightaway to century square, and she was telling me the latest news on chu bang. then infront of metro we stopped and i gave her the layout. i wanted to masuk by the second floor to avoid "confrontation" but she insisted we have a head-on. so we went in, and went up, and impostor was there giving out the [what are they called?] brochures. and he smiled and gave me one. and his hair is flatter, and longer, and dyed, btw. a sophisticated shade of red. fana thinks he's cute. at last she agrees. then anyway, upstairs, OM was there, and looking really.. survivor-ish. but tt diden stop me from dying. then we just checked out the kids clothes and bags and stuff while fana finished her chu bang story. and i also bought a pink tshirt for 10 bucks. yeah! then we went back to the table and OM was gone! impostor was there. presumably they switched places. but i donated anyway, and then we went back down, and we passed OM, and i just looked at him, and he apparently smiled. haha. then we just walked around the place. there was this cute but young vik with his brother n dad in sembawang music centre. plus a load of vcds i really wanted to buy but had no money to. and we hung out in the toy department, where we found this cool bratz organiser-cum-electronic games thingy. there were personality quizzes, which were longer than the great wall of china, and therefore i never found out my personality, and a matchmaker game. fana was inputing her name and chu bang's, and she got like 9 out of 12 hearts. argh. i got really unsatisfactory results, including some 3 hearts result. hello?!?! tak fair. of course, i could attribute it to the inaccurate birthdates. i diden really know OM's and fana diden really know chu bang's. so we just guessed them. come to think of it, i have no idea why we diden try clemmy-memmy, since we all know his birthday. haha. oh then there was this music section, with those blaring mini keyboards and teeny guitars and all, so i picked up the guitar and started singing sum song for mugant: "oh mugant, aku tahu kau kenal [insert OM's name] sebenarnye, so biler kau dah dengan fana, siler intro.." smthg liddat. and fana found the magnetic board thingy and wrote "mugant, if you read this, please contact farhana at jurong jc" while i added "ain likes [insert OM's name]". it also reminded me of ili n me drawing our three friends on the magnetic board at carrefour ps. haha. we checked out the powerpuff towels too.. and then we went for a last round to see OM. but we bertembunged with impostor and a new guy at the escalator, and the new guy was so totally on my case! i swear he knows the real reason i was there. so i couldn't really look at OM cos they guy was just menyeboking there. oh and then fana and i were stalling at the perfume department downstairs, and there was a whole connexion rack.. we were dying to get the perfume, but like how ex rite? then i knocked over a bottle of lotion which was, thankfully, plastic. and we found the sample bottle and i squeezed a huge glob out onto my arm. then the security guard came and i tried to quickly rub it into my arm, but it was like, too much, so it wasn't really absorbed.. haha. and fana had to wait for the guard to finally walk away before she got some lotion on herself too. haha. by the time i came out of metro, i reeked of connexion lotion.
and that was my brush with OM, this holiday. it felt so nice to be seeing him around home territory. itz a much nicer feeling than seeing him ard skl.

hey dahlings. my body is aching allll overrr.. i'm not sure why. could be the bed. could be the pool. could be the walking around trying to get a glimpse of OM without letting him glimpse ME. haha.
yes i'm taking a break from class chalet now. useless break, in terms of physical comfort. haha. but nice break anyway. i'm going to be really brief cos i haf to asar before buka.
yest we reached there right on time, and *I* spent the whole afternoon bumming around the hse, watching bend it like beckham and reading a mary higgins clark [yu belong to me] and bukaing milo. the rest did about the same things except they went out for dinner after the movie and came back around 8. then we watched ten things../guys went to the pool, then we went playground where we played 'police n thieves' and i got beribu bruises, and then some went to the beach, while me being the bum that i am, went back to the hse to watch LOTR: the two towers with a few other bums. then i tried unsuccessfully to go to sleep. really unsuccessful. but i got about 4 hrs altogether.
today i sahured insignificantly, and we went to the pool around 10.. stayed till 1210.. it was fun. there was this cute guy who didn't really look like a PERSON, but more lyke a cartoon character. prominent brows and eyes and all. veh cute. haha. i also got a tan. but it seems to have faded already. damn. then watched abit of panic room and went to meet fana at tampines. and i finally saw OM. but guess who i saw first? impostor! and he smiled and gave me a leaflet. haha. OM looks like he's been on survivor or castaway or something. but he still rox. i'm sorry, would love to give a blow-by-blow but i'm running late.
but everyone must remember to check out tampines mall's toilets if yu haven't already! they put heeren's ladies toilet to shame. that pic was taken there just now. =D

hi babes. i'm so sleepy, can't open my eyes. muz be all tt metro aircon. yes i had metro cip just now. haha. it all started yesterday, when i was sleeping my cares away till ivan called and woke me up at 2. [p.m., fyi.] so i agreed to take over him for today's 11-4 shift. it was.. okay. ttz the only word tt can describe the experience. haha. i shall number the bits that were more interesting to me.
1. did NOT get lost despite it being the first time i was going there by THREE buses [yes i'm a bus freak. hey itz better than taking NEL and having to pay for it.]
2. talked to the fellow volunteers about 5% of the time.
3. watched this "flirting in the clothes department" scene between 2 viks and an aimee with a mixture of amusement and annoyance. cos i thot one of the viks was cute. he was frm ite bukit batok.
4. there was a cute mim guy working in the levi's department. tall, wolverine-ish hairstyle, nice face.
5. about 50% of the people who donated declined the offer of the booklet and/or the bear. and 100% of these lovely individuals donated generous amounts ranging from 2 bucks to 50. others, who donated prolly 50 CENTS, acherli TOOK the booklet off the table for themselves! [okay tt was only one person but sheesh!]
6. i spent 5 hours there, and i was simply shocked at the non-crowd tt was there. really. yu know, holiday season and all? where were the people?
7. i saw zul "degreeless specs", ex-vs there. but of course he doesn't remember me. he was also the only person i recognised there.
8. my favourite donor has to be this eurasian man with his wife/daughter who greeted me with a cheery hello and joked around with us, and donated 10 bucks. hehe.
9. we were sitting right infront of female clothes section and i was just watching these YPs checking out dresses for prom nite and thinking, "been there, done that, bought the gown!" i was also admiring the displays and the dresses, and deciding what to wear next year. i kind of have it down in my head already. haha. oh and plus, i got to watch as they changed clothes on one of the mannequins. haha. cool sia. i wanna work in the female clothes dept!!! ooh i also kept eyeing this 29.90 bucks skirt.. haha. but of cos, takde guts to try it on.
10. not a single orang melayu/muslimin/muslimah donated while i was there. now THAT speaks volumes.
anyway then it was finally over and i dropped by sengkang library [which, btw, rocks. itz like a condensed WRL. i lurve it.] and got 3 more mary higgins clarks [one of them is a joint effort by her and her daughter].. just finished one tadi. =)

"found" tt pic, among others, at baba's hse. haha. i used to love playing payday. damn fun sia. and i still remember how loser old me played it ALONE, BY MYSELF, once. sheesh. takder kerje betol.
i got semi-porn from aishah. it was an email showing sp students engaging in.. ACTS. itz really.. interesting. as in, the pics were taken in broad daylight, or at least, broad light. and those ACTS took place on like, the dirty brick floors!!! eeeww. well, asal korang bahagia.. =D
had flag day today. it was horrible. okay, not really, when you compare it with my previous flag days. it seems that my flag days improve marginally larh. but just now, i was reminded of how much i hate flag day, therefore, i SHALL NEVER SIGN UP AGAIN, EVEN IF OM BEGS ME TO, and i shall just do my part by donating. if tradition persists, only to the cute guys. haha. hm. was at the junction outside paragon. i loved seeing the cool cars drive past. lotsa racecars.. no open-tops though.. but there was this HEEEUUUGGE jaguar.. i think it was a jag ah.. anyway, it was blue, and really huge! it was quite abit higher than normal cars, for starters, and like, 10cm longer, and basically, it just looked like one monstrosity there ah.. the only thing i liked about it was the colour. hey, maybe i can be a driver! i mean, sekurang�nye i get to drive a nice car.. hm. how does one become a driver? anyone with info, pls share. and plus i'll shatter that stereotype of 40-plus male drivers.. cool! hmm.. oh there were like, billions of police cars and buses.. haha one driver was cute.. and 2 consecutive delifrance lumpurs, who were really nice! the first one was giggling as he donated to me. i'm serious. itz the only word to describe what he was doing.
hung out at the library too. i lurve tt place man. i did NOT want to leave, seriously. got a new mary higgins clark. and i dun get why the libraries give offers for people who borrow 8 books, cos I CAN'T! aarrggh. read this cute mag called sugar. itz.. irritating at times, but i lyke the real life stories alot. isn't it amazing to read of 14-year-old guys talking about kissing and 14-year-old girls having sex for the first time with a 28-year-old, subsequently having a miscarriage at 15? ooh and i diden know some ppl get their period even when they're pregnant. cool. oh and i was just wondering, how would the pharmacist react if i bought a pregnancy test kit?
reached home around 2, did everything quickly, and slept. ooh.. sleeping rox. waking up when you're not ready sux. i acherli slept thru my 630pm alarm. tsk. ooh and i lurve my new wallpaper! matches my desktop theme perfectly..

