man i am so sorry that it's been so long.. it's juz... i kinda saw marie 3 times this week... and i was occupied with writing accounts of it in TOD... so yarh... im terribly sorry... now my mom is bisinging so i hafta go. tmr's netball carn. hope it's nice. bye

1. well, today was the emaths mock.. i totally died.. especially after realising that i couldn't find my maths set.. anyway, luckily adeline acherli bothered to go downstairs and help me ask around for one.. and i got one.. so yeah.. it was totally shitty.. i mean, i couldn't do speed-time graph in paper 1!!! well, that's cos i din study, i guess, but still.. so i din finish that question.. and for paper 2, as usual, i couldn't finish the stupid graph question.. haha.. and erm.. for loci, my incircle did NOT fit inside the triangle. i died. and... well, i skipped a couple of questions for paper 2 also!!! i am so gonna die..! i hope i pass, at least.. and i hope i'm not being.. whatevered by thinking i can pass..
2. today was also the first day of comm service for me and fana.. this year.. we went to darul ihsan.. it was.. oklah.. it was nice and clean and organised.. and even though the kids were.. well, like all kids are.. i was ok.. i think.. haha... sum of them were so cute and adorable.. unfortunately we got to teach boys.. but i think it's better than girls.. cos gerls have a tendency to be bitches.. but little gerls are juz nice and cute larh.. hmm.. yeah.. i wouldn't say i had fun, but it sure was an experience to learn from.
-amin-

went to escape theme park just now. it was nice. i went on:
1. the revolutioner.. or sum shit liddat.. which spun around and the cars that we were in would swing around, up to 360 degrees.. i screamed like siao.. i was sitting with baba, thank god.. and fana sat alone, in the car next to us.. when the ride started, baba and i screamed "fana!!! fana!!!" almost in unison... for about 2 rounds [spins?].. den i switched to "firdaus!! fir!!" while baba switched to you-know-who.. man it was just freaky.. and when it was over, my teeth were lyke, about to fall out, or at least that's what it felt like.
2. we decided to go on a "tamer" ride... sum rollercoaster thingy.. which wasn't too high or anything.. so this time i had to sit alone, right in front, while baba sat with fana.. sumwhere in the back.. it was... not too scary... but i screamed anyway, for about 2 secs, den the ppl behind me were like,"wahlau!" so i shut up..
3. wet and wild. it was reallly cool.. even though we had to stand in line for about an hour or so.. i sat in front, in front of baba, and fana sat at the back.. it was damn cool.. i had lotsa fun.. it had 2 slides, a relatively short one, and a muuuuch higher one.. it was cool.. too bad i din get wet enuff... but it was just reaaaallly fun... it was my favourite ride..
4. the viking. lyke all vikings go, this was ok.. not overly exciting.. but still fun... for the first few minutes i screamed lyke crazy.. we were sitting right in the middle, btw.. thank god for that.. anyway i screamed while looking at this pretty girl in front of me.. then i saw this gross lim.. who looks like sipei plus jack, and she middle-fingered her fren, who was sitting behind us, so i got annoyed.. then i decided to shut up.. and instead, enjoyed the wind and i even managed to raise my arms!!! woohoo!!!
5. daytona go-kart.. it was amazing. i swear, that's the only word to describe it. i got into kart number 25.. and we got to go 3 rounds round the track.. it was just soooo cool... i felt lyke i was in an open-topped car or something.. but this was cooler.. it was like being on a racetrack.. and the wind in my hair.. wow... it was really really really cool.. waaaay cool..
6. some stupid mysterious ride in a big enclosed place.. we thought it was a stimulator.. but noooo.. it turned out to be a rollercoaster in the dark.. but with individual cars.. in the end i chickened out.. and went back out.. where i saw those 3 guys.. the malay-but-not-malay vs guys.. hehe.. botak, tribal and omar..
hmm.. interesting people? there was..the playful cute scaredy-cat lim, the liddle yellow cute boy, that mercedes benz-shorts viknesh, the harley davidson guy on the viking, the gerls from Itik Taik Enak and of cos, my favourite, botak, tribal and omar..!
ok then, goodbye for now..

hi.it's been some time... a few more days to the new term and 70% of my work has yet to be completed. that doesn't even begin to cover the non-revision i've been doing this past month. i've never known anyone as un-serious as i. plus, tomorrow is emaths mock exam.. and saturday is amaths mock exam.. have i studied? dumb question. of course not. don't get me wrong. i'm not confident that i'm so smart i'll ace the tests, it's just... well. i'm so lazy, i can't even tell myself that i'm lazy. so nothing ever gets done. all i can hope for is that my memory will not fail me and help me through these 2 tests.. plus the prelims. plus the o's...
bye now.