i haf a new pic on my fone! check it out, it rocks. also check out dogs playing poker on gamescene.com. hehe. i'm addicted to it. except when i lose badly. went to baba's hse today. had fun browsing thru fotos!!! woohoo! she got her fotos, and i got mine. =D it was really fun when we were freaking out over the stop/play buttons. wahahaha.
alrite 10 minutes to buka. can't wait. i'm dying now. i mean, can yu believe i sahured on FOUR epok-epoks? how does one live liddat?
bye babes!

well. let me just state from the beginning of this tt i diden see OM. would anyone like to know who i DID see? BFG!!!! BFG!!!! hello? where is the justice in this world? and speaking of justice, how is it tt sya managed to see samit yesterday? while i was rotting in the bamboo garden with the spiders, believing he was dead? okay whatever. sekurang-kurangnye i know he's alive.
i went to ikea with fana. it was cool! and fun! i lurve all the displays and stuff.. and itz another of the places that makes me wish i was rich.
there was that fruitless trip i mentioned, of course, where i diden get to see OM.
and today i watched mere yaar ki shaadi hai. i think it means "my friend's wedding". so yes, as the title suggests, itz like my best friend's wedding, except this time the best friends get married. which is the kind of ending i like, of course. and BOTH jimmy shergill and uday chopra are in this film, so it was almost like watching mohabbatein all over again. anyway this film rocks, itz cute and sweet and everything. i lost count of the number of times i cried. i lurve movies tt make u cry. -sigh- and unfortunately, baba took dil hai tumhaare yest so i haf nothing to watch now.. takpe i'll just immerse myself in barbara delinsky. she writes soppiness, but itz not tt bad larh..
oohyah yest i saw HL guy!!! whee! he was with sleeping guy, acherli. haha. they carpooled. saw my cvg too. that was about the only good thing about my pw disaster.
watching dark angel now. jessica alba is so cute. haha.
okay i'm done here. bye.

today wasn't interesting or fun, by any standards, but it was fruitful. i guess. so just wanted to record tt. haha.
i acherli went to skl lyke normal today. as in, aiming to reach at 730. and stuff. but it was cooler today. i was just idling at home after subuh. i just hung out on the armchair watching geng skru drebar with my mom and dad. anyway itz kwite a funny movie. i think rahimah rahim [not only has a silly name which goes right there with buang bin pungut but] is great and really funny. nuraliza is not bad, shez pretty cute and funny in the movie. so anyway, i went out of the house like, 10 minutes later cos i diden wanna be so early.. and i mati� thot i took the soopa late train.. but i almost fainted when the clock at bv sed 7.11!!! aarrgghh. yah but it was okay. no biggie. just surprising ttz all. my body clock muz really be off.
there was that little fiasco between amir and his favourite teacher. haha. and i was trying to go to the concourse when i saw him about 50-100 m away, and i did this about turn and went back to the lab.
sya's cvg was there practically the whole time. no fair. i diden see a soul.
but we did practise twice, and crap out about 10 new minutes. haha. so now we prolly have 20-plus, if we're lucky. plus that wonderful calendar with the bones.. haha. we also managed to get a new file and new dividers for ourselves.
saw ex-fren for, oh, i dunno, 30 seconds?
went to the library where i finally discovered the adult section. i blush to think i have been rummaging in the YOUNG adults section for the past 2 years or so. aaarrgghh. buat maluu... got another mary higgins clark, which i will start later, and a barbara delinsky. i think i've read her before, but i forgot what.
tomorrow i'm stalking/looking at/supporting OM! and pw will be over too! this is too much. woohoo!

as usual, another boring, eventless day at home today.. so basically i have nothing much to report..
but this site is funny.. click

tangisanku buatmu.. tetapi takkan pernah kau tahu..
Why can't we be Friends(4x)

I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya 'round for a long long time
I really, I really, I really remember when you drank my wine

Why can't we be friends(4x)

I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya walkin' down to China Town
I called ya, I called ya, I called ya
But you did not look around(yeah yeah)
I paid my I paid my I paid my money to the welfare line
I seen ya, I seen ya, I seen ya standing in it everytime

Why can't we be Friends(4x)

The color, the color, the color
Of your skin don't matter to me
As long as, as long as, as long as
We can live in Harmony(yeah yeah)
I kinda, I kinda, I kinda
Like to be the president
Then I could, then I could, then I could
Show you how your money�s spent

Why can't we be friends(4x)

Sometimes I don't speak right
But did i know what I was talking about
I know you're workin for the C.I.A.
They wouldn't have you in the mafia

Why can't we be friends--Smash Mouth

i was just thinking.. the two situations seem similar. one gatal girl. one changed guy. knowing the guy longer than the girl has. yet the girl appears to know him better. how unfair it all is. and how we refuse to relinquish our hold on the items tt remind us. that give hope. however teeny. itz still hope. and we hold on tight.
this is why movies should never be like real life. so that we in the real life realm can watch the movies and think, "if only my life could be like this.." if movies mirrored real life, we'd watch a movie and think, "itz just like my life!" and THEN what can we hope for?

at the way things are going, i'll be glad to just pass pw.
watched mujhse dosti karoge today. itz really great, fana was rite. really sweet and all, and the song is nice too. life is so boring now i can't eat or do hw or anything liddat. haha. ohwell. wait until wednesday.

well. official school is over. official malay is even more over. haha. while waiting to be released after the paper just now, all i could think about was how i no longer have to take malay anymore--no more malay lessons, no more green book or karangan book or bahasa book. no more kuliahs and ceramahs. no more staring down at the tiny black table, forcing myself to stay awake. no more glancing out the window every 2 seconds. i wanted to like, laugh, smile, everything!!! but of cos i had to compose myself.
nth much happened today. i mean, hello, itz malay. what would happen? hmm. there was talking about 5 cm away from spy. that was cool. and ex-friend, of cos. and there was OM. hehe. i took that pic today. and i only just realised what a nice pic it is. very colourful.. and i'm sure that i'll be looking at it decades down the road and missing skl life.
watching the killing fields now. half-watching, anyway. if only to get more background info for this wednesday. haha. i dun understand the storyline yet tho.. but watching the scenes are enuff. ooh and i finished another mary higgins clark today. i lurve her. she is a genius. but i think reading nonstop has kept me from thinking. so i haven't thot about the artsfeste thingy yet. i'll probably do tt tomorrow, since i'll have a lot of time on my hands from now on. oh and i'll also watch the vcds fana lent me. that should fill up the weekend. haha.

today was really fun. it was great being all little-girly once more. anyway it began well, although, like i was complaining, both OM and i were "late" so we diden get to have our last private time of the year. arrrggghhh. ohwell. it wasn't meant to be. also saw samit's fren. again. second time this month. but no sign of samit. next time if i see his fren again i'll ask him about samit. how bout that? eeyer. buat malu je. but thatz nothing new for me. anyway then we repaired the damage done to our pw. and i lurve CJ's "video". itz very.. simple and succinct. den.. yah we were supposed to end at 930 but of cos, due to pw, ili and i ended up leaving a little after 12.
ili was really surprised at my people-spotting speed. hey, i've been perfecting this art for like, 4-plus years! of cos i'm fast! itz one of the coolest hobbies ever! we were walking past the nike shop and these 2 cj viks walked out. woohoo! that was cool. that was great. haha. okay then we wanted to watch the matrix revolutions, but it was sold out at ps. [my brother, btw, watched it today, and ended up being late home for buka. hmph. the fairness of the world.] so we explored spotlight. i've always loved spotlight. itz so... colourful and homely and stuff. i used to go to the orchard point one all the time, and i used to buy the cute little mini home appliances. for unknown reasons. dunno where they are now. but anyway, today i went crazy and tried on tiaras and halos and boas and stuff, and posed for pictures. infront of the whole world!!! why why WHY wasn't i embarrassed enuff? [we'll get back to tt later.] so yes, up there's one of the pictures. ooh i tried on wings too. wanted to get them, but diden know the price so malas. in the end i bought a silver star wand and a sheet of stickers. but wait. ttz just spotlight. and we spent like, one hour there. i'm serious.
went to carrefour too. first it was all food and huge aisles, so i was abit bored.. then we went to the skincare and beauty section.. haha. where i went to town, slapping blush and eyeshadow and smearing compact powder and lipgloss on my hand and face. hahah. i was all sticky in the end. oh and remind me to buy the sally hansen french manicure kit. yay. shd haf bought it just now, but i diden realise i had money until later.. went to the toy section after tt. had a monster truck showdown. i think ili won. but our last battle was explosive man! now i know why boys lyke cars. we hugged carebears, and played one of those keyboard things.. and i found lego clikits! they were advertised in cleo or her world or smthg. so i bought one set. itz not bad, kwite fun to mix and match.. but my ankle is too big to make an anklet, and it looks weird on my wrist. so i put my completed piece of craftwork on my bag. check it out! ooh i also bought charlie's angels: full throttle.. which i JUST watched and itz really fun! i dun lyke drew barrymore so padan muker dier takde boyfriend. hahahahaha.
we were walking to the mrt, and i saw a vik sitting in a group of three ppl on the floor. and i hissed, "vik!" and then they looked at me and the vik just kept looking. like, he turned right around and looked at me, even as i went in and down the escalator. [almost took the wrong one, i was so disoriented.] and then i just started blushing. HEY! nature! brown people [me] aren't supposed to blush! white ppl [batu, etc.] do! aaargh. my ears, my EARS were red! shit what if i start blushing infront of like, him when i'm talking to him?!?!?! buat maluuuuu!!! but anyway the vik was cute so i'd say it was a nice experience overall, apart from the extreme embarrassment. what is wrong with me and baba? we've been becoming more easily embarrassed lately! i wasn't embarrassed infront of billions of strangers when i posed in spotlight, but infront of ONE vik, i fry? sheesh.
oohyah forgot, we went to the library where i tried to check out the parenting section discreetly but failed due to malu-ism, and struggled to choose a mary higgins clark to borrow.
and now i'm home, still revelling from events [make that singular, sorry] of the day. =D viks rock. oh but guess what? i kan't go for the bollywood thingy!!! i have obs!!! arrrggghh.

i remember sitting on tt ride, clutching tight for dear life, and screaming your name. never ceasing. just screaming your name. feeling terrified, and screaming your name.
i remember feeling nervous, deciding what to wear, imagining your face. and when i finally saw you, my voice left me. and all courage left with my voice. watched you walk away, and they came back. and the tears spilled. couldn't stop. crying and crying, and i didn't know why. i could just watch me cry.
i remember scribbling in my textbook. your name. my name. and other names besides. weaving a story that'll never come to life.
i remember all the weird dreams. proposing to me in the malay room. comforting me. rebuilding my faith.
i remember the first time we met. it didn't seem so special then. but itz one of the few shreds of hope i cling onto.
i still save the chats. but you don't know.
i still smile at the thought of you. but you don't know.
and i'm pretty sure i still like you. but you don't know.

fana's right. itz so weird that there's this person you cry over, who's foremost on your mind, whom you always make a special effort for, whom you always dream about.. but they'll never know all that. itz funny. and it can't be helped. cos yu can't do anything to change the situation. cos u know u like them, but they'll never know. and you're not gonna be the one to tell them. cos u like them too much. and you can't make urself stop.
and i must be annoying the shit out of the people still reading this. bye.

as usual, wasn't going home in the best of moods. but i was in neutral mode, at least. decided to take the bus. i got the natural gas for cleaner air bus again. itz really cool. great aircon, comfy seats, nice view. it was raining when i got off at serangoon. and 53 took a helluva long time to come. and i was grumbling inside. but it finally came, and i sank thankfully into a seat right infront and started reading my book. but thatz not what i wanted to write about, was it?
someone tapped me on the shoulder. as i turned around, i was racing thru the possibilities in my mind. most of them were female. but i found myself facing him! and i acherli gasped. loudly. eeyer buat malu di khalayak ramai! so i'd just like to thank God for arranging fate such that i got to see him today. in the midst of the rain. the pw. the hunger. boredom. everything. i can't believe i could have missed him. if i'd chosen to pray asar at the surau. or if i'd taken train. or stayed at the artsfeste meeting. i came so close to missing him. but i diden. i diden.
i wanted to cry. laugh. scream. but we just talked for a couple of stops. as usual he expressed his disbelief tt i could be giler enuff to prolong my journey home.. haha. i'm always making him think i'm giler. ohwell.

okay so it was three bastards who stole his bike. i can't wish a fate deserving enough of them, so i'll leave it to God. and you know what else? now i kan't get that skater bag. cos i might as well contribute to zul's new-bike fund.
someday. they'll get their balasan.

hi. i'm still suffering from post-promos fever, i think. tired and all. [oh GOD my brother lost his bike! which bastard stole it?] and sleeping late + waking early is really damaging. not to mention pw. so today was ponning day. skipped chem lect, went to gallery n sat on the table watching handball. OM is really cute and funny and all. and BFG was funny too, which made me laugh and people looked up and i had to hide. sheesh. ponned maths lect too. and went home sleepy and tired. and none too happy. i hate sleeping on the bus cos itz so comfortable, you can't wake up, but u force urself to anyway, and end up feeling rotten.
watched elvis lives. he's really great. ok. bye.
wait. i really feel sorry for my brother. i think if i were him, i'd cry. and itz ramadhan now, so i'm really pissed with whichever asshole who stole his bike. and also, i think my brother went to terawih. how could someone steal a bike during terawih, during ramadhan? GOD. please get it back.
Are you lonesome tonight,
do you miss me tonight?
Are you sorry we drifted apart?
Does your memory stray to a brighter summer day
When I kissed you and called you sweetheart?
Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?
Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then they bring the curtain down.

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

my brother lykes beyonce and christina aguilera songs!!! [in addition to those normal noisy linkin park etc shits, of cos.] is it normal?

*kaoz* just checked the diskette to realise that the ppt we just slaved THREE hours over today is not in it!!?!?!?! i'm gonna cry. no, acherli i'm not. i don't cry over academia and the like. but still. we slaved over it?!?! i really dunno wat to do now. i feel lost. and u know wat else happened today? we left our "script" in the classroom, and later amir and i went up to get it, but we ended up hanging out outside the classroom for about 20 minutes cos we were skared to ask permission to go inside. so amir asked latte to pls retrieve the stuff for us. and so latte ducked under the camera to get the stuff. and guess what? it wasn't our stuff!!! i was laughing but crying, i swear. how did the day manage to go so wrong? and thatz not including our major ppt-sabotager-extraordinaire. she just barged in with her changes and i couldn't just sit there and watch and nod my head, so i scampered off to a free comp and sat there watching mun yuk edit her ppt. and doing a great job of it. i'm sorry. i had to run away. it was too painful watching our ppt being turned into a 1S03D PW grp clone. so yah. apparently it was changed twice. just as well itz gone, i guess. i'll try and see if we kan salvage it lar. haiz.
on a brighter note, i was in the toilet, trying to quell the urge to vomit after sitting thru 3 presentations. i was just standing there, infront of the mirror, looking at my urgh face. then i heard some guy's voice singing very close outside. dunno why, i thot it was latte. and he just continued singing to himself, at like, normal talking level or so. den i went out of the toilet and he happened to come out at the same time, STILL singing. and guess what? it was adam!!!!!!! i wanted to die. and he just glanced at me then continued singing and walking away. kalau ikutkan hati, i'd have just stood there staring, but i just shuffled a few steps away larh.. haha.
ooh also spent about 1-5 minutes of bliss at bus stop with OM. haha. if yu cld call it bliss.
i'm sorry. i believe PW has unhinged me. further than i've gone.