1. hm i had...school today... and erm.. nothing else besides that.. ohyeah i had cheerleading too... after that i went for lunch.. and after THAT i went to popular with fana.. and we found this book.. "butch and girl talk".. so we picked it up. and read it. it had no author's name, just "SABARIAH" printed on the back, just like that, in capitals. mann.. there were about a thousand typos, misinformation and some grammatical mistakes located sporadically around the book.. most of the stories were like, 3 pages long.. and i din really see the purpose of the entire book.. hmm..
2. i din write about yesterday, did i? sorry bout that. let's see... i had a truly interesting day yesterday.. well.. not really interesting.. but fun.. i wanted to play the sims.. it's been pretty long.. but my comp was like, spoilt.. now it's ok, juz for the record.. so yesterday afternoon i used the cd-rom drive-less laptop.. and i went online.. i wanted to play online wheel of fortune.. but didn't.. instead, i went to ivillage and played with the online makeover thingy.. it was really cool... i mean lyke, yarh.. i did other people's faces and hair.. then i did my own.. and it was just damn freaking fun and cool.. i played for lyke, 3-4hrs.. haha yeah i know im nuts.. oohyeah here are the pics..
hm dis was supposed to be me with a cameron diaz hairstyle, btw.. haha
aaaand... both were supposed to have different coloured eyes.. -sigh- well nvm.. it's a new look anywayz..

1. boring day.. very very very boring. i hate not having no one to go out with. once again, i wish i had sum inflatable friend to go out with me.. juz to haf fun... but.. not gonna happen larh. the person who invents that, pls contact me first for a test run.
2. i played online wheel of fortune just now.. damn farn!!! im not excellent at it or anything, but i did win at least ten thousand bucks... in about... 5-8 games.. hahah.. well, it eased boredom, to say the least..
3. im fresh from watching 3 men and a little lady... cool.. hehe... the gerl's really cute too.. but i love the hse the most... it's soooo cool... i mean the hse in new york, btw... it's so open, fresh and friendly.. totally unlike the london one... haha.. creepy..
well.. i shd go..tata...

1. had cheerleading prac today.. kwite ok, 'cept for her. i lurve to dance, as yu know.. and plus, we all got "skirts".. the bimbo one from rgs nite.. nice.. but kinda short.. plus kim made us matching scrunchies.. kool rite? ermm.. ohyarh forgot to mention, the skirt's pink. she is so dumb. i know she's trying to be a girl, but juz cos yu're all peenky does not necessarily make yu a gerl. yu gotta be one from inside. so there.
2. umm. i was studying at joanna phua with fana.. today, after cheerleading, i mean.. and we were juz studying, not bothering anyone.. and then this guy [around 25-30 yrs] came up to us... with 2 liddle kids, one boy one gerl.. and he gave us one flier each. about sum "youth gathering" thingy at this gospel church at newton.. HELLO!!! how dare he try and convert us to Christians [Christianity?]! we were obviously muslims, and he knew that. so did the 2 kids.. they looked pretty uneasy when he was talking to us. i mean, even kids know how totally wrong it is to try and fool brainless teens into changing religion... he's psychotic, he really is.. so i was really angry. angry and very very very skared. he asked us,"so kan yu make it tonight? 7pm?" and fana totally refused to look at him, so i had to say no, we couldn't. and he asked if we could make it tmr and so i had to repeat pretty much the same answer. so he sed we were free to drop by anytime... -shudders- the moment he was gone, fana crumpled up the flier [with a map to the church on the back, btw].. and i just stuffed it somewhere out of sight. people like that should have the heart not to prey on adolescents, teenagers and the like. and they shd just be sent to jail for violating that strict social code of conduct. which, i might add, the kids knew by heart.
3. finished rereading to kill a mockingbird today. i haf a better understanding now. i'll put in my favourite part sum other time k?
bye.

im back. din take very long, did it? well, sorry. juz feel abit pissed with, erm, her. yu know... her. she's pretty irritating, y'know. when she's in a bad mood, she acherli looks for ppl to take it out on. when im in a bad mood i shy away from ppl.. or i shut up, at least. not full frontal attack. she's such a shit. sigh. as if im not, rite? i know, i know.. well. im sorry. i shd go now. bye.