hey. i'm tired. all my efforts to forge ties between fana and clemmy-memmy have come to nothing. and my other efforts to track down mumu have been futile. totally useless. itz really tiring k!
but at the other end of the spectrum, my grp came to my hse today [first-time convenience for both julian and me!] and we just about finished the ppt. i think. i was supposed to do my script, but i'm kinda malas so it'll just be pushed to tmr ah.
there was a faint knocking on the door just now and my brother was like, "eh, someone's knocking." and i was like, "oh, really?" -trying to sound unconcerned but acherli skared- "you answer it ah!" i suggested. and he was like, "no, you go!" and we started laughing. and i sed, "are you sure someone knocked? i don't think so." "but i heard it!" he exclaimed. and so i sed, "then u answer it!" and then finally the person decided to ring the doorbell. "let mummy get it!" i sed. and my brother was like, "just answer it larh!" and started inching towards the door. and i was like, "turn on the lights!" so i followed him, while turning on the lights on the way to the door. anticlimatically, it was abg azhari. cheh. buat takotkan orang je.
hey, sorry, but i was watching the matrix so there was a scare factor in the air. haha. okay back to keanu reeves. hez so hot! ohwait speaking of hot, CJ was telling me how hot/cute/handsome aaron aziz is. haha. it was damn funny.

watched 25% of the first harry potter just now. haha. after doing a one-minute speech for pw. nothing like slacking, huh? anyway i'm not feeling great.. but i was just thinking that right now itz about 5 a.m. in the US and they're prolly not even awake yet so i was just wondering if i cld pop over and celebrate halloween there? someday, when i'm rich. i'll put that aside now, with my black/yellow/red sports car, black-and-silver-glittery wedding, bollywood movie, and [supposed] nine kids. no, cikgu, i'm not gonna marry ili's husband.
i really loved cip today. all cips should model themselves after this. plus, i'm semi-black now! haha. or so i think. =D

ohyes the pic of the guy there. he had this gorgeous, golden-brown tan.. really nice.. and those are blue reflective shades hez wearing. cute rite? haha.

heyya! itz a great day today. why? cos today i acherli went home from skl feeling happy. and why is that? hahaha. well... itz abit of a long and vague story.
we played floorball for pe again. it was fun! ..as floorball always is. i DO hate tt nyanyi2 guy tho. i think he's just all eksyen and no substance. and he's just seboking around, kalau comel takper, so he shd be shot. mr shah's hair is now sticking to his forehead. klakar sey. it looked betta when it was flopping about.
hm. took the train home. i was sitting there, reading the paper, i think. and then a couple of ppl got in. one of them was ili's "brother". haha. they diden c me at first, so i diden wanna have another sya's fren situation on my hands by calling out to them. so i shut up. then they came and stood infront of me, still not noticing me ah. then they looked at my shoes, and i looked at ili's "brother"'s shoes, and we all looked up. and sed hi. and ili's "brother" was like, "i saw ur shoes first..!" haha. anyway it'll suffice to say tt he's funny and really friendly now.. somehow it wasn't like this 2 years ago, i wonder why. as they left he was like, "so shd we call you kak ain?" hehe. yah tt brings up another point. girls call older gerls "kak". boys don't. neither girls nor boys call older boys "abang". hmm. not tt i want to! but just wondering why.
went to the library. got out 2 more books. oh as i walked into white sands, this... creature in black with the killer from scream head and a skeleton body walked around in what was supposedly a spooky manner. it took me awhile to realise it was cos it was halloween. btw, happy halloween. i lurve halloween. the whole idea of it is cool. too bad itz not a singapore thing. anyway, i won't be all arrogant and say i wasn't skared at all. i wasn't ah, but i was slightly shocked. he was like, THIS close to me, and he just sprung around.. i almost jumped backwards. BUT I DIN. i think they shd haf had more than ONE ghost prowling around. baru ader atmosphere sikit.
speaking of atmosphere, i finished the belut and lumut short saga. i'll end off with that.
Belut dan Lumut bersandiwara/Belut minatkan Lumut pada pandang pertama/Lumut terharu pabila terdengar berita/Mereka berdua bersama setelah sekian lama/Tetapi godaan dan cubaan tetap melanda/Seketul batu putih dilontar ke arah mereka/Belut mengelak, tetapi Lumut ditimpa/Kebahagiaan mereka terancam buat seketika/Namun, kepada kekasihnya Belut tetap percaya/Lalu cinta Lumut kepada Belut semakin membara/Dan Lumut melempar batu itu ke atmosfera.
Tamatlah riwayat Batu: berkecai pecah seribu.
Setelah mengharungi dugaan dunia/Belut dan Lumut tetap setia/Mereka hidup aman bahagia/Bergurau, bermesra, buat selamanya.
amin.

i am sooooooooo sleepy. goodbye, pasir ris library. i'm going home to sleep. sleeping at 11 and waking up at 4 is not really for me. so yah.
AND WHY THE HELL IS OM NOT HERE? THIS IS SOOPA MEAN! I WANT TO DIE NOW! HE SUCKS! [okay he doesn't.] AND SO DOES WHAT'S-HIS-FACE, EX-FREN! AAAARRGGHH. NASEB BAIK ADER SPY AND HIS VOICE. OR I HAVE TOTALLY NOTHING TO LIVE FOR. AT ALL.
i've been really pissy these past 2 days of puase.. i just hate having houseguests over.. not that they're staying over or anything, but they really disrupt my peace sia. but the thing is, like about 5 seconds before they're supposed to leave, i start feeling remorseful and angry with myself. whatever man me..
and pw sucks, once again. my group is not doing anything, once again. i'm bored, once again. and i can't go for a stroll cos there's nothing to look at. atvdgfuiegorhg. okay bye.

itz depression session, so you've been warned. leave or be forced to wallow in my self-pity.
do you think itz fair that you have to watch as the person you like likes a succession of people who are not you? the succession of people being people who have known him for a much shorter time than you? and at times, the succession of people being people who don't like him as much as you do? yet, you have to live with it cos he clearly likes them more than he likes you? itz really damn ouch ar.. and i think itz soooo soooo unfair.. in my better dreams, i imagine doing a thing or two to that succession of people, as shown above *bish!*.
oh forget it. i'm getting disgusted with myself.

hi. basically, i've been too bored and down and tired to do anything much. but at least today we did SOME pw. and tmr i have one more day to psych myself up for skl.. watching my sassy girl now. itz really pissifying in the beginning, all the bullying parts.. but sticking with it to the end pays off.. itz too too sweet..!
well OH was not bad ah, hot and bothery and exciting and fun and tiring and boring and all that. but overall, i'd say i liked it. hmm. highlights: this ac guy who looks great from a distance only, this other guy who was a mixture of many many cute guys, wearing a nice orange-patterned-on-white shirt, a tall, skinny vik from some white-uniform skl who was soopa lawar, dancing, playing congkak, watching some of bonjour and aloha. oh, also, there was this group of guys near the side gate, looking at the ghim moh blocks, and asking each other, "eh, whatz that? hostel ah?" "nolah, really?" "yarh hostel lah!" and i gave them weird looks for about 15 seconds before i told them, "no itz not a hostel--itz just HDB flats.." it was really funny.. there was also this cute pic of adam with a little boy on the cip board. damn adorable!!! hahaha. i also co-tour-guided one group with hana.. it was oklah.. i guess.. but it made me miss ex-fren's performance. i was sooo soo sad!!! i'll hardly get a chance to watch him again now.. haiz. diden really see many malays, and none i diden already know.. i guess they really dun lyke rj.. not tt i blame them or anything..
after that we went for the soccer match. through a stupid means [again], of course. haha. it was pretty cool ah.. but i dun see why vj supposed sat out the good players cos wouldn't it be better to have a real-type match? so rj won, 3-0. the second goal was soooo cool, he like, tore down 70% of the field with the ball and scored in a blink-and-you'll-miss-it-move. really cool. of course, adding to the atmosphere were the ORA 50-somethings who apparently were trying to prove tt they hadn't lost their sense of humour as well as their soccer skills. and sorry, but when i first saw OVA printed on the backs of their jerseys, i kinda thot it had something to do with eggs, and i don't mean the edible kind. anyway great match, and sya's fren was, of course, brill.
had a solitary 17 ride home. it was nice. i was listening to my latest cd and thinking of OM. i am seriously obsessed. oh and spent the whole usable part of yesterday watching lagaan. one of the songs was soooo familiar.. wish i knew where i heard it before. also kept flitting to chalte chalte, but i dunno how it ended. kinda lost track of time somewhere in the middle of those 4 hours..
ohyes i know ili wanted a commentary on the match or smthg, but thatz abt the best i kan do arh.. tata!

ooh! i've never danced so much before in my life! my legs are seriously falling off! you know how you feel after walking round orchard road on a shopping spree? well add that to barefootedness and multiply it by ten. thatz how i feel. argh i can't think straight. so anyway, if that is really HL guy's name, i hate it! itz so poserrr! ee.
oh i found two lengths of wire just now, so i spent simei to pasir ris shaping one into my name [to become yet another locker accessory] and the 359 ride shaping the other one into OM's name. or at least, 66.7% of his name. wahaha. but it was damn fun. i need to get summore wire. bes sey. it really takes my mind off prevailing worries/events/problems. and there's the plus point of looking soopa creative or smthg. hahaha.
ohyes. HL guy deserves his awards. OM is NOT a boy. he is a man. so there. kecil jgn disangka anak, besar jgn disangka bapa. ahahahaha.
watching rahsia perkahwinan now. itz so realistic sey! sharon rox. khai rox more. [i wrote about the show in my karangan, did u know? hehe.] oh and acherli there was a real-life drama being played out this morning, one floor above my flat. it was like, what, 6 a.m.? i was getting really pissed, it was so noisy. someone was banging on the door nonstop, screaming to be let in, etc. it was really scary. the voices floated down through my front door and the kitchen window, as if they were arguing right across. ee. i was glad to get out of the hse man.
ok dah i'm sleepy. nites.

*penat giler* so this pic should summarise the entire week.

okay. the ain awards.

main awards
most perfect: adam
most missed: samit
most charming: ex-fren
cutest [little boy]: HL guy
cutest [model]: latte
current favourite: OM

subsidiary awards
Toys 'R' Us most boyish award: HL guy
Hrithik Roshan Mr. Bollywood award: samit
Tatty Teddy [Me to You bear] most rabak award: OM
Gatsby nicest hair award: latte
Clarins Men[?] rosiest award: adam

well i finally did it. lyke about 2 days before i was prepared to. haha. well it wasn't as if we were gonna go on wednesday, so itz just as well. i'd just like to thank fana for letting me hold her hand and not making a big deal of me crying. [hey it hurt! and i diden BAWL, just teared.] most of the time i can't feel it there, acherli, which is dangerous.. haha. but sometimes it feels like a permanent piece of snot or smthg. haha. sorry to spoil appetites or anything. anyway none of my family members sed anything, which is acherli normal for them.. haha. i guess they feel as if i reached WEIRD a long time ago and this is acherli a few levels below weird. so.. yah. ohwell. hope most other people have the same non-reaction. haha.
i'm very tired. i think we walked around for hours! well, at least i was wearing shoes. guess what else i bought, btw. this man pendant which i put on my anklet, and THREE pairs of ankle socks!!! one of them is powerpuff, burgundy-purple.. [oh my mom just commented. wahaha. maybe lighting in the hse is bad or smthg.] so i'll probably wear those on open house, to distract myself from ex-fren and his string of gfs.
kissing a fool is soooooooo achingly beautiful.
You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough
To even make a start
You'll never find
Peace of mind
Till you listen to your heart

People
You can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So bye
But please don't take my heart

You are far
I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
to mend my heart
strange that I was wrong enough
to think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
I said you must have been kissing a fool

But remember this
Every other kiss
That you'll ever give
Long as we both live
when you need the hand of another man
one you really can surrender with
I will wait for you
like I always do
there's something there
that can't compare with any other

You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool
ohyeah i gave out awards during the last 5 minutes of econs. tapi cam malas nak type. i'll go on the laptop later larh. taz!~

haiz. itz wat time now, and i have not TOUCHED the econs tys, and now i'm online, typing this instead of doing pw. but nevermind.
anyway yesterday was a horrible mixture of shitty and great. ac open house was oklah.. the face parade was, as always, great. i saw alias and we found another lumut lookalike whom i liked straightaway. hahaha. no cute viks, unfortunately. then we went to citylink mph, where i wanted to die cos i lurvveee books!!! haha. we also did some of those fortunetelling shits.. apparently ili will have no career while my career will involve challenges cos i lurve them. then i went to hilton, where i had to breathe in about 20-30 minutes of secondhand smoke while waiting for my family. can i just say two things: 1. hilton sucks ass. itz definitely not the way i imagined it to be. how can they let people SMOKE indoors? -spitz- 2. the awards thingy was the suckiest, most off thing i've ever attended. photographer who held up the thing like, oh, 2863864 times? cos he had to change film. like, waddehell. and i won't even mention the glitch that involved me. but they were nice enough to hand out awards, so i appreciate that [only].
still, it wasn't a complete loss. i met shafa there. her brother got the award too. and we sat together and caught up on stuff [just barely] and laughed alot, which kinda made everyone look at us. but hey, it was a boring event! alot of cute ppl though. and others were interesting. this girl was in a prom getup which misled me to feel sorry for her at first. but it turned out she was acherli seeking glamour! hello! shez barely 13! pissoff. there was this cute guy who got the o'level award, even before i stepped in, i already noticed him. haha. he has big dyed hair, abit short and his name is ilham. wow. how apt. there was cute a'level award guy who was the son of this guy shafa's mom knew. warhh! unfair! but i soon realised how un-unfair it was when i went out and saw my dad chatting to this guy who had a cute PSLE award son. haha. thatz him in the photo there. he was really cool! checked shirt, finnish hair, and pants tt looked like breeches! even shafa thot he was cute! haha. he seems a little vain, tho. he kept checking himself out in the mirror. wahaha. yaH anyway it was great to see shafa again, especially in the midst of all these strangers and stuff. really helped keep me from going crazy.
btw, geylang is already all decked out for ramadhan and hari raya. i can't wait. but bus services are really giler nak mampoz at night, i was waiting for one hour before a bus came that i could even squeeze into. so yah. i really believe sbs is going downhill. i think that the absence of competition is making it complacent. hmph.
okay i shd be going to sleep now. i had this horrible nightmare about tomorrow's mcq. it suddenly morphed into this mcq+mini-data-response paper which lasted one hour, and halfway thru the data response i realised i had half an hour left, and i still hadn't touched my mcq!!! nightmare!