1. azri's liddle boy fren kalled me this evening. i was so skared to pick it up, thot it was hairi or smthg.. well, i was close, wasn't i? anyway, i picked it up, and he sed,"ello, boleh ckp ngan kak farha?" lyke, in a really childish voice arh, konon... i took some time to digest it, then i knew it was him. he asked me if baba was dere.. like, hello! what wld baba be doing with me at 7 in the evening? that's juz psychotic and dumb. so i told him, she wasn't with me, and he asked me where she was.. and i knew she told them tt she's in kl now, but i din feel lyke lying, so i juz sed i din noe..
2. i finished my amaths... are yu proud of me? [waitaminit, who am i talking to???] haha.. anyway when i was finished with the [unassigned] assignments, i did the class work... then i was happy till i discovered that i haven't done the sec 3 revision stack she gave us years ago... plus, i lost the answer shit... dammit.. ohwell.. i shall try it tmr, dun worry...
till next time!

i juz d/led a new song. well, it's not new.. i think.. but i recently heard it... and i thought it was nice... sad, too... but lovely.
Just A Friend
Too Phat

check have you ever met a girl
that you thought was perfect
you waited for her years
coz you know she worth it
here's a lil story bout this girl i knew
since way back in preschool
sometime in '82
she had 'em two pony tail and a front tooth missing
with freckles on her cheeks cause her mom's caucasian.
up on the tree house is where we chilled together
with carvings on the trunk saying friends for eva
she the type who laugh when they normally cried
and when they busy playin' house
we playin' bonnie and clyde
in grade school everybody knew we partners in crime
we usta bully kids in playground like all the time
we always seen holdin' hands to the principal's office
the naughtiest in town and could no other kids stop us
in highschool she switched her desk next to mine
so we could cheat while doing pop quizzes all the time
14th of february '93
jenny said she had a big surprise for me
gave me the very first kiss and plus a ring and a card
and said "i love you"
so i gave her the rest of my heart
a couple weeks later called her house at 10
the mama said i thought you suppose to be with jen
i quickly rushed to her crib
she just got out of a van
i'm like yo who was dat? oh he's just a friend

(chorus)
you,you got what i need
but you said he's just a friend
but you said he's just a friend

so i took jenny's word for it,at this time
i thought just havin' a friend couldn't be no crime
coz even i had friends and baby that's for sure
just like watson, hailee, baby tash and joe
so we never talk 'bout the late snack with van man
we rather talk about the future we had planned
and what to name our kids al-tarique or syamar
ayeesha or tisha for a girl and
maybe even bring our kids to the little tree house that we chilled at
but then in '94 i couldn't help but to feel sad
little jenny had to leave me to go get a little knowledge
100 miles away in this place say they call college
first coupla months it was cool
but then it had changed yo
she never called and really acted like a strange ho
one day i called, it was picked up by a man
i called again she picked it up and said
hey thats just a friend

bridge
[V.E]
You know, I know what you have been up to
I know you know what you have been up to

This guy in her study group's the one who picked up the call
Helpin' her in chemistry wit cyclohexanol
I got curious and asked her who else in ya team ?
She said Ali, Hassan, Noreen and Kareem
The next day I thought of givin' her a little surprise
But when in front of Jenny's dorm I couldn't believe my eyes
I saw the same ugly van i saw in '93
I found her room but guess what a brother had to see ?
A fella half naked wit' my gurl on the couch
And baby Jenny moaning, uggh uggh aggh and ouch
So please listen to the message that I sing
Don't ever talk to a gurl who says she just has a friend

(repeat chorus)

A lil' casanova pimp, man I had my flings
Hoodrats to goodie hoodies I was lil' playa king
I'll tell ya when my final year in '96
This hunny new in skool joined my class she really sic
She made her pinafore look like a dress from Rodeo,
And clean white shoes lookin' Ferra than Gamo's
And white blouse seemed whiter than everybody else's
Just like them ads on tv man this hunny was the nicest
I had to step to up my game I told her my name
She said her name was Wanda I found out
Thatt we lived in the same street she moved 5 block down
And after 3 dates and 6 banana splits I had it locked down
We was tight but had this lil' problem though
coz Wanda always acted funny when wit Mary Joe
But when I caught 'em kissin it wasn't funny no more
Baby smiled and just said she just a friend yo...