i'm soooo sleepy. but i'll try and stay awake. chatting to a cute guy now! haha.
i told people bout my sluardalam dream, didn't i? where he was pestering me to tell him what we'd look like if we were together. haha. but i diden mention my frappe@mrtstation dream. first i was at the library, which looked abit like popular plus mph, and i was heading towards the colourful kids' stuff section.. then i saw sya or someone, with a j2 guy ah.. and sya, or whoever it was, sed hi to me, so i sed hi back. and the j2 guy she was with like, did a double-take, and looked really energized to see me, and went into this whole monologue about how he was so glad to see me back, and how was i doing, was i okay, how about promos, what book was i gonna buy, what was i doing in the library cos he didn't normally see me there, and stuff liddat. and i finally escaped, thinking, "since when has he been so happy to see me?" then next thing i knew i was at bv mrt station, upstairs, with latte and decaf. somehow we were like good friends or something, and they were also rgs alumnis.. and we were just sitting there watching the trains go past and talking. then a train stopped and 2 ppl got out and in the middle of talking, i broke off cos the 2 ppl were frappe and cup of coffee. and decaf n latte noticed so they turned around to look and they waved to them ah.. and even though they were already on the escalator, it froze there as they had a short chat with each other. then when they sed bye it started moving again, and frappe waved at me.
yes what a stupid dream, i know. moving on, it was malay today. remember how i sed i wouldn't ever be washing my blouse? fyi, itz still hanging right in front of me right now. haha. yes i am that obsessive. if he knew.. i'm sure he'd totally convert to liking spy or something equally silly. oh and it was raining soopa heavily around 11.15 ah.. and ili n i were standing there waiting for sya when something totally fairytale-like occurred. we were just standing there, on top of the grimy steps, talking bout lumut. then this taxi came [one of the whole fleet that turned up at rj in the course of an hour, i'm sure] and lumut was inside! saw a taxi companion of his with a dark sticking-out-from-the-forehead shadow, and immediately jumped to conclusions: "latte!" the companion moved ever so minutely. and i realised, hey, thatz not hair, thatz a cap bill! [testament to the fact tt latte's hair IS topilike after all.] so i jumped again: "OM!" and whaddaya know, it WAS! and, as i narrated to sya later, the taxi became a carriage, the grimy steps were polished marble, and he was a prince ascending those steps, those really really stare-y eyes underneath the frayed cap that became a crown which got itz shine from him. -sigh-
moving on further, madame butterfly was nice. i truly love her anak, he is too adorable for words. and i have an abundant supply of those, as demonstrated above. haha. i also love the way she looks like she weighs nothing at all when he carries her. and i hate kate.
hm. that should be enuff. i'm hungry. nothing to eat, though. anyway credit for the pic above goes to ili, who was merely an accomplice today, she did NOT agree with our choice, unfortunately. obviously cos he's not her type. so takper. hez still cute. still undecided about his shorts, though. haha. sometimes i love my fone too much. too much.

today was.. okay.. i think my brains evaporated or something somewhere between june and now, though. so i'll get back to studying soon.
i was feeling damn shitty though, on the way home. but then there was this little boy/girl wearing a hoodie, sitting in front of me and looking at me. then he/she smiled. and waved at me and blew kisses and all that. sooo cute! it totally lifted my spirits. and you know how they say that if babies love you, you're attractive? yeah i was totally thinking that. not that i thot i was/am attractive, since babies usually don't like me. but yah. well. nite.

ohyah and acherli the reason i don't have a clippie is cos i diden take any pics today, and i've converted to the beautiful, wireless-interneted, all-portable laptop with the lovely nice-sounding keyboard. =D

skared. i haven't finished studying chem!!! tried doing the friggin papers but i can't!!! it was too hot and too boring and too everything. so i had to stop. i just can't take too much studying, i guess. now would be the perfect time to bising2 at myself for not studying earlier, but what's the point? best i can do now is try to remember all the stuff tt i know and pray that God lets me pass. this is really bye bye chem s. ohwell.
change of topic. i was feeling kinda rotten going home just now. i don't get it. it rains lyke siao, but when it doesn't, itz friggin hot! i can't take heat. i can't. so i was feeling shitty arh. and then i went to the library to study or get new books or both. ended up just getting books cos alot of noisy idiot kids were running around. i do not like noisy idiot kids. i was probably one myself, but i can still not like noisy idiot kids. at least i was cute. haha. sorry. i take tt back. anyway, i ended up taking out THREE more books. in the middle of promos. pandainye. oh whatever. but i started reading one of those books on the way home, and it really helped my put stuff into perspective. namely the factors causing the shittiness. i mean, they seemed so small in comparison to the problems facing the Kurds in the Iraq-Iran war.. [yes the book is about that. it seems really nice so far, itz called kiss the dust by elizabeth laird. remember her? she wrote red sky in the morning.] so.. yah. it made me feel less sorry for myself and all tt stuff.
but it still diden stop me asking stuff of myself. like, what is my aim in life? to build a collection of samit photos? or smthg more than that? and other related questions. ok i shd stop wasting time now. just wanted to prove to myself that reading rocks. now all i have to do is get through this week, then i can pierce my nose. woohoo! cannot wait.
ok at the very least, chem notes will be my bedtime reading for tonite. oh i wrote 2 [non-academic] lines just now: setakat "hi" dan "bye"/setakat senyum dan lambai. and i'll finish it over the rest of the year. yay.

hey dahlings. i feel soopa hardworking today sia! just made a concerted effort to understand ionic equilibria.. haha. now i can find previously-unfindable pH and all that kinda stuff. haha. but i still have about 4 chem topics to go and, erm, ALL the maths topics?!?!
anyway today started out really offly. i sacrificed half my pizza to catch the normal bus to catch the normal train. but the normal bus was late so i missed the normal train. i was soooooo pissed, and i'm sure sluardalam can vouch for me on tt. so basically all i saw was latte. haiz. nvm. did sum studying at mac's, went off at 9.15 to meet fana, was about 100m away from the holland v bridge when i realised i was supposed to be going red house. looked ultra stupid doubling back to the red house bridge. at east sussex lane, 1728364365 idiots doing SEWAGE works were bisinging at me. this asshole went, "good morning! selamat pagi!" i wanted squirt him with my bottle. heLLO! kalau kurus and muda, satu hal ah. but this idiot was fat and how old, and doing sewage works! arse off!
ohyah then the real adventure began. took 156 and met fana, and we got off at bishan. then she decided to articulate the fact tt her wallet was missing. so while she scrabbled around in her bag, i sat there feeling useless and noting the bus plate [1952]. when she finally realised tt it WAS gone, she flirted with ideas of taking a cab to chase the bus, etc etc.. before i reminded her tt she lost her $WALLET$. so we took the next 156 all the way to sengkang. there were these really cute minimats who got in at i'm-not-sure-where, but ttz a picture of my favourite up there.. haha. they were soopa noisy tho, so fana n me we kinda shouting at each other by the time we got off. anyway went to passenger service or whatever it is, which was, btw, conveniently located not 3 steps away from where we alighted. thanks to me, of cos, fana told the guy the bus plate number, and we got in the bus. however, i dunno if itz out of dengki or main2 or smthg, but he diden bother to switch on the lights. don't worry. that was nothing to me. while fana searched high and low in the wrong places, i stuck my hand here and there and found it within 10 seconds. and the case is solved, thanks to ain. =D sorry. i'm not trying to make fana look stupid or smthg, i'm just trying to show how amazing i am. grace under pressure, ttz me. modest too. haha.
went back to bishan, ran, died. i did like, what, 3 rounds? merepek sey. then took 156 [again].. where there was this cute guy with really dyed hair, which was spiked up in a mild porcupine style. wahahaha. took his picture too. yes, voyeur ain strikes again. studied at bk. till 5. not bad ah. like i sed, did alot of ionic today. acherli, did ONLY ionic today. ohwell. at least i'm done with it now. saper suruh skip beribu2 ionic lectures?
so yes, i'm done, and i feel much healthier [haha. still eating like a baby elephant, tho.], and i kan't wait for the aches tmr. haha. byez. i really shd be sleeping now. more adventures coming soon.

homewrecker.

i glanced at the sky, and i saw this huge ball of light, which really gave a me a jolt. then i realised it was the full moon. an exceptionally full moon, in fact. does it have anything to do with the fact tt itz nisfu syaaban? -totally clueless on agama- however, it was really lovely and very huge and extremely radiant. so i took a [really bad] pic of it. well at least you kan see how radiant it is.
i'm damn sleepy, and i have no idea why.
i was super smiley today. felt like it at least. but OM is sooo cute, there's just no other way to react!!! haha. fana finally decided to come over again today, and she saw the ones she wanted to see in order of importance.. it was so cool, like it was planned in advance or something. the moment we walked in, we met OM and his adorable tuala. then we kind of hovered around that area [toilet], and then she saw ex-fren, while i had to be content with hearing his voice. then it was kind of a tie between sya's fren/idiot and ili's. well, ili, fana says you have great taste. haha.
so anyway, all 3 papers today were killers. i just wasn't physically equipped to write and write and write for like, 4 hours, i guess. and the questions are lyke how hard. haiz. plus, halfway thru econs paper, my legs started hurting for mysterious reasons, and then my right hand also started to throb or smthg stupid liddat. eeyer. pissing, i tell ya. i really wanted to die. and i COULDN'T WAIT for them to say, "okay time's up!" the moment they let us off, i just hadta get out of there. it was really really bad! ohman.. shall not think abt it lar.
oh i shall just umumkan my plans for monday. go to bv as usual. sit at bus stop, take a 7.45 bus. study in skl till 9.15. go to red house, take bus to 6th avenue, and meet fana. go to bishan and run. rendam. mandi. study. go home. yay. itz all fana's fault. if not for her and her stupid chu bang, i wouldn't be inclined to go to skl on monday, for the same reason as her too!
dahlah. goodnite all. be safe!