you, you got what i need..
but you said she's just a friend
but you said she's just a friend..

lately
divine

lately [i've been watching you]
been thinking bout u baby..[and everything u do...]
i'm just sitting away, watching the days go by...

have yu ever felt a breeze hit yur heart
lyke the wind was tearing it apart
as yu're spinning lyke a merry-go-round
indications of a storm touching down
wish that i can weather any storm
but i guess it was a hard break from the norm
was a day i will always remember
the saddest day in sweet november..

-chorus-

baby i'm on my knees
praying God help me please
bring my baby back
right back to me...
if loving you is right
then i duwanna go wrong
so i drown myself with tears
sitting here
singing another sad love song...

-chorus-

baby i've been torn apart
i wish you hadn't broke my heart
i'm missing you babe
missing yu everyday...
baby i've been torn apart
i wish yu hadn't broke my heart
i'm missing you babe
missing you everyday...

1. baba is having a fever. must be from going in and out of the rain so much. yesterday, i mean. but i was subjected to the same conditions, wasn't i? yet... im not afflicted with fever... lyke i told her, it must be protection from the subject of my aforementioned dream... he hasn't been coming online... not at the times tt i come online, anyway... haiz.. miss him... but what to do.... can't force him or anything..
2. i love the rain. i really do. i dun mean to sound like Heeroyuy ["i love the rain...the sound..the smell.."], but i do... it's so lovely... and no, i don't love the smell of the rain.. i lyke the feel of it... it's just so nice... and so... relaxing... therapeutic, in a way... yesterday i watched ally mcbeal... and it was raining soooper heavily... so during the ad breaks i went to the balcony, sat on the computer chair with my sun, and placed myself right infront of the window grilles, in the way of the rain.. so it hit my face.. hair... and even my sun... and it was so lovely.. and the mosquitoes were feasting on me.. but all i could think about was how much i loved the rain... and how, at that moment i felt like i was totally at peace with the world.. totally problem-free... what a nice feeling... i love the rain.

i shall do this in an orderly fashion.
1. i had a shitty time on the "date". fortunately, one of the band guys was kinda cute.. rizal is his name. and he's really nice. he's lyke marie, doesn't smile much.. but when he does... wow.. it's really...captivating... he's also a non-drugs, non-smoking, and non-sex guy... [the first and third "non"s were on badges on his bag..]
2. i talked to baba abt ******... i sed that juz because he's nice and all does not mean he's looking for a zubaidah. i mean, baba and i are nuts, but we're not interested in nuts... we're interested in sotong and *ahem* respectively... and that even though she kan't imagine herself with him does not mean that it can't happen. hehehe... i mean, God is unimaginable, but He exists, doesn't he?
3. dreamt abt *ahem* last night. lovely dream. i swear it's a sign to warn or protect me from 1.
haha well.. bye now.

hey this is supposedly my lucky charm... prompted me to search the whole country for it.. yet i din find it.. so please.. if yu find it.. get me one, huh? either for no special reason.. or for my birthday... that's 20 december.. that's right, 20 december..!
hehe. anyway that was just to distract me, if not all the rest of yu.. nolah today lyke sum guy i haven't even met before asked me out.. sort of... and i kinda din noe wat to say... so lyke... i dunnolah, in the end i sed yes cos i felt so.... half-guilty and stuff. and when i sed yes, he kinda lyke, screamed... in joy. he was really happy. and i really din noe how to react cos seriously, no guy has ever liked me before. especially not to that extent...! so lyke...i really din noe wat to do... and now i feel lyke i've done one hell of a stupid thing... arghzzz... please let me get out of this safe and sound... he's kinda like, older than me somemore...!!! yeurghz.. dun get me wrong, i dun hate him... but still. not all guys these days r as nice as hirman or firdaus or raihan... so lyke yarh.. i hope i din do that stupid a thing...

heyy!!! why is the stupid time stamping screwed??? -cries-

i was shittified.
then i was happy.
now im shittified all over again.
nevertheless...

umm...testing..one, two, three..