you guys seem to be talking about how sheltered we are. so i'll join in too. went to the doctor today, with my mom. and she was just talking and talking to me. me being a total family antisocialite, sum of the stuff she told me was really shocking. for example, abang oli dyed his sons' hair!!! and suria left him! i'm sorry, but i was really shocked arh. yarh. but i really don't think i'm not that sheltered. or maybe i'm sheltered by a clear plastic sheet. cos i'm not shocked to hear tt malays are going backwards instead of forwards, wad with drugs and premarital sex and tattoos and stuff. thatz cos my family is filled with these kinda people. haha. okay i know itz nothing to laugh about. but yarh. still, what does it matter whether we're sheltered or not? i'm pretty sure the "malay elite" don't personally know runaways and shotgun-weddingers.
ohyah and i also asked my mom why she keeps bisinging at my brother these days. apparently girls call/msg him frequently. alot of them also allegedly like him. well, me being me, i thot it was pretty cool, but i cldn't tell that to my mom. i just sed i saw nothing wrong with that and she sed she wants him to concentrate on his studies. -shrugs- guess i can't argue with that.
talking to my mom tends to make me sad these days. i dunno, i just feel like crying when she tells me all these problems she has with my sister and my brother. and other ppl, of cos. i also find no problem with my sister and her bf, and i haf no idea why relatives are masuk campuring in that matter. but anyway, yah it just made me wanna cry, so to prevent tt i just shut up and continued listening. well at least it gave me a better reason to do soopa well in promos. haha. not that i will.
on a brighter note, i brought up nose-piercing with my mom, and she diden start screaming about body mutilation! so i guess it shd be fine. yup. can't wait! probably in november ah, or december. yayy. please God, let it be as painless as possible.

been surfing barbie.com for the past 2 hours. haha. also branched out to myscene.com and pollypocket.com. barbie is as nice as ever, they have cooler dressup games now.. and itz just soooooooooo fun! created 2 new magazine covers, wld have done more if i weren't so keen to explore the other new stuff. pollypocket is abit sucky tho. mebbe itz too kiddy even for me. they also have too much sound stuff, and my laptop speakers are kinda shot now. but myscene.com totally rocks! i was playing this cool fortunetelling game and asking stuff about my "crush" and they gave satisfactory replies like "he has a crush on you too" but "it's not the right time, ain. wait to hang out with" him! haha. and i just checked my horoscope there and it sez "OK li'l Miss Happiness! You're way too funny--in a good way. That's one of the many things your friends love 'bout you. But shooting off jokes won't cheer up everyone. Sometimes you gotta chill and just be the good listener you are." And apparently, "The Perfect Hottie has to be adventurous and smart, like you." haha. i thot it was just too cool! oh and please remind me to get a myscene doll soon. yay.
had a horrible ex-fren dream. dunno why i wanted to continue sleeping to finish it. it involved him and them and us getting mud baths, then he decided to submerge himself completely in a mud-bath-filled bathtub. and did not come out. i got all panicked and rushed over to him and banged on the bathtub, cos i was skared he was dead [he wasn't]. then i travelled down a curved travellator barefoot cos i wanted to be there for a vote meeting which would decide whether or not he'd win the triwizard cup.
my dreams are weird, just like me.
today was.. really different. but i think it was a nice change. we had breakie at bk, then sya n i went to skl, where i saw OM and impostor, in that order, and took an obs form [after 10 seconds of contemplation]. then back to bk, where we had lunch. and then home. and since then i've been stuck to this lovely wireless-internet-connection laptop.
haha. well back to surfing.

thatz been playing in my head since i did the stupidest thing in my life just now. today seemed to be a day of stupid things acherli. well it was a stupid day. memang padanlah.
chem lec was useless, of cos. forgot what i did then. then watched om handballing b4 another useless hour. then malay, which was not bad, did an express paper 2.. itz really cool the way cikgu zooms through the papers.. then a break which was spent investigating sya's fren's ponning tendencies. then an even more useless maths lec. it wins the most useless period of the day award. then i spent bio break at the GALL doing econs. so tt wasn't useless. but i was kinda fuming for unknown reasons, so i kept on slamming sya's fren, who, btw, appeared not to have let his ass come off the seat since morning. then gp was cancelled [cat chee is soooo nice!!!]. so we went back to gall. and i sat there slamming him summore and watching soccer. ended up watching soccer until 4.15.. haha. apeee je sey.
then. i was gonna take the bus home, when i glanced across the road and saw ex-fren with lumut. so. guess what i did. kaoz.. tt was by far, the stupidest and offest thing i've ever done!!! it diden even help matters! all i did was get to say hi. dah. ttz all.
wasn't a total loss. spent the 50 minutes i saved by taking train instead of bus doing more econs kat bawah block.
interesting point of the day: sya n me predicting us reminiscing next year, about what we were doing this year. haha.

heyya. so anyway, i was just putting on my slippers to go downstairs and study when my fone beeped. it was fana, who wanted to meet at around 1-plus at tampines to study. of cos i sed ok. i mean, i know i study better alone and everything, but itz always nice to meet a friend instead, and try to study. thatz what i think anyway.
so we were at bk, and fana was telling me about her dream, and then she mentioned deedee, and i suddenly felt this compelling need to turn around and look outside, and i was like, eh, is tt deedee? and i looked closer and it was!!! so i told fana and we started like, waving our arms about and mildly screaming, "dee! deedee!" or smthg dumb liddat. due to her blindness, we did that for some time before she finally waved back and came to join us inside. wow it was a whole 410 reunion or smthg to me.. so we talked and studied and all tt and it was really cool, i diden expect all this to happen on a boring old sunday.
on another upside, i finished a whole topic of econs today.. haha.. and did an essay outline. was supposed to do two, but nevermind. decided to give myself a discount. and speaking of discounts, has anyone else seen the 13% price cuts at petrol stations? it is SO econs!!! and there are all these thingies tt totally remind me of econs.. i dunno if itz just me, or maybe everyone else jumped on the economic theory bandwagon too..
well.. i shd go now.. tata!

evening, all! today was a terrific day. really. but itz gonna be a looooong entry cos i'm gonna give a blow-by-blow account of it.. haha. btw i'm watching ali setan now. itz kinda cute and sweet ah, but itz not THAT great, ili!!! i mean, itz still very kekok at some parts.. at this point, do they like each other or not? rather, do they KNOW they like each other?
hm the day proceeded as usual for the morning part.. sat rite across the aisle from OM, who is still cute, and getting cuter. ha. then.. hm. i dun remember, so i guess tt means nothing much.. all the way up till... PE? hehe i watched OM floorball-passing for about 5-10 minutes.. then watched him walk out.. then we had floorball.. which wasn't as action-packed.. the amount of action is damn low now, and decreasing with every lesson. ohwell. at least i diden tire myself out? not sure if ttz a good thing or not. then decided to kill time by watching the class weekly game.. and i was just sitting there with gill when mondo-adorable OM came walking by, alone, with his equally adorable towel.. hehe. he was looking for his frens, who obviously weren't there. so he just ended up walking one big round, and *I* ended up watching him walk the big round. that was dumb. but fun!
anyway then met fana and went to bishan. bishan, where we discovered this pushcart selling hair rubberbands, cekaks in every colour imaginable [better and cooler than mine!], aaaaand... [this is the best, wait for it]...earstuds!!!! the colourful kinds that i wanted to get!!! and alphabets too, lyke i wanted to get!!! so i bought 3 letters and one flower stud. and then i got 4 hair rubberbands too. it cost.. erm.. 7.8 bucks. yes yes i know, wasting money again. i only have so many earholes rite? but i couldn't help it. the letters were too tempting.. haha. anyway then we decided to go bk far east.. and we met fadly awaludin there!!! he's sooo cute! haha. of cos, my fone cam came to the rescue again. wahahha. so anyway after eating we had to go home cos fana had ngaji or smthg ah. and i was supposed to be watching this i-can't-decide-if-itz-good-or-bad movie, so yah.
took the train home cos i was TOO tired. i think smthg is super-wrong with me. i get tired really easily these days. my leg was aching again, after just walking to bishan stadium and back. so yes, i took the train. acherli i wanted to train back to bishan and take 53, but the train was full so decided to go directly home. so.. took the train, got off at raffles place and changed. got a seat at the 2-people-corner when this man got off at city hall, and plopped my ass down without caring who came in. then i happened to look to my right [i was sitting with the glass pane to my right] and i saw this familiar mambo bag with a red wiffle ball hanging on it from a carabina, and i was like, WOH! and scrambled to have a look at his face. [i knew it was HL guy's bag.] malangnya, there was a stupid man leaning on the pane and i couldn't see the guyz face, only the bag. and then the train slowly cleared, and there was a little space where i cld see him. but his back was to me, so ttz all i cld see.. and his hair was very unHL-guy.. then a couple of stops later, i turned to look at him again, and he just turned to look at me at the same time! aaahhh! and it was him! he looked even cuter than i last remembered.. and i almost fainted and buried my face in the new paper again. but i kept on glancing, i couldn't help it! he also cut his hair, and it looks neat and adorable. itz no longer as mangkuk-ky, but itz still floppy, thank God. people continued clearing the train, and HL guy continued to glance at me, while talking to his completely-obscured-by-the-stupid-man friend. then we reached eunos and the train really cleared. the man got lost, and i saw adam emerge from behind him. i almost fainted [again]. and adam sed bye to HL guy and got off. then HL guy leaned on the pane [!!!!] and listened to his discman or watever.. and kept fidgeting about his position.. so kiiiuuuttt!!! he was wearing berms and a tshirt and shoes.. think he went out with adam today. wowz.. adam was wearing glasses, ttz all i rem.. anyway HL guy got off at tanah merah [hello! now WHY did i move from there again?!?!?].. and i think he and adam think i lyke adam.. but not him.. haiz. i mean, everyone lykes adam. but i'm sure not alotta ppl like HL guy! you know, like chu bang in jj.. haiz. takpe. i'm just feeling really wowed tt i got to see adam and HL guy in the most unlikely place, at the most unlikely time..
and now itz raining. thunderingly too! thunder rumbles, lightning streaks for miles--unknowingly, i begin to smile. goodnight babes. love y'all!

harloez! on the laptop again, meaning no clippie, of cos.. i just wasted one good hour collaging my new test pad. haha. itz now my favourite colour--pinkpurpleorange. veh veh nice, if i do say so myself. but seriously, itz nice. pity the white glue keduts the cardboard. wish i cld find a better way to preserve the glossiness of the collage. ohwell. anyway, itz really nice, check it out k? itz even better than the red-themed one. haha. and acherli the pink on it is abit too much, but i realised tt women's magazines feature alot, and i mean ALOT, of pink stuff.
ok that was just some mindless info, time for more. decided not to pon next wed, itz too leceh arh. i mean, i need to produce another parent's letter? no thanks. too much trouble for me. hm. ohyah today was like, the worst day of my life or something. i thot i'd be all well-rested after a nice children's day but nooo! OM wasn't here. ex-fren wasn't here. SYA'S FREN wasn't here. like, helLO! that is just too too mean. seriously. so i was grumpy the whole day ah. i mean, it is really painful to see lumut bouncing around [with tt really cool 3d bag] and knowing that ex-fren's eeky voice is NOT gonna reach your ears after tt. or seeing setan strolling around skl and hating his toiletbrush hair even more cos OM's not around. aiyah. it was just bullshit ah. even decaf wasn't around. who was? latte, acherli. haha. but latte doesn't work alone. he has to be taken with others, i just realised today. so like when econs lec came i acherli screamed in shocked surprise. sigh.
you know what? i hate the train. i hate people who try to squeeze in, insisting tt us big-bagged ppl should move to the centre of the carriage. itz like, relek ah! take the next train, why don't you? make life easier for all of us. sheesh. i just want a mode of transport with elbow room for me and my bag. i don't care how low the frequency is, as long as i can move around freely without my stupid bag on my lap. sheesh. whatever, man.
today during impromptu/spontaneous/lastmin mac's lunch we were talking about the sweater theory. hahah. i really think itz a great theory. will be even greater in practice. and the ain's twin brother theory. thatz even cooler. i kan just take any of his sweaters. or steal one of his friends' [who will be my friends anyway]. sadly, these theories will never be put into practice, although not by our choice.
oh but guess what? remember i sed my brother was a skater, and is now gonna be a biker? i think he cld possibly be a breaker too! i was just passing my COMP just now [which he was using], and i just happened to glance at the screen, and i saw this heeeuuge picture [obviously from a digicam] of a guy in a breakdancing pose. so my eyes did a little zoom-in, and it was my brother!!! i almost fainted there. but i just pretended it diden affect me at all. but it did, it did! it was one of those cool gravity-defying poses, see. so like yah! maybe he is a breaker too! alrite! keep it up, bro! [see, if you went to RI as you wanted to, you'd definitely not be this cool. {no offence, but you don't hear of RI breakers, bikers, or skaters rite? haha.}]
well enuff crapping. i'm gonna do ringkasan now, followed by some surfing around. haha. yes i know, stop procrastinating, rite?
later.

assalamu'alaikum. i am shitass sleepy man! i dun get it! i woke up at *ahem* nine and everything! i watched kelly's dream club, which was really cute [and i love chelsie]. and i just rested alot, basically.
anyway i was at the bp store outside jj and paying for my stuff when the cashier asked me, "any petrol?" i was really dazed then, acherli, cos i was soopa hungry. but when i came to my senses, i was kwite flattered. haha. i look old enough to drive? i look well-off enough to own a car? amazing! really lifted my spirits there. haha.
also found out that fana n diana know the jj guy i keep seeing at buona vista. he was just sitting there, like 4 metres away. completely distracting. but you know what? the more i go to jj, the more convinced i am that itz a really great school. there were just tons of wooden benches-and-tables around, EMPTY, i might add, with lots of wind and stuff. the school was empty. the benches were clean. sigh. rj cld never be like that. thatz why i've never studied in skl. tell me why you like to study in skl, sya's fren. [and while you're at it, tell me if you dyed your hair. what colour is it?] also saw chu bang, finally. he is really cute. as in cute cute. tall with rosy cheeks and very baik face. i lurve rosy cheeks. damn cute.
haha. unfortunately, all i have to show for today are 2 completed chem exercises. damn.

ohman! just read ili's blog! i'm so sorry babe! and to denise and all! to the other 8 people who turned up! did not know my pw group was THAT slack!

hey y'all! having a happy children's day?
i just had THE most unsettling dream ever. and i woke up with a horrible cramp in my left leg. it still hurts now. anyway the dream was about ex-fren, so i just HAD to write it down somewhere.
i think we were in school or somewhere school-like. there was a bunch of us in a ts-like place, having a lesson or a briefing or smthg. all the friends were there, including toot and non-. and they were sitting in the front row while we sat in the back. acherli it was basically a select combination of both our classes. anyway then ex-fren got up and went out ah. and i was like, "waddehell where did he go?" and then sya's fren turned round to us and told us that ex-fren had a performance in another ts. so i like, dashed out, with everyone's eyes on me, and barged into the said ts. and he was like, 25% through his performance ah. and everyone stared at me, but i eksyened bodoh and sat down to watch. and he was singing AND playing. alone. solo. he was totally absorbed so he diden see me until it was over. and get this. he sounded really nice. he had a really nice, on-pitch voice, which sounded totally unlike his normal speaking voice. [kinda like ziana zain rite?] anyway then he was done and he looked up and smiled at me. and he sat down next to me, and then *I* had to sing!!! it was a nightmare! [a nightmare within a dream? haha.] but he was like, smiling all the way. and when it was over, he congratulated me and shouted something as i walked out the door. dunno wat, then later i was walking with a classmate of theirs, and then we met him, and he started like, praising me or sum shit.
arrghh. yes what a stupid dream.